Date: Wed, 26 May 2004 21:30:07 +0000 From: A. B. Subject: Caught by Cousin - TG Mine begins when I was 12 yrs old (I'm now 40). I remember reading a letter in my dad's Penthouse magazine from a guy that liked wearing pantyhose while masturbating. The next time I was in the bathroom and saw a pair of my sister's pantyhose hanging up to dry I decided to try them on. Felt so good I was hooked. My sis was 2 yrs older than me and I'd started spying on her - trying to see her naked. I remember thinking how lucky she was to be able to wear things like pantyhose that felt so good. I remember that I began to wonder what it must be like to be "forced" by society to have to wear things like dresses and bras - things that made you feel vulnerable and submissive (though I didn't use those words back then - these weren't even really conscious thoughts - didn't realize it till much later). Over the following weeks I began to try on her other clothes - panties, bras, slips, dresses - wondering what it would be like if I had to wear such things. They felt great and really turned me on. As the weeks went by I began to realize how much power girls had to decide who and when they were going to have sex with and I began to wish I'd been born a girl. The best time of my life was when I was 16 yrs old and my sis went off to college. My folks would go away most weekends to a house we had in the mountains but I had a weekend job so I'd stay home alone. I'd get dressed up as soon as they'd leave and stay that way almost all weekend (except when I had to go to work). I absolutely loved being able to sleep in my sister's panties and nighty - trying on her make up and nail polish - imagining I was getting ready to go out on a date. We had a full length wall to wall mirror in the living room and I loved dressing in different outfits, putting on some music and dancing around while watching myself. Seeing how different skirts and dresses would rise up when I'd twirl around - giving a glimpse of my panties. I was 14 yrs old I got caught one time. It was summer. My sister was down the shore for a few days with some friends. Both of my parents worked so I had the house to myself for most of the day till my folks got home. I had forgotten that a few days before my cousin Carol (female, same age as my sis - 16) was going to come over to drop off a bike. Anyway, it was shortly after lunchtime. I was in my sister's room and had put on a white tennis skirt, maroon long sleeved leotard, panties, bra, lipstick and eyeshadow. Now, my sis used to go horseback riding when she was younger and even though at this time she wasn't riding, she still had this riding crop that I had found in her closet. It was leather with a nice thin stiff handle with a rounded ball on the end of the handle a lil smaller than a ping pong ball. I loved it. It wasn't too thick and it felt perfect when I used it to fuck myself with. That particular day I had it up my "pussy" as I stood in front of my sister's mirror all dressed up. I was talking to myself saying things like "oh yes, I'm such a sexy girl. Oh fuck me, fuck my pussy" ...imagining I was with some cute guy who was fucking me when I thought I heard a noise behind me. The door to my sister's room was wide open as I wasn't expecting anyone but the mirror wasn't angled to the door so I didn't see anyone coming down the hall. When I heard the noise I turned around and looked out of my sister's door down the hall but didn't see anyone. I figured it was just my imagination and finished what I was doing and cleaned up. About an hour later my mother called from work. She asked me "Did you know Carol came by the house earlier to drop off your sisters bike?" I said "No, I didn't hear her". Then my mom dropped the bomb. She said "Were you in your sister's room wearing her clothes?" I said "Of course not!" Mom said "Carol said you were" Now Carol (was always sort of the black sheep of the family and always getting in trouble. Smoking cigarettes, smoking pot, etc...and my mom was always in denial about everything. she always wanted everything to be perfect. So I said to her "Carol must be lying. Why would I be wearing my sister's clothes" Mom dropped the subject then and she never mentioned it again. I was really worried about my cousin having seen me and whether my folks would say anything to me about it and, if they did, what they would do. When they got home that night though nothing was said so I figured my mom believed me that my cousin was making stuff up. A few days later my aunt asked if I'd be interested in cutting her lawn that summer. I said ok and she gave me a key. I was to ride my bike to her house (in the next town) one day during the week and use her lawnmower. The first day was about 2 weeks after my cousin had caught me. It was the middle of the week (a Wednesday I think) and both she and my uncle worked. My cousin was off somewhere and her older sister (who was 18 then) was at college taking some summer classes. After I finished cutting the grass and putting the mower away I went inside to cool off. I was hot and sweaty and took a shower to cool off but didn't want to put on my sweaty clothes right away so i walked around the house in just a towel. I went into my cousin's room to check out her clothes (her older sis had taken almost all of her things to college) and was surprised when I saw a pair of panties and a bra laying on the bed. I sniffed the panties but