Date: Sat, 26 May 2001 12:35:49 -0700 (PDT) From: slpwriter Subject: Nick Lachey: My Everything-21 First of all, let me just say that this is my first time writing any kind of fiction like this. DISCLAIMER: This is a work of total fiction and is not meant to imply anything about the sexualities of Nick and Drew Lachey or anyone else mentioned in this story. Yes it's true. Nick and Jessica are no longer together. I wish them both the best and I hope that they both find happiness again one day. Nick's brother, Drew, is married to Lea, his longtime highschool sweetheart. I wish them all the best in their marriage. If you are too young to read this, or if Homosexuality offends you, then please don't continue any further and leave. Other 98 Degrees stories I'd like to recommend are. "Give Me Just One Night" by Unanoche. "69 with Jeff Timmons" by Zachary Scott Pritt "Nick Lachey" by Ken. "98 Degrees Is Hot" by Gay Night "The Reunion" by RinSong. and finally: "This Gift" by Sprout. Now, I"ll let you get on with the story. Enjoy. Chapter 21 I woke up bright and early the next morning. But this morning was not one to look forward to. I was still tired since after I cried myself to sleep, I kept dreaming of seeing Nick and Matt in intimate moments together and that woke me up in the middle of the night. Since then I hadn't been able to sleep much. I twisted and turned the rest of the night. Plus, I had done alot of thinking while I was awake last night and I thought alot about my relationship with Nick and if it was worth saving. I got up out of bed and walked across the hall and peeked in Matt's and Ben's room. They were still asleep. Since they still were asleep, I decided to make them breakfast as my way of thanking them for letting me stay last night. I smiled to myself as I walked downstairs to begin making breakfast. I walked into the kitchen and opened the refrigerator to see what was in it that I could rustle up. Well apparently they had everything I needed: Eggs, bacon, lunch meat, cheese. Everything I needed for breakfast. I grabbed 6 eggs and some butter, as well as the bacon and took them to the stove. I then cut off a piece of butter and put it into the pan, which I then set on the burner after turning it on. the butter was to keep the eggs from sticking to the pan. After putting the butter in the pan, I cracked two eggs, mixed them up and threw them into the skillet. After placing two paper towels on top of a large plate, I then grabbed the bacon and put about 12 strips of it onto the plate and then put another paper towel over the top of it to prevent splattering. I then placed the bacon into the microwave and set it on "HI" for 5 minutes. I then grabbed the cheese, and the lunch meat out of the refrigerator and returned to the eggs which needed to be turned over. After the egg looked like a pancake, I topped it with cheddar cheese, pepperoni, salami, and bologna. I then folded the eggs up into a stuffed omelet and waited for the cheese to melt and stick the eggs together. After that was done I made 2 more stuffed omelets for Ben and Matt. I hope they liked them. Then the microwave beeped and I went to get out the bacon, which was really crisp. The fat had been soaked up into the paper towel. I threw away the paper towels and got 3 clean plates out of the cubboard. I then placed the Omelets and 4 strips of bacon on each one. I then took them over to the table and set them down where we were all gonna sit. After that, I went and put the remains of the lunch meats and the cheese away. I went to the refrigerator and got some orange juice out, along with 3 glasses from the cubboard, and poured some into the glasses and set them down beside the 3 plates. I then went and placed 3 pieces of bread into the toaster in case Ben and Matt wanted toast too, before grabbing silverware and setting them by each of the plates. Just as I finished setting the table, Ben and Matt came downstairs. "Hi, Sean." Ben greeted me. "Hey, Ben." I answered him, then looked at Matt. "Hey Matt." I greeted him. "Hi, Sean. How are you doing this morning?" Matt asked me. "I've been better." I said. Matt and Ben both took a second look at me after I said that. "You look like shit." Ben said, noticing my red, bloodshot eyes. "Didn't you sleep at all?" "Not much." I said. "Everytime I closed my eyes, I had nightmares about Nick and Matt in different intimate moments together." "Aww, I'm really sorry, man." Matt said, squeezing my shoulder. Then he started sniffing. "What's that incredible smell?" He asked. "I made breakfast for us." I replied. "You didn't have to do that." Ben said, smiling. "I wanted to." I said. "It's