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This story is about an 18/yo boy struggling with the gifts that he possesses, and trying to find out where he fits in a modern day society.
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Gifted: Book One
Soul Mates
Tryouts
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Joshua
When I got home Saturday evening I was so frustrated, I went straight to my
room for a fast jerk. I didn't bother with any fantasizing; I didn't need it
after the events of the night. I slept like a log all night, and it was the
best night's sleep I'd had all week.
Sunday was a lot of fun. Grandpa went over a few more things with me. We
trained for about two hours, and when it was over we were both tired and
hungry. Mom had made a wonderful meal, so we ate and then took a nap while
watching the Sunday football game.
About three, Casey stopped by and asked if I wanted to go play some football to
get ready for tryouts the next day. For some reason Casey seemed a little more
withdrawn for some reason, like he didn't know if he really wanted to do it.
There were some other kids out playing flag football on the field, so we joined
in. It was actually a lot of fun. There was more strategy involved because you
had to stay away from the other team, not just keep from being tackled or in this
case keep from getting my flag pulled.
When we got home, instead of our usual cool down, Casey just said bye and that
he would see me tomorrow. I felt kind of strange about that. I really seemed to
miss just sitting and talking with him. It was almost like the Kool-Aid cool
down was just an excuse for us to just talk about anything with each other. I
still wanted to find out more about this guy he likes.
The next morning brought the day I had been waiting for and I couldn't wait for
the afternoon tryouts. The day seemed to drag on. I had another test in AP
Chemistry. The celebrity routine seemed to finally be wearing off. Carrie was
very affectionate toward me for some reason. It could have been the date we had
Saturday night, but I'm just guessing.
At lunch, James sat across from Casey and
"This afternoon? What's this afternoon?" I said acting
like I didn't have a clue what he was talking about.
Casey not skipping a beat said, "Yea Josh, remember we were going to Tiffany's
house to help her clean out her garden."
Poor James looked as though someone had stolen his birthday present. We started
laughing. James just smiled and said, "Oh I get it. I see how it is, just wait!
If you guys make it to the team, both your asses are mine!" I got an image from
him of bending Casey over one of the locker room benches and having his way
with him. He must have wanted Casey for a long time. I can see why James would
want him though. He is the sexiest guy at... wait a minute. Damn it! Why am I...?
That afternoon, Casey and I went to the locker room for the tryouts. There were
at least twenty other guys trying out for the slot there. Most of them were
seniors or juniors though.
"Ok, settle down guys. For those of you who don't know, my name is James
Carlson, I'm your Captain. Coach sent me in here to make sure you all get
outfitted in practice uniforms. So you should all have a pair of gym shorts and
a jock so get changed into them. Then, come up here to me and I'll outfit you
in shoulder pads, a practice shirt, and get you each a helmet."
We did as instructed. A few of the guys did the shy thing and went to a
bathroom stall. Most of us just started changing right there. There were a lot
of cocks flapping all over the place. A few were beginning to stiffen. Some of
the thoughts in the room were hilarious.
Oh god, I hope no one noticed... Wow! Now that's an ass... I Hope
there aren't any fagots in here getting a free peep... that last one came
from Alex Smith. He was one of Mark's flunkies. I didn't think he had seen me
yet. What the fuck is he doing here! I guess I thought too soon.
Now, I have been in a locker room many times, changing, and I've seen a good
many cocks in my time. Mine was generally among the larger category in the
room. Today was no exception. I had never, really, gotten hard by looking at
another guy naked before, but my God! Casey looked fantastic. He looked just
like in my dream. He has that very tight, almost skater, look. You know what I
mean, he looks almost too skinny, but with muscles in all the right places. His
ass is two perfect globes. They looked like they might be the fleshiest part of
him. He had a faded, allover tan, like he sunbathed in the nude, but now was
going away. He had that washboard look to his abs, and his hairless chest was
round on the sides and flat on top.
