Date: Fri, 02 Dec 2005 12:17:04 -0500 From: m yonge Subject: What If: Ralph DISCLAIMER: This is a story out the fantasy that is my mind. It is a story that deals with homosexual material. If you live in a jurisdiction that by some law or reason prohibits you from reading this material then please do not read any further. If homosexual material like this offends you then you should stop reading as well.Though frankly if homosexual material offends you I can't understand why you would be here in the first place. The following is a list of other stories that I have written and posted in Nifty.org Title Category Date Joes-Bar Beginnings 07-Nov-02 Arthur and Joe Beginnings 03-Apr-03 Tour Guide AdultYouth 15-Apr-03 Brother Pat AdultYouth 07-Nov-02 Father Greg AdultYouth 15-Apr-03 JeffryandJason AdultYouth 18-Jul-05 Of Gord and John Beginnings Aug-29-05 Sons of Seth and Cain Celebrity Oct-24-05 Ham Celebrity Oct-28-05 Aaron and Zaph Historical Nov- 14-05 The copyright of this material is mine, subject to the agreement under this website. I trust that you will enjoy reading the stories as much as I have enjoyed writing them. If you have any comments to pass on, I would very much like to have them. You can write me at: myonge@hotmail.com Mike INTRODUCTION TO THE SERIES: Oh to be young again: Have you ever wondered what life would have been like if at any particular time things had turned out differently? As I grow older I find my self wondering more and more what would have happened if I had done this instead of that and so on. I think we can all look back over our lives and point to specific times or incidents that were turning point moments in our lives. They were times that we were put in the position to make a decision to go one way or another. And we wonder 'Had things turned out differently or if we or others had made different choices in our lives how would have turned out?' Who knows how they might have turned out? But is certainly a source of much fantasy I can think of several situations, incidents and choices that I made at various different times in my life, that had I moved in a different manner or responded differently or chosen to pursue a specific, or different course of action, things would have turned out much differently than the place I find myself in today. That is what this series is about. What could have happened? Chapter 1: Ralph When I was about 18 I worked one summer in the Montreal Children's Hospital. I worked in what was known as the 'Animal House' it was all in all quite an interesting summer. I got to take care of the experimental animals, rabbits, mice, rats and guinea pigs. The really interesting time though was the experiences that this job exposed me too. I was always a pretty shy guy. Most people would have considered me a bit of a geek. I tended to be a loner. I was also very interested in the male body. Not that I would ever have admitted that to anyone at the time, after all I was a Christian and that kind of thing was clearly a sin. Any one that had read the account of Sodom and Gomorrah would have no doubt what God thought about that kind of thing. I couldn't even bring myself to mouth the word homo. no I just couldn't because I wasn't. But man, that statue of "David" by Michelangelo, "The Thinker" by Rodin. I could look at them for hours and more often than not they resulted in my masturbating. Masturbation another one of those things that were a sin and yet I didn't seem to have any control over. That "sin of Onan" the man that "spilled his seed on the ground" rather than do what was right by his dead brother. Man I was screwed up! Well my brother had gotten me a job in the hospital. As I got ready to start work that summer my brother who had also worked there warned me about certain orderlies because some of them were gay. They had come on to my brother. It was enough that my interest was peaked. The first week was exciting as I was being trained and it was my first real job. I didn't have a lot of time to think about anything other than the job. It found I loved being with the animals, with the exception of the rats. Them I hated. I didn't trust them at all. You had to be careful with them all the time. They would watch for an opening to escape as soon as you opened the cage to put food in. It was important that they didn't get out because they would attack the young in other cages if they could at all get to them. The problem was that the rat cages were wire and the feet of the young rats would sometimes stick through the wire. The escapee rats would attack from below chewing off the legs of any rat whose feet or legs they found hanging down. It was a horrible mess to clean up. I could never figure out an animal that would eat it's own like that. I hated them. The guinea pigs were just stupid, but they would squeal a greeting every morning as they heard the keys in the door. Well I called it a greeting. They were actually just squealing in anticipation of being fed. As far as I was concerned they were happy to see me. It was on the Monday noon of the second week that something happened. I was not even thinking about it. I had forgotten my lunch so I went down to the staff lunchroom. It was standing in line that I met Ralph. He was an orderly in the hospital, about 30 years old. (31 I learned later) "I've never seen you here before." He said as he came up behind me in line. I looked around to see who was speaking. He smiled at me indicating that it was to me that he was speaking "Oh, I'm working in the animal house. I just started last