Date: Thu, 19 Aug 2010 19:48:11 -0700 (PDT) From: Rose Good Subject: rubber band man part 12 As a footnote: From now on, I'm using italics for Rose's thoughts. This idea came from a dear writer friend, gwensigrist. Kudos to her! Once I got home, I decided to call Hanna, to see what I need to do with my hormones, and to tell him/her that I'd decided against their offer. Hanna said, "Why don't u come over here, and I'll give u a prescription for the hormones u'll need to enhance ur body." I did exactly that arriving about ½ hour later. Hanna answered the door wearing a cute lavender teddy, a very sheer flowing robe, a nice blonde wig, light makeup, and mule house slippers. She hugged me, saying, "I hate that ur not coming with us, but, understand, and certainly wish u the best. U know, the biggest reason I'm taking the drug? The feminine body enhancements react so much faster, with a much smoother transition and no side effects. I won't lose my sexual desires and my little clittie will continue to be completely functional. Normally, with just the hormones, ur clit and balls will shrink, and at some point become basically useless. This test drug cancels that side effect, completely. And my perky little breasts are growing so nicely, in just 3 months. I'll need to wear a bra, starting next month, I hope," she giggled. "Oh, u have a little something on ur chin, here, let me get it for u." I responded quickly, saying, "Please don't, that's a little bit of Joe's cum, and I told him I'd leave it there, till I made my decision." She smiled, "How sweet, Rose dear." I looked admiringly at the girlie form in front of me, her hips swaying, breasts jiggling a bit, her soft facial features, and all from the drug, and in such a short time. I decided at that point the I would refer to her as a `her', not him ever again. "I can see the results, and surely love what it's done for u, Hanna. I'm wondering if I made a mistake by declining. I just don't want to be completely owned, u know?" She smiled, taking my hand in her soft hand, saying, "Honey, u do what u think is right. That's what I've done, and I'm happy I did. Sure there are some hairy things, some humiliating tasks he's set up for me, but, it's just part of the training process. I'm accustomed to everything so far. Oh, sure, he'll come up with some new adventures, but, the bottom line is I'm ok with expanding my realm, letting him take me beyond my normal, hohum life. I needed more and he's supplying it in spades," she said, again giggling like a girl. I smiled, looking deep in her beautiful eyes, "Oh, my dear ur so lucky to have the courage to follow thru with ur dreams. I'm just not ready to take that plunge, not yet anyway. I have to tell u, though, I've met someone who also wants to make me his `girl', his `wife', and I'm sure the situation will be similar to urs, with one big exception: I can leave anytime I want, anytime I feel the situation is not to my liking. But, it's still giving myself to him, by body, my soul, my mind, all of it, for him to control. Again, I'm just not sure I'm ready for such a big commitment." I went on to tell her all about the last few days, with Joe, and how good everything has been, how financially well off he is, how great the sex has been, etc. When I finished, she said, "Girl, it sounds like u've found a wonderful man, albeit a little quick, but, still a good situation. It sounds like u have the best of both worlds. And his desire to help u with ur body enhancements is a plus, even though it will take longer. I wish u luck." A thought occurred to me, just as she finished her comment. "Hanna, I have an odd request, and not sure if u'd go along with it, but, I'll ask anyway. If I took the drug, in his presence, but, took it without him knowing about it, what would be the affect? Would he have the same control over me that Larry has over U, or not? And secondly, if I took the drug by myself, what would be the effects?" "Wow, ur one smart girlie girl. U're always thinking, aren't u? That's a twist, for sure, and would have to find out. Here, let me call Larry and see what he says, he should know. I'm just not sure." With that, she got up, got her phone and called him. I watched her body as she moved, so gracefully, gliding on those hi mules, as if she'd been wearing them for years. Her cute ass bounced with each step, sending little shock waves thru my body. She was hot! I wanted to pull those cheeks apart and eat her pussy till she screamed with pleasure. Her clit must have been tucked, cause the teddy was very smooth in the front, like when John had me tuck my clit and balls in the swim suit. I