Date: Thu, 21 Feb 2013 11:02:44 +0000 (GMT) From: Mr. D Subject: Curiosity kills the cat, part 5 This story contains graphic sexual scenes between males. If material of this nature offends you then you should not read this story. Additionally, if you are under 18 years of age in most states you are not allowed to read this story by law. This story is purely a work of fiction. Any resemblance to person's living or dead, or to events that may have occurred, is purely coincidental. The author claims all copyrights to this story and no duplication or publication of this story is allowed, except by the web sites to which it has been posted, without the consent of the author. Dionyssos Dionyssos00@yahoo.no (that is Dionyssos, and `zero-zero' at the end) Recap part 4 Eventually my tears dried up and I let go of Thomas. He took a step back and looked at me with worried eyes. Alex: "I am sorry Thomas. I don't understand what is happening to me. One minute I feel safe and the next I'm so scared I can't even move" Thomas: "It's OK Alex. When you feel ready to tell me what is going on in your head I'll be right here. Now let's get some food into you". He put his arm around my shoulders and guided me towards the kitchen. My stomach growled when I smelled the food. I was much hungrier than I had thought and bacon and eggs was the perfect cure. Curiosity kills the Cat, part 5 Once I had some food into my system I felt much better. Thomas and I had not spoken during the meal but I could sense something was out of place. It was like a tension was radiating from him. I did feel guilty about falling apart like that and really needed to talk to him. Finding the words, however, was much more difficult. My mind was going over the other times I had tried to explain my misery to others. The result was always the same. They did not believe me. It couldn't possibly be as bad as I said it was. I shouldn't mind my brother so much and stop exaggerating. After that they tended to keep their distance and leave me alone with my troubles. I did not want this to happen again but had no idea how to avoid it. When Thomas began to clear the table I had to say something. "Look Thomas. My unhappiness is in no way your fault. I guess you could blame it on me being an unstable teenager but I know that is not all. I just fear for what will happen if I try to explain" He put down the dishes and came over to the table and sat down next to me. "I don't understand Alex. What would happen if you told me?" "Do you remember yesterday when you said that when I get older I will be more able to figure out if acting on an impulse was a good or bad idea?" "Yes I remember" "Well even if I am young there are some things that I have tried before and always end up with the same unwanted result" "Are you talking about us having sex?" "No! I am a virgin and you are actually the first man I have been with. Fooling around in the showers at school does not count and even if it did I have never done that. What I am trying to say is that I have tried to explain why I am so unhappy before and it never works. So far no one has taken me seriously and it has only made me feel exposed and even more alone in this world" Thomas kept looking me in the eye and something changed in his expression. I didn't know what I saw and it confused me. Was he backing out even before I tried to explain? Had the harm already been done? I looked down and broke the eye contact. Was I about to destroy the only good thing that had happened to me in a very long time? My mind took me to all the darkest places at once. I literally felt like my mind left the room and left my body behind. I snapped back to reality when Thomas took both my hands in his. I had closed my eyes and when they flew open I looked straight into Thomas' eyes. "Listen to me Alex and correct me if I'm wrong. There is something eating you up inside. It is not related to us but you are afraid that if you tell me I will push you away and call you a liar". "YES!" That `yes' came out much more forcefully than I had intended it to and it startled me. Thomas didn't seem to react to it at all and looked like he was in deep thought. "I tell you what Alex. Risking loosing another life to curiosity would it be alright if I asked you questions and you tried to answer them honestly. If I ask you a question you don't want to answer, just say so. If you get upset by a question tell me. Heck even slap me or yell at me if you want. Would that be OK?" His reference to `The cat's nine lives' made me smile. It seemed to have become a good base to start from. The thought of answering any question he asked frankly scared the life out of me but at the same time I got this strange feeling that this was a good idea. "OK we can do that but please don't hate me if I get emotional. I have a feeling I my mood will swing a lot" "Let them swing all you want Alex. I will not hold it against you or kick you out. I promise. Let's go sit in the living room sofa. It is much more comfortable" We got up and walked into the living room and I tried to stay calm on the way. My heart was pounding in my chest and I was beginning to have second thoughts about this. We sat down facing each other and I took a deep breath to calm myself. "Ready?" "As ready as I'll ever be" "OK then. First question; Are you really a virgin?" Did he doubt me already? I felt the anger rise within but the simple answer was: "Yes" "Do you feel safe in my apartment?" "Yes" "Do you trust me?" "My gut tells me I can, but my head tells me I can't" "Fair enough Alex. Now do you regret what we have done together?" "NO!" I could not hold back the anger that welled up this time and I ended up