week, but I forgot my lunch today so came down here to get something" "Well welcome to the staff, I'm Ralph" He smiled at me and offered his hand to shake I shook his hand "I'm Mike." We ordered our lunch, paid for it and I was going to go back upstairs "Why don't you join me" Ralph said I remember hesitating, "You have an hour for lunch don't you?" He continued. He nodded his head to get me to follow him. Too shy to argue I did just that. We sat down at a small table in the corner of the cafeteria. Ralph smiled at me as we sat down. I sat down first. It was a small square table with four chairs. Ralph sat not opposite of me but to one side. I immediately noticed that his leg was against mine. As we started to eat he chatted. He asked me about myself and as I normally do I tend to reveal all. He only had to ask the questions and I opened up. Not that there was a lot to tell. He chatted happily as we ate. I noticed that he tended to touch me a lot as he talked. When he was making a point he would touch me on the hand, the arm, or the shoulder. I also noticed that his leg was always on the move, up and down against mine. When we first sat down and his leg was against mine I moved my leg away slightly. It was only seconds before I felt his leg against mine again. Through out lunch I would move my leg away and he would find it again. After about the third time I no longer moved my leg away. It really didn't bother me as such. I just thought it was a little strange but left it, and besides it kinda felt good in a way. "So when do you get off?" He asked just as I was getting ready to go back to work. We carried our trays to the kitchen. "I'm off at three" "Ah I'm on till six; well maybe I'll see you tomorrow?" "I'll probably have my lunch with me" "Well you can bring it down here they don't mind it is the cafeteria for the whole staff" "I'll see, Audrey and the others up there always eat upstairs, I think that I am sort of expected to eat with them" Ralph smiled and extended his hand to me "Well if you want to come down here and chat I'm always here at noon, I enjoyed our time today" "Yeah me too, maybe I'll come down here again, see you later" When I got back upstairs Audrey my supervisor was a little miffed that I hadn't come right back up. When I told her that I had decided to eat downstairs, she made it clear that I should not be making a habit of forgetting my lunch in the future. She was a little funny that way. The next three days I ate my lunch upstairs. I saw Ralph in the halls at a distance a couple times as I was leaving to go home. He waved at me and smiled. I smiled back and waved. There was something about him that my subconscious was telling me I wanted to know more about, and at the same time telling me "Danger!" To me it was just some unknown thing that was drawing me to him. That certain "je ne sais quoi" "I don't know what" that made me want to talk to him again. There was also something forbidden about him, perhaps it was because Audrey told me that I was not to eat in the staff cafeteria again. (I had not told her that I was talking with someone down there just that because I had a lunch with dishes that I had decided to stay.) Perhaps it was the leg thing that told m that this was more than . more than what? Was this what my brother had warned me about? I made a mental note not to tell my brother about Ralph As I left to go home on Thursday afternoon Audrey told me that she would be away the next day. The thought immediately flitted across my mind that I would be able to have lunch with Ralph then. It struck me funny actually that that was the first thing that I thought of. As I left I saw Ralph in the hall so I walked over to him. "You want to have lunch tomorrow? Audrey is going to be away" He hesitated and then smiled... "Yeah sure! Noon?" "Yeah" "Great see you tomorrow" The next day at lunch I told Mary one of the other workers up on the Animal House floor that I would be eating in the cafeteria again. She smiled and "Good, I want to do some shopping over lunch and Audrey never lets me go." I hurried downstairs and found Ralph waiting for me at the cafeteria door. He grinned and greeted me as I arrived. As I started to walk into the cafeteria he said "Say why don't we go to my place it's just across Atwater on Dorchester." I remember looking at him. "Well it's just that this is one of my days off actually." He continued "But I wanted to have lunch with you" I know I blushed, I was embarrassed, I never even thought about him being on some kind of shift. "Oh. Oh, I'm sorry I didn't mean to ." He laughed and put his hand on my shoulder "That's alright Mike, if I hadn't wanted to have lunch with you I would have said." He squeezed my shoulder and that sent some sort of electric shock through me. I didn't know why, but it felt good. "Ok then . yeah why not?" I said and we left the hospital and crossed Atwater to Dorchester. He had an apartment in one of the old Victorian style buildings not 5 minutes walk away. He let me in. From the door I could see the dining room table and that it was already set. As he led me in I saw that he had made salads for us. I looked at him and grinned. "You knew that I would come over" He laughed "You got me" He squeezed my shoulder again. I noticed that the settings were arranged so that he was sitting kiddy corner from me again like in the cafeteria. He showed me where to sit and went to the kitchen. Moments later he was back with a plate of sandwiches and a large pitcher of lemon aid. He sat down and I immediately noticed his leg