Date: Wed, 09 May 2012 19:52:27 -0600
From: michaelpete@hushmail.com
Subject: Where There's a Will Chap IV

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Michael Peterson


      CHAPTER IV

      THE ODYSSEY


      In the middle of the moonlit night, William, probably aged just seven
or eight, wearing just a shirt, a pair of pants and shoes, began
walking. Having been off the grounds of the home only a few times in his
life and that in a bus with curtained over windows, he had no idea where he
was going. He did know the weekly provisions truck came from the direction
he was headed and therefore might find food that way. There was some
concern that he was also headed toward the school he had briefly attended
and might run into someone who would recognize him so he walked quickly in
hopes of getting by it before daylight.

       It was spring but a bit chilly. The cold seeped into his slim body
and made him shiver, shaking his confidence that somehow he'd find someone
to help him before his body gave out. After being taken care of his entire
life and, other than a few days in a school with people similar to those
back at the home, he knew nothing about the world outside the restricted
compound he'd grown up in. He'd never seen a non-white person.

      It soon became a struggle to keep his eyes opened. A few times he
nearly fell over asleep. Fear kept him going.

      As the sun came up, he became increasingly afraid he was going to be
spotted and returned to the harsh people he was escaping. Surely, by then
they knew he was gone and were looking for him. He ducked off into the
trees each time a car passed by then, when traffic volume grew, took refuge
in an abandoned outbuilding well off to one side of a farmhouse and hid
there, sleeping off and on, all day. As he sat and lay there, fear that he
was going to be caught or die from hunger caused him to cry. By nightfall,
his stomach was hurting. Nonetheless, he decided that putting distance
between himself and the home was more important than food so, with the sun
dropping off to his right, continued down the same road.

      A short time after dark, he came up on an intersection with a major
highway. A gas station was on the far side. Willing at that point to risk
being seen, he crossed over and scouted around the peripihery. The station
was open and a single small truck was gassing up. Figuring it might go
somewhere he could find some food, William walked quickly to it on the
opposite side from where the driver was paying the attendant, climbed
quietly into the back and pressed himself up against the rear of the
cab. Moments later, the owner drove it out onto the highway.

      William remembers that, despite the bone chilling cold, he harbored a
sense of hope that he was going somewhere the people from the home would
never be able to find him, a hope dampened by thirst and hunger then by an
urgent need to pee. Afraid to expose himself to the driver, he moved to one
side still tight against the back of the cab, unzipped and peed down the
pickup's corrugated bed.

      The man drove until the sun was coming up, right into a city,
something William had only seen in pictures. He claims it didn't frighten
him at all until he saw all the black people. He'd never seen a negro in
his life, not even in the books at the home, hadn't been sure they actually
existed. However, his fear was tempered by the way they acted, walking
about and interacting with one another the same as the white people he'd
grown up with.

      The truck pulled into a diner and the driver went inside to
eat. William was so cold, he had a hard time crawling to the back
gate. When he tried to climb down, his legs wouldn't stretch out and he
fell. It was a struggle to straighten his body out. When he finally
accomplished that, his stomach reacted with hunger pangs so strong he
cried. He rolled under the truck in frustration and despair. He was still
there when the man came out and cranked up the motor, barely escaping being
run over when the vehicle backed up.

      The moment he was clear of William, the driver saw him lying in front
on the concrete and stopped. He rushed out to see how the boy was.

      "You okay, kid?"

      "Ah'm hungry," answered William.

      The man picked him up and took him inside the diner. A couple of
patrons and the cook came to see what was wrong. Over the next hour or so,
William was fed hot soup then eggs, toast and juice. Everyone wanted to
know where he was from, where his family was. He remained mum, preferring
to say nothing than chance giving away where he'd actually been living.

      The police, another feature of society he was unaware of, were
called. William was terrified and refused to answer any of their
questions. He had no idea what to say that wouldn't have him back at the
home and under the cane of the hated preacher. After taking his picture,
the police took him to a welfare office and turned him over to social
workers who, by early afternoon, had him in a group home. He was the only
white boy there but, since he knew nothing of blacks and none of them
seemed threatening, he quickly lost his fear of them. Most were within a
few years of his age. A few asked him what his name was, where he was from,
why he was there and the like. He gave them the same silence he'd given
everyone else.

      William was fed and given a hot shower for which he was allowed to
enter naked, something no one had ever been allowed to do at the
home. Nudity in front of others had been strictly forbidden there as many
had painfully found out. Being around boys with the kind of dark skin and
curly black hair described by the preacher as a sign that they were
destined for hell worried him but, after thinking it over, decided that,
with his white skin, he wasn't in any danger. And, his experiences with
Isaac had put doubt in his mind concerning the man's pronouncements.

      Then there was the new experience of seeing so many others bare, the
different types of bodies with penises of different shapes and lengths. Of
course, the others were looking, sometimes surreptitiously, sometimes not,
at him with his white skin. In the end, what impressed William the most was
their complete lack of concern regarding their nudity in front of others.

      There were also new words to learn like `fuck', `motherfucker',
`shit', even `cock' and `ass', none of which he understood at first, some
of which he had to wait to learn the meaning.

      The women at the group home were good enough to allow him to sleep
through to noon the following day. Then, after lunch, they questioned him
again. He remained silent. One of the boys tried to befriend him and get
some answers but was equally unsuccessful. William had no idea what to
say. With no real knowledge of the world outside the home, he couldn't
invent a past that didn't include it, so said nothing.

      For two days, the pressure to tell them something was light. The
other boys simply ignored him. He did catch them calling each other
`nigger', a word he unfortunately figured was an acceptable term for black
people. Over time, local whites reinforced that thought by their constant
references to negroes as `niggahs'. William spent most of his time watching
television, another new experience. But he did listen to the other boys'
conversations during which he heard tales of abusive, often overly strict
foster and group homes and being robbed and beaten by bigger boys. He also
heard stories about survival on the streets containing information that
would soon be of considerable value.

      On his fourth day in the group home, he was taken to see another
woman, probably a psychologist. She asked him what name he'd like to be
called. My guess is that they had determined he could at least hear but
weren't so sure he could speak. William didn't answer. Apparently his few
words to the pickup driver had not been reported. Again, he was blank on
how to handle the situation.

      The psychologist tried a number of simple tests but he merely stared
at them, not even taking the proferred pencil or crayon. At that point the
psychologist likely thought he was of low intellect because the next day he
was taken to another home with a wide range of obviously retarded and
disturbed boys where he was locked in.

      On the afternoon of his first day there, one somewhat older boy, hit
him when he refused to speak to him. William was taken to an office near a
door to the outside. The moment he realized he had an escape route, he
darted across the hall and out.

      They chased him but he was physically well again, wearing new
sneakers, and managed to get away into the city.

      That night, his stomach empty, he slept in an alley. In the morning,
what was probably a bum found him, waking him up as he stole his new
shoes. That made what was to be an unhappy day, more miserable.

      After trying a few restaurant back doors, a trick he'd heard about
from boys at the home, but with no success, he attempted hitting up
customers on their way out only to be rebuffed. What made it worse was the
disdain on a few of their faces.

      Around mid afternoon, he ran into a group of black pre-teens who
found his bare feet to be fodder for some nasty remarks and harsh
jostling. William retired to an alley to cry.

      Then it rained for several hours.

	That night, wet and weakened by hunger, he woke up several times
shivering from the cool air.

	Temporary salvation arrived in the morning when he was walking out
of the alley he'd slept in and ran into an elderly black woman pushing a
grocery cart full of clothes and what not. Here's how William told it one
morning when we were still in bed.

