Date: Tue, 28 Jan 2014 20:23:28 +1300 From: Julian Irwin Subject: A Dream comes True Ch 16 Transgender Teen. My three weeks of school came and went rather quickly with most of the time spent with a speech therapist after my five or ten minute operation. I didn't realize the operation was going to be such a small part in the process of obtaining a softer more feminine like voice. Yes the hard work was then left up to me learning to speak once again, which is an on going procedure thankfully I have two wonderful helpers who won't let me slipup not even once. I know I'll get there even though it is hard for a start hearing your own new voice when you playback the tape you've just made. Another subject I had to do was ballet classes for an hour twice a day, not to help me be a great ballet dancer. The main objective is to help with ones demeanour to walk more elegantly, use ones hands more gracefully, in all making you carry yourself and act in a more feminine manor. I soon discovered I could never be a ballet dancer even though I would love to be. After watching a video of a ballet school practising, seeing how fit and strong the male dancers have to be in performing with such gracefulness, left me thinking those who think male ballet dances are all pansies need to think again and try dancing then see who is what. [now I've got that off my chest] A few of the exercises we did I found almost impossible, no completely impossible, like raising a leg up to rest on the bar at waist height without bending at the knee, or turning your tootsies in opposite directions while standing on your toes. I swear my legs were made different to everyone else in those classes. At least the hand exercises were much easier and I came away in the knowledge I had achieve a lot. At least the tap dancing was a lot easer in a way, sort of, if you didn't mind sore feet for a start. The only problem now is at home Mummy or Denise won't let me slouch about, I must always carry myself in a refined ladylike manner. But really I do like it when they pull me up, cause I do want to act more like a genteel girl, even Annabel keeps on at me making me use my hands whenever we talk together as she does, god she is so adorable. What else can I say, but I really loved the dancing classes. Even a couple of the boys took part in the tap dancing, as they had both done Scotch Country Dancing so tap came easier for them, they were really, really good. Oh, by the way I must not forget to tell you what Annabel had wrapped in a small box with a pretty pink bow on top waiting my arrival at school. She is the sweetest person you could wish to have as a girlfriend, the pink silk hanky she has turned into a gorgeous little petti for my clit with white narrow ribbon ties threaded through an eyelet lace in the centre which sits at the base and fits behind my little marble sack. The white hanky has "Sweet Jessica" embodied fancy in one corner using blue thread, surrounding it with little red hearts. The best way I thought of to thank her was to tell her I'm going to hold them in my hands while having the operation, as it'll be like having her next to me the whole time, I should of said it again and again, as I got the most wonderful full on kiss for saying it only once. I was so pleased to go home of a Thursday Friday nights for a break from some of the girls though, as they left me cold. All they seemed to talk about was when they get their "Thing" tucked away to have a proper vagina or what their last period was like, they were so tarty. Call me what you like, but they aren't the sort of girl I would like to be or associated with. Apart from those few the rest were great fun, it was make even better having the boys there to mix with. Had it not been for having the boys there along with Annabel I'm sure I would have lost all interest in staying the duration. No, regrettably we weren't allowed to have sexual relations with the boys. Seen as I was only a short term student I unfortunately didn't have a school uniform of my own. So Annabel couldn't of been happier than to have me wear one of her, yes I couldn't of been happier either. I hope we will always be about the same size, it's so nice sharing ones "personal" clothes, seems to be a real girl thing I gathered. By the time my three weeks were up I was rather sad in a way to be leaving as I had made some good friends and more about acting and behaving girlish like. As well learned a lot about the female body, of which I really knew nothing, only what Andrew had told me. It gave me a lot of pleasure being able to tell some of the boys about myself, my dreams and desires to wearing dresses and makeup, no not thinking of myself as a real girl just a boy who loves to wear beautiful feminine clothes, who feels so much a sissy within himself, even more so now my voice is softer. I couldn't help but notice and remark about the change in Richard from the day I first met him, in the waiting room of the doctors, he is so much happier as are the other boys, not having to think who's going to beat on me today because I'm Gay and proud to be! Why do some people have to be such arseholes! Because we don't fit into their little given square box? OK I've got that off my chest as well. Talking with the boys also helped me understand and appreciate my own feeling even more. "if that makes sense to you." In a way the best part of my last day was to go around kissing all the boys farewell, not as a girl but as the boy who happens to be wearing a dress. Yes I know what you're thinking, well yes there was little touches down below as we said our goodbyes. After being home a few days Mummy rang Aunty Sue to see about going down to her shop for a visit. Wonderful I thought, hopefully I'll be able to try on more of those adorable dresses she has, with hopes she now has a larger size white communion dress, I can just see myself walking down the aisle for my first communion wearing such a pretty dress with matching veil. There again is Mummy wanting to show of my new softer voice which she along with Jessica is so proud of. All is set for tomorrow which happens to be Wednesday and Aunty closes at midday. Up early even before Denise had left for work, I was given a lovely bath which is something else I had missed having of a morning. To think I've been bathing or showering myself for many years, now all I want is Mummy to bath me at least I know she loves doing it making sure I'm squeaky clean and smelling like a girl should. Over my gorgeous pale blue satin lingerie I wore a off white long sleeved silk blouse with a pretty just above the knee length blue cotton pleated tartan skirt. Under the open neck collar of the blouse a maroon silk scarf was tied letting the ends hang sweetly over my left shoulder, I must say it made me look so much a pretty girl. The little sleepers have now gone from my ears, in there place I wore lovely bold diamond studs, [no not real diamonds in case you're wondering] around my right ankle an equally charming gold