This guy was really turning me on. It was a good thing I had changed quicker
than him, otherwise, everyone would have seen me thickening. The best part was
his cock. It was...gorgeous. (Did I really just think it was gorgeous?) Not too
long, looked about five inches semi-soft. He was cut. It had that nice fat
mushroom head on it that looked a few sizes larger the rest of it. His balls
hung very low, and looked the size of small eggs. His bush was well trimmed. He
had no hair anywhere on his balls. (Why was I awestruck by this guy? I've seen
dozens of guys naked and never once felt this way about them. What is so
special about him?)
He looked up and smiled at me. I smiled back, then said, "We better get going
or they are going to leave us." laughing. I was getting a bit of embarrassment
from him.
God, I hope... was the only thought that crept out of his mind.
We headed over, got our gear and practice shirt. Suited up and left for the
field. I could tell by his thoughts James was having way too much fun watching
all the guys change. The little perv! I have got to
find some time to talk to him about that.
When we got out to the field, the rest of the team was already there, in their
full uniforms. That way it was very obvious who the new guys were. Coach had us
and the rest of the team, do two laps around the field before we got started. I
had already decided that I was going to keep my newfound strength as low as
possible for most of the trial and just use it to give myself a very slight
edge. I didn't want to look like Superman out there! Besides I had become very
good over the last few days, Casey was an excellent teacher.
Then, he divided us into ten, two-man teams. He then had us run out to the 20
yard line while James and this other kid I didn't know, threw the ball to us.
We went in a big circle. You ran out caught the ball or not, and then went to
the end of the line, to start all over again. Everyone missed at least one of
the balls except me, Casey and two other guys. He told five of the guys that he
had seen enough to know that he didn't need them, that they were dismissed. I
found out later that two of them were from the JV team.
Next, we did the same thing, but this time Coach assigned a guy to try and stop
us from completing the pass. I was quite proud of my self. I only missed one
pass, but it was because my blocker interfered with the pass. He tackled me,
just as I reached for the ball. (I think he was getting frustrated with me.) I
was learning a lot from him about what his position would be doing to catch me.
Casey did well too. Out of ten, he caught seven. Only three others had done
that well, but I was feeling very good about my performance. The coach told
nine more guys to hit the showers.
Now he wanted to see how we shaped up in real plays. The whole team came on the
field. Since there where six of us left, he sent us out in two's again. The
first two to go up were the last two JV guys left, one a sophomore the other a
freshman. It was then that I realized we had a sophomore, a freshman, a junior,
and three seniors including me and Casey.
They played through six plays, randomly alternating between the two receivers.
They each did well. Next, was Alex, he was the junior, and the other senior,
named Leif that had just transferred in a few weeks ago. They both did much
better then the JV guys. Finally Casey and I were up.
Casey got the first ball, which he caught, and then was promptly tackled, to
the ground. I didn't really like the way the guy who was on me, was acting. He
was the same guy from the last round of testing, I found out his name was Will
Jefferson. I think he, still a little pissed at me, was thinking I was showing
him up or something.
The next play was mine. I ran out on the left side, Will was covering me well.
At the last moment I shifted to the right and ran across the field. James hit
me about center of the field. I jumped up and caught it, but as I was in the
air I realized that I was in a bad position. As I came down, Will slammed into
my legs, sending me spinning in midair. I landed face first, on my head. "God Dammit,
"Yes sir! I'm ok. That was good hit, though!" I said smiling at Will as I was
dusting myself off. I realized now why I had not taken any real damage in the
fight against Mark. My newfound strength tightened me up on impact, so the
damage was very minimal, almost like it made my skin harder. It seems to react
by instinct, because I had it very low during that play and it shot to full as
I was falling.
"By God, boy, you can take a Hit!" Coach said smiling at me
"Now you see why I want him, right Coach. Good hands, fast on his feet, and tough
as an ox." James said beaming at me.
