This is a story about man on man sex. If this offends
you please do not read further. Otherwise please enjoy this story which
is the first part of a longer piece about mature widowers who take care of each
other's needs. It's my first submission for Nifty so I'd be very
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"I suppose you've done the rounds by
now?" Alan took another sip of his wine. "More invitations to
dinner parties and barbeques than you've ever had, I expect. And always
with some old maid carefully chosen for you to sit next to?"
I nodded and smiled back.
"I don't think there was single woman
over 50 that someone didn't try to pair me off with when June died. They
mean well."
"I know", I replied. "It's just
that ..."
"You want your freedom?" Alan
finished the sentence for me.
I reached for my glass. Alan
was right. After 40 odd years of married life it was always going to be a
wrench for whichever one of us was left behind. I never expected it to be
me. "I just don't want to be tied down again," I said. "I had a
good life with Anne, but there were times when I'd have liked a bit more
freedom, a bit more space." I sighed and shook my head a little. "I
don't know what I want, really."
"I understand totally", said Alan.
Alan and I had known each other since
we were toddlers. We'd been born four months and three houses apart, in
the early 1950s. We'd been the sort of best of friends who are thumping
hell out of each other one minute, and a quarter of an hour later have their
arms around one another as the biggest of buddies you could ever imagine.
"Most of the while I'm fine, but from
time to time I feel really lonely. Especially at night when I come back
from somewhere where I've been in good company, enjoying myself band practice
or a match or the pub. And now that the clocks have gone back and
autumn's set in the nights seem very long." I drained my glass then
leaned over, picked up the bottle and poured myself some more, topping Alan up
at the same time. "I don't know how you've managed. You always seem
so content."
Alan took a big drink from his glass
and looked pensive. I could sense uncertainty in his mind.
"What's up?" I asked.
He moved his head from side to side
as if he were weighing things up. Then he took a deep breath. "OK!"
he started after a short while. "I was really lonely too, when June
died. Same sort of thing as you, really the days weren't too bad but
the long dark nights... Anyway, that's all in the past. I don't
spend many nights alone these days, to be honest."
I couldn't help but smile. "You
sly one! All these years when we're assuming there's no one, and you have
a secret lady friend!"
Alan took a deep breath.
"They're not lady friends, Roger. They're mates. Male mates.
`Friends with benefits', as they say."
I felt my mouth fall open. "What?
You mean?"
He lifted his head in a gesture of
confidence. "Yes, I do mean. I mean that I have a number of mates
in a similar situation to myself. To ourselves, in fact. And we
share a bed. Frequently."
"And...?"
"And yes, we have sex. Lots of
sex. And we enjoy it. We do it for pleasure, just for the hell of
it, and to meet our lusts. And we also enjoy the company, and the
companionship on a cold evening. But, and here's the part that's really
good, there are no commitments on either side. No expectation that we're
going to move in with each other just because we've...' He winked.
"Well, whatever. There. I've told you."
"But... I've known you for, what,
sixty odd years. You've never..."
"Never what, Rog? Never groped
you? Never tried to entice you into my bed?" He paused a few
seconds. "Remember scout camps?"
I felt my cheeks go a little
red. I did remember scout camps. "But we were children.
Experimenting. That was different."
Alan picked up his glass and swirled
the wine around. Then he took a sip. "Things are what they
are. I've developed my views on sexuality down the years, but I won't
bore you with them now. Suffice to say that I think that most people, if
not everyone, is inherently bisexual, and also that sex doesn't need to be
linked to love it can just be a bit of fun. Especially if you're doing
it with someone you get on with.
"I've always been very sexual,
right from when my balls dropped and I learnt how to wank." He smiled,
and I could feel that he'd regained his composure and was at ease with the
situation again. "So, when June died, once I'd got over the initial
period of mourning, I knew that I'd miss the physical side of things.
We'd had a very active sex life and being in our sixties hadn't stopped
that." He took a deep breath. "Until towards the end, of course."
I nodded, but didn't say
anything. I knew what it was to see a life partner drift away over a few
months, and the horrible combination of emotions that brings out.
