Date: Sun, 24 Mar 2024 20:29:38 -0400 From: D Dragi Subject: Chapter 16 The Courage to Care Please donate to Nifty to keep this site going strong. Think of how much you enjoy this site and then think about if it was not here. So please give what you can so the stories will be posted for all to enjoy. I always look forward to hearing from my readers and welcome all comments. I promise to respond as soon as possible to all of your emails. Nothing makes me happier than hearing some of the suggestions and comments. Some of the ideas I heard for the story I might actually include in future chapters. My email address is tughilll1383@yahoo.com. This story will begin to wrap up as we jump to Jake's senior year in high school and all the changes and challenges that both he and Connor will face as they get ready for graduation. Chapter 16: What Am I Doing? Saturday morning arrived and it was the night of the big party at Ashley's house as well as spending the night with Melanie. I didn't know what to think. I loved being with Connor and the thought of us being together led to many jerk off sessions. But I was looking forward to being with Melanie. I was torn because I love Connor, but the possibility of us being an open and out couple was out of the questions. It was 1979 and although strides were being made with regards to gay rights being openly gay in high school was met with hatred and hostility. This is one of the reasons why I admired and respected Matt and Brad. They were a devoted couple since 1969 and did not let the prejudices of society keep them apart. Matt was totally cut off from his family and Brad too was all alone. If anything, the animosity they faced actually strengthened their relationship. I wanted the same relationship with Connor that Matt and Brad had with each other. I just sat up in my bed trying to figure out what to do and to come to terms with how I was feeling. I was frustrated, angry, and confused. I wasn't sure whether to talk to Matt and Brad about what I was going through, but I guess if anyone could understand my predicament it would be these two. I just kept everything bottled up inside of me and at times I thought I would explode. My life was a mess, and I had no idea how to come to terms with my emotions. I finally decided to head downstairs and have some breakfast. When I got to the kitchen, Matt and Brad were sitting at the kitchen table having coffee and reading the newspaper. When Brad saw me he said, "well here is our sleepy MVP at last." I just smiled and sat down at the table, Brad asked if I would like some pancakes, eggs, and bacon. I told him that would be great. Before I knew it there was a plate of pancakes, scrambled eggs, and bacon in front of me. Matt looked at me and said, "well aren't you the lucky one getting personally served." Brad said, "that's enough out of you." "I love spoiling our boy and taking good care of him." "What's wrong with you?" "Jealous." I take good care of you. You got your breakfast and need I remind you of last night. There shouldn't be any complaints out of you mister. Matt stood up and grabbed Brad around the waist and kissed him saying "No complaints baby." "Especially none about last night." Then he slapped Brad on the ass and sat back down at the table. Brad looked at Matt and said, "that's more like it." Matt handed me the paper and on the front page was a picture of Connor and I and the headline read "Watson's Dynamic Duo Dominate." I read the paper devouring every word and line after line of praise about Connor and I filled the page. It talked about us being co-MVP's, being best friends, and leading our team to the conference championship. The coach praised us for our work ethic and as co-captains keeping the rest of the team focused and on task. Both Connor and I were quoted numerous times especially about how we pushed one another to be the best. I must have read the article at least ten times basking in the glow of the overflowing accolades. Matt looked at me and said, "Don't let all that praise go to your head." Brad quickly jumped in and said "Will you let the boy enjoy his moment." Matt looked at Brad and said "calm down mother." Matt then came over and gave me a big bear hug and said that both he and Brad are so proud of you and always want nothing but the best for you. I can't tell you what it is like for Brad and I sitting in the stands watching you sink shot after shot. Brad added saying he could barely contain himself and wanted to shout out loud that's our boy. I laughed at Brad's comment and I felt loved and wanted. It was important for me to have someone in my corner. That there were people there for me who cared for me and loved me. I went into the living room after breakfast to just chill out and watch some television. The party wasn't until 7 so I was going to spend the time relaxing. But I couldn't relax. I was thinking about Connor and I and what Melanie had planned for later tonight. I didn't want to deceive Melanie, but I knew I had to hide