Date: Fri, 15 May 2020 17:32:12 -0500 From: Keith Yates Subject: Devyn's Struggle 19-V2 This is a fictional story involving sexual acts between two or more men. If this offends you, why are you here? If you are under the legal age to read sexually explicit material then do not read any further. This story in no way represents any person living or dead. Any resemblance to any real person is purely coincidental. This story is the property of the author and no copying or posting to any other website is permitted without the author's written consent. Please help keep Nifty going by donating to this awesome service. http://donate.nifty.org/donate.html Well, I got lots of comments from the last chapter of Devyn's Struggle and Brent's Struggle. Thanks everyone for the feedback. I do appreciate it and since I got so much, I thought I had better get another chapter done. I will be looking forward to your comments. Please send them to me at keith.96@att.net. You can also check out these other stories: Brent's Struggle https://www.nifty.org/nifty/gay/highschool/brents-struggle/ Jake's tale https://www.nifty.org/nifty/gay/college/jakes-tale/ Devyn's Struggle V2 Chapter 19 Looking over at the teenager, Joe could see the emotions cascading thru the boy. Their eyes met briefly before Devyn began looking out the passenger side window. Joe was not sure if he should push the boy to talk more or let him proceed at his own pace. After a few long minutes of silence, Devyn began to talk. "It is surprising just how fast your life can change," He said. "I would never have dreamed that the next day he would hurt me more than anything." "I am sorry that didn't work out better," Joe said tenderly. "Me too," Devyn said. "I am certain he is gay. I hope he finds his way and doesn't end up making the mistakes I did." "We can only hope he can come to terms with who he is." "Yea, there is only one Joe and I have him and I am not sharing him." "I feel very special now," Joe said. "Um, Joe," Devyn began after riding several more miles in silence. "yeah," Joe said glancing at the boy. "I was wondering, um, if maybe I could have a few friends out for like a pizza night or something?" "Of course," Joe said. "It is your house. Are you thinking about inviting Dewayne and Terry out? Joe was not sure he wanted those two troublemakers at the house but he also knew it would be better having them there where he could keep an eye on them. "No, some other friends," Devyn said. "If there is snow maybe we could ride those snow mobiles I saw in the shed?" "there is even a sleigh in there you can pull behind it," Joe said. "if you want to give that a try, I'll show you how they operate and you can take it out for a spin." Devyn was a fast study on the machine. It was much easier to operate than the tractor or combine. He was soon speeding across the empty field. He and Joe had a nice day just racing around the farm on the machines. Terry called Devyn to invite him to a party but Devyn turned him down. He really wanted to put distance between himself and Dewayne and Terry. Devyn thought Terry might be a better friend if Terry did not have Dewayne influencing him. Terry had tried to pressure Devyn to go to the party with him. "We are going to have beer," Terry said trying to tempt Devyn. No thanks," Devyn said. "Dewayne's brother has a new crop," Terry said trying again. "It is really good shit." "I'll pass," Devyn said. "Oh, don't be a pussy," Terry pressured. "I'm not," Devyn said. "I have other plans." "Mindy will be there," Terry added trying to entice Devyn. "She says you are the best." Devyn realized now how much of a mistake it had been to have sex with Mindy. He should have never done anything with her. He should have never started hanging out with Terry and Dewayne. "I have other plans," Devyn said again. "You better come," Terry said. "Mindy might just hook up with someone else." Devyn was half tempted to just tell Terry he was gay. He was certain that if he said those words, there would be no more pressure from Terry or Dewayne. Devyn was just not ready to deal with the fall out at school from coming out. "Really Terry," Devyn said his voice taking on a note of finality. "I have plans." "Fine," Terry said and hung up. Devyn had invited Sam out to try riding the snowmobiles. Then Sam added Charlie and soon Stacy and Julie were also coming. Joe was fine with it. They all took turns riding the two machines across the empty field. The afternoon flew by with the five teenagers having fun. For Devyn it felt more relaxed than when he was with Dewayne and Terry. He was not pretending to be anything. He was not having to drink and get high to try and be someone he was not. These kids seemed to really like him for who he was. Sam and Charlie were both fast at learning to drive the machines. "We have actually sold these at the hardware store," Charlie told Devyn. "My brother Howard got to take it out for a spin but I did not get a chance. I wanted to but there wasn't time." "Well now you can," Devyn said. "just don't go to