Date: Mon, 28 Aug 2017 20:24:01 -0600 From: M. R. Masterson Subject: None More Than I Ch 2 (Revised) None, More Than I. By M. R. Masterson Chapter 2 Revelation day. (Rewritten Aug 28 2017) Sassy Disclaimer I understand that humans have varying ideals and values when it comes to sexuality. But life the universe, fate, other people, and reality give zero fucks about our sheltered ideals, values, or expectations, this applies to both the real word and fictional worlds. If you are easily offended, click away, far away, this is the wrong story for you. **. **. **. **. **. **. IF YOU HATE WHAT YOU SEE HERE I don't suggest donating unless you love free speech that much. IF YOU LIKE OR LOVE THIS OR OTHER NIFTY ARCHIVES STORIES AND WANT TO SEE THEM AROUND... D O N A T E So starving artists and starving archivists can continue doing what we do for free. I am a Janitor at my day job and literally sing for my supper at night, then, I write my imaginative smut to escape from that reality. I donate what I can when I can to do my part to keep this awesome stuff alive in this kinky wonderland. ** ** ** ** ** ** Contact Info. authormrmasterson@gmail.com Follow for updates and bonus info and what inspires me : https://www.facebook.com/authormrmasterson Chapter 2 -- Revelations ***This chapter is dedicated to all the precious souls who prematurely passed due to irresponsibility with medications and alcohol, including those fighting their own demons and heartaches. *** David came home after his date to find Jaden passed out in the bathroom, having vomited all over the place. His friend Zach had called David home early from his date saying Jaden was really sick. Zach lived just across the street, and stopped over almost every day to spend some time with Jaden. Lately it seemed like Jaden has been acting really indifferent to his friend though, David didn't think Zach deserved to be put out the way he had been lately. "I found him passed out on the floor." Zach said, "If I hadn't been able to get him awake and he hasn't started throwing up and talking to me immediately I'd have called 911, I wasn't about to let him choke." "You did good Zach, he has some explaining to do." David said, glad for Jaden's perpetual guardian angel "Yeah, this isn't the first time he has gotten plastered, but he took some nausea pills too, and probably his klonopin, that shit shouldn't be mixed with alcohol." Zach said. "I am aware of that Zach, I am a nurse." David said. " "Sorry Dave, I am just really worried, he's been acting weird lately, I hope you figure out what is going on, I want him to be himself again, I miss him." Zach said, "To tell you the truth Dave, whatever is going on with him is killing him. I have been wanting to come out of the closet and ask him to be my boyfriend but he ignores me and sulks over some new drama he has going on his head. I'm almost ready to move on and forget about the whole thing, but I still care about him... so if you figure out what his deal is, let him know I love him, and I fucking mean it." Zach said before exiting their house and wandering back across the street to his house, leaving David to deal with his wayward boy problem. David managed to get Jaden to drink some water, which just made him throw up more, but honestly, that was probably for the best. He appeared to be okay, probably thanks to Zach waking him up. Almost a trip to the emergency room. And apparently he has been hiding something from me. David thought. He is going to do some talking tomorrow. He pulled Jaden's vomit covered shirt off of him and wiped his face and neck with a wet cloth, that is when he noticed the scars on his upper arms that looked like he'd been repeatedly cutting himself in the same areas for a while now with some healing marks, and some fresh wounds ones, and old scars. `Something is definitely wrong with my boy, I thought I knew everything about his life, what could he be hiding, it's not like he is ashamed of his sexuality, whatever it is has to be pretty bad for him to hide it from me, its not like I give him a hard time about much of anything. David was trying to think of what could be going on with his sweet and generally young man. He fell asleep lying in the floor outside of the bathroom, making sure Jaden had a pillow and blanket and was sleeping on his side so if he started throwing up he wouldn't choke. He was there if Jaden needed him. He was always was, they were always there for each other, like two trees that had grown roots and branches together. none of this made sense. Jaden was not reckless and stupid, if anything, he was normally the most caring and responsible kid David knew. He has taken care of David in his darkest times. He woke up a couple hours later and woke Jaden up to make sure he was alright, then helped him