they were clean. I put them on along with the bra and then found a pretty sundress in the closet which I also put on. I then checked myself out in the mirror and rubbed my hard boy-clit thru the dress and panties. Then I decided to do some more snooping and began going thru her dresser drawers. I found a photo album and began flipping thru it. Most of the pix were nothing special but then towards the back I found some pix of my cousin in her bra and panties (not the ones I was wearing). The pix seemed to have been taken during a ski trip her class had taken (a weekend high school class trip) earlier that year. There were about a half dozen pix - most of her just posing but two of her with a boy - nothing big, just hugging in one and kissing in the other - but they were both in their underwear - he in jockeys and she in bra and panties. I got so turned on looking at these pix that I came pretty quick and almost messed the panties and dress I was wearing. I cleaned myself up and put everything back where I'd found it. Now my folks and my aunt and uncle shared a weekend home in the mountains that we used to go to almost every weekend. That weekend while we were up there I happened to have our dog sitting on my lap in the evening. I was wearing just a pair of shorts and a t-shirt and everyone else was in their pj's (my sis and my cousin were wearing nightgowns that were about mid-thigh length). My cousin came over to me and said she wanted to play with the dog. I said ok and she bent over in front of me to lift her from my lap. When she did I could see right down the front of her nightgown and I had a perfect view of her tits just hanging there. No one else noticed because you had to be rite in front of her to see down her nightgown but I got an instant hard- on. She didn't say anything but, when she picked our dog up and stood up she smiled at me. Later that night everyone else had gone to sleep except her and me. We were watching TV. She was laying on the couch and I was sitting sideways on a chair. The couch was on the other side of the room and a little behind the chair so I had to turn around to see her. At one point I turned around to say I was going to bed and before I said anything I saw that she'd apparently fallen asleep and rolled over facing away from me. Her night gown had lifted up above her ass and I could see her panty covered ass totally exposed. I took my cock out of my shorts and jerked off just looking at her. Over the next few weeks this pattern continued. I'd go over to my aunts house in the middle of the week to cut her lawn and when I finished would go into my cousins room where I'd find some bras and panties laying on her bed. I'd put them on along with some of her other clothes - jeans, tops, dresses, skirts - and jerk off. On the weekends when we were at the mountain house she'd have various excuses to lean over in front of me so I could see down her nightgown and later when everyone had gone to bed and it was just her and me watching late night tv she'd invariably position herself at some point so that I'd see her panty covered ass or crotch. I had a feeling she was doing this on purpose but, being only 14 and very shy, I wasn't entirely sure - plus I wasn't sure that, even if she was doing it on purpose she wanted me to do anything or was just teasing me. I felt it was just subtle enough to allow her to say it was all accidental and to squeal on me to my folks if I actually did anything. It was driving me nuts and I couldn't stand it much longer. Then one day when I was at my aunts and had finished cutting her lawn I was in my cousins room wearing a dress of hers and some panties and bra when I happened to look out her window. I saw my cousin come home on her bike. I freaked - she was always over her friend's house at this time of the day. I knew I didn't have time to change so I ran to the bathroom before she got inside. Once there I locked the door and began changing back to my regular clothes. I figured I'd hide the dress, bra and panties in the hamper till I had a chance to put them back and if I didn't my aunt would just wash them thinking my cousin had worn them and hoped my cousin wouldn't notice them missing in the meantime. What I'd forgotten though was that the bra and panties I was wearing were the ones my cousin had left on her bed. When she came in I heard her calling me to see if I was there. I replied that I was in the bathroom and would be out in a sec. When I came out she was in kitchen getting something to drink. I was now dressed in my regular clothes. she asked me if I was finished with the lawn and I said i was. Then she asked me if she could have her bra and panties back. I nearly wet myself! With my best dumb look on my face (not hard at that moment) I racked my brain for a response and came up with "Huh?" She said "My bra and panties. I left them on my bed before I left and you're the only one who's been here since then so I know you took them" I knew I'd been busted but I still tried to worm my way out and said "I don't know what you're talking about" Then she screamed at me and said "Bullshit! where are they!" I just mumbled "In the hamper" before realizing that if she went into the bathroom and opened the hamper she'd also find the dress I'd been wearing. Which is exactly what happened. She asked me "Did you get them dirty?" I said "No" and she went to the bathroom. I freaked at that point and followed her, hoping