Date: Sun, 6 Nov 2016 16:45:42 -0500 From: Mike Loggerman Subject: My Journey Out Of The Closet My Journey Out Of The Closet By mike loggerman Chatterman36@aol.com As always Please support Nifty... I'm a single, closeted guy who just turned 40. I get together with some friends every summer to do some camping and fishing. None of my friends suspects I'm gay. I keep that part of my life separate. This year, my friend Hank brought his 18 year old son Teddy along. Teddy is short and stocky, and even though he's blond, is pretty hairy. I'd love to play with him, but his dad is my friend, so I wouldn't mess with him. While the guys were out fishing I cleaned the pans from breakfast. Teddy stayed behind as well. He didn't have a shirt on, and I was admiring his hairy chest and shoulders. He came over to help me, when I felt his hand on my crotch, feeling my balls. He smiled and said he was going commando too. I stood there, enjoying the feeling. He didn't stop. I slid my hand down the front of his shorts and felt his thick bush and hard cock. I felt his hairy chest and asked how horny he was. He slid his hand down the back of my shorts and fingered my ass. He said very horny. We went to my tent, and Teddy got between my legs and thrust his hard cock inside me. I groaned as he pounded my ass. I lay back enjoying his cock inside me as I felt his hairy chest. He had obviously done this before. He said he had wanted me for a long time. I moaned and he shot his load deep inside me. I asked how he knew I was gay. He said he just knew. As we got dressed, he asked if he could fuck me after we got home. I said yeah. When the guys got back, they hadn't caught anything, and had a bit too much beer, so I grilled some steaks. Teddy hung out with his dad, and I wondered if Hank knew Teddy was gay, and if he and the other guys knew I was gay. We got home Sunday afternoon. I showered and dressed, and watched some TV. About 7pm, Teddy came by. He said he really liked being with me. I said I liked it too. He said he was horny for me since he was 15. He had messed around with other guys, but I was the one he wanted. I said I always wanted to play with him, but his dad is my friend. He said he is grown up now, and he was the one making the moves. Teddy leaned in and kissed me. He undressed me as we kissed, and then took off his clothes. I felt his hairy chest and shoulders as I sucked his cock. He slid his thick cock inside me and said he loves fucking me. We moaned together as he fucked me and I shot my load on my stomach. He smiled and kept pounding me. He thrust his cock deep inside me as he shot his load. He kept his cock inside me until he got soft. He kissed me and called me daddy. I wanted him to stay, but he had to get home. Teddy had graduated from High school and had a job as a mechanic. He started to show up at my house most evenings after work. We went out to eat or to a movie, then he came back to my place. I loved being naked with Teddy and feeling his hairy body all over. I licked his pits and sucked his tits. He slid his thick cock inside me and I loved feeling his hairy body against mine. He kissed me and made me feel like he took my manhood. Teddy started sleeping over so he could fuck me before he went to work. One day, Hank called me to go out to lunch. I was nervous about it because he might be confronting me. He told me Teddy came out to him as gay. I asked how he felt about it. He said he didn't mind that Teddy was gay, but he was worried about the kinds of people he might get connected with. He said he wouldn't mind if he met someone like me, but there are strange people out there. I was shocked, and asked how long he knew about me. He smiled and said he always knew, everyone did, but I was a nice guy, so they didn't care. So much for my straight act. He asked if I could take Teddy under my wing. I promised I would do what I could. As I thought about it later, it was pretty mature for Teddy to tell his parents he was gay, and not mention me. That night Teddy came over right after work. He was sweaty, but he had a duffel bag of clothes with him. He got undressed and his scent excited me. I got undressed and we got into the shower. We soaped eachother and he slid his soapy cock in my ass. He held me tightly as he moved in and out of me. He kissed my neck and asked if I liked him enough to let him move in with me. I asked if he just needed a place to live. He said he could live at home if he wanted, and he was already fucking me. He said he wanted to be my boyfriend. I said I would love that, but did he mind the age difference. He said it didn't matter. I am the guy he always wanted to fuck. He shot his load inside me. I