the least I can do for you guys since you let me stay here last night. It's my way of thanking you." "We already told you, there's no thanks necessary." Matt said. "You're welcome to hang out with us anytime." "Well thanks, guys." I said. "So, shall we eat?" "Yes we shall." Ben said. "Let's all sit down." Just at that moment the toaster popped up the toast. I went to get it and brought back all 3 pieces to the table and put them on Ben's, Matt's, and my plates. Matt and Ben thanked me and started to butter their toast. I watched as they both took a bite of their omelet. I saw them both make a funny face for a minute. Oh no, I blew it!" I thought to myself. Then I decided to be brave and ask them both about it. "Don't you guys like it?" I asked with a confused look. "Like it?" Ben said, his face starting to beam. "I love these eggs! "Yeah, they're really good, Sean." Matt agreed. "What did you put in them?" Oh, just some cheddar cheese, bologna, and salami, that's it." I said smiling at them. "I didn't know if you'd like them or not, but I thought I'd take a chance. Besides, it's been a while since I cooked for anyone." "Well these eggs are delicious." Ben replied. "I think I want to eat them like this more often now." "Well you should. I said. "That one way to make sure you get all the nutrients you need from the food guide pyramid." "True." Matt said, after swallowing his bite of omelet. Then came the question I wasn't ready for. "So, have you thought about where things stand between you and Nick." Matt then asked. "Yes, but I have to discuss that with Nick." I said, taking a bite of my omelet. "We'll talk about this more after breakfast." "Alright. That works for me." Ben said, taking a sip of his orange juice. We ate the rest of our breakfast in silence and finished up 5 minutes later. "Boy, I'm stuffed." Matt said. "Yeah, me too." Ben said. "I feel like I've gained 20 pounds already." I then got a devilish glint in my eye. "Well you two could work it off later you know?" I said with a shit-eating grin on my face. That had the desired effect and Matt and Ben both blushed crimson, causing me to laugh. "Yeah, well enough about what's goes on in our bed." Matt giggled. "So, are you ready to go and face Nick now?" He asked, concern on his face. I shrugged. "Well, there's never really gonna be a right time." I said. "But I have to face Nick sooner or later, so it might as well be today." "Are you sure you can handle this?" Ben asked, with a worried expression on his face. I smiled at his concern. "Yes, I'm very sure." I reassured Ben. "If I need someone, I can always count on Danny to be there for me." "Cool man." Matt said, getting up and putting his plate into the sink. He then took Ben's as well and placed it in the sink with his. "Well guys, I'm gonna go upstairs and get dressed." I said, getting up from the table. "I'm going to go to the hotel now and get it over with." "Ok, will you call us later?" Matt asked. I glaced at him and nodded. "Good." Ben said. "Now go on up and get dressed. Matt and I are going to do the dishes." "Alright, I see you guys when I come down to say goodbye." I said to them. "Alright." Matt said, before turning back to the sink to help Ben with the dishes. I then left the kitchen and walked upstairs to get dressed since I was still only in my boxers. I threw on my jeans and shirt that I'd worn since the previous day, and grabbed my coat, checking to make sure I had my cellphone in it, before heading downstairs. I re-entered the kitchen just in time to see Ben and Matt had finished the dishes and were now making out in front of the dishwasher. I grinned and then decided to make my presence known. "Ok, you two, can you break apart long enough to hug me goodbye?" I asked with a laugh. Ben and Matt pulled apart and looked towards me. "Sure." Ben said. He let go of Matt and came over and hugged me tight. I hugged him back just as strongly, while Matt looked on, waiting for his turn. "Thanks, Ben. For everything." I whispered. "Anytime." He whispered back, then leaned into my ear and whispered: "Good luck." "Thanks." I said, before he released me, letting Matt get his hug in. "Whatever your decision is, Sean, we'll support you, no matter what." Matt said, patting my back as he hugged me. "Thanks Matt." I said. "I can't wait to tell Danny that I met you guys. He's never going to believe it!" Ben laughed. "Yeah I'm sure he wouldn't. Which one of us is his favorite actor?" I released Matt and then smiled. "You, Ben." I said. "You're his favorite." "That's not fair." Matt whined, feigning hurt. "Ben always gets the cute guys for fans." "Don't worry, Matt." I laughed, squeezing