Date: Tue, 22 Jun 2004 21:10:02 EDT
From: NPhillydogg@aol.com
Subject: hermaphrodite/pt1

I'm hermaphrodite, that's a man born with a woman's genitalia.
For the first few year (until I was 8), my parents actually thought I was
a girl. It wasn't until I had an extensive medical exam (which they
insisted I have since I didn't look or act like a girl), that the doctors
finally get the gender correct, and told my parents that I was indeed a
boy. To say my parents were livid and confused would be an
understatement. My mother cried a lot, and my dad submerged himself in
his work, and I became an outcast... the family's secret. Our family
doctor suggested that we have few sessions with a psychiatrist friend of
his, to come to terms with what we were going through as a family. My dad
choose to uproot us and move instead, to some place where noone knew us
or my shameful secret.

Our new life was in a town called Springfield. There, I was placed back
into the public school system, this time as a boy. My new name was
Terrance, as opposed to Tracy, the name I was born with. Our family
doctor arranged me with an authorized note to the school's principle,
excusing me permanently form gym classes. The note explained that I had
asthma (which wasn't true), and would have a terrible time breathing if I
participated in any strenuous activities. I really didn't like lying
about my health, as I was very active and energetic, but at least I
wouldn't have to bare the embarrassment of having to strip down or shower
up in front of any of the other boys in class.

Over the next few years, I was able to develop friendships with some of
the guys from the neighborhood. Derrek Mason and his brother Nathan were
the first ones I befriended. The later years would bring Moses, Carlton,
and Leroy into the mix. We would usually play video games, or play basket
ball at the play ground, or just hang out over one another's house after
school. My parents were glad that my new life as a boy was developing
well, but often worried about my shameful secret getting out. I must
admit, there were a few close calls. I noticed whenever we all go
swimming, the other boys have prominent dick bulges poking out the front
of their swim shorts, especially if a pretty girl happens to breeze by.
Of course my crotch was flat. None of the guys seemed to notice, but I'm
a lot more careful to wear extremely baggy shorts with a tube sock stuck
down the front of my underwear to simulate a dick bulge from now on.
Other close calls include going to the rest rooms in school or the malls.
At school, I usually wait until class starts, then ask the teachers if I
could be excused for a bathroom break. But at the mall, I remember having
to go real bad, and heading for the mens room. Derreck decides he has to
go the same time I did, and followed me inside. I picked a urinal, and
Derreck picked the one right beside me. We both unzipped, and I saw
Derreck's dick point towards the bowl and start peeing. He glanced down
into my bowl, and I pushed my hips further up into the urinal as to hide
mines. "Scared to show your dick?" asked Dee, snickering. "It must be
small as shit" he added, embarrassing me further. Afterwards, he tucked
his dick back into his pants and zipped up. I zipped up too, then
followed him out without ever having the chance to pee. And to add insult
to injury, Derreck went back and told the other guys that I had a small
penis.

As the years passed by, our bodies began to mature and thicken. We got
taller, stronger, and more defined as young men. We took to hookying
school, hanging out either at one of our houses, or the park/playground
near the outskirts of town while we passed time smoking cigarettes and
goofing off. I was glad to have been accepted by my friends as just
another guy. I was happy that none of them knew my secret or suspected
anything funny about me, although Moses had often wondered how a boy with
severe asthma could run and jump so well outside school, but couldn't
participate in gym class in school.
I have to admit that I was really jealous... no, envious is the word, -of
my friends. Here I had always felt as if I had to pretend to be male by
acting tough and playing sports just as good as any of them could, but
they were the real thing because they had dicks. I always felt inferior
when it came to talking to females. By the age of 16, the guys were
really into girls. Both brothers Derreck and Nathan had girlfriends, as
did Moses, although none of them had scored yet when it came to getting
pussy. Whenever we were out, we would scope the area for girls. The
ironic thing was, I was very good at rapping to females and getting their
phone numbers (as I was one of the cutest boys of the group), but I knew
I couldn't go any further than just conversation with them. I mean, what
would happen once they realized I had the same thing between my legs that
they did? I recall even going as far as kissing one girl hot and heavy in
the back row of a movie theater while on a double date with Moses one
time. Moses had his hand up his girl's dress, fingering her pussy while
they sucked on eachother's tongues. The girl was rubbing the bulge of his
crotch, until his dick was practically standing straight up. I was
feeling the titties of the girl I was with, when she suddenly reached
down and started to rub my crotch, looking for my non-existing hardon. I
felt myself reaching a mild orgasm as my briefs began to get wet with my
juices. I immediately broke kissing, then announced that I had to go to
the restroom. The girl looked confused as I squeezed passed her, her
girlfriend -Monique, and Moses. I walked out the theater and made my way
downstairs to the restroom to collect myself, when Moses suddenly came
into the room.