crazy. Charlie and Sam raced across the field while Devyn waited with the two girls. Then Devyn gave Julie and Stacy a quick lesson. Julie was a little more nervous so Devyn sat behind her on her first trip out. He felt like she was leaning into him more than she needed while mastering the machine. "You are a great teacher," she said. "It is easy," Devyn said. "I think you have it." The five of them played in the snow until the sun went down and the temperature started dropping. They rode the machines back to the house and after putting them away they hurried into the house to get warmed up. "Hot chocolate for everyone," Joe said passing around cups of the warm brew. "Thank you," Stacy said almost giggling as she was taking the cup from Joe. "Thanks," Devyn said as he was taking his own cup. His eyes met Joe's briefly and Devyn hoped the man understood the thanks was for more than just the hot chocolate. "He is so hot," Stacy said after Joe had left them alone. Devyn knew that Stacy had no idea just how sexy Joe was. Devyn had seen the man in nothing but a pair of tight-fitting boxer briefs. There was nothing like seeing that defined chest and those muscles flexing as the man was working. "Don't you think so?" Stacy said looking at Julie. "Yes," she said. "He definitely is. His blue eyes are amazing. "Geez," Devyn groaned. "Is he dating anyone?" she asked. "He's too old for you," Devyn said. "Yeah, but not for my aunt," she said grinning. "I would love to have him as an uncle." "You just want to drool over him at the family cookouts," Julie said teasingly. "I'm only joking'," she said. "But is he dating anyone?" "No," Devyn answered starting to feel uncomfortable. "Why not," Stacey asked. "He's a dream boat. "Geez," Charlie said. "You are like obsessed." "I have a curious personality," Stacey said. "That is why I am going to be a wonderful actress. I will really get into the character." "You just want to get to his bottom," Julie said. "Well, it is a fine bottom," Stacey said giggling. "Geez," Charlie groaned. "You are not his type," Sam said. "Oh," Stacey asked. "And what is his type?" "Can't we talk about something else?" Devyn asked feeling uncomfortable at the direction the conversation had taken. "Just as soon as Sam tells me what kind of girl his type is," Stacey said. Sam glanced at Charlie and then back at Stacy. "Well Charlie's brother told us that Joe, um..." "We don't know if Howard knew what he was talking about," Charlie said interrupting Sam. "What did he tell you?" Stacy asked. "He sounded like he knew," Sam said. "What did he say?" Stacy asked again. He said," Sam continued, "that Joe is, um, well queer." "Queer?" Stacy barked. "Who uses the term queer," Julie asked. "Well it is what he said," Sam said blushing. "The correct term is gay," Stacey said. Devyn was beginning to wish he had not invited any of them out. He did not know how to change the subject. He had no idea how to make them forget about Joe. "Is he?" Stacey asked Devyn. "What?" Devyn asked trying to come up with a good answer. "Is he gay?" Stacey said annunciating each word. "I never asked him," Devyn said. "Besides, it is none of our business." "Well, if he is," Julie said, "I have an uncle that would be perfect for him." "You do?" Sam asked. "Yes," Julie answered. "He is close to Joe's age, and he is damn good looking. He's a carpenter. He makes some really cool stuff in his workshop." "Should we try and fix Joe up with someone?" Stacey asked. "Hey," Devyn said even more surprised at the direction the conversation had taken. "We don't even know if he is or not and besides, I don't need a second dad." "Okay, Okay," Julie said. "We won't try fixing him up. But just keep my Uncle in mind. He really is a great guy. He needs someone like Joe." Devyn could not believe how comfortable these kids were with the idea of Joe being gay. The fact that Julie had an openly gay Uncle was also surprising. "Maybe we can get them both to go to that gay bar in Carterville," Stacey said. "I here it is hot." "There is a gay bar in Carterville?" Devyn said surprised. "Oh yeah," Stacey said. "How do you know?" Sam asked. "I just know," Stacy said. "I read about it somewhere." Devyn was relieved when the topic finally moved off Joe's sexual orientation. He considered telling the group that he was gay but did not. He just was not ready to take that step. Once you put that out there, there is no taking it back. Devyn did some research and discovered that Stacey was correct. There was a gay bar in Carterville. It was about an hour drive to Carterville, so Devyn knew he would not be going there without Joe knowing. "Did you know there was a gay bar in Carterville," Devyn asked Joe in late January. "I did know that," Joe said. "You ever go there?" Devyn asked. "It has been a while," Joe admitted. "You should go sometime," Devyn suggested. "Why would I want to do that?" Joe asked. "Is it a dump then?" Devyn asked. "No, it is actually kind of a nice bar. It is in a historic building and I think the bar was actually shipped over from