Date: Thu, 28 Sep 2023 17:25:35 +0000 From: hugdan0 Subject: The big organ donor - gay - Adult youth - Chapter 4 You must be 18 to read this story, and be aware that this is a work of fiction. I do not endorse the practices in this story, nor know for sure if scientific or medical facts told here are true or viable. Feel free to send an email telling me if you liked it, I'd be glad to know. Is good to support all creators and the spaces created for them to share their work, consider donating to nifty if you have enjoyed numerous hours of kinky fun. CHAPTER 4 - I want to go now. I threw a skittle in an almost perfect parabolic shot that hit his chin. Then another one that hit the on his forehead, the boy closed his eyes tightly and we both laughed. Danny was barefoot sitting upside down on the couch, his back resting where his butt should go and his legs were where his back should rest. I was sitting facing him on the other couch in my living room. I threw a third skittle and it landed in his mouth. We both cheered. We were relaxing wearing shorts and tank tops while watching TV, nothing interesting was on, so we ended up playing target shooting with candy. "Yuck! Yellow!" he said but still chewed on it. "I like yellow" I told him, "Although I think they all taste the same and our brain tricks us into thinking they taste different." "That's a lie!" Danny said, "My favorite is red." "There's one on the floor" I pointed to the first one that hit his chin. "Where?" he asked and stretched his arms trying to find it. "There...close...right there" I gave him directions, but as he was about to reach for it the boy fell down. We both laughed. It was Tuesday and Danny had stayed in the apartment all day, I had to finish some pending things in the office before taking days off and I couldn't be worrying about what Danny was doing in the building, besides I needed my assistant and didn't want Tom to be keeping watch over Danny. The day before, I told Danny that he could stay the rest of the week with me. I didn't ask him about his mom, or the possibility of him staying with his aunt for a few days. I was a little worried about what the boy might say about his days with me and most importantly about what happened the night before. Maybe it was just in my head and Greg was right, Danny didn't seem disturbed at all, just a little distant, but maybe that was because I had been avoiding him all day. We were in the elevator and the boy rushed over to give me a big hug and thank me. Tuesday afternoon I still had my reservations about the trip and I hadn't said anything to Danny, I thought the boy was going to come to his senses and talk to his mom and tell her the truth, or his mom would find out he lied to her about camp and suddenly I would have the furious mother at my door, or worse, the police. "Did you text your mom?" I couldn't help but ask him, it was giving me anxiety not knowing if he was in touch with her. "When I woke up" he said sitting up properly on the couch, "I said good morning to her." "Just that?" "Uh-huh" "Danny... I don't know what the situation is at home, but I'm sure your mom worries, and if there's something... I'd like to know." "There's nothing wrong, Lane, believe me, she's good, she's the best" his eyes lit up just like they did when he talked about his dad, "It's just...I needed to be away" "Are you going to tell me why?" Danny nodded, "But not now. I accepted his decision maybe because deep down I wanted to believe that everything was fine and that nothing bad was happening to the boy. With only a few days of knowing him I already liked him and would be very angry finding out that his mom or stepdad hurt him in any way. "Just try to be more in touch with her" I asked him. "I can't" he said, but before I could add anything, he clarified, "You're not allowed to have cell phones at camp. My mom knows that, Lane, she knows I can get in trouble." What Danny said made sense, I understood that being at camp was about enjoying nature and learning that there is more to outdoor physical activity than being glued to a screen all day. I thought then that it was the right time to tell him. "Uhm... Danny...would you like to go somewhere else? I mean, go outside and do stuff?", Danny narrowed his eyes skeptically, "Not now!" I clarified, "My friend Greg." "The bearded guy." "Yes, him, he's taking his two kids to the lake on Thursday, he has a cabin there, we can go and spend a few days with them. If you want to, just the five of us. " "Sounds great!" he exclaimed enthusiastically. "And.., uhm... you can also take some pictures for your mom" I hinted, feeling guilty for being complicit in his lie. He nodded and ran to the guest room. "Where are you going?" I asked him. "I need to get my stuff ready. Uhm... Lane! Can I use your washing machine? I didn't bring a lot of clothes." I stood up and headed for the room Danny was occupying, "Sure. Don't forget to bring a swim vest, water shoes, a paddle board, and hiking boots," Danny stood there looking at me dumbfounded. "I don't