Date: Sat, 2 Sep 2023 21:31:27 -0700 From: Lee Inla Subject: My Not Very Straight Experiences Chapter 1 Confessions of a straight exhibitionist's real experiences. Hard to believe all that has happened and far how things have evolved and that a normally in charge of everything all the time straight guy slowly and gradually became an exhibitionist for gay men. I'd be too embarrassed to admit to anything without putting it into context. This all started because of a sexy af woman I was dating who confessed to me one drunken night how exhibitionism and voyeurism were fantasies of hers. So I obliged and found ways to show her off and it was incredibly fun. One time though she flipped the tables without me being aware and left me nude and masturbating in front of a group of her hot female friends without me knowing until just before I came, and though embarrassed I was also hooked. After that it became more often than not me being shown off and I really became trained to love the attention. Then we broke up but I was still craving being shown off. I found myself craving to be shown off so I posted an ad on dubblist seeking cfnm or women who would want a guy to show off for them. I had a few replies but nothing panned out. One woman suggested I post seeking artists to model for and even gave a suggestion as to what the ad could be. I posted the new ad she suggested and again got a few responses but nothing panned out. The same woman replied asking if I had any luck and when I told her no she suggested I might just need some art modeling experience and offered to post an ad if I'd send her a few selfies in just boxer briefs. The exhibitionist in me jumped at that opportunity and gladly sent photos and accepted her offer. Two days later she had a few replies and suggested if I had more experience art modeling I could be a bit more choosy. Despite my lack of experience she found an artist couple who is seeking a model for a new erotically themed series they are working on. They specifically want a manly guy, athletic build, not waxed smooth, but trimmed was desired, and even had a photo of an example for how I should try to manscape. I was a little hesitant at the thought of a couple but was by then so badly wanting to be on display I gladly agreed and she gave me the address and time to arrive. I was thinking about being on display all week and more than anxious to go be on display. Saturday morning I pulled up the photo and manscaped myself as close to the photos that were sent. And though the model was not waxed, he had very little hair below his chest and he only had a small bit of hair above his cock and the rest was shaved smooth including his ass. I was a bit embarrassed having so much but wanted to be the best model I could be so I followed it as closely as I could. When finished, oddly I felt almost `extra nude' having so little body hair, but surprised too I looked really quite good from all the working out I'd been doing, and less hair seemed to show my muscles more. When I arrive at the address I'm greeted by the husband and he seems like a cool guy. I'm no judge but I can tell he's attractive and imagine myself posing for a hot couple and I am reassured a little. He asks if I'm nervous and says he understands I've never been an art model before, and jokingly asks if I want a shot. "Seriously though we have wine open if you'd like a glass." "That would be great, i am a bit nervous to be honest" I am truly thinking a shot or three wouldn't be terrible. He steps away and returns with a large pour of cab then leads me to the studio where I'll be posing and gives me an overview of how to be an art model "As our subject you need to follow directions to precisely form the pose needed. Then hold the pose unless directed to move. We will occasionally use our hands to adjust your positioning, or if we feel the need to adjust you clothing, or say unbutton a button, you continue to hold still even if it tickles (he laughs). Expect that we will be trying to capture a sense of eroticism by adjusting your clothing, like maybe opening your shirt to expose your chest, or removing your shirt completely if we feel that's needed. And please remember regardless you need to remain still unless directed to adjust your pose. Just relax and let our hands do the rest of the work. We know you're new to this and will guide you, just follow our directions and it'll be fun. Do you have any questions?" "No, great summary. Thanks for the explanation, I'll try my best." I can feel myself blushing a bit at the description and wonder if he notices. "Great, I can already tell you are smart and listen well. So... we like to start in this studio sketching a model for a few sessions as we get to know each-other and then we work toward photographing the model based on what we learn from sketching them. We prefer models with little or no experience so we can have them learn to pose as we need for our work. We will start with basic poses and slowly move to more complex poses and then begin gradually finding a theme we wish, and work toward that theme, then begin photographing" He shows me some sketches that start with a clothed male model and discusses the poses. I notice the model getting less and less clothed and the poses becoming a bit more erotic somehow. "This one we themed jock" he shows me one with the model in various workout positions on a universal gym "This one passive" he shows me the model's various poses "This was themed `Interview'." Looks pensive "We themed him submissive" I blush at these "This one dominant" I blush more "We paired them" I blush even more, but I'm also picturing myself as the guy in these sketches and a little turned on and curious what theme they will find in me. He notices my blush and laughs "Shall we top that wine off" "Yes please". Happy to have something else to focus on briefly He leaves briefly and then returns with my glass of wine and another man "Lee this is Brandon" I blush realizing I'm posing for a gay male couple. "Nice to meet you Lee, let's get you comfortable on the chaise over here and get started".