"Ok, back to the line people! Next play!" Coach said
as he slapped me on the back.
The Doc came up to me, had me take off my helmet, and flashed a light in my
eyes. He then told me I could go on back to the tryouts. The rest of tryouts
went very well. Will stopped his attempts to injure me, and I caught both of
the other two passes as well. The last one I pushed a little power in to my
strength to boost my speed and got a break away, running for a touchdown. Will
was pissed about that, but he just laughed it off and said, "I'm
glad you're on our side, because you would really piss me off on the field." He
continued laughing, most of the team around him joined in.
Casey did well too. He had caught all his plays. The problem was so had Leif,
and I didn't know if Casey's performance would be good enough. Coach told us
all to hit the showers, and he would have a decision before we left. Alex
didn't look happy. There was one position for sure, maybe two, and most of the
guys seemed to think I had made the best performance. I could hear them all,
excited and nervous.
We all striped, and headed for the showers. I had to try not to look at Casey,
but it wasn't helping much. Luckily, I didn't get fully hard, but it was enough
that anyone could see how big I really was. Wow I caught from somewhere
but it was too quick. By the time we had gotten soaped up, the rest of the team
had come in from their discussion with the coach.
James came right up to me and Casey and I, Wow, hotter
than I had ever imagined and I suddenly got an image from James of me
fucking the hell out of Casey. He was grinning like the Cheshire cat. James
looked like the perfect male specimen. He was not too tall. He had these stacks
of muscle in all the right places. His body was practically hairless, or at
least what hair he had you couldn't see. The only real visible hair on him was
his long blond hair and the bush of blond just above his growing cock. If the rest of the team only knew... "Well, guys you both did
very well! Casey, why didn't you come back this year?"
"I couldn't make summer training. I didn't get home from summer vacation
until just a few days before school started." James was getting a little
excited. He was at full mast now, and although it wasn't that long it was fat.
He went on to another showerhead. The rest of the team came into the shower.
They all said hi to me as they passed and they all had these big smiles on
their faces. I wondered if it was a good sign.
Will came up to me, and stuck out his hand. "No hard feelings Josh."
"None taken..." as I took his hand.
Will made no pretence then, as he made it obvious that he was checking me out.
A couple of the other guys laughed about it, with `hey...checkout Will.' Will's
thoughts were very lude. In his mind, he saw himself grab me, turn me around,
and start beast fucking me right in front of everyone in the shower. He was
walking around at full mast, and everyone else was just laughing about it. I'm
starting to wonder, is the whole team gay? None of them seemed to have a
problem with Will pointing at me like a golden retriever.
I just turned around to the water spray to finish up. I was getting a little uncomfortable, with the attention Will was giving me.
Luckily my cock was deflating. Oh God! And he has a nice ass,
too I got from him as he started to walk away. After the shower I went out
and got dressed. Casey was right behind me. Will had been messing with Casey
after I left. Casey didn't seem to like the guy either.
After everyone else had come out of the shower and was getting dressed, Coach
came out and called attention. "Ok, people settle down! First off let me thank
the six of you for coming out here today. Although the space on the team is
limited this season, I wish I could keep every single one of you. You are all
very fine athletes. I would invite those of you who didn't make it to PLEASE
tryout next summer. I can think of spots for every one of you."
"So I guess you want me to let you know who I've chosen. All right, my first
choice should have been self-apparent to anyone watching the tryouts today.
Joshua Kingston!" the whole team roared with approval. After they calmed down,
"I have also decided to fill the backup receiver position as well. So my second
choice is, Casey Toma. Since he would have been on the team this year anyway I
thought it best to give him back his position." They all cheered again.
"However, I do have a counter offer to make here. Joshua how would you like to
play Tight End? Matt, one of our current Tight Ends has been begging me to let
him be a backup Quarterback. I think you could handle it. What do you say?"