shouting my answer at Thomas. I tried to calm down but it was hard. "It's OK to get angry Alex. If you want me to stop just say so" "I don't want to stop I just don't see where this is going and it is scaring me" "So when you feel scared you get angry?" "Yes" "Do you feel scared a lot?" "I guess I do. Don't have any really safe places to go. He always finds it and corrupts it" "Who finds you?" "My older brother!" The word `brother' came out like a snarl. Just the thought of him made me both scared, angry and gave me the feeling of having no power to protect myself. "I assume you don't get along with him very well?" "That would depend on who you asked. Ask any so called adult in my life and they will tell you it is just a matter of brotherly love and that it's all fine" "But I'm asking you Alex" "It's a living hell!" After that I can't recall what questions Thomas asked or what I replied. It felt like I was tapping into some part of my being that had been trapped and buried. Once it came to the surface it just took control. When I try to recall this event in present time I imagine myself floating in the air above Thomas and myself. There are no sounds but I can see that we are talking. The memory ends the same place every time and it's also when I came to myself again. I lift my hand and slap Thomas with all my force! Stunned by what I just did and confused to why I did it. I got up too quickly and with no balance and fell to the floor. The next thing I know I am laying on the sofa with my head in Thomas' lap. The first thing my sight catches is an angry red palm print on his cheek. In panic I try to sit up but his strong arm is holding me back. I know it's no use to try to break free and put my head back down. "I am so sorry Thomas! I have no idea what came over me. Please forgive me?" "Don't worry about it Alex. I told you could hit me if you wanted to. I guess I ended up losing another life. I must admit though that you throw quite a punch!" He was brushing away some hair from my forehead and I realized I was all sweaty. In fact I felt like I had just had a serious workout. I tried to slowly sit up and felt the restrain of his arm again. "If I let you get up will you promise not to run away from me?" "I promise. I'm actually feeling very calm at the moment" He let go so I could sit up. The room was spinning slightly and I had to close my eyes and just concentrate on my breathing. "I feel like I just ran ten miles at full speed. A little dizzy actually. Could I have some water?" "Sure thing I'll get some cool water. You just stay put and relax" He came back with a big glass of water. It felt so nice I could hardly contain my thirst. I emptied the glass in no time and carefully put it on the table. I turned to face him again and slowly raised my hand to his face. I could feel the warmth radiating from his chin. I couldn't believe I had made that mark. I slowly ran my fingers across it and whispered `I'm so sorry' once more. "Don't worry about it Alex. I understand a lot more about you now and you do not have to be afraid I will push you away" "What happened? I only remember the first few questions and then it's all blank until I hit you" "I think that you are one very unhappy young man. It apparently is related to your family and the hell you feel it is living with them. You told me all about your brother teasing and beating you and that your mother doing nothing to stop it. Your no good stepfather always drinking and not caring. You never feel safe and are carrying a lot of frustration around. It is no wonder you have such mood swings Alex. Frankly I am surprised you have not struck down a fellow classmate by now" "I told you all that?" "Yes you did more or less. Once you tapped into that pent up anger and frustration there was nothing stopping you. It honestly was like opening a drain and watch the water just flow out. How do you feel now?" "I fell like a huge burden has been lifted from my shoulders. Almost like I'm free for the first time in... well for the first time ever. All I really want to do is to snuggle close to you and just feel safe and happy" "I am sensing a `but' coming" "You are right there is a `but'. I have to call my mother and let her know that I'm safe. She will be wondering about me by now. I usually don't stay out over night without letting my mother know beforehand" "You really are a remarkable young man Alex. You can use the phone and call home right now if you want" "Thank you, but I need to come up with a plausible lie before I speak to her. I also need to know one more thing" "What's on your mind?" "Can I stay over one more night?" "If it was up to me you could stay here for as long as you care to Alex. Now think for a while and go lie to you mother" The corner of his mouth pulled up slightly when he said that last sentence. It made me grin my best evil grin back at him. "Will do sir!" ---To be continued --- So if you have an opinion about the story, good or bad, or have a suggestion for the plot, please let me know at following e-mail. Please use the story's title as subject. Dionyssos00@yahoo.no (00 = zero-zero) You should also make sure you send a tribute to Nifty. They can't keep this wonderful site open if we do not donate funds to them. To donate follow this link: http://donate.nifty.org/donate.html To all of you, who have sent your opinion, thank you! You have been a great help, and I hope you continue to read my stories and inspire me with your feedback. Should you want to read other stories written by me, you will find two of them posted to Nifty here; http://www.nifty.org/nifty/gay/incest/what-was-i-thinking/ And http://www.nifty.org/nifty/gay/incest/joshs-savior/