that I was gay and what better way then by having sex with Melanie? I started daydreaming thinking of Connor and I together like Matt and Brad. Spend the days and nights together. Sharing our lives together. But that was not to be right now, so I had to play the role of the heterosexual jock who had a gorgeous girlfriend who was willing to give up her virginity to me. And only be able to sneak around to be with Connor hiding our relationship from the rest of society. I just laid there on the couch mulling over my dilemma. I guess I must have had some facial expression that Matt noticed and asked if anything was wrong. I just told him I was thinking about everything and taking it all in. Matt looked at me and I guess he wasn't buying what I said to him. He asked me if there was anything wrong or anything I needed to talk about. I just said I was coming down from all the excitement and running it all over in my head. He told me I deserved some down time and let him know if I ever needed to talk he would be there for me. I wanted to talk to Matt, but I didn't want to say anything until both Connor and I agreed what we would say and to whom we would say it. But I knew that if anyone would understand it would be Matt and Brad. I closed my eyes and took a nap. Brad came in to wake me about five and said dinner would be ready soon and that I needed to get ready for the party. I went upstairs to shower and change, and I put some condoms in my wallet. When I came downstairs dinner was ready and Brad called Matt to come to dinner. Brad asked if I was looking forward to the party and I joked saying "more than you know." Brad replied, "what does that mean young man?" I told him it was going to be a good time for all. Matt then said that if I was going to drink do not drive and sleep it off. He also said that if anything gets hot and heavy with Melanie be sure you have some condoms in your wallet. Brad then said what the hell is this party a drunken orgy? I laughed and said no just your usual teenage party. No need to worry. Brad looked at me and said you better make damn sure that you don't make me and Matt grandparents. Matt just looked at Brad and said he trusted me to do the right thing and to stop worrying. I continued eating dinner quietly as Brad kept shooting glances at me. I told them that the party was at Ashley's house, and it was to celebrate the conference championship. Connor and I would be the guests of honor. Brad said that's what worries me is that every bimbo will be making a play for you. I told him not to worry because Melanie would never let that happen. After I finished dinner, I went upstairs to finish getting ready. I brushed my teeth, combed my hair, and put on some cologne. As I was leaving, I told Matt and Brad not to wait up because the party could turn into an all nighter. I told them I was going to pick up Melanie and then head to the party. Brad just looked at me and said you better behave yourself young man. I said no need to worry and that I would see them tomorrow. Matt told me to have a good time and said he'd see me tomorrow. I closed the door and headed to my car. Back inside Brad was still fretting and Matt looked at him and said, "don't worry baby I know what will calm you down." Brad smiled at Matt and said, "you going to give me some more of that thick Irish dick of yours?" "You know it baby." "You're going to get it and get it good." Brad said, let's head upstairs." "I'm all yours." When I got to Melanie's house, she came out the front door wearing tight jeans and a see through blouse. It was obvious she wasn't wearing a bra and when I opened the door, I pinched her ass and said "looking good babe." She just laughed and said "you just wait until later lover and you'll get to see it all." As we drove to Ashley's house Melanie had her hand on my thigh. I was getting hard with her hand so close to my dick. When we got to Ashley's house the party was in full swing and there was a loud cheer when the crowd saw that I arrived. Connor and Ashley came over and said it's about time you two got here. Connor said let's go over and get some beer. Connor poured two cups of beer from the keg and we toasted saying "Here's to the champions." After a few more beers, Melanie came close and she grabbed my crotch and felt the bulge in my pants. She said to me to just calm down boy I'll be sure to take care of that bulge in your pants. I kissed her deeply and our tongues met. I pulled her close to me and continued to kiss her deeply letting my hands move under her blouse and feeling those pert breasts. She let out a moan as I put my hand on her breasts and we continued with our lips locked and our tongues touching. I was stiff and hard and wanted nothing more than to take Melanie and give her my load. Melanie then pulled away and said to me "let's go lover." She grabbed me by the hand and we headed toward the door. Connor and Ashley saw us leaving and I saw Connor with a wide grin on his face and he gave me a thumbs up. All I