anklet. At this point in time I still have only one pair of two inch black heels to wear. Made up, dressed and smelling divine ready to face the outside world, but couldn't without firstly admiring the girl in the mirror. Yes she looked so pretty even a sneaky hint of petticoat lace on show under the blouse, just the way Jessica likes it. Oh yes under my blue satin panties a lovely pink silk petti caressed enthusiastically over my well behaved clitty. Aunty Sue was just as delighted to see Mummy and me again as we were her, knowing how she accepted me for what I am right from the start. About the first thing Mummy said was, "Does this sound like the same girl I brought in some weeks ago?" then looking to me saying "Tell Susan what you've been up to dear?" I think Mummy is so revelling in my more new girly like voice. After thanking Aunty Sue for the gorgeous dress she sent for me to wear to Annabel's the other weekend, this new voice then had to tell all, pleasing Aunty immensely. In turn earning me a warm loving hug and kisses to go with it saying, "This voice won't make you embarrassed like the old one did, will it dear? Now go look through the racks and don't be shy to call out if you find something pretty this time." I knew what she meant by that remark, as last time I got all excited and called out with my deep male voice. While Mummy and Aunty Sue went into the office talking for awhile, I had the shop to myself with all these divinely beautiful girls' dresses, gowns, petticoats and more at my disposal. The first place I went to, was where all those infatuating white communion dresses hung, hoping to find one this time in my size, no such luck. Going down another aisle I came across a most gorgeous full length gown in a heavenly blue satin with a fine chiffon overlaying the skirt, the skirt itself was full enough so when you danced it switched lovingly around your legs, the bodice had a good three inches of small sparkles dotted flashing like across it, the same around the two inch high 'turtleneck' collar. The gown was sleeveless with small matching blue covered buttons were fastened up the back from just below ones shoulder blades. There was a large matching feathery satin square which fastened around the arm just above the elbow and hung to about three-quarts the way down the gown. OMG it was so beautiful I had to ask Aunty if I could try it on or I'm sure I'd die an agonizing death there and then. Wonderful with the help of Aunty and Mummy, Jessica floated around the shop in an almost Fairy like fashion, swishing my left arm out watching as the scarf fluttered kite like against the breeze. The flutter of the full frothy skirt caressing my legs was something I'm sure every girl must treasure and I guess the lucky boy who has her in his arms. I had three boys well in my mind wishing at least one of them were here in my arms enjoying this wonderful moment with me. If you are wondering they are Andrew Troy a boy at the school and Robert from the shoe shop so there. Aunty informed me this gown has been used in junior dancing competitions, Oh those girls are so lucky. I should have concentrated more in ballet classes, well no that was agonizing for legs like mine, but what I had learned came in handy as I floated around the shop in a fanciful state. As well there were other dresses for some unknown reason I couldn't help but hold in front of me admiring the breath taking image in the mirror. One waltzes length 'so I got told' silk teal with short puffy sleeves with a soft green petticoat to sit inspiringly beneath around the hem and low cut bodice a couple of inches of fine lace, to finish off the outfit a pair of teal satin gloves, unfortunately it was a size to big for me to even try on. Aunty said it had been used last as a junior bridesmaids gown. Wonder if I can grow quickly I could be someone's bridesmaid? I don't think I need say what a wonderful time I had once again at Aunty Sues shop once again able to try so many delightful dresses, holding others lovingly against myself to admire in the mirror. I know I've said this before, but I could never tire of shopping for girly clothes, the pleasure of being able to try on just to dream of owning such exquisite gowns even if you can't afford them. You can see why all these women's shops are always buzzing. No there were no new purchasers, but I was given a charming inch wide blue satin with white lace edging top and bottom garter for my leg. Aunty said it will go with my pink petti seen as I'm a girly/boy, couldn't help giggling as she said it, yes this is what I am. I'm sure it would have gone beautifully with the gown I wore for "Dancing" I wish. I just had to wear it home and there it stayed till bedtime. By the way I had to show Aunty my dainty little petti, which she said looked so right for down there. It was around four when we left to let Aunty get on doing her mail orders, as well being told to visit again, as she loves helping a young girl dress up, I assured her I would love to be that girl. As the traffic was light at that hour we were home in no time, on the way I knew I had things on my mind to talk over with Mummy and this seemed the right time to ask, "Can we have a cup of tea and a we talk when we get home please Mummy?" I knew she would say yes, but it is polite to ask, I think. "Yes sure you know we can talk anytime you want, don't you?" as she gently squeezed my hand. "I know but thought you might have things to do." After making us a cup of tea, I sat close to her still trying to put all my words and thoughts together in my head while sipping my tea. Mummy sat in silence properly wondering what I'm about to come out with. Putting my empty cup down followed by taking a deep breath I said, "You know how we've talked about me going on hormone tables and taking those pills to have a menstrual cycle? Well I've been thinking constantly about it since and having the "Know your body" lecture at school. Umm.... I'm still not keen about going on hormone tablets, I think you already know that, don't you? I don't want my penis to shrivel up any or not produce sperm anymore I really like my penis, guess the same as you like your Umm ....... You know ..... I've always wanted to just dress in beautiful feminine clothes, having these divine fabrics encasing my body. This is why I use to go through these fabric shops just to savour the delicate silks and chiffons on display or I'd go to the library to browse Fashion and Bridal magazines just to see all the beautiful dresses, gowns and lingerie, even the cosmetics women and girls can wear. I've told you how I used to dream about wearing such clothes. Only if boys could also wear such gorgeous lingerie and dresses, like women can wear men's clothes without anyone making nasty comments about it, I feel just so right dressed like I am now or in the sissy outfits I wore with Annabel. But I really don't want to develop real girls breasts, I am happy just using hormone cream and the pumps." I just stopped resting my