his shoulder. "There are plenty of cute guys out there that love your acting." "Yeah, if you say so, now get going. You don't want to be late." A thought then occurred to me. "Oh, guys, I came in a cab so I don't have a car to get back to the hotel?" I said, putting a hand to my forehead. "We can take you." Ben suggested. "Would you, please?" I then asked him. "I'd really appreciate it." "Sure, just let Matt and I get some clothes on and we'll be right down." Ben said, as he and Matt headed upstairs. "No funny business!" I shouted as they ran upstairs. I heard them both laugh after I said that. In a few minutes, they both came back down again and entered the kitchen where I was sitting at the table, waiting for them. "Ok, we're dressed." Matt said. "Are you ready to go?" "Yeah, lead the way." I said, getting up and pushing my chair in. I'm right behind you." I followed Ben and Matt outside where they locked up the house and Ben led Matt and I to his ruby red, Mustang convertible. I got wide-eyed when I saw it. "Wow. I breathed. "Your car's beautiful, Ben." "Isn't it?" Ben asked with a laugh as he unlocked the doors and we got in. "Yep it sure is, babe." Matt said, kissing Ben, after he'd settled into his seat. "Why thank you, precious." Ben cooed, smiling at his lover, causing me to roll my eyes. "Will you just get moving, Benny." I said sarcastically. "I want to get to the hotel. I don't want to have to watch you two go at it like a couple of sex starved monkeys." Ben turned at me with a look of digust. "First of all, Don't ever call me, Benny." He said, cocking an eyebrow, while still smiling. "And secondly, we are not monkeys, We are human." "Yeah whatever, I said smiling. "Come on, let's go." I urged him. "Alright, we're going." Ben said, starting his car and backing out of the driveway. He then put the car in "Drive" and headed towards the hotel. Ben pulled into the front entrance and let me out of the car. "Good luck." Ben said, offering his hand to me. I took it and we shook. Matt reached his hand out too and I shook his as well. "Thanks, Ben." I said. "See you later, Matt." I said as I released his hand. "Take it easy." Matt replied, giving me a thumbs up. "I will. Bye." I said to them and headed into the hotel. I walked through the lobby and headed towards the elevators. I hit the button for the 6th floor and the elevator made it's way up to that floor. The doors opened to that floor, and I started walking down the hall, thinking about who's room to go to first. I then decided on Danny and Jeff since I needed to talk to Danny first, before seeing Drew. I walked to Danny and Jeff's room and knocked on the door. The door opened, revealing Danny still half asleep and in his boxers. Once he saw me standing in front of him, he pulled me into the tightest bear hug I'd ever had from him. "Where the hell have you been?!" He whispered loudly. "You've had us all so worried." I hugged him back, glad to see him. I needed his comforting arms right now. Especially with what I was going to do later. "Drew told us that you called, and Nick tried to call you but couldn't get through." Danny said as he released me. "We've been trying all night." Nick's been going crazy wondering where you were. Where were you anyway?" I entered his and Jeff's room and noticed that Jeff was still asleep. "I'll get to that in a minute, Danny, but first I think I should wake up, Jeff. I have so much I need to tell you guys." I whispered to Danny. "Yeah, that's a good idea." Danny replied. I walked over to Jeff's bed and shook him gently. His face started to frown and he stirred a bit. "What is it, Danny?" He mumbled, his eyes still shut. "It's not Danny, Jeff. It's Sean. Wake up." I said, shaking him again. As soon as he heard my voice his eyes shot open and he looked up at me. Once he saw me, He got out of the bed and grabbed me close, hugging me. I returned it. "Where have you been, you little shit!" Jeff snapped, the worry evident in his voice. "Nick and the rest of us have been going crazy with you gone." Then I felt something poking into my crotch. It was Jeff's morning wood." I started snickering. Jeff pulled back and looked at me, frowning slightly. "What's so funny?" He asked me, confused. "Is that a hard-on I feel in your boxers or are you just happy to see me?" I asked with a smirk on my face. "What are you talking about?" Jeff asked and then looked down, noticing his morning hardon. Once he realized he had an erection, his face turned bright red, causing Danny and me to start laughing profusely. Jeff's face was so red, he looked like a broiled lobster. "Oh shut up." Jeff muttered to me, with an embarrassed