Date: Thu, 16 Nov 2006 12:06:07 -0800 (PST) From: *** Subject: Time for a change part 2 (TG - Young friends) This is a continuation of the "Time for a change" journal I made here. After the Halloween night, my days pretty much went back to normal with going to school and doing the regular things a 12 (almost 13) year boy would do until about 3 weeks later. I was watching a movie with my mom and she asked me if I wanted to maybe be her daughter sometimes. I said sure. She said that it seemed like I enjoyed being a girl for Halloween and it would be fun to have a daughter. I told her it was really fun being a girl and I would like to try it again. Tomorrow was Saturday, so my mom said we could go to the store to buy some new girls clothes for me. I was very excited and couldn't wait for it to be tomorrow. The next morning, my mom helped me get ready. Although I didn't have very much hair on my legs, my mom helped me shave them. They felt really nice and smooth. She fixed my hair again so I looked more like a girl and she helped me paint my toenails and fingernails a pretty pink. It was fun. I wore a tank top shirt, shorts and flip flops. Even though I was wearing gender neutral clothes, I didn't think anyone would think I was a boy because I was small and very thin and my hair was now styled like a girl. We went to a shopping mall that was in the next town so nobody would recognize me. When we got to the mall, at first I was a little scared that someone would be able to tell I was a boy, but nobody even really looked at us. Most were busy walking and shopping. The first store we went into was for pre-teen girls. My mom would find a dress or skirt or top and hold it up to me and ask me if I liked it. I couldn't tell what they would look like on me, but I liked them all and I liked that my mom liked helping me. The first thing I tried on was a tan sundress. It took me a while to figure out how to put it on, but it fit great and came down to my knees and was very comfortable. I had kind of forgotten how nice it was to wear a dress and how much more I looked like a girl in a dress. When I came out of the dressing room, my mom looked at me and said I looked really cute. I was really happy! She had me twirl around and I watched my skirt lift up a bit and move around with me. I loved the dress. I asked if I could keep it on and she said yes. We shopped for some more clothes and we got 4 dresses, 3 skirts, 5 tops, 2 pair of jeans, 3 different kinds of shoes and a purse, non-pierced earrings and some underwear things. It was really fun. I loved walking around the mall in a dress. I loved feeling the skirt touching my legs when we walked around. On the way home, we talked about how much fun it was to shop together. My mom noticed my knees were a little apart and reminded me to either hold my knees together or cross my legs when wearing a dress. I crossed my legs and it was so comfortable. It seemed so natural to sit like this again. I forgot about it since Halloween. I even tucked my foot around my ankle too, kind of double crossed. It felt so nice. I told her I liked sitting this way and I would always sit with my legs crossed when I am a girl. She just smiled at me and said I looked cute and very girly sitting like that. That made me smile. When we got home, I put away my new clothes and then helped my mom make dinner. It was so fun. She treated me like her daughter, giving me little hugs all the time and we talked about nothing and everything. I felt so close to my mom again. I really loved wearing the dress and it made me feel so different. My mom said that I used my hands more to gesture when I talked and I seemed more like a real girl. I didn't even notice that I was becoming more and more of a girl as the time passed. On Sunday, I tried on all the new clothes and decided I wanted to wear the gray top with my new blue jean skirt. The skirt was about 3 inches above the knee^Åpretty short, but it wasn't too short that it was uncomfortable. I slipped on my new blue wedge sandals and went downstairs. My mom said I looked really cute and gave me a big hug. I told her how much I loved being her daughter and I wanted to do this as much as possible. We went out for a late brunch and I didn't even think about if anyone would think I was a boy. I felt totally like a girl now. We were sitting at the table and just talking when my mom noticed a friend of hers from work. Her friend came over to say hello. Her name was Maggie and her daughter`s name was Melinda. Melinda was 13 years old. My mom introduced me as her cousin and my name was Jessica. They sat with us and we all talked for a long time. Then Melinda asked me if I wanted to go to the movies with her. I said yes and my mom drove us over to the movie theater. When we got inside the movie theater, Melinda said that she was going to meet a boy and for us to meet back up after the movie was over. I was a bit disappointed, but I bought some popcorn and a soda drink and went in alone to watch the movie. I was watching the movie when two boys sat down next to me. The boy closest to me said hello and started talking to me. He was 14, with light brown curly hair and very cute. I remember thinking that I didn't really notice boys when I was a boy, but now I sure did notice him. We whispered back and forth and I was really enjoying myself. We shared my popcorn and he put his arm around me. I really liked that. He said that I was really cute and I had very nice looking legs. I told him thank you and was glad that I wore this skirt and that I remembered to keep my legs together by crossing my legs. He pulled me closer to him and I put my head on his shoulder. It was so nice. I was just smiling up at him when he leaned over and kissed me. I kissed him back. This was the second boy I have kissed and I totally loved kissing him! He kissed me really softly for a long time and then he slipped his tongue into my mouth. I took it and sucked on his tongue and then he sucked on mine.. It was so exciting! We kissed for about 10 minutes and then the movie was over. He asked me if I could meet him again next Sunday at the movie theater and I told him I would like that very much. He kissed me good bye and I went outside to meet Melinda. She asked me if I had a nice time and I told her yes. Melinda said she saw me kissing a boy and I told her it was really nice. Melinda's mom picked us up and when I got home my mom was watching TV and asked me if I had a good time. I told her I had a great time this whole weekend and I loved being her daughter. She said I could be her daughter again next weekend if I wanted, and I said I did.