Date: Sat, 14 Oct 2023 13:59:36 +0000 (UTC)
From: Ben Johnson <salvete1300@yahoo.com>
Subject: Being a Dutiful Sissy Husband - Part 8 (Bisexual/Authoritarian)

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Being a Dutiful Sissy Husband – Part 8

I did, indeed, sleep on the couch that night.  Our daughter, Heidi, got up
the next morning and gave me a sideways glance.  "You must've really pissed
Mom off yesterday."  She said as she made her way to the kitchen.

"Watch your mouth, Heidi." I retorted.

"Sorry, Dad."  Heidi responded as she continued to round up her breakfast,
cereal, fruit, and a glass of orange juice.  Laying on the couch, I started
gazing at Heidi and took in the similarities to her mother, Ann.  Heidi was
a little taller, 5'7" (Ann was 5'6").  Heidi was much thinner.  I am not
sure what she currently weighs but it can't be more than 105 pounds.  Her
hair is very similar in color to my wife's, both have brown hair.  Heidi's
is much longer, it goes down almost to her waist, whereas my wife's hair is
just below her shoulders.  At this point, Ann came into the room.

"How did you sleep, Ben?" She asked, with a large dose of sarcasm.

"As good as could be expected, how about you?"

"Just wonderful.  Good morning, Heidi.  Anything special happening at
school today?"

Heidi responded, "A couple of quizzes today and, afterschool, I have a
Model U.N. meeting.  I won't be home until after five."

"Sounds like a busy day."  I interjected.  "Good luck with the quizzes."

"No worries, pop.  They both should be easy."  Heidi was as smart as she
was cute.  I am very happy for her as she should have some exciting
opportunities in life, depending on where she wants to go.  The rest of the
morning was pretty routine.  I went out and did my run before the Miami
heat got too oppressive.  I then showered, dressed and started work in my
home office.  Ann came in as I was responding to some e-mails.

"Boy, you have given me a lot to digest, Ben.  I thought I could handle
your deception, but I don't know if I can.  Before I decide, I still want
to hear the rest.  Tell me more."  I swiveled around from my desk and
looked at her.

"I get it.  I am truly sorry and I know that I can't undo what I have done
but I am still willing to be completely transparent from this point forward
now that you know about my, ahem, hobbies."  I looked at her earnestly and
she just stared back at me.

"Did you ever fuck this Sophia broad?"

"No."  Ann's face showed some relief, though I am not sure why.  In my
mind, after everything I had told her about (plus everything else I have
done), I was having a hard time discerning what difference it made.  In any
event, Ann wanted to know more so I continued to tell her.

Over the next several weeks, I stopped hearing from Sophia.  The last I
heard from her was that she was now seeing someone in Arizona, could be
husband number four, for all I knew.  In any event, that bird had flown.
Like many people, when the pandemic hit, most everyone went into lockdown
mode.  However, after a few months, I could no longer contain myself and
needed to find an outlet. I started perusing the personals on Reddit and
going on Doublelist, just to see if there was any activity. The number of
postings had dropped but there was still a decent amount of activity. I was
happy to see that many listings were looking for other Covid free folks for
their hook-ups. All I could think about was getting my lips around a nice
cock and forcing it into my throat, hoping that my partner would grab the
back of my head and face fuck me. Mmmm, I started getting hard as I relayed
this to my wife. God, I love cock! Anyway, I had to go into the office on a
Saturday and I thought this would be a good chance for an additional
excursion. I reposted one of my listings and immediately got a number of
responses. As usual, I had to sort through the pretenders from the
contenders and exchanged notes with several guys. I thought I had a good
connection with a guy that is near my office, he sent me a pic of his cock
and I started drooling. It was beautiful. But when it was time to get his
address, he ghosted me. This happened a couple of more times and my
frustration grew as my window of opportunity closed. That night, I stayed
up late watching exclusively sissy hypno porn and I jacked off several
times to try to sate my hunger. It didn't work. By Tuesday of the next
week, I was looking again. This time I got to the finish line. A dude
posted that he really needed a good blowjob from a sub. I sent a note and
he responded almost immediately with a few pics. He said his cock was eight
inches and super thick. Looking at his pics, his dick was nowhere near
eight inches, but it had the biggest, I mean the biggest, mushroom shaped
head I had ever seen. Wow! I could just imagine my lips sliding up and down
that huge head. I had to have it! He gave me his address, it was an
apartment building in the Loop (Chicago) and he told me to just give the
guy at the front desk his name and apartment number when I arrived. I got
into my car and immediately started streaming some sissy hypno vids to
really get me into the mood to suck cock. I was pleasantly surprised by the
lack of traffic and made it to his building in less than 30 minutes.

It was a rainy overcast day. I was wearing a pair of slacks and a
button-down shirt. In addition, I wore a pullover to keep myself dry from
the rain. I put on my mask and entered his building, I gave his name and
apartment number to the front desk attended and he just waved toward the
elevators and told me to head on up. It was an older building that had been
recently remodeled. The elevators were vintage and the ride up to the 21st
floor took some time. Despite the number of times that I have done this, I
always get anxious before a hook-up. My stomach churned with butterflies as
the elevator slowly climbed up. The mixture of nervousness and anticipation
is quite an adrenaline rush as I thought about this guy's huge cockhead and
getting my lips around it. The elevator finally reached his floor. I took
my mask off and found his unit and knocked on his door.

