Be True to Your Heart

 

From Chapter 17:

Kevin was almost asleep when the bedroom door opened, and in walked a boy. He climbed into bed with Kevin and cuddled up to him. Kevin was half asleep, so he just hugged and cuddled the boy as he drifted off to sleep. Sadly, Kevin never heard the softy crying coming from the heartbroken boy, nor his mumbling of "daddy".

Chapter 18: Friendship, Love, and More.

Kevin woke up in the middle of the night. He needed to go pee and was not wearing a soft diaper like the boys were. This means he has to get out of the comfy bed and go to the bathroom to take care of his business. It's at this time when he realizes he is not alone in the bed. He was surprised because when he went to bed, the boys all seemed to be having a good night. His need to pee forced him to just rush to the bathroom and leave the sleeping boy in his bed.

As he got back into bed Kevin realized who was in his bed and was shocked. It's something he will address in the morning and see what happened.

Several hours later Kevin woke up to the smell of bacon and coffee, combined with the sounds of cartoons and kids laughing. He was alone in bed so he just stretched and got dressed. He followed his nose to the kitchen for some food and caffeine.

"Morning Kevin, I hope you were able to get some sleep last night. With how loud it was when we all called it a night, I was worried you might be up all night." Mary said, which caused John to snort his coffee.

"I read for over an hour waiting for it to quiet down. When it finally did, I gave them another 10 minutes or so, then went to check on them. It was total carnage, but I was able to get them all diapered so they would not flood the bed. I figured a pacifier for each of them would help them look innocent, even if what they had been doing for hours was not."

"That explains why when I checked on them early this morning, they all were cuddled up and had pacifiers. They looked so sweet and innocent, and I guess slept well."

"I wonder what happened between Nicky and Bobby? As I was drifting to sleep Bobby came into my room and crawled into my bed. I was just about asleep, so I only cuddled him, but I think he was crying. I did not even realize who it was until I woke up several hours later so I could go pee."

"I don't know. I woke up and found Bobby in our bed. I was shocked to see him there, and he was sucking his thumb which he only does when really upset" said John.

"I tried to ask what happened and all he would say is he does not want to talk about it. I figured they could work it out or if needed we can help them figure it out this morning. So, I just suggested he sit and watch cartoons until everyone's up and breakfast is ready" said Mary.

"Nicky has had a rough last 10 days or so, and I know he is fighting with something he does not want to discuss or maybe admit. We had a little talk yesterday, but I think I only scraped the surface. After breakfast, I will pull him aside and talk with him. I might need to get Bobby during our talk, so this way you have a heads up."

"No worries. They have been like brothers and super close. With our move, and then the loss of Sean, I know the boys are under a lot of stress. I saw it in my boys when we moved. I was rather shocked and very happy that they made friends with a few boys in the neighborhood very quickly, and even had the neighbor boys over for a sleepover. Bobby was miserable from the time the boys left with you, until about a week after we got here. He had met a few boys when he was riding his bike with his brother but was quiet. I don't know what caused it, but he finally started talking to a couple of them and they hit it off. I think it was Billy that got him to talk, but I'm not sure how."

"Brothers can tell when the other is upset and hurting, or at least brothers that care about each other can. I can tell Billy loves his big brother and really looks up to him. I bet they both were upset and a bit down in the dumps, but Billy is such a happy-go-lucky boy, I can see him meeting another boy about his age and just having fun and becoming friends quickly. He would want his brother to feel happy too, and do what he could to make that happen. I can tell he is a smart boy."

Mary called the boys out a few minutes later to go wash their hands and then sit at the table. Kevin watched as the 3 younger ones bounded off to the bathroom. Bobby was walking with them but Nicky sat on the sofa until they left. He proceeded to slowly waddle his way to wash his hands. He looked very sad, and depressed. Kevin is worried about this.

Breakfast was great, and the younger boys were very hungry. Nicky did not say anything and focused only on his food. This was not normal for him, and both Kevin and Mary noticed it. Bobby was also quieter than normal and it was clear something was not right between the boys.

"Boys, this afternoon I was thinking we could go over to the community pool and you could all spend some time playing in the water and cooling off. I might even check out the water myself" said Kevin.

This got the younger boys excited. Both Nicky and Bobby looked up and looked a bit excited, at first. However, they looked at each other and then looked away.

"However, I think to start with we should get your guys outside to burn off some energy. But with how much noise you 3 made last night, the mess I saw when I went to check on you and get your diapers on, I don't know how you have that much energy. Must be the joys of youth" Kevin said with a chuckle, but it caused Billy and X to both blush a bit.

"It looks like you 3 are all in need of some different underwear or diapers, as those paw patrol diapers are clearly soaked and sagging. So let's get you 3 all cleaned up. Billy, I don't know what you normally wear on weekends, so that is up to you and your mom. X, remember school starts soon, so think about what you want to wear."

"I would wear undies but I might wet a little if I get excited. Can I wear a pull up please? I am working so I won't need diapers for school" Xander said. This made Kevin smile.

"I think Nicky and Bobby can last a bit longer, shoot Nicky can likely last until lunchtime. Xander, I am proud of you for trying to get back into undies for school. A pull-up is fine. I bet if you try hard, you can keep it dry all day too."

"Kevin, why don't you take Nicky and Bobby and spend some time with them, John and I can get the other 3 changed and outside playing in the yard." Said Mary.

X was the first to help clear the table. Billy and Sammy joined in to help him. Kevin got a fresh cup of coffee, to help him with the talk he was not looking forward to.

"It looks like it's a wonderful morning. Do you mind if I take these 2 young men and we sit on the back patio, up by the house, and talk? I figure we should be pretty private if we are back by the BBQ."

"That's a great idea. It is nice out there. This time of the day it's not too hot, and on the patio it will be comfy, otherwise on the bench I have at the base of the tree is also very nice" said Mary.

Kevin ushered the 2 older boys into the backyard. He looked at and liked the idea of sitting by the tree. It was away from the swings and play area. He thought it might be best to bring a chair with them, so he can address both boys and try to get them to talk to him. He had the boys sit together on the bench and he put the chair in front of them so they could sit fairly close and talk, and others would not overhear the discussion.

"Who is going to tell me what happened last night that caused both you boys to go sleep with your parents?"

Hearing this made Nicky look at Bobby. He had no idea that he got upset and left his bed after Nicky started crying and ran out of the room.

The boys looked at each other, then at Kevin, and then at each other again. They were sitting together on the bench but not next to each other. If Sammy had been here, he could easily sit between them. This is vastly different than how they were yesterday.

The next minute was very uneasy. The tension was clear and the seconds ticked away at what seemed like minutes.

"He don't love me anymore. I don't think he even likes me or wants to be my friend. No one loves or wants me now" Nicky said in a very depressed and angry tone, which was followed by tears, real tears that showed he was deeply hurt and feeling very low right now.

"That's not true. I said I don't know how I feel about us and stuff. You are still my bestest friend, I hope, but I don't know if I love you as a friend or differently" said Bobby, trying to clarify and clear some of the guilt he is feeling.

Kevin moved from his chair and picked up Nicky. He held him while he sat on the bench. Nicky was hugging him and crying on his shoulder. Bobby looked sad. He knew what he said hurt his best friend but he never thought it would hurt him this much. He had tears slowly coming down his face. Kevin saw the tears and pulled Bobby next to him and held him to his side so he could cuddle into Kevin and Nicky. He held the boys for a few minutes to let them cry out their hurt and anger.

Over the next 30 minutes or so Kevin talked with the boys. He got them each to express and explain what they said, meant, and felt. He figured it was best since it was something Bobby had said, to have him start. He made sure to tell Nicky that he would get his turn to talk and ask questions, but to let Bobby talk first. It went well and the boys understood better about how they felt. It seems this was the last part of his past that Nicky was holding on to. His love for his best friend. Not just the fun they had playing with each other, but the trust and feelings of joy he had when they were together doing anything. He felt loved and important as a person, and he loved Bobby the same way. However, time and distance can hurt any type of relationship, be it a friendship or a romantic one. Kevin made a few suggestions, including; "Focus on your friendship, and just enjoy when you can talk to each other, and even more when you can spend time together. To be lovers, you need to be great friends. So by keeping the friendship strong, you allow the option of still being lovers as you get older". Next was, "You are both too young to be thinking about being boyfriends and such. We are all supportive of you, and I don't care if my boys are gay, straight, bi, or whatever, as long as they are happy. But I don't think it is best to label yourself yet. You are still very young, and most boys your age don't like girls, after all they have Kootties, right? Just be happy with who you are, and love whom you love. There is nothing wrong with just being good friends and enjoying playing around with each other when you are together. I suggest trying it that way for a while."

After the talk, the boys were much better. They hugged and Bobby kissed Nicky. They wanted to talk alone, but Kevin said he wanted to stay here and hear what is said, just in case. "Boys, I know about your relationship, and I am fine with that. Nothing you tell me, or I hear will shock me or upset me, unless you are trying to hurt someone. You are both emotional right now, and I need to talk to Nicky more afterwards, so I think it's best that I stay and supervise."

Nicky was worried he was in more trouble when he heard Kevin wanted to talk to him. He tensed up and both Kevin and Bobby noticed it.