to get them out of the hamper before she saw her dress in there too but no such luck. She got there first and when she saw the dress she turned to me and said "You were wearing my dress too!? This doesn't get washed. You could have ruined it!" I said "Sorry" and just looked down at the floor. The she said "What's wrong with you anyway. Are you gay? Do you want to be a girl? Is that why you like to wear girls clothes?" I wasn't sure what to say. Part of me did want to be a girl. But part of me also was also turned on by girls. I loved jerking off while spying on my sister or when my I'd look down my cousins nightgown and see her tits. All I could do was mumble "I like girls". She put her hand on the back of my neck and gently steered me to the family room and sat me on the couch. She looked at her dress, bra and panties and then looked at me. "You say you like girls. Have you ever had sex with a girl?" I shook my head no. "Have you ever even kissed a girl?" Again, I shook my head no. "Have you ever seen a girl naked in person? Not just pictures in a magazine?" I nodded yes. "Who" she asked. I said "Just some girls" "Girls? more than one? what...were you peeking in the girls lockerroom?" I nodded...I couldn't look her in the eye...i was so embarrassed. "Peeking in the bathrooms?" nod "When they're peeing?" nod "And showering?" nod "At your sister?" nod...oh god...did I just tell her that I peeked at my sister! Now i looked up at her. My cousin was smiling at me. she sat down on the couch next to me. She was sitting with her legs crossed "Indian style" and her shorts were pulled tight against her crotch. I could see "camel toe" (though we didn't call it that back then) and I began to get aroused. She was holding the panties I'd been wearing in her hand - her hand resting on her thigh. My eyes shifted constantly from the panties to my cousins crotch. She asked me "What did you see when you peeked at your sister?" I said "Just her showering and stuff" "Stuff?" she asked. "Yeah, just, you know, drying off and..." "And...what...peeing?" I nodded. "Anything else?" "Well..." I began. "What...tell me...I won't say anything" "I saw her and her boyfriend a few months ago in our parents bedroom doing stuff." "What were they doing" she asked. "You know...making out." "Just making out?" "Well..." Her other hand had now drifted to her crotch. One finger ever so lightly brushing against her slit. "Were they having sex?" she asked. I nodded. Her hand pressed a little harder against her crotch. "What were they doing?" "They were doing it." I said...getting more turned on. "Doing what" she asked...knowing full well but wanting to hear it from my own mouth. "They were fucking" I said. "You saw your sister fucking her boyfriend?" she asked I nodded "You saw his dick in her pussy?" nod "Was he on top?" she asked "Not at first" I said Her hand pressed a little harder into her crotch. My eyes were moving in a triangle - from her face, to her crotch, to her hand holding the panties and back to her face. My own dick was uncomfortable in my shorts. I was afraid to move though for fear it would tent up and become more obvious than it already must have been. "Your sister was on top of him" nod "Riding up and down on his dick?" nod "And what did you do?" "I..." "You were jerking off watching them weren't you?" Carol asked. nod I could now see a small damp spot forming on my cousin's crotch. "You wanted to join in with them didn't you" she asked nod "Would you have sucked your sisters tits?" "Yes" I said "Would you have eaten her pussy?" "Yes" "While he was fucking her?" "yes" "Would you have sucked her juice off his dick?" "yes" "I bet later on you took her panties and the clothes she wore and put them on didn't you" Oh god...it was like she was there and saw me! I had...the very next day when my sister was gone I took her panties and the nightgown she'd been wearing out of the hamper and put them on and imagined I was her fucking her boyfriend. I nodded yes to my cousins question. Suddenly she tossed the panties into my lap. I almost came rite then. I looked at her. "Put them on" she said. "I...." "Go on...I won't tell anyone if you put them on." I didn't know if she meant she wouldn't tell anyone that I'd been wearing them earlier, or that she wouldn't tell anyone that I watched my sister fucking her boyfriend and wished I could help her suck his dick or if she meant she wouldn't tell anyone any of it. I looked back at the panties in my lap and then the dress and bra landed in my lap too. "Put it all on" my cousin said. I looked at her and she was smiling. I looked down at her crotch and she quickly pulled her shorts and panties to one side flashing me her pussy for a second. "Go on...put it on and I'll show you more." My heart was pounding as I stood up and walked to the bathroom. My heart was pounding. Part of me was excited at the idea of maybe seeing my cousin naked (I didn't dare hope that I'd actually get to have sex with her) but part of me was terrified that she'd humiliate me and tell my family about what a sick pervert I was. I was in a fog as I closed the bathroom door and seemed to be on automatic pilot as I stripped off my shorts, underwear and t-shirt and slipped on the bra and panties. As the dress slipped over my head I remember feeling like a change had come over me. I felt like I was a girl. I looked at myself in the mirror, swished my hips and giggled. I walked out