Wow! Tight End, the best of both worlds, both a rusher and a
receiver. "I'll do it!" there was a loud "Hooray" from the back of the
room, from Matt I think. Everyone else just laughed.
"Well then, Since this Leif's final year too, I
thought it best to give him his shot as well. Leif Barcof
will be our backup receiver."
The rest of the team cheered. Alex was the only one not cheering. In fact he made
it clear he was not happy at all, by the way he walked out and slammed the
door.
"I expect you both here tomorrow afternoon for your first team practice. This
week is an away game so I expect everyone to get a good night's sleep on
Thursday night!"
We all agreed and thanked Coach. Casey was very excited to be in a play spot on
the team. Leif was just happy to be on the team. I was so happy for Casey and
could not believe that I was not a tight-end! I couldn't wait.
There was quite a bit of celebration after the coach left, and it was official
that we were on the team. Since this week's game was an away game we would
leave Friday at noon and stay at a hotel Friday night. James told us that away
games always meant a big party at the hotel that night. Casey and me were very excited about the idea of a big party. The
coach would be there but James said he never interfered with their fun.
Dad was ecstatic that we made the team, especially the fact I'm playing
tight-end. All he talked about during dinner was his son playing football. I
didn't get a chance to talk to Casey today because Carrie had picked us up and
as soon as they dropped me off at home, me and dad
took off so I could get a haircut. I hated it but it looks good on me. I
figured I could wait until tomorrow after our first practice to talk to Casey
again.
That night I went to bed early because I was dead tired after the tryouts. I
had another dream, but this time it was all Casey, in the locker room. We were
getting ready for a shower after a game, but no one was in the locker room but
us. Everything seemed normal. We undressed, and headed for the shower.
After we turned on the shower Casey turned to me with a smile, and began
applying soap everywhere on my body. He was doing it as though we had done this
before, several times. It felt natural, like this was a normal thing we did all
the time. He reached down and began applying ample soap to my nut sac and then
my hardening cock. he stopped and turned around
holding his arms out to his side, inviting me in. So, I moved up behind him and
pressed my body against him, my cock sliding between his ass cheeks. Slowly, I
began moving around, using my body to suds him up in the back.
I reached around in front him and began soaping up his front. I thoroughly
enjoyed running my hands across his chiseled flat chest and six pack. I paid close attention to his groin, messaging his
raging prick in one hand, and his balls with the other. Then, he turned his
head around and we locked in a kiss that was more passionate than I have ever
felt in my life. He broke the kiss and bent over slightly, using the shower
handles for support and smiling at me.
I knew what he wanted, so I placed my very hard, very soapy, cock at his rear
entrance. He pushed back, impaling himself on me. He felt so good. It was
completely different from Jessica. He was hotter, tighter, and it was a much
more aggressive feel. I continued slowly thrusting in and out of him. It was
the most intense dream I've ever had. We slowly rocked back and forth for a
good fifteen minutes. Then I awoke to shorts being filled with my boy juice.
It was only eleven o'clock at night and I couldn't get back to sleep. I
couldn't get the image of Casey's hot wet body out of my mind. The surreal
feeling the dream was leaving me in, was both exciting and disturbing. The
question was going around my head, where are these feeling I have for Casey
coming from, and why do I keep having these dreams about him? If these feelings
mean I'm gay, why don't I feel the same way about other guys? Why do I like
girls so much? Why does it always feel like I've been doing this with Casey all
my life?
What about Carrie? I mean I dream as much about her as I do him and I really do
think I'm falling in love with her! She turns me on more than any other girl
I've ever known. I know I haven't dated too much, but I've felt when two people
are right for each other before. I feel that way with Carrie. I'm so confused
because I feel so complete when I'm around her. But...
I must have just fallen asleep at some point, because the next thing I know is
my alarm going off at five o'clock.
The day was fairly uneventful, although Casey seemed to be a little quieter
around me then usual. Although, he seemed kind of tired and out of it. That was
probably the reason. The one highlight was one of my teachers asked me to join
the quiz bowl team. I told him I'd see if my new schedule would allow it but
that I loved the idea of it.