smile. "It's not like you've never had any of these in the morning." "True." I said, grinning. "Would you like me to take care of it for you?" I asked and playfully reached for his crotch. "Get your hands away from me, you pervert!" Jeff laughed, jumping back to avoid my hand. "Ok, fine." I laughed. "Anyway, I have to tell you and Danny something about where I've been." "Well, don't leave us in suspense, tell us." Danny said, sitting down on his bed. I walked over and sat beside him on his bed. Jeff came over and sat on my other side, leaving me between him and Danny. "You guys wouldn't believe me if I told you." I said, smiling. "Try us." Jeff said, looking at me, curiously. "Alright." I said. "I was staying with Ben Affleck and Matt Damon at their place." Jeff and Danny both looked at me in total shock. Then Danny spoke up. "You're kidding right?" He asked. I shook my head. "No, I'm not kidding, Dan." I said to him with a straight face. "After you guys left to go to the beach, I went out and explored L.A. for a while. I decided I'd talk to Nick later. Anyway, I stopped at a restaurant and Ben and Matt came up to my table and asked me if I wanted some company." "And I'm guessing you said yes." Jeff laughed. "You bet I did." I said with a grin. "I wouldn't have passed up the chance to have dinner with two of my favorite movie stars for anything." "It sounds like you had fun." Danny said, patting my shoulder. I then remembered about Matt and Ben's movie offer. "Oh and guess what?" I said. "What" They both said simultaneously. "Ben and Matt asked me to audition for a role in their next movie, that's being cast in a few months." "Wow, Sean, that's great!" Danny said excitedly, hugging me again. "And what did you say?" "What do you think I said, you dork?" I laughed. "Of course I said yes. Who wouldn't say yes to audition for a movie that stars Ben Affleck and Matt Damon?" "So, why did you stay with them?" Jeff asked me. "Was it to talk about the movie?" I then sighed, knowing I had to tell them about Nick, but I wasn't going to tell them without the rest of the guys being here also. "I"d rather wait and go get Drew and Justin before I tell you guys what's going on. I'll be right back." I said, heading to the door. "How about I go get Nick too?" Danny asked. I whirled around and faced my best friend. "Don't wake Nick up, Danny! I don't want to see him, or talk to him just yet!" I said, the anger obvious in my voice. Danny and Jeff both looked at me in shock. They'd never heard me talk like this. or had seen me this angry before. "Why? Are you still angry over Nick storming out on you like that, when you rejected his proposal?" Jeff asked me. "Jeff, wait until I get Justin and Drew and then I can tell you all together." I said to him. "I'll be right back." I exited their room and went to the room Drew and Justin were sharing. I knocked lightly on the door. It opened and Drew stood there, looking wide awake. His face lit up when he saw me and he threw his arms around me, glad to see me. "Where have you been, Sean?" He asked, worriedly. "We've been so worried about you. Nick has been a wreck wondering where you were. We all have. "I'm fine, Drew." I said to him, smiling, as I hugged him. "At least I was." I then said as my smile faded. Drew pulled back and gave me a concerned look. "Why do you say that?" He asked. "Wake up Justin and come to Jeff and Danny's room, and I'll tell you all about it there." I said to him. "Alright." Drew said, nodding. "Just let me wake up Justin and my brother and I'll be right there." Drew said, starting to go back into the room. I grabbed his arm before he could enter back into his room. He looked at me, confused. "You will not wake up, Nick." I said to him, coldly. "Just Justin. Bring him over to Danny and Jeff's room. This is something that only you guys can hear. Nick is not to hear any of it." Drew was stunned by my tone of voice, and he looked a little scared too. I smiled and let go of his arm. "I'm sorry, buddy, but I'm still angry with Nick, and am not ready to see him just yet." I told Drew. "Just bring Justin over to the room and I'll tell you all about where I've been and why." "Alright. We'll be over in a few minutes." Drew said, smiling. Then he grabbed me in another hug. "It's great to have you back." He said. "I wish I could say I was glad to be back." I said outloud, not realizing that I had said it. "Sean, why would you say that?" Drew said, a look of worry in his eyes. "Now you've got me worried." "Never mind." I said, shaking my head. "Just bring Justin to Jeff's room and we'll talk about it." Alright. We'll be right there." Drew said. He then