have any of that." "Oh that's too bad" I said, "You won't be able to go paddle boarding, jet skiing, explore the forest...well, you can stay in and read a book under a tree." "You're not serious," I could see the disappointment on his face. "You told me you came prepared for camp." "Yes Lane! But those things don't happen at normal camps!", Danny was starting to get irritated, and then I let out a loud laugh. Danny didn't think it was funny so I had to go over and hug him, I put my arms around him but the boy kept his arms at his sides, "Hey, I was just kidding." "So we're not doing any of that?" "Yes, we can" then I looked around, Danny's pile of dirty clothes, the things he had taken out of his bag and his Vans sneakers on the floor. The boy's clothes were not appropriate for the activities we would be doing at the lake, his shoes were not right for walking in the woods. I'm a single man living comfortably, I have a business and a savings account, sharing a little wouldn't hurt, so I told him, "Tomorrow we'll go and do some shopping." "I don't have any money." "Don't worry" I told him, "You'll pay me back someday, somehow...", then I felt my comment had been somewhat inappropriate and could be misinterpreted, but Danny just wrapped his arms around me. "Thanks Lane." I was preparing dinner, when Danny came into the kitchen with his pile of laundry. In the kitchen there is a door leading to a small space where the washer and dryer are. I paid attention to what he was doing to make sure he was doing it correctly. Danny put the clothes inside and put the detergent where it should go, then I saw him hesitate for a moment, he smelled his tank top and took it off to put it also in the washer, then he thought for a moment and did the same with his shorts, staying only in his underwear. "It would be better if you put everything in at once," Danny turned to look at me towards where I was cutting some vegetables and smiled accepting my suggestion. I had already seen the boy naked more than once and we both felt comfortable. When dinner was ready I called Danny over to the table, I wasn't surprised that he was still naked but I wasn't expecting it. "You feel comfortable like this, huh?" Danny nodded, he told me he was planning to take a shower before going to bed so he didn't want to get dressed just for dinner, I didn't think it was unreasonable. When we finished, I asked Danny to help me with the dishes while I put his clothes in the dryer. Watching the boy move around the kitchen naked so carefree made me envious. Not only was he stripped of his clothes but of any inhibitions, I understood that for Danny, my apartment was a safe space, away from any problems that afflicted him, and that for me was gratifying. Danny put everything in its place and every time he moved, his piece of meat wobbled free from one side to the other, a heavy piece well attached to his body, a meat just like mine, the envy I felt was for his self confidence, a self confidence that I had lost. Somehow, I began to understand why Dr Stevens insisted that Danny's presence would be good for me. I could have undressed too, but I thought that doing it just because Danny had done it was not the right thing to do, it should be more natural so that he would not perceive me as a pervert. Danny was taking his shower when his clothes were ready, I took them out and put them in a basket and took them to the guest room. Back in the hallway, the bathroom door was slightly opened, and I wanted to let Danny know that I had left his clothes in his room. I poked my head into the bathroom and before I spoke I heard the noises. It was an unmistakable sound, one I had heard before, Danny was jerking off in the shower, he was doing it wildly as he had done the first time in the shower at the club, his breathing and moans echoed in the tile covered room. I don't know why I didn't say anything, maybe I didn't want to interrupt, but I don't know why I stayed either. I listened to him do it with force, a force with which I no longer dared to use on myself. I remained as a spectator until he finished, then I went to my room and took all my clothes off, my cock was swollen, almost at its full size. I opened my drawer, took out the box, took out the vibrating rings, lay down on the bed, put my cock on the pillow between my legs. I wanted to forget everything that was on my mind so I decided to have a long edging session. The rings were vibrating at low intensity and I had my eyes closed while the pleasure bar was slowly increasing. I never keep track of time, but I'm not lying when I say that I was maybe an hour into the stimulation when I heard a knock on the door. Danny opened it, he was naked and realized what I was doing. "Oh!" he exclaimed without much qualm, "You're vibrating..." he said as he walked over to my bed, "I can't sleep, I'm excited for the trip" he told me sitting up in bed. I thought about turning the rings off but he didn't seem to have a problem with it. Besides, how hypocritical of me to stop doing something that