Date: Sat, 9 May 2020 21:12:02 +0100 From: Vincent Appleyard Subject: The Geisenberg Conspiracy Chapter 5 The Geisenberg Conspiracy by Vincent Appleyard A story set in East Germany in 1965 Please help keep the wonderful Nifty Archive going by donating to: http://donate.nifty.org/donate.html Chapter 5 When Corden had finally roused himself it was still not very much past dawn. He had loitered rather moodily about the barn until he heard sounds of activity which turned out to be Rudi leaving the farmhouse to start bringing in his small herd for milking. Corden felt well enough disposed towards him still but something held him back and he trusted his instinct which was to avoid him for the time being. His thoughts strayed briefly again to the photographs he had secreted and he forced himself to let them be for now. He loitered a minute in front of a small drinking trough at the far side of the barn, before dousing his head quickly and savagely in the cold water, an act which brought him sharply to his senses. He was a resilient man, well-used to living without comforts and he was perfectly content to stay a couple of nights in the barn, to live this essential, vagabond life. Eventually, he made his way to the house and entered rather tentatively, suddenly shy at his being a guest, a rare status which he realised would focus attention upon him to a degree he was unused to. He was in some ways a highly sociable man, given the right circumstances but here, after the drama of the day before, his strange encounter with Matthias Berg, he felt somehow constrained and under scrutiny. He drank some coffee with Anna and she insisted on his breakfasting properly on what remained of the cold sausage, cheese and rough chunks of bread that Rudi had enjoyed before starting his day's work. The children were still asleep upstairs which pleased Corden somehow, his awareness of their own cool scrutiny of him being a factor in the strange reluctance that he felt, which was almost a surliness. Anna too appeared constrained. She had made brief, rather abstract conversation and Corden could sense her self-absorption, her need to be alone. He felt a distance between them and considered himself chided to some extent as if he were making unreasonable demands on her, which in a sense, he was and, in fact, had always been doing. She also had work to attend to around the farm and quickly excused herself from the breakfast table, bundled up her hair in a brightly coloured headscarf and left. She told Corden that he should stay there, make himself at home in their living room but he felt an urgent need for movement as a remedy for the inertia that he feared might otherwise overtake him. He went back to the barn and changed into some fresh clothes from a rucksack he kept in the boot of his car; outdoor clothes, tough and uncompromising as befitted his mood. After a few more moments of reflection, he set off for the hills, unconcerned entirely as to his direction, knowing only that the regularity of a long hike was what he needed most of all. He knew already that he would spend the next hours going over in his head the implications of his meeting with Berg and planning in detail exactly how he would present the startling proposal to London and that only vigorous physical exertion would free his mind to this necessary contemplation. It was still only 8am but the day looked promising. It was already warm and would be quite hot by midday. He had filled his flask with water from the kitchen tap and had stuffed a few, last pieces of bread and cheese into his pockets before heading off, anonymous and strangely excited, like a child at the start of an adventure. He walked for miles, following small roads and random paths that cut across the fields. He kept mostly to the shelter of the tree-line, occasionally dipping into more thickly wooded areas, a sense of self-preservation always keeping him on guard even as he gradually unwound and began to enjoy the freedom that he felt out in the open. He barely saw another human, only once when following a rough path out of the wood into an open field, when he was suddenly confronted by the sight of two middle-aged men working on an old tractor which had evidently broken down, had been abandoned even. They had removed the major part of the engine and had laid the individual components out on the grass like guts spilled from a dead animal. He passed them by quickly with a curt nod and they watched him for a moment until he called out to them, making a joke about the state of the machine and wishing them good luck with their task. He felt their eyes on him as he walked the length of the field until he disappeared over a stile which took him back to the woods further on. He was not concerned; he looked every bit the kind of country rambler that anyone round these parts might encounter on a late Summer's day. However, he felt his isolation keenly and he stopped, before he had gone much further, to take a drink and chew on a piece of bread, perhaps to remind himself of Anna, to