up the stairs to his room where David fell asleep on the beanbag chair in the corner of the room. David woke up to the smell of coffee and went out into the living room to find Jaden sipping from a steaming mug of strong coffee. He got himself a cup of it and then grabbed a bottle of water out of the refrigerator and handed it to Jaden. "Drink some water, you are dehydrated, after we get some breakfast in us, you and I are going to take a trip out to the mountains for the weekend, and you are going to have nothing to do besides talk to me about what ever is causing you to black out and cut yourself." "Don't even try and argue, our neighbor from across the street apparently knows more about what is going on than I do... and that is probably my fault." "He is my best friend, and he has been my shadow for 4 years, of course he knows me." "He is also in love with you, bit apparently you have your head so far up your own ass you can't see it, you are dreaming about some older guy still aren't you?" Jayden looked defeated, but he couldn't really put up much of an argument, he couldn't even answer the last query. Jaden was miserable, and he knew why, he just didn't want to talk about it with Dave in particular. After breakfast they hooked up their popuper to the back of the old pickup that once belonged to Jaden's stepdad but was promised to him when he was old enough to drive. The truck ride out to the camping spot was short, that was the thing about living in a scenic valley, it wasn't far until you were in paradise. After they did their usual routine setting up camp, which Jaden always generally enjoyed because it meant they were going to spend time alone together without distractions. This time it felt like he was building his own personal Guantanamo where he would be grilled until he spilled his guts. And the lecture started. "Okay kid, you are almost 14 years old. I like to think of you as my little buddy, but you are acting like your own worst enemy lately and that is the guy who is in trouble here. "I consider discipline you because we have an arrangement, we have each other's backs. But when you hide something from me that is hurting you, that is treason as far as our deal goes. I can't have your back if you don't tell me what's eating at you." "Fuck Dave, I know that, the problem is it that it is you, you are the ONE person it is hard to talk to about this." "Is it because you think I will disapprove of whoever you want to date? Seriously dude, I don't care, man, woman, trans, older than you...as long as they are respectful and it's legal... It doesn't matter." He said "Part of it is that HE would NEVER want me that way." Jaden said. "The other part is that it would be illegal and wrong according to basically everyone." Jaden said. "I know how that feels, I have had crushed on people I couldn't be with, that isn't big enough to act out the way you have and you know it. How has this person gotten their claws into you so deep you can't keep your eyes open and move on?" "Shit Dave, just listen, this isn't new, it is just harder now." . Dave could tell that Jaden was holding back tears, he put his arms around him and held him close to his chest. He looked into the boy's sweet blue eyes. "I love you Jaden, nothing you can say changes that." Jaden remembered something that might help explain it all to him. "Do you remember, you used to tell me about how, when I was born, you lied to the people in the hospital, you told them I was you child, and now, nobody knows any different... You said that you promised me that you would always be everything I needed, even if mother died that day, you'd be everything I needed." "I'm surprised you remember. Me telling you that, but yeah." "You repeat that story every year on my birthday. And every year I almost cry because I know I'd be everything you need too. I'd do anything for you Dave." "I know Jade, we have each other's backs, from day one, well, from your day one." David said. Holding onto his hands. I am the age now that you were then. My sense of... dedication, and love toward you has been growing and changing. I'm not a child, I'm a young gay man now, and that changes things... but that isn't all. Do you remember when Mom and Dad died and you made good on your promise to be whatever I needed, and then not even a Year later Steve left us and I was there taking care of you, as broken as we both were, we stuck by each other and took care of each other and held each other close. I promised you I'd be everything YOU ever needed too Dave" Jaden finished. "So what? You feel like me dating means that you aren't doing enough to keep me happy?" David was trying to figure out where this was all headed. "Jaden, you are going to leave me, you are going to have a life of your own when you are an