"Yo, wussup man?" he asked, walking up to one of the urinals while
pulling out his dick. It was still semi hard after Monique had been
playing with it. I was completely amazed, it being the first time I'd
ever saw one hard before. "Crystal had me come down here to make sure you
okay." he added, pissing into the urinal. "She thinks you don't like her,
but I told her you do. You wouldn't be up there with your tongue all down
her throat if you didn't. Right?"

"uh... yeah." I answered, stealing peeks at his dick.
He caught me looking at it, then smiled. I watched him shake it, as to
drain the last piss drop from it.

"Why you lookin at my dick so hard?" he asked, turning towards me while
it flopped around outside his pants. "You like looking at my dick?" he
asked, stroking it in front of me. I was mesmerized, watching it start to
grow and thicken. "You gay, Terr'?" he asked, just as we heard the
mensroom door open. He quickly tucked his dick back into his pants and
zipped up before an older man came in to use the restroom. I'll never
forget the look in Moses' eyes when he shoved his dick back into his
pants.
The rest of the evening was spent with the four of us watching the movie
in silence. Moses with his arm draped around his girl's shoulders, and me
and Crystal sitting quietly side by side. We walked the girls home
afterwards, and Moses went home without another word to me. The next
morning while running late for school, I ran into the guys waiting for me
on the corner of my block.

"Hey, whats up fellas?" I asked, tossing my book bag over my shoulder.

"We ain't goin to school today." announced Nathan.
I noticed all the guys looking at me strangely. Moses was nowhere in
sight.

"No?" I asked, "What's up?"

"We goin down to the park." said Leroy, looking me up and down.

"What for?" I asked, checking my watch.

"To fuck around, what else?" said Nat.
Something about the situation seemed funny to me.

"I'd love to go fellas, but I have a math test in mrs Heck's class this
morning. I can't miss it. It's 50% of our grade this semester."

"Fuck mrs Heck,-" snapped Nat. "-she a prick tease anyway. We headin for
the park. C'mon." he insisted.

I followed as they all started walking down the block in the opposite
direction of school.
"Where's Moses?" I asked, wondering if he was upset about what happened
last night.

"He already left for school. We missed him." answered Derreck,
non-chalantly.
We walked down to the bus stop, then caught the 26 down to Prosper Park,
a large park ground that covered most of the east side of town. We
usually kept to the west side where the picnic grounds and lake were
where you could feed the ducks (if you're into such things), as it was
far off the road and we had less chance of running into any of our
parents that may be driving pass, or the police patrolling the park.

The five of us gathered out at the park in our usual place on one of the
picnic tables. The area was usually empty during this time of the
morning, except for the occasional jogger who may breeze by down by the
lake trail. We sat around smoking cigarettes and bussing on eachother,
when Moses suddenly came out of nowhere.

"Yo, sup yall?" he said.

"Yo niggah." smiled Nathan, slapping hands and doing the thug move half
hug. "What took you so long?"

"My mom drove me in school today, so I hadda wait inside until I saw her
drive off." explained Moses, silently saying "wussup" to the others.