re-establish a connection to her world. He was quite lost in terms of knowing exactly where he was but at the same time, completely at home and unworried; he loved to lose himself like this if only to experience the cheering moment when he found himself again. His sense of direction was impeccable and he wouldn't need a map to make his way back, although he had a number of very detailed maps which he had left behind in his car. All the time he thought about Berg and tried to work through in his head the implications of what he had agreed to do. He presumed London would be highly displeased with him for messing up his chance with Rudi, for blowing the possibility of developing him as an asset in the future. Perhaps the photographs would prove to be his own way back in, would provide sufficient promise for London to keep him in harness in the field and not demote him immediately to a desk job. In a strange way, he felt genuinely grateful for Berg's intervention. And so he wandered through the morning and into the afternoon. He stopped properly only once and lay down in some long grass, half-hidden like a wild thing. He ate the rest of the food he had brought and thought of the boy Markus from the photographs. He knew he was stirred by those images but didn't care to confront the origin or nature of his excitement. He simply brought each one into his mind and let it sit there, an object to be contemplated dispassionately. And yet he couldn't escape the knowledge that his own passions were aroused by them. He lay in the grass looking at the bright sky, its scattering of small, wispy cloud and didn't move for over an hour. By the time he stretched and rose again to head back to the farm, it was already gone 2pm. As he neared the farm, Corden took a final diversion, looping round to the south, a way to extend his return and take him back by a different route. The day was still very warm. Turning past a little glade of willows to his right, he slowed and took in the scene. The three boys hadn't noticed his approach. He was not quite behind them but enough to one side for them not to be aware of his presence. They were all three naked, having evidently been bathing in a large, although not very deep pond that stretched away until it disappeared in clumps of rushes. Karl was furthest away, holding a towel around his shoulders. Johann was stood next to a boy of about Karl's age whom Corden didn't recognise. Their clothes and other kit were strewn carelessly about and more towels were stretched out, already crumpled and dirty where, Corden surmised, the boys had been lounging in between bouts of play in the pond. He gazed at them intently, a kind of shimmering coming off their bodies in the heat. Karl, he noticed, was properly soaked and must have only just left the water. He stood there dripping but made no attempt to dry himself. His head was angled slightly and he was looking down at the way his little cock had risen coolly in the air, the way it poked up into the light. He was smiling but only half-heartedly it seemed until he gently touched himself with a still-wet finger, a gesture that succeeded in drawing the eyes of all to his erection. The other boy, blond and skinny bent down in Karl's direction and examined him close up. His face was twisted with a kind of embarrassed delight and was reddened both by the sun and by the rush of blood to his cheeks. He was pale and ungainly as a colt let loose, and Corden studied him, smiling at the haphazard jerkiness of his movements. He observed the rounded curve of his thin buttocks as he bent, the way they were indented, the deepening of colour towards the lad's anus. The youngster shook his short mane of curly, blond hair and laughed deliciously, a laugh that was prevented from taking full flight, choked back as it was by the overwhelming urge to repress his own delight, aware much more than Johann of the mischief, the naughtiness, the sheer, rude sex of the display. Corden hesitated a moment longer then stepped forward, smiling, warm and amused. "Hello, lads!" he said gently, a fraction of a second before the boys had noticed his approach. The unknown boy, his laughter caught up and now thoroughly interrupted, spun round awkwardly, his limbs making rather ungainly movement through the air. Karl was smiling widely, blushing but evidently pleased at this turn of events. He held the towel modestly to his front and grasped himself through it. Johann merely stood watching, a smile on his face too. "Uncle Gunther!" he exclaimed, a greeting which seemed to cause Karl to double-up, laughing. The other boy whispered something to Johann, no doubt asking about Corden but Johann didn't reply, just stood his ground, unmoving. He appeared solid and golden, his flesh somehow clean and gleaming despite the muddy marks that Corden now could see around his legs, the smear of pond detritus slicking his bottom. "Who's this then?" asked Corden boldly, indicating the other boy. No-one spoke at first, the boy himself suddenly shy and indifferent. He had covered his