"So," he went on "I reflected on my
options" He laughed. "Analytical to the last!"
I smiled back. Alan had done
economics at university and had ended up with a high powered job as an analyst
for a major international company. He never did anything without
considering his alternatives!
"To be honest none of the options
seemed appealing. Most of the old maids I was being introduced to were,
to be frank, unattractive (and that's being kind). And the ones who did
look like they'd kept some facet of their youth all seemed to have a radical
puritan streak. They'd move the conversation round to `companionship' but
somehow manage to transmit that this would exclude any sort of fun in the
bedroom, and they'd come out with the most inhibited claptrap if anything slightly
risquι was brought up. Why would I want to go through all the trouble of
establishing a relationship with someone like that just for the sake of the
house not being empty of an evening? Too much pain, too little
gain... There were times when I was so lonely I was tempted. But then
I had a conversation with an old acquaintance down at the beach about five
months after June died.
"Now here's something you don't know,
something that'll shock you! June and I had always been naturists.
Ever since we were students. Unless there was some reason such as prudish
friends or family visiting we'd always go to nudist beaches when the weather
was nice, even with the kids. And every year when we went to France it'd
be to one of their large naturist resorts. The kids grew up that way, and
I'm pleased to say they're bringing the grandchildren up in naturist households
as well."
"You live and learn," I said, shaking
my head. "I wish you'd told me I'd always wanted to try it, but Anne
wasn't at all keen. Perhaps if she'd known you and June were into it the
she might've agreed to go along one year. She respected June a
lot." But maybe not. I'd broached the possibility a couple of
times, both when we had the kids and after they'd left home and she was pretty
cold about the idea.
"Perhaps." Alan shrugged.
"Anyway, when the weather was good we'd often go to a quiet beach about 30
miles down the road one that you've probably never even heard of, it's so
remote. It's quite a trek from where you can park to the actual beach and
that puts most casual visitors off because there's a beautiful beach with a big
car park nearer to the main road. So the only people who are willing to
put in the effort to our beach are those who want to strip off. We first
went there in the seventies, and to be honest it's no busier now than it was
then.
"There's a mix of people who use
it." He looked into the distance as if calculating. "I'd say
threequarters are regulars and, in high summer at least, about a quarter are
holiday makers who've sought the place out. And threequarters are male to
a quarter female, which is pretty standard for nude beaches I understand men
are more willing to let it all hang out, I guess."
"At least if they were brought up in
the era we were," I chipped in. "You know compulsory showers and skinny
dipping in the school pool!"
"Yeah. Happy days." He
smiled at my comment.
Although we'd both gone to a state
grammar school it'd been one of the few in England which insisted on nudity in
the school pool. I'd been a bit concerned about it at first, but once I'd got
used to the idea I loved it.
"We'd been going to the beach for so
long that we knew most of the regulars, and when I first went in the late
spring after June died a number of them were devastated to find out she was
gone and that they hadn't been able to say goodbye. When we'd last been
to the beach in the Indian Summer before she died she'd been as right as
rain. It was only in early winter that she became ill.
"One of the guys a widower who we both
knew well befriended me a little, and over the weeks we became quite
close. He'd been through the same things as I was experiencing, albeit a
couple of years before, and it was good to be able talk with someone who really
understood." Alan smiled very widely. "And when you're sitting
together stark naked most of the barriers are already lifted so it's easier to
be open with people.
"One day the subject got round to a
man's physical needs, and whether there could be a sex life after
widowerhood. Turns out he'd had similar views to me about old ladies and
commitments and freedom, and then after many months of celibacy had been
seduced by one of the guys at the beach. Another widower. Turns out
there were a lot of men in my our situation, and many had decided there was
a simple solution to their needs."
"But... You mean to say that
overnight...?" I frowned.
Alan shook his head. "It wasn't
overnight, to be honest." He took another sip of wine which looked more
like an opportunity for him to gather his thoughts as much as anything.