minutes before I had spied on him doing. The remote was beside me on the bed, Danny saw it and with the curiosity that characterizes any teenager picked it up and examined it. "It's on the lowest" he said "It'll take you all night" then without warning me he turned it up to the next level. I let out a groan, "Oops! Sorry! How do I turn it down?" "Don't worry, it's fine this way..." I said looking at him, maybe it was the guilt of torturing him Sunday night or the remorse of spying on him in the bathroom that I told him, "Have fun with it..." The smile on Danny's face was similar to that of a kid being given a bb gun for the first time. He turned it up one more notch, and it lasted a few seconds only to turn it up again, the buzzing was audible because of the intensity and I tensed my body every time he turned it up a notch. "Is it ok?" he asked me, I continued to look at him and nodded. "Keep going..." I gave him my okay. Danny put it on the first level of intensity, then turned it up to the maximum. "Oh fuck!" I screamed, I arched my back and clenched my fists on the sheet, Danny went back down to one, I took a deep breath but he turned it back up to the max, "Jesus!" I exclaimed. My cock was trying to rise with each hard vibration and collapsed again. I don't know for how long Danny was in charge of the remote, he was definitely enjoying (my pleasure) the way I was reacting everytime he turned up a notch. I was all sweaty and tired, I know my body and I know how to make me cum when using the rings, I asked Danny for the remote control, but he refused. "What?" I tried to reach for my cock to manually turn off the rings but the boy stopped me. He pressed my hand to the bed and put his knee on it, then sat on my abdomen and with his other knee caught my other hand. "Danny?" "I'm not done playing" his grin was mischievous. He turned it up to the max and I arched my back again, his weight not allowing me to move anymore. "Dan-ny...!!!" I could have pushed the boy off, thrown him off the bed and freed myself, but secretly it felt like karma I had to pay. My cock was throbbing, it felt so swollen that the rings felt tight, I couldn't see my dick, but I knew it was safely lying on the pillow, all I could see was the 14 year old boy above me, his slim figure submitting me, his toned thighs squeezing my waist and his teenage cock almost reaching my sternum. Eventually the delayed orgasm came but the pleasurable torture continued, "I came..." I told him, but Danny turned it up to the max again, it was then that I grabbed him by the waist and rolled onto the bed. The boy hugged my waist with his legs, my still hard cock settled in his perineum, the vibrating ring under my glans touched his pucker, it tickled Danny and he started to laugh and tried to get away, but I was on top and I wasn't going to let him run away, it was my revenge to his revenge. "Turn it off!" I demanded. "I can't," he exclaimed laughing uncontrollably, then I got closer to him, one ring was vibrating on his hole and the other on his balls. I then saw the remote and grabbed it and turned it off. I stood catching my breath on top of Danny, leaning on my elbows and knees so I wouldn't leave all my weight on him. Danny stayed where he was, also calming his breathing. "I'm sorry." "You don't look sorry" I told him, then started tickling his ribs, which led to a brief wrestling match between us on the bed. When the game was over I went to take a shower, when I came back Danny was asleep on my bed, I could see his back, his butcheeks and the back of his thighs, Danny was already in advanced puberty and barely had pubic hair, apparently he had no hair at all except an almost imperceptible blond velvety coat, I was curious to open his buttcheeks and confirm if his ass was also smooth, but I didn't. I went to my side of the bed, I didn't wear anything to sleep either. The lake house was the first big purchase Greg made when we started doing well in business, it is located in a wooded area on the side of a lake three hours from Rockwood. There were five men in Greg's Range Rover, my friend was driving, me next to him and the three boys in the back seat. Jason is Greg's oldest son, he is 12, while Tyler, is 8, both boys have their father's dark hair and pale skin. Ironically for Greg, his two sons don't share his taste for the outdoors, since we left town, they were both playing with their Nintendo Switch each. "So tell me Danny, do you like camping?" asked Greg. "Yes..." said the boy, hesitating on how to refer to my friend, "...Sir..." to which Greg laughed. "Don't call me sir, it's a guy's trip, we are all buddies, call me Greg. And Danny, you go camping with your stepdad?", I immediately looked at him frowning, but I knew my friend wouldn't stop. "Uhm...yeah, we've gone a few times." "So you know how to set up a tent, make a fire?" "I'm no expert" he said. "And you both go...? Alone?", I looked back at Greg, and mumbled "Stop it". "Uhm... no, he has a group of friends and their sons go too, but they don't go camping