own genitals with both hands and stood grinning awkwardly at Johann. "He's my friend," said Karl at last. "My friend, Ernst." Corden nodded to the boy but Ernst ignored him. "Good day for swimming," said Corden, for want of anything else to say. "We're not swimming!" objected Karl. "Not proper swimming. It's not deep enough for that." He approached carefully and placed himself, almost strategically, between Corden and Ernst. Without any kind of show at all, he dropped his towel to the ground and stood on it, drying his feet. His cock was still sticking up at a curious angle, writhing almost in the freshness of the air, its little tip only partially disclosed, shrouded tightly in the boy's foreskin. His small, elegant balls were tight and delicate as if held out, breathlessly, for inspection. Corden stared hard, any fierceness he might have felt from the day's exertions, from the hot sun, from the remnants of his convoluted mental state, melted away entirely before the implacable, unyielding simplicity of Karl's hard-on, the candour of such an innocent, involuntary statement. Karl finished drying his toes and stood motionless before the little group, firm and quivering like a reed and as natural as the reeds beside the pond. There was an intensity now in his expression as he focussed on Corden's face, gauging his reaction. He smiled widely, a sweet, conspiratorial smile that both challenged and encouraged. There was something like electricity flashing from his eyes, a brazenness, igniting a dim memory in Corden's mind, which he couldn't quite place. The moment amplified, like a buzzing of insects and for a second, Corden felt faint as if the sun were rippling across his eyes, scorching him. He experienced a moment of sublime, almost painfully acute, self-knowledge, which flared in an instant and then instantly dissipated, like the stuttering after-image of a shooting star reflected on the choppiest of seas. It was Ernst who broke the spell, moving in his quick, ungainly motions and placing himself, giggling, at Karl's rear. He draped his long, thin arms around his friend and pushed himself close, so that his own penis brushed momentarily against the curve of Karl's wet backside. He then manoeuvred Karl clumsily around and led him back a few yards as if to protect him even from himself, from the incalculable consequences of his own delighted recklessness. Corden watched the pair retreat, their limbs entangled, Ernst's behind moving up and down suggestively as he frog-marched his companion away. His buttocks were small, distinct, white orbs which danced about, delicate and petite, like those of a ballerina. Corden's eyes focussed steadily on the boy's backside, admiring its mobility, the neatness of its form and admiring too the unselfconscious glee that was implicit in its movements. Through all of this, Johann stood immobile, watching everything, rather bored, as remote as a statue. He picked rather absent-mindedly at his own bottom. Ernst had by now overcome his initial shyness and stood as if on guard in front of Karl. He had taken up a towel from the ground and partially covered his nudity except that he held the towel carelessly, with just one hand so that whilst it draped over his thighs, his cock was tantalisingly revealed, half-hidden, then revealed again. He teasingly allowed the towel to drop and then rise again, catching himself in it with each upward movement and stiffening himself a little by this action although not to the extent of Karl's persistent erection. Having caught his penis in the edge of the towel he would hold it there, as if pointing it out to Corden, before it was half-covered again and only a few, mere, golden curlicues of hair were visible above the towel. Corden smiled at the display. He liked the boy immensely; his cheerful, protective manner towards Karl and his easygoing playfulness. He had larger testicles than Karl and they were softened by the light, silky hair that Corden could see even from a distance. The wisps of pubic hair around his penis were strangely haphazard in comparison, an insubstantial blond fuzziness that seemed to blur his outline and brought a kind of soft-focus to him. He stood there with a slightly awkward lopsidedness which suited his coltish demeanour and endowed him, rather charmingly, to Corden's eyes, with an air of familiarity, of approachability. To Corden he appeared like a wild young horse that was longing to be tamed; a colt that, in pursuit of that one dream, had positioned himself boldly to one side in order to be noticed and picked out; to be chosen and taken and mastered and loved. Karl pushed his way past Ernst and stood directly in front of Corden, the towel now wrapped securely round his middle. He gazed up at the man, still dripping from his dip in the pond. "Where are you going?" he asked, boldly. "Back. Eventually. I'm going back." "Back to Nuremberg?" "Back to the farm. I'll be off tomorrow though." "Where 'ave you been then?" Karl scrutinised him, squinting against the sun. He let the towel unravel