against mine. We began to eat. "So Mike" Ralph began, I felt his leg move against mine, "A good looking guy like you must have a girl friend?" "Well, yeah I guess" I said, the thing was I had what in the church was called a girl friend in that we were always together in the church, but I didn't have a girl friend like my friends outside the church had girl friends. Ralph looked at me questioningly. "You guess? Don't you know? " He laughed "Well I have a friend that I hang out a lot with so I guess she's my girl friend" "You guys have sex?" "NO!!" Ralph laughed. His leg continued to move against mine. For some reason I didn't move my leg away. He told me later that he noticed that I didn't move mine away so he kept it up. I was embarrassed, could feel the blood rushing to me face. He reached over and touched my arm. "I'm sorry I shouldn't have laughed, it's ok, just that most kids your age if they have a girl friend they have had sex, I'm surprised is all" He left his hand on my arm and again I didn't move away from his touch. "Well... I uh. it's wrong, we believe it is wrong" Ralph stared me in the eye "wrong? Like in church wrong?" I nodded His had still remained on my arm and I still was not moving it. His leg continued its' slow rubbing against mine. "Or are you not that interested?" I think I nodded, because I really wasn't that interested. I seem to recall being happy that I was affiliated with a church that condemned premarital sex, it let me off the hook" Ralph was now gently rubbing my arm "have you ever tried with a guy?" Again I nodded I had experimented with a friend of mine about a couple years earlier. He was just coming into puberty and was quite interested in what was happening to him. I remember doing the old 'I'll show you mine if you show me yours game.' We had played around for a few weeks actually until he started to find girls more interesting. Ralph raised an eyebrow. "Did you like it?" I nodded; this whole line of questioning had me feeling very uncomfortable and hot. His rubbing my arm and leg didn't help. I had a massive hard on, so much so that it was aching. I found myself having to adjust how I was sitting to give my penis some more room. Ralph smiled, "You are hard right now aren't you? That's ok so am I." He gripped my arm more softly he asked. "Would you like to see mine? I know I would like to see yours." He got up. I could feel my heart pounding. I watched as he slowly undid and unzipped his pants. As the zipper came down I saw that he was not wearing any underwear. He quickly pulled out a very hard precum oozing cock. It wasn't huge, about 6.5 inches but I remember thinking "It's beautiful" "You want to touch it Mike? Go ahead." He took my hand and brought it to his cock. I didn't resist. "Take it Mike." He said quietly I took his hot hard member into my hand. It felt so good. You know there is nothing quite like the feel of someone hot cock in your hand. What happened next was like a dream almost. He grabbed me under my arms and lifted me out of my chair. Then he kissed me. I was still holding his penis; I could feel it jumping in my hand. I don't know what came over me but it all felt so good to have this man's lips against mine. He put a hand on the back of my neck and held me to his mouth. Moments l later I felt his tongue probing at my lips. At the same time I realized that he was fumbling with my belt. He released my neck but not my mouth briefly as he opened my belt. Then he brought his hand back up. With his other hand he unzipped me. I could feel my pants sagging down. All this time I was still holding on to his cock, as a matter of fact I was lazily jacking him. He obviously liked it because he was moaning lightly as I did. I knew this was wrong but I couldn't stop what was happening. I didn't want to stop it, the whole thing felt so delicious. I had never felt so good. Our tongues were dancing together. As his tongue had started probing at my mouth I had opened to him. He worked his hand into the top of my briefs. My knees buckled as he took hold of my cock which I know what sopping wet with precum. I almost came right there. Ralph broke off the kiss and freeing himself of his pants and helping me with mine he led me to the living room couch on which he had me lay. He told me to lie down and close my eyes. "Just let me do this Mike, I know you will like it." What I remember next was a blinding show of fireworks shooting off in my mind as I felt his hot mouth engulf my penis, and starting to suck on. I remember it as the ultimate most amazing blow job I have ever had and it lasted all of 5 seconds. I was so wound up I came immediately. I couldn't believe what my mind was telling me, but I was hooked, I knew that I couldn't go back to my former ways, whatever they were. The rest of that summer while I worked at the hospital if Ralph had a day off that coincided with one of my work days I was over to his house, but not for lunch. That summer he taught me the fine art of gay love making. One Friday he asked me to come after work to stay over. I told my mother that I would probably be late as I was going to a friend's place after work and he had said if it was real late I could stay there. My parents while not strict, strict. had rules and you had to be in the house by 11:00 PM because that was when the door was locked. Mum was not too happy about me staying in town but agreed so long as I was home the following afternoon. When I arrived at Ralph's apartment that afternoon he opened the door to me. As we kissed I saw two other guys