Date: Fri, 17 May 2013 20:19:16 -0700 (PDT) From: Billy Berglund Subject: Starting over All usual disclaimers apply Love and Hate Chapter 3 ' Come Down ' It had been several weeks since I last saw Justin. The only sex I'd had been with my hand. I was damn tired of jerking off, I needed the real thing. As I laid in bed that night Justin kept popping up in my head. Fucking faggot I didn't even know where he lived. Just then I remembered I'd taken pictures of him at the park. Grabbing my cell phone off the night stand I opened my picture gallery and began scrolling through them. The first one was of my dick buried in his hot little cunt. I stared at it and thought back to the day. With my dick in my hand I recalled how tight he was and my hand tightened it's grip on my dick. Goddamn that boys cunt made my dick feel good. I remembered the first night when I'd taken his cherry ass. oh fuck that was hot. I had to stop jerking or I was going to cum. I scrolled to the next pic which was of his face bunched up in pain. That made me smile. He'd been such a distant bitch that day. He deserved to be in pain. I hoped his cunt was still sore. I couldn't get his face out of my mind. Even all twisted in pain he was cute. Cute? Where the fuck did that come from? I wasn't the fag, he was. I smacked myself upside the head for thinking that, trying to get the thought of him being cute out of my head. I scrolled to the next pic, the shot of his smooth chest covered in my sperm. Yeah, he was the fag. My hand went back to jacking my dick and I pumped it hard and fast. Damn I'd shot a helluva wad. I pictured him here in my bed fucking the living shit out of him. Fuck why couldn't he be here now. I could feel the soft texture of his colt like legs, as I fucked into his ass over and over again. Fuck I was losing it. My legs trembled and my toes curled up as my cum came rushing out of my dick. My hand and tee shirt were covered in it. I took the tee off and used it to wipe off my hand, tossing it on the floor. Why couldn't he have been here to swallow it? I knew what I had to do. Beginning on Monday I had to go looking for him. My life sucked. I had friends but no girl friend, no sex life. The only sex I'd ever had was with Justin. I hated even admitting that to myself. How low had I sunk that I was going to track down a fag and and say and do whatever I had to to get him back. I needed him, no I wanted him. It wouldn't be easy he was so pissed last time. He only reluctantly got into the car with me last time. Even if he did talk to me and we worked something out my friends could never find out. I'd end up with no friends. My life would be over. Shit this sucked I hated myself for letting this fag get to me. Why had I even answered the door that first fateful night. Monday couldn't come fast enough but I dreaded it at the same time. Somehow I got through the day Monday. My mind was only on one thing, find Justin. I even jacked off in the bathroom thinking about him. I had to get some relief because I knew even if I did find him today and he talked to me there would be no sex for me. After school drove over to junior high and slowly drove down the street looking for him. Hoping he hadn't changed the route he took home. I was nervous and hopeful at the same time. Then there he was,walking by himself. I slowed way down staying a half block behind him. Damn his ass looked hot in his tight jeans. I had to stop thinking about that. I might only get one chance to make this right and if my dick got in the way I was going to lose. I rolled the passenger window down and pulled up beside him. "Please get in Justin. We gotta talk." "No! Get away from me!" He took off running like I was a monster. He took a right at the next street and I turned down it and kept up with him. Yelling at him that I wasn't going to go away and he couldn't run forever. Finally after running for 3 blocks he stopped, half bent over trying to catch his breath. This was it. I stopped the car next to him and got out. As I approached him he put his hand up to stop me. I grabbed it so he wouldn't be able to get away. I put my other arm around him and started to walk him over to the car. "I'm not going to hurt you Justin. I just want to apologise.", I opened the passenger door and got him seated. I hoped he didn't get out and run again while I was walking around to get in. He didn't. Maybe that's just the way he was. If he felt trapped and had no choice he just gave up and accepted whatever was going to happen. He'd pretty much got his breath back but was just sitting there staring straight ahead, "I know you're mad at me and don't walk to talk to me. That's okay Justin I'm going to talk, just hear me out", I drove away and headed for the nearest convenience store, "I'm sorry Justin, and I mean that. I really am. I know I hurt you and I feel bad", pulling into the convenience