Finding love after incredible los Chapter
2
Friday rolled around, AJ dropped Caleb and Conor
at daycare and went to his lab which was the only class on Friday. AJ got
through the lab work and documented all his results and headed to the gym.
AJ ran into some fraternity brothers Chase
& Brett (AJs little brothers in the fraternity), Steve & Brent (two
other fraternity brothers). AJ had just finished his workout, removed his shirt
and was heading into the locker room. Chase made the smart-ass comment to
AJ after losing your pregnancy weight loss and the extra gym time you are
starting to look decent again now we might just be able to get you
laid.
Brent scolded Chase, 'AJ you wouldn't kick him
out of bed for eating crackers, cause you have said as
much'. Chase grabbed Brent's ass and let him know in no uncertain terms
that he indeed would not kick AJ out of bed for eating crackers, that was supposed
to be their secret, but his heart belonged to only him. AJ had no idea
they were a couple and stared openly. AJ obviously had been wound up in his own
shit for the last year and a half with the pregnancy,
wedding, birth of the boys and Syd's death
AJ asked Chase and Brent if they had time to
grab a beer as he wanted to talk with them about their relationship. They
agreed and asked Brett and Steve to join. Everyone headed to the pub up the
street from the gym and AJ bought a round. During the conversation it
became obvious that Brett and Steve were a couple as well. AJ though `kick me
in the nuts' obviously I've been an idiot and had no clue or as they described
it, AJ had no gaydar whatsoever.
AJ asked all sorts of questions about their
relationships/sexuality when they knew, how did they know, who was the man,
who was the woman, how the other guys in the house took it when they found out,
how did their families take the news, etc. At this point in the discussion
Chase and Brett (who were family, just as if we all had the same parents)
looked at each other and then said to AJ `we'll answer all your questions,
but why are you so eager to know now?'
Before we get to answering your questions, you
need to know that we have talked about you in detail and one thing we all have
in common is that at one point in our relationship with you, we have EACH tried
to get in your pants. Brent being your pledge brother is the only one of us to
cop a feel on your pledge night he helped your drunk ass into bed and had one
hand on your ass and ultimately the other on your `package'. Nothing more than
that unfortunately...
So back to the present, there is something
different about you and we can't put our finger on it, so what the hell is
going on?
AJ didn't know how to say this, but gave it a
shot `You two remember the cop that came to the house and took me to the
hospital the night Syd died?' They both nodded and AJ continued `He showed up
at the house this summer and I was tongue tied, giddy, stupid, scared, hard and
just downright a mess.' Before AJ could continue, Chase raised an eyebrow and
asked, did you say `hard'? `Shit'.
AJ must have looked like a kid caught with his
hand in the cookie jar by his mom... as all four of them said in concert `due
tell...' Brett added, `yes you said both `hard' and `shit' out loud, so our big
is busted...' the group said `well...' AJ took a deep breath and tried his darndest
to put everything into words AJ tried to explain, he was convinced he was as
straight as they came until Scott (the cop) came to the house to check on him.
AJ got lost in his eyes, his voice, his smell and yes, AJ got hard and I'm
pretty sure he was too, but AJ panicked he didn't have a clue where this was
coming from. They all got up and hugged, telling AJ they were there to help me
figure this out and support him any way they could.
Ok so now back to your questions. They tried
their best to answer them all after they clarified one point there is no `man
/ woman' thing. We are all men, we love the hard body, the distinctly manly
smells, the cock and balls; there is nothing womanly about any of us and if
there were none of us would be interested. They went on to explain that they
were all `versatile' and depending on the mood could either `top' or `bottom';
`pitch' or `catch'. Given the looks on my face, Chase finally got down to it
depending on the mood he was in, when anal sex was involved he either slid
his dick in Brent's ass or let Brent slide his dick in Chase's ass. They did
say that some couples had a `top' and a `bottom' where each person always
performed the same role.
At that point AJ nodded, indicating that he
thought he understood, so they moved on to their family stories. They all had
slightly different stories and coming to terms with being gay, but there were
all proud of who they were and felt like they were with their soul mate. Their
families all came around eventually, Steve's were the only ones that still
seemed uncomfortable with their son having a boyfriend but had not outright disowned
him.
When it came to fraternity brothers some were
very open and supportive, some were tolerant and so far, only one openly
disapproving and he had moved out. They kept their open affections to a minimum
as did the straight boys after several discussions within the house.