"As I said, I reckon only a tiny number of people are 100% straight. You
must have read that at some time, or seen a documentary or something. It
isn't something they've just worked out." He raised his head and looked
me directly in the eye. "They've done research on this for almost a
hundred years. Kinsey and all those guys. Pretty well everyone is
bisexual, Roger, whether we're prepared to admit it or not. It's only
because of what society expects, or in the past even demanded, that we've
learnt to supress the gay side of our nature."
I gave what I hoped was an
unconvinced look, but to be honest I could see where he was coming from.
There'd been times in the past when I'd had dreams, and even daydreams, that
were of a sexual nature and involved other blokes. Of course I'd
supressed any such ideas. I felt my cheeks starting to burn.
"With June gone I had no reason to
deny anything there was no-one to pretend to apart from myself. I had
my privacy and the ability to do what I wanted, so I could be totally honest
with myself. When I got home from the beach I thought a lot about it and
really quickly accepted that I'd always appreciated the look of a good male
body, and that the idea of getting down to it with some of my mates had its
attractions."
"And was I ..."
`Yes, you were," he didn't let me
finish. "I always liked the look of your bum in the showers! Of
course there was no way that I was going to suggest anything." He gave me
a big smile. "And anyway there were plenty of other options. The
next time I was down at the beach I had a conversation with Nigel (that's his
name), and at the end of the day we went back to his place and I stayed the
night. The rest, they say, is history."
He picked up his glass and emptied
it. I did the same to mine. For a while we sat in silence and just
looked at each other. Alan was clearly trying to gauge my reaction.
To be honest I was trying to imagine him naked and getting it on with another
man. He'd kept himself fit, and had always been well tanned from the
nudism, I guess. And in the warm centrally heated house he was just
wearing a tee shirt and shorts. I couldn't help taking a discrete glance
at his crotch. The shorts he was wearing were fairly thin runners
shorts and a bit tight. His cock was outlined very clearly through the
material. I looked back at his face and he smirked. Clearly my
discrete glance hadn't been that discrete. He raised his eyebrows in a
questioning way.
Butterflies began circling around my
stomach. I looked closely at Alan, in a way I don't think I'd looked at
him before, or at least not for decades. "Is that why you invited me over
tonight? To get me drunk, and to chat me up?" I wasn't sure whether
I was happy at the thought or whether I should be angry with him.
"You want me to be honest with
you? The answer's `Yes'. It's nice having you round and all that,
and we've got together to watch a match on the TV and share a bottle or two
quite a lot since you've been on your own, but I thought that we went back far
enough for me to at least make you aware that you had `options' beyond the old
maids of the village. No obligations, though. If you like we can
agree to just forget the last half hour has ever happened. Or you can act
all disgusted and walk out in anger, stagger back home and never speak to
me again, despite our history. Or we can rinse the glasses and go to
bed..."
By now I was almost shaking.
Here was my oldest friend, a guy well into his sixties who'd played Rugby into
middle age and who still kept himself fit and in shape, inviting me into his
bed. We'd slept together many times as children, and just the idea of
closeness to someone I liked so much was really appealing after six months of
going to bed alone.
"What would we...?"
"What would we do? Whatever
felt right. Could be just we share the bed and have a chat until we fall
asleep. Could be a cuddle. Could be more. Whatever you're
comfortable with."
I took a deep breath and stood
up. "Come on then," I said. "Before I chicken out."
He got out of his chair and looked a
bit taken aback. Perhaps he wasn't expecting me to seize the day quite as
quickly. "Fuck the glasses. Leave `em
till the morning," he said, and took my hand. He led me out of the
lounge, down the hall and into his bedroom.
Like the rest of his house it was
tidy and very tastefully furnished. There was a huge super king-size bed
as the centrepiece, with the duvet neatly drawn back halfway. There was
an armchair in the corner with several items of clothing folded on it, and a
chest of drawers with a few knickknacks on top. Each side of the bed
there was a small cabinet with a lamp. I couldn't help noticing that on
the left cabinet was a large dispenser of intimate lubricant. I looked
from this to Alan.
He smiled. "Comes in handy," he
said.