      "This niggah lady, she wanted ta know wheah wuz mah mama an' wheah
did ah live. She kep' astin' but I din't say nothin' an' she wuz callin' me
`sugah' an' then she put me up insahd `er shoppin' caht an' says she's
gonna git me sumthin' ta eat an' she did. We wen' inta this alley an' she
give me half a hot dog an' sum `taytuh chips an' sum watuh.

      "She said she wuz Miss Alice an' ah said mah name wuz Jackie which it
weren't but it wuz the name a this one niggah boy lived in mah room at the
home an' wuz the onliest name ah could think of `cuz ah din't wanna say
mahn.

      "Well, she wuz the nahsest lady ah evah knowed, alus callin' me sugah
and sweet pah an' how mah ahz wuz so purty an' astin' wheah wuz mah
mama. Ah said she wuz gone but ah din't say ah run away from the cops o'
nothin' `bout that home wheah ah wuz.

      "Then she asted, `How ole wuz you when yo' mama wen' away?'

      "Ah tole `er ah din' know.

      "So she says, `So you growed up in sum home, din't ya?'

      "Ah din't say nothin' `cuz ah knowed she knowed.

      "Then she says, `You a runaway, ain' ya?'

      "Well, ah jus' sat theah.

      "So she asted, `Wah you run away, sugah? Sumbody hurt ya?'

      "Well, ah din' know whut ta say `cuz ah sho' din' want `er knowin' ah
run frum no cops. Then she put `er ahm `roun; me an' wuz huggin' me real
good. Now, ain' nobody nevah done that ta me befo' `cep' Beadie when we wuz
fuckin' but she wuz tawkin' so nahs, ah jus' let `er do it. Anyways, it
kahnda felt good. An' she's sayin' `Po' chile' an' lahk that an' she gonna
see whut it is she kin do fo' me.

      "She showed me this place up the alley b'hahn sum steps wheah ah
could piss an' shit but ah hadda shit on papuh o' sumthin' an' put it in
one a them big ole thangs fo' trash they had up theah.

      "When we wuz gonna sleep, she got some clothes outta `er basket an'
put `em on me lahk they wuz a blanket an' this big ole piece a plastic ovuh
us an' ah slep' besahd `er all wahm an' nahs.

      "In the mo'nin' she carried me ovah ta behin' this res'rant wheah
this nigguh man give `er food an' sum fo' me too.  It wuz eggs `n' bread
`n' stuff the people in the res'rant din' want but it wuz real good. She
said `e give `er food neah e'ry day.

      "Aftuh we et, she carried me ovah ta this pahk wheah we sat down on
the chayuhs they had theah an' wuz sayin' ah oughta have me a fam'ly an'
the welfayuh could find me a nahs fostuh home. But ah'd heered `bout them
fostuh homes frum them kids in the home wheah ah wuz an' they said they wuz
bad. Big kids beatin' on ya an' e'rybody mad all the tam an' yellin'. Ah
wuz sho' ah din't wanna live in no fostuh home but ah din't say nothin'
`cuz Miss Alice wuz so nahs.

      "She put me on this swing they had theah an' wuz pushin' me so ah
went real hah an' then we went dayon by this rivuh an' she tole me about
some man drownded in it the year befo' an' how she wished she had a boat so
she could go see wheah it went.

      "Then, she went ta this place wheah they had clothes an' food fo'
people whut lived on the street an' we et theah an' she got me some pants
an' a shirt an' shoes `cuz mahn wuz kahnda dirty an' wuz smellin' badder'n
the trash out behin' that res'rant an' ah din' haf no shoes.

      "Then we went back ta the alley wheah she stayed an' she got a bucket
a watuh an' got me behin' `er basket an' made me take off all a mah clothes
so ah wuz nekkid, raht theah in the alley, nekkid. But ah done lahk she
tole me an' she washed me dayon real good, even mah dick an' mah ass. Ah
din't say nothin' but ah sho' wuz lookin' ta see if'n sumbody wuz cummin'
inta the alley. But nobody cum an' real quick she had me all washed an'
inta mah new clothes.

      "An' she wuz sayin' how nahs ah looked an' how good ah smelled an'
all an' then she wuz huggin' me agin an' sayin' she gonna take real good
cayuh a me. Well, ah wuz almos' cryin' `cuz weren't nobody nevah nahs lahk
that wif me befo', nobody. Ah knowed nobody nevuh hugged me befo' an' sho
as shit nevah tawked ta me lahk she did. So ah hugged `er raht back.

      "We et dinnuh in this big place sum church had `roun' theah but we
hadda pray a lot an' listen ta this man tawk about Jesus an' stuff out the
bahbul but he din't say nothin' `bout no seeds. Miss Alice wuz sayin' ah
needed ta listen good ta whut the man wuz sayin' `cuz Jesus wuz lookin'
aftah me an' it wuz him whut sent me ta her so she could take cayuh a me.

      "Well, Jesus nevuh done nothin' nahs ta me befo' so ah wuz thankin'
how cum he din't make me be wif Miss Alice befo' but weren't too bad'cuz
raht then ah wuz wif `er an e'rytahng wuz okay.

      "Ah stayed wif `er fo' a couple weeks, eatin' real good an' sleepin'
wahm an' gittin' a baf e'ry couple days. We went all ovah wheah she knowed
lots a people whut give `er thangs. An' e'ry day she wuz huggin' me an'
sayin' how she loved me an' ah really, ah mean really lahk'd livin' wif `er
but she kept tawkin' mo' an' mo' `bout how ah needed ta be livin' in a
house an' goin' ta school. She wuz sayin' one day she wuz gonna hafta carry
me to the welfayuh `cuz she cun't put me in no school an' how the welfayuh
wuz gonna git me a real good fostuh fam'ly. She even crah'd a couple tahms
`bout how she wuz gonna miss me an' ah cried too `cuz ah wan'ed ta stay wif
`er an' ah tole `er ah wan'ed ta stay wif `er but she said it weren't raht
fo' her ta keep me an' ah cun't go ta school `cuz all kids needed ta go ta
school.

      "So ah said if'n Jesus wuz the one put me wif `er lahk she said,
mebbe she wuz s'posed ta keep me but she din' listen ta that an' wuz
tellin' me she jes' went ta fo'th grade `cuz she hadda watch `er baby
brothuh an' sistuh when `er mama wuz workin' `cuz she din't have no daddy
an' her mama hadda work so they could eat an' pay the rent. She said if'n
ah went ta school an' college, ah could cum back an' hep `er go live in a
house an' not in no alley no mo'.

      "Then one day, she washed me good an' put me in new clothes she got
frum that place wif clothes an' she takes me ta this big place got offices
lahk back at the home. She tole this othah niggah lady ah needed a fostuh
home an' the lady takes me inta this room an' she's astin' me all kinds a
thangs lahk wheah wuz ah livin' befo' ah wuz wif Miss Alice an' ah knowed
she wuz gonna fin' out wheah ah wuz livin' an' the cops wuz lookin' fo'
me. Ah knowed they had mah pitchuh`cuz they took it a couple tahms at the
home an' the cops too so when the lady goes ta tawk ta Miss Alice, ah went
out real quick an' run away agin'.

      "Well, all that day, `special at naht, ah wanted ta go back ta the
alley an' be wif Miss Alice but ah figguh'd they wuz gonna be watchin'
theah so ah din't. All ah wuz thankin' `bout that naht wuz bein' wif Miss
Alice an' her sayin' how she loved me an' wuz alus huggin' me. Ah cried
agin, a lot, but whut could ah do. Even ah went back ta her they wuz gonna
take me away frum `er an' put me in some bad place so ah weren't gonna be
wif `er noways. It wuz turrbul, ah mean real turrbul.

      "Ah thunk `bout that man drownded in the rivuh an' mebbe that wuz
whut ah should do, go jump in theah. Ah din't know nothin' `bout swimmin'
so ah wuz gonna drown jes' lahk him an' weren't gonna be no mo' trouble fo'
me."