store I parked and turned towards him. Taking his chin in my hand I turned his head to face me. I smiled at him but he just stared back at me blankly, "I'm going to go in and get you a pop and something to snack on. You need some energy after all that running. I am not going to try to do anything with you. We're not going to go anywhere else. We're going to stay right here , out in the open in the public until I'm done apologising to you. You can leave anytime you wantbut I hope you're still here when I come out", looking at him with pleading eyes I got out and went into the store. If he wasn't there when I came out I'd probably never see him again. I grabbed a couple pops and candy bars and paid for them. When I went out the door I looked down towards my car. Yes! He was still there. That was a good thing wasn't it. Did it mean he was going to give me another chance? "Here ya go Justin." I said smiling at him and handing him a pop and both candy bars. I opened my pop and took a long swig of it, "Thanks for not leaving Justin. I really need to get this off my chest", taking a deep breath I continued, "I know what I did was wrong and it's bothered me. I've thought about you every day and I couldn't take it any more", he was just sitting there drinking his pop and eating the candy bar. Not looking at me all. I knew he was listening and probably going to make me sweat this out, "I'm going to make this up to you somehow baby. I need you and I'll do anything to get you back", he did look at me when I called him baby, but then turned back away. I'd win him overeventually. He was starting to crack, "I'm sorry Justin baby. I know it's just words but I'll say them a thousand times if I have to", he was done eating the candy bars now and just drinking his pop. I took another swallow of mine my throat was getting dry. I wanted him to give me some sign that I was getting through to him, "Can you please just look at me. This is hard for me to say. And smile, you're a lot cuter baby when you do", he did but it was a weak forced smile. I wished he'd just say I was forgiven, and give his ass to me. But that was hoping for too much, "I know you don't think I deserve any more chances, but please if there's anything left in you just give me one more." "Can you say something, anything. You're silence is killing me." "Aren't you afraid of being seen sitting here with a fag to use your words." he spat out. I cringed at that thought. "Right now Justin I really don't give a fuck what anyone thinks. You're here and that's all that matters. I need a hug." Christ tears were welling up in my eyes. What was happening to me.I leaned over the shift console outstretcing my arms to him, "Meet me halfway Justin", after a tense moment of him just sitting there staring at me he gave in. He embraced me and we hugged. Damn it felt good to hold him, "Baby I've really missed you. You do something to me that I can't explain. I want you in my life to... to be my...lover." "This is a side of you I've never seen. I didn't think you had any feelings or emotions." "This is the real me Justin. Trust me. I want you and I'll do anything to make up for the bad shit I done. Just say yes you'll give me a chance" "I'd like to say yes Chance, but I can't just yet. I trusted you before and you hurt me. Bad!" "I know Baby and I'll say it a million times, I'm sorry. Just say you won't run away from me anymore and I'll prove it to you." "Okay. It's getting late chance. I should have been home from school a long time ago. I gotta go." he reached for the door handle to open it. "No you don't have to walk Justin. I'll take ya home. Just give me directions" "I'm not sure I want you to know that. You might just want to know so you can stalk me", he said. then with a quiver in his lips and almost a whisper, "or rape me." "Justin I'm not going to force you anymore. We're not doing anything unless you want to." "Okay, but if this is just another one of your games I swear Chance I'll call the cops and report it." He directed me to his house and on the way we talked about school and stuff. I think he was pretty relaxed by that time. I know I was feeling a whole lot better. He pointed out his house and I pulled over and parked in front of his neighbours. "I'll let you out here just in case your moms looking out and watching for you." "She probably is. The police are probably out looking for me." "I got nothing to hide. I didn't kidnap you. Give me a hug baby before you go." There was no hesitation now and he leaned over and we hugged. He got out and before he shut the door I told him I'd pick him up after school tomorrow. To wait for me out front. He smiled and walked away. Damn he had a nice ass. I watched him until he was inside. Then drove off. Tossing and turning, tossing and turning. I slept little that night. Fuck what was I becoming. No, no, no! This wasn't the L