head against Mummy's side, knowing I hadn't quite finished what I wanted to say. "Can I butt in here for a minute?" I was asked as she lifted my head a little, looking into my eyes. "All I want to know is, you say about wanting to keep your penis in good working order, the same as I like my 'Umm'....'You know' what is my 'Umm' that I know? Or don't you remember its name?" she asked displaying a cheeky grin. I felt my face going red with embarrassment as I looked to her saying quietly, "Your Vagina." "You know what it is so don't be shy in saying the name Jessica all females have one like all boys have Umm.... penises, you know I'm no different, am I?" as she squeezed my cheeks between her fingers. "No I know you are no different, but you're my mother." I didn't know how else to vindicate my reluctance in giving a straight answer in the beginning. "Also Jessica my dear, no one is going to make you do anything you are not willing in yourself to do. So there is no need in trying to justify to me or anyone else why you don't want to develop bosoms like Denise and Annabel what too. Do I make myself clear sweetheart?" "Yes thank you for saying that, I really just love wearing all these gorgeous feminine clothes and makeup. You are the best mother anyone could wish for, I love you so much." as I cuddled in offering my lips to hers for a lovely kiss. "Now is that all you're worried about darling?" she asked looking at me as I sat back. She must of noticed the look on my face as to say, 'I have more to say' sort of look. "I've also been thinking about having menstrual cycles also. Well I would like to have a monthly period, by what some of the other girls said you feel so wonderful after having your first one and the little pain or discomfort you get is nothing knowing how real girls have no choice in the matter, so should think of it as a wonderful privilege. So I do want to have this experience and it's not as if I'll be going through it alone is it?" I said as I cuddled into Mummy once again. "I'm so proud of you darling, I know you won't regret it either, now give me a lovely kiss." with much pleasure I offered my soft coral painted lips to Mummy's once again. As time had moved on it was to late to ring the doctors office, so that would be the first thing Mummy will do in the morning. Denise must be thinking Mummy and I spend an awful lot of the day sitting cuddled together talking, as once again she arrived home to find us still sitting discussing our visit to Aunty Sues shop. At least I knew Denise would want to hear all about it at dinner. While she went to change I helped prepare the meal and what a pleasant surprise awaited me. Instead of my second bowl of girly food for the day, I was to partake in the pleasures of eating normal food, albeit a smaller serving of steak potato cauliflower and broccoli with cheese sauce. I finished up leaving Mummy and Denise to do most of the talking as I savoured once again, after however long it has been to be eating such tasty food, although I kept getting told to eat in a more Ladylike manner, little mouthfuls and to chew with my mouth shut. After watching some boring TV program it was decided bed would be a better place to be for all of us. Once cleaned of my makeup I happily let Mummy massage night cream over my face telling as she seems to do every time, how it will help keep my skin beautifully smooth and soft. With the completion of my face next came the massaging of hormone cream over two responsive nipples, yes each time they seem to become taut through the gentle touching. Even using the pumps only once a day the puffiness doesn't subside as it used to, which offered more of my breast area to receive gentle caressing via hers or Denise's soft feminine fingertips, in turn having an effect on one excitable clitty sitting still dressed prettily beneath my satin panties. Dressed ready for bed wearing an overly soft green chiffon nighty which has a soft silky under skirt, the wide ruffle edging around the hem helped hold the skirt out beautifully, as well the shoulder straps were bold frilly ruffles. The image I viewed in the mirror definitely did not lie, I looked as femininely pretty as I felt even a twitching clitty thought so. Any thought I had of being offered a helping hand was quickly squashed once helped into bed, to have a pair of pink satin mittens secured safely on, then tucked in followed my a loving kiss and told to have a good sleep as we have a lot to do tomorrow. "Can't I even have a little play as it really helps me sleep better?" I tried to tell her. "No it doesn't, I've seen Denise sleep just as peacefully without any playing." I got told. "But she has you to sleep with?" I reminded her. Another kiss was all I got in return with my Princess being put in my arms before she left my room turning the light off on the way. I woke next morning to the pulling back of one nice warm comfortable duvet, in turn letting the cold morning air drift quickly under my short pale green chiffon nighty covered body. Who else could it be with a devilish smile looking down on me, "Denise you are such an evil monster I could finish up with a chill now, just because you wanted to see what might be standing under there." as I tried to look hurt. "Oh well I just wanted to wake you for a lovely good morning kiss, but if this is the way you wake up I won't bother." as she turned her back to me. "Wait a minute, I didn't say anything about getting a chill on my lips or were you wanting to be the ever kind sister and kiss down below?" I asked smiling in hope. "No just your lips I'm not that sort of girl as you should know." "What ever you say Sis, I've told an untruth once also, I'm waiting, the offer to kiss below also stands." as I pouted my lips waiting the arrival of Denise's cherry gloss coated lips to fuse onto mine. "I'm so pleased to hear that you want to have periods, believe me you won't regret doing it." She said after we kissed lovingly as always, while her hand wandered down to squeeze what was speedily coming to life between my legs, but no kiss was given just my teddy got put over clitty. "You are a real cockteaser you know?" I yelled as she had turned heading towards the door, only to turn with a smile while blowing me a kiss. "Be a good girl today won't you?" and she was gone not even offering to release my hands. A short time later Mummy entered my room telling me it's time to get up as we have a busy day ahead of us. "Would you like to give yourself a shower this morning dear as I have a few things I need do?" she asked while coming towards me to offer a good morning kiss to my eagerly awaiting lips and to release my imprisoned hands. Happily I headed to the bathroom only to hear, "And just a shower is all, no playing with clitty!!" Turning back smiling to her I had to say, "I never even thought of doing any such thing." so I told another untruth, but did get through without any spillage, I couldn't stop it from getting excited while washing down there as I had to pull