shut the door. I walked back over to Jeff and Danny's room and re-entered it and sat on the bed. I glanced up and Danny and Jeff and saw them both staring at me, with worried looks on their faces. "Well?" Danny said. "Hold on, Drew and Justin are coming." I said. We sat there, silently. In a few minutes, Drew and Justin entered, fully dressed and came over to sit with us on the bed. "Well you've woken us up and gotten us over here, so what is it you need to talk about, Sean?" Justin asked me, also worried. "And where were you?" He asked. The guys all sat there and waited for me to start with my story. I took a deep breath and began. "After Nick stormed out, and you guys comforted me, I decided to go out and explore L.A. for a while and give Nick some time to cool off. I got a cab and went to downtown L.A. I also stopped into a restaurant to get something to eat and to think about Nick's proposal a litle more." I explained to them. I smiled as I came to the good part. "While I was sitting there, thinking, I heard someone ask if they could join me, and you'll never guess who it was?" I stated, grinning at the guys curious reactions, Danny and Jeff already knew, so it was Drew and Justin who needed to know now." "Who?" Drew asked, with a look of curiosity on his face. "It was none other than Ben Affleck and Matt Damon." I finished. "What?! You're shitting me?! Justin exclaimed, wide-eyed at my revelation. "Nope, and guess what else?" I said. "What?" Justin asked, slightly frowning. "They also asked me to audition for a part on their next movie which will be casting in a few months." I told them, grinning from ear to ear. "That's great! I'm so excited for you, Sean." Drew said, hugging me again. "Thank you, Drew." I said, returning his hug. "I'm feeling pretty excited myself." As he hugged me, I noticed Justin giving me a knowing look. I knew that look too well. It was the "We need to talk" look. But I had more important matters to tend to. Like telling them about Nick's betrayal. But Justin brought it up for me. "Hey, Sean, if you said that you met Ben and Matt at that restaurant, then does that mean that you were staying with them last night?" He asked. I pulled back from Drew's hug and looked at Justin with a sad expression on my face. "Yes Justin, I stayed with them last night. I had my reasons." I said to him. "And what might those be?" Jeff asked. "I couldn't come back here and face you guys. Especially Nick. Not after what he did." "What are you talking about, Sean?" Danny asked me, now starting to get very concerned about me. "What did Nick do?" I could feel the tears threatening to fall, and when I opened my mouth to answer Danny, flashbacks of my opening the door and finding Nick and Matt in bed together, flashed through my mind, causing me to relive that moment all over again. Then I thought I could hear someone calling my name. "Sean?!" The voice called out. I could hear the fear in the voice. It called out again. Then I felt myself being shook. The images went away and I realized that I'd been crying, as I looked up through my tears, which were blurring my vision to notice Danny shaking me with a look of panic on his face. I looked around to notice that Drew, Jeff and Justin were all looking frightened as well. I blinked a couple of times and looked at him. "What's wrong?" I asked. "You're what's wrong." Danny said, his face still white as a ghost. "When I asked you what Nick did, you got this spaced out look in your eyes and I called out to you, but you didn't respond to us. Then we saw you start crying, we knew we had to do something." Danny then repeated his earlier question. "What did Nick do to get you to space out and start crying like you did." I closed my eyes and took a deep breath and prepared to confess the ugly truth. "He cheated on me." I said, barely audible for the guys to hear. "Say that again?" Drew asked, not sure if he heard me right. "Nick cheated on me, Drew." I said harshly. "Your fucking brother cheated on me! That took the wind out of all of them. It wasn't just that the news of Nick's cheating on me had them stunned, it was also the fact that they had never heard me use the "F" word in all the time I had known them. Even Danny was shocked. "What?! How?! When did this happen?" Drew managed to gasp out. "It happened yesterday, after I got Ben and Matt's address and phone numbers and left the restaurant to come back to the hotel. I came up to my room and found Nick in bed with Matt." I explained to him. I heard them all gasp in horror when they heard Matt's name. Then I saw anger in all of their eyes after the realization dawned on them, except for Danny who