word. Shi-i-i-i-i-t! I couldn't fall in love with a fag, god take me right now! My life is over. I banged my fists into the mattress. Sleep came, then went repeatedly through the night. Always waking up with visions of his hot ass as he walked away. I couldn't shake it, finally giving up I whipped my dick out of my boxers and jacked off. Furiously! Fisting my dick hard and fast. Playing back the pics on my cell phone, I could smell and feel the touch of his smooth body. Every nerve in my body was on fire. Go-d-d-d-d, I wanted him here in my bed with me. I had to have that faggots ass again. Pressure building up, building up slowly. Then rising quickly while my body trembled and shook. Releasing my pent up desire in a volcanic like eruption. Covering my fist and chest with cum. Sleep came, then went. Finally the mornings golden rays of sunlight filtered through the window. I made it through the school day, anticipating seeing Justin after. I'd stopped by a gift shop during lunch and picked up something for him. I hoped it would turn the tide in my favor. He just better be there. When the last bell rang I ran out to my car. Please be there Justin was all I thought about on the drive to the Junior High. He was! I patted my crotch, 'soon baby soon' as I pulled up to Justin smiling at him. I reached over and unlocked the door and he got in. "Hi cutey I'm glad you're here. Give me a hug." He looked at me like I was from another planet. "Told ya yesterday I didn't give a fuck what anybody thinks you silly boy." I did but none of these kids would know me. And next year I would be off to college. He was the one who had to deal with it. And everyone knew he was a fag. Pulling into the convenience store I went in and got a couple pops and candy bars. Jumping into the car I handed him a pop and candy bar, "Here ya go cutey", He thanked me. When he smiled I had to admit, at least to myself, he was cute. I took a deep breath, "I know you're probly not ready to forgive me yet Justin. But I hope you can see that I've changed. I'm really trying" pausing I waited for him to see if he was going to say anything. "Chance I can't forgive you yet. Maybe I never will. But you've certainly changed. You've said and done things these last two days that have surprised me." He looked at me with a glimmer of hope in his eyes. I couldn't let him down now. Or it would all be a waste. I was so close. "Can I have a hug? I really need one." He leaned towards me and I leant across the console. We embraced in a hug. I took advantage of the moment and pressed my lips to his, "Open up baby, kiss me", he let me in and we kissed. Passionately. While we were kissing someone walked by calling us queers, homos. Damnit! That is just what I did not need. I broke the kiss, "Justin I know I said we'd stay here. I don't want want any confrontations. Could we please go someplace else?" "Yeah, but don't you dare try to do anything. I swear I'll call the police." "I know you will. We're just talking." He wouldn't call them, or at least I didn't think he would. The fag loved me. He needed me just as much as I needed him. I drove to the park we were at the last time, but parked in a different spot, "This okay?", he just didn't say anything. Just looked at me with apprehension, "Relax baby, I'm not gonna do anything. Just talk", he said okay. We both took a drink of our pops and I continued, "It's taken me all this time. To find out what I need. And I need you", I didn't know if he was going to believe me. "I know what you need. To get laid. And I don't need that!" He cut me right me back down to size. "No! I don't need that...okay I do. But it's you that brings out that need." I knew exactly what he needed. Wanted. I had to go for it, "I want you to go out...I mean I want to spend time...fuck! What I'm trying to ask you Justin is will you be...be my boyfriend?" There I'd said it. It seemed like foreverbut it was only seconds before he replied. "What!?" He asked dumbfounded. Staring at me with his mouth open. I couldn't help it but that made my dick hard. His luscious full lips and mouth wide open. I knew what that felt like wrapped around my dick. "Boyfriend, I want you to be my boyfriend. Just say yes." "Okay yes. Yes!" I reached out to him and leaned back across the console. We met and our arms went around each other and we kissed. French kissing. Exploring his mouth with my tongue. My hands went up and down his back. The feel of his young, lithe body was incredible. I missed this and needed more. But he wouldn't give it up that easy. And it had to be his choice this time. When he was ready. I'd give him every opportunity, "Why couldn't it have been like this the first time?" "I dunno. You do something to me and I couldn't control myself. But I am now. I don't want to lose you." Locking lips with him we kissed again. I wanted to feel him next to me without the