I was greeted by the guy who sent the pictures but there were some stark
differences from those pics. First, it looked like he hadn't shaved in
several days. He was wearing a pair of long basketball shorts and a dago
T. His name is Pete (not really) and he looked to be about 5'8" and a
little over 210 pounds. He wasn't a bad looking dude but being unshaven in
his outfit did give him a homeless vibe. He lived in a one-bedroom
apartment and the place was quite...unkempt. I wouldn't say it was dirty,
rather it was very disorganized and cluttered. He had books and papers all
over the kitchen area and by his desk in the living area. Next to his desk
was a couch and he walked over to it and turned to face me. I just looked
at him and then I looked at the floor, it was faux hardwood. I must've made
a face as I thought about how this was going to impact my knees when he
said, "Would you like a pillow?" I gratefully accepted the offer, and he
went into his bedroom and brought out a pillow and plopped it on the floor
in front of him. I took off my pullover and my shirt but left the rest of
my clothes on. I knelt down in front of him. Instead of sitting down, he
just stood there. Through his shorts, I traced my hand over his growing
dick. My own cock twitched from my arousal, feeling his growing member. I
started licking his dick through his shorts as my hands grabbed his
ass. After a few moments, I pulled down his shorts and underwear. Pete
stepped out of them but continued to face me as I looked at his cock for
the first time. Wow, the head on it was amazingly huge. The rest of his
dick looked pretty normal sized, thick, about six inches but I was
transfixed by the giant head. I started by kissing that mammoth
head. Little pecks all over it as it continued to harden. I then started
licking it, savoring the taste. I really do love the taste of cock. Pete
continued to get harder as he stood there, and I finally took him into my
mouth. Mmmmm, he felt wonderful! I slid my mouth down his shaft until his
huge head was resting at the back of my throat. I started sliding my mouth
up and down to get his dick wet with my saliva and then I deepthroated
him. What a feeling! His huge head in my throat. Pete just groaned. I
continued to slowly go up and down his shaft. I was overcome with a feeling
of euphoria as I continued to suck his dick. Occasionally, I would stop at
the tip of his dick and swirl my tongue around that mammoth head. I was in
heaven!

Pete eventually decided to sit down on his couch, and I crawled between his
legs and continued to work on his cock. After a couple of moments, I took
my mouth off his dick and dropped down to suckle on his balls. As I licked
and sucked on his nuts, I started sliding my hand up and down on his
cock. At that point, he pushed my off, and embraced me, telling me that he
didn't want to cum so soon. I returned the hug and caressed his back until
he let go of me and I then dropped back down to suck on his dick. I then
started stroking him as I continued to suck, and Pete started groaning and
told me he was going to cum. I continued to suck on him, again he said, "I
am going to cum." Apparently, he wanted to give me an opportunity to get my
mouth off of his dick. Instead, I briefly stopped, looked at him and said,
"Give it to me." I then started stroking and sucking on his cock faster and
I could feel him tense up and he started shooting his wonderful load as he
groaned "Here it is!" His cum was delicious. I continued to suckle his
cock, making sure I didn't miss any of his juice. Pete just laid on the
couch and said "Man, that was great! You can keep working my dick if you
want." So, I did. I kept suckling him, now marvelling at how large his slit
felt as I tongued his head. I would slip my tongue into his piss slit and
it almost felt like I was rimming a tiny ass. As I continued to tongue,
lick, suckle, and suck, it didn't take him long to get hard again.

I went back to work on him, sucking and stroking at the same time as his
cock hardened again. I thought I was going to get a chance to really enjoy
his dick this time but after only a couple of minutes he was ready to cum
again. I gratefully took his jizz a second time and again suckled on that
massive head to make sure I didn't miss any of his seed. After a couple of
minutes, I got up and put my shirt on. Pete put his shorts back on and
waited for me to get dressed. Once dressed, I thanked him, and he said he
is the one that should be giving thanks as he walked me to the door. I left
and headed home. The whole ride home I relived the encounter in my head and
was feeling great that I was able to get him off, not once but twice. I
felt really good about myself, about being a whore and about loving cock.

Needless to say, that encounter only emboldened me to find another dick to
suck and as luck would have it, I received an e-mail a couple of days later
from a dude responding to one of my previous posts on Doublelist. He
included a pic of his cock, which was nice but not anything extraordinary
and I thought, `Who cares, I love dick and I should be happy to suck any
cock, regardless of its shape or size.' Just thinking that turned me on as
I relished my sluttiness. I responded to the guy and he quickly e-mailed
back. Tim (again, not his real name) indicated that his wife was out of
town, and he was working from home this week. I asked where he lived and as
luck would have it, he was less than 10 minutes from where I lived. I
agreed to meet him right away. I told the family that I had to go to the
office for a bit and headed over to Tim's place.

Tim lives in a condo. I parked outside his building, rang his unit and he
buzzed me in. His place was on the second floor, and I reached the top of
the stairs just as he opened the door to let me in. I would guess that Tim
was close to 60, about 5'10" and close to 200 pounds. He has a typical
"dad" bod (or maybe "grandad" bod) with a belly and kind of a fat ass. He
was dressed in nice shorts and a shirt and was well groomed. Immediately
upon entering his place, his hands started groping me as he thanked me for
coming over. He asked me to follow him, and we went into what appeared to
be a guest bedroom. It was a big room but there were stuffed animals
decorating the room and I assumed that this is typically used for family
guests. He asked me to undress, and I did. His hands continued rubbing all
over my body. My left arm went around his back while my right hand started
caressing his bulging cock inside his shorts. As I did this, he leaned into
me and started kissing me, forcing his tongue into my mouth. `Mmmm' I
groaned in appreciation as his tongue sent electric shocks through my body,
turning me on. He stopped kissing me and said `Man on man sex, I love it! I
put some porn on the computer.' I looked over, and on the computer monitor
I saw one dude barebacking another dude. Interestingly, while he had porn
playing on his computer, he had jazz playing on his stereo. The local
public radio station plays jazz on a daily basis, and I found the visuals
and sounds to be quite erotic. I dropped to my knees and put my mouth
against his shorts encased cock. He unbuckled his belt and unzipped his
shorts. I then pulled his shorts and underwear down, helped him step out of
them and I started nuzzling his hard cock. I would guess that his cock is a
little less than 6" and was reasonably thick. I kind of smiled to myself as
I thought about my developing ability to estimate cock size. Another tick
mark for my sluttishness. He smelled like he recently showered, and his
cock tasted wonderful. Tim let me suck on his dick for a couple of minutes
before he implored me to move to the bed.

