Date: Mon, 20 Oct 2008 03:25:48 -0400 From: J. V. Subject: No can't be an answer No, can't be an answer. by J.V. You know there is the usual disclaimers. This is notepad people so the font may give you a headache... then if female/female relationships offend you turn back now!!! Since feedback is the basis of begining writes feel free to send me comments good or bad. Under 18 you know the deal, or if it is illegal in your state or province, either way. This is a series about sex and love. bear with me send all feedback to ciadow@live.com =] enjoy. "I loved you Nikki!" She muttered. So I turned around to look at her. She was crying, and I was dying inside knowing I had caused her so much pain. I never meant to, honestly I don't know how I did. She is my sister for god's sake. I looked up into the sky for some answer it was right for me to tell her. It was a clear day, blue skies, bright sun, not hot but pleasantly warm. Too many times have I heard her say "I hate you", but never had "I loved you" came out her mouth. She turned her head away from my eyes, as I tried to look inside for some truth and she walked back to her car with the little pride she had left. ~inside my mind, before this, before everything.~ I lived in a very conservative college town brought up as a Christian, homosexuality was wrong and the whole nine. I knew I had good looks; I was brought up to become a proper housewife and Christian mother. I was a straight A student. Light brown hair to my mid back. I am about 5'6" and 180 pounds. I have a 38 C breast. A smooth stomach down to my pussy with soft curly hair except my pussy lips which I learned shaved, gives you more feeling when my boyfriend roughly stuck his fingers there to "arouse" me. I tolerated it, so later I could fuck myself to a measly orgasm. I have dark brown eyes, and ivory colored skin. Well back to the story. I settled in my dorm early, thinking people weren't expected to come for a few days. But, the bed besides me was already covered and stuff on the nightstand. It was one big room with two beds, two desk, and two dressers. I rolled my shirts and pants and placed them into my drawer, a trick I learned that kept my clothes less wrinkled. Then made my bed, looked at the ceiling and hoped that my roommate wasn't attractive. I woke up around ten and went to the showers. I was pretty sure I was alone in the building which was a small house and had two floors. On the bottom were the living room, showers, and bathroom. With one bedroom I think was for one person. The second floor had three bedrooms each for two people. I walked in a towel with my clothes and things to the showers took off my towel, ready to take a shower when I stepped on the cold tiles and realized I forgot to bring my flip-flops barely putting my towel on heard someone come in and looked to see a girl also in a towel. Not caring or noticing I was there she took off her glasses, and towel put the water to run, when she dropped the towel I saw her back, and then she turned and noticed me, all I could do was stare, at her petite body. She squinted a little, and laughed. "Oh I'm sorry; I thought I was the only one here." She had a lean and sexy figure. I turned away flushed. "Um, I um, am Nikki." I laughed and went to shake her hand, when I remembered she was naked and stepped back, "sorry" I whispered, "Hi then well I'm going to take a shower, you too?" I laughed at the irony of the situation and took off my towel to hell with the flipflops and went into the shower. Turning on the water, I yelled out "DAMN!!!" She turned off the water and asked "Is something wrong? Are you ok?" "No, this water is fucking cold I yelled, jumping out of the shower to get away from the freezing pellets hitting me. Rubbing my shoulders I put the hot water all the way on, I think she said something but I didn't hear anything as she yelled yeah I forgot to tell you I learned this is the only shower with hot water in the morning. I'll be out in...now" she opened the curtain, and walked out to get her towel. "By the way I'm Rebecca... There you go", she smelled good like coconuts as she passed by me. I said" Thank you, Rebecca is it?" Reaching for the counter she answered "yup" smiled wiped her glasses put them on and finally looked at me. Now it was her chance to stare, a few seconds past but it felt like an hour as I hoped she like what she saw. It wasn't awkward but I went into the shower, and liked the hot water trickling down my body. ...Thinking about her... She had these mysterious hazel eyes. Silky soft skin, short, about 5'3", rich auburn colored hair thick and wavy a little below her shoulders, she wore frameless pink glasses and was about 128 lbs a 34b with a long button nose, flat tone stomach, a cute tight butt, and hardly any hair on her legs and arms with long slim fingers that were the very essence of femininity. My sister and I were both in college. We were one year apart. Meaning we were always together growing up, of course I was the more mature one, and she was the more outgoing. When I got to college, I was happy I would not have her breathing down my neck. I also figured out I would look into my feelings; I liked girls more then guys. I never fully came out though, just buried myself in notes and papers. Breaking up with my boyfriend of two months, before going to college was relief, as soon as I turned 18 I started