"So, how'd that date go with Monique last night?" asked Derreck, not too
subtly. I was beginning to think this whole thing was a set up.
Especially after Moses began telling how I "punked out" making out with
Crystal, then went in to how I had been staring at his dick in the
mensroom.

"He was lookin at it like he wanted to suck on it, or something." he
insisted. "I'm startin to think he may be gay." he added, looking me in
the eye.

"Is that true, Terr?" asked Nathan, turning towards me.

"Fuck no!" I yelled in my deepest, sternest voice.

"You should've seen how he was lookin at it, man." said Moses. "I'm
serious, if I had asked, he'd've been on his knees sucking it."

"Fuck you Mo'." I said, hurt by his insults.

"No, fuck YOU Terry!" he shouted back, ready to fight.
Nathan held him back.

"Yo, ain't no need to come to blows." said Nat, standing between the two
of us. "That is, unless Terry here likes blowin..." he smiled.

"Fuck you too, Nat." I said, walking to another picnic table to sit by
myself.

"Ain't no need to get like that." said Nat, following me over. "If you
gay, we all kew with it. Right yall?" he asked the group. They all looked
around at eachother doubtful. "Fuck them niggah." added Nat, sitting down
beside me. "I ain't gonna look at you no different. Infact,-" he added,
draping his arm around my shoulder. "-if you are gay, I wouldn't mind
lettin you suck my dick sometime."

"What?" I asked, pulling away.

"I'm serious." he said, pulling me back into position. "What faggot don't
like suckin dick?" he asked. "And what niggah don't like his dick sucked?
We could kill two birds with one stone."

"But I ain't gay." I said, getting up from under his arm.

"So why was you lookin at Mo's dick so hard?" he asked.
I couldn't answer that.

"That motherfucker's gay." Derreck said. "I remember how he was checkin
out my dick in the bathroom too."

"Yo, I thought you said he had a little dick." recalled Carlton.

"He do." reassured Derreck. "That's probably why he likes lookin at all
ours."

"Is that true too Terr? You gotta lil' dick? That why you been lookin at
our dicks so much?" teased Nathan. I could feel tears starting to sting
my eyes. I knew I should've went straight to school.

"Tell em to pull it out!" yelled Leroy from the other table.

"Pull it out." said Nat. "Lets see it."

"Yall're all perverts." I said, ignoring their request.

"Well, I'll tell you what I heard..." entered Carlton, whom had been the
most silent of the five. "

"What you heard?" asked Derreck, igging Carl on.

"I heard my mom telling her girlfriend over the phone one day, that
Terrance's mom told her in a conversation once, that Terry ain't got no
dick."
I felt my heart sink.

The guys all looked around confused.
"Ain't got no dick?" repeated Leroy.

"That's what mom said." assured Carl. "Said he was one of those
afrodites, or something."

"Hermaphrodites." corrected Moses.

"What's that?" asked Nathan.

"That's when somebody's born one sex, but has the other sex's sex
organs." informed Mo.

"Ewww, that's nasty." said Le.

"How you know about that shit?" asked Nathan.

"I saw it on Murey, or Oprah, or something like that."

"So what she sayin? That Terry gotta pussy or something?" asked Le.

"That's what I got out of it." said Carlton.

"Why ain't you tell us this before?" asked Derreck.

"Cause I just thought it was all abunch of bullshit." admitted Carl.

"So show us your dick." commanded Nathan, much to my horror.

"What?"

"Show us your dick. If you got one." he added.
I saw all the guys looking, and wondering the same question.

"Fuck yall." I said, turning to go back home.

"Awe, naw. Your ass ain't goin nowhere til you show us your dick!" said
Nat, grabbing me by the back of my shirt.

"Get off of me!" I yelled, twisting and turning to break free.

"Yo, help me out yall..." Nat yelled.
I felt extra hands grabbing on to me. Derreck, Nat, and Mo dragged me
back over to the picnic table, laying me down on my back.

"Grab his legs!" someone yelled.

"Get his pants down!" came another order.
I felt someone fumbling with my waist band.

"Lemme go! Lemme go!" I screamed, tears falling from my eyes.