He got onto the bed and laid on his back and I went down on his cock in
earnest. God, I enjoy deepthroating dick. Given his size, I was able to
take him all the way down without him entering my throat. While I wasn't
able to enjoy my throat getting fucked, his cock was fun to suck,
nonetheless. Soon, he grabbed both his legs behind his knees and pulled
them up high. I dropped down to suck on his balls while I stroked his dick
and Tim let out a moan. `You like sucking my dick, don't you?' `Mmm, hmm' I
responded. Since he was still holding his legs up high, I dropped down
further and started licking his ass. `What are you doing??? You like
licking a man's hole? Oh my god, that feels great!' I rimmed him for a
couple of moments before licking from his asshole all the way up to the tip
of his cock and began sucking him again. Tim moaned, `God, this feels
incredible!' I started stroking him as I continued to suck on him and Tim
groaned, `I am going to cum if you keep doing that. Do you want me to come
so fast?' I stopped sucking him and said `I am in no hurry' and I started
kissing and nibbling on his legs. After a couple of minutes, I went back to
his cock. `Lick my ass again!' Tim rolled over onto his hands and knees and
I buried my head into his butt crack and started rimming him again. `I have
never done this before, this feels incredible, you are incredible!' I just
kept rimming and started stroking his cock, almost like I was milking a
cow. It didn't take long and Tim said `Oh, man, I am going to come!' I
grabbed his legs and rotated them to get him to roll back over. As soon as
he was on his back, my mouth was on his cock. He grabbed the back of my
head and held it in place as he grunted `Here it comes!' I felt him pulse
and soon felt my mouth fill with his spunk. It was delicious. I continued
to suckle on him as I made sure to lick up his entire load.

After a couple of minutes, I stopped suckling him and started getting
dressed. Tim did the same, all the time telling me how great that was. I
was beaming with pride. I may be a whore I thought but at least I seem to
be a good whore... Just as I finished getting dressed, Tim started hugging
me and caressing my back and ass `You have a really nice ass, I love your
body!' `Thanks' was all I could think of to reply. I started to move to
leave but Tim kept holding me and grinding against me. I looked at him and
he leaned and started kissing me. I felt his cock getting hard again inside
of his shorts. I stopped kissing him and asked, `Would you like me to suck
you off again?' Tim didn't need me to ask twice and he quickly got
undressed while I remained fully clothed. Tim went back to the bed and I
knelt down and started sucking him again. After a couple of minutes, he got
back on his hands and knees and said, `Please lick my hole some more.' I
happily obliged. This time, I rimmed him for a long time, a really long
time. It probably wasn't more than five minutes but when you have you
tongue in someone's ass, time appears to stop. I continued to lick him and
at one point I looked over to the dresser. There was a mirror on top of the
dresser, and I saw my reflection in the mirror. My face in the middle of an
older dude's asscrack licking and rimming his hole. I just smiled at myself
and thought `You are such a dirty slut!'

After some time, Tim rolled back over and pleaded with me, `Can I lick your
hole?' I responded, `You want to rim me? Sure.' I dropped my shorts bent
over on to the bed and Tim got behind me and started licking my
hole. `Mmmm, that feels great!' He then stuck his tongue in my hole and it
felt like I was going to get fucked. Frankly, I wanted to get fucked but
since I didn't know this guy, I wanted to at least play it a little
safe. After a couple of minutes, I turned around and dropped to my knees
and started sucking his cock again. `Oh my god, I am so turned on. I never
licked someone's ass before, I don't know what came over me. Oh my god, I
am going to cum!!!' I eagerly swallowed his jizz for the second time. Once
again, I continued to suck on his head, making sure I swallowed all of his
load. This time, I pulled up my shorts and made my way out. Tim again
thanked me profusely and I thanked him for allowing me to service him. `Any
time' he responded. I headed out and by the time I got home, Tim had
already sent me an e-mail that said "That was a most pleasurable time. I
couldn't get enough, and I know you are all about pleasuring. You are
welcome back anytime.' I smiled and thought about what I would do next.

The next couple of weeks had been especially rough as I was incredibly
horny and had not been able to find anyone to hook-up with. While I
continued to use DoubleList, I also started using Sniffies. I had not yet
hooked up with anyone on Sniffies but I had a good number of interactions
and I was hopeful that it would be a useful platform.  Unfortunately, the
interactions I had only made me hornier. Sniffies has a `chat' feature that
makes interacting a lot easier than DoubleList. I had an opportunity to get
to know some of the other users and learn about them. The chats are cool as
I am able to talk about my turn-ons without feeling uncomfortable. The
downside is that the interactions just leave me even more horny for dick.

Anyway, after a couple of weeks of coming up empty, I finally got lucky. I
spotted a DoubleList post from a BBC looking to get sucked off ASAP. The
challenge with DL is that there are a lot of submissive cocksuckers looking
so the feeders have their choice of eaters. The post was already 20 minutes
old when I saw it and I thought I was going to be too late. Fortunately,
luck was on my side as I received an e-mail only a couple of minutes after
I responded to the post. Mike (not his real name) was located in a western
suburb and was only about 30 minutes from my house. After confirming that
we were both clean and covid free, he gave me his address and I hustled out
the door.

I don't know about you but the feeling I get before a hook-up is amazing. I
still get butterflies in my stomach, as I was feeling nervous, excited, and
anxious while I drove to his house. I put on some sissy hypno vids to
listen to the soundtracks while I was driving and my mouth was watering as
all I could do was think about the next cock I was going to suck. As my
mind wandered, my dick started getting hard as I thought about what an
absolute cockslut that I had become. Here I was, an older, married dude
with a family, driving out to suck a complete stranger's dick. Instead of
feeling guilty, I reveled in my lust as I started thinking about the size
of the dick I was going to suck. What was it going to taste like? Will he
want me to lick his ass? Hmmm, I couldn't wait. I continued to follow the
directions from Waze and continued to listen to the sissy mantras playing
in my car. `You want to suck cock!' `You love cock!' `You are a sissy
cocksucker!' Yes. Yes. Yes, I am a sissy cocksucker and I couldn't wait to
get my next one as I involuntarily licked my lips.