adult, and I don't want to be an aging fairy with nobody to come home to... do you get that?" "Did you ask ME what MY plans were?" Jaden asked. "I am not going anywhere Dave. I am not going to abandon you, you gave up your life to raise me... Most kids don't understand that. I saw you make the decision that I was more important than anything else." Jaden said. David had never expected reciprocity between them for him taking Jaden in and loving him, it was the only thing he would have done. He loved the boy. "Jaden there was no question, no decision, the paperwork said by default, according to all records, you are my child. I wasn't the one who knocked up your mother, but the paperwork says otherwise. I could have gotten out of it with a simple paternity test if I wanted, but I loved you, and I always will. You made my life worth living kid. I was a worthless piece of shit before I has someone depending on me. You are my life, I just know that the time is coming when you won't need me anymore, it happens to ALL parents, we all end up with the empty nest." David said "We aren't normal Dave!" Jaden shouted. "We aren't father and son, we are two guys who, for some reason, the world threw together and said "Take care of each other". We both rise to that occasion every time. Don't you get that MY side of that isn't temporary any more than you are going to stop caring about me when I turn 18. We are BOTH in this for the Long haul, whether you like the thought of me promising not to leave you or not. I think the thought of being stuck with each other forever sounds perfect. I saw the way Steve treated you like some bent puzzle piece he could just pick out and replace. You fucking deserved better, and the other guys who come and go and use you, they don't deserve anyone half as good as you, they won't love you the way you deserve to be loved." Dave: "So what? you want me to stop trying to find someone who will?" Jaden: "Dave, you are so damn clueless! The only man who I want to love with everything I am, who doesn't see me that way at all... it has always been you! I love you the way you should be loved, I want to be everything for you." "You actually think of me that way?" David asked. "I fucking know that I'm freak David, but every time I see you out on a date, every time I see you wandering around the house in your underwear, well... you are fucking hot. I have thought about you that way since I was 9. Imagine that being a little gay kid and your mom's best friend, who calls you his little buddy, is one of the hottest men alive. And you love him, absolutely no reservations, love him and dream of being with him forever. Imagine you suddenly lose your parents and he is there for you and makes room in his home and life and relationship for you, and then his asshole boyfriend takes off a year later breaking both your hearts. You see the man you love and idolize destroyed by someone for whom we another interchangeable building block for success that he thought should be later down the timeline. Imagine taking care of a man 14 years older than you, as a hormonal preteen, helping him out his broken pieces back together and wanting to be everything he needs so he will never be hurt again, but you have to wait for him to see you as a man first, and then convince him that it is right, that it is perfect after he practically raised you. Dave, imagine you are a fucking hormonal as hell, gay teenager, living alone with the man of your dreams who you have been madly in love and obsessed with for your entire , and he starts dating guys not much older than you who treats him like a sugar daddy or some passing fashion trend and seeing him hurt over them all. All of that is fucking eating away at me, all that is left is not wanting to experience any more pain. Being afraid to tell you how I feel because you'd think I was a sick freak, everyone would. Pretending to be happy because I didn't want to make you deal with this fucking mess. I don't want to do this to you. I never asked to be this way, to feel so much that the world won't understand and will think is wrong just because of my age. I haven't been a kid since Mom died. You and I have been taking care of each other that long, but that doesn't matter to the law or the people who would call you a pedophile for even thinking about me the way I do about you." Jayen slowly caught his breath. "I understand it now. I know, it must have been hell for you. I AM willing to let you express everything you want to. Jaden, you are my soul mate, that isn't even debatable, I have known that every seccond of your life." David said. Jaden was looking shocked at this point, which David expected. David continuedII have always told you I loved you, and would be whatever you needed me to be, did you think that would