was liking what I saw. Having not tucked my clit, today, it was growing, and in the tight shorts, was becoming obvious. I crossed my legs, at the knee, of course, and held my hand over my groin, hoping to hide my erection. She snapped me back to reality, saying, "Ok, here's what he said, and was very sure it's the correct answer. If u take the drug, in his presence, and just him, no one else in the room, then it would have the same effect as if he `gave' it to u. U'd do as he said, with just a suggestion or command, and of course only if u were ok with it. The hormone enhancements would also be in force." "The other way, taking it with no one around, could be scary. Testing has shown, sometimes the testee is susceptible to `anyone`s suggestions, meaning, someone on the street could make u do things, and u wouldn`t know it, u wouldn`t understand why. Also, the positive hormonal effects for some reason are null and void. He seriously recommends that u don`t take it urself, as it could lead to bad things for u, when least expected. I agree, with him, please don`t take it that way." "Thank u so much for finding out Hanna, I like the idea of not losing my `maleness' down there, u know? Yes, I want to be more feminine, but, at this point, I'd like to enhance, not replace, if u know what I mean. it would be great if my clit would still function, completely, and yet the rest of my body would continue to change to the fem side. That would be wonderful. And, yes, I agree, too, taking it outside the normal route is not what I'm looking for. I want what u have, but, don't want him to know he has that power." I may be trying to squeak out a technicality here, but, to me it's worth it. "Now for another twist, can u get me the new drug? Enough to keep me going for awhile? And on another subject, Hanna, do u have orgasms from fucking? I had one with Mr. Smythe, and it was the best of my life. That would be wonderful. "Rose, u've been nothing but completely honest with us, and I think ur making the best decision for u, at this time of ur life. Ur young enough, u may want to go in a different direction at some time in the future, so, complete alteration is a big step. As I've said, this is the best of both worlds. Hard, functioning clit, and a beautiful, soft, feminine figure with nice jiggling titties," again laughing. "Yes, I'll give you enough of the test drug for 6 months, and prescriptions for two diff hormones, to be taken every other day. U'll notice a big change in about a month, and then each month thereafter, u'll see changes, but, not quite as drastic. In six months, u'll have a beautiful female body, with soft skin, full hips, much smaller waist, no hair except on ur head, and best of all, probably C cup, natural breasts with one inch or larger areoles and big taut nipples, begging for a touch. This combination of the 3 drugs is completely tested, and works perfectly. Our drug won't ever be available to the public, but, it's also perfected, and ur doses will be smaller than before, will last longer, and have a stronger effect, giving u more power over urself. Rose, I'm so glad U're doing this. To answer ur second question, that's another reason I like taking the test drug, my pussy orgasms have been enhanced dramatically. I'll shoot my juice, just about every time he or anyone else fucks me, and the feeling is so sublime. It must be an effect of the combination of the three drugs. It's wonderful." I melted at her comments, fell to my knees in front of her, sobbing, uncontrollably, needing to release all of my pent up frustrations, wanting a balance in my life, needing to know if my submissiveness will guide me, hoping my decisions are correct. She hugged me, patting my back, as my head was on her legs, her smooth girlie legs. I calmed down a little, looked up at her smiling face, and broke down, again, holding her at the waist, still on my knees, face in her stomach. "Oh, Hanna, thank u so much for understanding, for helping me, ur such a dear, such a good friend. If there is anything I can ever do for u, please don't ever hesitate to ask, I mean that, honestly." She looked in my eyes, saying, "I will, girl, I will, and thank u. I have an idea, for us sisters. A safe word we would use to the other, if we were in trouble, and needed to get out of our situation. How about ` pinky?'" "Oh, yes, that would be great, that way we'd know to come and rescue the other, if we used that word. I wanted to kiss her, feel her soft lips against mine, feel her soft frame snuggle against me, feel her breasts pressing on mine, but, I couldn't. It wouldn't have been right, not with everything that