often, sometimes they just get together to play baseball or barbecue." "I see" Greg said, winking at me, letting me know that his mission to get information from Danny was on course. "Are you uncle Lane's son?" said Tyler's high pitched voice. "No Ty, Danny's not my son" I clarified to the 8 year old "we're just..." "Related" Greg interjected, "In a way," The boy hummed and went back to his game. "So Danny..." continued Greg, "What does your stepfather do?" "He's a supervisor, at a company." "And what do they do at that company?" "I don't know... stuff" the boy wouldn't elaborate. "and your mom?" I looked at Greg again, I felt he was getting into difficult territory and Danny had already tried to run away from me by asking him about his mom, I didn't want the boy to open the car door in the middle of the road. "Uhm... my mom is a secretary, at the same company." "Oh I see, they met doing stuff" Greg looked at me with a smirk, I wanted to kill him, Danny had let me know that his mom had maybe cheated on his dad and that was a sensitive subject for him. I cut in on the conversation by asking the boys what they wanted to do first, Jason was nonchalant and Ty said he needed to charge his Nintendo Switch, I looked at Greg and he just shrugged resignedly. Danny expressed interest in kayaking. "You're one of mine!" said Greg, "I love kayaking, I have a tandem, we can use it together," I looked at Greg, doubting if it was a good idea for the two to be alone together, I trusted my friend, but I also knew what he could be capable of. I could hear Danny gasp in amazement as we arrived, the lake was huge and trees adorned the surroundings. And while I told Danny it was a cabin, I think in his mind he had imagined something different, something simpler. The lake house has 4 bedrooms on the second floor, one for Greg, two for his sons and a guest room - which here between us, was intended for me from the start. The house has all the amenities of any house in the city, you barely feel that your in the countryside, except for the amazing view. Upon arrival we unloaded our stuff from the Range rover and told the boys to do whatever they wanted while Greg and I set up some snacks. Danny immediately ran to the dock which was a few yards from the house, Jason sat in the living room checking his cell phone and I told Ty that I would plug in his Nintendo Switch so he could go with Danny. Greg walked over to his oldest and took his cell phone from him, "Jace, get out of the house" he ordered, the 12 year old rolled his eyes and walked out. "Don't you think you're out of line?" I said to Greg. "How else are we going to get information out of the kid?" "I don't know... When he's ready?" Greg sighed and said, "They're kids, Lane, they're not in charge, did you see what I had to do to get Jace to go out? I had to go and order him to, and he still went reluctantly." "All I'm saying is you should be careful." "I think you're the one who should be careful" said my friend in a serious tone, "Haven't you thought about the possibility that his mom and step dad know he's with you? Maybe they have some secret agenda?" "What are you talking about? What are you implying Greg?" he was starting to annoy me. "Forget about it Lane." I walked out and saw Danny sitting on the dock, I walked over to him, the boy was barefoot with his feet in the water. "How's the water?" "Fine" he said, turning to look at me once I was standing next to him. I sat down next to him and took off my sneakers, I was wearing shorts, I also put my feet in the water. "What do you think?" "About what?" "About the place." "It's okay." "You sound disappointed." "I don't know" he shrugged. "I thought... the house is fantastic, but..." "But what?" "I thought it would be different, I mean, you said we'd stay in a cabin, that there was a lake and woods...I thought we'd sleep in bunk beds, that we'd use flashlights, we'd pee in the woods; they have a built in fire pir and we don't need to go looking for branches to light it" "Hey, but what about Ty and Jace, you are going to have fun with them" "Huh? Meh..." "They're kind of stuck up, aren't they" I lean over to look at him, Danny just smiled, "Well, but how about you and me? And Greg, he wants to go kayaking with you, don't you like the idea?" the boy nodded enthusiastically with a gleam in his eye, I put a hand on his back and said "Ok, then let's start having fun" and at that moment I pushed him into the lake. Danny sank all the way in but immediately came up for air, "It's cold!" he shouted. "Didn't you say the water was just fine?" I laughed. Danny came to my feet and I helped him to be afloat, the boy grabbed onto my calves and I tried to pull him up, then thinking he was safe holding onto me, I threw myself into the water too. We emerged and I was still laughing, Danny had his blond hair covering his eyes, the boy wrapped his arms around my neck. "You do know how to swim, don't you Danny?" "Yes... it's just that you took me by surprise", then we both started laughing. Suddenly Ty's high