of the bathroom and down the hall to my cousin's bedroom. As I went in I put my hands over my face, suddenly hugely embarrassed. I heard my cousin giggle and say "you look very pretty" I dropped my hands and looked at her. She was wearing only a bra and panties - having taken off her shorts and t-shirt. I began to get hard and she noticed the way the dress was poking out in front and giggled again. She told me to sit in the chair in front of her vanity and took out some lipstick and began to put it on my lips. As she did so she was whispering in my ear things like: "You make such a pretty girl. I bet you wish you had a pussy and could fuck some cute boy. I bet you wish you could be a little slut and suck off your boyfriend" When she finished putting on the lipstick she stepped back and smiled. she ran her hands up and down her own body rubbing her tits and her crotch which I could see was damp. The crotch of her panties showed a wet spot and I could smell her sex from where I sat. She smiled lewdly at me and as she cupped her tits asked "Do you want to see these?" I nodded. She said "I bet you do" I thought she was going to just tease me and not show me anything but she turned around and unhooked her bra and let it fall. Then she turned around and faced me with her hands covering her tits. She slowly took one hand away and flashed me briefly. then took the other hand. She was teasing me horribly. I was aching to see her tits. Finally, after giving me just brief flashes she took her hands away completely pinching her nipples hard as she did so and stood before me wearing nothing but her panties. My hand went to my own crotch and I started to rub my aching prick but she smacked my hand and said "Naughty girl, no playing with yourself till I say so". She rubbed her tits and pinched her nipples and asked me if I liked them. I nodded. She said "You wish you had nice tits like these?" I nodded again. She said "Well say it then you little sissy". I said "I wish I had nice tits like you". she moved closer to me. I was still sitting and her crotch was only inches from my face. the smell of her sex was stronger. I wanted to bury my face in her crotch. She reached down and rubbed her cunt thru her panties and said "Go on, say what else you want" I said "I wish I had a pussy like yours too." Then it all just came tumbling out of me. I said "I wish I was a girl. I wish I could get fucked and suck a cock and be a slut. I want to spread my legs and feel some hot guy hold me in his strong arms and fuck me hard" I cant remember what else I babbled but it was all along the same lines. I was telling her how much I wanted to feel a hard cock in my mouth and in my cunt. How I wanted to flash boys and tease them and let them peek up my skirt and see my panties. As I was saying all this Carol slipped her hand inside her panties and rubbed faster and then finally let her panties fall to the floor. I was staring at her naked cunt and I couldn't help myself. I reached out and grabbed her hips and buried my face in her cunt. I began kissing and licking her pussy. My first taste of cunt. She began to orgasm and I could taste her juices on my tongue. She reached down and pulled up my dress and rubbed my cock as her knees got weak and she sank to the floor. I came almost as soon as she touched my cock and my cum soaked the panties I was wearing. We stayed that way for a minute or two gathering our senses. The she said "You nasty little slut. Look at the mess you made in my panties. Take them off right now before you ruin my dress." I stood up and while holding the dress up above my waist I pulled the panties down. This was the first time I'd been "naked" in front of a girl since I was a toddler. My cock was shrinking but she stared at it and I began to feel like I would get hard again in a couple of minutes. I took the panties off and held them out to her. she said "don't give them to me. Clean your cum off them yourself." I turned to go back to the bathroom but she said "No. Clean them with your tongue. Eat your own cum." When I looked at her with unbelieving eyes she said "Pretend its your boyfriend's cum and eat it. You know you want to." I looked down at the cum in the panties. I could smell it and it began to turn me on. I stuck out my tongue and dipped it in the largest pool and tasted it. It was salty (as I knew it would be having tasted my pre-cum before a few times). She smiled at me and said "Yeah, that's right you little fag. Lick your cum like a good cocksucker slut". I stuck my tongue out and began to lick the cum off in earnest. Sucking it from the nylon material. I moaned and she said "MMMmmmm...tastes good doesn't it?" I looked at her and smiled. She got up and went to her bed and laid down. Spreading her legs she began to rub her cunt. My cock was quickly rising again and she patted the bed indicating that I should lay down next to her. I was shaking like a leaf. There I was in a dress holding a pair of cum soaked panties which I'd just licked clean in front of my cousin who was laying naked on her bed. It was something I had fantasized about for years but now that it was really in front of me I was scared shitless. Would she tell on me - would she humiliate me - did she want to have sex or was she just teasing me - if she wanted to fuck would I know what to do - would I screw it up and, if I did would she make fun of me even more? All these thoughts were running thru my