has been going on, just not right. I think she felt the same way, but, we both realized timing was not in our favor right now, as Larry was on his way over to play with her. That's why she was dressed this way, aha, ok....not for me. I'm such an idiot. Oh, well. She gave me the test drug, the two scripts, and we said our goodbyes, hugging, closely, like girls do, body to body, with no fear. I looked in her eyes, seeing a tear, as I said, "Bye girl, u be good." I had to leave, had to get out of there, as I felt there was some chemistry between us, but, didn't want to act on it. "Please keep in touch, ok?" she said. Ok, I think I know what I'm going to do, then. As I walked to my car, I noticed the same guy, who gave me directions, last time, sitting on a bench a few feet away. Our eyes met, as he smiled. He grabbed his crotch, (that universal sign to hook up between males) showing me a rather large bulge sliding down his left leg. "Hi, I saw u go in, so thought I'd wait on u, to see if u'd like to get a drink or something." I knew what `or something' was and decided to give this guy a blowjob, for his trouble. "Sure, come get in my car, where can we go for some privacy?" I asked. His eyes lit up, saying, "just around the corner is a park, usually very quiet, especially this time of the night." He got in, pointed which way to go, as I slid my hand over to his leg. I began rubbing it, sliding upwards towards my desire, his cock. Sure enough, there it was, a nice one, too. "MMMm," I said, as his hand covered mine, rubbing his semi hardness thru the his pants. "Pull them down, please," I moaned. He couldn't get them down, fast enough, fumbling with the button and zipper. Finally, there he was, in all his glory. I reached over, feeling it's strength, it's power, and knew I was making the right decision. I needed cock, period. After a few turns, we reached the park, and pulled towards the back. It was dark, and not a single car in sight. I leaned over, kissed the tip, and slipped him inside my mouth. Ah, there is that pleasure, there is what I need, there is why I'm who I am. I kissed it more, up and down, wanting to get it all wet, so, I could swallow him, down to his pubes. I needed a little more spit, so applied it as I was kissing it. He was moaning, rubbing my head and neck, as I went down on him, all the way, with his pubes tickling my nose. As u all know, that's one of my kicks, swallowing a cock to the base and resting my nose on his pubes......yep, that's hot! He had a different twist, too. He wanted me to rest there, then bounce a little on his stomach, crushing my nose on each bounce, litterally fucking his cock with my throat. Short, quick bounces. I loved it, and he seemed to, also. I didn't' want him to cum that way though, I wanted it in my mouth. "Oh, baby, suck that cock, yes, that feels great, suck it!" Well, I didn't need another invitation, and did exactly what we both wanted, get him to shoot his cum in my wanting mouth. So, I went for it, swirling my tongue on each down stroke, and sucking hard while coming back up. I was in heaven, sucking this stranger, in this dark park, trying to make him shoot his load. I bobbed my head faster and faster, using every technique I knew to get him off. And soon, I was rewarded for my diligence, feeling him tense up, hold my head and fire off his cannon, filling my mouth with that hot sauce, my taste buds going crazy. I could drink his juice daily, it was so good. I can say, without a doubt, that it was the best cum, I had ever sucked out. It had the best taste, a wonderful creamy consistence, full body, and lots of it. By far the best. Sure, u think I'm crazy, but, I'm not. Definitely, the best tasting jizz I'd ever had the pleasure of swallowing. And I told him so. I thanked him, got his #, dropped him off at the apartment complex and went home. I still had to rethink my decision, making sure it would be the right one. I felt confident, but, still had that nagging tug in the back of my mind, that created a doubt. Anyway, I'll decide by the morning, after a good nights sleep. I woke with a start, sweating from a very bad dream. I'm not one to remember them though, but knew it must have been a nightmare, not a dream. The first thought that entered my mind, after clearing my head a bit, was `will I be happy with just one man? Will I be able to go find some cock, when I want? Like last night, can that happen if I'm with Joe?' From what he said, I'm sure I'll be farmed out to his friends, as he`d mentioned `servicing his friends', either with him, or by myself, so that helps. But, still, if a situation presents itself, can