Ireland." "Oh, so it is a gay Irish Pub." "Yea, something like that," Joe said grinning. "So, you should go," Devyn said. "You might find someone...you know someone to..." "Yes?" Joe asked grinning. "Someone to have a relationship with." "No one is going to be interested in an old farmer," Joe responded. "They will definitely be interested in you," Devyn said. "If you are nervous, we can go together. "Are you wanting to go?" Joe asked. "I am a little curious," Devyn admitted. "I have never been in one before and well, maybe I can meet a guy my age." "Maybe we will go sometime then," Joe said. Devyn was both intrigued by the idea of going to a gay bar and he was a little worried that Joe might meet someone. He knew that Joe deserved a person to love and who loved him, but Devyn wanted that person to he himself. He wondered if he could handle it if Joe did meet someone and had a relationship with them. Devyn let it rest a couple of weeks before bringing up the subject again. "Have you given any thought to going to that bar in Carterville?" He asked Joe one night over dinner. "You really want to go?" Joe asked. "I just thought maybe it would be nice to be around other gay guys," Devyn said. Joe could not decide if it was a good idea to take Devyn to that kind of place or not. He knew that if Devyn really wanted to go, that the kid would find a way. He also knew that Devyn had really been behaving. He had not noticed Devyn hanging out with Dewayne or Terry and Joe approved of that. He had also liked the group of kids that had went riding on the snowmobiles. It might be fun for you," Joe said. "It might be fun for you too," Devyn said. "Hanging out with a lot of horny gay boys?" Joe asked. "how would that be fun?" "So, you would be uncomfortable?" Devyn asked. "No," Joe said. "I would be fine." "Then we are going to go?" Devyn asked. "If you want," Joe said. "But there are rules." "Like?" Devyn asked. "I am the only person you leave with," Joe said. "Not a problem," Devyn confirmed. "No drinking. No smoking. No drugs of any kind," Joe said looking into Devyn's soft brown eyes. "Sure," Devyn said. "No sex," Joe said. "No sex?" Devyn said. "none?" "None at all," Joe said. "No working the glory hole in the rest room. No masturbating at the urinal. No sex of any kind at all. No oral or anal. Not even any masturbation of yourself or someone else." "Okay, okay," Devyn said his face burning. Joe chuckled. "If you don't want to go..." he said grinning at his young friend. "I'm beginning to think it won't be much fun," Devyn muttered. "Were you wanting to go to just have sex?" Joe asked. "I just wanted to be around guys that were like me," Devyn said. "I never been with a group that accepted me for being gay." Devyn paused and then added, "and if some sort of sexual activity happened, well it has been a while for me. I mean since being with a guy." "Devyn," Joe said seriously. "There will be older men there and you...well, you are damn hot. I do not think you realize how attractive you are. I want you to be careful. I don't want you seduced into doing something you might not want to do." "I don't think that will happen with you there," Devyn said. "I will of course do my best to protect you," Joe said, "but you need to take some responsibility too." "I understand," Devyn said. "I'm not going to be manipulated again. I learned my lesson from Tom on that respect." "Now how about a safety word," Joe said. "Safety word?" Devyn asked. "Something that means you are uncomfortable and ready to go," Joe said. "Um, like let's go?" Devyn said with a smirk. "I guess that is as good as anything," Joe said. Even with Joe's restrictions, Devyn was still excited about going to the bar. He was more excited about this Friday night party than any of those he had gone to with Dewayne and Terry. He really wished Joe would think of it as a date but the man was going more as a big brother than a potential boyfriend. "You look nice," Devyn told Joe. "Little doubt you will be walking out with a hot guy." "That is true," Joe said. "As I'll be leaving with you." "By the way," Devyn said as they drove towards Carterville and the bar. "Do those rules you told me also apply to you?" "I don't need rules," Joe said. "I think you do," Devyn said. "You do?" Joe said glancing at the teenager who had an impish grin. "Yes," Devyn responded. "Since I moved in, you haven't been out on one date. When was the last time you dated anyone?" "A while," was all Joe would say. "So, then the rules are," Devyn said with a twinkle in his eye. "You must have sex in the men's room. It can be oral, anal, or just masturbation. You must drink at least one drink. No smoking though it is just too bad for you." "Oh, and any others," Joe asked grinning. "Yea, you can't bring anyone home but me," Devyn said but he was only half teasing about the last one. He really did not want Joe to bring anyone home. "Thanks," Joe said chuckling. "I'll keep those rules in mind." They arrived at the bar a little before 10:00. Joe knew there was not any point getting