Date: Sun, 14 Jun 2020 22:42:03 -0500 From: Keith Yates Subject: Devyn's Struggle V2 - 25 This is a fictional story involving sexual acts between two or more men. If this offends you, why are you here? If you are under the legal age to read sexually explicit material then do not read any further. This story in no way represents any person living or dead. Any resemblance to any real person is purely coincidental. This story is the property of the author and no copying or posting to any other website is permitted without the author's written consent. Please help keep Nifty going by donating to this awesome service. http://donate.nifty.org/donate.html Devyn's Struggle V2 Chapter 25 "You look nice," Devyn told Joe. "It is not often I see you in something other than those western shirts and blue jeans." "Thanks," Joe said. He was a little nervous about meeting Ethan for the first date. Joe was still claiming that day he and Ethan spent on campus together was not a date. Devyn could not help but feel jealous that Ethan was getting the guy he wanted. His feelings for Joe had grown and Devyn was still hurt that the two of them had not become more. Devyn knew they were beyond friends. There bond was stronger than family. He understood that but there was still a part of him that wanted more. "You know how long it has been since I went to the movies?" Joe asked as he and Ethan were walking towards the theater. They had just finished up dinner at an Italian place Ethan had picked. "Were they in color or black and white?" Ethan asked. "Watch it," Joe said. "I am not quite that old." "Oh, well I was trying to decide if they were maybe even still silent movies," Ethan said but could not hide the laughter. "You need to get over this whole age hang-up you have. I don't give a fuck if you are 25 or 52. I like you just as you are." "Okay," Joe said smiling. "I will let it go." "Good," Ethan said and slid his arm around Joe. Ethan felt Joe tense up and withdrew his arm. "Sorry," Joe said. "It is an old habit." "I know," Ethan said. "Those public displays of affection just don't come naturally to you." "You are right there," Joe said. "With how I was raised and the way my father treated me, I just always felt it easier to hide this part of myself." "Ethan stopped walking and took Joe by the arm. Ethan turned Joe so they were facing each other. Ethan reached up and squeezed Joe's shoulder. "You do not have to hide any longer. I wish you would never hide with me. Just be yourself." "I will try," Joe said. Joe slid his arm around Ethan and pulled the man into a firm hug. They walked on to the theater and after buying tickets and popcorn, they found seats. They watched the movie, held hands, and enjoyed the presence of the other man. How was the movie," Devyn asked when Joe finally made it home around 1 in the morning. "What are you doing up?" Joe asked. "Oh, just making sure you came home on time." "Look buddy," Joe said in a mock stern voice. "It is you that has a curfew, not me. I can stay out as late as I want." "Yes, and I am surprised, or maybe hoping you would be out a little late," Devyn said grinning up at Joe. "Oh?" Joe said the question obvious. "Well, maybe that you and Ethan would spend the night together," Devyn said. Devyn was trying to be happy for Joe and push down any feelings of jealousy that were still lingering. He wanted Joe to be happy. He wanted Joe to find a good guy to be with in every way. "It is just our first date," Joe said. "Second," Devyn corrected. "That first one..." Joe started but was interrupted by Devyn. "Was a date even if you didn't know it," Devyn said. "Okay, so our second date then," Joe admitted. "It is still too soon to take that step." "Maybe," Devyn said. Joe sat on the couch and scooped up the puppy that was running around on the floor. He placed the white pup in his lap and scratched his ears. Joe had named the pup Sirius partially because the pup always had a serious look on his face and partially because Travis picked the name from one of the Harry Potter books. "You did have a good time though?" Devyn asked. "Yes, I really did," Joe said. "I'm glad," Devyn said and he was truly glad that Joe was having a good time with Ethan. Joe's voice took on a much more serious tone, "how would you feel if Ethan spent some time here at the farm?" "I like Ethan," Devyn answered easily. "He is a cool guy. I don't have any problem with him coming to visit." "And if he stayed for a while?" Joe asked. "A while?" Devyn questioned. "I mean if he slept over," Joe said and could feel his face blush. "Damn he looks sexy when he blushes," Devyn thought. Out loud Devyn said, "That is fine with me. It is your house after all." "No, it is our house," Joe corrected. "I would