Date: Wed, 12 Sep 2007 12:34:56 +0100 From: Big_L X Subject: striking back at the ex I'm back writing again I went off the rails but I'm back on track and know where my heart so tell me what you think. "No way," I hear Nikki say. "Yes way, Coca-Cola, and damn she fine and thick too," Zee replied. "I'm going get me some of that," she said winking at Nikki then leaving. "What was that all about," I asked Nikki. "Well ma fellow stud, we got a new honey straight out from the hood that's just moved here her name is El and damn she Fyn," Nikki told me. My ears started ringing could it be my El my actual El the one I let slip, could God be giving me a second chance I had to go see for myself. I rushed to the court Benches and saw Zee speaking to a gurl who wore a red hooded shirt which showed off her figure, I moved closer and I was sure it was El; she always wore a Jamaica necklace on her neck. "Hey," I said walking up to them, I was nervous like fuck. El turned around and immediately she saw me her express changed from a smile to her all out attitude look. She jumped of the bench and turned to face me. "How's Kay did she enjoy the ride," she said in a very cold voice "Boo..." "Whoa! Hey! Stop there right there, no way in hell am I your boo okay I'm moving on try it okay," she said. Then she turned to Zee who was looking very amused, and smiled. "Call me," she said taking Zee's hand and writing digits before turning to leave. I turned to Zee who was watching El walk away. "That's mine stay away," I said to her pointing in El's direction. "Umm... whatever I'm the one with the digits and she made it pretty clear she wanted me not you dawg so uh buh bye," she replied walking away and smiling to herself. That didn't bother me; El never could resist a kiss from me before lets see how far she's moved on. My heart was still beating hard I was a nervous wreck but I think I pulled it off I was moving on and she was still suck on me goes to show huh. I went to the bathroom to calm down; I couldn't be like this on my first day, on my first day so much drama. I let out a sigh then I heard the door close and I turned around. Tashan was standing with a lean, wearing baggy pants with hands in her pocket and smiling at me. I couldn't believe how sexy she was but so was Zee. "What the fuck was that about," she said stepping up to me, "You think that was funny," she said stepping closer to me making me back up into the wall, her being so close was not allowing me to think. "Back up," I stuttered I couldn't control my breathing this couldn't be happening to me it took me 3 months to get over her, this could NOT be happening to me. I felt her hand wrap around me and grab my ass to pull me into her, I put my hand on her chest to push her away but she just leant forward and kissed me her lips soft like always just making my head spin, then she pressed her tongue against my lips and I opened my mouth then I started to kiss her back, she lifted me up and put me up on the sink top, I felt her hand crawling under my top and it felt like electricity was sparking me, it was getting really steaming then the bell rang and I shoved her of me and rushed out the bathroom and I was sure that I looked a mess tears were running down my face I couldn't believe what had happened I was running then I bumped into someone and fell straight to the floor. I quickly got up trying to cover my face but the person hands were on me I looked and I saw Zee looking down at me very angrily. "Who did this to you?" she asked. I looked up at her scared like shit, I tried to walk past her but she just blocked my path and pulled me into her arms and hugged me "Don't be scared, I've got you," she said in my ear. I just closed my eyes and enjoyed it. "You going tell me what happened," she asked me as we sat down in the cafeteria. "No," I simply replied. "Look I really like you so, have we got something happening or am I just wasting my time," "Look I like you too but right now I'm confused," I said getting up and walking away, I needed a quiet place to think. I went straight to the library, it was the quietest place I could think of, I sat down and rested my head on the table I had the worst headache in history of headaches, I'm the kind of gurl who cant get enough of gurls but right now I had enough of gurls. "Hey, boo," I heard a voice that was about to drive me crazy. I looked up and so Tashan sitting in front of me smiling at me. "For the last time I'm not your boo," I growled. "You weren't saying that this morning in the bathroom, lemme think what was it you were saying or should I say moaning," she laughed. "Shut up Tashan," I whispered, remembering we were in the library. "Make meee," she giggled. She was driving me crazy. "Fuck you," I replied. "Oh so that's it, usually you would drag me somewhere private and do very freaky thangs to me," she said whispering the last bit in my ear. I couldn't take it I just got up rapidly, and then I felt hands on me dragging me down into her lap holding me tight. "Let go of me," I whispered. "Come on don't make a scene, look boo I'm sorry about in the bathroom, wait I'm not so sorry about the making out bit but I'm sorry about upsetting, I hate to see you cry," she said in a very sincere voice. "It's okay, now let go of me," I said. "That don't mean I'm not going to stop trying to get ma good thang back," she said finally letting go of me. With that I rushed outta the library and went to my next class and went through rest of the week avoiding both Zee and Tashan. Iyt its Monday I aint seen that gurl all last week it's like she's gone into hiding or suttin. My goal was to find her she couldn't hide for long. Lunch came and I was looking for her and there she was sitting in an empty classroom listening to music probably gold digga since I knew that was her favourite song. I walked in and closed the door behind me and sat on her desk, she looked up at me like she'd seen death. She quickly grabbed her bag ready to leave; I rushed to the front of the door before she could get to it. "Move," she said. "Okay," I said moving but catching her arm and dragging her to sit on ma lap. "Not this again what the fuck do you want," she growled. "You, 3 months cold turkey, you are what I need what I want," she said. "Wateva," she replied, and she just sat there on my lap looking blankly," I looked at her and her eyes had gone distant and I knew she was thinking, I didn't want her to think she's just gonna get mad remembering about the biggest mistake I ever made. I pulled head toward my lips and kissed her, I felt her struggling, but I just kissed harder then when she relaxed I pulled her other leg on top of me so he was facing me, then she wrapped her arms around my neck, stroking the back of my neck like she always did driving me up the wall, making me want her more. I slipped ma hand under her search and when my hand made contact she moaned in my mouth sending vibrations down my body. She came up for breath and when I looked in her eyes I saw all the lust. "This is so wrong," she sighed. "But it feels so right, right," I said before pulling her toward my lips again, my hand trailing up her shirt while we were still in lip lock. BANG!!! "What the fuck," I heard Zee yell. She stormed over to me and El who had rapidly gotten off me. Then she took El by the hand and was dragging her off, now this got to me so I jumped and took her other hand. "Man Tashan let her go by doing this you confusing her," Zee yelled at me. "So you telling me what you doing aint let ma baby go Now!" I yelled at her. Then I noticed El was crying and it was breaking me so I let go of her hand and hugged her. "Boo don't cry I'm sorry I wont do this again if the best thing for you is to let you go..." I was choking here trying not to cry. "Then I'll let you go, but I wont stop loving you," and with that I walked away. Waiting to fight for her another day. Yeah dats right dat all folks for now dis 1 goes out 2 the person I gave a lil chunk of my heart wen I let her go she know who she is. Well holla. Luv el xxx