didn't know who Matt was. "What?! Drew screamed, startling us, causing us all to jump. He stood up, his face red with anger and started pacing the bedroom, his hands balled up into fists. "That son of a bitch!" Danny hissed, getting angry himself. "Did Nick and Matt see you?" He then asked me. "No." I said, shaking my head. "He and Matt were both asleep." I'll kill him! I will so fucking kill him!" Drew shouted. I had never seen Drew this angry before, but I knew I had to do something or there was gonna be trouble. "You will do no such thing, Drew!" I yelled, causing him to whip around and look at me in shock, and causing the rest of the guys to gasp at my tone of voice. "Are you crazy?!" Drew asked, looking at me, in utter amazement. "You're actually gonna defend him for what he did?!" "No, I'm not defending him, Drew." I said, tears still running down my face, but my voice calm now. "But despite Nick's betrayal, he is still your brother, Drew. He's gonna need you more than anyone else right now. You're the only member of his family that he has left, buddy. Especially after the way your parents disowned him." Drew sighed and sat back down beside me and pulled me to him in another hug. "You're right about that, Sean." Drew said, rubbing my back. "But still that doesn't mean I can't be angry with him for what he did to you." Then he pulled back and looked at me. Speaking of which, What did you do when you saw Nick and Matt together in the room?" He asked. "Yeah, Sean, We would like to know that." Danny said, still very angry with Nick. "Well I just stood there in the doorway, staring at the two of them. I felt like I had been stabbed. I walked over to Nick's side of the bed and noticed the strong odor of alcohol on his breath. Apparently, he'd gotten himself drunk after he stormed out of my room last night after I turned down his proposal. Then when I realized that Matt was in bed with him, I felt like I was going to throw up, and I left and headed to Ben and Matt's to find some comfort and talk to them about it. And they promised me they won't tell anyone about Nick being bisexual and being with me." "Ok, I guess that will have to do for now." Justin said. "Right now, We need to go over to your room and deal with Nick." "You're damn right we do!" Danny snarled. "Let me at that loser!" "Danny, stop!" I hissed. "If anyone's going to deal with Nick, or kill him as Drew put it, it's going to be me and me alone, you guys got that?! I said it with so much venom in my tone, that it scared the guys when they heard it. "Sean, please don't do anything rash." Danny said. "You mean like murder?" I asked him. "Please, I would never murder anyone." I then stood up. "Now, if you all will excuse me, I have to go and settle all of this with Nick, once and for all." I said to them. Danny came over to me and gave me a hug. "I'm so sorry, buddy." "Thanks, Danny." I said, hugging him back. I'll be alright. Listen, why don't you all go back to your rooms and wait there. I'll come and find you guys when this is all taken care of." "Alright." Jeff said, hugging me as well. "Good luck." "Thanks, Jeff, I'm gonna need it." I said. "I gotta go do this now." I got a hug from Drew and Justin, before I headed to my room. I reached into my pocket and got out my key card and swiped it through the door. It turned green and I opened the door. I noticed that Nick wasn't in his bed, and I looked over towards the bathroom and noticed that the door was closed. "He must be doing something in the bathroom." I thought to myself. "I'll just wait for him to come out and then we'll talk." Just then, the door opened, revealing Nick, fully dressed and looking good in a light blue, sleeveless shirt and a pair of black sweatpants. When he looked up and saw me standing by the bed, he walked quickly over to me and pulled me into his arms. I stiffened when his arms went around me, but Nick was too relieved and excited to see me that he didn't notice it. He pulled back to look me in the face and I could see the worry in his eyes. "Where have you been?" Nick asked, his arms still around me. "I've been so worried about you ever since Drew told me you called last night, but wouldn't tell anyone where you were." I didn't say a word and brushed his arms off of me, noticing the hurt look on his face when I did, and walked towards the balcony, my back to him. "Sean, please don't do that." Nick said from behind me. "It hurts me when you shut me out like this." Hearing this, I whirled around and gazed angrily at Nick, my eyes starting to fill with tears again. "After the way you treated me, you deserve it, Nick! I said, my voice rising. "And I'm sorry