never want to do anything that would make you uncomfortable." "You are so damn considerate," Devyn said. "If you want Ethan to spend the night and to spend it in your bed, then go for it." "It won't bother you?" Joe asked. "Only if you guys get too loud," Devyn said. Joe chuckled and felt a little relieved that Devyn was being so understanding. "How would you be if I had a friend sleep over," Devyn asked. This time it was Devyn's voice that had turned serious. "Is there someone special I should know about?" Joe asked. "Well, a guy at school has been giving me some looks," Devyn said. "I've tried to return them but I'm not sure he is picking up on the clues. I think he is interested but afraid." "I am okay if you want to have a friend spend the night," Joe said. "You are old enough to handle that, but remember that the guy might not be as experienced as you." "Hell, you aint as experienced as me," Devyn said and laughed. "Don't be too sure," Joe said with a twinkle in his eye. "I was young once and I plowed a whole lot of fields." "Um, well, um," Devyn stammered. "Damn he is cute when he is embarrassed," Joe thought, laughing at the teenager. "He's really going to be a true heart breaker." "Okay, you got me," Devyn said and grinned. "Have you told him you are gay?" Joe asked. "No, I haven't told anyone yet," Devyn answered. "That was the other thing." "Yes?" Joe prompted when Devyn did not continue. "I was thinking about telling a few friends," Devyn said. Joe slid his arm around Devyn and pulled the young man against his side. Joe noticed how much more filled out Devyn's body was. The skinny teen Joe had brought home had filled out into one very sexy young man. "I told you once and it is still true, that I will support whatever decision you make. If you want to be out, then I am there to back up that decision. Just keep in mind once you let that genie out of the bottle, there is no putting it back inside." "I know," Devyn said. "but I don't think Charlie is going to make the move or be able to acknowledge it until I give him a little push. "Charlie?" Joe said remembering the young man. "He was the blonde boy that was here at New Years?" "Yes," Devyn said. "He's cute," Joe said. "You know his folks own the hardware store in town." "Right," Devyn said. "He's a good kid," Joe said. "I've known his folks for a long time. Hannah was good friends with his mom Barb." "So, do you think it would be alright to tell him?" Devyn asked. "Only you can make that decision," Joe said. "just remember I am there for you no matter what the fall out." "I know that," Devyn said. "You are one special man." "I am also one tired man," Joe said. "And I am heading off to bed. You had better be going soon too. "Good night Joe," Devyn said watching the man put the pup down and start walking to his room. Devyn had decided that if he got the chance to tell Charlie, he would. He hoped that maybe if Charlie were gay that the two of them could keep it between them. Devyn thought his close friends would be alright but he had heard comments around school that lead him to believe others would not be so accepting. Although Julie was only a Freshman, she was one of the most popular girls in school. She had an easy way of bringing people together from the jock types to the nerdy kids. She had decided to have an end of semester party and had invited Devyn. It was going to be Devyn's first high school party that did not involve Dewayne and terry. He had been keeping his distance from those two. He had been trying to keep his distance from that hole gang that hung out at the barn and drank and smoked. Mindy had tried to get his attention a few times but he had politely pushed her off. He and Trish still talked. She was still upset that Mindy had nailed Devyn before she had. Devyn was hurrying through his chores so he would not be late to Julie's party. Joe had given him permission to even push back his curfew an hour. Thanks to Sam more than anyone else Devyn had become the fifth member of the Sam, Julie, Stacy, and Charlie group. Its suited Devyn as he had much more in common with them than he did Dewayne and Terry. He was only glad that they had given him a second chance after having his reputation damaged by hanging out with the bad influences. "Wow you know if you worked that fast every evening, the chores would take you have the time," Joe commented as Devyn hurried back inside. "You know I have plans tonight," Devyn said. "Yes, I know," Joe said. "Just don't stay out too late." "I won't," Devyn said. "Thanks for letting me take the truck," Devyn said hurrying back into the kitchen from upstairs. He had showered and shaved and even splashed on some of Joe's cologne. "You smell pretty," Joe said. "Stop it," Devyn