"Nicky, you are not in trouble. But the past 2 weeks or so have been hard on you, and I think we should just talk a bit about them, how you are feeling, and what's on your mind. If you want Bobby to stay, I'm okay with that, but it's your choice. I am worried about you and think some quiet time for just us 2 to talk and cuddle might help. I think Bobby's diaper is close to leaking, however out here it's not a big deal. I do think you both should read a story. It might help you understand your feelings and also help you both understand how important friendship and trust are. It's called COUNTING. It is a very good story. It will make you laugh, cry, and scare you at different times. But if you both think you are old enough to have sex with other boys, then you should be old enough to read this story. Remember it is a story and not real, but there are some important messages in there. One of them is about love, and how it can make you feel when you find that special person."

The boys talked about their friendship. They love each other but basically agree to not think of themselves as boyfriends, just best friends. They hugged and kissed. When they broke the kiss, both boys had smiles on their faces. It was positive. Nicky told Bobby he could stay because he trusts him with everything. Bobby said thanks but he needed to go poop, so he wanted to use the bathroom.

Bobby headed into the house and let his dad know what he needed help with, so his dad followed him in.

"Ok, Nicky, it's now just us. I know some things are bothering you. I assume some of them have to do with what happened with your brother. But I think other things are adding to that stress. I want you to know you can talk to me about anything. I love you. You are my son, and I am here for you. I won't judge you at all. I will try to help you with any issues you are having or what we call thinking errors. It's a safe time when you can talk about anything and we can try to work it out." Kevin paused and let Nicky process what he told him.

"I know you know I am here for you buddy. When you felt lost and hurt, you came to me and called me daddy as we fell asleep. That shows me you understand that I love you and am going to do whatever I can to help and protect you. So please talk to me. I am worried."

Nicky climbed back into Kevin's lap. This way he could talk softly and see the look on Kevin's face as they talked about his feelings and being held made him feel safer and loved.

"Daddy, do you really still love me? Sometimes I feel like everyone at home does not love me because of what happened and I think you would be happier if I was dead or ran away."

This caused Kevin to pull Nicky into a tight hug, almost a bear hug. Nicky noticed Kevin had tears on his face. He did not know why Kevin was crying.

"Nicky, please don't think that. If you ran away or worse died or took your own life, we would all be miserable. I know X would be hurt so much. Sammy would be super upset because he loves you a lot and looks up to you. I love all you boys, and if I lost any of you it would break my heart. I love you and care a lot about you. If I didn't I would not have arranged to get you down to see Bobby and spend some time with him. I would not be sitting here holding you and trying to see what keeps upsetting you. I love you so much, it hurts, and just hearing you feeling that way hurts me and worries me. You know how much it hurt you when you lost your daddy. If I lost any of you boys, it would hurt me that much or more."

They cried together for a moment. This was not the answer Nicky was expecting, but it did make him feel a lot better.

"So X and Sammy still love me and want me around and stuff?"

"Yes, they do! They have noticed you seemed upset the last few days and both of them came and talked to me about it because they were worried about you. Even Han and Tanner noticed it and asked if you were ok."

"I feel dirty and bad inside. I almost killed my little brother. That means I am almost a murderer. I feel so bad about it but don't know how to not feel bad or dirty and stuff. I have nightmares most of the time. Sometimes it's watching Sammy get stung and then he looks at me and says he hates me for trying to kill him. Other times no one is talking to me and then you send me away because you think I'm bad and dangerous to Sammy and X. I don't want to be sent away. I love you and my brothers. Please don't send me away. I will do anything to stay with you and them. Please!!!!!" Nicky said as he broke down. His self-esteem is super low and feeling so guilty for what happened that he is afraid he is unlovable and unwanted.

Kevin just held Nicky as rubbed his back and patted his soggy bum a few times. He let him calm down. He whispered caring words into his ear to help calm him. Once he had calmed down, he pulled Nicky away a bit so they could look eye to eye.

"Nicky, let me explain a few things. Some might upset you a bit, but please listen to everything I say. I am going to be 100% honest with you. I think you deserve it, and it's the best way to show you I care, love, and trust you."

"I wondered if I could trust you to be alone and unsupervised with your brothers or just by yourself. Most would say you 3 boys are too young to be left alone even for a few hours after school. But I think you boys are mature enough and smart enough that you can handle it. Your actions concerned me, but I know you love your brothers and I think you learned how dangerous things can turn when you do stupid shit. I never thought about sending you off to a military school or anything like that. I would not do that. Those schools I don't agree with. Some boarding schools are good, while some are not so good. The issue with schools that have a lot of boys your age and older boys together is that often the younger boys are bullied, picked on, and molested by the older boys. Some schools are different. I have a friend who has a special school in Europe where they work with boys from ages 11 and up. He told me there is a demand for a school that can take kids in grade school so let's say age 7 and up. I know if you went away, be it to a boarding school, got very hurt, or died, it would break Sammy's heart. He would be so sad and depressed I don't think I or X could make him smile. I know X would also be very upset."

"I read some stories about that stuff. In some of the boarding school stories the teachers have sex with some of the boys and don't care if they hurt them, and some even have other boys use the boys so they are like a sex toy or slave for the other boys or teachers. Some of the stories have older boys forcing younger boys to do all kinds of sex stuff, some of it was really gross, and they hurt them a lot. Some it was more like the boys liked it and had fun playing with each other and a few special adults. I liked some of the stories because they made me really stiff, like Founders School for Boys, Cockburn Boarding School for Boys, Late Night Astronomy, Boarding School Tutor, Falconsmere, and Final Year at Chubbington Hall. But, I would not want to go to a boarding school where I would be used and hurt all the time. I like sex, but I don't want to be a sex slave or treated like a whore. At least in Founder's the boys had some say about stuff and they were treated really good and loved. But I think the cage thing they put on their penis was strange. I don't think I would want to wear one of those and only be able to get my tingles from my butt" Nicky explained.

"Nicky. I love you unconditionally. What that means, is that I love you for you being you. You don't have to do stuff to earn my love, I give it to you freely. But with that comes the responsibility to act in a proper and good way, as well as to be a good boy in general. I know you will get in trouble at times, be it a fight, or not doing homework, or your bath, or such. That is part of being a boy and growing up. You will be punished when it happens, and that is also part of growing up, but I want you to know that I will always love you. One of the reasons I punish you is because I love you and want you to be a good person and make wise choices. I believe that if you spend some time being the little brother, it will help you understand how Sammy feels when you boss him, as well as you can be more carefree then and start to see that you are only a brother, not a parent and that there is a big difference. Yes, as a brother, you need to keep an eye out for and look after your brother, but he will do things you don't like and sometimes might just do it because you said he should not. It's my job as the parent to set the rules, and then dish out punishment when they are broken. If your brothers break the rules, especially by doing something that could hurt them or someone else, I expect you to tell me. I have told them the same thing. If it's something small and no one gets hurt or could get hurt, then it's up to you if you want to tell me or not. Think about how big of a deal it was and if it happens a lot. If it's not a big deal, and only happens once, then maybe just ask your brother not to do it again and tell him you worry about him but if he agrees it will stay between you guys. But if it happens more often, then I should be told because he is intentionally disobeying the rules, which will likely grow to breaking bigger rules that could hurt someone."

"That cage thing is called a cock cage, or chastity cage. It is meant to prevent a male from using his penis for sexual stimulation, be it masturbation or having sex. It is a good way to control very horny boys. Keep that in mind. That diaper you are wearing is in many ways similar to it. Granted in the diaper you can get hard, where the cage limits that, but with how thick the diaper is, you can't rub the front of it and get your tingles, nor can you put your stiffy thru the diaper to try to have sex. It's too thick. You would have to take it off, and if you did that, then you would be in trouble. If you choose to wear diapers you know the rules that go with that. If you did have anal sex and the person put their sperm or even pee in your butt, your diaper would absorb it when it leaked out, and prevent it from staining your sheets or clothes."

"You have to admit, that the last few weeks you have not been the best big brother to either of your brothers. You have been a handful for me as well. But we all still love you. There is an old saying that you won't know how a person feels until you walk in their shoes. That is why I wanted you to be the little brother, so you can see it from Sammy's eyes. See how he and X treat you, as their little brother, versus how you treat them. I hope it will help you all be closer and better brothers."

"I hope this makes sense. As you know, one of the rules of the house is I treat you how old you act, and since you have been acting like a little brat, that is why you got part of the punishment you did. What else is bothering you? Let's talk about as much as we can. Even if it's to just get it out in the open so we can work on it over the next few weeks."

"Do you love Han more than you love me? Is that why you had sex with him and not me?"

This caught Kevin off guard. The look he gave Nicky, was one of shock. Nicky thought he had gone too far and was in deep shit and tried to climb off Kevin's lap, afraid he was going to get a spanking or something. However, Kevin just held him there. Nicky looked at Kevin's eyes and noticed they were starting to water, and in fact there were tears that started to run down his face.

