Date: Sat, 20 Dec 2008 03:39:12 -0000
From: gaverage@btinternet.com
Subject: Straight best mate - Part 2

Hi guys (& girls maybe!)

This story could be gay (two guys) in nature, so if that
offends you or you are not old enough to read this, then
hit the "back" button and leave! This story is my real
life, with names changed of course!

Thanks for all the comments regarding part 1. They made
it easy to find the time to write part 2.

What I'm going to try and do is catch you all up on the
last few months (in this part) then I'll do a post each
time I have an interesting update to give. This will
become my own diary, and I'll share with you lot for fun.
If nothing happens worth noting I may just post a fantasy
or two (I'll make it clear which posts as real and which
are not).

Hope that's ok, but it's my therapy!

Gaverage

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Part 2 - Little Things

Ok so a few months ago I got to briefly feel Jake's
semi/hard cock through his boxers. There was a period of
"non-contact" shall we say. During this time we didn't
seem the same, it was egg shells and it was a drain for
both of us I think. I'd also remind you that as far as
the rest of the world is concerned I'm 100% straight,
Jake included (until recently).

A couple of months ago, Jake was on the computer (the
very one I'm using now). By complete accident he came
across some files I had moved onto a different hard
drive. Now when I say files, what I really mean is porn,
gay porn. Plus some videos/pics of me that I decided to
play around with on XTube and the like). When I moved
them, I was living alone and it did not occur to me that
anyone who was logged on to the PC could look at them..
Suffice it to say, I forgot about the files until Jake
found them and spoke to his ex-girlfriend about them (I
am good friends with her). Jake was freaked out a bit and
needed to talk to someone (his words). As bad luck would
have it, she mentioned it to her partner, who let it slip
a while later while pissed. suddenly my world was falling
apart.

Bob (someone I really don't like), was the one to burst
my bubble. While waiting for Jake to have a bath, some of
his/our mates were waiting outside having a smoke/drink.
Bob (one of Jake's mates) started doing his normal piss
take attitude and we had a little play wrestle. When I
beat him he was not too happy and was obviously not
willing to start a real fight. Instead he blurted out
something that at the time made me laugh because it
seemed so random (a blessing because I really looked
genuine when I said "what the fu*k are you on about"!).

They all left and it was about 1 hour later that it hit
me. What he had said was a description of one of "my" own
personal videos (masturbation in the shower), plus
something about gay porn.

I honestly thought about dying that night. I went to the
PC and copied Jake's user account and logged on (to see
what Jake could see with his access permissions). There
it was. Totally unsecured and accessible.

Panic set in. For a couple of days I had to ignore Jake.
I thought he had told people. I felt so betrayed.
Eventually we agreed to go for a drive and a chat. He
knew by this point what I was angry about.

Jake explained that when Bob said what he did, he was
totally shocked (I remember seeing shock at the time, but
thought it was for a different reason). He explained that
he stumbled on them while looking for space to save his
music. He was freaked and spoke to his ex and so on and
so forth. He didn't know other people knew and I guess it
was one of those rumours that did not go very far,
because people were scared of losing their jobs. they
nearly all work at my restaurant (not the twat that
blurted it out though.)

I felt I had no choice but to come clean with Jake. Not
100% mind you, I didn't tell him how I feel about him
personally.

I told him how I had known for a while I was Bi or at
least Curious. That I had never been with a guy, but like
to watch some porn every now and again (bit of an
understatement!) and that I made a couple of anonymous
videos for a bit of fun.

He was really sorry and scared. I can be (on occasion)
played like most people, but it takes a very good actor
to get me fooled. Jake honestly felt bad, I could see it
in his eyes. He was scared that I would not forgive him
and he was upset for seeing me so upset and hurt.

What I done next was perhaps (ok, it WAS) desperate. I
was not ready to come out to the world as Bi or even
Curious. I have not done anything and until I'm ready, I
don't want no bugger knowing my business, even those I'm
close to.

I made it clear to Jake that he was going to have to help
clean this mess up and that he was going to look like a
real bastard if this worked. allow me to explain..

Than plan was simple (or not). Jake would go to his ex
and explain what had happened. act outraged at the fact
that not only had she told her partner, but that it had
then spread. He was then to tell her that he had made the
whole thing up and that he was pissed off at me and
wanted to cause me some shit (this had the virtue of
being a little true as at the time there was a work
dispute going on and me and Jake were fighting a bit!).
He then went and told the same story to everyone who knew
about my video/porn collection. Because I acted so
surprised when Bob first said what he did, Jake told
people that I didn't know he had "lied" about the
video/porn and that he didn't want me to find out.

I was not overly sure it would work, but it does seem to
have.  So basically I could be living in blissful
ignorance, but as it's not been mentioned, I happily move
on!

So Jake knows that I'm Bi or Curious, he knows everything
about me except how much I love him. He knows I love him
as a friend because I have told him, but as for the
romantic love, he may suspect, but I have not confirmed
it.


A few months ago it got better between us (except for
about a week during the above situation) and gradually,
without ever speaking about "the cock night" we got back
to being ok and gradually things have progressed to what
is now normal. Now I should probably bullet point what
normal is for us. it would take hours of boring typing to
put all these bullets into a proper narrative, so
apologies for being lazy! Some of these things will seem
normal to you. others may not (you tell me!)

Normal for us includes (but I'm sure I'll miss some!): -

-    "X"s in text messages

-    Pet names such as "babes" & "darling" (he tends to
do this more)

-    People calling us a couple (which we act on for a
laugh sometimes)

-    Him staying over all but 1 or 2 nights a week (even
when not working the next day)

-    Going to the Gym

-    Our sofa activities (explained below)

-    Me getting pissed off if he changes plans on me
(like I'm betrayed or something! god)

-    Going out for meals (2/3 a month maybe), in
restaurants, just the two of us.

-    Random hugs

-    Essentially living together

-    Saving TV/Films to watch together


There a many more, but you get the drift. We are now most
nights ending up on the sofa in our blankets. It's an L
sofa, so I will sit in the corner, my legs out. He will
then lay his head near my thigh, sometime resting on my
leg. Either way he will lay there and give me easy access
for one of my hands to rub his back and neck while the
other plays with his hair (everyone likes that and I give
the best massages according to anyone who has been lucky
enough to get one). He will, on occasion, take his shirt
off. That's a good night for me (I'm a perv!) A couple of
times when I have been out and come back wasted/tired, I
will lay down and he will rub my back, but its not the
same, I cant feel the same energy from him as I'm sure he
feels from me, but that's ok.

So now you're up-to-date, just last night I was rubbing
his back and hair for at least two hours. He often falls
asleep and last night rolled over, his head partly
landing on my hard-on (which I jumped a bit at!) then as
I calmed down realised I had access to his chest. So
while pretending to be asleep in case he woke, I moved my
hand up his shirt and started rubbing his chest and
stomach (which I could lick all day by the way!).

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That's it, pretty much up-to-date. I'll post updates as
and when something worth telling. As I said before, I may
post a fantasy, because some have you have asked for
that. But I'll make it clear which is the diary and which
is the dream! I want to focus on the diary more though,
so don't expect weekly erotica!

Thanks for the comments and please keep them coming!

gaverage@btinternet.com