the skin back a few times just to make sure it was all clean, ah? With hormone cream massaged in followed by my pumps which I'm become an expert at pumping them up now, almost filling the cups with my flesh. Back in my nighty and full length cream satin dressing gown I sat with Mummy having my bowl of 'lovely' girly food which this morning got followed my a cup of TEA with toast and blackcurrant jelly!!! Yippy. "Would you like to sort out what you would like to wear today Jessica?" I was asked. "Oh yes please, can I do my own makeup as well?" I asked even though I love her or Denise doing it for me, but thought this time I can dress the complete girl myself ready to hit the big city. I sorted out what I should wear today, which turned out to be a divine set of lemon satin panties and suspender both edged with a good two inches of lace, the matching bra had a narrow lace across the top of each cup. After rolling up and fastening my fine tan silk stockings to the suspender tabs. I unashamedly let the ornate satin petticoat slither gently, slowly downwards caressing every part of me till it sat inspiringly over one enlivened body. At this point one can't help but let their hands embrace lovingly over these heavenly articles of feminine clothing while thinking how lucky females or sissies like me are to wear such sumptuous underwear. The same two inch wide lace finished off the hem as well the bodice in doing so let my bra be viewed beneath. I must not forget to mention under my panties, which by the way I'm sure are make for sissies as there is more room for your bulge to sit comfortably, especially while clitty wears its little white satin and fringed garter Annabel had given me all those weeks ago. Oh god those little things really have fun flirting with your clitty as you walk, I love walking. They really make you realize how much of a sissy you really are, I love it!! I had just finished admiring, no checking the mirror to see all was sitting as it should on a girl when Mummy returned. "Thought you would be dressed ready to leave by now?" came the unwelcome remark. "You can't rush putting these things on you know, remember what you said about being careful pulling stockings up?" I had to remind her, a good quick defence also I thought. "Yes I know dear, you are a real little girl aren't you fussing around the way you do. Now I rang the doctors office, he will have a prescription ready to get you started when we call in this morning, hopefully if a girl can concentrate on gets herself dressed that is." a smiling mother suggested. Even just hearing her say that got me all inspired, to think I'll now be like Denise and Annabel. Yes I know one little girl who will be so pleased to hear my good news when I email her later. With that I got left alone to get on with task in hand as Mummy had other calls she wanted to make before we headed out. Makeup lightly applied it's now time admire this girly image before me once again, oh dear nearly forgot two little silicone boobs to fill out my A cups, beautiful yes this is more the young girl image I wanted to see standing spellbound before me. I wonder if all girls are as vain as I seem to be? Oh well, I like what I see in the mirror anyway. Now it's on with the long sleeved cream silk blouse followed by a pretty teal with a small white floral pattern seersucker skirt which fell to just above the knee, the width was not full but looked so stunning as I twilled around before the mirror letting a little of the petticoat lace be seen. Full length mirrors come into there own at times like this, able to view the whole image. Oh yes to see now how the lemon lingerie showed tantalizingly though my blouse a hint of lace obvious at both ends makes one feel so, so pretty. So captivated by my own girl image I never noticed anything out of place till mother interrupted my thoughts. "You can't go out like you are young lady." she said coming closer to me. "Why I think I look beautiful as I am." feeling downhearted and hurt at her comment. "Not with this standing so proud, remember what sex you are trying to portray?" as her hand grabbed hold of one obvious boy part. "Haven't you got your Gaff on?" she asked with a broad smile. "No I'm wearing a pretty garter Annabel has given me." "That would be fine if you didn't let your penis have so much control over your brain young Lady." with envious on the word 'Lady' I must admit it did look obvious to what I had sitting prettily down there, and knowing it would only get worse once I started walking the city streets. So it was down with panties, off with garter then on with one white gaff, but not before one sadistic mother took hold as she has done before causing me undue agony for a couple of minutes. "A lot better now." she said after surveying my lower half. I definitely couldn't go out without Mummy brushing my hair and lovely smelling spray to help hold it in place. Next a stunning ruby and pearl necklace was placed around my neck, oh it looked so right sitting there, I felt so very pretty with the gold chain the stones were attached to match the gold anklet around my right ankle. With navy blue clutch purse in hand one final inspection from mother, we were ready to hit the road. I haven't mentioned the elegant dress Mummy is wearing because of all my carry on, well she is wearing a stunning deep purple knee length 'lets say a semi gloss satin' dress with three quart length sleeves finished with a good two inch cuff, the skirt was gathered in to give four inch pleats hanging from under a two inch wide matching belt. The V shaped bodice showing very little of her cleavage, hanging from under the collar a bold crystal necklace sat to finish the dress of to its fullest, in turn making Mummy look ever so elegant On the drive into the City I began getting those stirring feelings in my stomach know where we were headed and for what. At the same time realizing what else I will be needing once the time arrives, yes all those sanitary supplies and what it will mean, like going down the aisle in the supermarket looking and wondering which to buy or worst still asking at the chemist for tampons and sanitary napkins. Wonder if Denise buys her own or does Mummy get them for her, must remember to ask her tonight. No I'll ask Mummy now I decided coming out of my dream world, "Mummy do you buy Denise's supplies when she needs them or does she get her own?" "Of course she gets her own, she is a big girl you know, why do you ask?" "So will I have to buy my own also?" I had to know. "I think you are trying to put the cart before the horse my girl, we'll go to the supermarket and show you where everything is before hand now stop worrying yourself about it, OK?" "Yes I guess so." In no time we were parked up and heading towards the doctors. Sitting waiting at the doctors reception was one prescription for Jessica Burnett, oh why do they have to call me that name still!! Anyway the prescription is for two months supplies, guess I can handle that or if I can't