"Nicky, I am a bit shocked and surprised by that comment and question. I want you to remember what I have been telling you. I love you and you are my son. I will always love you. Don't forget that. I want you to think about how you love Sammy, X, Bobby, and even Me. I know you love each of us a bit differently. Bobby has a very special place in your heart. Sammy is your little brother and you love him, even when he is a pest. X is your new brother and I can tell you both are friends and have that brotherly bond forming. I am your new daddy, and I love you more than you can understand. However, I love you as a son, not like how you feel about Bobby. If Sammy asked you if you loved Bobby more than him because you want to be boyfriends with him, how you would explain it to him? I know you all do sex stuff, but I have a feeling when you do stuff with Bobby it feels better, and it's not just about getting your tingles, but it also is about making each other feel good and being close to each other. Am I right?"

"Yeah, I love Sammy more than I think anyone else. But I love Bobby a lot too, but it's different. When I am with Bobby, he makes me just feel good and happy, his touch is special and we can look at each other and almost know what the other is thinking. His kissing is great. Our sex is great and it feels different. We go slower sometimes and it just feels so special. When I do stuff with Sammy or X it feels really good, but it's not the same."

"I had no intention of ever doing anything sexual with you, or your brothers, or any boy for that matter. I was abused as a boy for several years by some older teens. It really messed me up for a long time, and I would never want to hurt you boys, be it physically, mentally, or emotionally. You never told me you wanted to play and have sex with me. If you had I would have told you I love you so much and am very flattered, but I love you too much to risk hurting or losing you, or making you hate me later. I think it is more that you are feeling jealous of the private time I give to Han and even the cuddles he gets. You know I am more than happy to give you and your brothers all the hugs, cuddles, and snuggles you want and need. Han does not have a dad. He lives with his Aunt, who is more like a grandma to him. He never had a daddy that he could snuggle and cuddle with or love. He did not have a good childhood when he was younger. He is safe now, but still missing a lot. I had no intention of having sex with him. I figured he just needed to be held, hugged, and cuddled to fill that empty spot in his life and his heart. However, he is also very horny, and has been reading lots of sex stories on places like Nifty, PZA, and AO3. When he came into my bedroom and we started cuddling he shocked me when he told me he wanted to have sex, and more. I tried to tell him it was not proper, but the look in his eyes was like I was pushing him away, and did not care about him. It broke my heart and I ended up giving in to his desires. I let him set the limits and do only what he wants and asks for. Because of his neglectful early years, it seems he relates sex to love when it comes from a father figure. I wonder if maybe when he was very young he was molested by one of his mom's boyfriends or such. I love him in a different way than I love you or your brothers. Sadly, I see part of myself in him. I had a father in my life, but he was too busy with his work, as it always came first, and left me wishing I was more important or special. I saw the look in Han's eyes that told me if I did not give him what he desired so much and felt he needed, he would seek it out from someone else. This scared me because he could meet the wrong person who would really hurt him or could kidnap him and brutally hurt or rape him over and over. I could not let that happen, so I gave him what he wanted. I admit, it felt great, and I do love him. I cared a lot for him, but I do love him now. However this is stuff that is very private, and I should not have told you about Han's past. You need to keep this between us. If anyone found out about what we are doing, I would lose you boys, and that is what scares me the most. The fear I would lose you and you 3 would all be split up in foster care, is what keeps me up some nights. I told Han that, and he swore he would never tell anyone. I had hoped you boys would not notice or figure it out, but since you have, it needs to be our family secret. Can you do that for me buddy?"

"Yeah Daddy, I can do that. I like Han a lot too. I know he is a lot happier when he sees you and when he sleeps with you he was so much happier and reminded me of Bobby when he won his medal doing gymnastics last year, like he was walking on a cloud I guess. I won't tell anyone. It's private, and I know you are not forcing him or anything like that. I just thought if you did it with him it meant you loved him more than me, and maybe I could do something so you would love me that much. But I think I understand what you mean about different feelings and stuff. I love you but I don't think I want to do lots of sexy stuff with you, but it might be cool to try it once. I like Bobby the most. But it's fun to play with my friends. I like Tanner, but I think he and Erik like each other a lot too."

"Tanner is a sweet boy, I worry about him because of how his older brother and stepfather treat him. I could see him and Erik being special friends. I could see you and him being that way too. You are a very sweet boy and a good friend, when you don't try to be bossy and show off. Don't worry about finding a boyfriend, because who knows, in several years maybe you will see a girl you think is cute. However, I will put my foot down, no sex with girls until after you graduate school, and you must wear a condom if you are living in my house, or attending college. You don't need to be a father at such a young age. That's one reason I have no problem with boys playing, even if they are not `gay' because you boys can't get each other pregnant, so it's much safer that way."

"I read a few stories about that stuff on Nifty. There are 2 of them and they are cool. The city or area has these rules about it and when a boy hits a certain age, I think it was like 10 or 11, they get into a drawing and they pick like 3 or 4 that then the other boys can play with for the next year or 2. It seems pretty cool, and stuff. I wish they added some other types of sex stuff to it like maybe they had a party and they had 2 or more of the sex boys in sex swings for the night so all the other 4^th to 8 grade boys that are there can have sex with them. It could be a cool way for older brothers to teach their little brothers what sex is and how good it can feel. Maybe even have them have a dildo or butt plug in them sometimes and I think it would be cool if they were maybe on a school trip and those boys wore tape-on diapers like big kid youth ones or GoodNites pullups for bedwetters so if the other boys shoot sperm in their butt it doesn't leak out and stain their pants. I think one story is called ELEVEN (11), and the other is Shipperton Rules. I guess a lot of authors forget how common bedwetting is for boys in grade school" Nicky said.

"Do you understand that I love you as a son, but not in a sexual way?"

"Yeah, I understand that now and I feel a lot better. I was so worried and scared that you might send me away or that Sammy would ask you to send me away and stuff. I thought that if I did sex stuff with you, you would love me more and stuff. But I know that is not how it works. I love you. I was mad at first that Daddy had us go live with you instead of living with Bobby and his family. But I know Daddy trusted you and that you love us. You did not have to, but you do. You treat us really good and give great hugs. I am glad you are my dad now. If I can't have my daddy, then you are the next best person, I think" Nicky said and hugged Kevin with all his heart. Both had tears. Kevin could tell Nicky meant it, and it was from his heart. He hoped this would help Nicky be more positive and better behaved, as this all seemed to be connected and weighing heavy on Nicky lately.

"There is one more thing I will tell you. Your brothers will find out later, and I will make sure to remind you 3 while we are driving home. During school, I want you boys to focus on your grades, and being normal boys. We will see what extra activities I can get you guys into. I think scouts might be good for all 3 of you. However, one of the rules, to start with, is no sex during the school week. So that would mean from Sunday night until after school Friday. If your grades stay up and no problems at school, I might allow you guys to play once midweek, maybe after school, once homework is done. This is not something most parents have to worry about with grade schoolers, so it's something we will work through. I know this is not what you want to hear, but I am afraid if you boys focus on sex, it will prevent you from being normal boys, having fun, and doing your school work. I expect you to set the example as the oldest, and since you want to be the big brother, so I will expect you to act like it."

"I hope you are working towards no diapers at school. I know they are comfy and make it easy so you don't have to stop what you are going to go pee, but I would hate for you to get teased or bullied at school because of them. Sammy needs them and it will be hard on him as it is. I know you have made some friends, but I hope you will make more."

"I am trying. I like diapers, but I don't want to be teased at school about them or called a baby. If anyone picks on Sammy, they got to deal with me. Only brothers can pick on each other. Scouts could be fun. I never have had lots of friends. But I guess it would be cool to have a few more that are my age."

"I don't want you getting into fights at school. I won't tolerate that. If someone hits you, you can protect yourself, but you are NOT ALLOWED to throw the first punch. You are smart. Use your brains and not your fists, first. OK. Don't fight Sammy's battles for him. He needs to learn how to deal with bullies and peers. However, if they are hurting him, then you can step in and protect him. If it's a boy in your grade, that is teasing him, you can talk to him and tell him how you would do anything to protect your little brother, even if it meant you had to cut their balls off. That often is enough to get the bully to back off. But DO NOT start a fight. It takes a bigger person to turn his back and walk away. However, if you do that, listen, in case the bully decides to rush and try to attack you with your back turned. I love you. I trust you to make good decisions and choices at school and after school too. If you get suspended, you will be in trouble at home too, but the punishment will vary based on what happened, and how you acted. Do you understand?"

"Yeah I understand. Daddy had the same rule about fighting. I won't start a fight, but if someone hits me I will defend myself, unless I see a teacher coming to stop it and I know the other person will be the only one in trouble. But if someone hurts Sammy or X I will protect them."

"I warn you, X is a scrapper, he has had a very rough childhood. I know he was beaten at times and he is very tough. I have a feeling he is the one that could beat the crap out of an older bully if he gets really upset. We have talked about his past, how he feels, and what relates to it. He hates bullies and was suspended several times for fighting them when they picked on him, and it seems he gave as much as he took in the fight with the older and bigger kids. He knew he would get spanked or worse at home, but he still did it. I have talked with him already about no fighting, and I am afraid he is the one that will be suspended first."

"Yeah, I know X is tough. He is so nice and stuff but I know he is tough and will not put up with a bully. I remember how he and Sammy stood up to Tanner's brother and his friend."

"Yep, so let them fight their battles, especially if it's one one-on-one and the other kid is about the same age, but if it's 2 on 1 against your brother, you can even the odds if needed to protect them. I am hoping Tanner will be hanging out with you boys at school, and if anything happens he can be your witness as to what happens and stuff for the school, and to me."