pitched voice was heard. "Uncle Lane pushed Danny into the lake! I saw him!" "Ty, come and help us out" I said, holding up my hand, I don't know why the little guy thought he could be of help but he still gave me his hand, then I pulled him into the water, "That happens to snitches." Jace approached with a smug look on his face, I raised my hand but he folded his arms, no way he would fall in my trap. By then Danny was floating by himself, I looked at him and told him to keep an eye on Ty, then I leaned against the dock and got out, my clothes were soaked and I approached Jace menacingly. "Don't even think about it" he said changing his smug face to one of caution. The boy took a few steps back and I lunged towards him, but he ran from me. "Get him Uncle Lane!" yelled Ty. I walked back to the dock with the kid in my arms and jumped into the water. It was a fun moment that led to more fun. "You see," I said to Danny, "They just needed a push." A literal one. We walked to the house and I took off my shirt. I told them to leave the wet clothes on the porch and we started to undress. I was in my underwear as was Jace, I had to help Ty take off his soaking wet tshirt and then the boy exclaimed in surprise "Wow! Look at that!" I knew what he was talking about, but I had to look to corroborate. Danny was completely naked, his cock even after swimming in the cold lake water looked hefty. I also knew Danny was used to the stares, but that didn't mean I should let it happen, so I told Ty to mind his own business, "Yeah, but, mine is small," I couldn't help but laugh, and suggested he never say that out loud again. Jace looked a little more insecure, after all he was just starting puberty and was more aware of those boy issues. I didn't want to leave Danny alone so I took off my underwear and told them, "Come on guys, we don't want to make a mess inside" I waited, Ty immediately pulled down his underwear and then, perhaps out of peer pressure, Jace also took everything off. They had nothing to be ashamed of, but I understood that Danny's size and mine were imposing. It was already past noon, so the rest of the day was all about exploring and having fun. Getting to know the surroundings, eating and getting dinner ready. We played with a ball, we played tag and capture the flag, we wanted to leave the other activities for the next few days. At night, the boy went to bed early, Greg and I stayed near the fire pit and had a few beers, talked about the business and other unimportant things. "Have you thought about what I told you, Lane?" my friend asked. "About what?" "That there might be a hidden motive about Danny reaching you." "Are you serious? Still thinking about that dumb idea?" "Calm down Lane...I'm just worried about you." "He's a good boy." "And I have no doubt about that. But sometimes kids act out of influence. Why you Lane? Why you and not someone else who got an organ from the father?" "You know what...I'm going to bed, there's a lot to do tomorrow," I stood up annoyed, drank the last of my beer and went into the house. To get upstairs I had to go through the living room, I saw Danny lying on a couch, "What are you doing there Danny, weren't you going to share a room with Jace?" "Jace is playing video games, he wouldn't let me sleep." "Ok" I stood there for a moment, then said, "Do you want to crash in my bed?" He jumped out of the couch immediately. When I got back to the guest room after going to the bathroom to pee and brush my teeth, Danny was already crawling under the covers, it's worth mentioning that the boy was naked. I didn't say anything to him, but just in case someone came in without knocking, I locked the door. I took off my T-shirt and shorts, and I thought about it maybe for a second, and I took off my underwear too. With the two of us already in bed I turned off the nightstand light. "Danny?" I asked a few minutes later in the dark. "Yes?" I felt the boy turn in bed to face me. "Can I ask you something?" "Yes." "And you will be honest with me? "...yes..." "Why me?" Then there was a brief silence. "It really bothers you, doesn't it?", I nodded even though Danny couldn't see me, "Quick answer? I chose you." "I'm going to need more than that." "Are you going to be mad?" I didn't want to answer no, because I didn't know what he was going to tell me, but I did it anyway to get an honest answer. "You're a man, your age is close to what my dad would be, an old man in Seattle got his heart, another girl got his kidney and she went to study in Europe." "I was closer to home..." I suddenly didn't feel special, it had been more of a choice because it was easier for him to reach me. "Not just because of that... he was proud... my dad" I knew, Danny had told me that he admired his father, it was logical that his father loved him in the same way, "He was proud that I had his big dick...", I was speechless, "He was only proud of me because he said I had inherited the best of him..." "Oh Danny! You know that's not true, you are more than just a..." "Everyone looked up to