"Shut the fuck up!" came Nat.
I felt hands grip the edge of my waist band, then start to inch my pants
down over my hips. I tussled and fought harder.

"Hurry up!" yelled Derreck, loosing grip of my arms.

"I need a hand!" called Leroy. Carlton reached in, grabbing two fistfuls
of my jeans, and the two of them pulled my pants and underwear down off
my legs in one quick swift move. My rolled tube socks fell out onto the
ground beside the bench as my hairy crotch came into view instantly,
minus a dick.
I felt the hands on me loosen as the guys all stood back, shocked at my
lack of male appendage. I quickly covered my crotch with my hands, but
the damaged had already been done.

"Dayum... did you see that? That nicca ain't got no DICK!" said Le,
astonished

"Shit, what the fuck...!" responded Derreck, his mouth draped open.

"Yo, don't cover it." said Nathan, pulling my hands apart. "Yo, grab his
hand."
I felt Moses grab my other wrist. The two of them pulled my hands from my
privates, exposing my crotch again.

"Open your legs, bitch." ordered Nat. When I was slow to respond, Le and
Carlton grabbed me by my ankles and pulled them apart, exposing the slit
that had been my biggest shame. I cried aloud as my pussy was exposed for
the first time to someone other than my parents and my doctors.

"Look at that shit!" said Nat. "Looks just like real pussy."

"Where's his dick?" asked Derreck, looking completely turned off, and
eyeing me as if I were some freak.

"He ain't got one." informed Nat. "He that thing Mo called him... a
maphakit."

"Hermaphrodite. You idiot." laughed Moses, still holding my wrist.

"Whatevea. The mothafucker ain't got a dick. He gotta pussy. Like your
girlfriend do."

"That's some sick shit." judged Le, his eyes glued to my privates.
All of the guys were looking at it, some of them seeing a pussy for the
first time in their lives.

"He ain't nothin like my girl. She gotta REAL pussy. I don't know what
the fuck that shit is HE got between his legs." said Derreck, offended.

"It's REAL pussy." reasoned Nathan, reaching down between my legs. I felt
his fingers touch along the side of my pussy where the hair lay around
the lips. He pulled the skin back until he saw the lips part gently.
"Ain't like he got his dick cut off by some doctor or something. He was
born with it, just like your girl was."

"He ain't MY girl." defended Derreck, getting upset by the comparison.

"I know he ain't, stupid." said Nat.

"Eww man, you touching his pussy." teased Carlton.

"Niggah, you ever touch pussy before?" asked Nat, angrily. "I bet you've
never even seen pussy before."

"That nigga ain't had pussy since pussy had him." joked Mo.
Le looked embarrassed.

"Well, looks like this your lucky day." smiled Nat.

"What you mean?" asked Le.

"You got pussy right here in front of you. You figure it out."

"Yo man, I know you ain't suggestion that Le fuck Terry, are you?" asked
Mo.

"Why not?" asked Nat. "Terry won't mind, would you Terr?"

"Get off me!" I yelled, scared to death that they might actually try
something.

"Why you gettin all defensive, n'shit?" asked Nat.

"Yo, let em up." said Mo, letting go of my wrist.
I felt Carlton let go too.

"Fuck that." said Nat, looking around. "Who down to get some free pussy?"
I saw Le look down at my privates.

"Yo man, this's Terry. Ain't like he some hoe, man. Let em up." reasoned
Moses.

"Fuck that shit." said Nat, jamming one of his fingers up into my snatch.
I yelled out in pain from the unexpected dry entry as his finger burrowed
itself deep into me. I reached down with my free hand and grabbed his
wrist. He looked me dead in the eye as he churned his finger around in my
stuff.
"Like that bitch?" he asked, making me feel it.

"Yo Nat, that shit ain't kool man." said Mo.