said laughing. "Just have fun," Joe said. "I will," Devyn said. When Devyn reached the door, he saw a car turn and come up the driveway. He watched and saw Ethan get out. "Well no wonder you let me have the truck tonight," Devyn said. "Ethan waved and called "hello" as he walked up to the house. "Hi Ethan," Devyn said. "Joe didn't tell me you were coming out here." "I thought maybe you would be gone by the time he got here," Joe said. "if you were gone, then you wouldn't know he was here. I might get by without your ribbing." "Hmmm, well now I'll have to make it twice as bad," Devyn said grinning. Devyn then stepped back and watched the two men. He folded his arms across his chest and leaned against the porch railing. "What?" Ethan asked looking at Devyn. "What are you three?" Joe asked. "Why is he looking at us like that," Ethan said. "He is waiting," Joe said. "Waiting?" Ethan asked looking a question at Joe. "Yeah, for this." Joe reached and pulled Ethan in tight. His arms held the younger man firmly to him as his lips found Ethan's and the two kissed long and hard. "I have missed you," Joe said after the kiss broke. "Wow!" Ethan breathed. "Please miss me some more." "Wow is right," Devyn said. "I'm out of here. You two have FUN!" "You know," Joe began watching Devyn drive down the road, "I was going to do that whether he was here or not." "Good," Ethan said. "But this way he got some enjoyment out of it too." "Not nearly as much as I did," Joe said and planted another kiss on Ethan's very sexy lips. Despite the feelings of jealousy, Devyn was incredibly happy for Joe. Joe deserved a good guy and Ethan seemed to be just that. He hoped the two would have one kick ass good time tonight. Julie's party was a whole lot of fun. Devyn was enjoying himself until he saw Dewayne and Terry. He was sure that Julie would not have invited them. He wondered if he could get them to leave before they caused trouble. "What are they doing here," Stacy said to Devyn. "I bet Julie didn't invite them," Devyn said. I know she didn't," Stacy said. "Whenever they show up to a party, they cause nothing but trouble. I bet they are already drunk." "I'm going to see if I can get rid of them," Devyn said. Devyn walked over to the two and hoped that they would just leave quietly. "Hey guys," he said. "What's up?" "Hey man," Terry said. "Where you been hiding." "I have been working on the farm," Devyn answered. "Then it is time for you to get a break," Dewayne said. "Have a beer." "No thanks," Devyn said. "I have stopped." "Oh yeah," Dewayne said. "What is it? You can't handle your beer?" "Something like that," Devyn said. "Maybe he wants something better than beer," Terry said. "We got that out back in the car." "Then let's go," Devyn said. He thought this would be a great way to get them out of Julie's house and party. Devyn walked around back to Dewayne's car. Terry pulled out a bag of pot and held it out to Devyn. "It is good stuff," Dewayne said. "We have more if you want to buy." "Um, no, not right now. I am kind of tapped out," Devyn said. "You know Mindy still misses you," Terry said. "That chick has been spoiled for any other dick but yours." "Um, I am sure she can find someone that can treat her better than me," Devyn said. "Why not leave this lame party and come out to the barn with us. We can have a blast," Terry said. "Um, no, I think I'll just stay here," Devyn said. "Why not just go without me. If this party breaks up early, maybe I'll drive out then." "Nah, come on Devyn. Leave this pussy party and come with us," Dewayne said. Devyn had smelled the alcohol on them both when he had walked up to them inside. He could smell it even stronger now. "No, really, I want to stay here," he said. "Devyn, you are going to miss one hell of a party," Terry encourage. "You know if Mindy is not doing it for you anymore, there is this other girl that is so hot and her mouth is like a fuckin' Hoover." "Wow, um, no thanks," Devyn said again. He just wished the two would get in their car and leave. "So, what is it Devyn," Dewayne asked. "You too good for us now. You have been ditching us all semester and now you won't go meet us at a fuckin' good time party." "I haven't been ditching you two. It has been a busy Spring on the farm. I have chores and Joe..." "Fuck Joe," Terry said. "Joe, huh," Dewayne said. "I have heard stuff about him." "What kind of stuff?" Devyn asked. "Stuff about how he is," Dewayne said. "Whatcha hear?" Terry asked. "Howard told me about him," Dewayne said. "Has he been doing stuff to you?" "Stuff?" Terry asked confused. "Joe is a great guy," Devyn said his voice firm and any friendliness gone. "He has been great to me." "Yea," Dewayne said sneering. "I bet he has. Bet he has been