handle one month give the others to Denise, no problem. At the pharmacy the lady offered me a little booklet telling me what I will need etc. for my imminent girly time, if I can put it that way? As well she seemed very caring saying there is nothing to worry about and not to feel shy when buying my supplies. I thanked her saying I feel a little nervous already. After giving her the money she patted my hand telling me to be proud of what I am and hopes to see me in a couple of months, a beaming smile came from her as well, guess she is used to having girls like me in there being right under the doctors rooms. Walking out I saw Mummy sitting waiting in the hallway for me, no she said I have to do these things myself so just sent me off to do my little shopping, at least the woman made me feel welcome. Back at the car Mummy put my little package in the boot, then we walked of towards the tube station. Oh golly gosh after sitting rather self-conscious in the train, it being the first time amongst so many people wondering if any noticed me, we arrived at the Embankment tube station. Thoughts went through my head wondering if this mother of mine is up to something that I should have known about. All to soon I had my answer, walking into a restaurant then to find sitting in a secluded cubicle looking so much the young handsome business type 'well have to build them up makes them feel more important' were Andrew and Shane. I don't know who was the most excited, them or me after kisses all round we sat and talked and talked, it was like a little family reunion I guess as I've never been to one of them, but you know what I mean ah? They were both so pleased to hear my softer voice saying how it really suites a little girl like me. Yes I told them all about school and some of the boys that are there, with a warning they are to old to be allowed on to the grounds, but said nothing about the little pills I've just acquired. All to soon it was time for them to head back to work, but not before Mummy said they must come for dinner one night she'll ring a make a date. I am so pleased the way the boys and Mummy get on so well, knowing how concerned they were at the start about me going to live with her and their fears of what could have been. As we parted outside there were more kisses and cuddles all round, watching them walk down the street Mummy said, "You were such a lucky boy to have those two keeping their eye on you?" "What do you mean?" I knew what she meant but had to say that, "Yes I know they are the best." thinking how they went berserk at me for going onto a paid Gay porn site for a start so kept a constant eye on me. Mind you I loved what I saw there. "While we're in town I think we better go to the shoe shop and get you a couple of new pairs, as a girl can't have only one pair to wear everywhere can she?" I got asked. "No I guess not being a girl, but I've always only had one pair of good shoes, so have never thought about it as having different shoes for different outfits, at least I'll be able to see Robert again so guess new shoes would be in order." I said smiling to her. "You really like him don't you dear?" while offering me that 'don't say otherwise look'. "Yes I guess I do, would it be alright to give him my email address?" I asked. "I thought you had given it to him the last time we were there, of course you can give it to him, I can't say who you can write to. I know you are to good a person to mix with the wrong sort." "I know but I think it is right for you to know who I'm contacting, like I said about reading my emails before." "Did the boys check your emails also?" she asked. "No they just checked to make sure I didn't go onto any more porn sites." "Good for them." was all she came out with, looking that evil look at me. Soon we were off the tube and again without being sprung as anything other than a "pretty" girl 'had to add that word as I do feel pretty' which is great for my confidence. After a short walk we arrived at the shoe shop, only to be disappointed as Robert is off on his meal break. The owner must have noticed my disappointment as she said if we could hang about he will be back in half an hour. Mummy suggested we go have a cup of tea and a bite to eat then return after telling the lady what sort of shoe we are looking for. With our Tea and ham and tomato sandwich partaken we heading back to the shop, only mother decided on a little window shopping on the way, anything to prolong my agony in my quest to see Robert again. Then she had the audacity to look at her watch before saying, "time is getting late, what say we come back tomorrow?" Well my little fragile heart almost stopped pumping blood on hearing such an offer, my month fell open with such a thud it hurt my jaw, that it took some painful seconds till I could close it again. Mummy just laughed at my reaction before saying she couldn't really do such a thing knowing how Robert would be waiting to see her little girl. "But what about me, I almost had a heart attack, I think I'll need mouth to mouth to recuperate." At least I got pulled close for a hug and kiss to my cheek only. Entering the shop there was another woman being attended to my the owner who just called out "Can you help in the shop a minute Robert?" Oh my God you should of seen the look on his face as he came from the back, talk about my mouth falling open outside, well Roberts opened even wider if I had a smaller head I could hop in to see what he had for lunch. It makes one feel so proud 'well it does me' when someone is so pleased to see you again like this. Coming over to us he said how beautiful we both looked while putting his hand out to take hold of mine leading us over to take a seat all the time not taking his eyes of me. I knew if the other woman wasn't here he would have kissed me, well if not I would have kissed him anyway. Not quite knowing what else to say being in ear shot of a customer, he asked shyly "What can I do for you ladies today?" Not being one to hold back Mummy said, "Tell the gentleman what you want dear?" my cue to let all hear my new softer voice. Again Robert's mouth opened wide a beaming smile shone brightly from ear to ear. I could tell he was wishing the other lady wasn't here at this time, as was I. All he said quietly was "how long have you .........." Knowing what he was trying to say I told him "About a month now, hope you like it?" Still unable to get rid of his smile he said, "Yes I do and it really suites you." Fortunately the other lady purchased and paid for her shoes leaving the owner Mummy Robert and me alone. "Now my dear let's hear that sweet voice of yours I heard the owner say walking towards us. Oh how embarrassing having to say what I need to buy etc. once again. "You must be so proud of her." she said to Mummy who couldn't get rid of the beaming smile from her beautiful face. "Yes I am very much so." she somehow got out. After getting down to business I tried on many shoes I know mostly for Roberts privilege of playing