knew at the time was that I was horny as hell and needed release. I drove to Melanie's house and when we got inside the house, we quickly climbed the stairs and headed to her bedroom. I started taking off my and shirt and she unbuttoned her blouse. She wasn't wearing a bra and her breasts were pointing straight out. She came over to me and unbuttoned my jeans and pulled them down. She then pulled down my briefs and there I was stark naked with a raging hard on. I undid Melanie's pants and pulled down her pants and then her panties. There we were totally naked as we fell on the bed kissing each other deeply. I couldn't think straight and I just wanted to get in between those milky thighs and have my way. Melanie pushed me back and said, "this is my first time and I want it to be special." "I want you to take it slow and be gentle with me." "I want it to last." "I want you Jake." "I want you to be my first." I told her I would be gentle and take my time. I said "if it hurts let me know and I'll stop." I then reached for my wallet on the nightstand and took out a condom. I slipped the condom on and slowly slid my dick inside of her. I entered slowly inch by inch. She gasped a few times and I froze. I asked if she was alright and she said she was fine. I then began slowly thrusting in and out enjoying the feel of her. I was kissing her gently as I rocked back and forth. She seemed to begin to like it and she let out little quiet moans of delight. I began to speed up and I was coming close. Finally after a few more minutes I let out a blast of cum and said "I love you Melanie." As I finished filling the condom I climbed off of her and tossed the condom into the waste basket. I pulled her close to me kissing her passionately. We just laid there for a while holding each other. Melanie put her head on my chest and I slowly stroked her hair. Melanie got up and said "lets take a shower together." We got out of bed and headed to the bathroom. As she turned on the water, once it got warm we stepped in and began soaping each other up. Melanie began stroking my cock and I got hard again. She said to me "this time no condom." Melanie then faced the shower wall and I entered her from behind. I started thrusting wildly as the warm water rushed over our bodies. Melanie was panting and moaning as I continued going in and out. It didn't take long for me to cum and I felt wave after wave entering Melanie. We kissed deeply and finished cleaning each other off. After we dried each other off we got into bed naked holding one another close and we fell asleep. When morning came and we were awake I had morning wood and Melanie just looked and said "want to go again?" She then climbed on top of me and began riding my stiff dick. I reached out to caress her breasts as she bobbed up and down on my morning wood. I came again and filled her once more with waves of my cum. We laid there in bed and Melaine said we needed to get going because her parents would be coming home in a couple of hours. I got up, took another shower, dried off , and got dressed. Melanie threw on a pair of shorts and t-shirt and clung close to me as we walked down the stairs. As I approached the door I kissed her deeply and told her she was beautiful. She said she loved me and she knew I was the one. She grabbed my ass as I left and laughed saying "talk to you later sweet cheeks." As I drove home, I was thinking about Melanie and then thinking about Connor. I was debating in my head which did I like better. Being with Melanie was great and I loved being with her. But I did not have the same feeling after being with Melanie like I did with Connor. I still felt good about myself and knew that after last night no one would question my sexuality. I thought that I could have it all. Melanie keeping me safe and Connor keeping me satisfied. Connor and I both had girlfriends who would maintain our image of straight jocks. We could remain local celebrities, rulers of the school, and be looked upon as young gods. I knew that if Connor and I came out that would all be gone. When I pulled into the driveway I saw Matt waiting in the doorway. I got out of the car and Matt asked where I was all night. I told him I was at Ashley's house. I didn't want to drink and drive. Matt then said to me "then why do you smell like perfume?" I told him that Melanie stayed over as well and she slept next to me but nothing happened. I hoped Matt was buying it because I didn't want him to know what really happened. "Well get in here." "Brad has breakfast waiting for you." As I walked inside I headed to the kitchen. "Well there you are." "How was your night?" Brad sneered. I told him the drunken orgy lasted forever and I'm worn out." Brad looked at me slapped me on the top of my head and told me "in your dreams." I then sat down and wolfed down waffles, sausages and eggs. I chugged down glasses of milk and orange juice. Brad told me to slow down so I didn't choke. I was really hungry and everything tasted great. I just couldn't