there any earlier as the bars never got going until after 10:00 anyway. The place was starting to fill up. There were men and women out front smoking as they went into the bar. "Hot," Devyn heard someone say as they were walking towards the entrence. The music was loud and the conversations were shouted as people tried to make themselves heard. There was a stage at the back of the long room and a bar along the wall to Devyn's left. He could not believe how much noise there was in the place. He wondered just how anyone would get to know someone in a place like this. Devyn followed Joe up to the bar. Joe ordered a beer for himself and a Coke for Devyn. "Is it what you expected?" Joe asked putting his arm around Devyn's shoulders and leaning down to speak into Devyn's ear. "Not exactly," Devyn said. The men he saw nearby were all older than Joe. None of them sparked Devyn's interest. He wondered again how he would meet someone he would be interested in a place like this. "I'm going to walk around a bit," Joe said. "There are some college kids over there checking you out. You might have a better chance if I'm not hanging nearby." "Sure," Devyn said. Joe squeezed Devyn's shoulder. "Relax and have fun," he said. "I'll be close if you get into any trouble." Okay," Devyn said and watched Joe strolling towards the other end of the room. Devyn took a drink of the Coke and wished he were older so he could go hit on Joe. In Devyn's mind Joe was the best-looking man in the place. Devyn's gaze traveled over to the college guys that Joe had said was checking him out. He caught the eye of one of them. They smiled at each other. Watching Devyn saw the guy getting up and heading towards the bar. The man was attractive and seemed friendly enough as he was approaching Devyn. "Are you with him?" He asked as he was taking the bar stool next to Devyn. "Um, no, not really," Devyn answered as he turned. Devyn found himself looking into hazel eyes on a face that appeared to only be a couple years older than he was. The guy's dirty blonde hair was mussed up as if he had just rolled out of bed. Devyn wondered if that came naturally or if the guy spent hours making his hair look that way. "Then he was trying to pick you up?" he asked. "Or were you trying to pick him up." "No, we came together," Devyn said. "I thought you weren't with him," the guy said puzzled. "Sorry it is confusing," Devyn said. "He's like a big brother. We are together but not in that way." So, a big brother and not a daddy?" He asked. "It would be stretching it, but he could be," Devyn said..." I mean for him to be my Dad." "Gotcha," he said. "My name is Ethan." "I'm Devyn," Devyn said and took the hand that the guy offered. His shake was firm but not crushing. Devyn felt a surge of something flood through him. The guy was attractive enough. He had a nice face, kind eyes, and looked fairly fit under the college sweatshirt. "since you two aren't together, um, would it be alright if I hit on him?" Ethan asked. "Joe?" Devyn said surprised. "Is he into younger guys?" Ethan asked. "I think I could definitely be into him. He's, um, hot." Devyn was conflicted. He wanted Joe to meet someone and be happy. He also did not want Joe with anyone that was not him. Devyn glanced over in Joe's direction before answering. Joe was talking to another man and Devyn wanted Joe to be happy. Devyn knew standing in any way of that would not be doing himself or Joe any good. "Um, that is up to you," Devyn finally said. "You got a crush on him," Ethan said perceptively. Devyn felt his face blush. He knew the guy was right, but he did not think it was that obvious. "Sorry," Ethan said. "I didn't mean to embarrass you." "It is okay," Devyn said. "I just didn't think it was that obvious." "Only to us guys that like mature men and those with that rugged sexy thing and that guy has it." "Yeah, he does," Devyn said. "I would definitely drop to my knees for him," Ethan said boldly. "Hey," Devyn said shocked. "Okay, maybe after we talk for a minute or two," Ethan said and laughed. "I'm just joking. I mean I would do him, but not until after we get to know each other a little bit. I am not a total slut." "That is good to know," Devyn said. Devyn was not sure why, but he liked this guy. He wished the guy liked him. He was closer to Devyn's age than anyone Devyn had been with since Brent. Devyn sat there talking to Ethan as if they were friends. Ethan told him about classes, friends at school and coming out. "I was surprised my parents were so accepting. Oh, they were freaked at first. You know they tried to figure out what they had done wrong. But they are okay with it now. Of course, I haven't brought home a boyfriend yet, so that might change things." "That is great how understanding they were," Devyn said. "Have you told your folks?" Ethan asked. "Um, they know," Devyn said. "They didn't handle it well?" Ethan asked genuinely concerned. "It did not go well for me," Devyn said. "they found me and a friend, um, fooling around." "That sucks," Ethan said. "Not the way