Alan turned down the lights using the
dimmer switch, and closed the door. Despite the season the central
heating meant it was pleasantly warm. He moved over to me. "This is
it, then, mate," he said. "If I do anything you're not comfortable with,
just say so and I'll stop. And you can do what you want with me, and I'll
tell you if I don't like it." With that he put his arms around me in a
hug and pulled me close to him.
My heart started to beat more
quickly. I'd taken my jumper off in the lounge and was only wearing a
polo shirt and chinos. Alan moved his hands over my back, and through the
thin material I felt him trace the contours of my shoulder blades with the tips
of his fingers. His hands then moved round the sides of my body and began
to caress my ribs, going up from the waistband of my jeans towards my
nipples. He moved slowly, massaging me through my shirt with the pads of
his thumbs and after a few moments reached my nipples. I let out a gasp
as he gently began circling each one. I could feel they'd gotten erect
and my breathing became heavy. With Anne, although we had a reasonable
sex life, I'd always had to initiate things. Always had to be the one to
turn her on. I'd never experienced such gentle sensuality in my life
before. Certainly never had anyone playing with my nipples...
"Should we lose these clothes?" he
asked.
I reached for my belt and began to
unbuckle it.
"No," whispered Alan. "I'll do
that. You can do me."
With that he took hold of my belt and
pulled it so that it unbuckled, then he unbuttoned my chinos and pulled the
zipper down as far as it'd go. I expected him to start dragging them off,
but instead he gently slipped his hand inside and began to trace the outline of
my rapidly hardening penis through my underpants.
"Hmm" he murmured. "If I
remember right you've got quite a reasonable dick in there."
His hand slipped down the front of my
pants and began to stroke my ballsack from
below. It was heaven. Alan then moved both hands onto my stomach
and in a single movement pushed upwards to start removing my polo shirt.
Once that was gone he put his hands inside the back of my chinos and began to
tease them down, leaving my underpants a bit to one side but largely in
place. Then he got down on his knees and grabbed the bottom of my
trousers.
"Feet!"
I raised my left foot and he pulled
off the left leg of my chinos, grabbing the sock and taking it off in the same
movement. Then he did the same with the right leg, leaving me wearing
nothing but my old-fashioned white Y-Fronts. By now my cock was as hard
as a rock and was straining against the soft material of my underpants.
My breathing was, to say the least, quite heavy.
Alan stood back up, put his arms
around me again and with the tips of his fingers began to caress by bum through
the cotton of my underpants. Along the top of the buttocks. Up and
down the cleft. Following the line of the pants around where they met my
legs. All so gentle. It felt as if my penis would burst not from
ejaculation but from all the blood that continued to rush into it. I
closed my eyes and enjoyed the feeling of his hands massaging me. Then he
moved his hands to the front of my pants and stroked my penis again. I
felt his head move towards mine, and his breath as he placed it next to my
ear. Without thinking I put my hand on to top of his head and began to
gently stroke his hair.
`Do you want to undress me?' he
whispered.
I took a huge breath. `Hmmm,' I
murmured, and as he drew his head away I put my hands under the sides of his
tee shirt and pulled it up over his head. With my eyes closed I reached down
and put my hands inside the back of his shorts. Exploring slowly I was
intrigued I could feel some material under his shorts, but I could also feel
the bare skin of his buttocks. I did the same sort of thing to his bum as
he'd done to mine, but found that most of the time I was touching skin rather
than underwear. I moved my arms slightly apart and pulled down his
shorts. I opened my eyes to see him wearing a brilliant white jockstrap,
bulging at the front with his penis and balls.
He pulled me down onto the bed and
started to rub the front of my underpants. Then he put his hand inside
and touched my penis. It was the first time it had been touched by anyone
other than Anne since I was about thirteen. "Bum up," he said gently and
when I complied he pulled down my underpants to my ankles. I rubbed my
legs together and managed to remove the pants completely, then kicked them off
the bed.
I was now lying totally naked on
Alan's bed, with a massive erection sticking up in the air. I was
wondering what would happen next when Alan moved down my body and began to
stroke my cock with his nose.