hide this shit eating grin I had on my face because I proved myself to Melanie and proved that I could have both Melanie and Connor. There was this sense of self-pride and satisfaction that I was a sexual dynamo. After breakfast I told them I was going upstairs to lie down. "More like sleep it off" said Brad. I just laughed and headed upstairs. Brad looked at Matt and said I think something happened last night to Jake." Matt agreed. "Did you see that look on his face?" "I'm afraid our boy is sexually active." "What did you expect?" said Matt. "Jake is good looking and popular." "I be surprised if he wasn't sexually active." "I trust Jake to do the right thing and that's all we can do." Brad sighed saying "I know you are right but it does not mean I won't worry." Matt went over to Brad and kissed him on the cheek. "Welcome to parenthood baby." Brad just shook his head and said "our boy is growing up." I slept most of the afternoon and when I got up I gave Connor a call. He asked me if Melanie and I went all the way. I told we did it three times. He called me a dog and said does this mean you and Melanie will be going at it all the time. I told him that there was someone else I wanted to be with but it's a little difficult. He laughed and said "is it someone I know?" We just laughed and I asked him if he and Ashley went all the way. He said that they did and then he said something I didn't expect. He said it was good with Ashley but not as good as when I was with you. I was stunned. I told him I felt the same way. A deadly silence came over the phone. I then broke the silence by saying that there was someone else that I really wanted to be with but it's not easy. Being coy, Connor said do I know this person. I told him I think so. We then laughed and I asked when he thought we could be together again. He said we needed to be real careful so no one would get suspicious. I told him as long as we had our girlfriends I don't think anyone will suspect. He said he would need to think it over about the cabin but assured me we would be together again. I told him I'd see him tomorrow and hung up the phone. As I hung up the phone I remembered I needed to call Melanie. I gave Melanie a call and she said "it's about time you called." "I thought you forgot about me." I told her I could never forget the hottest girl in town but my girlfriend wore me out last night and I needed to rest." She laughed and then she said she loved every minute of last night and couldn't wait to be together again. I told her she was amazing and that I too couldn't wait to be with her again. We went back and forth for the next half hour talking about last night. I heard Brad call saying dinner was ready and I told Melanie I had to go. I told her I loved her and she said I love you too Jake. I told her I would see her tomorrow. When I got off the phone I went downstairs for dinner. Brad asked who I was on the phone with and I told him it was Melanie. He then asked me how serious I was with Melanie. I told him that I told her I loved her and she loves me. We are a steady couple and she is wearing my school ring. Brad called out to Matt to come to the kitchen. "What is it Matt asked. "Are you aware that our boy has a steady girlfriend who is wearing his class ring and we hardly know the girl?" Matt looked at me and said "good for you Jake." "I'm happy for you." Brad then said "Hello." "Don't you think we should meet this girl and get to know more about her." "Yes I do" said Matt. "Jake why don't you ask Melanie to come over for dinner some night." I told him I would love for them to meet Melanie and I would ask her about dinner when I saw her tomorrow. After dinner I went upstairs and laid down in my bed thinking everything over. I was with both Connor and Melanie and I enjoyed it but knew I enjoyed it more with Connor. I knew it would be easier if I could just forget Connor and solely focus on Melanie. But my feelings for Connor were too strong. The best I could do was have secret hookups with Connor while still sleeping with Melanie. I thought about it and figured I could have it all if I just played my cards right. A hot girlfriend who would keep my status in the community and still having Connor in secret. The best of both worlds I thought. A smile came across my face and thought that life was good. I rationalized that no one was getting hurt as long as no one knew about Connor and I. I started to feel like the cat who just ate the canary. On Monday I drove over to Melanie's to take her to school. She got in the car and gave me a kiss on the lips. She said "good morning lover." I chuckled and said "good morning gorgeous." As I was pulling out the driveway I saw Melanie's mom peering through the window. I wonder if she suspected that Melanie and I were sleeping together. I really didn't care if she did or did not know I just didn't want Melanie to be in any trouble at home. Melanie sat close to me on the ride to school and when I went to open the door for Melanie I pinched her