"I guess we have been talking for a while. It's a bit warmer now and the sun is on us too. My plan is to get you changed into your swimwear just before we go to the pool, which will be right after lunch. I need to check your diaper to see how it is doing. Let me know if you need to go poop before then."

"I gotta poop kinda, but not bad so I can hold it for a while. It's like at school sometimes because I don't want to go poop there. But I will need to go before we go swimming."

"That's good, I don't want you to poop in your swim diaper when we are at the pool, I am sure that would be embarrassing," Kevin said. The look on Nicky's face was priceless. He had not thought he would have to wear a swim diaper to the pool, but he realized he is the little brother or toddler brother and toddlers wear them. Shoot Sammy wore them until last year sometimes.

"Yeah, that would be bad. Can I wear a swimsuit over the swim diaper?"

"I don't think your speedo will fit well over your swim diaper or hide it much, but we can try. But then we won't see Nemo on it." Kevin said with a big smile.

If Nicky is willing to wear the swim diaper Kevin will encourage it. It will help him see what could happen and how he might feel if he wears diapers to school. It would be cute to see him in his speedo with the swim diaper under it sticking out the top and sides of it.

Kevin sent Nicky to go play with the other boys over on the playset. It was great to see Sammy give his brother a hug when he got over there. Nicky needed it and it helped him feel loved. The boys had fun playing until lunchtime.

They had a light lunch. Kevin suggested they wait about 30 minutes to let their food settle before they get ready to go to the pool. The younger boys watched some cartoons, while Nicky and Bobby were looking at stuff on their tablets. They found Counting and each had started reading it while leaning on each other.

Kevin was talking with Mary and Jon about some of the issues Nicky is dealing with, as well as the statement of him wearing a swim diaper or maybe having his speedo over it. This caused them all to laugh at that image in their minds.

"I think I still have a few leftover swim diapers from when Billy wore them last year at the water park. I will get you one of them for Nicky to see if he will wear it. Maybe if he sees how the other kids react to him in a swim diaper at the pool, maybe he will try harder to not need them at school."

"I agree, and that sounds great. Granted they are only designed for kids that still have soiling issues, as they only protect the pool from a poopy accident. They don't hold much liquid, but I think he will be cute it in. I will take his speedos with us if he does not wear them over it so he can change into them if there are a lot of other kids there and they give him a hard time. At home, we have a hot tub, but it's clothing optional, so the boys rarely wear anything into it, even when their friends are over."

"We have thought about getting a hot tub. In the winter here it would be super nice. But not sure how much we would use it in the summer." Said John.

"What I do is have it at a warm temp, about 80 degrees, or whatever the air temp keeps it at, most of the time. If I know we are going to do something where I might need a soak in the tub with hot water to help my back, then I turn it on so it will heat up for that. Then turn the heat off again. I plan to keep it between 98-100 degrees all winter so we can enjoy it, but it won't be too hot for the boys. Especially when it's sub-zero outside. Even when it's cool, the jets feel good on the back and the boys enjoy them too."

"That's a great idea. We can use it as a soaking pool in the summer and a hot tub in the winter. John, I think we need to consider where it would fit best, and I like the clothing optional idea as well."

About 45 minutes later, it was time to get the boys ready to go swimming. Sammy would be in a speedo, instead of a swim diaper, because he has full bowel control and does not poop his diapers. It was decided that anyone in diapers or pull-ups would be changed on Kevin's bed in the guest room, so that was everyone except for Bobby. Sammy was in a diaper, while X and Billy were both in a pull-up. But Kevin had all the boys follow him in at first.

"Nicky, you are first, so let's get that very soggy and wet diaper off you. Then I want you to go to the potty and go poopy, please. Make sure to wipe well, and wash your hands. Come back here when you are done. The longer you take, the less swim time." Kevin got the very heavy and soaked diaper off Nicky and he ran to the bathroom.

"Ok Boys, I have your speedos here. I did bring extra in case Billy or Bobby wanted to wear the same kind you guys are wearing. Nicky might be in a swim diaper. If he is, do not tease him about it and if anything just tell him he looks cute in it or so, but make sure you are smiling and being nice."

Kevin showed Billy and Bobby the extra ones, as well as the ones each boy was going to wear and they both agreed to wear one and picked out their favorites.

By the time Nicky came back in, Kevin had gotten all the other boys changed into their skimpy and tight speedo. He was just handing Sammy his dirty diaper to throw away. Nicky saw 2 swim diapers sitting on the table next to the bed along with lotion and wipes. He told himself he would not cry. He deserved the punishment and toddlers wear swim diapers. Kevin told the other boys to ask Mary if she could pack some cold drinks.

"Nicky, I have your speedos over there, so you can put them over the swim diaper if you want. I will let you choose. Keep in mind, if you wear diapers to school, others will likely find out and it will be no different than wearing your swim diaper now. Except these kids here you will not see again, compared to the ones at school which you will see daily for the next 8 years or so."

Nicky looked at the swim diapers. He picked them up and saw there were 2 different patterns. One was blue and orange and the other was red and purple. The blue one looked more boyish so he picked that one. It had Nemo on the front.

Kevin held the swim diaper so Nicky could step into it. Next, Kevin pulled it up and got it in place. It was a bit tight on Nicky, but it would work. Looking at Nicky in the swim diaper brought back memories of his little cousin who stayed with him many years ago, and wore swim diapers to the pool a few times, but Kevin let him wear his swimsuit over them. Kevin grabbed Nicky's speedos and put them in the diaper backpack which had 2 extra towels, towels, sunscreen, wipes, as well as some diapers for the boys just in case. He was also going to bring a small ice chest with some cold drinks and water in it.

Kevin got the boys all together in the family room. With help from Mary and John, all the boys got covered in sunscreen from top to bottom. Some extra was applied to the white areas that were shown off by the Speedo. All 3 parents thought the boys were super cute in their Speedos. Mary and John figured they would order some for their boys, esp if they could get some of the cute ones with fish on them like Sammy has on.

They set out to walk to the pool. Nicky was nervous at first but Bobby gave him a side hug and said "I think you look cute in that swim diaper". That helped Nicky relax and smile. Billy and Sammy were busy talking, while X was walking next to Kevin. Billy saw 2 of his friends who live next door, so he grabbed Sammy's hand and pulled him over to meet his friends. They chatted for a minute and then all 4 boys came running over to Kevin.

"Kevin, can my friends come swimming with us? They can only swim if an adult is there and will watch them just in case. My mommy has invited them to swim with us before. Their older brother, Dan just turned 10, can he come too. He is Bobby's friend. This is Teddy, he is 6 like me and that is Ryan, he is 7." Asked Billy.

"Yes, I don't have a problem with that, however, there is to be no roughhousing at the pool and no running. Let's go to their house in case their parents have questions. It should only take a minute." Kevin said. They had only made it just past the house so it was a quick u-turn then headed to the front door.

The boys ran ahead and went to talk to their mom. She walked to the front door, which the boys left open just as Kevin and the other boys reached the porch. Kevin and their mom, Terrie, talked for a few minutes. She looked at Nicky in his swim diapers a few times but never said anything. They were talking while her boys quickly changed into their swimsuits and got towels. It only took a few minutes and then they were back on the way to the pool, but now Kevin had 8 boys with him instead of 8. Nicky was a bit nervous, but the new boys did not tease or even ask about his swim diaper. Bobby introduced him to Dan. Dan had heard about lots of the fun stuff Bobby and Nicky did in Vegas, so he was very excited to finally meet Bobby's bestest friend ever.

A few minutes later they were at the pool. It was rather quiet. There was one family there, who had 3 kids, 2 boys, and a little girl. The boys looked to be in the 5-7 age range and the girl was a big toddler in just her swim diaper. She looked like she was at least 3 or 4. Kevin guided the boys to a few chairs so they could put their stuff on them. He had his book with him so he might get some reading done while the boys burn off all their energy, hopefully.

Once Kevin had their gear put on the chairs, he told the boys to have fun. He reminded them no roughhousing was allowed. Nicky was a bit quiet, but once the other boys ran to the water, he followed. Kevin was glad to see he was having fun, even though he was not happy about what he was wearing. After a few minutes, Kevin decided to join the boys in the pool, so he could cool off.

For the next 20+ minutes, Kevin flipped the boys up into the air and they enjoyed the fun time. The 2 other boys were watching from the side and Kevin sent Sammy over to ask them if they wanted to try being flipped in the air. They nodded and Sammy brought them over. He found out the boys were 6-year-old Albert and 8-year-old Jon. It turns out that Albert and Teddy know each other from school last year. They were both a bit nervous, but after their first toss, they had a great time. Kevin got tired and told the boys he needed to take a break. As he was relaxing in the water, just floating, he heard one of the boys ask Nicky why he was in a swim diaper.

Kevin listened as Nicky told him he was being treated as the little brother because he was being bossy and mean to his little brother. It's so he knows how it feels to be the little brother. At this one of the other boys, said his older brother is always bossy to him and he should wear diapers too. This caused the older brother to lash out and be mean to his brother and Nicky.