"Hmmm!" he murmured. "What a
lovely scent. Clean sweat!"
I could smell him, too. A new
scent to me, but one that was a real turn on. It was all man, and sweaty,
but not in an unpleasant way such as the smell of someone who'd been working
hard all day. I began to ooze pre-cum, and he ran the tip of his nose
across the bottom of my foreskin to dip it into the sticky liquid that was
pooling there. Then he moved his head up a little and the pre-cum
stretched in a strand as he did so. He lifted his head slightly more and
let the strand fall across his lip and into his mouth. He licked his
lips. "Lovely," he said quietly.
I don't think I'd ever been so turned
on. For the first time, really, I was being made love to rather than
having to be in the driving seat. And my secretions were being treated as
something to be celebrated and savoured rather than to be wiped away as quickly
as possible with a disapproving sound. The thought made me ooze all the
more.
Alan moved his arm across my chest
and sought out my nipples again. This was another first for me I'd
never known how sensitive they could be or how erotic it was to have them
played with. Then, as I was losing myself in that sensation, a moist
warmth engulfed my cock as Alan took it into his mouth.
Like many married men I'd tried
unsuccessfully down the years to get my wife to give me blow jobs. Once
or twice, when she'd been particularly turned on, she'd had a quick suck, but
neither of us had really got much out of it. But now, as Alan moved his
tongue into the tip of the foreskin and around the head of my cock, and
alternated with sliding it in and out of his mouth, I understood what all the
fuss was about. I had never felt such pleasure before. Here was
someone who was experienced in giving other men enjoyment who was totally
focused on my satisfaction.
I didn't last long. "Arrgh! I'm gonna come," I
gasped after only a couple of minutes of attention from Alan's mouth, and tried
to pull away from him. He appeared to ignore me, and kept on sucking
gently with his mouth clamped firmly over my dick. Seconds later I
exploded, and pumped rope after rope after rope of cum into my mate's mouth.
When I stopped spasming Alan gently
pulled his mouth off my cock, letting some of my spunk mixed with his saliva
drip down over my shaft. He rolled over onto his shoulder and looked up
at me. "Good?" he asked.
"Hmmm." I closed my eyes.
Partially out of the ecstasy of the moment, but also a bit out of
embarrassment. I'd never ejaculated in front of another male before, at
least as an adult. Looking back I wonder why I should've been at all shy
about something so natural that both of us had enjoyed so much, but I was.
Using the semen and spittle as lube
Alan took a very light hold on my softening penis and began to rub it very
gently with the foreskin pulled fully back. At first it was a bit tender,
and if he'd been rougher it would've been unbearable, but he did his job well
and carefully coxed back my erection. I opened my eyes and saw that from
his efforts my penis was covered in a white foam right down to where it met my
body, and to my own surprise I suddenly jerked and ejaculated again. Only
a couple of weak spurts this time, but I'd not managed a second coming so
quickly after the first for many decades.
"Sleepy?" Alan asked.
I was, but was aware that Alan was
probably rock hard too. "What about you? Can I do the same for
you?"
Alan began to rub the semen and the
rest of the mess across my lower stomach, up to and into my belly button.
Then he scooped some of it onto his finger and offered it to me. I licked
it off and swallowed.
"Let's just have a cuddle and drift
off," he replied. "And if you wake up horny in the night, you can do what
you like with me." With that he turned around to align himself with me at
the top of the bed and pulled the duvet over us. Then he leaned towards
me and kissed me.
Two hours earlier I'd have thought
that the oddest thing in the world, but suddenly it seemed so natural.
He leaned over and turned off the
light. Then he put his arm under my head, like I used to do with Anne. I
half turned onto my belly and lay across him, aware that I was depositing some
of my sticky gooeyness onto him. He must have felt it, but said nothing.
And we just lay there gently
caressing each other. Within a few minutes Alan's breathing became deeper
and it was clear that he'd fallen asleep. I lay awake for a while, and
couldn't resist moving my hand between his legs to feel his cock through his
jockstrap. I knew I was going to get to know his dick well in the future.