ass and she let out a squeal of delight. We walked into school holding hands and when we got into the school the conference championship banner was hanging over the entranceway. When I walked in some of the students began to clap and cheer as I walked by. If this is how it was going to be for winning the conference championship what the hell would it be like if we win sectionals. Melanie and I continued walking down the school hallway and we were looked upon like royalty. I loved every minute of it. Throughout the entire morning as I walked from class to class students congratulated me, gave me high fives and patted me on the back. When lunch time came, and the students saw Connor and I together they started chanting dynamic duo. The entire day was electric and even throughout the afternoon I was receiving praise from other students and staff. After classes ended, I went down to the locker room to get changed for practice. Coach had us sit on the bleachers and said our next game would be Saturday against Mayfair. We were the second seed in the tournament so the game would be played on our court. We did drills, shoot arounds, and laps during practice. After practice, it was good to see Connor's naked body again as he went to the showers. As he exited the showers I got a good shot at his ass with my towel and he let out a gasp. "I'll get you back asshole" he said to me. And I replied "Bring it bitch." When we finished changing, we went out of the locker room and Ashley and Melanie were waiting for us. I got a good wet kiss from Melanie and we walked out to the car together with my arm swung over her shoulder. When I dropped her off at her house I gave her a kiss and said I would call her after dinner. When I got home Brad asked me about my day. I told him all about the praise I received throughout the day and that I couldn't believe it. Brad said "All hail the conquering hero." "So now I bet you and Connor are the big men on campus." I said I guess so. Matt came into the kitchen and asked me about my day and I told him our next game would be home this Saturday against Mayfair. Brad said Matt and he would be there and couldn't barely wait until Saturday. After dinner I told Matt and Brad that I was going upstairs and call Melanie. Matt said don't stay up too late. Brad asked if I would talk to Melanie about coming to dinner this Thursday night. I said I would talk to her about it and get back to you. When I got on the phone with Melanie we just talked about nothing for over an hour and then I asked her about coming over to dinner on Thursday. She said she would check with her parents but said it shouldn't be a problem. I could pick you up at your house around 5:30. She said she let me know tomorrow. Before we hung up we both said we loved one another. At breakfast the next morning I told Brad that Melanie would let me know about dinner today. Brad was thrilled and said he was looking forward to spending some more time with her and to get her know her better. I told him to "be nice." "Me?" replied Brad. "I just want to talk to the girl and learn more about her." "No interrogation" I said. Matt came into the kitchen and overheard our conversation and told me I had nothing to worry about and Brad would keep in line. "No need to worry you two." "I promise to be on my best behavior and make Melanie feel comfortable in our home." Brad then asked what Melanie thought about me having two dads. I told him it didn't come up and we didn't talk about it. I then said I had to leave and walked out the door to my car. The next two days were more of the same. School, practice, home. Connor and I were playing it cool and trying to keep our distance. We talked about going to the cabin again but Connor wasn't sure when that would happen. I don't know what to feel or how to feel. I was confused and my insides were a mess. I guess it showed on my face because both Brad and Matt asked if there was anything wrong. I told him that I was just thinking about the upcoming game. I never did have a good poker face and my emotions showed. On Thursday after practice I drove over to Melanie's to pick her up. I was a little nervous and was hoping the evening would go well. She never did talk or ask about my home life and I was wondering what she would think when she saw Matt and Brad together. I guess I was going to find out. Melanie was neatly dressed with a pink blouse and black slacks. When I opened the door of the car I told her she looked good. "I want to make a good impression for you" she said. When we got to the house both Matt and Brad welcomed Melanie and escorted her to the living room. Brad said to her that she was a pretty girl and couldn't understand why such a pretty girl would be going out with me. They both laughed as they looked over at me. Melanie said "he's easy on the eyes." I replied "thanks a lot." Brad went out to kitchen and brought out cheese and crackers and a vegetable tray. He asked if Melanie would like a soda and she said she would. Brad