Date: Thu, 12 Apr 2007 21:12:36 +0100 From: David Buxton Subject: Curiosity That's all it was curiosity, simply want and need to know, to know how she felt to see if she experienced the same things as me. I know I didn't do it in right way but by this point I was past rational thinking and acting on instinct. I had waited, waited so silently even holding my breath when she called my name, but still I stayed, waiting for my moment, a moment I thought might never come, but come it did and now I stood, stood for an age just waiting for my heart to stop trying to jump from my chest. Slowly ever so slowly I moved towards her so that I was within reach of my goal. She slept deeply and I knew that my actions would go unnoticed. Even slower now I moved again so that my hands gripped the bed sheets and in one fluid motion it was gone and she was there: All her perfections, all her beauty, all of her. I did not freeze or stare I had seen her naked body many times it was nothing new to me but the experience, the need to know if we were truly the same, that drove me on, power me forward. I felt like an explorer first landing on a new continent she had become the obligatory `X' on my treasure map. I was within sight of my goal and nothing would derail me, not now, not ever. I lowered myself to her and slowly swept my hands across her chest not staying in one area never applying pressure nothing I did would wake her, I was like thief leaving no trace of my crime - a crime that's what this was, a crime against... no don't think just act! Focus! - a light kiss as I passed her stomach was all there would be, until here until this place, my goal! It looked the same, every inch, every detail was there, unblemished by lines or hair, shaven clean - so beautiful. I was on my knees now inches from her I could feel the heat from her body. The heat increased as I edged closer. My arm outstretched, my hands clammy with sweat, my fingers feeling numb. Closer - what am I doing? - closer - this isn't right - closer - don't think, just act, focus - closer - X! My pale finger entered her for the first time and my heart stopped. It was the same, it felt like home, like mine, like nothing was different. I want to leave now to run to jump for joy and never mention it but my mind pushed on, forced me to remember why I was here, why I was doing this and what my goal was! My finger was joined by its twin and I slowly began to work, nothing quick or violent, nothing that would wake her. In and out, in and out nothing that would matter nothing that would wake her in and out - be silent don't breathe - in and out. The first squirm the first movement, I died : I swear I died right there every emotion ever felt erupted within me. - You've been found out, your done for, no! Wait! Look - It was just one little movement nothing more! I continue. It build from within her I can se it building just like me, building from within like a thunderstorm, nothing but energy colliding together get more stronger with each second - how long before she wakes? - it builds again, she moves again more than a squirm, a full rise of the body. The breathing is deep and fast - soon! - it builds again and this time sound a voice? A moan, a moan of pleasure, it build again - soon - my rate increases as does my heart - soon - in and out, in and out. Another moan and she rises again - is she still sleeping? - moan, squirm, moan - soon - in and out, in and out - soon - she rises again higher than before - soon - my fingers are choked from every side - soon - hip thrust - now! - X Curiosity lead me to this point, the want and need to know if she felt and did the same as me. Curiosity lead me to this point, the point of no return. A moan! No! A voice! "Do that again!" Curiosity lead me to this point - no going back -. "Are you sure?" Curiosity lead me to this, lead me to finger her, lead me to do it again when she asked me. "I love you!" Curiosity lead me to my sister.