      William lay back on the bed staring at the ceiling, a frown on his
face. I pulled him up to me and gave him a gentle hug.

      He didn't move for certainly fifteen minutes or more. I waited to see
what he was going to say next. His eyes were open so he hadn't fallen
asleep. That mind of his was mulling over something. It took a lot of self
control not to ask.

      Eventually, though, he turned over and looked at me. "You gone let me
stay wif y'all, raht?"

      I took him into my arms and cradled him like a baby, probably like
Miss Alice had done. I'd had the chance to think over our situation and
realized how difficult it was going to be. The biggest problem would be his
education. Any attempt to put him in any kind of U.S. school would most
certainly be disastrous for both of us. I had no papers on the boy and
obviously was no relation. There could be no explanation for his presence
in my home that wouldn't spark an immediate investigation.

      I kissed his hair and said, "I'll do everything I can but it's going
to be very difficult." I explained best I could all the impediments we
faced, including that the police were looking for him and may have had a
moderately good description, probably from Mac's neighbors if not the other
the men being blackmailed.

      I was tempted at that point to ask him how many victims there had
been but decided it was irrelevant and possibly a source of shame or
trepidation.

      I did ask him one question that had been on my mind: how he'd known
the day he'd been killed that Mac was dead.

      "It wuz that day when ah hadda go ta the Wahlmaht so y'all could see
me an' then Mac wuz s'posed ta git sum money frum Mr. Paul an' give me sum
theah at `is house so ah wen' theah aftuh y'all seen me an' wen' in the
back doh' lahk ah alus did when ah hadda go theah an' wuz waitin' in `is
room `cuz his mama din' lahk me bein' theah when Mac weren't but she cun't
heah all that good so ah could jes' go on up the steahs quaht lahk and'go
inta `is room.

      "Well, couple owahs latuh, ah'm settin' theah an' watchin' `is TV an'
then the news cum on `bout Mr. Paul an' he wuz dead but he kilt this othah
man an' ah knowed it wuz Mac got kilt `cuz Mr. Paul, `e wuz real, ah mean
real pissed at us, `special Mac. So, ah knowed wheah he had the money in
this bag in `is closet an' he ain' gonna need it no mo' an' ah got it an'
mah clothes ah had theah an' ah git an' ah cum heah wawkin' mos'ly an' this
one bus."

      "Why did you think I would help you? Why not one of the others?" That
question, I hoped, would give me some idea of how many victims there had
been and possibly how they'd reacted.

      It took William a bit of contemplation to answer, probably seeking a
more diplomatic answer. After all, for whatever reason, I might have been
the only one available or who hadn't been incensed by the extortion. But
his answer was simple and non-informative. "'Cuz you wuz the nahsest."

      Oh, how I wanted to draw out an amplification of that but wasn't able
to find phrasing that didn't involve an indirect accusation of wrongdoing
so I dropped it for then.

      Back to his story. After leaving Miss Alice, he managed to beg some
food from a number of sources like the mother of a boy he met on a
playground who wanted to take him to the welfare office, a waitress in a
restaurant who wanted to do the same, some kids coming home from school a
few of whom then jeered him as street trash, and a fair number of other
homeless.

      Though, over the following days, he was getting some food, it was
hardly enough. He was weakening both from a lack of nutrition, sleeping in
places with no protection from the rain as well as skin sores from not
bathing and sleeping in alleys and behind an abandoned house. He found no
one interested in helping him nor anyone with whom he could talk. He was
becoming increasingly depressed.

      "Well, it wuz mo`n a week, mebbe two lahk that an' ah din't eat all
that much an' ah wuz gittin' real, ah mean, real hungry an' ah wuz alus
sick an' coughin'. Ah tried ta sleep a lot so ah weren' gonna feel mah
belly hurtin' but ah itched bad an' wuz coughin' then they wuz `fections on
mah ass and leg an' they hurt an' ah cun't sleep all that much. Then, ah et
some meat behin' this res'rant an' ah got sick and wuz throwin' up all ovah
an' ah thought mebbe ah wuz gonna dah. Ah knowed that Beadie an' the othuhs
back at the home weren't hungry an' I wuz thankin' `bout them an' food but
then ah `membuhed how bad it wuz, how they wuz alus tellin' me whut ah
hadda do an' gittin' mad at me fo' e'ry li'l thang an' beatin' on me an'
sayin' ah wuz goin' ta burn in hell `cuz a whut me an' Beadie wuz
doin'. Shit, whut Beadie `n' me wuz doin' weren't none a they's damn
business. An' they wuz alus tellin' lahs lak whut the rev'rund wuz sayin'
`bout toys bein' devil stuff an' his kid had a bunch an' sayin' ah wuz six
so ah din't have ta go ta school an' learn stuff an' ah wuz really seven
an' now they wuz gonna put me in this bad place so, well, ah figguhed mebbe
it wuz gonna be bes' fo' me ta jes' go on an' dah.

      "So, ah lay dayon in a alley ta dah. Ah prayed ta Jesus that ah could
go ta heaven an' that he weren't gonna go gittin' all that pissed bout no
sex ah wuz doin' at the home `cuz that wuz all ah wuz doin' whut mighta
been bad. I knowed it wuz in the bahbul but ah din't steal nothin' o go
sayin' nothin' bad `bout nobody. Aftuh wahl, ah weren' hurtin so bad but ah
cun' git up an' ah felt all quiet an' all so ah figguhed ah wuz gonna dah
that naht but it wuz okay `cuz theah weren' nothin' good fo' me noways.

      "Aftuh wahl, ah think, ah wuz sleepin' when this boy, well, he wuz
big, lahk mebbe almos' a man, well, it's lahk `e wuz a dream `cuz he
sounded lahk he wuz real fah away but he wuz touchin' me so ah knowed he
wuz theah."

      "He wuz sayin', `Hey boy, hey boy. Whutcha doin' heah?'

      "Ah din't say nothin' fo a wahl `cuz, lahk ah said, I wuz thankin' he
wuz sum kahnda dream o mebbe ah wuz dead an' he wuz a angel o' sumthin' but
he kept on tawkin' ta me so ah opened mah eyes an' theah he wuz.

      "Then he wuz astin' me wheah ah lived. Ah looked hahd as ah could an'
he weren't no dream an' he weren't no angel least he din' have no wings o'
nothin', jes' the long hayah, so ah said, `Nowheah' `cuz that wuz the truf.

      "So he wuz astin' wah ah wuz theah but ah jes' moved mah shoulduhs
lahk ah din't know `cuz ah wuz worryin' he wuz gonna take me to the
welfayuh an' weren't nothin' ah could do ta stop `im'cuz ah cun't even
stan' up.

      "He jes' looked at me fo' a wahl then asted if'n ah wuz hungry. Ah
shook mah hayed no `cuz ah din't wanna go nowhere wif `im. Ah jes' wanted
ta go back ta dreamin' an' dah peaceful lahk ah wuz doin' an' he shook `is
hayed an' wen' away.

      "Ah closed mah eyes an' tried ta thank if'n theah wuz sumthin' else
ah needed ta say ta Jesus but they weren't so ah tried to thank wah ah
din't have no mama an' that mebbe ah wuz gonna meet `er in heaven lahk they
wuz alus sayin' ah wuz gonna do an' ah wuz gonna ast `er wah she din't take
cayah a me lahk she shoulda but she mighta dah'd when ah wuz a baby an'
then it weren't `er fault. I hoped that wuz whut it wuz, that she dah'd so
she wuz gonna love me an' hug me lahk Miss Alice done. That wuz whut ah wuz
thankin' `bout, getting' hugged by mah mama when sumbody stahted on
touchin' me agin.