I got to Mike's house in just over a half hour. He sent me another e-mail
to let me know that I should park in front of his house and come right up
to the front door. I did as I was instructed and as I walked up the steps
to his front stoop, he met me at the door. Mike was wearing a mask so I
couldn't make out all of his facial features. However, he was about 6' 1"
(just a tad shorter than me), a little husky but not obese, and he also had
a close-cropped beard. He appeared to be in his late twenties/early
thirties (his posting said he was 27). The house was a small ranch with
three bedrooms. One of the bedrooms had been converted to a home office and
that is where Mike directed me to go. I could tell right away that he was
very nervous, and I concluded that getting his dick sucked by a middle-aged
white dude was clearly a compromise for him. I tried to keep him at ease
and followed his instructions. I did as I was told and walked into the
room. Mike walked in behind me, went over to a chair, pulled down his
shorts and sat down. I kneeled between his legs and caressed his half-hard
dick. It wasn't as impressive as I expected but it was still very
nice. After a couple of kisses and licks, I started sucking on it. As I
sucked, it got harder... and bigger... and harder... and bigger! After just
a couple of moments, his dick was rock hard and had to be at least eight
and a half inches. As I suckled on the head, I was giddy with delight as I
had hit the jackpot. I sucked him and started taking him deeper and deeper
into my mouth. God, his hard dick felt so good in my mouth, and I felt so
content sucking on it. Occasionally, I would start stroking his beautiful
ebon shaft with my right hand while I dropped down and licked and sucked
his balls. His ball sack was much smaller than I would've expected, given
the size of his dick but I still enjoyed suckling on his nuts while my
nose, pressed against the base of his dick, took in the scent of his body.

The scene was almost perfect. I was on my knees sucking on a beautiful,
big, black cock. There were only two things that detracted from the
encounter. The first was that Mike clearly was nervous and kept his eyes
closed the entire time and never uttered a word. The second, was that his
dick was so hard, that its curve made it impossible for me to
deepthroat. No matter how many times I pushed my mouth as far down as I
could, his dick just would not go into my throat. If Mike had been more
comfortable, I would've seen if we could change positions so that my throat
could have lined up better with his dick. I have now sucked a decent number
of cocks, but Mike's was by far and away the stiffest one I have ever had
the pleasure of sucking.

As I continued to try to take as much of that piece of meat as possible,
the head kept rubbing the back of my mouth. This must've felt really good
because it didn't take long before Mike started groaning. He was so quiet,
I almost missed his orgasm. Luckily, my left hand was on his thigh and his
thighs started shaking and right after that, my mouth started filling up
with his cum. Mmmm, it was delicious. I continued to suck on him and was
prepared to make sure his cock was nice and clean. Unfortunately, right
after he orgasmed, he gave a nervous laugh and started pushing me away. I
got to my feet and thanked him, he just grunted and told me that I could
leave the way I came in. I made my way out of the house and back to my
car. Despite not being able to deepthroat him, I was on cloud nine during
the drive home, feeling contented and satisfied that I was allowed to
service another cock.

After my last encounter, I continued to be hungry for more dick. Not having
any luck on Sniffies or Doublelist, I reactivated one of my own DL posts
and I immediately got a few messages. Unfortunately, they were primarily
from dudes that were just too far away from me, given the time I had
available. I did get one response from a guy that was not too far from my
house, and I immediately jumped on it. After confirming that he was clean,
I headed to his place. I was excited when I got there as he lived in a nice
townhouse in a nice area. I was extremely excited until he opened the
door. The man that greeted me was much older and much heavier than I
expected. However, this did not really bother me, as I have always been
pretty agnostic when it comes to physical appearance. I am really all about
the cock and I remained optimistic as I entered his home. The guy was
really nice, I have to say that. But the encounter was disappointing for a
couple of reasons. First, his dick never got fully hard. Maybe that was my
fault but I don't think so. Second, he had pretty bad body odor. Given the
number of encounters I have had, this was the first time I was kind of
repulsed by the scent of my partner. He just smelled of stale sweat. So,
the combination of his age, weight, flaccid dick, and smell made the
encounter less than stellar. Having said this, there were still some
appealing things about this encounter.

First, the guy came three times. I don't know how he did that, given his
age, but I was able to get him to cum three times. That made me feel
good. Second, the guy liked to talk dirty and that is always a turn-on for
me. Finally, after sucking him off twice while he laid on his back on his
bed, the third time, he had me roll over on my side, stuck his cock in my
mouth and fucked my face until he came a third time. That was also kind of
hot. I just wish his cock got fully hard. His cock was not very big, maybe
five inches at best. But with his dick being only semi-erect, it made the
encounter not very memorable. When I came home after that encounter, I was
a little depressed. First, my recent BBC never reached back out to me and
now, I just had a less than ideal experience. But, as I thought about what
happened, I got turned on by thinking about what I had just done. I went to
an older dude's house, sucked him off three times, and didn't get any
sexual gratification for myself. Isn't that what a sissy cocksucker is?
Should it matter what I think of the guy? My purpose is to give an alpha
pleasure. To swallow his spunk, if he lets me.

Feeling a little better about myself, the next morning I reactivated my DL
post again and waited to see if I would get any response. I had a limited
window and posting in the morning is usually a challenge. Most guys aren't
in a position to be able to get their dick's sucked early in the
day. Whether it is work, school, or something else, trying to hook up with
someone before lunch is a crapshoot. Fortunately, for me, I got lucky. A
dude in the city responded to my post and even sent a body pic. He said
that he was in his mid-thirties, had a seven-inch cock and would love to
have a submissive sissy cocksucker service his tool. After exchanging a
couple of notes, I was in my car, heading to his apartment in the city. It
took about 30 minutes to get there. I found a parking spot and sent him a
note that I was outside the door of his building. He came down shortly
thereafter to let me in. First, I was struck by the fact that he was a
good-looking guy. He did look like he was in his 30's, had black hair, was
about 6'2" (close to my height) and was hwp. We went upstairs to his unit
and went inside. It was a little awkward, at first. He explained that he
had just moved in and that he had to put down his older, ailing dog. Why
did you just tell me that??? I tried to change the subject and asked if he
was now settled in and did he like the new neighborhood? He talked for a
couple of moments and then asked me if I wanted some water or something
else to drink. I politely declined. I was there for one thing and he saw
the look on my face. `So, you like sucking cock, huh?'