"I'm not a big baby like him. You are a brat and you always bug me when I want to watch TV or play games. You are the one that wears diapers to keep the bed dry so you are like a baby still." Jon said in an angry tone to his little brother.

"Mom says you're not supposed to tell people about my problem at night. You're so mean. I hate you!" Albert said as he started to cry. Then he headed to his mommy.

"Jon, that is very rude. It's not nice to embarrass your brother like that, and Nicky is not a baby. He is a big boy. He is learning a lesson. I bet it was not that long ago that you were in diapers or wet the bed. I think I need to talk to your mother about your behavior" Kevin said.

Jon knew he was in trouble. His mom keeps warning him about teasing his brother about his nighttime diaper. She also told him it was private and not something he was allowed to tell others about.

Kevin approached the woman who was now comforting Albert. He introduced himself and told her what happened, and why Nicky was in a swim diaper. He explained the reasoning behind it and she thought it made sense. She said Jon was a bedwetter until a few months ago, and now he likes to tease his brother about it every chance he can. Kevin gave her a few ideas to help get his attitude in order, and she thought it was a good idea for him to be the little brother and back in his nighttime diapers for a few more weeks, so he remembers how his brother feels, as well as others. Kevin offered her the other swim diaper he had packed, since it fit Nicky and Jon was just as slender. She smiled and accepted it. She had no plan to take the boys back to the house yet, she wanted some time to relax in the sun and fresh air.

Kevin went and brought over the diaper bag. He offered her the swim diaper and offered her 2 of the X-small, Mega Max, and 2 Tranquility youth smart-core diapers. She said Jon fits the size 7 diapers, but that these might work even better, and thanked Kevin. She said her daughter is wearing the largest size of swim diapers, so she does not need the one Kevin was offering. She had an extra in the travel bag she brought. They traded emails, and he said he would email her the info on the diapers just in case she wanted to order more.

"Jon, come over here NOW" his mother called to him. He looked down but slowly worked his way over to his mom.

"I am very disappointed in you young man. Not only did you tease your brother in front of others, but you made fun of another boy because he was in a swim diaper. I won't tolerate that. I have warned you this type of behavior will not be allowed. I will not have my son become a bully. I will give you a choice on your punishment. So listen carefully"

"I'm sorry Mommy, I did not mean to tease him, it just came out. I won't do it again, I promise. Please don't spank me."

"Jon, here are your choices—first option. I will spank you here, you will get 10 swats, and then have to sit here with me or play with your little sister. When we get home, your father will be told what you did, and he will spank you again tonight before you go to bed. You will be grounded for 4 weeks, and that means no TV or electronics at all. You have to write an apology to your brother and read it in front of the family. If you get in any trouble during this time, your punishment will restart, including more spankings. If you tease your brother again, he will get to pick your next punishment. You will also have to apologize to the other boy you called a baby."

Jon has tears running down his face, he does not want to be grounded or spanked.

"But, mommy, I have to go to David's Birthday party and sleepover next weekend. If I am grounded, I will miss it. I can't miss it. I will do anything so I can go." Jon said through tears.

"You have a second option. In it, you will learn how your brother feels again. You will also be the little brother, and he will be the big brother for the next 4 weeks. You will have an earlier bedtime. Depending on how well you behave will determine how early it is and how little you are treated. However, you will still get a spanking, but only 5 swats, and I will do it instead of your father. You will lose any say in what is on the TV but can watch it still, but no tablet or video games during that time. Remember, as the little brother I will set out your clothes and even help you get dressed. You will not be treated as a big boy; you will be a little boy. But you will be allowed to go to David's birthday party and sleepover, as long as you follow all the rules. I will talk with Beverly (David's mom) so she understands everything. If you get in more trouble your time will be extended. You will also apologize to the boy in the swim diaper that you called a baby. So now you have to pick which one you want."

Jon didn't want to pick either. But he wanted to go to David's party and that one was the fewest spankings allowed him to do that.

"I'll do the second one. The one with the fewest spankings and lets me go to the party. It can't be too bad to be the little brother."

"Are you sure? Once you agree then it's set, and that will be your punishment."

"Yes, I'm sure. I want to go to David's party and I will do whatever I have to so I can go."

"Ok, then come here, and let's get your spankings done."

As Jon went to his mom, Kevin called Nicky over. All the boys ended up coming over to see what was happening.

Jon was bent over his mom's knee. She pulled his swimsuit down to his ankles. She gave him 5 hard swats on his butt. They were not so hard to hurt the boy, but it did let him know he was in trouble. He started crying before the first spanking. His bottom was red, but no hand prints were there. As Jon stood up, he reached for his swimsuit, but his mother told him to step out of it. He was a little embarrassed to be naked in front of everyone.

"Jon, your punishment starts now. You need to apologize to this boy. Just because he is in a swim diaper, he is not a baby. He is older than you, but it seems he is being the little brother too, just like you will be for the next month."

"I'm sorry. You are older than me and I was just surprised to see you in a swim diaper like my little sister wears. I should not have called you a baby. I'm sorry."

"It's ok. I have met other bullies before. I know I am a big boy, even when I wear diapers. I need them at night and I wear them sometimes in the day because they are comfy and it's nice to not have to stop playing or watching TV or movies to go pee. I was mean to my brothers and I am learning now that it's not easy being the little brother like I thought it was. I love my brothers and I don't want them to hate me or not want to be my friend. We are brothers forever."

Sammy hugged his brother. He was happy to hear what his brother said. He loved Nicky so much and wanted him to respect him and treat him with love and understanding, not being a bossy jerk.

Kevin put his arm around Nicky and squeezed him, it showed he was happy and proud of him. Nicky leaned into Kevin's side.

"Mom, can I have my swimsuit please?"

"Sure sweety, I will help my little boy get ready to play in the pool. I have to grab your new swimsuit." She then reached into the travel bag and took out a swim diaper. The look on Jon's face was priceless. I just sank in he was going to be a little boy, and that meant a swim diaper and maybe diapers or pull-ups too.

"But Mommy, that's a swim diaper, I don't need that."

"Jon, you are a little boy and the little brother. If your big sister is in a swim diaper, then I think you should wear one too."

"Big sister?"

"Yes, you are the little brother, so that means you have a big brother and big sister. This means you will be treated as a little boy about the same age as your sister. I will let you be a big boy for school, most of the time. But at home, you will be the little boy, and I don't want any arguments, or else your punishment will go longer. Do I make myself clear?"

"Yes Mommy."

Jon was put in a swim diaper, and then his mom told him he was allowed to go swimming and play with his big brother and the other boys.

Over the next 15 minutes, a few more families came to swim and more kids were there. Kevin saw the anxiety and worry on Nicky's face. He was now just staying in the water and not getting out to use the water slide or jump in with the other boys. The other boys in the speedos were just playing and having a blast and not even thinking about the speedo. However, X noticed a few of the other boys checking him and the other Speedo boys out.

"Nicky, come here please."

Nicky got out of the water and walked over to Kevin. A few of the other boys looked at him in his swim diaper.

"Nicky, you have been very good today. I have an offer for you. If you would like, I will change you out of your swim diaper into your Speedo. If the other boys ask about it, tell them you were being punished for being bossy and a bully to your little brothers, so you are the little brother now, and that meant you had to wear a swim diaper."

"Ok, I don't want anyone to tease me, especially so when I get to visit Bobby again they won't tease me then."

"I understand that and I'm not trying to humiliate you or anything like that, so let's get you into your speedo."

Kevin got Nicky's bright yellow Pikachu Speedo. He handed them to Nicky, allowing him to put them on, once the swim diaper was off. Kevin smiled and then ripped the soaked swimmer on the sides, and it fell off. Nicky stepped into his cute speedo. He was not embarrassed to change outside like this. His friend had seen his diaper changed, and no one was close enough to see his little peepee so no big deal.

"Thanks Dad. I appreciate it and I am sorry I was such a jerk and pain lately. I know you love us, and that I need to remember I am a brother and not a parent or boss. Thanks for letting me wear my big boy swimsuit."

Nicky gave Kevin a big hug and then ran over and jumped into the pool. As he swam around and played, several of the other kids, mostly boys, asked him about why he was in a swim diaper. He told them it was part of his punishment because of how he was treating his brothers. They understood it and did not tease him about it. A few of them are bedwetters and they know when they are teased or picked on by siblings about it, and how it feels. They thought they might tell their parents about this punishment and their siblings, even a little sister, should get the same punishment.

Kevin went and tossed the boys again for a while. They all loved it. Even some of the other boys who came with their parents asked if they could get tossed too. Once Kevin was worn out, he told them to have fun, but he needed to take a break. They all thanked him and started playing Marco Polo. Kevin relaxed on the lounger chair, grabbed his book, and started reading it.

A while later Kevin figured the boys had gotten enough sun, and called his crew and said it was time to go. They said bye to the other boys as they got out of the water. A few of the other boys came over and thanked Kevin for tossing them.