At the end of the conversation, AJ still had so
many questions, but knew he had to pick Caleb and Conor up, get them fed and
get ready to head out tonight. AJ asked the guys to join he and Eva along with
her new someone tonight; they readily agreed and said our conversation is to be
continued. They did push AJ to call Scott and ask him to join they all knew
he was interested or he would not have asked so many questions and the only way
to know if it could go further was to spend time with him. AJ declined as he
did not feel he was ready and the guys acquiesced for now.
AJ picked Caleb and Conor up from daycare and
got home just as Eva was arriving with her new someone, Mat short for Matilda a
lady she had met 6 months prior and someone she intended on spending the rest
of her life with. Eva was an older version of Syd - she was 35, 5'10', blond
hair, blue eyes and a beautiful woman, Syd's dad's much younger
sister. She had been married to an abusive husband for 10 years, she had
full custody of their 2 girls, Maddie 5 & Carrie 7 the absolute loves of
her life.
When Syd and AJ had married, Eva took him under
her wing as her 'baby brother' and made sure AJ had backup with the
family. They were clearly closer to each other than their own siblings and
had been each other's rock as they made ti through
the loss of Syd. There was just a kinship there and they could talk about
anything, which AJ ribbed her about when she introduced Mat(ilda). She
still had no idea how AJ knew Mat was a female when they spoke on Tuesday. AJ just
told here two could play at the spooky all-knowing thing and until she spilled
about Scott, mum was the word...
They all went into the house, AJ let Eva and Mat
get settled he watched the kids play. Carrie sat on the couch with AJ, hugged him
hard, kissed him on the cheek and said, `it was my idea to come and see AJ and
the boys cause Aunt Syd had told her AJ needed help cause
he was stuck'. She went on to say that Aunt Syd let her in on a secret, AJ asked
her what it was, Aunt Syd told Carrie that Uncle AJ needed to quit being such a
`dude' and go with the flow. AJ gave her a hug and wiped away a tear.
When Eva came into the living room, AJ went to
get ready for a great night out with his `family'.
Joan was at the house ready to have a great time
with the 4 kids when AJ came down from his room. He walked into the living room
where Carrie was protesting loudly that there was really no reason for Joan to
stay. She was more than ready to be in charge and take care of the 'little
ones'. Joan smiled and convinced her that she could be her wing girl for the
night.
They all took a cab downtown to a bar that had a
great DJ and met Chase, Brent, Bret and Steve. There was a line around the
corner, so Eva being Eva marched up to the front, flirted with the bouncer and
got us all right in - AJ thought it doesn't hurt to be gorgeous and outgoing,
the very tight t-shirt covering your big boobs also did not hurt. As the rest
of us caught up, Eva was pulling someone out of line and into the club with
her. AJ was bringing up the rear of our group and when AJ finally got to the
table, you could have knocked him over with a feather, the person Eva pulled
out of line was not a stranger but none other than Officer Scott Reed.
The boys (Brett, Steve, Brent and Chase) noticed
AJ had stopped short and was standing there with his mouth hanging open. Chase
commented `AJ, you are my big and I love you with all my heart so I say this
with all the respect I can muster, standing there with your mouth open is rude.
There is a seat right there next to who I assume is Scott, so sit your ass down
and let's have some fun. Under his breath, he said maybe even get you laid'. Scott
evidently heard that as he blushed three shades of red.
AJ was stuck to the floor and could not move his
mouth did close thanks to Chase, but AJ was having a problem processing the
situation how did Eva know Scott, why was he here and what was she thinking.
Eva winked at AJ, she whispered something to
Scott, got up and circled the table, dragged AJ across the bar to a small
corner table. She asked him what he remembered about Syd's funeral. AJ told
her that he honestly could not remember much beyond Syd's ex-boyfriend because had
been ready to kill him for the nasty comments he made to his new girlfriend and
only had vague recollections of the rest of the service and a sea of faces.
At that point she proceeded to tell AJ all about
the time she spent with Scott at the funeral - how she initially thought it was
very kind that he had attended the funeral given he was the one to inform AJ of
the accident and Syd's condition. As they talked, she knew there was more to
the story than he was saying.
She forced him to say the words that she knew
were wanting to come out; he had fallen hard for AJ; he was conflicted as he
was engaged to be married in August and had never had any romantic or sexual feelings
for another man, but he could not deny the pull AJ had on him. The two had
spent the rest of that weekend talking about his feelings, his fiancι and
whether Eva thought he had a chance at love with AJ. She asked him a simple
question do you see a future with AJ or your fiancι?