`Absolutely!' I responded as we walked into his bedroom. I dropped down to
my knees and started rubbing his hardening dick through his pants. He had
already undid the button on his pants so I started pulling down the
zipper. One of the most erotic moments for me during my encounters is this
little bit before I start working on the guy's dick. Feeling his dick
inside his pants, rubbing his crotch, looking up at him as I am on my
knees, these are all incredibly erotic moments that really turn me on. I
couldn't wait to start working on him. Jim (not his real name), laid down
on his bed. I then pulled his pants off and crawled between his legs and
started caressing his hardening dick. I just felt... content. That I was in
the right place doing what I was meant to be doing. Not only content but
also euphoric. It really gave me a natural high as I leaned in and kissed
the head of his cock for the first time. I won't recount the usual details
of my cocksucking as it is similar to my previous encounters. I got to
lick, suck, kiss, and nibble on his nice dick. I sucked on his balls, and I
even licked his ass. No, what I would rather recount was the dialog we had
while I was sucking on his beautiful cock.

Jim loved to talk, and it was amazingly hot! He urged me to be his little
cocksucker. He ordered me to lick and suck his balls. He asked if I liked
rimming and pulled my head into his asscrack to lick his hole. Hmmmm, it
was fantastic! He started asking me about my previous encounters. What was
the biggest cock I sucked? Did I ever have a bbc? Did I love swallowing
cum? Did I eat my own cum? How often did I suck dick? His questions never
seemed to end, and he really appeared to like my answers. Then he said
something that I have been longing for, `Would you like to suck my dick on
a regular basis?' `God, yes!' I responded. I would love to have a regular
feeder. An alpha that would dominate me without being cruel or using
humiliation. Jim started talking about his experiences. He said that he was
openly bi and that his favorite encounters were with married couples. He
said that he was in the medical sales industry and that he got the
opportunity to meet a lot of kinky doctors that liked having threesomes and
orgies. His stories were great. I don't know if they were true or not but
they really added to the ambience of the encounter. I was so turned on. In
the end, the encounter only lasted a little more than 10 minutes when Jim
couldn't hold out any longer. With one hand he grabbed his dick and with
the other, he grabbed the back of my head and held it with the head of his
cock in my mouth. He stroked himself a few times, tensed up and flooded my
mouth with his cum. It was delicious. I continued to suckle him to make
sure I got every drop. The post orgasm suckling and nibbling is also
incredibly arousing for me. After a couple of moments, he got restless, so
I stopped and started to get ready to leave. Jim put his pants on, thanked
me for my efforts and reiterated that we should get together again. I told
him that I would send him a note and that I would love to help him out any
time.

After the poor encounter the day before, I was floating on cloud nine on my
drive home after this one. It was an ideal encounter. It wasn't that his
dick was super large, or that his cum load was colossal. It was just a
really nice experience. Jim was clean, smelled good, had a decent cock, and
loved to talk dirty. I couldn't ask for anything else. After I got home, I
sent him a note and thanked him for a wonderful experience and reiterated
that I would love to take care of him regularly. I did not hear back from
him that day, or the next. My mood darkened as I thought that I lost
another opportunity to have an ongoing thing. Did I do something wrong? Was
I not raunchy enough? Was my technique lacking? I was beating myself up for
any perceived slights over the next couple of days when, on a Sunday, I got
a response from him. `Absolutely! I would love to have you come over
again. When are you available?' My heart actually started fluttering. Is
that odd? I was so excited. We traded some messages about our upcoming work
schedules and tentatively set up a follow-up for the next Tuesday.

The night before my next scheduled encounter, I got ready for bed,
butterflies in my stomach, feeling excited about my encounter the next
day. I don't know about all of you but as I have gotten older, the
day-to-day emotional highs and lows start to flatten out, life loses some
of its excitement. Maybe it has to do with having more life experiences
– you get used to them. Maybe it has something to do with getting older
and having less energy. Whatever the reason, there are times when I am just
`meh' about my life and I kind of feel a little dead inside. Well, that
night, I felt like an eight-year-old on Christmas Eve, all excited about
the presents I would get the next day. I had a hard time falling asleep as
all I could do was think about Jim's cock and getting another chance to
service him.

I finally fell asleep and the next morning I got up and did my morning
ride. My adrenaline level was high, and I powered my way through my
work-out as I was thinking about my upcoming encounter. My dick was
semi-hard as I was so turned-on thinking about this follow-up meeting. Of
course, the inevitable happened. I got an e-mail from Jim apologizing, but
that he would have to cancel. Cancel??? What the hell?? I was crushed. Jim
said that he had to set up an emergency dentist appointment for a
toothache. Really, a toothache??? Well, fuck me. My mood changed
dramatically. I went from excited anticipation to depressed. Part of me
wanted to tell Jim to fuck off but that I knew that wasn't
appropriate. This wouldn't be the first time a guy flaked on me, and it
probably wouldn't be the last. Who knows, maybe we would hook up again some
other time. So, I just responded with `Ok, hope you get some relief. Lmk if
you want to get together another time., I started thinking about putting up
my DoubleList post or maybe trying to seal the deal with someone on
Sniffies. In any event, I went upstairs to shower and get dressed for the
day.