from around his waist and stood, his nakedness on display once more, not in challenge but accepted, natural as if no longer significant. His penis was now more or less soft again, though still vibrant somehow. It waved gently in the breeze, a kind of soft, twitching motion that would not be stilled. "Just walking," said Corden. "I like walking." He smiled down at the lad and glanced quickly over at the other two boys who were now leaning together in companionship. "Look, get yourself dry. Your mother won't want to catching cold, d'you hear?" With this, Corden took a step forward, moving directly into Karl's space. He took the towel gently, which the boy let him have unresisting and bunching it in his hands, he began to rub Karl's glistening hair which fell around his ears even to where his shoulders started. Karl let him stroke his head with the towel and smiled when Corden took one corner of it delicately and wiped at the dampness on his face, clearing off the drops of water as if tenderly drying the lad's tears. His tenderness might perhaps have been unexpected in such an otherwise gruff and forceful-seeming man but Karl appeared to understand the terms of their exchange; that he would present his vivid, boyish, beauty to the man and in return the man would treat him with the highest degree of loving kindness. There was something utterly masculine in the gentleness with which Corden's fingers traced the contours from brow to chin of Karl's little face and Karl responded with a gesture of undisguised invitation, holding his arms up above his head for Corden to continue drying him. He rubbed more vigorously at his arms, even to the fingertips and then wiped at the hairless armpits, feeling how deep they were, the strength of the musculature beneath the skin. He carried on down the boy's thin chest, teasing the little nipples, making Karl smile. He felt the narrow ribs and dried them thoroughly before making the boy squirm by easing a finger gently round his navel. Finally, still smiling, replicating Karl's own, now gravely-serious smile, he crouched and began to work the towel upwards from the boys ankles to his knees. Karl giggled and turned to Ernst and Johann, still lolling, watching together from a short distance away, all knowing where this process ended, the ultimate focus of Corden's touch. His hands reached higher, moving the towel around Karl's inner thighs, rubbing him quite hard. The lad's thin penis waved mere inches from Corden's nose. "Come on," he said, smilingly. "You can't go round with a wet bum!" At this, he finally placed one hand on the lad's dainty little rear, the other in front and dried him from both sides, rubbing up and down, brushing his cock and his little nuts and feeling the towel push slightly into the boy's crack, making Karl giggle with delight and blush with excitement. Corden could sense the delicate trembling of the boy within his grasp and held him briefly in a kind of embrace. There was something very poised about the way Karl gave himself up to the man's attentions, the way he offered himself to be attended to almost as if making of himself a gift. There was a coolness too about his manner in accepting Corden's touch, allowing it, demanding it even; his awareness of a rightness, an equality, inherent in the exchange. Finally, Corden stood and tossed him the towel. Karl caught it but didn't use it to cover himself. He held briefly onto his little penis with two fingers, feeling it pulse and rouse again in response to his body's memory of Corden's agitating hands. "Go on, get dressed!" Corden said, giving Karl a light slap on the bottom as he turned away. Ernst had removed himself to where their clothes were piled and had already begun fishing round for his underpants. Johann stretched himself, his arms held aloft, maybe in imitation of his brother. "You don't need to do me. I'm already dry!" he declared. "I got dry just standing there in the sun." He beamed at Corden and skipped off merrily to dress himself alongside Ernst. "Are you coming back with us?" asked Karl. Corden considered this for a minute but decided that he still had things he wanted to think through before returning to the farm. "No," he said eventually. "I'm going back a different way. I'll see you there." He paused for a second and added: "Nice to meet you, Ernst." The lad said nothing but raised a hand in gesture of goodbye as he pulled his Y-fronts up with the other. When Corden had walked on another hundred yards or so, he stopped and sat down on the grass. He could see the farmhouse in the distance. After a few minutes, the three boys could be observed trudging back by another path on the opposite side of the field. Corden watched them, smiling inwardly at the strange mixture of knowingness and innocence they all, to some degree, exhibited and was for a few moments entirely happy. He remembered the feel of Karl's young, thin body beneath his fingers, the trembling certainty as he accepted his touch, the way he had exposed himself to being cared-for, exposed his