for that, Sean. You have no idea how sorry I am about how I reacted yesterday after you told me you didn't want to get married right away. After thinking about it, I made a decision later that day. "And what was that?" I asked. I was wondering if he was gonna tell me it was over and confess to his betrayal, but it didn't sound like he was, so I waited to see what he was going to tell me. "Well, I decided to come up here and apologize to you for the way I treated you." Nick answered. And also to tell you that if you needed more time to think about getting married, then I would give it to you and wait until you were ready. You just say when and We'll get married. It's up to you." "Well, isn't that so noble of you? I said, pouring on the sarcasm heavily, causing Nick to become confused. "Why are you acting like this, Sean?" Nick asked me. "And I want to know where you were last night." I crossed my arms and looked at Nick with an icy cold stare on my face, and then decided to answer him. "Fine, you want to know where I was? I was with Ben Affleck and Matt Damon at their place last night? Are you happy now?" I snarled at him. Nick frowned. I could tell he was starting to get angry himself at the way I was treating him. But also confused as to how I knew Ben and Matt. "The movie stars?" Nick asked, frowning. "How did you meet them? And what were you doing at their place? "I ran into them at a restaurant in downtown L.A. after you stormed out on me, and the guys left to go to the beach." I said to him, the anger still evident in my voice. "They asked me if I wanted some company and I invited them to eat with me. "They're really nice guys and we had a great talk. They even asked me to audition for a role in their next movie that they're casting for in a few months." "That's great, Sean!" Nick exclaimed and then frowned. "But that still doesn't explain why you stayed with them last night." "I stayed with them last night to get away from you, you jerk!" I screamed. Nick was taken aback by my sudden screaming and started getting angry himself. "Why are you calling me a jerk?! He screamed. "What the hell is going on with you, Sean?! "Why would you want to get away from me?" "Because after I had dinner with Ben and Matt yesterday, I came back to the hotel and found you in bed with Matt. You cheated on me, you selfish bastard!" I screamed, the tears streaming down my face now. Nick's angry expression gave way to total shock and horror when he realized that I knew about his betrayal. He then started coming towards me. "Oh my god! Sean, I had no idea you saw that! Nick said as he tried to put his arms around me again. "Don't touch me!" I shrieked. "Don't touch me!" Nick was starting to sob now, partly from my screaming at him and for regretting his betrayal. "Sean, please forgive me?" Nick begged, tears streaming down his face. "I'm so sorry that I betrayed you, but there is nothing between me and Matt. It was nothing but sex." "Don't you dare tell me it was nothing!" I yelled at him. "I saw it with my own eyes!" And when I think about when I let you make love to me for the first time the other night, It makes me sick! You make me sick, Nick!" I screamed as the sobs started to overtake me. "Sean, please you've got to let me try and explain." Nick sobbed. "No, I don't have to do anything, Nicholas!" I screamed. "You're the one who slept with another man! And nothing you say can ever change that, or ever make it go away!" "Sean, please I love you!" Nick screamed. "I never stopped loving you, not even for a second! "Oh please, Nick! Do you really think I'm gonna buy you stupid excuses?!" I yelled at him. "You never loved me! If you did, you wouldn't have betrayed me and slept with your ex-boyfriend! "That's not true! I do love you!" Nick said, tears of hurt and anger in his eyes. "Bull!" I screamed. "The only person you love is yourself!" Nick couldn't say anything after that because his sobbing was getting really bad. He slumped down on his bed and buried his face into his hands. I then stopped screaming and calmed down, but I was still angry. But most of all, I was hurt. My whole world had been shattered. "After what you did, I don't know if I can ever trust you again." I whimpered. "I loved you Nick. More than my own life. And while I was at Ben and Matt's place, staying the night, I had had time to think and I made a decision." Nick looked up at me, his face still wet with tears. "What's that?" He asked, his voice cracking as he continued to cry. Actually, there's something else I need to tell you first." I said. Nick nodded and I continued. "Before I found you and Matt in bed together, I was all set