going to gay clubs I told my mom I was taking a break from dating when she asked if I had a new boyfriend because in high school i was exchanging boyfriends every few months, until my parents gave up hope that I would have a stable relationship in high school and didn't want to meet my new boyfriends. And now they were worried that I didn't have one. Ever since I was in eighth grade I noticed that I looked at girls more then I would guys. I didn't know it was attraction. I thought it was envy, I would get warm inside if I knew a beautiful girl was around and tried to hide my feelings. But never had I gotten this wet with a guy. I knew I couldn't do anything about this feeling under my parents roof, but I gained this scholarship this was my money now, and I was going to date who I pleased I wasn't looking for a relationship, just some sex no strings attached. I had few attachments, but those I was willing to give my heart to they didn't want to go steady. In my old dorm my roommate was straight as a board I thought I had no hope with her, but one day after she broke up with her boyfriend she kissed me. That led to amazing sex and then she regretted it the next day, asking me to keep it quiet and I did until it was time to part ways, and now I have a new dorm, and new roommate who I hoped I wouldn't have any attraction to. Was she my roommate? I saw someone had there stuff already in my room. When I finished washing my hair and body, and got out wrapped the towel around my body and used the extra one for my hair. Walked up the stairs and opened the door, which I hadn't closed before, uh oh. This was bad; there she was laying on the bed her mp3 player blaring in her ears seemingly los tin thogught, or reading a book, i soon crossed that out as she turned to get up and saw me. I closed the door behind me and went to get my clothes, when she looked up and saw me. I looked at her with pure fear in my eyes. She almost looked confused, with concern in her eyes. "What's wrong? Did I scare you? I'm sorry, so you're my roommate, I wasn't here last night. She smiled and looked into my eyes for some confirmation of anything. "Oh, if it worries you I won't look at you get dressed, if that's what bothering you." "No, that doesn't worry me; I just didn't think you'd be my roommate that's cool. Well, were both women here..." "Haha yeah besides we've already seen each other already" She sat on her bed, looking at the clothes in my hand. "That's what you're going to wear?" Pointing at the shirt, panties and shorts I picked out. "Yeah I was thinking of just sleeping in." I answered rationally; I untied the towel on my hair letting it fall then shook it. Patted it dry then let go of the wrap around my body. I put on my shirt, letting her get a good look of my pussy and then my panties and shorts. She had on a pair of hip huggers and a tight red shirt, "Haha I wish I could do that but I have summer classes, see you later then?" Once I put on my clothes she gave me a kiss on the cheek walking out the door leaving me with thoughts running wild. That kiss went to my toes. Are friendly kisses supposed to do that? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- There is something about that girl, it's like we met before. When I walked into my dorm this morning I noticed a girl sleeping on the bed that has been empty for the summer. Unfortunately, I only saw her backside her face contorted by the pillow. I was at my girlfriend Samantha's house; No, not girlfriend as in girlfriend but as in girl friend. Let's get one thing straight. I am. I have a steady boyfriend named Josh. He's sweet and respectful; Chiseled abs, taekwondo body. I don't know if that's an accurate description but lets just say he's gay man hot and straight woman's fantasy of a lover. With straight light brown hair and dark penetrating brown eyes, he would make the perfect husband and create beautiful babies ha-ha. He was my first and only. I've been with him 3 years., Today in the shower got a very good look of another woman, I've looked before but I was in a trance when I saw her. She was what a real woman should be. Not skinny and not fat. Curves in the right places nipples to die for, wait why I am thinking this of another girl. Then she talked to me. Her voice was so hypnotic, not sure but definitely calming, a purr to it. I couldn't be sure if I was right until I put my glasses back on. And she was definitely my type. You know if I was...gay. I'm 21. And...and I don't know, she just looks like a person I can connect with. Yeah...connect with, I went back into the room, lie on the bed and put my mp3 to help me cover up my thoughts. I have plenty of gay friends, who have respected by not trying to come on to me, but sometimes I think what if. Oh shit I have a class. Since my music was blasting I didn't notice someone coming in. It was her. And she was in a towel. I sat up, trying to act normal. But truth is I felt no where near it. Her skin looks so smooth. I bet it was soft too. I tried to start a conversation, it was so stupid. "Hey that's what you're wearing?" I tried to get away so I kissed her cheek. And walked out saying I had a class; her cheek, my lips. I liked the way it felt. I think I lingered a little too long. I felt the heat rising in my cheeks as I pulled back, so I turned and left her there to get dressed before I saw her, Naked... again.