console between us, "Baby can we get out of the car for just a few minutes? This isn't very comfortable and I want to hold and kiss you." "Okay but that...", he said looking down at my crotch and the obvious bulge, "better stay in your pants or I'm outta here. No more chances." "It will. I promise." I said, opening my door to get out. He was getting out too. Then I remembered it. My gift! The deal sealer, "Oh I almost forgot this." "What is it?" "You have to get out to find out." I smirked at him and grabbed the bag from the back seat. we met at the front of front of the car and I handed him the bag. He opened it and pulled out the little teddy bear with a pink heart on it's chest. "I love it! Thanks. Are you sure you haven't been taken over by alien?" "I have been taken over by something alien. You. Ha ha ha. Give me a kiss silly boy." There was no hesitation now. He fell into my arms kissing me. Even stuck his tongue in my mouth. I'd won him over!", "I had to get my boyfriend something. I know that ain't going to get me any sex today. And I didn't get it for you for that", I lowered my hands letting them rest just above his jeans. He didn't swat them away or say anything, "But there are some things that boyfriends do", he broke the kiss and we stared into each others eyes. He thought he knew what was coming but he was wrong, "You will decide when sex is okay. But as my boyfriend I get more than just kisses" I paused to let that sink in, "and I get to touch these", I moved my hands around to the front and rubbed his boy titties through his tee shirt, "and this", I placed my hands directly on his butt and rubbed it through his jeans, "Deal?" "I'll let you do that stuff as long as you keep little Chase in your pants." "It's not little", he giggled and said he knew that, "Let's call it JT; Justins Toy", I laughed. "Whatever you want it called, JT stays in your pants. Theres something far more important than what you name your dick." "Cock", I corrected him, "and what is that?" "Boyfriends go on dates. And not just to parks." "You expect me to take you dinner and movies?" I asked increduously. Rolling my eyes, "I'm just kidding Justin, of course I'll take you out", Where would I take the flamer? I couldn't even take him to my house, unless nobody was home. That was going to be a problem, "Will your mother even let you date?" "No, not you anyway." "You mean she knows about me? "No but she wouldn't let me date a seventeen year old. Almost a man." "Then what are we going to do?" "You'll think of something. You're smart." "We'll think of something together. It's both of us." I said. We'd have to work that out later, "Let's change the subject. We can deal with that later. I just want to be with you right now and enjoy it", he smiled at that. I smiled back and we started kissing again. Now that he'd agreed to it my hands massaged that butt of his. I wondered if he'd let me take his jeans off. Probably not. I wouldn't be able to control myself if he did. It was mine now anyway. He wouldn't withold it very long. Would he? He'd already had it. He had to want it as badly as I did. "You really are cute baby." "Flattery will get you no where. You got ten minutes to stop that." He giggled. "Awww do I have to? As long as don't make me stop doing this." I pinched his butt and then smacked it playfully a couple times. The boy drove me nuts with his sexxiness, "You got one fine assmy sexy boyfriend", His eyes danced with happiness. He had a full genuine smile. "I like this new you. Don't ever let me down again, or hurt me Chance." "I won't. I don't ever want to come back down from this cloud!" "Me either. Thanks for being so nice to me. And for the bear and the pop and asking me to be your boyfriend!", he gave me another kiss and pulled back, "I gotta get home now or you'll be in trouble." I took him home. On the way over I told him I wouldn't be able to pick him up after school tomorrow because I had to work, but I would call him later that night. And told him we'd do something over the weekend. *Come Down* Love and hate get it wrong She cut me right back down to size Sleep the day, let it fade Who was there to take your place No one knows, never will Mostly me but mostly you What do you say, do you do When it all comes down 'Cause I don't want to come back down From this cloud It's taken me all this time to find out What I need, yeah ever * What do you say, do ya do When it all comes down 'Cause I don't want to come back down From this cloud It's taken me all this time to find out What I need yeah, yeah, yeah I don't want to come back down From this cloud What happens next to Justin? Does he make it home? Does Chance have any remorse for what he's done? Will Justin fall for moreof Chances lies and find himself in the same predicaments again? Find out in te next chapter. If you liked this story write to me at the addy above.