to come to you and tell you that I wanted to marry you after all. But there's no chance of that happening now." I said, sobbing harder as I tried to give him the offical announcement. "It's over between us, Nick." Nick's expression turned to one of total agony and he jumped up off of his bed and ran over to me. "No! Sean, please don't leave me. Please!" Nick said as he wrapped his arms around me. "Get your fucking hands off of me!" I yelled as I pounded my fists on his chest furiosly, while continuing to cry and scream. "I hate you! How could you do this to me?! you make me sick, you hear me?! You make me sick!!!" Nick made no move to defend himself from my punching, and took every blow he came in contact with. He was now in hysterics and couldn't stop his sobbing. I shoved him off of me and he landed on the bed and curled up into a ball and continued to sob. He knew he had messed up big time and that I probable would never be able to forgive him ever again. "I can't stay here with you, Nick, So I'm going to share Drew's room with him and I'll ask Justin if he wants to stay with you. I doubt he will since all of the guys know about what you did. I told them before I came to tell you." Nick looked up at me, panic stricken. "Oh my god! What they must think of me? Especially Drew." Nick sobbed, the asked. "Does he hate me, Sean?" "He's very angry with you, Nick. He even said he wanted to kill you. But I told him that he would not do any such thing and that if anyone was going to kill you, it'd be me." I told him. "But I would never murder you, Nick. I just meant that I didn't want Drew to turn against you. He loves you very much and I do know that you love him." Nick nodded. "Yes, Sean, I do love my brother." "I know you do." I said. "And I told him to be there for you, despite his anger. I don't want you and your brother to be at odds. I would die before I let a relationship like the two of you have, fall apart." "Thanks." Nick said. "You're a good person, Sean. I'm just so sorry that I took that forgranted. And now I may never get to hold you in my arms again." "Well I'm going to go and talk to the guys and ask them to have management book me a separate room. You can stay here, but I'm moving out." "I understand." Nick said, his voice calm now. "Go ahead and I'll pack up your clothes for you. It's the least I can do for being such a screw up." "Thanks." I said. "I'll see you later." I said and headed for the door. "Sean?" Nick called out to me. I turned around and looked at him. "What?" Nick hestitated and I saw tears streaming down his face again. "I love you. I'll never stop loving you." I didn't say anything. I just stared at him for a moment, and then exited the bedroom and closed the door behind me. I heard Nick sobbing again as I leaned against the door. I sighed and headed towards Drew's room and knocked. The door opened a second later and Drew pulled me into his arms, after shutting the door. "Are you ok?" Drew asked, rubbing my back. "No, Drew, I'm not ok." I said, starting to cry again. "I don't think I'll be ok ever again. I ended it with Nick. As of today, it's over between Nick and me." I continued to sob and Drew rubbed his hands up and down my back to comfort me. "Will I ever be happy again, Drew?" I asked him as I cried into his chest. "Of course you will, Sean. Maybe even sooner than you think." He said. I looked up at him and he put his hand on my cheek and wiped away the tears. We stared into each other's eyes for a moment and then Drew leaned into me and kissed me softly on the lips. We pulled apart and I looked at Drew and saw the passion and desire in his hazel eyes. I was feeling the same way. Then Drew leaned in and kissed me again, this time more passionately. I returned his kiss with equal passion and Drew pushed me down on the bed as we started making out together. Drew took off his shirt and then helped me take off mine, and then went back to kissing me, his tongue slipping into my mouth, as he did. He was an excellent kisser. Then Drew started to grind into me. Then I felt his hands on my belt and felt him unbuckling it. "Drew, wait......" I panted. Well that's it for this installment. I apologize for taking so long to get it done. I'm now working again and don't have alot of time to write as much as I used to. Plus this chapter was very hard to write. Is this really the end of Sean and Nick? Will Sean and Drew have sex? Or will Sean stop it before it get's that far? Could this be the start of a relationship between Sean and Drew? If you have any questions or comments, please email me and let me know. Stay tuned. What happens next? Oh, if you only knew! slpwriter