By the time I got out of the shower, I got another e-mail from Jim. The
butterflies came back as I anxiously opened his message. ,Hey, my dentist
can't see me until later, are you still available?' What? Is this really
happening? Talk about a roller coaster of emotions. I e-mailed back that I
was available right now but that if he was in pain and wasn't feeling it,
we could do this another time. He quickly replied that he was horny and
really wanted my mouth on his cock again. I then responded that I could get
to his place in about 30 minutes. I got another immediate reply that he
would be waiting for me. I finished getting dressed and headed out. While
at first, I was thinking about whether Jim was bullshitting about the
toothache, I quickly put that out of my mind as it didn't matter. All that
mattered was that I was still on my way to his apartment to have my second
encounter with this guy. I couldn't wait. I put on some sissy hypno to
listen while I drove to his place. By the time I got there, my mouth was
drooling.

After parking and walking over to his building, I sent him a note that I
was downstairs. It was a nice morning, sunny and warm – a really nice,
fall day. I took in the sunshine, looking up and down the block, trying to
contain my excitement as I waited for Jim to come down and let me in. After
a couple of moments, Jim came outside to greet me and after saying our
hellos, I followed him inside. His apartment is on the second floor and as
we walked up the steps, I was looking at his ass, covered by his
sweatpants. I had a smile on my face as I continued to follow him down the
hallway to the entrance to his apartment. We went inside and he bolted the
door behind us. `I am sorry to hear about your tooth, but I am glad we
could still meet.' He just smiled and said, `No worries, I have been taking
Advil and as long as I am not chewing, it isn't too bad.' I followed him
into his bedroom, and he turned to face me. `So, you've been looking
forward to sucking my cock again?' I just smiled at him and dropped to my
knees. I started rubbing his semi-hard dick through his sweatpants and
looked up at him with lust in my eyes. I started kissing and licking his
hardening tool through his pants while my hands caressed and squeezed his
ass. After a couple of moments, I pulled down his sweats to free his
cock. It was as sexy as I remembered. His cock is cut, has a nice sized
head and is a nice thickness. I don't think his dick is quite seven inches
when fully hard, but it is a nice cock, and I was licking my lips in
anticipation of sucking on it.

Before I could get my mouth on it, Jim pulled his pants fully off, stepped
toward his bed while he also took off his sweatshirt. Now completely naked,
he laid down on his bed and spread his legs, inviting my to crawl between
them to start servicing his cock. I got on my hands and knees on his bed,
between his legs, my mouth just inches from his cock. I gave his beautiful
tool a couple of kisses while I caressed his thighs. Jim pulled out a
little bottle, `Poppers?' I politely declined as he inhaled deeply and the
smell of amyl-nitrate started filling the room. I opened my mouth and took
his now hard cock head into my mouth. `Mmmm' I moaned as my tongue started
swirling around the tip of his dick. I started caressing his balls as I
started moving my mouth up and down on his hard pole, getting it wetter and
wetter each time. Soon, I was deepthroating his tool as he grunted his
approval. I dropped my mouth down and started sucking on his balls while I
stroked his shaft with my right hand. Jim then pulled out a bottle of lube
and said `let's get this baby lubed-up! It's water based so you can keep
sucking it.' As I gripped the top of his dick, he squeezed some lube on the
tip and I worked it over his entire shaft as I continued to stroke
him. `God damn! That feels good!' You think that feels good? What till you
feel this. I continued to stroke his cock but dropped down my mouth to
start licking his ass. `My god, you are great!' Jim moaned as he lifted up
his legs to give me better access to his asshole.

With his legs pulled up, his arms wrapped around the back of his knees, me
still stroking his shaft, I was staring at his asshole. I then turned my
gaze up to Jim and I locked eyes with him as I placed my mouth on his
puckered hole and stuck my tongue inside and I began to rim him. `Jesus,
that feels good!' I continued to rim his ass for a couple of minutes but
soon, I was dying to get his cock back into my mouth. I left a trail with
my tongue from his hole, through his taint, his balls, and all the way up
his shaft until I took his cockhead back into my mouth. The lube was pretty
tasteless and I immediately deepthroated him. Jim groaned in
appreciation. I slid my head back up to the tip of his delicious cock and
started sucking on him while I also stroked his shaft with my right
hand. My left hand was caressing his thigh and I just felt so... content. I
loved the feeling of his warm cock in my mouth. The sounds of me slurping
on his dick coupled with his moans were incredibly arousing. Unfortunately,
it was over too soon as he started bucking his hips and growled `Here it
comes! Take my cum!' I greedily took his load as it filled my mouth and
started sliding down my throat. It tasted wonderful. I continued to suckle
him to make sure that I didn't miss a drop, but he started jumping
everytime I nibbled his dick as it was so sensitive. It was clear that he
was done with me. I gave his inner thigh a quick peck and got up. I asked
him if I could use his bathroom to wash my hands as they had a mixture of
lube and sweat that made them kind of sticky. Jim told me to help myself as
he started getting dressed. We made small talk for a few moments and then I
excused myself and left. As I walked out, I thanked him and reminded him
that he could contact me anytime and that I would love to come back.

Just like the first time, my drive home was a dream. I was in a
semi-euphoric state as I relived the encounter. Everything about it,
driving to his house, being submissive, sucking his cock, rimming him, and
finally swallowing his cum made for a fantastic experience. I could do this
every day, all day. Needless to say, I again had some powerful jerk-off
sessions after that encounter and hoped that I would hear from him
again. The mental aspect of being another guy's regular cocksucker was
really scratching an itch that I didn't know I had. It was great! Things
were quiet for the rest of the week. The following week I had to go out of
town for work and was fearful that I would miss another chance with Jim. At
first, I was happy that I didn't get a note but then I was also kind of
bummed that I didn't. Was that it? Two times and he was done? Given my
work, travel, and family obligations, I thankfully didn't have a chance to
dwell on it. But the following Monday morning, back at home, I was working
out in the basement and was feeling a little randy. As I was doing a plank,
I started thinking about Jim. What if I sent him a note? I wonder if he
would like to see me again. I don't know if it was karma but when I
finished that rep, I went to my phone and what did I see? An e-mail from
Jim. `Hey, are you available this morning? I have a huge load I would love
to give you. Lmk.' I quickly responded and I told him I could be there
within the hour. He asked me to hurry up and that he would be waiting. I
finished my work-out, showered and headed to his place, telling my wife
that I had to go into the office.

