Date: Tue, 12 Jan 1999 10:52:07 PST From: G Smithe Subject: Making Amends Hello. I'm a man in my late twenties who is beginning to explore sex with other men. If there are readers out there in the same boat, feel free to drop me a line. This is a true story (well, the names are changed) about one of my few bisexual experiences, although I'm eager to have more... About three years ago I had some business which took me to L.A. I decided to call my college buddy Phil who lived with his wife Robin in a huge house on stilts, up in the Hollywood Hills. He invited me to come over one evening after my meetings, for drinks and dinner. As it turned out my last meeting was cancelled, but because my hotel was clear across town I decided I'd head over early. Phil and I hadn't kept in touch that well since school, but I knew that he was real casual and wouldn't care if I came over early. I got lost a few times driving to their house (if you've ever been to L.A. you know how easy that is) but it was still only 5:45 when I arrived. I rang the buzzer and nobody answered, and I felt like an idiot, realizing that anybody who can afford to have a house as big as his probably isn't lounging around in the afternoon. I was just about to leave when I saw a pathway leading to a side entrance, onto their huge patio. Thinking maybe Phil or Robin were out on the porch--it was a hot day--I walked out to see what I could see. Phil was nowhere to be seen, but Robin was sitting in a deck chair with a book lying forgotten on the floor, wearing only a bikini, a T-shirt and a pair of sunglasses. I'd only met Robin a couple of times---at the wedding, and for dinner once in New York--and I'd never thought she was particularly attractive, but now I stopped to look at her over the gate. Not only did she look gorgeous, but her right hand was tucked into her bikini bottom and moving in slow, languid circles. I'd seen women masturbate before, in intimate situations, but never so unselfconsciously. She spread her legs wider, keeping her bikini bottom on, and her hand kept circling and circling as my own cock grew in my underwear. Afraid of her seeing me and afraid of stopping her, I just stood there and watched as she moved faster and faster, her hips rising slightly from the deck chair. My hands were both in my pockets, caressing my cock from the inside. I was afraid of coming and staining my pants, but too chicken to just take my cock out and watch her. Her breath grew louder and sharper, and her hand shifted so it looked like she was fucking herself underneath the bikini. Finally, she came, her legs shuddering and her hand clutching herself. I was literally trembling with desire, but I played it cool and walked back up the path, and then strode back down it noisily, calling Phil's name. "Hey," I said, when I reached the gate. Robin was sitting up in the chair looking a little flushed but unruffled. "I'm sorry I'm so early, but I had nowhere else to go." "No problem," she said, and opened the gate to let me in. She shook my hand and my cock grew erect again as I felt the warmth of her fingers, knowing where they'd been. She offered me a drink and I followed her into the kitchen, discreetly sniffing my fingers as I did so. I swore I could smell just a bit of her cunt. Robin made a pitcher of some rum drink with limes and mint leaves, and by the time Phil came home we were both pretty tipsy. The spell of her masturbating in front of me had faded a bit and I didn't feel so desperately horny--just enough for a hot masturbatory session of my own when I returned to my hotel room. It was too hot to cook, so Phil ordered some Thai food delivered and we ate it right out of the boxes, talking about old times and drinking more of those delicious drinks. Soon I was so buzzed the room was practically spinning and I was having trouble following the conversation, but luckily Phil was doing most of the talking, going on and on about his house which he'd bought just six months earlier. "And I love the deck," he was saying, "we're far enough away from the neighbors that you can lay out there in complete privacy and not worry about anybody seeing you." "Oh," I said, before I could stop myself. "I wouldn't say that." Robin blushed bright red, giving me a sharp and embarrassed look. "What did I miss?" Phil asked. "I thought you were a bit too casual when you said hello," Robin said. "What are you talking about?" Phil asked. "He watched me!" Robin said, pointing at me. "You know what I like to do out there honey, and your college buddy watched me!" "Is this true?" Phil asked me. Luckily we were all drunk so the conversation flowed more easily than it would have otherwise! I looked Phil in the eye and nodded. "Well," he said, "I guess I should kick your ass, but I won't, as long as you make amends." "How can I do that?" I said. "It was an accident, seeing her like that. What can I do about it?" "You can jack off for me," Robin blurted. "No way," I said. "Fair is fair," Phil said, and he and Robin teased me and teased me until I said I'd do it, right there in the living room. I stood up, the room spinning, and unbuckled my jeans, letting them fall to the floor. Despite all my unfinished arousal from earlier, I wasn't that hard, between the booze and my own embarrassment. I could see that my cock just lay there, only half-erect, in my underwear. "I can't do this," I said, gesturing to my cock. "Oh," Robin said, "do you need a visual aid?" And with that she stood up and took her shirt off, unbuckled her bikini top and showed me her breasts, which were small and pale, with big dark nipples. "Do you need more?" she asked, and tugged down her bikini bottom. Even though Robin was a brunette, her pubic hair was reddish, catching the dim light of the living room. I felt my cock tent up in my underwear as I looked my friend's wife over. "Yeah," Phil said, "do you need some help there, pal?" And to my amazement, HE stood up and peeled off his shirt and jeans, meeting my eyes before taking his boxers off. I suppose I'd seen Phil naked before--we shared a bathroom at the dorms, for god's sake--but I'd never really noticed him, and the sight of his hairy, dark cock, gently curling upwards, was enough for me to take off my underwear and begin stroking myself. I like to jack off my having one hand clasping my balls and the other running lightly up and down my shaft to make it last as long as possible, and so, drunk enough to shed my selfconsciousness, I began to do it. Phil and Robin sat side by side on the couch watching me standing in front of them like I was on TV. Occasionally they would kiss, and before too long they were caressing one another, PHil leaning in to suck Robin's breasts and Robin touching Phil's dark, curved cock. "Just as a visual aid," Robin said again, her voice slightly slurred, and she lay down on the couch, spreading her legs and touching herself as I'd seen her do on the patio. Phil looked at her for a moment, and then, looking at me, took his cock in hand and guided it into her cunt, moving slowly for my benefit. I began to work my cock in earnest, never taking my eyes off Phil's cock as it sunk in and out of her, getting shiny and damp in the process. "You like this?" Phil asked me, and I could only nod. He began to pause before entering her, meeting my eyes each time, but before long he was too engrossed in fucking to notice me as I jacked my cock harder and harder with one hand, pumping my balls with the other. Robin was watching me too, and, finally, as my orgasm approached, she curled out a hand to beckon to me. Trembling, I walked over to the couch, and Phil looked up, almost bumping right into my cock. As if by magic, both Robin and Phil opened their mouths and began licking the tip of my cock. I stopped jacking off as a man took me in his mouth for the first time, Robin moving down to lick at my balls and nuzzle at my asshole. Moaning loudly, I came stronger than I ever had before, bucking up and down and sending jets of cum all over Phil and Robin's faces, one last stream of it landing on Phil's back as he began banging away at Robin. The two of them moaned in orgasm just as my own orgasm throbbed to a close. I collapsed onto the edge of the sofa and listened to the sound of our slowing breathing. I spent that night on the couch, way too drunk to drive, and I hoped in the morning that we might have more sex. After staring at Phil's cock I was hoping to get it in my mouth--my first time giving a blowjob. But in the morning it was awkward and we were all a bit hungover and the mood just wasn't right. I left for New York the following day and aside from Christmas cards I haven't really heard from Phil since, although I dream of his dark and hairy cock, hoping that one day the curve of it will pass through my lips.