there smiling at us. I recognized them both as orderlies in the hospital. We greeted each other. I didn't know their names but I had seen them with Ralph at work before. Ralph introduced us around "Mike this is Stephan and Don, they thought they would like to meet you." Ralph kissed me again, holding me close. Immediately as he took me into his embrace the other two closed in and I felt their hands on me. Ralph passed me from one to the other. I was being kissed and "handled" all over my body. You can only imagine the exquisite feelings that were jolting through my body. While Don was kissing my mouth Stephan was behind me nibbling my neck and reaching around teasing my nipples through my T-shirt. Ralph was kneeling before me and opening up my jean, stripping them off me. I swore for the first time in my young 'Christian' life as Ralph engulfed my aching cock with his hot mouth. "OOOOOOHhhnnnnn RAAAALPPPPHHH FUUUUUUCK!!!" My jeans off Stephan and Don stopped what they were doing only long enough to take my T-shirt off. Then they were at me again. I was struggling against Ralph because I didn't want to cum yet. I was on the verge of a major exploding orgasm "Ohhnnnn Ralph not yet! NOT YEEEETTTTT!!! "I wailed. He pulled back laughing. "OK my friend but you are going to cum, and many times before this day and night are out, and so are we all" Ralph took me into the bedroom, Don and Stephan following. They were all shedding clothes as they went. Before I knew it we were all a tangle of legs and arms and hot hard oozing cocks. I might add at this point that I was more than a willing participant, I didn't know which body I wanted to touch, to feel, to attach myself to first. I wanted them all at the same time. It was my first orgy and I know I didn't want it to be my last. I should stop here and just describe what my eyes were feasting on. Stephan and Don were in their mid twenties. Stephan was dark haired with the sexiest soft brown eyes. I have a real thing for brown eyes, and he had eyes that just melted me. He was a French Canadian lad. Sporting a gorgeous fine line trimmed moustache and goatee. But you probably don't care about that or his brown eyes.though if you saw them I'm sure they would have the same effect on you as they had on me. He was shorter than me and for that matter Ralph and Don, about 5'8" He was not stocky but slim, and of dark complexion. His cock was not reduced in proportion to his body as I might have expected. He was sporting a beautiful member about 7 inches long. It was thick and oozing precum in big drops. He was uncut but the foreskin by the time he was stripped and on the bed was rolled back past the ridge of his cockhead. He was ready for business Don was a WASP (White Anglo-Saxon Protestant) like me. He was slightly taller than me and somewhat heavier which wasn't that hard because I was quite thin back then. Looking back I would have given him about 175 pounds. He was a good looking man, blonde and blue eyes. piercing blue eyes. His cock was much the same as mine, about 7.5 inches. He was cut. His cock was long and thinner than Steph's, but every bit as marvelous to touch and make use of. The four of us crashed on the bed. My mouth met threes pairs of lips back and forth. At the same time there were hands all over my body, as mine explored theirs'. At one point I felt my legs being lifted up and then.and then, well I let out a major groan as someone, Ralph it turned out, started licking my ass. the hole. He had not explored that yet and I was wondering why not. It felt so exquisitely amazingly awesome. His warm tongue massaging my sphincter. I moaned out my pleasure. Stephan was kissing me again. I clutched him tight to me as our tongues fucked each other's mouth. I couldn't get deep enough into his mouth. Don at the same time started to suck on my cock, causing ,me to jump. Ralph worked on my ass for several minutes fucking me first with his tongue and the slowly working fingers in. I was in such a state of stupor with the other two working on various other parts of my body, that if what Ralph was doing hurt , I certainly didn't notice it. Don and Steph working in tandem as if by design switched back and forth between my cock and my mouth and points in between, taking care never to let me cum, bringing me to the edge but never over. Let me tell you if it was by design they carried it out to and with perfection. After some time, I know that Ralph had entered me with three fingers because all the while he was actually softly talking to me and telling me what he was doing. I felt him removing his fingers from me. I watched looking over Steph's head as he was sucking me, as he positioned himself between my legs and gently lifted me up. There was an incredible feeling as he slid , just slid his cock as smooth as silk into me. I moaned out loud with the exquisite pleasure of the moment. The fact that I was so totally and completely relaxed and that Steph was doing amazing things to my cock while Don was boring out my throat with his tongue, I'm sure had something to do with the lack of pain that others has spoken of. Ralph started rocking back and forth slowly at first. I could feel his swollen member rising and falling inside me. I have never since felt so wonderful. As his excitement rose so did his passion and he was soon fucking me in earnest. Steph and Don switched one more time and I was brought to an absolutely mind blowing orgasm, exploding a massive load of cum deep into Don's throat. As I came Ralph let loose a shout and I felt the heat of