great to you. Bet he has been treatin' you real nice." "Watch what you say about Joe," Devyn said. Dewayne knew he had hit a sore spot and he planned on hitting again and again. "Does he give or receive?" Dewayne asked sneering. "What the fuck does that mean?" Terry asked not understanding. "I don't know what you think you know," Devyn said. "But what Joe does and with whom he does it is none of your business." "Oh, so that means you are cornholing him...or is he cornholing you?" "Fuckin' sick!" terry cried. "Yeah, that is what goes on out there," Dwayne said. "Howard told me all about Joe. He is an old time cornholer." "You are letting him do that to you?" Terry asked. For a minute Devyn thought he might have heard concern in his friend's voice. Maybe Terry did think of him as a friend. A true friend? "No, we aren't doing anything like that," Devyn said. "Joe would never do anything like that with me or anyone else." Devyn wondered if he had just lied as Joe and Ethan might be having sex at that very moment. Of course, it was not Dewayne and Terry's business. It was not anyone's business what Joe did or who he did it with. "You know that is the truth," DeWayne said. "You and that old fucking faggot is out there poking each other." Devyn's fingers closed into a fist. "Just shut the fuck up," he said. "Oh, does the truth hurt," Dewayne taunted. "You like giving it to that faggot?" Devyn could not stop himself. His fist contacted Dewayne's nose before Devyn even realized it. There was a crunch of bone as Dewayne's head snapped back. Dewayne dropped down to his knees and blood began flowing from his nose. "Fucking ass hole," Terry cried as he lunged at Devyn. Devyn did not even feel Terry's fist. Terry was already either drunk or stoned and it only took Devyn a moment to have Terry knocked to the ground. "I suggest you get your fucking ass up, get in your car and get the hell out of here," Devyn said his hand still clenched into a fist. "You fucking faggot," DeWayne said thru the blood and broken nose. "Yeah, I am," Devyn said his temper flaring. "This faggot is going to kick your ass if you don't get the hell out of here right now." With blood still flowing from his nose, Dewayne got into the car, "Come on," Dewayne said his voice sounding funny thru the broken nose. "you are sick," Terry said looking at Devyn. "Just go Terry," Devyn said pointing. Devyn was tensed and ready to defend himself. Terry slid into the car. The car threw rocks as the two were speeding away. Devyn felt his knees shake a bit as he watched them turn the corner. He had not thought about what he was doing. He knew now that the two of them, if they had not been drunk, could have kicked his ass easily. Devyn turned to head back into the house and that was when he saw he had a small audience. "Way to go Devyn," Sam said. "Yeah," Stacy said. "You can kick butt." "Thank you, Devyn," Julie said and hugged him. "They were drunk and might have caused a bigger problem inside. "Um, thanks," Devyn said. He wondered if they had heard everything. Had they heard him admit to being gay. "I thought you were really going to kick their asses," Charlie said. "You looked so damn pissed off." "Well, I was," Devyn said. "Did you mean what you said there at the end," Stacy asked seriously. "Um, I, um, don't know?" Devyn said hesitantly. "What did you hear?" "We heard it all," Stacy said. "Did you mean it?" Julie asked. "Um, about how a faggot kicked their ass? Devyn inquired. "Yes," Stacy answered. Devyn noticed that Sam and Charlie were also waiting for the answer. Devyn took a deep breath and then softly answered, "Yes, I meant it. I am gay." "That explains so much," Julie said. "It does?" Charlie asked. "Yes, that explains why he hasn't been hitting on me," Julie said. The three laughed. "Really Devyn," Stacy said, "it does not matter." "It really doesn't," Sam said. "But it doesn't explain why you haven't been hitting on me." "Because you are a pig," Stacy said. "And Devyn has better taste." "Thanks," Devyn said. "I had been trying to find the right time to tell you, but it never seemed right." "Well and why would it seem like the right time," Julie asked. "It isn't like I ever thought I would have to tell you that I am straight. Why should you need to tell me you are gay?" "You don't think I have been lying then?" Devyn asked. "No," Charlie said speaking for the first time. "The only person that really needs to know is the guy you are interested in having a relationship with." "Yeah, and he would need to let me know too," Devyn said. "That must make it harder," Sam said. "Not knowing for sure if someone is or isn't." "Yes, it does make meeting someone harder," Devyn said. "I'll be trying to fix you up now that I know," Stacy