said I wanted him since he was 15, and him wanting me is a dream come true. He kissed me and said he was going to be the best boyfriend I ever had. Teddy told his dad he moved in with me. His dad was relieved. He wanted to ask more but didn't. One evening we went to the movies. It was practically empty in the theater, and the movie wasn't very good. I unzipped Teddy's pants and started sucking his cock. An usher was watching us and came over and said we couldn't do that here. Teddy noticed the guy had a hard bulge in his pants and started rubbing it. Teddy said, "My boyfriend needs a hard cock to suck while I fuck him." The guy said he would lose his job, but if we could wait until after the movie, he'd come home with us. It sounded hot, and the movie was almost over. He followed us to my house and we undressed quickly. He was skinny and smooth, about 19. We felt him all over and I got on my knees and sucked his cock. He moaned and I realized it was his first blow job. He watched as Teddy got behind me and thrust his hard cock inside me. He groaned as I sucked his cock and watched me get fucked. He said he was going to cum and shot his load in my mouth. He watched as Teddy shot his load inside me. He said his name was Grayson, but everyone called him Gray. He asked if we could do it again sometime. I said he could come by anytime. He got dressed and left. Teddy said it was hot, and he hoped Gray would come back. I had a feeling he would. Gray started coming over in the afternoons for me to suck his cock. The only thing I asked of him was that he get completely undressed so I could enjoy feeling his smooth body. I licked and sucked his balls and armpits and licked his ass before I sucked his cock. Sometimes he came after work, and I sucked his cock while Teddy fucked me. Gray started to ask me what it felt like to get fucked. I said I loved it, but some guys would rather fuck than get fucked. He asked if he could switch places with me some evening. I said I would talk it over with Teddy. Teddy said he wouldn't mind fucking Gray, if I didn't mind, but he said we should realize that Gray is just getting off. He doesn't love us. I said I didnt want my boyfriend fucking other guys but if he wanted to, I couldn't stop him. Teddy hugged me and said maybe we can find someone else who would like to fuck him. When Gray came over the next day, I told him what Teddy and I decided. He was excited. I said it would be a good idea to get his ass ready for his first fuck. He didn't understand, so I explained that his ass needed to get used to having something as thick as a cock inside it or his first time would be really painful. I had him finger my ass and he was able to get three fingers inside me without a problem. I fingered Gray's ass, and it was tight with just one finger. I lubed my finger and sucked his cock while I fingered his ass. I stopped sucking and kept fingering. I added a second finger and sucked his cock again. Gray stopped me and said he needed a rest. He sucked my cock and I went back to fingering his ass. Gray liked how it felt and I sucked his cock until he shot his load. A couple of days later, I had lunch with Hank, and I told him about our situation with Gray. We didn't want to fuck other guys, and we didn't just want to throw Gray to the wolves. Hank looked at me seriously and asked if he could do it. I sat there in shock. I reminded him that he was married and straight. Hank said he's always been bi, and has had an ongoing relationship with one of his customers for years. He said he kept that part of his life separate because he didn't want to influence Teddy. I asked why he never made a move on me. He said he wasn't sure I was gay until I was committed to Teddy. I asked if Teddy knew. He said not yet. I said I didn't think it was a good idea. I was concerned how Teddy would handle it. When Teddy got home, he undressed me and sucked my cock. He ate my ass and fucked me. While we lay in bed, I told him I had lunch with his dad. I told him his dad told me he is Bi, and has had an ongoing relationship with one of his customers. Teddy thought about it and said it must be Eddie. He visits him every Tuesday night. He said they were playing cards. Teddy got a call from Hank, and they met for dinner. Teddy was upset. Hank explained himself to Teddy. Teddy understood, but it was going to take some getting used to. When he got home, we talked about it. I said maybe this was his dad's way of coming out to him. Teddy thought about it and agreed. He kissed me and said his Dad was entitled to be happy too. He undressed me slowly and stroked my cock as we kissed. He said we were entitled to be happy too. He slid his cock