One boy stayed and talked to Kevin briefly. "I like your punishment. I wish my parents would do something like that when my older brother, he is 12, or younger sister, she is 7, tease me about my bedwetting. I hate it when they call me names and stuff. I went and told my mom what you do and stuff. She was shocked. Maybe I can convince her to try it. Thanks"

"No problem buddy. Do you know Billy and Bobby. They are new here. Maybe have your mom talk to their mom. She is really good and understands my way of doing punishments. I call it `Let the punishment fit the crime', and `walk in the other's shoes or diapers'. I think kids learn much quicker when they understand how their actions and words make others feel. I have worked with all kinds of boys for many years, and I have found what works best to teach empathy to kids so they treat others the way they want to be treated. I think Bobby is about your age, but I know you could have sleepovers with them and not worry about them teasing you. They don't tease my boys and they all wear real diapers at night."

"I just turned 10. I know I am a little small. I wear GoodNites now. I used to wear diapers but because of the teasing, I asked for GoodNites instead. They leak sometimes, but at least they hide under my PJs."

"Yeah, I understand that. My boys wear diapers, both the kid diapers like Luvs and Pampers and they also have youth diapers for big kids. They hold more and are plain in color. They put stickers on them so they are big boy diapers. Have your mom talk to Bobby's mom. She knows what kind of diapers my boys use, and she can give advice. She also has my contact info and if your mom has more questions, she can email me anytime."

"She is over here. Can you say Hi to her, and stuff, please? It would really help me. Please?"

"Ok, buddy I will, but you need to tell me your name. I want you to officially meet my boys, and Bobby and Billy. Is that fair?"

"OKAY. Zane. My name is Zane. I don't have a lot of friends so if they want to be friends I would like to meet them. I have never had a sleepover except when we stay at my cousin's or grandma's house. It would be cool to do a sleepover and not worry about being teased."

Kevin had the boys each introduce themselves to Zane. He had Bobby tell him where they lived, and it turned out they lived less than a block away from each other. Danny also started talking to Zane and Kevin could tell that those 3 would be friends quickly. Especially since they all have the same problem at night. A few minutes later as Kevin and the boys were leaving, Zane introduced them to his mom. His mom had noticed Nicky in a swim diaper and then saw him in a speedo. Zane told her he was picking on his little brother so his punishment was to be the little brother and had to wear the swim diaper and more because of it. Kevin and her talked a bit, and he told her that Bobby and Zane were very similar, and it would be good for Zane to have sleepovers. He also told her how his punishment works and it teaches not only respect for others but empathy. Most people don't realize that bedwetting is a medical condition, no different than needing glasses or being in a wheelchair. Teasing a person about a medical condition is very cruel and a clear sign of a bully, not a loving sibling or friend. She listened and had to agree, and admitted she never thought of it that way, but it is something he can't control and it is a medical condition. Kevin gave her his email and offered to answer questions or advice, and explained how he did foster care and worked with abused and neglected boys and how some would pick on others just to make themselves feel better and important.

Kevin walked the boys back. They were all talking and having fun. It was good to see that they had all become friends. He heard Timmy ask Billy if they could sleep over. Billy said he did not know but he could ask his mom. Kevin figured if they did a sleepover he would tell his boys if that happened, no playing that night. Dan was asking Bobby, Nicky, and X about their speedos. He said he would be embarrassed to wear them.

Bobby said, "It's no big deal. We have seen each other get diapered at night so what's the big deal about this? It's comfy and I think it makes me look sexy. It's what boys in Europe and most of the boys in the world wear. I don't care what others think. I want my mom to get me some of these. This one is Nicky's but I want to get one like it and I really like that yellow one he is wearing. The fish one Sammy has is cool too."

When they got back, Kevin told the boys to take a quick shower, and then he would get Sammy and Nicky in their diapers.

Once they were cleaned up, it turned out they were all a bit tired. They decided they wanted to watch a movie. Because of this, Billy and Bobby both got diapered in case they fell asleep. X was the only one in a pull-up. Kevin was so proud when X ran to use the bathroom to go pee just as the movie was starting. The boys cuddled together while they watched a movie Kevin suggested. "Flight of the Navigator". It was a movie Kevin watched as a kid. The boys enjoyed it and only Billy and Sammy ended up falling asleep. X said the boy in the movie was really cute.

While the boys were watching the movie, Kevin explained to Mary and John, what happened at the pool. Mary said she would be happy to talk to Zane's mom, and if he and Bobby decide to have a sleepover she will suggest it happen here first. She felt it would be best to actually diaper him since he admitted his GoodNites leak, just like they do on Bobby. He also explained about Jon being a little boy, and that his little brother was a school friend of Billy, so she might see them too. They chuckled at that.

They had a quiet evening, and when it was time for the boys to go to bed, Kevin pulled them aside to see where X was going to sleep. Kevin figured Bobby and Nicky wanted to have some fun, but was not sure if they wanted to include X in it. To his surprise, X asked if he could sleep with Kevin. Kevin also let the boys know he trusted them to diaper themselves tonight. He set out the clean diapers for them and let the couples go and have fun. He told Nicky to enjoy it and he was proud of how he behaved today. This brought a big smile to Nicky's face.

Kevin got X changed and let him cuddle up to him while he relaxed in bed and read his book. After a little bit, X moved and asked Kevin if they could talk.

Over the next 45 minutes, they talked about X's fears about diapers at school and being teased, how he liked how diapers felt and wanted to wear them at home if he could, and his feelings for Sammy, Erik, Tanner, Nicky, and even Kevin. Kevin told him he was flattered, but even though he was not big by a long shot, he was afraid he would hurt X and that was the last thing he wanted to do. He loved X with all his heart. X opened up more about some of the abuse he suffered from his mom and her boyfriends. It broke Kevin's heart to hear how he was treated, used, and neglected.

"X, why did you not want to sleep with Sammy and Billy again tonight? Was it a particular reason or was it just because you wanted to talk with me?"

"It was a lot of fun last night and stuff. But I felt like I did not belong because they kept talking about the fun stuff they did when they lived in Las Vegas. It made me feel weird. I liked the sex, but it was just sex. Nothing else. Sometimes when Sammy and I do it, it feels like it's just sex, and other times it feels different. It feels more special. Just like when I did stuff with my mom's boyfriends it was just sex. It was not even fun most of the time because they did not care about me. One did and that felt much better. He was gentle and did not hurt me much. The other guys just wanted to shoot their sperm in or on me and then it was over. They did not even try to make me feel good."

"I'm so sorry to hear that buddy. They used you and your mom should never have allowed it. That is another reason why we should not do anything because I am afraid you would see me as a bad person, just like her boyfriends were. I love you and only want what is best for you."

"I know you are not a bad person. I know if we did it you would be gentle, loving, caring, and make me feel good. But I kinda understand what you mean. But I really would like to know how it feels to have a man love me and not just use me. Please. Can you show me how good it can feel to be loved?" X said as he reached and grabbed Kevin's hard cock in his boxers.

"X we should not do this."

"Maybe, but I think it will be fun and feel great and then I can see how good it feels to be made love to."

X pulled the head of Kevin's cock out of his boxers and proceeded to take the head in his mouth and start sucking on it. This felt so good. Kevin was very conflicted. He had told himself he would never do anything sexual with his boys. He had no plan to do anything with any boys, but Han, messed that plan up, and now X was breaking the other part up. He was very conflicted. But his cock was feeling great in the warm little mouth.

Now it made sense to Kevin. X had gone to the bathroom just before it was time to get diapered. He asked for the little kids night diaper instead of his normal one. Kevin asked if he was sure to which X told him he had just gone pee and poop and knew the kids diaper would be fine. So Kevin put it on him. It seems X had another reason because that one is Velcro so it's easy to remove for sex. It also seems X had cleaned his bottom extra well and even put some Vaseline in his hole. When Kevin diapered him he noticed the shine but did not think anything of it.

"X, if I am going to make love to you, I need some lube, so I have to look to see what we have in the diaper bag."

"We got lotion, baby oil, and Vaseline. I put some Vaseline in my butt earlier, so it's already a little slippery for you." X said as he quickly jumped out of bed and ran to grab the lube from the backpack. He returned and gave the lube to Kevin as he gave him a big hug and a quick kiss.

"If it hurts too much tell me and I will stop. I don't want to hurt you but I know it will most likely hurt at least a little as the head pops in. I am not that big. I'm about average if not maybe a tad below, but I guess that works in my favor if I am going to make love to a cute diaper boy like you. Let's start with you on your hands and knees in doggy style so I can lube and stretch your cute butt."

Over the next 5 minutes, Kevin worked his fingers into a moaning X. Kevin had him put his head face down on the pillow so he did not make too much noise. The last thing he wanted was anyone coming in to see why there was moaning in his room. X was able to take 2 fingers very quickly and after about 3 minutes he asked Kevin to put another in. When he did, he took it slow, however, X was able to relax, open up, and enjoy it. He never once lost his hard little stiffy. With 3 fingers sliding in pretty easily, Kevin knew X could handle his cock. Kevin took his free hand and lubed up his daddy love tool. He removed his fingers from X's tight sexy boypussy. This caused X to moan and try to push back to get the fingers in him again. Kevin grabbed his hips and lined his cock up and put the head to X's tight hole. As Kevin started to push in slowly, X pushed back and the head popped in. Kevin and X both moaned in pleasure. He gave X a few seconds to adjust and then he started to slowly insert more of his cock. He was about half in when he felt X tense a little. He stopped and let X adjust again, and once he relaxed, Kevin pushed more in. He was just about all the way in when X tensed, so he just gave him the last half an inch before he stopped.