vulnerability but without shame, deliciously in front of his friend's eyes; a gift for his friend, the trigger, no doubt, for some shuddering, nocturnal explorations which would become a treasured part of their shared fantasies in nights to come. For an instant, Corden wished that he were twelve years old again but quickly dismissed the thought as useless, sentimental and self-indulgent. He was firmly set in the adult world and had, moreover, what would appear obvious to any 12 year old; an adult's inconceivable responsibilities. When Corden finally returned to the farmhouse, more than an hour later, he was surprised to see the same black car that had driven Anna and the children back from Geisenberg the night before parked discreetly around the side of the barn. He paused as he reached the farmhouse door, unsure as to the identity of the visitor and was surprised on entering to find Berg himself sitting on the large, untidy sofa by the hearth pushing away first Karl, then Johann as they charged at him, throwing themselves with increasing abandon into his arms, being repelled each time, only to charge again, gleefully and with renewed vigour. Berg was laughing out loud and all the strict, rather pinched narrowness that Corden remembered from their encounter had been emptied from his face and replaced by a liveliness, a wildness even, that matched that of the boys. Anna stood to one side, smiling indulgently but poised, it seemed, to intervene if things got too boisterous for her guest. Corden's entrance supplied an excuse to bring the fun and games to an end, something, he reflected ruefully, that his presence often tended to do. "That's enough, boys!" Anna cried. "Let's get you upstairs. The grown-ups need to talk." Karl was pinning Berg down on the sofa and making comic efforts to hold the man captive but Berg quickly turned the lad and set him a moment on his knee, dandling him like a toddler before setting him up again with a light slap to his rump. "You need a haircut, young man!" he declared, jovially. "With hair like that, Gunther here will think you're a girl!" Karl jumped away from Berg, grinning but turned to his mother, rather petulantly. "No he won't!" he exclaimed, hotly. "He's seen my willy!" The lad turned to face Berg and looked at him earnestly, as if providing a serious explanation. Anna laughed out loud but Berg gave Corden a strange look as the boys were ushered upstairs out of the way of any truly serious business that was to be conducted. "You've been out all day!" declared Anna. "Let me get you something. Both of you. You need to talk, I know." She bustled out and returned shortly with a bottle of cherry brandy and two glasses and left them on the small table that sat to one side of the sofa. She retired again discreetly, withdrawing back to the kitchen so that the men could talk in private. Corden had sat down in one of the armchairs and was watching Berg carefully. He saw the man's features recover from the hilarity and excitement of the children's play and settle rather ponderously until they had achieved a kind of professional blankness. Corden could not guess at the man's mood or the purpose of his visit. He seemed to him to be utterly relaxed and self-controlled, his mouth a thin line of evident satisfaction with things. Berg reached out and poured them both a large measure of brandy. He raised his glass, almost mockingly, to make a toast. "To Scenes from Childhood!" he proposed. Corden merely grunted in response and they clicked glasses. "So what d'you want with me now. I take it this isn't just a social call," he muttered rather ungraciously. Berg smiled at Corden's getting straight to the point but still took a moment to answer, savouring his drink as if he had all the time in the world. Finally, with a smile, he pulled a small envelope from his pocket and slid it over to Corden who looked at it blankly. It was a set of stamps issued earlier in the year to commemorate the 10th anniversary of the Berlin Zoo. He glanced at Berg, an eyebrow raised in question. "Under the one in the middle - the giraffe -- there is a microdot containing photographs of certain documents I want you to have. They are a follow up to what Rudi was providing you with although I think you will find -- London will find - that they are beyond what Rudi could ever have got his hands on. Call it a gesture of goodwill. Good faith, I suppose. I do want you to be a success in your trip to London and this should grease the wheels nicely." Corden stared at the set of stamps. "What am I supposed to say? I mean, if they're that much higher grade than Rudi had access to?" "Tell them the truth! I brought them to you. As I say, it is to show my good intentions, that my purpose is serious." Berg took another swig from his glass. "I'm not in the habit of passing over documents," he added rather sarcastically. "So don't think this means you can expect more of the same! This is strictly a one-off. Just for you. Just to keep you in a good light with London, yes? I do want you to succeed, you see. I