      "It made me pissed 'cuz ah nevuh got hugged by nobody befo' `ceptin'
Miss Alice an' it wuz real good.

      "But then ah knowed sumbody wuz settin' besahd me an' it wuz that boy
agin'.an' he wuz sayin' he had sum crackuhs an' sum milk an' he wan'ed me
ta git up an' eat `em.

      "So ah opened mah eyes an' theah wuz them crackuhs in his han' raht
by mah mouf. Ah knowed if'n ah wuz gonna eat them crackuhs mebbe ah weren't
gonna dah an' ah really wanted ta dah so mah mama wuz gonna hug me an'
nobody wuz gonna go messin' on me no mo'. Then this boy he put his ahm
unnuh me an' made me set up `cuz theah weren't nothin' ah could do ta stop
`im. He wuz tawkin' ta me `bout bein' sick o' sumthin' an' I wuz thankin'
how good that crackuh wuz gonna be in mah mouf.

      "The boy put the milk up to my mouf an' wuz sayin', "Drink sum a
this.'.

      "Ah wan'ed ta crah `cuz ah wuz sho' he wuz gonna take me to the
welfayuh an' ah cun't do nothin' `bout it but ah drunk sum anyways. Ah
`membuh hit wuz kahnda col' an' ah shook a li'l an' when it got to mah
stomach it hurt sum but ah drunk sum mo' anyways. Then he put a piece a
crackuh in mah mouf an' that really wuz good `cuz' ah ain' had nothin' good
in theah mebbe three o' fo' days, jes' that bad shit made me sick.

      "So, ah et all his crackuhs, ah think they wuz fo' an' drunk `is milk
but ah still cun't do nothin'. When he asted if'n ah could wawk ah said no
so he wawked to the street an' cum back.

      "He said, `When ah sit dayon, you git on mah back an' ah'll carry
y'all ta mah house. Ah got mo' food theah.'

      "Ah started ta crah'cuz ah wuz sho' he wuz gonna carry me to the
welfayuh.

      "He said I should stop crahin' `cuz he weren't gonna do nothin' but
carry me to `is house an' he had mo' food theah an' he weren't gonna hurt
me none.

      "Ah tried ta tell `im ah din't wana go to the welfayuh but ah cun't
say all the words but ah thank he wuz unnerstandin' `cuz he said he weren't
gonna carry me to no welfayuh so ah got on `is back an' we lef'.

      "Ah wuz skeered all the way ta `is house that we wuz goin'ta the
welfayuh but ah wuz thanking a little `bout it wuz gonna be nahs to see
Beadie agin. But, he went inta this alley an' hadda take off these boahds
on a winduh an' he put me insahd on the flo' an' cum in an' put the boahds
back ovah the winduh. It wuz all dahk in theah, then he put on a couple
candles an' ah could see purty good.

      "The boy wuz kahnda skinny an' hadda long face ah cun't see all that
good an' long kahnda dark hair wen' almos' dayon ta his back. They wuz a
mattress wif a couple blankets on the flo' and a chayuh an' some boxes wif
clothes `r sumthin' looked lahk clothes an' this big ol' piece a flat aron
`er sumthin' he had settin' on concrete blocks an' burnt wood an' lahk that
on top. An' he had a fryin' pan an' a couple pots an' othuh stuff in a box
neah that piece a aron.

      "He put me on this mattress an' made a fahr on top the aron and
cooked sum soup fo' me tha' wuz real good. Then he put a blanket on me an'
I wen' ta sleep.

       "When ah waked agin, there weren't no candles `cuz light wuz comin'
in frum the tops a winduhs. The boy wuz makin' the fahr agin an' we et
frahd eggs but wen' he got close ta me ah smelled sumthin'. Ah weren' sho'
whut it wuz raht then but it wuz smellin' lahk paint thinnuh they used when
they wuz paintin' the house back at the home. I din't know `bout huffin'
then.

      "He had sum brayed too. Ah think it wuz frum sum res'rant o' sumthin
`cuz it wuz kahnda drah an' wuz in pieces. Anyways, it tasted real good an'
he made sum Kool Aid.

      "Wahl we wuz eatin', he asted mah name. Ah tole him Jackie'cuz ah
din't wan' nobody knowin' who ah wuz. He said e'rybody called `im Bossy
`cuz that's whut his mama alus wuz callin' `im.

      "He trahed ta git me ta tell `im wheah ah wuz livin' befo' but ah jus
said a bad place o' sumthin' lahk that.

      "Cuz ah still cun't wawk good, he wen' off ta do sum stuff an' git us
mo' food. Purty quick ah got a li'l skeered bein' theah alone lahk that
`cuz they wuz people outsahd even sum cum in the alley an' stayed theah an'
wuz tawkin'. Ah tried ta listen but they wuz tawkin' real quaht so nobody
could heah `em. Ah wuz skeered they knowed how ta cum in wheah ah wuz but
they din't. Anyways, ah wen' an' stayed on the mattress an' wuz sleepin'
sum'cuz ah cun't do nothin' else.

      "When Bossy cum back, ah wuz sleepin' 'cuz when ah got awake he wuz
theah sittin' agin the wall beatin' off an' his dick wuz real big, bigges'
ah evuh seed an' hit hadda lot a haeh all `roun' it. Then he gits all
straight an' this waht stuff cums out his dick an' up in the aeah an' dayon
on the flo. Well, ah ain' nevuh seed nothin' lahk that an' ah wuz tahnkin'
theah wuz sumthin' bad wif `is piss sumthin' lahk Ahzack's but a lot mo'
an' it wuz waht an' mebbe it wuz sumthin' wuz gonna happen wif me frum
stayin' wif `im but ah knowed mahn wuz still yalluh lahk it alus been so ah
jes' made lahk ah wuz still sleepin' `til he wuz all done an' put his pants
back up an' cleaned up the flo' wif sum newspapuh.

      "Well, he had a bunch a food fo' me in this plastic bag, even mashed
`tatuhs he got frum some Holiness Church an' he stole some mo' fo' me.

      "I said, `You stole frum a church?' an' `e said, `Shit! Ain' no
bigguh thieves in the world `n them churches. They jes' give us shit ta
make `em look good.'

      "Ah'm thankin' the lawd ain' gonna `low `im ta go on doin' that an'
ah'm gonna be alone all ovuh agin but then ah'm thankin sum mo' an' ah
asted `im if'n he done it befo', ya know, stole outa a church, an' he said
lots a tams. So ah'm thankin' mebbe they ain' true churches lahk the one at
the home so that gawd ain' gonna be all that pissed `cuz ah knowed if'n he
wuz gonna steal sumthin' frum the church at the home the rev'rend wuz gonna
git `im fo sho' an' smite him sumthin' terrbul.

      "Well, he knowed these othuh places too wheah they give people food
an' sumtahms clothes an' you could sleep theah if'n you wanted but not me
an' Bossy `cuz we had `is place leas' until they wuz gonna knock it dayon
`cuz they wuz supposed to but Bossy said they been saying they wuz gonna
knock it dayon fo' a long tahm, a couple yeahs an' they nevuh done hit so
mebbe they weren't really gonna do it but we had it `til they did. They wuz
even watuh in this bafroom they had on t'othuh sahd the house an' it hadda
toh'let so ah weren't gonna hafta go shittin' in the street no mo' an' it
hadda baftub so dirty it wuz brown `stead a waht but we could take a baf so
`e took me in theah an' ah hadda take off all mah clothes `cuz they wuz
real dirty an' so wuz ah an' ah had them sores on mah ass an' mah leg. The
watuh wuz cole, ah mean real cole, so cole when ah tried ta set dayon in
it, ah got raht back up real quick.