"Naw, he likes it." smiled Nat, wiggling his finger around inside me. He
pulled out, then jammed two fingers back up in me. I gasped at the entry,
ashamed that I was indeed beginning to like it. This had been the first
time anyone had ever touched my vagina in a sexual way. I admit to
playing with it often enough. I masturbated daily, giving myself an
orgasm each time. But this had been the first time anyone else had been
inside of me, without use of clamps and rubber gloves in a hospital room
setting.
"Feel em, he startin to get moist and everything."

"You lyin." said Mo, stepping in closer.

"Finger it yourself and see." offered Nat.
Moses came in close, then reached down between my legs. I felt the tips
of his fingers touch my clitoris before slipping in beside Nat's fingers.

"See."

"He right,-" laughed Moses. "-it IS gettin wet."

"What that mean?" asked Carlton.

"Means Terry's gettin excited." answered Derreck.

"Means this nigga like havin his pussy played with. Ain't that right
Terr?" corrected Nathan.
I could only groan in response as the three fingers moved in and out of
me.

"So he is gay?" asked Le.

"I dunno what the fuck he is." admitted Nat. "I mean, if he had a dick
and liked us playing with his asshole or something, then I'd say; hell
yeh he gay. But this mothafucker's sportin pussy. I dunno what category
to put em in. But as far as I'm concerned, if he was born with a pussy,
that makes em female. Ugly as sin, but female."

"So, would you fuck him?" asked Carlton, watching the action from the
side.

"Hell yeh. Pussy's pussy." said Nat.

"But it's Terry." reasoned Carl. "It's not like he looks like a girl, or
anything."

"Like I said, pussy's pussy. Besides, with Terry bein one of us, we don't
have to go through all the pretense of havin sweet talk em, or take em
out to the movies like we do with regular girls. We can just all meet up
at one of our spots, and take turns fuckin em all day if we want." I saw
that idea churn through a few of the guys minds. "Hell, we can in get all
the practice we need on fuckin girl with Terry. We'll be like the best
lovers n'shit. Can you imagine what your girl was say if you knew just
HOW to fuck her before you even got up in the pussy?"

"But... what if he gets pregnant or something? I mean, if it's like REAL
pussy, he could get pregnant by one of us, right?" inquired Carlton,
obviously considering Nathan's argument.
I could see all of them looking in wonder at that question.

"Fuck that shit." I heard Derreck say. "If I get anybody pregnant, it's
gonna be a real bitch, not some fuckin freak job!"

"Yo, calm down. We'll just ask em." offered Nathan. "So Terry, can you
get pregnant?" he asked, matter of factly.
I turned my head in shame, refusing to answer.

"He'd have to have a uterus to get pregnant." offered Mo. "The guy on the
talk show I saw, couldn't. He was hollow inside."

"Kew." smiled Nat. "That answers that question. So, who wants in first?"

"Hold up, you're serious about fuckin him?" asked Mo.

"Hell yeh. Ain't you?"

"No man." answered Moses.

"Niggah, you got yur fingers all up in this niggah pussy, and you tellin
me you don't wanna stick yur dick in?" said Nat, unconvinced.
Mo removed his fingers. I saw him sniff them, inhaling my scent.

"Smells like real pussy?" asked Nat, working his fingers deeper.

"Let me check it out." said Le, reaching in and feeling my vagina.

"The hole's down here, stupid." said Nathan, taking Leroy's hand and
shoving his fingers up inside me next to his. I heard Le giggle with
laughter.

"Can you imagine yur dick slidin up in there?" asked Nat.

"Yeeh." answered Le, his dick starting to tent out the front of his
pants.

"Kew. So why don't you come round here and stick yur dick in?" offered
Nat. "You won't be a virgin anymore." he taunted. Le removed his fingers
and began walking around to Nat's side of the table.

"Hold up..." intervened Mo. "...yall really gonna fuck our boi like
that?"

"Yeh. Now either you join in, or sit down and shut the fuck up." warned
Nat, making room for Le whom took his place directly in front of my open
legs.

"This's fucked up." said Derreck, storming off down towards the lake.

"Fuck him." said Nat, flagging his brother off. "Go 'head Le."