said. "Me too," Julie said. "Hey how come you two never try to fix me up," Sam asked. "Because like I already said, you are a pig," Stacy said. "I wouldn't do that to my girlfriends." ""Hey!" Sam yelled protesting the slam. The joking and horse play continued back to the house and Devyn enjoyed it. He really had made some true friends. He felt like a huge weight had been lifted from his shoulders. He had told someone his secret and this time his world had not come crashing down. "Sam," Devyn said a little nerves. They had just went back into the pary. "Um, are we really alright?" "Honestly Devyn," Sam began. "I wish you would have felt you could confide in me but we are alright." "Thanks Sam," Devyn said. Devyn continued to enjoy Julie's party and as far as he could tell, his friends were not telling anyone that he is gay. They were keeping what had happened outside quiet. The only thing he did hear was Julie telling a friend that Devyn had kicked Dewayne and Terry's ass. Devyn felt relieved that he finally had friends that he could just be himself with. He did not have to hide a part of his life from them. In so many ways it felt like a weight had been lifted from his shoulders. The party was starting to break up and Devyn found himself alone with Charlie. Devyn had stepped outside to get some cool air and there he found Charlie looking at the night sky. "Hey," Devyn said. "Great night huh." "Yes," Charlie answered. They were silent for a while and then Charlie broke the silence. "Can I ask you something?" "Sure man," Devyn said. "How do you know?" Charlie asked still looking at the stars. "That I am gay?" Devyn asked assuming that Charlie was curious about the gay factor. "Yes, how did you figure it out?" Charlie asked taking a quick glance at Devyn. "Well, it took me a while to figure it out," Devyn said. "well not really to figure it out. I think on some level I always knew it. It took me time to accept it. I had to adjust to being gay and understanding that it does not make me the monster my parents think I am." "Is that why you live with Joe?" Charlie asked. He had moved his gaze from the night sky and was looking intently at Devyn. "Yes, sort of," Devyn answered. "Are you and Joe, um, well..."" Charlie trailed off not knowing exactly how to ask the question. "You don't believe that shit Dewayne and Terry were saying." Devyn said his voice hard. "I never believe anything that comes out of those two," Charlie said. "I was just wanting to make sure." "I love Joe," Devyn said softly. "But we are not physical if that is what you are concerned about." "Um, I guess that answers my question," Charlie said softly. "I'm sorry if I am being to personal." "Not at all," Devyn responded. "If you have questions, just ask me." "What about the rumors about you and Mindy," Charlie asked. "I haven't heard the rumors, but yes I did get messed up with her," Devyn admitted. "When I came to live with Joe and started school here, I did not like myself. I thought being gay was wrong. I got messed up with Dewayne and Terry and in turn got caught up in trying to be someone that I am not. I thought being with Mindy would make me be normal. It doesn't work that way because Joe taught me that I am normal just how I am." "But the two of you did have sex?" Charlie asked. "Yes," Devyn admitted again. "We did." "Did you enjoy it?" Charlie asked and looked away. Charlie knew his questions were very personal, but he had a need to know that he did not fully understand himself. "Yeah, sort of," Devyn said. "I was a bit out of it every time I was with her. I used to drink quite a bit when I hung out with those two and... well to be honest, I think that is the only way I could have had sex with her. Girls just don't do it for me." "Then you have had sex with a guy?" Charlie asked. Devyn answered honestly. "Yes, I have." "And, and you liked it?" Charlie asked and again his eyes could not meet Devyn's. "Yes," Devyn answered. "I liked it. It felt so much better than with Mindy. It felt normal and right to me. "Hmmm," was all the response Devyn received. Devyn started to walk back into the house. He believed that Charlie now needed to have some time to process everything. "Hey, can I ask a favor?" Charlie asked. "Sure," Devyn answered and stopped and turned to face the other boy. "Could you give me a ride home?" Charlie asked. "I got a ride over with Danny and I think he is wanting to drive Becky home. This way I won't feel like a third wheel. "No problem," Devyn said. The two said their good nights to the others and then climbed into Joe's truck. Devyn drove towards Charlie's house. They rode in silence for several miles and then Charlie broke the silence. "Thank you for being so honest," Charlie said. "I