his male fluid filling my bowel. When it was over I was gasping for breath. I felt hot splattering of cum falling on my face and chest. Looking up I saw both Steph and Don kneeling up one at my head and the other to one side, heads thrown back in what can only be describe as ecstasy masturbating over me. Exhausted I licked what cum landed on my mouth and lips and just lay there in the after glow . I looked up at Ralph he was beaming down at me from between my legs. Sweat was dripping from his face. "I love you so much Mike." He said softly as he slowly pulled himself out. Both don and Steph smiled and we all slowly got up and went to the bathroom to get cleaned up. Ralph and I were given first dibs on the shower. We had a beautiful supper that Ralph had prepared. During the meal in which I had my first alcoholic beverage. as very fine French wine, Ralph lifted his glass for a toast. "Mike" he said "I planned this evening and asked Steph and Don my good friends here to share it with us, to tell you I love you so much, and I would like us to find a way for you to come and live with me to be my lover." I cried Ralph came around to my chair and we hugged and kissed and cried together, Steph and Don joining us. "Ralph that is the most wonderful thing , I love you too, and I want to be with you always, I don't know how but I so want to. I want to be your lover for ever" It was sealed with many kisses, kisses that were followed after supper and well in to the night with incredible lovemaking with the four of us in celebration, of our union. I don't remember how many times I came that night, I vaguely remember looking at the clock at one point and seeing it was just after two in the morning. I was exhausted and we were a tangle of sleeping male bodies. I remember the thought flashing across my mind. "I'm a married man, married to a man" The next morning we all eventually woke and stirred as one or the other realized that there was a major need to empty our bladders. We ended up doing a four way crowded around the bowl. Steph and Don who I found out were actually a couple left for their home shortly after breakfast and Ralph and I were left alone for the rest of the morning. I had already broken off with my girl friend before this. It didn't matter because when I went to my pastor early on in my meetings with Ralph to try and make sense of what was going on in my life, he, rather than keeping the Pastor- parishioner confidence brought it first to the deacons board and then to the church. I was told to leave and never come back. My parents of course found out as did my friends. Most of my old friends, no actually all my old friends no longer wanted anything to do with me. My folks didn't understand but they accepted me as I was. My brother was furious with both me and Ralph. He actually confronted Ralph, and would have beaten him up if I hadn't been there. As I was still underage and going to high school something that they valued very much, my parents wouldn't let me move in with Ralph. They did however let me bring him home to meet him. I was permitted to invite him to some of our family celebrations such as Thanksgiving that fall and Christmas Day I was also permitted to spend my weekends with him during the summer at least. Those times together and those times apart only served to draw us closer in our love for each other I had another year of high school. I continued to see Ralph throughout the fall, winter and spring. When high school was finished and I graduated he helped me get a job as an orderly in the same Children's Hospital, where I am today. Just before the end of school Ralph came over to my folk's home one Friday evening, unannounced and a surprise even to me. He asked to speak to my mum and dad. When my parents were seated Ralph took a deep breath. I could see he was in some kind of distress "You know that I love your son very much, and I want to spend the rest of my life with him. He is finished his high school and I have come to ask your permission for him to move in with me. If he wants to go to university or college I will help him and support him. I have arranged a job as an orderly for him at the hospital that he can start on Monday. I just love him so much" He let out the breath that he had been holding as he spoke. I looked at him in complete shock, he was asking my folks permission to "marry" him, as much as gay were able to do that. There was a total palpable silence in the room. No one spoke. Ralph looked almost miserable and then Mum broke the silence. "I don't know what to say but you know that we wanted Mike to do more than finish his high school. We like you, you seem to love Mike, and you seem to be good for him, especially after all his friends left him. You don't know about this gay stuff. We will have to talk about this. So why don't you and Mike go for a walk for a while and come back and we will tell you what we think." I moved in with Ralph the next day . With my parents blessing. Even though he was several years older than me we made a very happy couple. My folks weren't totally happy about it but let me go. They had hopes for me to go to university. I did eventually go to college and became a Nursing assistant. I was able to get a position as that in the same Children's Hospital as the first male Nursing Assistant in the system. Ralph is retired now I still have a couple years to go. I expect that we will grow old together. We have never lost that first love. We still see Don and Steph who have grown old with us, and live just a few blocks away.