him, praised him for his size, I would see him when I would visit him at work, he would strut around the fire station completely naked and tell me to watch him being respected." "Respect isn't earned that way" I told him, I was understanding more why Danny acted and thought that way, I felt compassion for the boy, I brought my hand to his arm and rubbed it, "I'm so sorry Danny" I said, I needed his forgiveness for making him to remember those things. "So I just wanted to be close to the only legacy he thought he had left in the world" Danny started to cry and I hugged him, I squeezed him to me tightly, the boy wrapped his arms around me and his tears fell from his face to my chest. Danny cried until he fell asleep, I let him know several times that he was not to blame for anything, and that I had no reason to be angry. I told him that sometimes parents have misconceptions, but that doesn't mean they don't love us, and that he should remember his father for the good things. During the night I had a dream, it had been a long time since I had dreamt about sex. In the dream there was a woman, a very beautiful one, she was calling me, in the dream there was nothing, only light and fog. Suddenly her body was attached to mine, we were naked, the dream evoked all my memories about sex. In the dream I had no worries, so I got in her, the feeling was pleasant, but nothing like I remembered, I moved my hips and my excitement increased, then I woke up. The room was dark, and for some reason I was still gently thrusting my hips, It felt tight and warm, then it dawned on me that I had Danny in my arms.He had rolled over and I was the big spoon and my hard cock had made its way between Danny's legs, just below his taint. I felt precum dripping down, I froze. Danny's scent was permeating my nose, it was soothing and disturbingly arousing. I thought about continuing my movements, but it was wrong, how could that idea even cross my mind? I waited until I could pull my cock out from between his smooth legs praying Danny wouldn't wake up, it wasn't easy, it wasn't quick either, but when I managed to do it I rolled over to the other side. I woke up and the room was fully lit by the sun. I looked at the clock, I overslept. I remembered the cause of it and felt ashamed. I rolled over looking for Danny, but he was no longer in bed. My heart skipped a beat, Danny left because of what happened in the middle of the night, he must be thinking I wanted to sexually assault him, oh my god! I quickly got dressed and left the room, Jace was still in his room looking at his phone, Ty was still asleep, Greg was gone. I went down to the kitchen, I smelled coffee but no one was there, I ran to the living room, it was deserted. I went out on the porch and then I saw them in the distance, Greg and Danny in a kayak on the lake. I calmed down a bit although my heart was still pounding. I stood watching them when I noticed something strange. Danny fell in the water! No, he didn't, he jumped! And he's swimming to shore. I walked to the dock waiting for him to arrive and helped him up. What was with this boy and running away? "What happened Danny?", the boy looked upset, he was trying to catch his breath as he took off his swim vest. "I don't want any money Lane!" he yelled at me, "My mom didn't send me to ask you for money!" "What are you talking about Danny?, I never said that." "Well Greg kept asking if my mom or step dad sent me to ask you for money!", Danny was furious, he walked towards the house and I went after him. "I know you are not here for that!" I said as I caught up to him, I grabbed him by the shoulders and pulled him in front of me, "Believe me!" "I want to go," he said, "I want to go now." "Take a shower, calm down, and get your stuff ready..." I waited for Greg to get to the dock, I was mad at him but I wanted to know from him exactly what happened. "What the hell did you say to Danny?" "Nothing man! I just wanted to know a little more about him and his family." "And why did he say he's not here because he wants money?" "I didn't tell him that, I just asked him a few key questions...like if the bills at home were always paid, if he heard his mom and stepdad talk about debt or mortgage, stuff like that." "I'm so mad at you Greg, you are so out of line." "I just told him it wasn't wrong to want to help, but sometimes people turn to desperate measures that aren't always right" "I could punch you in the face right now Greg" Fortunately for me and Danny, Greg has all the gear for outdoor activities at his house. I took two trekking backpacks and told Danny to put only the essentials. I took some canned food, sleeping bags and a tent. "Come on man, it's not that big of a deal, I'm sorry!" said Greg before watching us set off into the woods. "We'll be back Sunday at noon," I told him. I was mad at my friend, but I was sure that wasn't going to ruin our friendship, he was looking out for my best interests, not in the best way, but I needed to get away from there, just like Danny needed to get away from home.