Date: Tue, 12 Dec 2000 21:35:30 EST From: ShaZam612@aol.com Subject: Poems, Words, and Sayings Here is a new story i wrote. Its not that good but the idea was haunting me to i wrote it. Disclaimer: I dont knwo Nsync..They arent gay... ===== Justin walked into the hospital room. "Hey, Josh. How ya feeling?" He asked. "Okay, I guess. A little tired." He said. "Here, since your gonna be in here for a while I thought I'd bring you down some reading material." Justin said handing Jc his notebook that on the cover read Poems, Words, and Sayings. JC opened up the book and began to read the first page. "When did you write this?" He asked. "After the 3rd week of MMC. I looked up to you so much." Justin said. Why Can't I Be You? You're amazing You're funny Everybody knows your name I'm nothing I would give anything to be in your shoes for a day. People say be yourself but that's not what they mean. They can't tell you to be yourself when they want to be someone else Everyone dreams of being someone other than themselves, For me it's you. Every day Every night When in sitiuations all I think about is how I could be more like you I face challenges you face and fail You survive and push forward. Everything you touch turns to gold. Everything I tough crumbles to the ground. I would give anything to be in your shoes for a day. Why can't I be you? JC looked up at Justin and smiled. "You can't be me because your you. Justin Timberlake, My life, My love, My husband." JC said. Justin kissed his forehead. "The next one was written after the episode where I messed up my line and everyone was ragging on me the rest of the day. Except you. I didn't think I could go on in the show anymore and you told me to look deep inside, find the real me and follow my heart." Sometimes I Wish Sometimes I wish I could fly Through the clouds up so high But instead I'm standing on this floor. Sometimes I wish I was magic Able to cast spells and chants But instead I'm standing outside of this door. Sometimes I wish I was special Not who I used to be But instead I'm opening this door to see, Sometimes I wish I knew all the answers Be as smart as I can be But instead I'm searching for what I've hid. Sometimes I wish I never dreamed Never got my hopes up high But instead I found just what I need. Instead of wishing Instead of dreaming I opened the door Looked through the darkness And there it was, scared and alone I found me. "So this is what helped you stay on the show?" JC asked. Justin shook his head. "No, it was you. You told me to find myself. I did." JC flipped the page. He just looked up at Justin, smiled and read. Too Beautiful Too beautiful for words You leave me breath less. Too beautiful for this world So far away from me. Too beautiful to live Right here where I am. Too beautiful to love You're what I really need. Too beautiful for me. "I wrote that when I realised I was in love with you. It was after MMC was canceled and I was in Tennessee and you were still in Florida." Justin told him. "You're too beautiful." JC said getting cheesy. "The next one was written during my depression. Right after I told you I loved you and we didn't talk about it for weeks. You didn't tell me you felt the same." Justin said getting misty "I'm sorry about putting you through that." JC said grabbing his hand. I Wish I Never Did Why do things have to happen this way? Things where going fine In a direction I wish it stayed I thought that soon you would be mine Now where not talking Our friendships at an awkword place. I saw you this morning Our eyes locked We quickly turned away. I wanted to say hello Or even a goodbye But I didn't have the guts. I am feeling nervous and I don't know why Why did I tell you the truth? The truth that it was you. I wish I could take it back I wish I never did. "You felt that way?" JC asked. "I used to," Justin said looking down at his feet. "I'm sorry," JC said. "Back to the book..." Justin said changing the subject. "The next one was written not to long ago -- after you asked me to marry you." You Your voice sends chills down my spine, Your words bring tears to my eyes, You have the face of and angel, The gentle touch of a mother, And a smile that would light the darkest room. You inhabit my mind thoughout each day. A day without you would cause to much pain. You make me smile, When I'm down you lift me up, You encourage me to follow my dreams, With you I feel complete. JC grabbed Justin's hand. "I love you." He said. "I love you too." They kissed. Justin started to cry. "Don't cry, my angel. I'm not worth it." He said taking Justin's hand. JC squeezed Justin's hand tightly. "Goodbye." He said and closed his eyes. A smile kept on his face. "Josh? JOSH?" Justin shook him. "NO!!" He cried. The doctor came in and said it was JC'S time to go. They didn't even expect him to be alive this long. The next few days went by in a blur. It was now the end of the funeral. "Josh, when I left the hospital that day I took the book with me. I took it home and wrote what I was feeling." Last Breath During your last few days we'll think of times past We will not dwell on the future and how we'll live without you. The smile on your face shines so brightly No one would be able to tell you were sick. The times by the beach, the ones at the mall Even those times we didn't speak. You were always there when I needed to talk You never judge and sat with open ears. We were destined to meet And destined to be pulled apart. When you told me you were sick my heart skipped a beat My face turned white and I couldn't breathe. You looked at me, smiled, and said you would be fine You were always trying to protect me. You said you were fine, you lied, now your almost at the end. I know I said we would think of past times But I can't help thinking any of these breathes could be you last. You looked at me and smiled, your eyes a shimmering blue I look at you and smile, my eyes a crimson red. My eyes are red because of the tears I shed for you You told me you weren't worth it and took my hand in yours. You squeezed me so tightly I looked up at you and cried Your grip slowly loosened and then you said goodbye. Your last breath was spent on me that's something special I can't share No one else will have it, not your family, not your relatives nor your friends. The times we spent together will be hard to soon forget But that smile left on your face tells me you wouldn't want me to. Justin closed the book and placed it on the head stone. "I love you." He said and walked away. ==== I dont know why I always have JC die...its just the way it flows...JC lovers dont be mad. He is my fav too!