The route to his apartment was becoming familiar now and I started
daydreaming about his beautiful dick. I couldn't wait! Soon, I was back at
the front of his apartment building, oozing with anticipation of having
another go at Jim's cock. What a cocksucker I have become! That thought
just heightened my arousal. Soon, Jim was opening the door and back up to
his place we went. This time, after we got into his apartment, he
immediately started stripping off his clothes and dropped down on his bed,
naked, with his semi-hard dick beckoning me to come closer. I crawled
between his legs and immediately smelled a new scent. `Hmmm, you smell
good.' I moaned. `You like it? I just showered, the soap is scented.'
`Mmmmm' was my only response as I took his cock into my mouth. He asked if
I think about sucking off my boss or other guys I work with? Would I like
to see him fuck my wife? What other guys have I sucked off? Things like
that. I have to admit, taking my mouth off of his cock so that I could
respond, all the time making eye contact with him, filled me with a
shameful warmth that was very arousing. When he asked me why I liked
sucking his cock and I responded `Hmm, I love how hard it is. I love the
head and swirling my tongue around it. Your cock tastes great and I love
how warm it feels in my mouth.' I could feel myself blushing as I said
these things, one part of me being embarrassed but another part of me
embracing what I have become. I followed my tried and true routine. Sucking
him, stroking him, suckling his balls, rimming his ass, caressing his legs
all while trying to maintain as much eye contact as I could. Watching him
watch me added a whole other level to the experience and I tucked that
knowledge away so that I would remember to do this as often as possible
going forward. Jim also has kind of a fantasy of wanting to cum twice. `Are
you ready to swallow two loads today? Do you want me to cum twice.' Having
serviced him a couple of times already, while I would love to get him off
twice, I presumed that he was just talking. Sure enough, I responded with
`I would love to swallow your come as much as you want' as I continued
stroking his shaft. He started groaning and shaking and he grabbed by head
and pushed it back onto his cock as he shot his load. It was a nice one as
it really filled my mouth. This was the first time that I was having a hard
time keeping the load in my mouth while continuing to suck on a dick. I
persevered as his body stopped shaking, I suckled the tip to make sure I
got it all and then I swallowed. The thick, greasy load slowly slid down my
throat while I smiled at Jim. `Do you want me to keep sucking?' I
asked. Jim responded that he didn't think he would be able, and I took that
as my cue to make my exit.

Once again, I was on cloud nine for several days afterward. However, work
got very busy, and some family activities took precedence and my
cocksucking persona had to take a backseat for a bit. Over the course of
the next couple of weeks, my libido waned as I had to focus on other
things. I also did not get any messages from Jim which further diminished
my sex drive. I finally had some downtime coming into a weekend and my sex
drive perked up. I started thinking about Jim, thinking about cock, and
something that I had not thought about for some time, dressing femme. I
spent the weekend surfing Amazon for some new femme clothes as I had
another work trip coming up and I thought that it would be fun to be able
to dress up. I also started thinking about sucking cock and was bummed that
I had not heard from Jim recently – it had now been a couple of
weeks. Well, having picked out a thong, thigh highs and a dress on Amazon,
I sent Jim a note. I heard back from him later that day. `Hey, how's
things. I have been busy the last couple of weeks. I was in St. Louis for
work and this past week I had a friend in town. Are you coming over
tomorrow to suck me off?' How do you think I responded? Jim also told me
that he created a Kik account, so we started trading texts which made it
much easier to communicate. I won't get into all of the details as the
encounter was similar to the first three. However, I was excited as this
now matched the greatest number of encounters I have had with the same dude
since my encounters with Paul. It was also interesting in that Jim had me
strip for him as he wanted to see my dick while I sucked him. I gladly got
naked for him. Once again, he didn't last that long but he shot a
wonderfully tasty load into my mouth, and I greedily swallowed it all.

Over the next few weeks, my libido continued to rage but there was little
to no activity.  The pandemic persisted and people continued to stay
isolated. I interacted with some guys on Xhamster as well as some other
sites, but I was hesitant to pull the trigger due to the environment. I was
hoping that Jim would reach out to me, but he hadn't texted me since our
last meet-up. Eventually, I sent a note on Kik to Jim but he did not
respond. Meanwhile, I continued to get hornier and hornier. Normally, after
I jerk off once or twice, the hunger abates but that didn't happen. I think
part of the reason is that I had to travel out of town for work a couple of
times. In advance of the trip, I purchased a few gurly items and was able
to dress-up in my hotel room.

As I have mentioned previously, I am a pretty hairy dude and shaving my
body hair would create some unwanted questions at home. However, given how
horny I was, I did shave around my groin, waist and butt and I was very
aroused by how smooth my skin felt. I felt very feminine in my thong, thigh
highs and black dress.  I posted some of the pics I took on the subreddit
r/bbcsissies and I was immediately invited to join a Kik group and also got
DMs from a couple of black dudes with very impressive BBCs. The sexting was
hot and may have contributed to my elevated sex drive.

Another interesting feeling started entering my psyche. I have started to
really ache to be fucked. The sissy hpyno, gay, tranny, as well as straight
porn, along with the sexting on Kik have all fed into my desire to get my
ass plowed. My sex drive is not normally this prominent and I have been
like a cat in heat that past couple of weeks. I decided to try to move
forward with a meet-up with someone on Xhamster but the guy flaked. Feeling
bummed and desperate, I decided to send Jim an e-mail. Since he hadn't
responded to my Kik message I wasn't holding out much hope but Jim
responded almost immediately.