      "But Bossy said, `Don' go bein' no baby' `cuz `e wuz in theah e'ry
couple days even it wuz wintuh. `Hit ain't all that bad', he wuz telling
me, so ah did but ah still din't lahk it none. He give me a couple li'l
bahs a soap an' says ta wash mahself but he washed mah back'cuz it wuz hahd
theah. Then, when he saw them sores, he washed them too but kahnda sof'
lahk. Ah wuz real dirty `cuz the soap cum off all brown lahk the baftub but
in a li'l wahl the cole watuh weren't so bad but ah nevuh did set in it,
jus' used this pot Bossy had to put the watuh ovuh mah head. Bossy hadda
hep me git outta that baftub `cuz ah almos' fell out when ah trah'd. Then,
he wuz lookin' at mah feet an' legs an' said ah hadda git back in `cuz ah
wuz still dirty an' `e washed `em good.

      "Ah hadda stay nekkid all that day `cuz mah clothes wuz up on the
roof gittin' drah. But ah had `is blanket `roun' me but it wuz hot an' they
weren' nobody but us an' Bossy weren't lookin' at me all that much `cept
when he said ah had a li'l dick an' he laughed.

      "Well, Bossy wen' out agin an' give me matches ta laht up the candles
when it got dahk.

      "When he wuz gone fo' a wahl, ah tried to beat off but ah cun't keep
doin' it long `nough ta git my feelin' `cuz ah got tarred real quick. So,
ah wen' on back an' set on the flo' by the baftub `an put watuh an' soap on
mah dick an' then ah did git mah feelin' an' it wuz good. So ah wen' on
back an' wen' ta sleep sum mo'.

      "Bossy din't get back fo' a long tahm but he brung me mo'
food. Trouble wuz he wuz hah an' smellin' lahk thinnuh he musta been
huffin'. An', he wuz tawkin' ta hisself `bout sumthin' ah din't
unnuhstan'. Ah went back ta the mattress an' lay dayon but `e cum an' lay
dayon an' wuz tawkin' sumthin' ta me lahk ah wuz a good boy an' `e wuz
gonna take cayah a me an' lahk that. He really, ah mean really, smelled
real bad a that thinnuh but then real quick `e wuz sleepin' so ah sleeped
too.

      "Next day, ah could walk sum so in the aftuhnoon `e said ah should
cum wif him ta this place wheah they had good food. Ah asted if'n they had
welfayuh people theah but he said no jes' some kahnda Chrischins frum this
rich people's church an' they got this place wif lots a good food but we
hadda wawk sum ta git theah. Then we hadda wait in lahn fo' mo'n a owah but
they had these tables in this big ole room they had theah an' they wuz lots
a people an' they wuz kids too, not a lot, but mos'ly wif they
mothuhs. Bossy told the lady wuz takin' names that ah wuz `is cousin an'
mah mama din't wanna cum so he brung me an' she said okay but ah knowed she
could smell that thinnuh `cuz a the way she wuz lookin' at Bossy. But she
din't say nothin'.

      "They had chicken an' soup an' 'taters an' all kahnds a food. We all
hadda say grace lahk back at the home an' this man wuz preachin' but then
we could eat. Aftuh we et, Bossy asted the lady if'n they had clothes for
li'l boys but she said no.

      "Ah slep' real good that naht.

      "In the mo'nin', ah wuz feelin' good. We din't have nothin' ta eat so
ah went out wif Bossy an' we went ta this pahk an' Bossy knowed this othuh
boy theah, a short boy mebbe twenny. He looked kahnda mean so ah done lahk
Bossy said an' set on this bench. They went an' tawked off wheah ah cun't
heah `em. Couple tahms they wuz lookin' at me then Bossy says ah'm s'posed
ta wait theah in the pahk `til he cum back in a `owah.

      "He tole `me ah wuz gonna hafta hahd'cuz the welfayuh maht see me an'
say wah ah weren' in school `cuz it wuz the mo'nin' so ah says okay an' ah
wen' on up in sum bushes an' lay dayon.

      "When he cum back, Bossy hadda wake me up `cuz ah wuz sleepin' but he
said he had sum money an' we could bah sum food. Then, when we wuz wawkin'
he says, `Ah got a idée. When we go inta the sto', you go an' find sumthin'
you kin knock ovuh. Then, when e'rybody's lookin' at you, ah'll go an git
us a bunch a stuff an' leave an' you jus' say you sorry an' please don'
tell yo mama `cuz she's gonna whup you an' lahk that.' He tole me a couple
mo' tahms whut ah hadda do an' say `til ah wuz unnuhstan'in' real good. Ah
knowed he wuz gonna steal stuff but ah din' say nothin'.

      "In the sto', ah seen this place wheah they had a bunch a cans lahk
Coca Cola so ah acted lahk ah fell dayon an' knocked `em all ovuh. The
people cum runnin' an' ah kep' sayin' ah wuz sorry an' actin' lahk ah wuz
gonna crah an' they said it wuz okay an' wheah wuz mah mama. So, ah tole
`em she wuz dayon the street an' she was gonna be pissed if'n ah din't go
be wif `er real fas' so they said git an' ah did.

      "Bossy wuz waitin' at the cohnuh wif `tater chips an' apples an' ah
don' `membuh whut else an' we wen' ta the pahk an' et an' drunk watuh frum
a fountain they had theah. He tole me ah wuz real good knockin' that stuff
ovah an' tawkin' an' we could do that in sum othuh sto's an' mebbe he could
even git sum money if'n the man wen' away frum the cash rechisteh.

      "We et dinnuh at the Holiness Church but we hadda listen ta this
preachuh tawked a long tahm an' sang an' say `amen' an `Jesus' an' stuff
an' they wuz these crazy people wuz crahin' an' tawkin' stupid an' a lot a
them people wuz lahkin' that but ah jes' wuz thankin' it wuz stupid but
then we could eat. All that stupid stuff made me real hungry so ah et a
lot. They had apple pahs too but jus' give li'l pieces. Bossy stole a bunch
a food agin' so we had sum fo' the mo'nin.

      "But when we got back ta the house, he went on out agin leavin' me
alone an' cum back all hah on his damn thinnuh, jus' lahk the naht befo'.

      "Next day ah asted `im wah he done that an' `e said ah could have sum
too but not too much `cuz ah wuz li'l but ah said no an' asted `im agin wah
`e done it an' `e said `cuz it felt real good an' `e could dream `bout
thangs. So ah asted lahk whut an' `e said lahk livin' in sum big ole house
wif lots a food an' a cah an' fuckin' girls lahk sum girl he seed in the
pahk an' lahk that.

      "It weren't `til the nex' week that Bossy went ta see his frien' in
the pahk agin. We wuz eatin' good an' even ah wuz learnin' how ta make
eggs, lahk frahd an' ah wuz feelin' good agin, runnin' lahk when ah wuz at
the home which Bossy weren' astin' `bout no mo'. Well, him an' his frien'
did the same as befo', goin' away frum me ta tawk secrets but this tahm
they cum back ta me an' Bossy says Jimbo, that wuz his frien's name, Jimbo
knowed this sto' got a bad alahm an' ah din' know whut that wuz so `e tole
me. Well, he wuz sayin' at naht weren't nobody in that stoh' but the only
way ta git in wuz this thang let ayah in an' they wuz gonna git it open an'
ah wuz li'l so ah could go insahd in it an' open the do' an' mebbe they had
money insahd `cuz they only went ta the bank couple tahms a week so
sumtahms the money wuz still in theah.

      "Ah wuz stealin' neah e'ry day in stoh's an' at the Holiness Church
so ah said okay.