you wanted to tell them was it." "No," Devyn said. "they were not understanding or accepting. That is why I am with Joe," Devyn added. He was not about to go into everything he had gone through with Tom and being arrested. "Sorry man," Ethan said. "That is too bad." Ethan ordered a beer for himself and offered Devyn one. "No thanks," Devyn said. "I'll stick with my Coke." "Just how young are you?" Ethan asked. "Not old enough to drink," Devyn answered. "I thought so," Ethan said as he was drinking his beer. "You are still in high school?" "Yeah," Devyn answered. "I am guessing from the shirt you are in college?" "Yes," Ethan said. "I'm a senior. I'll have my bachelor's degree this term and am going for my masters in the fall." The two talked a while longer and then noticed couples out on the dance floor. Devyn had never seen men dancing before and it was interesting to watch the couples. "Would you like to dance?" Ethan asked. "Um, I have never danced with a guy," Devyn admitted. "It is just like dancing with a girl," Ethan said. "Except better cause your gay and I'm gay." Devyn laughed at the logic. It would be better dancing with Ethan than it ever had with Sue. "Okay, who leads?" "I do," Ethan said because I asked you." "Is that like a real rule or your own?" "Does it matter?" He said and then added, "besides with this music it really doesn't matter." "True," Devyn agreed. Ethan grabbed Devyn and pulled him out onto the dance floor. Their bodies ground together as they danced and other dancers also ground against them. Devyn had a hard time keeping his cock from tenting out the front of his pants. After they danced through three songs, they went back to their seats and dropped down panting. "You are good," Ethan said. "Thanks," Devyn said. "Looks like you are having fun," Joe said joining them. "Yea," Devyn said. "This is Ethan. Ethan Joe." Ethan jumped up and took Joe's hand. "Great to meet you." "You too," Joe said his mouth quirked up in a half smile. "You looked good out there on the dance floor with Devyn. You two make a cute couple." "Thanks," Ethan said blushing. "I haven't seen you out there," Devyn said. "No," Joe said. "I don't dance." "Sure, you do," Ethan said. "come on." Ethan grabbed Joe by the arm and tugged him towards the dance floor. Joe protested but Ethan persisted and eventually got Joe on the floor. The fast some ended when Ethan finally got Joe onto the floor. A slow ballad started. Devyn wondered if Ethan had planned the whole thing. There was an awkward moment when both men attempted to lead. Joe being the gentleman he was, he allowed Ethan to lead. Devyn felt the surge of jealousy flood through him. He had liked Ethan but now Devyn was not so sure. The younger man was all over Joe. The song ended and Joe quickly made his escape from the dance floor. He joined Devyn at the bar again. "That was fantastic," Ethan said joining them. "But you should have stuck around for another one. I am always up for going one more time." Joe smiled picking up Ethan's double entendre. "I am sure that is true." The three men talked for a while longer and then Joe reminded Devyn that they had a long drive home. "If I did not have a roommate," Ethan said, "I would let you stay with me." "Is your roommate gay?" Devyn asked. "Nope," Ethan said. "He's straight. There are actually four of us sharing the apartment." "How is he at having a gay roommate?" Devyn asked curious. "Oh, he's okay with it," Ethan said. "I think at the start of the year he thought he would have easy access to regular blowjobs. But I'm not that kind of boy. "That is good to know," Joe said. They said goodnight to Ethan and walked to the truck. Devyn could feel Ethan's eyes following them as they crossed the parking lot. "He slipped his number into my pocket," Joe said pulling a slip of paper from his shirt pocket. "That is cool," Devyn said. "I take it you liked him?" Joe asked. "yeah, he seems nice." Devyn said. "I agree," Joe said. "He should have just given the number to you. I'm not sure why he slipped it into my pocket." "Um, Joe," Devyn said his lips curving up into a smile, "he isn't interested in me." "Oh really?" Joe said surprised and glancing at the number. "Yeah, there was only one guy he was interested in and that is you." "ME?" Joe said surprised. "You couldn't tell?" Devyn said. "I know he was flirting," Joe said, "but thought it was just playing." "Nope," Devyn answered. "He is interested in you." "He's too young," Joe said. "Nope," Devyn said. "He's in college and he likes mature men." "Crap," Joe said. "What is up with the young guys into us old farts?" "Joe," Devyn said, "you are no fucking old fart. I wish you understood how desirable you really are." "Well anyway, not going to happen. Here you take the number. You and he seemed to hit it off. Maybe he knows some other boys," Joe emphasized the word boys, "to introduce you too." Copyright 2020 by Keith yates (keith.96@att.net) all rights reserved. No copying, reposting, or distributing is permitted without the author's written consent.