`Hey, all good here. Horny, how about you?' Jim responded. I just sent a
one-word response, `Same.' A few minutes later I got the following message,
`Are you wanting my penis?' As my lips began to drool, I messaged back, `I
really want to suck your cock!' Jim was juggling some work meetings along
with a furniture delivery, but he said he was available at 10:30. I told
him that I would leave immediately – I got to his apartment by 10:20. As
had become customary with my drives to Jim's place, I played some sissy
hypno while I was on the road. I really wanted his dick in my mouth, I
wanted to feel his cum fill my mouth and I wanted to swallow his load in
the worst way. I made great time and soon I was parked out in front of his
building.

A couple of minutes later, I was entering his apartment. We wasted little
time as we went to his bedroom. Jim pulled off his sweatshirt and then
removed his sweatpants and underwear. I immediately noticed he had a huge
scratch on his lower left leg. `I had a bad spill on my skateboard last
weekend.' Skateboarding? Really? How old are you? `I hope its not bothering
you.' I responded. Now naked, he laid down and said, `All good, it looks
way worse than it feels.' I crawled between his legs and started kissing
all around his groin area. Just like last time, I smelled the nice
fragrance of his body wash. As I took in a big whiff, I opened my mouth and
took his soft head into my mouth. Jim groaned appreciatively as his flaccid
member started hardening. Jim took out his poppers and he inhaled deeply,
and the smell of amyl nitrate started filling the room.

I cupped his balls as I continued to suck him, and he continued to get
harder. In short order, his cock was standing at attention and was nice and
juicy from my sucking. I pulled my mouth off his cock and replaced it with
my right hand as I dropped down and started sucking on his balls. `Oh man,
I love the way your hand starts stroking my dick as soon as you take your
mouth off of it.' I just looked up at him and smiled as I continued
suckling his nuts. `I love how you stroke my dick, do you like jacking my
cock?' `Hmmm, I love it. I love how it feels in my hand.' As soon as those
words left my mouth, I put his cock back into my mouth and started sucking
again. This time, I started deep throating him. His cock is just long
enough to get into my throat and the feeling is incredible. `Oh yeah!' Jim
groaned. `Fuck my cock with your face, keep going up and down on it!' I
complied with Jim's wishes. While I was doing this, Jim started pulling up
his legs. I knew what he wanted next. Once again, my hand replaced my mouth
on his cock, and I continued to stroke him as I dropped down below his nut
sack and I started rimming him. `Hmmm, that feels great!' Jim said. `Do you
love eating out my ass as much as you love sucking my cock?' `I really like
rimming your ass but there is no substitute for a hard cock in my mouth' I
responded as I went back to licking his asshole.

After a couple of moments, I moved back up to his cock and started sucking
again. Jim pulled my head off his dick as he held it in front of me. `I
don't want to cum yet, I want to edge a bit.' I started licking and kissing
his cockshaft as he held on to his dick. `Yes, taste my precum.' I licked
and sucked the juices from his pisshole and continued to lick and kiss
around the head. `You like my precum? You like being a submissive
cocksucker?' `God, yes!' I replied as I continued to rain soft kisses on
the tip of his cock. Jim then released his cock and l took his dick back
into my mouth and started sucking him again. After just a few seconds, Jim
grabbed his shaft again. `Look at me while the head of my cock is in your
mouth! I want to look at you as I shoot my load into your mouth.' With just
the head of his cock in my mouth, I locked eyes with Jim as his face
started to contort and my mouth started filling up with his cum. The
eroticism of being on my knees, looking up at Jim as he orgasmed was
incredible! It was one of those moments where the sexual desire of being a
submissive cocksucker are fulfilled. I felt so slutty, whorish, and
submissive. It was awesome! His cum continued to fill my mouth and he put
his hand on my forehead and started pushing me off his cock. `Did you like
that?' I swirled the cum around in my mouth and swallowed, looked at Jim
and said `That was great!' I looked down, saw a little more cum oozing from
his cock. I quickly dropped down and sucked up the last droplets of his
cum.

Knowing that Jim had a busy schedule, I made my exit, thanking him and
reminding him that he can call me anytime he has the urge to get his cock
sucked. Jim thanked me and I left. I made my way back to the car and drove
home. Once again, I had this wonderful, euphoric feeling during the drive
back. I also noticed that after about 10 minutes, I could still feel the
sliminess of Jim's cum in my throat. Swallowing a couple of times, I
relived the feeling of swallowing his cum. Mmmmm, it was delicious, and boy
was I horny. I got back home, and I couldn't get the image out of my mind
of looking in Jim's eyes as he shot his load. My cock was hard just
thinking about it. After dwelling on it for about 20 minutes, I finally
said fuck it and went into the basement for some private time. Hoping that
the family wouldn't bother me, I put on my panties and leggings and started
playing with myself. As I started stroking myself, I had an interesting
revelation. For most of my life, when I would jerk-off, I would be solely
focused on the feeling of my cock. Today, I was as focused on how my cock
felt in my hand. Does that make sense? Instead of just the pleasure my cock
was feeling, I was enjoying how my cock felt in my hand, just like feeling
Jim's or someone else's dick. It may not seem like much, but it really
added to the eroticism because even though I was pleasuring myself, I was
also aware of giving the pleasure, not just receiving it. I am not sure I
am articulating this well, but the feeling heightened my sexual state.  In
any event, it didn't take long for me to shoot a big load into the palm of
my hand.  I greedily slurped it up and eventually changed and went back
upstairs.

It was now getting later in the morning, and I looked over at my wife.  She
looked at me and said, "Jesus, you know you really get into recounting your
hook ups.  You really do love doing this, don't you?"

"I do, I admit it, I really do."

"Well, things are going to start changing around here, and they are going
to start changing today."  Ann was looking at her phone and typing as she
said that.

"Changed how?" I nervously asked.

"First off, I am going to get fucked today and you are going to watch, you
pathetic loser!  From now on, if we are staying together, you are going to
do what you are told.  Do you understand me?"

"I understand."  If this was the price of my confession, I would be willing
to do the penance.  As I had been recounting my adventures to my wife, it
felt like a weight was being lifted off my shoulders. A weight that I
didn't realize I had been carrying.  This had been liberating but I still
was not finished.