I think we were all tired today. I know I was feeling tired, after last night,
I felt like I had wrestled with my situation all night. Carrie was really tired
today too. She said she had stayed up till midnight writing a report for her
history class. She was very happy that I made the football team, though. I got
an idea, I sent some energy to her and as I felt the familiar vibration
starting, I quickly stopped. It must have worked, because she perked up very
happy, kissed me, and then ran off to her next class.
That afternoon, Casey and I went to the locker room to get ready for the
practice. He still didn't say much of anything to me. We had been, kind of,
running on automatic all day. I got my
Coach took us all out on the field to warm up. We went through about an hour of
stretching and light exercise. Then the real practice began. I was being
careful to restrain my newfound strength. I know that if I opened up I could do
things that wouldn't look natural. So I turned it off for the most part and
just used it for speed bursts and to keep myself from taking any serious
damage. The practice went very well. The coach seemed very happy with his
choices. Both Casey and I were working well in the team.
After practice in the shower, "Great practice out there guys! I think our new
additions are going to work out great." James said with a big grin. The whole
shower erupted in agreement. James came up to us, "You guys did a really good
job out there today. Casey, I think the only reason Leif got the top spot over
you is because he's a senior. You're a better player. I wouldn't be surprised
to see you start more then him. And Josh, what can I say? Are you sure you
never played football for anyone else? Because you are a natural! I'm just
wondering if we have even seen the real Josh out there yet. I keep getting the
feeling you're holding back."
Oh my God! If he only knew? I just smiled and said,
"Well James I don't want to over do it in practice." I smiled my biggest
shit-eating grin.
"Well just keep it up." He said smiling as he walked over to another
showerhead. He was hard as a rock. The team seemed kind of tense like they
wanted to say or do something, but were afraid to. But the shower continued and
then the dressing was accomplished and we were off.
My dad was waiting out side to pick us up. Adria was in the back seat. She must
have had a band practice today. I got in the front seat and
Casey jumped in the back. We said hello. Dad said hello. Adria just sat there
staring at Casey. Oh my God! I can't believe I'm sitting next to him and I
look a mess.
You do not! You look beautiful today! I made a connection to her so I
could hear her response.
Will you get out of my head! I didn't ask you to listen in on my thoughts.
And Oh my God! How much did you hear?
Adria, I known you have had a crush on Casey since we moved in, and I wasn't
snooping, you were broadcasting. Its ok I haven't told anyone. I'm sure dad
knows after that last broadcast you made.
Oh God, Dad knows? Dammit Josh why can't I close
my mind off like you and dad do? Can you teach me? I don't want dad knowing my
secrets.
I can try, but it is hard to learn without a frame of reference. I'll tell
you what, tonight after supper if you want, come up to my room and I'll see if
I can help you.
Thank you Josh. You're the best big brother.
I could feel her smile. And thanks for taking my mind off of Casey. The last
thing I need right now is more embarrassment.
More?
I'll tell you tonight.
"You guys are being awfully quiet!" dad said.
"Oh well I was just thinking about the practice today." I piped up.
"Umm...yea, me too Mr. Kingston." I got the feeling that
was not really why Casey had been so quiet. I was getting the feeling Casey was
trying to distance himself from me, and I really didn't like it. It made me
kind of sad.
When we got home I stopped Casey as he was going to his house waving good
night. "Hey, Casey, wait up a minute."
"Yea Josh, um... what's up?" He clearly looked uncomfortable.
"Hey, why have you been avoiding me?"
He went white as a ghost. "Um... I just had a...a lot on my mind. That's all!"
"Does this have anything to do with the last conversation we had? You know I
have not said a word to anyone about it."
"I just...I don't really want to talk about that. It is... embarrassing, and very
confusing."