If the answer is your fiancι, then get married
and don't complicate your or AJs life. If you believe it is AJ then are you
able to walk away from your fiancι and embrace a gay relationship when you have
been a straight man for 25 years. She talked to him about the out of left
field, head over heels love she had with Mat and that she had experimented in college
but had never truly loved another woman. She let him know that she had come to realize
love is about the person, their heart, their soul and how that can meld with
your heart and soul. Once you let the packaging go, you can truly be happy with
your soul mate. Eva let Scott know she knew in her heart that there was another
soul mate out there for AJ she wasn't sure it was Scott, but she was equally
unsure that it wasn't.
The two of them had been talking ever since that
day, just being a friend and trying to help him make sense of his feelings.
When Carrie had asked to come over and help her Uncle AJ stop being a `dude'
and open his heart, Eva knew she had to make the trip as much for him as for Scott.
She was convinced that love, no matter who you found it with was worth
investing in. She was also convinced that Syd was bringing her family together
to help her one and only find love again.
Eva could tell AJ was a complete and total mess
at this point. AJ told her he was uncertain about the future, scared shitless because he was VERY much attracted to this man,
could not explain it and he felt he was betraying Syd's memory. AJ was not sure
whether he could wear the label of `Gay Father', wasn't sure it was fair to
Caleb and Conor, fuck this was a mess and he did not
know what to do next.
Eva looked him in the eyes and stated as a
matter of fact life is hard, but the whole time we have been sitting here,
Scott has been staring at you, you have been checking him out in the mirror;
don't you think you owe it to yourself to see if this can go somewhere? She stated
keep an open mind, open my heart, enjoy the night and see where this might go.
AJ agreed he would try, but no guarantees. Her parting comment was `you of
all people should know that there are no guarantees love is fleeting and
priceless, only love can sustain you in the darkness'.
They headed back to the table and Eva, being the
pain in the ass that she is (God, AJ had to admit that he did love her)
introduced AJ to the whole table - everyone this is my brother, who lost his
wife in May, has two small boys and is scared shitless
to be here with all of us gay folks. Everyone raise your
glasses and enjoy the night.
Chase, Brent, Brett and Steve said in unison
(probably practiced) - we've seen him naked, so any man or woman would be lucky
to have him love them and eventually they might not be intimidated by the
hoagie between his legs. Mat got up and gave AJ a kiss, grabbed his ass and whispered
to AJ `you might be worth switching teams for, but for now I love your sister
and am here as someone who has been through what you are facing now, if I can
help in any way, please do not hesitate to talk to me everyone here loves and
adores you, you can trust that we have your back'.
As AJ stood there try as he might to sit down
and give this a shot, he could not get the gremlins out of his head so he said to
the group I'll take my leave as this is too overwhelming. As he turned he bumped into a waitress, spilling a couple of beers
on the floor, could this night get any more complicated. As AJ stood up from
trying to help clean up the mess, he was wrapped in a bear hug that left him
tingling all over, Scott whispered in his ear 'give me a chance, no pressure,
but please don't go...'.
Needless to say AJ's head was spinning, he was
not looking for love, he was trying to survive one day at a time. His family
was trying to get him to be open about the future, to love and this man
standing in front of him was doing things to him he could not explain or
comprehend. AJ could see the longing, fear, love and sadness etched on Scott's face,
AJ knew he needed a few minutes alone, to get his shit
together and figure out he was going to do next. Scott gave a defeated smile
and turned to go, AJ was struggling to find his voice and could not get the
words to come, so he simply grabbed Scott's hand to prevent him from leaving.
He whispered to Scott please give me 5 minutes to pull myself together. AJ turned to head
out on the patio, everyone at the table got up and hugged Scott.
AJ stepped outside on the back patio, looked to
the heavens, said a little prayer, asked Syd for support and guidance. AJ opened
his eyes as the chain around his neck holding her wedding ring slid down AJ's
smooth muscular chest and came to rest where his shirt was tucked into his
jeans that did little to hide his growing erection. As AJ pulled up his t-shirt
and retrieved the chain and ring, he noticed a red cardinal sitting on a tree
branch just off the patio. With that AJ said another little prayer, removed his
wedding ring, placed it on the chain and slid it all into his pocket.