EXCLUDE anything?" It will be an adjustment. It will be risky for me especially. We have to be stealthy. But you and I are each other's world, that is so much more clear to me now. None, more than I, will ever know you, and love every bit of you the way I do, David, you ARE everything I will ever need." Jaden vowed. "If I really know that is true, and that you won't leave me lonely... I won't ever need anyone else either. Jaden, you are my life." David said. "So what the hell do we do with that?" Jaden asked. "I don't know, we have to figure out what would even change between us? What would we call it, we are already `more than friends'." David got a disturbed look on his face. "If you call my 'daddy' like some little porno twink I will fucking vommit." He warned. "Dude gross... I'd prefer we move AWAY from that direction." Jaden laughed. You know I am not a little kid, I'm not the usual clueless impressionable roomy bopper either. I am more mature than half the guys you have dated. I don't expect you to see me as a man yet, I have work to do on myself before I even see myself that way." Jaden said. But if you think of me as your future and forever guy... well that is a start. "The ladies at work already refer to you as "the spouse". Haahaaa. You need to promise me something first... Jaden, I fucking mean it. You will never do anything to harm yourself again." He said seriously, looking the blue eyed dark haired young man right in the eyes, he continued. "I could handle you moving on without me if things change, it would be hard, but I would live despite being a single aging fairy past my sell by date. What I cannot handle from someone I want to see as a potential partner in life, is seeing you hurt that much or harm yourself again. You harm yourself, you are killing me. You need to remember that. I'd rather die than go through anything like last night aagain. David finished. "I never thought it would be possibly that you would even consider that an option... I mean, US... as a couple." Jaden said. "if I had I'd have taken care of myself, I'd have done it for you... if you say it is possible for us to be together...well... I promise, I won't drink or take pills... I won't smoke, hell I will even give up chocolate." Jaden said. "No need to take it that far, because then I'd feel obligated to do the same...only fair. But let's make a deal, you take care of yourself the way you want me to take care of myself. I will do the same. Do we have a , Snookems?" David asked with his sky grin and embarrassing humor. "only if you don't call me that again!" Jaden said "This is awkward enough." "I agree, but I door wuv you" David said wrapping his arms around his beloved boy. Jaden looked up at him and received a full kiss on the lips, this time there was no way either of them was freaking out, it was just sweet, tender, loving, and genuine. "Wow... you really mean it is possible, you want me that way?" Jaden asked. "Small steps, what do I need to do to prove it to you?" David asked looking him in the eyes, truthfully getting lost in Jaden's deep blue eyes. For now, would it be okay if you just hold me tight. I need SOMEONE'S ARMS around me... like we used to? "Oh that I can do babe, I could hold onto you forever, as long as you are going to be okay." David said planting a quick kiss on Jaden's lips before he settled in, letting Jaden rest his head on his chest and cuddle up to him. "This shouldn't feel so right. Jaden said before drifting off to sleep." "No, but it does." David agreed. "I will always love you." "I will always love you too." Jaden said feeling the warmth of his beloved around him. This was all Jaden wanted. *** End chapter 2 I decided to rip the band-aid off on this one, I wrote several versions of this, not sure this is the best but it gets the truth out of the way between these two. The challenges that lay ahead involve intimacy, secrecy, protectiveness, oversharing boyfriend's, and balance, as well as some interesting ghosts from the past who will be wandering through. We end with our two characters alone, in a secluded place, getting to know their feelings for each other from a new perspective. This isn't a story about a lecherous old man listing after a young boy, it isn't about a teenage Adonis seducing older man, it is about two guys who have been through many levels of hell together wanting to take care of each other in ways that that the world doesn't understand. This story is meant to make us think twice before judging the circumstances of others who are in taboo relationships. What if the best way to take care of the person you love is to open the doorway to a something the rest of the world shuns. The heart wants what it wants, and circumstances aren't always ideal. -- Your Storyteller M. R. Masterson. (Mike)