Kevin's cock was all the way into X and his bush was on X's soft ass. It felt wonderful to both of them. Once X relaxed, Kevin started to pull out. He was about halfway and then slowly pushed back in. As he did this he hit X's little prostate which caused a moan of pleasure from the small sexy boy.

X enjoyed sex with the boys, but they could only sometimes rub his prostate. When Han fucked him, he was able to hit it and it felt great. Now with Kevin doing him, he feels Kevin's cock rubbing it as he pulls in and out and when the ridge of his cock rubs over it, it sends shivers through X's entire body.

Over the next few minutes Kevin slowly worked his cock in and out of X. He got to the point where he is pulling almost all of it out, just the tip is staying in X's ass, and then he pushed it all back in. As it goes in and out it rubs his prostate and is driving X crazy with sexual ecstasy. This is the best his butt has ever felt and the best sex he has ever had. He feels loved. However he is getting very close to having an orgasm, and he has not touched his stiffy at all. Kevin starts to speed up the pace and that sends X over the edge and he has a very powerful orgasm, strictly from the pleasure he got from being fucked. Kevin could feel X's ass spasm on his cock. The ring was so tight it was like it was trying to cut his dick off. The walls of his ass were milking Kevin's cock. He pushed in and held his cock all the way in X, while the boy had his orgasm and his body shock.

Once X started to relax, Kevin started going again. He was fucking the boy, or at least the motion was fucking, but this was making love, as it was sweet and gentle. His goal was to give X as much pleasure as he could. Kevin decided he wanted to look into X's eyes and see his beautiful face while he bred his boy. Kevin pulled out and had X lay on his back. He got a pillow under X's ass, and then put the diaper under his ass between the pillow, so any lube or cum would leak into the diaper, so the bed and pillow would stay clean.

He grabbed the boy's ankles and pushed them towards his little ears. This opened his ass wide open and allowed him to slide his cock back into X easily. As his cock rubbed the boys developing prostate it caused him to moan out in pleasure. Kevin had a slow and steady pace. He wanted to get X to have another dry orgasm, and maybe 2 more if he could. Kevin worked to adjust how he had X bent over so he could give the boy as much pleasure as possible. As he was going faster and a little harder, he was grinding his cock over the sensitive prostate and this caused X to have another dry anal orgasm. He almost passed out it was so good. Kevin just slammed his cock all the way in and held it there while X shook and spasmed. Once he was done, Kevin started going again.

"Daddy, that feels so good. I love you so much and I feel so loved. Thank you for doing this for me. I want you to breed me and make me your boy forever. I want to feel your sperm in me. Please do it."

That got Kevin going even faster and harder. He noticed after the second orgasm, X was only semi-hard. Kevin had to wonder if that was because both orgasms were anal-induced, with no stimulation to his little stiffy at all. Kevin lasted for another 5 minutes. He was dripping sweat onto X who was panting and moaning from the massive amounts of pleasure Kevin was giving him. As Kevin was about to cum, he kissed X and took one hand and twisted his nipple a little. This was too much for the boy and he came again. This put Kevin over the top and he started shooting his cum in the tight boypussy that was milking his cock from its orgasm. This one was too much for X and he passed out from the intense pleasure. However, he did get to feel Kevin's cum filling his ass and the warmth and completeness it gave him from it.

After Kevin regained his composure, he pulled out of X. He noticed X was breathing quietly and saw he was out cold. He was totally soft and relaxed. Kevin checked his ass, and it was a bit puffy, but no bruising or damage. His cum was slowly leaking out of the well fucked hole. He was worried X would be upset at him later or when he was older, but the look of total satisfaction on X's face told Kevin that X liked it as much or more than he did. After all, he did achieve 3 orgasms from Kevin's cock working his tight ass and rubbing his little prostate.

Kevin wiped his cock off on X's diaper. He was glad he had it there, as it caught some of the lube that had leaked out from their sex, which would have stained the sheets or pillow. He got X diapered and tucked into bed. It was almost 30 minutes of lovemaking and Kevin was worn out. He was very thirsty so he went to get himself some juice and to check on the other boys, once he put on his boxers.

The others were done. Bobby and Nicky had gotten each other diapered. They were cuddled together and looked so cute. Sammy and Billy had done a so-so job with the diapers, so Kevin got them properly diapered. It looked like Billy had passed out and Sammy had to diaper both of them, or else Billy was not good at putting a diaper on someone else.

Kevin returned to his bed. He looked at X who had a soft glow about him. He was totally content and happy. He had a slight smile on his face. Kevin slid into bed next to the boy whom he loved and pulled him close. He drifted off to sleep holding him. However, with his mind worried about what this could do, he had a restless night of sleep. He woke up about 3 am, and it was X who was holding Kevin to try to calm him. The look of love on X's face told Kevin that he did not need to worry, X was happy and loved him even more. He slept the rest of the night peacefully.

The boys wanted to go swimming each day, and Kevin took them. Mary came once to relax, get some sun, and enjoy the romance book she had. Nicky was happy when Kevin told him he could wear his Speedo if he wanted to instead of the swim diaper. Nicky was behaving well, and even listening to his brothers when they gave him suggestions or asked him to do something. It was cute when X asked him if he needed his diaper changed. Since X was in a pull-up, and it was clear Nicky was very wet, but it was close to bedtime so it did not matter.

The rest of the trip went great. The boys had a blast, and they ended up seeing Zane when they went swimming when Mary was with them. Zane and Bobby talked about a sleepover the following weekend, and all could tell Zane was super excited. However, Kevin did get a strange phone call on Sunday afternoon. When Kevin changed the boys on Sunday evening, he put the diaper he had shot his load into on Bobby. The boys had asked if he would diaper them after they were done playing. So he agreed as any good daddy would.

On Sunday afternoon, as they were walking back from the pool, Kevin's phone rang. He looked at it and it was Han's home phone #. Han had a cell phone and would text Kevin from it, but did not call. So he was surprised by the call.

"Hello"

"Hi, Kevin, it's Faye, Han's Aunt. How are you doing?"

"Hi Faye, we are all good. Down in Iowa so the boys could see their friends. They were best friends in Las Vegas before they came to live with me. Their friends ended up moving to Iowa, and I promised to help them keep in touch, so I surprised them by driving to Iowa for the long weekend so they could hang out."

"That's super sweet. I found out you were not home, because Han has been a bit bored. He and Tanner have been hanging out here, instead of out and about at your house like they have been the last few weeks."

"Yeah, they have been over at our place most days. When I told both boys we were going to be gone for the long weekend, they looked so sad, it broke my heart. I worry about Tanner and his home life. But both boys are good boys and are welcome at our house anytime. Han is a good role model for the boys, and I know they look up to him like an older cousin or almost big brother."

"I'm glad that Han has been behaving himself. I agree Tanner is a great kid, but his stepdad and stepbrother are something else. I feel so bad for the boy. He has spent the last 2 days here. Is your little one, I think his name is Sammy, the one that got stung and was in the hospital, doing ok?"

"Yeah, he is doing much better, he still has some of the welts from the stings but we got him to take his shirt off when we went swimming, and that helped him when no one teased him about them. A few of the other boys at the pool asked him about them and told him how brave he was. That helped boost his self-esteem and confidence. Now he is running around in just his speedos. Soon he will be in just his diaper, once we get to the house and get him changed."

"I'm glad he is better. Han told me what happened, how you saved the boy, and he called you a hero."

"I'm not a hero, I just did what anyone should have done. My boy was in danger, and I reacted. I got them all in the SUV while I got my little one and then got him to the hospital. I was glad Han was there because I could trust him to help watch the other boys until I had their Uncle show up to watch and comfort them. You have a very caring and smart young man."

"That's so kind of you to say. That is the reason I am calling. I have noticed over the last week his behavior has changed a bit. He seems much happier and even has more pep in his step. He talks about you all the time, and if I did not know better I would say he is in love with you."

"I am glad he is happier. I think he just needed a male role model in his life and a man to tell him he is a good boy and boost his self-esteem a bit."

"I hope you are right. But part of me thinks there is more to it than that. I noticed he was looking at gay porn on his laptop the other night and it was of a man and a boy. This worries me as I think he has a real crush on you or else maybe something else has happened. I know about his past and how his mom's old boyfriends used him, and she ignored it. But I am worried about him. I heard a bit of noise from his room last night after he and Tanner went to bed, it sounded like moaning."

"Well, boys that age often experiment with other boys. It's actually pretty common and normal. He told me about some of his issues from his past, and it broke my heart. He felt used and unloved. As he goes into and thru puberty his emotions can flare up as well as his hormones and his sex drive. I would not worry too much about it. I know he has talked a bit with my boys. One of my boys was abused before he came to live with me, and I know they talked. I told him it was not his fault, and that it does not make him gay, just because someone did that. I explained he should not worry or think of labels, and just enjoy being a kid."

"I appreciate that. I know you're busy, but can we talk when you get back? I have some other concerns and I don't want to talk about them over the phone or where Han might hear us. Maybe one evening after you get off work or when you have a day off let me know."

"Sure thing. I am supposed to start work next week, but have not gotten a schedule yet. They told me to swing in on Wednesday when I talked to them last week. I can come over on Tuesday if you would like while the boys are at school, or you can come over to our place, and check it out."