"Well Casey you need to talk to someone about it, and I already know. It will
make you feel better. So what's the harm?"
"But that's the problem Josh, You don't know! You only know what I've told
you!" as soon as he said it his face went even paler, like he knew he shouldn't
have said that. Hs clasped his mouth shut with both of his hands.
"What's that supposed to mean?" I could see his eyes watering, and the emotion
I was getting from him was one of mixed confusion, frustration and fear and a
little bit of anger. With out another word he turned and ran to his house. I
could see the tears in the distance as they flew off his cheeks. "Wait! Casey!
Comeback! I didn't mean it like that!"
I was devastated. I never meant to drive him further away, but I think that is
just what I had done. I was touching something very sensitive in him and I had
done it the wrong way. So I decided that I would not bring it up again. I would
wait until he was ready to tell me. I could feel my emotions getting the better
of me.
As tears were welling in my eyes, Carrie came running out of their front door.
She looked at me and I could feel the confused anger and concern coming from
her. When she noticed I was the only one outside, she seemed to become even
more concerned. "Josh, did you do that to Casey?"
I was openly crying now. "I think I did. I didn't mean to though. Oh Baby, tell
him that I didn't mean to upset him and that we don't ever have to talk about
it again, unless he wants too. Carrie I don't want to lose the best friend I've
ever had."
Carrie seemed upset at first, but after my plea she just shook her head yes and
went back inside. She was looking sad herself.
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Casey
Wow, look what can happen in only a few days. I never wanted things to turn out
like this. How did I get my self in this mess?
Well after Saturday night, I was really having strong feelings for Josh. He's
all I can think about. I think I'm falling in love, and it is killing me that I
can't tell him. What would he say? What would Carrie say? Everything is telling
me that I shouldn't be in love with him, with a boy, except my heart! It's
tearing me apart! And fate is not helping!
So I decided to just try to back away a bit and keep my distance. I still need
to be around him but I don't want to answer a bunch of questions I don't know
the answer to yet.
Monday, at the tryouts, I could not believe when I saw him naked for the first
time. He was just as I had dreamt him. He's not too bulky but his body has a
good bit of muscle, in all the right places. His long brown hair... I'm really
going to miss it, and those blue eyes that just stare into my soul. Then there
was his cock, it is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen.
I was so mesmerized by him, I suddenly realized I was just standing there
staring at him, completely naked, and I was starting to get hard, quick. I
noticed Josh was looking at me and smiling. He said, "We better get going or
they are going to leave us." He started laughing. God, I hope he didn't notice
I was staring at him.
On the field I thought I was doing well, but Josh was outstanding. He must have
really been turning it on. He was wicked fast and his hands where like glue.
When that guy Will, clipped him and spun him around, I almost lost it. If coach
had not been so quick to act I think I might have killed him, or at least
tried. To everyone's surprise, Josh just got up and dusted himself
off, like nothing had happened. I can't believe he didn't break something.
After the tryouts, in the shower, I was having a real hard time with myself. No
pun intended. I was growing quickly. Then James came up to congratulate both of
us. I must say he looked pretty good himself, but he was well built. I was
finding myself fairly attracted to James, which is strange because until a few
days ago I had never found any guy attractive and I had known James since
middle school and seen him naked many times. I have never found him the least
bit attractive until this moment!
Will, on the other hand is a pure asshole. I had heard about Will's recent
change into school's "loose mouth". He has become a haven for all guys
frustrated, and I hear he has sucked off most of the team. They all think he is
funny, but really didn't appreciate his dick pointing in my direction, or the
lude comments he was making.
When Coach reveled his choices, he shocked the whole
team by moving Josh to tight-end, and accepting me on the team as well! I was
stoked. I don't really remember the rest of the afternoon. I know it was a lot
of celebrating and dad was very proud of me. Carrie wanted to know about Josh,
when I told her he made the team too, she screamed. She was a bit disappointed
that she couldn't go over and congratulate Josh because she had some report to
finish.