with my feet. OK I loved it just as much, he has the gentlest of hands while guiding a shoe on to your foot. All the time we seemed to be smiling suggestive smiles to each other, neither could say a word with two women standing or sitting in hearing distance. Finally one new pair of two inch Tan heels were purchased. While Mummy was at the counter I asked Robert if he still wanted my email address, he couldn't get his pen and pad out quick enough saying he really wants to talk with me saying, he can't get me out of his mind we have more in common than I realize and he hopes we can be good friends. That I would love to be also. With shoes wrapped and in a little bag we were all set ready for the trip home, when Robert whispered something to the owner, next he called me to follow him, I followed him out the back where I got asked, "Can I please give you a kiss?" well what would an innocent girl like me say I ask you? "Oh yes Robert I would love that." as we embraced I got the sweetest gentlest kiss on my cheek. Being the good girl I am I asked for his lips, his kisses are so loving I hope there will be more to come over time. After thanking me for letting him kiss me we held hands for a second or two or ........ before we heading back to the shop. By the looks we got they both knew what we were up to out there. On our short walk back to the car Mummy had to know what I went out the back of the shop for. For some reason I could not think of any little lie to tell her, "Oh he is so very sweet he just wanted to give me a little kiss on my cheek, it was so lovely." I told her still dreaming of it, but said nothing about asking him for a kiss on the lips. "Right you can come back to earth now, if this is the affect he is going to have on you I might not let you answer his email." as she wrapped her arm around my shoulder. "Yes he is really a lovely young man isn't he? I can just imagine how Margaret is having him on right now, two young lovebirds noticing each other." as her squeezing of my shoulder got tighter. "Is the owners name Margaret the same as yours, how long have you known that?" I asked being surprised as I hadn't heard it before now. "Well if you weren't out the back seducing the poor lad you would have found out at the same time as I did. So in future don't run away from Mummy if you want to find out something." "You are a heartless woman you know, but I still love you very much." I let her know. Sitting in the car I told her, "I'm so pleased I decided to put my Gaff on today as a few times I could feel it trying to stand up for me." knowing whose idea it was that I wear it. No remark came my way, just a sideways look and a little slap to the side of my leg. At home with my little purchases, I didn't know where to start, have my first yellow capsule or put my new shoes on? Dilemma, dilemma. Well it was all taken out of my hands as Mummy said I will start my course of little pills from after breakfast tomorrow morning, of course I couldn't put them away without having a little check to see how many there are, yes two packets of 21 little yellow capsules waiting to give me my real 'girl' experience, at least they are small enough for a quick swallow. After putting the little booklet aside ready for some night time reading, it was on with new shoes for a while to break them in. While sitting having a cup of tea, Mummy made a great announcement, from now on I will be having my 'girly' food only once a day just like Denise. Hearing her say that delighted me no end, don't get me wrong I got to quite enjoy my girly food, but watching Mummy and Denise partake of more appetizing delights was almost like being mistreated. I just had to give her a big hug and even a kiss, asking if I can help get dinner ready for tonight, oh the smell one gets while cooking there is nothing quite like it to stimulate the taste buds. I guess you could say I'm becoming very much like an excitable young girl, soon as Denise arrived home I had to start telling her all about our day, yes every little bit. Most of all I couldn't wait to tell the great news about starting my periods which made her very happy also as we hugged each other, while she told me she is about to start having another in a couple of days. "Will you let me know when you start and everything?" I asked her not really knowing what the everything would be, but didn't know what else to say. Only to be interrupted by Mummy saying "I'm sure Denise would like to get changed out of her work clothes and you my girl can help get dinner ready, you can tell her the rest while Denise and I have dinner?" "What about me won't I be eating with you?" I had to know or will it be my last more girly food. "I thought you would be to busy talking to eat." she had the audacity to say. As Denise was leaving I had to call her back, "You can kiss my cheek also if you wish?" "No it is ok I wouldn't like to smudge where Robert's lips have kissed." the cheeky devil just went and gave Mummy a kiss on her cheek and offered me just a little wave of her fingers. "I won't forget this." I called to her as she departed smiling happily towards Mummy and me. With another appetizing meal of Chicken, stuffing, baked potato, pumpkin and beans consumed, dishes washing themselves I asked If I could be excused for a while. "Show me the booklet you got about your periods." Denise had to ask, handing it to her she now said "Sit so we can read it together." grabbing my arm. "I would love to but I want to read it in bed tonight?" I didn't really want to but you know. They both well knew I wanted to check my email but were doing whatever to hold me back. "Do you want to use the bathroom Jessica you seem all twitchy standing there?" Mummy asked. "No I don't I just want to see if Annabel has written to me." "You heard from her on Monday didn't you or is it someone else you hope has written?" she asked displaying a big smile. "Go on off you go but don't be all night on there, remember he has work in the morning. No there wasn't an email from Annabel but a big YES! there was one from Robert, didn't say much said he is just checking he's got my address right, and will writing more fully later said how he got teased about taking me out the back but it was well worth it, he's wanted to do it since the first time we visited the shop. Also asked if he could send a photo of himself which he hopes I might appreciate. I quickly wrote back saying how much I loved having him kiss me and can't wait to hear what else he wants to tell me, before finishing off I decided I better let him know that I am gay just in case, as I don't want to go further then put him off me because of it. So with that I signed off saying how I hope you hear a lot more from him. Before sending it I got Mummy up to check as normal, even though she says I don't have to I somehow feel I want her to know all about me. Yes I know it sounds silly and she trusts me not to do the wrong thing. With bedtime arriving I got sent off to get myself cleaned up hair brushed out