brought out the soda and we all sat around waiting for dinner. Brad went on saying how glad that Melanie could make it tonight and that he had a lovely dinner planned in her honor. Brad then went into small talk mode and started asking Melanie about school, if she was planning on going to college, and if she knew what she wanted to study. Melanie then asked about what Brad and Matt did for a living. The conversation was going well and I was impressed at how composed and confident Melanie came across. I think Matt and Brad were also impressed. Dinner went off without a hitch and the evening was a success. As I drove Melanie home I told her she did well tonight. Melanie looked at me and said "anything for you Jake." I told her I would see her tomorrow. When I got home, Brad pounced on me saying that Melanie was an attractive and intelligent girl. I jokingly replied, "so does that mean we can continue to go out together?" "You're lucky to have such a fine young woman and I hope you never forget it." Brad went on to say, "I still don't see why that fine young woman would go out with someone like you?" My male ego wounded I retorted "I'm also a good catch you know." Matt too joined the conversation and said that he also thought Melanie was a fine young woman and reminded me to be a gentleman around her at all times. I told him I will always treat Melanie with respect. Brad then chimed in "you better or you'll hear from both of us." I said I got it, said goodnight and went upstairs. When I was in bed I started looking at my relationship with Melanie differently. I liked the positive attention we received as a couple. To be recognized as a popular good looking couple was a boost to my male ego. Even though I still had strong feelings for Connor I couldn't deny the perks of being with Melanie. I started questioning my relationship with Melanie and my relationship with Connor. Should I just try to deny my feelings for Connor and be soley exclusive with Melanie? It sure as hell would make things a whole lot easier. I kept on running my emotions for both of them through my head and I didn't know what to think. I just lay there in bed staring at the ceiling with all of these thoughts and I truly didn't know what to do. It was eating me up inside and I just wanted it all to stop and have some peace. I got up the next morning and drove over and got Melanie. I told her what Brad and Matt said to me about you and that I was to treat you with respect at all times. She said "damn straight and don't you forget it." She then kissed me on the cheek. She went on to say that she wanted Matt and Brad to like her and that it was important to her. I told her she had nothing to worry about and that she passed with flying colors. She then said it will now be your turn to come to dinner at my house. My parents want to meet the man I cannot stop thinking and talking about. I said I would be more than happy to come to her house for dinner and face her family. Although I'm still not sure what your dad thinks of me. It doesn't matter she said. As long as my mother likes you that's all that matters. I told her good to know. It was Friday before the game on Saturday and another afternoon pep rally. It was the same all over again. Cheerleading routines, the band playing, and the coach giving a speech. All ending with blue and gold confetti dropping from the ceiling. I just couldn't wait for Saturday to get here. After the pep rally the team went into the locker room. I asked Connor if he was nervous about tomorrow's game. He said he felt good and told me just stick to the game plan and everything will be fine. He did say that Mayfair did have a height advantage over us but as long as we hit our shots that won't matter. Connor said we needed to go because our girls are waiting for us. As we left the locker room there were both Ashley and Melanie waiting and we both received kisses from our girlfriends. As I was driving Melanie home she reached over and unzipped my pants. She reached inside and started to stroke my dick. "I just want to relax you so you're ready for the big game" she said. Concentrate on the game? I could barely concentrate on driving. My dick didn't take long to get hard and before we pulled up to Melanie's house I shot my load which landed all over my pants. I didn't dare get out of the car with my pants covered in my cum. Melanie laughed as she got out and she said "that's my man." When I got home I took my backpack and used it to cover the front of my pants. I rushed inside and directly up the stairs so no one would see me. When I got to my room I took off my clothes and took a shower. I threw my clothes in the hamper and headed downstairs for dinner. All I kept thinking about was Melanie jerking me off and I loved it. I was thinking maybe next time she could put her pretty pink lips on my dick and suck me off. I just sat eating dinner quietly then excused myself and went upstairs. I put my headphones on and listened to music for hours until I fell asleep.