      "This Jimbo wuz shoht an' wuz wearin' one a them shirts ain' got no
sleeves so e'rybody could see `is muscles that `e had. Ah s'pose he hadda
do sumthin' ta scare off the othuhs being li'l lahk he wuz, a lot shortuh
`n Bossy who weren't all that tall. An' he wuz ugly. He had one a them
faces that's got all the pahts lahk they wuz pushed inta the middle wif a
li'l nose kahnda `roun' an' a mouf an' eyes so close ta his nose they wuz
almos' touchin' each'n other.

      "Well, whut it wuz ah hadda clahm inta wuz a ayah duc' an' it wuz
really, ah mean really little. They had a terrbul tahm gettin' off the paht
whut wuz ovuh that duc' inside the bricks. Jimbo wuz cussin' outta that
li'l mouf a his, sayin' motherfuckuh an' all that. Bossy an' Jimbo wuz
takin' turns hittin' this big ole screwdrivuh with this boahd they got
outta the alley. It took `em a long tahm but then they got that aron thang
outen the wall.

      "Then, when ah'm gittin' insahd ah seed they wuz a fan at t'othuh
end. But they got up on sum trash cans they turned ovah an' pushed me in
anyways an' dayon ta that fan.

      "Ah wuz getting real, ah mean real, dirty in theah an' that dirt wuz
gittin' in mah mouf an' nose.. But ah pushed on that fan an' hit it but hit
din't wanna move so Jimbo says ah should go in t'othuh way an' kick
it. Well, that din't work neithyh `cuz ah cun't bend mah leg none so's ta
give it a good kick. So whut they done wuz push on me real hahd, the bof
of'm. Ah hadda stay real straight `cuz if'n ah bended my knees jes' a li'l
ah got stuck an' it scrapin' mah knees an' they wuz jus' breakin' mah
shoulduhs. So, ah got real straight an' they pushed an' they pushed an' ah
felt a paht a that fan cum loose. So, ah said ta wait a minute `cuz ah wuz
hurtin' some frum them pushin'. Ah tried kickin' but it din't do no
good. Ah hadda let `em go on pushin' me agin but it worked. The fan cum off
an' made a loud bang when it hit the flo'. Ah wuz skeered sumbody wuz gonna
heah that so ah tried ta look but ah cun't see nothin' `special wif half a
me on the ooutsahd.

      "Ah wanted ta git outta theah but Bossy an' Jimbo wuz pushin' an'
sayin' ah should go in an' open the doh'. When ah wuz almos' out, ah cun't
feel nothin' unnuh mah feet an' ah wuz skeered how fah it wuz gonna be
dayon ta the flo'. Then, the metal of that ayah duc' wuz cuttin' me on my
chest so ah pushed mahself out an' fell dayon an' hurt mah back an' mah ass
on sum boxes they had theah. But, ah got up an' hadda go ta `nothuh room ta
fahnd the doh' but it wuz all dahk so wuz jes' feelin' on the walls but
then ah found the doh but it hadda a big ole lock so ah cun't open it.

      "So, ah went back ta that aeah duc' an' got a chair wif a box on it
an' stood way up an' tole `em `bout the doh'. Jimbo tole me to go look fo'
the money. Well, ah did. They wuz laht in the frunt room `cuz a the big
winduh jes' had lahk big ole screens ovuh `em. Wif mah back an' mah ass
hurtin', ah looked wheah they wuz sellin' clothes `n' stuff. The cash
rechisteh wuz awl open an' din' have nothin' insahd. Ah looked in the
drawuhs an' unnuh e'rythang an' then ah seed this big old safe they had
theah. Stupid Jimbo din't know they had a safe. Well, they wuz no way ah
could open that thang so ah looked fo' othah stuff ta steal an' then ah wuz
thankin' they got clothes so fust ah got clothes that wuz good fo' me then
a bunch a othuhs an' put `em in the plastic bags they had theah an' pushed
`em in the aeah duc'. An' ah got a calclator an' a flashlaht an' then wif
the flashlaht ah seen them keys bah the wall. Well, one a them worked that
lock on the back doh' so ah let Bossy an' Jimbo insahd.

      "Jimbo wuz real mad `cuz a the safe but we got us a whole bunch a
clothes an' this li'l television they had theah an' we wen' off carryin'
all that shit. Bossy wuz skeered cops wuz gonna see us carryin' all that
stuff so we wen' in alleys an' when we wuz on the street, we jes' took a
li'l an' went back fo' the rest but then it wuz rainin' an' we run wif all
it the res' a the way ta Bossy's house.

      "Wif all that rain, Jimbo stayed wif us that naht. He wuz all pissed
off he din't have nothin' ta sniff an' he wuz all wet. Jimbo wen' an' put
on sum a the clothes we stole `cuz his'ns wuz all wet an' `e din't wanna
sleep nekkid lahk ah wuz doin'. Then he slep' raht up agin me an' in the
naht wuz puttin' his hand wheah mah dick wuz an' feelin' it. When ah made
`im stop he jus' rolled ovah an' made lahk he wuz sleepin'.

      "In the mo'nin', him an' Bossy wen' out ta sell the clothes they
din't wan' fo' theyselves. Ah kept all the boys' clothes wuz mah sahz. They
wan'ed me ta go an' he'p `em sell the stuff but ah said no `cuz wah wuz a
li'l kid lahk me sellin' clothes an' ah wuz s'posed ta be in school in the
mo'nin'. So ah stayed in the house an' washed mahself in the baftub then
kahnda washed mah dirty clothes.

      "Onliest bad thang wuz ah din't steal no unnuhpants so ah hadda weah
my new pants wif nothin' unnuh.

      "Bossy an' Jimbo cum back in the aftuhnoon wif sum food an' sum
money. They only give me fahv dollahs but ah knowed they shoulda give me
mo' but Jimbo look'd mean so ah din' say nothin'.

      "They had this bottle a thinnuh wif' `em an' put sum a it on rags
they put inside li'l plastic bags' an' they bof stahted in huffin'.

      "Jimbo wanted ta know wheah ah cum frum but ah din't tell him an'
Bossy said ta leave me alone so he did. Jimbo said if'n ah could clahm good
they wuz houses we could git inta that alus had stuff good to steal. But
then they wuz tawkin' stupid shit an' laughin' an' Jimbo wuz cryin' `bout
sumthin'. Ah wuz gittin' a li'l high just settin' neah `em so ah went up
onta the roof an' watched the sun goin' dayon. When ah cum back dayon, they
wuz gone so ah cooked me sum soup outta this li'l bag had soup lahk powduh
`cuz Bossy wuz learnin' me how ta cook an' ah et sum a it an' sum othuh
food an' looked at this comic book Bossy had.

      "Ah don' know when Bossy cum back `cuz `e wuz theah when ah got awake
an' he smelled real bad lahk thinnuh an' ah wuz skeered if'n ah stayed
sleepin' aside `im lahk that ah wuz gonna git hah too so ah took the
blanket an' went back up on the roof an' done mah sleepin' up theah.

 	"Ah don' `membuh how long it wuz befo' Bossy stahted astin' me agin
`bout wheah ah wuz livin' befo' ah cum ta live wif him, mebbe fo', five
weeks, but one naht aftuh we cum back frum this soup kitchen wheah they wuz
givin' food fo' street people, tha's whut they called us, street people,
well, he done it agin.

      "He wuz layin' on the mattress an' ah wuz lookin' at this comic book
we stole an' he says, `Tell me the truf, now, wheah wuz you befo' ah found
y'all in that alley.' An' he says he ain't gonna say nothin' ta nobody an'
anyways we done stole so much shit togethuh neithuh one a us cain't say
nothin' `bout the othah wifout both a us gittin' ouwah asses locked up.

      "So, ah tole `im an' he says he wuz in a couple homes befo' an'
fostuh ones too an' he run away e'ry tahm an' they nevuh could make `im
stay an' then `e asted how ole ah really wuz an' ah said `bout seven o'
eight but the people at the home said ah wuz six so's they din't have to
send me off to this school lahk the othuhs..