and into the same nighty as last night and Mummy will be up soon to tuck me in. Dear God please let her give me some much needed relief or I'm sure my sperm will curdle and be useless like cream not used before its use by date. I was sitting brushing out my hair when Mummy came in, "I think you can wear your short cream satin nighty tonight dear, you don't mind changing do you?" she asked, like I hope I'm not putting you out of your way in doing so. "No I don't mind I love all my beautiful nighties." In no time I had stripped ready waiting to have this darling cream satin nighty slither gently over my slim naked feminine body. With the task completed as always my hands won't stop caressing over my front from ones vulnerable nipples downward, I wonder if I'll ever get to a point where I won't partake in this inspiring fiddling, I hope not. "Yes you look ravishing as always dear, now give me a lovely cuddle and into bed you go." she said cheerfully. While cuddling her I asked if my clitty could please be given some relief tonight that it's been so long it might not be able to work again. All I got was another kiss to my forehead and told she is sure it will keep working. Feeling downhearted I got helped into bed and tucked in with my hands out of the duvet waiting the arrival of mittens. But no who should enter to say goodnight wearing her shimmering lavender satin nighty the one and only Denise, after a sweet kiss she asked if I would mind her sleeping with me tonight? "Oh Denise you know anytime I'll make room for you, long as you take care of a little problem I have?" I said moving sideways to make room for her. "I'm not very good at solving problems, or is it to do with your little book about having periods, I think I can help with that?" I just looked downhearted to her and then to Mummy. "Sorry, one can't help but tease you at times Jessica, I was really thinking like a little excitement together." while caressing over her satin covered breast. Suddenly a beaming smile shone from my face as I turned to kiss her like she is my lifesaver. "Open your side drawer dear." Mummy said sounding very cheerful about it. In doing so real girly squeals parted my sissy lips. Sitting there folded neatly were two large satin scarves, one red with a mix of white gold and yellow patterns over it, the other a deep blue with a silver and pale blue paisley pattern. Taking both in my trembling hands I asked Denise which one would she like to wear. Well any decision got taken quickly from Denise or me when Mummy suggested we close our eye and pick one out of her hands. Really I don't think either cared which one we wore, the arousing pleasure would be just the same. I watched eagerly as Denise shrouded her head completely in the beautiful red patterned satin scarf. In turn I started to perform the same task only trying to do it this time quickly and in their company I failed miserably. "Let me do it for you dear." Mummy suggested and offer welcomed. In no time I sat aroused with head veiled the same as Denise my clitty standing proud under my satin nighty, my hands caressing lovingly over Denise's satin covered head as she rested her head at my shoulder while I told her how divinely beautiful it felt. I was feeling her hands fondling over my nighty up over my veiled head, pulling her close wanting to kiss or at least experience the sensation of our satin covered lips against the others. "Before you get to carried away I want a couple of photos of my girls together, then you will be able to see how adorable you both look." Mummy said. With her help we sat or lay cuddling, kissing, stroking each others scarf encased head, it was fun in a way not really seeing the other but each flash of the camera shot through like a small lightening strike. "Right I'll leave you in peace now." before a wee kiss landed on Denise's and my heads. The main light went out leaving as now in a dimly lit room just able to make out the image lying beside you. I don't know how to explain the amazing lustful sensation of being together like this not being able to see the others satin shrouded body only to snuggle passionately. Our concealed lips kissed the best they could with all the same tenderness as always, loving words still able to be expressed and heard, our hands working overtime touching, fondling wherever not wanting to let the other go anywhere, both clitties oozing pre cum through the intensity of this shameless moment. In time the heat the sweating that had developed through breathing was causing the scarf's to become wet and uncomfortable almost preventing breathing, hence getting a little to much for both of us. We lay calmly untying each others satin scarf to expose two rather reddish moist faces, somehow we both began licking the wetness from the others face like one would see puppies doing, it was a very enjoyable togetherness moment licking off the others sweat. Looking to each other with carnal lust in our eyes, our hands seemed to automatically begin fondling over the others satin covered body. Feeling Denise's taut nipples through the satin sent soft moans of elation from deep within her shimmering body, letting my hands proceed ever so slowly downwards, kneading gently the whole way till I arrived at one standing obstacle, offering one soft kiss to it before retracing my path. Her eyes closed while deep in impure thoughts didn't stop her from saying, "Oh you mean bitch." I guess I was, knowing the state of my own pulsating clitty, so after offering a peace making kiss to her beautiful lips I returned to pay homage. Raising her pretty nighty I wiping the dribbling pre cum from her slit onto my finger then offering Denise her own silky lubricant to savour. "Can I have my finger back after you've finished with it?" as she seemed to be enjoying sucking it. "Oh I thought it was your clit you offered me?" she said smiling cheerfully. "Your mouth can't open wide enough for mine." I said. "Doesn't matter as I want it somewhere else anyway." I was told. "I love you so much Denise." on hearing that I quickly went back to her scrumptious offering. With much devotion I worked my tongue my mouth over every centimetre savouring the sexual taste of Denise as I went, letting my tongue lick under her silky foreskin, oh the taste from under there had my own clit leaking freely. Massaging her full churning basket, licking over it savouring the sweet musky aroma down there, one could stay forever. But the longer I did the longer it would be before I could satisfy Denise's wantoned pussy. Not wanting her to squirt before my clit sat deep inside her sweet little pussy, retrieving the ever present tube from my drawer I squeezed a little over her sweet anxious lips. Working one then two fingers around her lips before pushing inside Denise's sweet little vagina, hearing her soft moans of bliss along with the pushing against the invaders had me at the point where I could hold back no longer. From previous experience I quickly removing my nighty before rubbing a