"I would love to check it out. Han has told me a bit about it, and the tire swing he says is so much fun. Let me know when it's good for you, so we can sit down and have a serious chat. I appreciate it. I will let you go, have a nice evening and a safe drive home."

Kevin had a bad feeling in his stomach. The way she talked and the tone of her voice made him feel like she knew what they had done. That he and Han had sex and made love. What did she overhear them talking about or maybe see Han searching online? He needed to stay calm, but he was worried. She did not seem angry, but he could tell she was a bit upset and concerned. Did Han tell Tanner about it and did she hear them talking about it? He just needed to not worry, because he had a long drive the next day so he and the boys could get home safely.

Saying goodbye was a sad event for the boys. But they knew it was not forever. It was planned to have a visit in Minnesota over Xmas vacation. Kevin also invited them to join them for Thanksgiving if they had no other plans.

He got his boys in thick diapers to last the entire trip. Sammy was in his Luvs, but had a stuffer added to it, while the others were in the Mega-Max. It was a hot day, so they only had on their sandals, diapers, and t-shirt or onesie. Kevin decided to wear a diaper under his shorts to help save on stops. This meant they would only need one fuel stop, unless the boys needed to get out and run for 5 minutes like on the way down. Mary made a bunch of sandwiches and snacks for them as well as filled the boys' bottles and sippy cups with juice, along with a large bottle of juice to refill the boys' drinks as needed. Kevin had several 20 oz bottles of Coke, along with some bottled water. He still had some beef jerky from the drive down and he knew the boys would enjoy that together with him.

They hit the road at 1 pm Monday afternoon. They had a nice lunch and had plenty of food and snacks to last the drive and any traffic they might hit. Kevin figured it would be a long drive, but he had a few back routes he could take if there was a lot of traffic as he goes through the twin cities. He should be after the traffic. He wanted to get the boys home so they could get a bath or shower and get some sleep since they started school the next day. He suggested X and Nicky download and read a new story Kevin ran across, so they downloaded Jia's story.

They stopped at a rest area just before the Mn border. The boys got out, ran, and played for a few minutes while Kevin refilled their cups and bottles again. He had done the same 2 hours before when he stopped and filled up with fuel. He did not want them to get dehydrated. It was hot and humid, today. They ran AC part of the way but the boys liked it when the windows were down and the wind was blowing on them, so he did that in the evening as it was starting to cool off. It was a lot nicer when he did not have to worry about any of the boys needing to make potty breaks. He had run into that issue once while taking several of the foster boys camping. It seemed like every 30 minutes someone had to stop and go pee. It took forever to get to the campground but was much faster going home when all were in diapers or GoodNites.

They got home at about 8pm. Kevin got the boys into the bathtub while he unloaded the Excursion. Once they were clean, he had them each check their new backpack to make sure they had everything they needed. He felt it was wise to have each boy pack their new backpack before they left on the trip, in case they got back late. He was very glad they had done so. The boys never noticed the new high-chair, or the new bunk bed crib set up that were delivered.

The next morning was hectic, but he got the boys off to school. He would swing in later in the day and drop off some diapers for them as well as some extra pullups, and a change of pants. Both Nicky and X were in pull-ups under their undies, and they each had an extra pull-up in their backpack just incase, but it was hidden in the bottom of the pack in a paper bag. The school already had the doctor's notes for them, so they would allow the older boys to get changed, or change them as needed, and would change Sammy as needed. The plan was for them to go in at lunchtime if they needed to change their pull-up. Sammy was already told he was to go in to the nurse to get his diaper checked and changed when he was done eating his lunch before he went to play. If anyone asked, he could tell them he has to take medicine after lunch.

When Kevin got done with the grocery shopping, errands and dropping off their supplies at the school, he called Faye and invited her to come over. He was very nervous.

A few minutes later Faye arrived, and Kevin gave her a tour of the house. She was surprised when she saw the big kid cribs, but thought it was cute, when Kevin showed her a picture of Sammy in his with a bunch of stuffed animals all around him, and then one of him and X in the crib cuddled together. She had heard about the Harry Potter room from Han, so she wanted to see it and was very impressed by it. Kevin had gotten some drapes and new sheets that matched them for the beds, so it all looked very nice.

They head downstairs and end up sitting on the back patio. Faye noticed the hot tub and commented about how nice that must be on a sore back. Kevin said it helps a lot, and he can't wait to enjoy it during the winter. The boys love it and have fun since it's not heated during the summer. They talked for a few minutes and then Faye looked at him and got a serious look on her face.

"I wanted to talk to you about a few things. First, I knew your name sounded familiar. It took me a while, but I now know why."

"If you did not want Han to come over anymore you could have just told me over the phone. I would have respected it." Kevin said with sadness in his voice.

"I did not say that. Do you remember Alice and Dennis Storm?"

"The names don't ring a bell off the top of my head."

"Maybe this will help you out. They have a daughter named Cindy, who is the oldest child, then her little brother is Kam, and her adopted brother is Hobie."

"Yes, when you add that info, I do know them. I forgot their last name was Storm. I hope they are doing well. How do you know them?"

"Our families were close. I went to school with Alice's older sister. We were best friends, and after I lost my parents, they were the ones that helped me deal with all the stress. When Han came to live with me, they were the ones who offered to help me with some child care so I could get a break. Han has spent time with them and earlier this summer he spent a week with Kam, his husband, and the boy they are adopting. They live in Anoka. Hobie is currently doing some type of research on coral reefs in Belize I think he said. I talked to all of them over the weekend. They have nothing but good things to say about you. Both Hobie and Kam told me you would never hurt or abuse anyone, and they would trust their kids with you. They were also happy to hear you were back here and that you had several boys of your own."

"I am glad they are doing well. They were good boys. I was so happy when they decided to adopt Hobie. It was the perfect placement. I am so glad Kam found someone to love and they are adopting. He will be a great daddy. Feel free to give them my phone #."

"I will. I told them I would email it to them later. My thought was to send all 3 of you an email so you had phone numbers and email addresses if that is ok with you."

"Sounds good to me, I look forward to chatting with them."

"Next, I asked Alice and Dennis if they would take care of my boys if anything happened to me. They said they don't have the space, since they moved to a smaller home and they have 1 spare room which is currently used as her craft and sewing room. No room for 2 boys. She suggested I talk to you. I then asked Kam, and he said he would, but they have their hands full with just 1 boy, and not sure how they would take care of 3. He commented he did not know how you could handle all the boys and sleepovers they had at your house. So, I am asking if you would be willing to take care of my boys if anything were to happen to me. I am updating my will and need to make sure it's all spelled out in it."

"I would be honored. I hope it would never come to that, but I would be more than willing if for any reason you were not able to take care of him."

"It's not just Han. But I will tell you about that last. Now the most important one, and hardest to talk about. We need to figure it out before I can do my will." Faye said and then paused, looking like she was trying to figure out the best words to use. Kevin just nodded and then waited for her to continue.

"I can tell Han is very happy. When he comes home from being over there, he is on cloud nine. The way he talks about you, and the way he looks at you, are not normal for a boy his age. It makes me think he has a crush on you or is in love with you. I noticed it first about10 days ago, when he got home. He also seemed to have a hard time sitting still. Like he had ants in his pants, or maybe a sore bottom. That night after I told him to take his shower, I put his diaper on him, which he seemed embarrassed about. His asshole was red and puffy. It was clear he had something inside him. I asked about it as I put some cold crème on it. He said it was his hairbrush handle. I let it go, but I know he was not being honest. I also heard Tanner and him talking. He was explaining about how it felt to have a `big one' in him and how much he loved being hugged and cuddled afterwards. I am under the impression you are having sex with him. Tanner asked him some questions and I heard Han say, it was all his idea and that his `lover' or `daddy' kept saying no, but gave in finally when he said he just wanted to know what it felt like to be loved instead of used. I asked him last night about it. He got upset and could not look me in the eye. I could tell he was not telling me the truth when he told me he was not in a relationship with you. I love Han and want to make sure he is safe. I told him he needed to come straight home after school. I will be talking to him more about it. But. I want to know what you have to say. Based on how honest you are with me, it will dictate my response and next actions. I do not have any recording devices on me, nor do I have a wire, so what you say, we are the only ones to hear it. I need the truth. I think I deserve that, don't you."

 

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What will Kevin say?

How will Faye react?

How did the boys' first day at the new school go?

Did anyone find out about their pull-ups or diapers?

 

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1.    Axel from the Ashes

2.    My Son Timmy

3.    My Little Nephew Sucks

4.    Summer Camp

5.    Convincing Cade

6.    Dad 2.0

7.    Young Innocence

8.    Happiest Place on Earth Series

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10.                   Taking Jimmy

11.                   Angel Gabriel

12.                   Sharing Our Boys

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14.                   Swim Team Mascot

15.                   Bodies Inc.

16.                   Orgasm Project

17.                   Surprise

18.                   Twins for Twins

19.                   It Figures

20.                   Jia and the 4th Age

21.                   Will, Mike, and Diapers

22.                   Carson Get Cast

23.                   Adventures of an Emergency Babysitter

24.                   Subliminal Baby 3

25.                   Riley's Revenge

 

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