      "Then he wanted ta know wah they din't wanna make me go ta school an'
ah tole him `bout me an' Beadie beatin' off lahk he wuz doin' all the tahm
but then they caught us.

      "Well, he said he knowed ah wuz watchin' `im but ah said it weren't
none a my business.

      "Bossy tole me `e wuz doin'it when he wuz jes' fo' yeahs ole an' ah
could do it wif `im if'n ah wanted an' did ah wanna. Well, ah wuz doin' it
when he weren't theah, even once in them bushes wheah ah wuz hahdin' wahl
him an' Jimbo wuz off somewheah so ah said okay.

       "He done' it different `n me'cuz ah used mah thumb an' two finguhs
all straight an' he put his hand all the way `round `is but we still wen'
up an' dayon, jes' him fastuh. Ah got mah feelin' befo' him `cuz he wuz
still workin' hahd on `is when ah stopped. Anyways ah could do it two o
three tahms easy. Ah jes' hadda stay still fo' a couple minutes.

      "Aftuh wahl, wif me goin' agin, he wuz sweatin' an' `is mouf wuz real
taht an' `is eyes closed. Then, he opened up his eyes an' looked at his
dick an' out it cum, that waht stuff went way up in the aeah, hah as his
head but off onta the flo' `cuz he knowed how to aim it, an' then anothuh
not as hah, an anothuh that cum dayon on his han' an' mo' cummin' out the
top.

      "Well, ah alus figguhed he wuz pissin' bad piss when he done that but
ah seen `im piss reg'lar yalla too so asted how cum when he beat off `is
piss cum out waht. He wuz laffin' an' `e tole me `bout how it weren't piss
but cum thet made babies an' thet ah wuz gonna do it too when ah got
big. An' `e tole me `bout how when a man could stick `is dick in a girl an'
the stuff cum out it got all in this egg she had an' that made it turn inta
a baby an' ah din' unnuhstan' all that much but ah wuz thankin' `bout that
stuff Ahzack had cum out `is dick when it wuz in mah mouf an' ah swallered
it an' mebbe it wuz makin' a baby in mah stomach but ah din' say nothin'
`cuz ah din' wan' Bossy knowin' ah done that `cuz mebbe he wuz gonna wan'
me ta do it ta `im an' `e wuz real big fo mah mouf an' ah din' want `is
stuff in mah stomach too..

      "An' he says hit wuz really good an' mebbe doin' it wif me wuz mebbe
bettah.

      "So, we got ta doin' it e'ry day, sumtahms twahs but usual in the
mo'nin' `cuz he wan'ed ta sniff `is thinnuh at naht, sumtahms in the
aftuhnoon. One day he asted me whut ah wuz thankin' `bout when ah wuz doin'
it an' ah said jes' `bout how good it wuz feelin' but `e said `e wuz
thankin' `bout this girl in the pahk he wan'ed ta fuck but she wuz in sum
place Cath'lic din't let `em tawk to boys lahk him.. Then he said they wuz
sum lady ovuh at bah this supuhmahket let guys lahk him fuck `er but she
wuz awl old an' dirty so he din' wanna an' did ah evuh fuck one a the girls
in mah home. Ah wuz gonna lah an' say yes `cuz ah din't know much `bout how
girls wuz dayon theah since ah nevah seen one nekkid `cept they prolly had
assholes a body could stick his dick in but ah jes' din't say nothin' then
he asted if'n ah evah fucked any a the boys'cuz he said they done that a
lot in one a the homes he wuz in. Ah lah'd an' said no `cuz ah wuz
thinking; mebbe he wuz gonna wanna fuck me lahk me an' Beadie wuz doin' but
Bossy wuz big so ah knowed hit wuz gonna hurt if he done it so ah lah'd
`special `cuz we still had ouwah pants off.

      "Ah asted how old wuz the boy they wuz fuckin' in `is home an' he
said `bout eleven o' ten an' this one boy fucked `im had a dick same size
as Bossy's wuz raht then so ah knew he wuz thankin' `bout fuckin' me an' ah
pulled on mah pants but he wan'ed ta beat off agin so ah done it wif `im.

      "In the mo'nin, he wan'ed ta beat off agin an' when we wuz doin' it,
he stopped an' wuz sayin' he din't b'lieve me an' Beadie wuz jes' beatin'
off `cuz no way they gonna not let a kid go ta school jes' fo' beatin' off
an' `e weren't gonna say nothin' ta nobody if'n we wuz fuckin' o suckin'
but ah wuz sho' he wuz thankin' `bout fuckin' me so ah lah'd agin an' said
we weren't doin' none lahk that but he kep' saying yes we wuz an' ta tell
`im the truf an' e'ry tahm ah said no we weren't he cum back an' said yes
we wuz so ah tole him no way he wuz gonna fuck me an' he says ah'm saying
ah got fucked an' ah said no an' so he says then we wuz suckin' each'n
othah which wuz okay'cuz he sucked a boy once fo' a dollah.

      "Ah asted if'n he wuz gonna give me a dollah ta suck `im `cuz ah knew
he din't have no dollah but he says no but if'n ah sucked `im he wuz gonna
suck me. Well, ah hadda thank `bout that `special since ah knowed fo' sho'
he wuz gonna be lahk Beadie an' aftuh ah sucked `im he weren't gonna suck
me so ah jes' said he wuz too big an' anyway he weren't gonna suck me
aftuh. So Bossy, he set up an' says, okay he's gonna do me fust but ah
hadda do it ta `im aftuh. Me, ah'm figurin' Bossy wuz up to sumthin' but
ah'm `memb'rin' how good if wuz when Beadie done it so ah says he gotta do
it `til ah git maf feelin' an' ah say stop.

      "Damn if'n he din't go raht ahead an' do it. He hadda move aroun' sum
to wheah he weren't bendin' mah dick awl ovuh but then he wuz doin' it real
good, ah mean, real good. He had his mouf real tight `round mah dick an'
wuz goin' up an' dayon good as Beadie done it. Ah'll bet it wuz only a
couple minutes an', shit, ah wuz gittin' off. Ah hadda grab his head an'
stop `im'cuz it tickled so bad. But then ah wuz thankin' that when he got
his feelin, that stuff wuz gonna cum out. Ah smelled it plenty an' ah
knowed it wuz gonna taste bad, ah mean, real bad an' it wuz gonna be dayon
in mah stomach wif that stuff frum Ahzack but then ah'm thanking ah prolly
done shit Ahzack's stuff out a long tahm ago an' Bossy done it ta me so
theah weren't nothin' ah could do but do it ta him.

      "Anyways ah said, `You gonna tell me befo' that stuff cum out so ah
kin git off.' But he says it don't taste all that bad an' jes' swalluh real
fas' an' how it gots protein lahk milk an' all fo' makin' muscles an'
anyway he done it to me so ah hadda do it ta him the same.

      "So he's layin' back on his elbows an' lookin' at me. His dick wuz
real hahd but it wuz still laying damn neah on his belly. So, ah got on mah
hands `n' knees an' crawled aroun' to insahd `is legs to wheah ah could get
a hold a that big thang a `is. It smelled okay'cuz we bof a us took baffs
the day befo'. Ah closed mah eyes an' put mah mouf on it. It weren't as big
lahk ah wuz thankin' so ah went on dayon on it `til it wuz neah the back a
my mouf, raht wheah mah throat stahts an' that thing makes you choke is
hangin' theah.