little lube over my already seeping throbbing length. Raising both legs up over my shoulders after offering a loving kiss to her sweet lips, looking into her smiling eyes as I positioned one blood filled organ at the entrance to Denise's love tunnel. Taking a firm hold of her thighs I pushed forward opening her little gate, gently I made my way to the next barricade, resting there for a few seconds till the way was clear allowing me to thrust forward sending every pulsating inch home. I again lay over Denise till she was comfortable with my invasion, after which I just couldn't hold back. My whole body seemed to be on fire, my lustful emotions for wanting to pleasure Denise, along with not having my basket emptied for days now had me penetrating faster with each inward thrust deeper and harder. Listening to soft moans of pleasure hearing her words "Fuck me! I need your juice filling my pussy." at the same time she began pushing against my inward thrust. After pulling her beautiful nighty up out of harms way before taking hold of her hot trembling rod in one hand stroking vigorously, in no time we both seemed to cry out together "I'm cuummming!" as my last few inward thrusts sent my juice gushing deep within, I watched as Denise also began shooting volley after volley over her front yes even her "out of harms way" nighty was in the firing line, her squirts were so intense. Completely spent and exhausted I collapsed over Denise with my clit still sitting inside her pussy while slowly deflating, our kisses were and words we spoke were words of deep love we really have for each other. As we lay there as one we both got covered in Denise's spent juice, it felt so good to feel it squashing between us till our body heat sent it into a sticky mess. As my deflated organ flopped out I was told to get a tampon from the drawer, in doing so I watched as she went to work inserting it into her pussy, saying she doesn't want to loss any over night. Watching as she did this I began thinking I'll be doing this same thing in a few weeks, the only different I guess I won't be full of boy juice wanting to keep it in. After more loving kisses and cuddles I went to work licking Denise clean the best I could for now, knowing we'll be having a shower in the morning anyway. With Denise's nighty sitting where and how it should on an innocent girl, I put my nighty back where it belongs, wrapped exhausted in each others arms we drifted off into a beautiful peaceful sleep to the sound of gentle heart beats from not quite, so innocent girls. Damn these alarm cloaks 6:30am had arrived, the only good thing about it was I could put my lips straight onto Denise's this morning to offer her my usual good morning along with the taste of each others tongue as they seemed to just invade on impulse or whatever. After little cuddles it came time for Denise to do the normal morning things and make herself more beautiful to face those boys at school 'lucky bitch' before departing my room she put Princess and Cuddles in beside me for company. Taking both lovingly in my arms after a wee kiss to each I proceeded in telling them all about my night with Denise, even showing them the now worse for wear satin scarves we used, which I just had to keep hold of with teddies. It didn't seem that long till Denise returned looking so stunningly different to the way she left about an hour before. Noticing I now held the scarves she put her nighty long side me saying, "You have a lot of washing to do this morning little girl, don't you?" while showing me the cum stain as well. "I don't mind washing at least we know it is spotlessly clean after I do it and ironed without winkles also. But usually Mummy gives me a lovely kiss before hand?" I said pouting my lips waiting the arrival of hers, all I got was the nighty dropped over my face. With my morning bathroom duties completed, hormone cream massaged in followed by the pumps, which I'm beginning to love seeing the cups now filled with my flesh. Back in my nighty and dressing gown sitting eating my bowl of girly food, I couldn't help but notice the small glass of water alongside a saucer holding one little yellow capsule. I don't know whether it was in anticipation of enthusiasm or apprehension but shivers just ran through my whole body at the sight of the little offering. Food and cup of tea consumed I asked, "Do I have my little pill now Mummy?" while looking at it like it was about to bite me. "Just wait a minute I'll be there soon." I heard her say from the kitchen, I'm sure I could swallow it without any help. In no time she arrived displaying a lovely beaming smile. "You're making me so happy darling for wanting to endure this most private womanly experiences. Stand up sweetheart so I can put it in your mouth for you." she said taking the little offering from the saucer along with the glass of water. I stood opened mouthed tongue out and eyes looking into hers waiting the arrival of this yellow capsule. I felt it being placed on my tongue at the same time the water glass placed in my hand, "Now swallow it down like normal darling." I was told. Without a second thought I did as advised, it was now well inside ready to start the 21day process for me to having my first menstrual cycle, I drunk all the water just to make sure it went all the way down. "Come here sweetheart." Mummy said opening her arms ready waiting to offer her girl a beautiful mother/daughter embrace and kiss. "You will have one at the same time every morning from now on, that way we know you have it, OK?" she made known. "Do you mean the cuddle and kiss, or taking the pill?" I asked smiling knowing exactly what she meant, but there is nothing like making sure you're in for more kisses and cuddles is there? Back in my room ready to change, I noticed a new light blue floral cotton day dress lying over the bed along side a blue silk petticoat matching panties and training bra and breast pads. After removing my pumps I sat deep in thought about my next 21 days or more to the point the 7 days that follow while trying to concentrating on doing my makeup. Mummy must of wondered what had happened for me to take so long this morning as she came to enquire. She assured me I'm worrying about nothing and to pay more attention to Denise in a few days as she starts hers. Then she told me about a letter in the mail this morning. Oh my God it is a letter from her solicitor asking to ring and confirm an appointment for one day next week for my Deed Poll thing. I just wrapped my arms around Mummy again tears trickled from my eyes then flowed uncontrollable, I could have been happier hearing the great news, at last I'll be all Mummy's even in name. All my earlier thoughts about my periods had evaporated I'm going to be Meredith Jesse Peterson, Mrs Petersons girly/boy or whatever name you want to put on me. the rest of the day went so quite I was still ironing when Denise arrived home. = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = This brings to an end Chapter 16.