head as I approached her on the bed. I laid down next to her and she took my hand gently and put it on her tit. She smiled at me and moved her hand under the dress I was wearing and began to rub my cock which was quickly coming back to life after having cum a few minutes before (Aaaahhh the wonder of youth). As I played with her tit and she began stroking me. She asked me "Do you like girls or are you gay?" I said "I like girls, I just sometimes wish I was one" Carol said "You've never fucked anyone have you?" I shook my head no. By now I was hard again. She took my hand from her tit and moved it lower to her pussy. She took my index finger and placed it on her clit and moved it around, showing me how to rub it. "That's my clit" she said. "You know what a clit is?" I nodded, having read a lot of my dad's penthouse and playboy magazines. Then she moved my finger to her pussy. If I hadn't cum just a couple of minutes ago I probably would have cum immediately. She had me stick my finger in her cunt which was soaking wet and began moving my hand back and forth so I was finger fucking her. "Suck my tits" she said. I moved my head down and held her tit in my other hand and began sucking on her nipple. After a few minutes of this she rolled me on my back and pushed my dress up over my hips. As she straddled me aiming my dick at her cunt she said "This is just between us ok. And this is just a one time thing you understand. After this, you act like nothing ever happened and don't expect that it'll ever happen again. Got it?" I nodded my head in understanding and she lowered herself onto my cock. The feeling was incredible. My cock was buried in my cousin's hot wet cunt. She stayed like that for a moment letting me savor the feel and then began to rock her hips back and forth. She leaned forward so her tits were over my mouth and said again, "Suck my tits". I did as she instructed and tried everything to hold off cumming. Even though I'd cum a few minutes earlier I didn't think I could hold off much longer. She began riding my cock, Grinding her pelvis against my pubic bone. "Pinch them, bite them, but not too hard" she said. As I did so she began moaning and said "Ohhh yes, mmmmmmmmm I'm cumming" That was all it took. I began to cum also. She must have known by the look on my face and she ground her cunt down even harder as I filled her pussy with a small load. After I finished I freaked. I said "Oh shit, did i just make you pregnant?" She laughed and said "Don't worry, I'm on the pill." Then she moved up and sat on my face and told me to lick her pussy. I did and tasted the few drops of cum I'd just shot in her. She moved around and directed me to lick her clit. My first taste of cunt and I liked it. Especially knowing that I'd just fucked this cunt and was tasting my own cum mixed with her juices. It took a little while and just as I was beginning to think that my tongue and jaw were getting a little tired she finally came again. In the meantime, however, the erotic nature of what we were doing got me hard again. I couldn't believe that I was hard for the third time in about an hour but there it was, poking up the front of "my" dress. After my cousin finished her orgasm she lay down next to me and noticed my hardon. She giggled and said "Boy you're a horny little thing" She pushed my dress up again and began stroking my dick. She masturbated me to another orgasm. This one was dry however. My balls having already been emptied by my previous two orgasms. We laid there a few minutes and then she realized the time and said "Oh shit, my mom will be home in less than an hour." She told me I smelled like pussy and that I should go take a shower. When I came out i dressed in my regular clothes. I asked her what she did with the dress, bra and panties and she said she threw them in the washing machine since they were all sweaty and cum stained. She kissed me on the cheek and told me I'd better get going and reminded me that this was a one time thing and that "it never happened". I smiled and said ok. Hoping that, maybe...just maybe...if I was a good "girl" and kept quite she might decide to play again sometime. One thing in retrospect that I regret however, was that I never told my cousin "thank you" for "de-virginizing" me and for helping me to live out what, to that point, had been my ultimate fantasy. When I next saw her (that weekend at our weekend house in the mountains) she did, in fact, act like nothing had ever happened between us and treated me as she always had (like her younger cousin) - which is to say she basically pretty much ignored me. But that evening when everyone else had gone to sleep and she and I were watching TV, she leaned over to pick up a magazine next to my chair and I had a good look down the front of her nightgown at her naked tits. When she stood up she saw me peeking down her nightgown and smiled and went back to the couch and began reading. I was hard and thought I'd see how serious she'd been about that "one time thing" and slipped my cock out of the leg hole of my shorts and began slowly stroking it. Finally she happened to look up from the magazine and glanced at me. She simply said "No" and went to her room. That was that. We went back to the way things were. She'd occasionally flash me "accidentally" as before but would not allow me to touch her or to jerk off in front of her. But I continued hoping that one day, she might change her mind.