think this will help. If they don't like it they can go somewhere else!" Berg had leaned over and rapped on the table to emphasise his point. He then relaxed again and laughed, refilling both their glasses. "They are nice kids, no?" He jerked his head back in the direction of the kitchen, the stairs that led to the boys' bedroom. Corden looked at him, uncertain. He was still thinking of the stamp, the microdot. It occurred to him that Berg had already been drinking before he arrived. He took his drink and drained it and immediately re-filled his own glass. Berg laughed out loud. "They'll do very nicely for your Young Leaders programme, I'm sure. If that's what you mean." Berg seemed immune to the dismissiveness that lay not far behind Corden's off-hand remark and chose to take the observation at face value, as something to be put up for discussion. "Perhaps you are right," he said brightly. "Young Karl definitely. There is something about him that is always...ready. Ready to take on the world. Don't you find?" "I don't know him that well," objected Corden. Berg gave him a confidential sidelong look, smiling to himself. "Always ready to give himself fully. I mean completely. I find that very attractive. In a boy his age; very attractive, very encouraging." He seemed to want to engage Corden and elicit from him some kind of agreement or disagreement perhaps. Corden merely grunted and took another drink. Berg settled back and did the same. "Perhaps you think it is more the quality of a follower rather than a leader?" he mused, almost to himself. "I'm sure he would follow someone like you to the ends of the earth," he continued. "Loyal. That is a good quality, no?" Berg was almost rambling now. "It's hard to know what a boy like that wants. To lead? To follow? To be a hero? To be...," "He wants someone to treat him as an equal!" declared Corden grandly. "He may only be 12 but he knows what he wants alright!" Berg sat up, slightly taken aback by the forthrightness of this statement. It was the most definite thing that Corden had said all evening. "We are a democratic people. I am sure he will have his wish," opined Berg smoothly. Corden looked worried. He contemplated his brandy, clutching the glass tightly. "What are you thinking?" Berg asked, suddenly. Corden was slow to reply but when he did, he was quite definite and rather magnificent in his delivery. "I'm thinking of that bloody wall of yours," he growled. "I suppose everyone's equal so long as they agree to stay behind it!" There was a period of silence between the two men, after that. Neither drank, either. "You know," said Berg reflectively, "what my Young Leaders want more than anything? What they desire greater than - I don't know - winning at the Olympics for the DDR?" He looked hard at Corden, intensely as if about to reveal a genuine secret. "I don't know. What?" "A tape recording of your Beatles, that's what! 'Love me do', 'Rock and roll music'. Even your Rolling Stones now -- what is it ? 'I can't get no satisfaction?' Corden thought briefly about the lack of satisfaction in his own life. "I wouldn't know." he said shortly. "Anyway," he added. "I thought you were more the Schumann-type." "That's not the point!" insisted Berg hotly. "The point is...the point I'm trying to make is...I agree! It is no good building a damn wall. A wall will only keep things in. It can't keep things out. Things always get through. Always. Your Beatles got through it and now they're everywhere in all our heads. I tell you, Gunther. One day that wall will come down. And it will be the Beatles' fault. I mean, their legacy. Their achievement. Already our youth don't care about walls. They are already sizing up what's on the other side. And I intend to be there when the walls come down. Kicking them down myself if I have to and letting in the Rolling bloody Stones if that's what it takes...letting in freedom. Equality!" He stopped suddenly, as if exhausted. He knew he'd said too much. "You think I am crazy, I suppose?" Again he scrutinised Corden's face with a directness that was disconcerting. Corden was silent a moment. "Well, good luck to you is all I'll say. But you've got a bloody long, hard road ahead. You go tell that to Erich Honecker, see where it gets you!" Berg had gone quiet again and Corden realised that both of them were a little drunk but none the worse for that, he thought. It wasn't much later that Berg left, departing with a long, apparently meaningful, look which Corden understood to be an urging and a plea and a criticism all at once. The next morning, when he had packed everything away, secured the set of stamps with its precious microdot along with the photographs, Corden bade the Wagner family farewell. He embraced Anna and shook Rudi by the hand. Johann waved shyly from his mother's side but Karl stepped boldly forward and offered his own hand which Corden shook formally. As Karl stepped back from him, their fingertips still touching, the boy actually winked, then grinned and stayed grinning as he waved the car off.