inside me and made slow passionate love. Gray kept coming over for mutual blow jobs. He loved sucking me and Teddy. Teddy suggested we set him up on a date. Teddy asked if he was okay with interracial relationships. Gray said yeah. Gray worked with a guy named Chance who just got out of High school, who told him he was gay. Chance was black, a talented mechanic, and a very quiet, sweet guy. We invited them for dinner on Saturday. At first, they were quiet, but as they opened up, they kept talking and chatted all through dinner. After dinner Chance took Gray to his apartment. It was a one room place with a bathroom. Chance pressed his lips to Gray's and slid his tongue in his mouth. They undressed eachother as they kissed and felt and sucked each other's cocks. Gray lay on his back and Chance slid his big cock inside him. Gray wrapped his legs around Chance as Chance thrust his cock deep inside him. They groaned as Chance shot his huge load inside Gray. They cuddled and Chance asked him how he felt. Gray said he felt afraid. Chance asked what he was afraid of. He said he was afraid this was a one time thing. Chance held him tenderly and said no baby, you're a keeper. Teddy met a younger guy and started coming home late, or not at all. We quarreled, and he moved out. I tried to shrug it off, but I was hurt. Very hurt. Chance and Gray tried to comfort me, but I was depressed. One night they came by and said they were staying the night. Gray sucked my cock and I sucked Chance. Chance said he wanted to fuck me, and Gray said it was ok with him. I lay back as Chance thrust his hard cock deep inside me. It felt really good. I groaned as I felt his cock moving in and out of me. Gray kissed me while Chance enjoyed my ass. He shot his load inside me. Chance loved fucking me, and I let him do it often. They moved in with me temporarily, and we played all the time. I was touched that Gray was willing to share his boyfriend with me. I asked gray to fuck me. I enjoyed Gray's cock inside me. He was tender and sweet, and I loved feeling him against me. It was pretty hot getting fucked by two 19 year olds. I had a client named Rusty I had known for 10 years. We were friends, but we never talked about our private lives. One afternoon I was at his house for work, and he asked why I was so down. I had never told him I was gay, but I said my boyfriend left me. Rusty said he was sorry to hear that. I said I just felt so alone and unloved. Rusty was my height, and bean pole skinny, with a thick beard. He said he has learned to live with being alone, and it's not so bad. He put his hand on my thigh, and said it would be alright. He got closer and pressed his lips to mine. I opened my mouth and let his tongue dance with mine. He said he always had great affection for me, but was afraid to say anything. We took off our shirts and felt each other's chests. He was a very hairy guy, which excited me. I sucked his nipples and licked his hairy pits. Rusty slid down my shorts and sucked my cock. He took off his pants and I could see his big hard cock straining in his briefs. His dark pubes were coming out the sides. I pulled down his briefs and sucked his cock. I felt his finger pressing against my hole. I pulled my legs up and he gently slid his thick cock inside me. I moaned softly. Rusty kissed me as he moved in and out of me and said he wanted to fuck me for a long time. I wrapped my legs around his, enjoying the feeling of his hairy body against mine. He continued to kiss me as he pounded me. I said I wished we did this a long time ago. He kept thrusting and said he has always loved me but was afraid to say anything. He started to groan and shot his load inside me. When he got off me, he saw I had shot my load. I spent the night with Rusty. We cuddled and fucked. He was closer to my age, which was something I liked. We went out to breakfast and said how much he enjoyed being with me. I said he was an amazing lover. We started seeing eachother regularly. We went to dinner and the movies and made love often. One evening at dinner, Rusty said he had a business proposal for me. He said I would continue to work for him, but he would also like me to be his husband. I was surprised and said he was a fast worker. He said we've known eachother as friends for a long time. He's always loved me, and I seem to like him. I said I loved him. He said we should get married. I told him yes. Chance and Gray came to the wedding. It was small and simple. Chance told Teddy about it and he was upset, but I figured he had his chance. We went to Hawaii for our honeymoon, and I rented out my house to Chase and Gray. I had the feeling that everything was as other should be.