hope I didn't ask anything that was totally inappropriate. "Nah," Devyn said. "I wish I had found people that understood being gay wasn't being a monster. It might have saved me a whole lot of pain." "Your friends at your old school were not understanding?" Charlie asked. I never came out to them," Devyn said. "I never planned on coming out at all, but my parents caught me and my boyfriend...well...you know." "Shit!" Charlie said. "Yes, in a word," Devyn said. "Well, it could be hard on you if you came totally out," Charlie said. "I don't think Sam, Julie or Stacy will say anything. But you know Dewayne and Terry will talk" "I hope they keep it to themselves," Devyn said, "but if they don't, well then I'll deal with it." So, Joe is gay then?" Charlie asked. "That is something you would have to ask Joe," Devyn answered. "Ah, doesn't matter," Charlie said. "Just curious." "Can I ask you something now?" Devyn said. "Sure buddy," Charlie responded casually. "Are you gay?" Devyn asked bluntly. "Shit!" Charlie asked. "Why do you ask that? Do I act gay?" "Hey, just asking," Devyn said. "Besides, do I act gay?" "No," Charlie said softly. "Sorry I snapped like that." "It is okay," Devyn said. He reached over and casually squeezed Charlie's shoulder. "I used to think that it would be easy to tell if a guy was gay," Charlie said looking out the passenger side window. "You know the whole dressing like a girl thing that some guys do." "Some guys do that," Devyn said. "I guess there is no one way to act weather you are gay or straight," Charlie said thoughtfully. "That is right," Devyn confirmed. "You know my parents would probably freak out if I told them I was gay," Charlie said. "Maybe not," Devyn said. "Maybe," Charlie said and shrugged. "They have always liked Joe and I don't think they have ever said anything negative about him. I'm just not sure how they would do if they thought..." Charlie's voice trailed off as he considered his parent's reaction. "Of course, you don't have to tell them," Devyn said. "Like you said it doesn't matter except to the guy you are interested in having a relationship with. He would have to know or he might be missing some of the signals." "Signals?" Charlie asked and looked at Devyn. "Yes," Devyn said. "Like a casual touch on the shoulder. Maybe bumping knees. You know things like that. Maybe even driving you home when you live in the opposite direction." "Oh," Charlie said and felt his face blush. He wondered if Devyn could see the red creep across his skin. "I, um, well, um didn't mean to bump your knee when we were sitting on the sofa." "I didn't say I was talking about you," Devyn said. "Just explaining what some of the signs could be." "So, since you are giving me a ride home and it isn't exactly on your way, that means you are interested in me." "That is what it could mean," Devyn said. "So, if I reached over and touched you that might indicate to you that I am interested in you?" Charlie reached over and squeezed Devyn's shoulder. He then slid his hand down over Devyn's arm. He could feel the tan skin as his fingers slid across the forearm. He could feel the blonde hair tickling his fingers "Yes, that would definitely send me a signal that you are attracted to me," Devyn said. Charlie's fingers wrapped around Devyn's hand. Their fingers intertwined. Charlie squeezed. "I hope you understand," Charlie said looking at their two hands. "I think I do," Devyn said and squeezed back. "I think I might be gay," Charlie said. He started to pull his hand away but Devyn tightened his grip. "It is okay to be confused and to doubt your feelings. I went through all of that too," Devyn said. "I also think that I am very attracted to you," Charlie said. Devyn pulled into the driveway of Charlie's house. He stopped the truck and turned off the engine. "You know I have been attracted to you for a while," Devyn said looking over at Charlie, "but I wasn't sure if you felt the same way." "Can you be patient?" Charlie asked. "Sure, thing man," Devyn said. "First and foremost, I want you as my friend. If something else happens, then that is just better for both of us." "Thanks Devyn," Charlie said. "Thank you for listening and being so honest. Thank you!" "That is what friends are for," Devyn said. "I guess that is true," Charlie said as he slid from the truck. "Maybe we can hang out this summer and you can help me figure this out?" "Sure," Devyn said. As Devyn drove home, he could not help but feel happier than he had in a long time. He had Joe, and now maybe he would also have something special with Charlie. Copyright 2020 by Keith yates (keith.96@att.net) all rights reserved. No copying, reposting, or distributing is permitted without the author's written consent.