I take advantage, or will he keep me in his reins. I'll call Hanna, and see what she says. "Hey Hanna, Rose, can u talk?" She said, "Sure, what's up?" "Well, I have another delicate question, that I'm sure U can answer, is it ok to talk while ur at work?" A short pause, then "Yes, no one is around." "Ok, great, here it is. I'm wondering if u would encounter someone, let's say in a restroom, and u wanted to suck or fuck him. Can u?" "Rose, I think what ur asking is if the drug or maybe the drugs `owner' would allow such an encounter. Well, there are two answers, depending on the situation. Remember, I react to and follow his every word, to the letter, so, if he's given me a directive or suggestion as u've outlined, then of course, I'd be obligated to complete his direction. How specific his words, dictate how I react, and what specifically I would do. And example: As u mentioned a guy walks up to me, and asks me to suck his cock. Let's say Larry has told me never to turn down and invitation like that. I'd drop to my knees and give him the best blowjob I could. However had Larry said, 'it's ur choice' if that happens, then I'd decide at the time, but I`d lean towards giving the bj, because he`d given me the `choice`. The second situation is if he hasn't said anything regarding such a casual encounter. Then, again, I'd be free to act on my own. Does that help?" "Yes, Hanna, very much. What instruction has he given u, if any, regarding such?" A slight pause, then, "I'm to suck any man who asks or suggests, are my instructions, no fucking, though, just blowjobs, and I must swallow. It's made for some scary moments, as he enjoys me performing in public or semi-public places, I can tell u, but, it's damned exciting too. I've sucked guys in the back of a bus, in the train station, of course, in a moving truck, on a park bench, many adult stores, multiple movie theatres and of course, countless restrooms. Sometimes I'm approached, and sometimes, he wants me to ask them to give them a blowjob. The latter is a stretch for me, as I've told u before, but, honestly, I'm getting used to it, and it excites me, now. I'm always dressed enfemme when I ask, so, the guy knows I'm a girlie, it's so hot." "Have u ever gotten a negative reaction from someone who didn't like the question? I mean, some guys don't want a girlie boi coming on to them, U know?" I could feel the flush in her face, over the phone, as she said, "No, so far, they've all been completely receptive. I've wondered if Larry hasn't set the whole thing up having his buddies out there, for me to `ask`, testing me. It's ok if he is, though. I get to suck cock, one of my favorite pastimes," she chuckled. "Hanna, thank u, so much for ur great information. That will help my decision as to how to handle my relationship with Joe. U're a dear, and I'll keep in touch. We need to get a drink sometime, or dinner, or something, ok?" Again, I could see the smile on her face, as she said, "Oh, yes, that would be wonderful." I blew off work today, needing to concentrate on my decision. I've certainly got a lot of plusses working for me, countless things, almost that were definitely in favor of me going with Joe, but, there's always that unknown, that `what am I missing' question in the back of my mind. Ok, one more call to Hanna. Maybe she has an idea. I'm stumped. "Hey Hanna, I'm sorry to be such a pest, but, ur my girlfriend, and the only one I know who can help. I keep having this `second guessing' feeling in the pit of my stomach. Can u give me any reason why? Did u have one too? Am I missing something here?" "Rose, sweetie, u're just scared, just worried, because of the unknown. That's so completely natural and expected. Anytime we have to make a major decision in our lives we wonder if we're doing the right thing, well, I think u've done ur homework on this one, and will do what's best for u, based on what u know. I have all the faith in u, girl, I know u'll do the right thing, for U. I was out of my mind, with worry, right up to accepting. Once I took that test drug, the first time, all my fears went away, poof, gone. Maybe Larry told me not to worry, I don't know, all I know is, my mind was totally at ease. U'll be ok, girlfriend, I know. Does that help, any?" "Oh, Hanna, thank u again, for being such a good friend. I don't think I could have gotten thru all of this without u. I'm forever in ur debt, and u may collect on it, any time u choose." "Ok, girl, ur very welcome, and one day I may take u up on that, so, get ready," she said, laughing. To be continued? Contact girlieross69@yahoo.comwith any comments and constructive criticism.