Well I went straight to bed after supper. The day had been both physically and
emotionally draining. I had an amazing dream again about Josh and me. We were
in the locker room after a game, but we were the only ones there.
After we got under the water, I got an idea. I turned around to face Josh and
grabbed the soap and started lathering up his body. I wanted to feel every inch
of him. My hands felt like they where on fire when I was playing with his
package. I loved the feel of his nuts spinning around in my hand.
After getting him lathered I turned around, with my back to him and held out my
arms like I was on a cross. Josh moved up behind me, and wrapped his arms
around me. I could feel his hard prick slide easily between my butt cheeks, and
through my legs. The tip of it was pushing against the back of my balls. He was
running his hands all over my body and it felt wonderful. I reached back and
ran my hands over his ass.
I turned my head to the side and we embraced in a kiss. It was beyond
passionate. After a few minutes I broke the kiss, and leaned forward. I wanted
to feel him inside me so badly. He didn't hesitate and placed his soapy cock at
my rear entrance. I got impatient, so I pushed back and moaned very loudly as
he slid into me. He felt wonderful in there, like he belonged there. The dream
was exquisite. It seemed to go on for quite a while until I started to feel
that familiar built up.
The next thing I knew, I was in my room panting, as my dick was exploding into
my shorts. It was fantastic, but then it reality sunk in. I was still having
these dreams. It is making it harder and harder to get him out of my mind.
The next day was worse. I was even more withdrawn from Josh, and I was starting
to feel bad about it. After practice, Josh brought up our conversation from the
other day. I had really hoped he would drop it, but no such luck. After the
ride home without much in the way of conversation, I thought for sure I could
just wave goodbye, and get to the house, but no such luck.
"Hey, Casey, wait up a minute."
"Yea Josh, um... what's up?" I flinched. I had a bad feeling of where this might
go.
"Hey, man why have you been avoiding me?"
Oh God, he noticed, I didn't realize I was being obvious about it. "Just had
a...a lot on my mind. That's all!"
"Does this have anything to do with the last conversation we had? You know I
have not said a word to anyone about it."
Shit! He is not going to let it drop. I was tying to think of something to say
to defuse the situation. "I just...I don't really want to talk about that. It is...
embarrassing, and very confusing." Wow, that didn't scream please help me! Now
did it! So stupid!
"Well Casey, you need to talk to someone about it, and I already know. It will
make you feel better. So what's the harm?"
My mind went blank, I just spouted off the first thing that came to mind. "But
that's the problem Josh, You don't know! You only know what I've told you!" I
knew I had said the wrong thing. I had just let the cat out of the bag. He knew
there was more to it and that I had deceived him. My hand went up to my mouth
to try to take the words back.
"What's that supposed to mean?" I could feel my emotions getting the better of
me. The tears were welling up in my eyes. I had to get out of there! So I
turned and just ran to the house. "Wait! Casey! Comeback! I didn't mean it like
that!" I could hear him plea as I was running into the house.
I ran past Carrie who was on her was down the stairs in a hurry. She must have
felt my emotions exploding. I ran past her, the look of deep concern on her
face. I just ran to my room and slammed the door shut, and collapsed on my bed
and cried my eyes out for well over twenty minutes. I heard the door open and
then close. Then, I felt the bed move. And finally, my sister lay across me and
hung her head over my shoulder so it was right beside mine.
"Did you and Joshua have a fight?"
"I really don't want to talk about it." I barely whispered.
"Ok just know that Josh was very concerned that he might have hurt you in some
way. He wanted me to tell you that you two never have to talk about it again.
What ever that means, I'm sure you know, but he said he couldn't stand loosing
you."
I just started to cry all over again. He was concerned about loosing me. It was
the most comforting thing he could have said. I must have cried myself to
sleep. The next thing I remember was waking at three AM and I having to go to
the bathroom. Oh Josh how can I get through this?
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