Date: Mon, 29 May 2000 00:17:35 EDT
From: Roadskill@aol.com
Subject: Jus and JC

Hello everyone.  This is my first attempt ever to write a story.  I really
hope you like it.  I guess I have to say what every other story things
say....

I have no clue whatsoever if any of the members of N SYNC are gay, but you
never know!  The guys of N SYNC did not help me write this story; it would
be cool if they did tho!  Anyway, hope ya like it.

Brian
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"Might sound crazy, but it aint no lie baby. Bye Bye Bye."  The five guys
of *NSYNC finished performing their last song of the night's concert.  The
screaming of the fans got fainter as they left the stage.

"Wow, what a show!  That went really well," said Lance.

"It was so awesome, there must have been over ten thousand people out
there," JC agreed.

"Yeah."  Justin said sadly.  He looked depressed, even after a show as
thrilling as this one.

"Well someone is pumped!" Chris joked as Justin trudged off quietly to his
dressing room.  Lance looked after him thoughtfully.

'What's wrong with him?' He thought to himself.

				***************

	"I can't believe we started a group together!  I never thought I
would see you again JC" Justin had an ear-to-ear grin on his face now that
he was with JC again.

"That's right Just!  Now nothing will separate our friendship again!  I'm
so excited about *NSYNC.  I think we're gonna go really far" JC replied.

"Yea."

"I hope after Europe we can come back to the U.S."

"Yeah."  Justin was mesmerized by JC.  He stood daydreaming about JC.
About how he had a huge crush on him, how he always made Justin fell better
by just being near him, Justin loved basically everything about him.  He
just didn't know how to tell him.  He was so afraid of what that would do
to them.

'Why don't I just tell him and get it out?' Justin thought.

'Why do I think I love him; I'm not gay, am I? 'JC thought to himself.
Neither of them knew the other felt the same way....

"Just?  Justin?  Hello? You ok?" JC laughed, shaking Justin and
interrupting his daydream.

"Ummmm, yeah, wanna get some lunch?"

"All right!  Let's go!"

				************

	Since then Justin had seen a deterioration in their friendship,
which was exactly what they had been trying to prevent.  And now was the
time Justin loved JC more than ever.  He entered his dressing room.  As
soon as the door slammed behind him, Justin burst into tears.

"How can I keep this from them?  Why am I afraid to tell them?"  Justin
cried out in frustration.  But he knew exactly why.  He was afraid of what
they would think, what they would say, and what they would do.  Especially
JC.  Whenever he had built up enough courage to tell them, he always backed
down, thinking he would be kicked out of the group.  For a long time now he
had been trying.  Trying to deal with it, trying to hide it, trying to act
like he always did.

'I wish it could be the same as it always was' he thought. But it wasn't
the same anymore.  It would never be same.



There was a knock on the door.

"Yeah?" Justin said.

It was Lance.  "Can I come in" came a reply from the other side of the
door?

"Sure."  Lance entered to see a puffy-eyed Justin.

"What's up scoop?" Justin tried to look happy and energetic, without much
success.

'Is that the best cover-up he could do?' Lance thought to himself.
"Justin, what's wrong with you lately?  You're not acting like yourself "
He said.

"I don't know what you're talking about."

This was not the answer Lance anticipated.  He knew there was something
wrong.

"Bullshit Justin!  For like a year now you've been acting depressed and you
get frustrated all the time.  You used to be so full of life and always
encouraging people.  Whenever something came up, you used to look at the
better side of things.  Now it's like you just don't give a fuck! ...And I
am beginning to wonder if you actually do.  So really, what's up with you?
Why are you acting like this? " Lance said, with a hint of anger in his
voice.

"I.... can't tell.... I don't know, Lance, could you just leave me alone
right now?"  Justine responded, almost begging Lance.

And it ended there.  Lance decided he would try and get it out of Justin
some other time.  He got up and opened and then closed the door.  He didn't
go to his dressing room yet.  He stood at the door and waited to see what
Justin would do.  He could've sworn that he heard him crying.........



They all boarded the bus and Justin walked over to his bunk.  The bus
arrived at the hotel about 15 minutes later.

	There were few rooms available so Justin ended up rooming with
Lance.  They walked into the elevator; Justin was staring at JC the whole
time.  Lance took notice of this.  The guys went off to their rooms and a
very depressed Justin stayed in the hallway for a few minutes.

'I love him... but I don't want to.  I want to be straight.  I hate myself
for this.  They'll hate me for it too and kick me out.  Maybe I should save
them the trouble and just leave myself' Justin thought sadly to himself.

He finally entered his and Lance's room and heard the shower running.
Justin plopped down on his bed and cried himself to sleep.

In the shower, Lance started to think about some things.  Things like why
Justin wasn't himself anymore, and why Justin stared at JC a lot of the
time, and why Justin just cried himself to sleep, thinking Lance couldn't
hear, but he did.  Lance walked out of the bathroom and saw Justin asleep;
warm tears beginning to dry against his face.  Lance wiped ran his hands
over Justin's face and went to his own bed.

'I wish he would talk to me, we used to be good friends, but now he's so
distant...' Lance thought.


	Meanwhile, in JC's room

	JC had also just gotten out of the shower.  He had noticed Justin's
staring at him on the elevator.  JC had been having mixed feelings about
Justin for a long time too.  He liked him as a friend, but realized, after
trying to deny it to himself many times, that he wanted to be more than
just friends.  JC fell asleep naked, thinking about Justin all night long
in his dreams.


	Back in Justin and Lance's room

	"JC please don't be mad, I really need you" Lance was awakened by
Justin's voice.  Justin was talking in his sleep.

"JC, don't leave I want you, I need you...JC!  I love you more than
anything!  Please don't get mad...please, I love you more than anything.
Please understand JC," Justin was mumbling in his sleep.  Lance shook his
shoulder, causing him to wake up.

"Justin, what were you just talking about?" asked Lance, already knowing
what Justin needed to say.  Justin paused for a moment.

"Lance please don't tell him but... I think I am in love with JC."

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To be continued.  I hope this was good, I am really not a good writer so if
you have ANY comments, suggestions or ideas, send them to me at
JCJusBri@hotmail.com cause I'm running out of ideas!  Thank you for
reading.  -Bri