      "Ah went up `n' dayon a couple tahms then he pushed up an' made me
choke. Ah sat up quick but he wuz sayin' he wuz sorry an' he weren't gonna
do that no mo' so, ah went an' put mah mouf back dayon on `im but ah put
mah hands on `im too, raht wheah his hayahs wuz so he cun't go chokin' me
agin. Ah went up an' dayon a lot an' he lay dayon an' set up agin an' said
ah wuz doin' it real good.

      "Then `is dick wuz gittin' hahdah an' hahdah an' even bigguh an' he
wuz movin' his legs. Ah made mah mouf as taht as ah could lahk he done on
mahn, an' me an' Beadie done ta each'n other, and then he grabbed a hold a
mah head an' din' let me move an' quick ah knowed that stuff wuz gonna cum
outta him an' it did an' wuz goin' insahd my throat. Ah cun't taste it all
that much, jes' wuz feelin' hit fillin' me up back theah an' whut it
smelled lahk then it got to wheah they wuz a whole lot in theah an' ah
choked an' it went inta mah mouf an' then ah could taste it an' it tasted
terrbul. Sum a it wuz comin' out'n mah nose an' mouf an' goin' all ovuh his
dick an' hairs an' mah hands. Ah tried to push `im away an' git my mouf
off'n `is dick but he wuz holdin' on so ah cun't do nothin'. Ah tried ta
say `lemme up' but ah wuz jus' makin' noises. Then he let go.

      "Ah stahted in breathin' agin an' tha's when ah swallered some a that
shit. Bossy wuz jus' layin' theah breathin' lahk he jes' run all the way
frum the pahk.

      "Ah wuz callin `im a son a bitch an' sayin' wah din't he let me off
an' ah hadda go an' wash mah mouf an' git that shit outta mah nose. That
stuff tasted terrbul. But Bossy, he sets up an' says why din't ah jes'
swalluh lahk `e said an' then ah cun't hahdly taste it an' says `e's gonna
make me sum Kool Aid."

      "Well, ah wen' ovuh ta the bafroom an' washed out mah mouth agin at
the tub an' blowed mah nose. Then ah wen' on back an' wuz drankin' sum a
that cherry Koolaid so it weren't all that bad no mo'. But, ah tole him ah
wren't gonna do it no mo` an' he wuz sayin' he wuz sorry but ah jes'
shoulda swalluhed.

      "Then, ah wuz thanking, how cum he knows that swalluhin' makes it so
you don' taste it so bad an' ah asted him.

      He set lookin' at me fo' a wahl then `e said ah cun't go sayin'
nothin' ta nobody `bout whut we done an' ah said he knowed ah weren't an'
ah knowed `e done it befo'. Well, he said it wuz jes' fo' money but he done
it to sum men befo' when he wuz jes' a kid an' tha's how he knowed how to
swalluh real quick an' he alus drank sumthin' sweet aftuh lahk the Kool Aid

      "Ah said ah still weren't gonna do it no mo' but ah did, not the next
day `r nothin' but ah really wanted, ah mean, really wanted him ta do it ta
me. An' Bossy wuz sayin' fayuh wuz fayuh an' it weren't his fault that his
dick wuz bigger'n mahn an' stuff cum out.

      "Well, ah hadda ast `im whut sperm wuz'cuz ah din't unnuhstan' whut
he wuz sayin befo'. So he says hit wuz some special kahnda protein lahk in
milk o hambuhguhs thet can make babies if'n ya put it insahd a girl when
you fuck `er an' `e tole me `bout that hole girls had in front so men could
put theys' dick insahd. Then he's sayin' sumthin lahk hit's a kind a seed
an' the girl she got a kahnda gahden inside `er an' hit makes the seed grow
inta a baby o' sumthin' lahk that. Well, that sounded lahk whut the
rev'rund wuz sayin' `bout seeds an' all an' ah din't unnerstan nothin' he
wuz sayin' but ah din't say nothin' `cuz ah figguhed Bossy din't know shit
about makin' babies. He nevuh fucked no girl, so how could he?

      "So, that tahm when ah sucked `im, ah swalluhed when he wuz grabbin'
mah head. Well, ah trah'd but ah choked agin but then ah wan'ed `im ta do
me agin so ah did it agin an' did whut `e said an' it wuz bettuh an' ah
din't choke none. So, we din't beat off that much no mo', just sucked
each'n othuh lahk me an' Beadie done.

	It wuz gittin' kahnda cole when one day they weren't no watuh in
the bafroom. Bossy said mebbe they wuz fixin' ta knock ouwah place dayon.

	"So, we went out lookin' fo' a new place ta live but they weren't
no place din't already have people in it `special nigguhs an' they weren't
gonna let no waht people cum in. Jimbo said we could stay wif him but ah
din't lahk Jimbo that much so we kep' on lookin'.

	"Then, one mo'nin' when we wuz makin' the fahr so ah could fix up
sum frah'd eggs `cuz ah made `em bettuh'n Bossy `cuz `e wuz alus makin' `em
all hahd an' buhnt, well, these men wif them yellow plastic hats cum
bustin' in the fron' doh' an' cussin' at us `an' all so we hadda git out
quick wif jes' whut we could carry which weren' a whole lot. This one man
kicked the box Bossy wuz fillin' wif his cookin' stuff an' broke it. Ah
kicked him an' he wuz chasin' me but this othuh man, he tells him ta leave
me alone so ah got all mah clothes an' sum food an' we left wif me carryin'
mah stuff all tied up in a couple a Bossy's shirts an' him wif two boxes.

	"Bossy said we had ta go ta Jimbo's `til we could fahnd us sumthin'
bettuh o' we wuz gonna be livin' in the streets lahk ah wuz when he foun'
me. So we wen' ta wheah Jimbo lived which wuz a room `e paid money fo' each
week so they cun't jes' go makin' `im leave lahk they done ta us. Bossy
said Jimbo got `is money stealin' an' sellin' weed `r sumthin. Ah knowed
then `bout weed wuz actual marajuana an' a person could git hah but mos'ly
it wuz fo' sellin' ta people wif money. Bossy tole me Jimbo wuz growin weed
at `is house o' on a roof o' sumthin' but ah nevuh seed nothin' lahk that.

	"Well, that room weren't neah as big lahk wheah we wuz befo' an' it
wuz three flo's up in this really big dirty ole house an' they wuz lots a
`em, rooms, ah mean. They wuz six rooms on ouwah flo' an' jes' one bafroom
so they wuz alus people waitin' ta use it in the mo'nin'. If'n sumbody wuz
in theah a long tahm, e'rybody'd git mad an' go shoutin' fo' `im ta cum on
out. They wuz anothuh room had the shar an' it wuz jes' lahk the bafroom in
the mo'nin' wif e'rybody wantin' ta git in.

      "Jimbo lahkd ta take a baf e'ry mo'nin' but he' din't hafta go to no
job `til aftah e'rybody else so he nevuh hadda wait `cuz weren't nobody
theah when he went. Me an' Bossy jes took a baf couple tahms a week so we
done ouahs afta Jimbo when we done it.

	"Leas' theah weren't no ladies on ouwah flo' o' it mighta been real
bad.

	"In the room they wuz only this one mattress an' it weren't all
that big so ah hadda sleep on the flo'. That weren't so bad `cep' ah hadda
go smellin' that thinnuh when ah wuz sleepin'.

	"They wuz this othuh boy staying wif Jimbo befo' but he wuz in jail
so Jimbo needed sumbody ta hep him pay fo' the room so he wuz glad we cum.

	"Day aftuh we cum ta his house, Jimbo said we hadda go robbin' `cuz
he din't have no money fo' the rent. Whut we wuz gonna do wuz ah wuz gonna
wawk up ta sum lady looked lahk she had sum money an' ast her sumthin' lahk
whut tahm it wuz o' wheah sum street wuz an' Jimbo wuz gonna cum runnin'
bah an' grab onta `er purse. Ah wuz sho' ah wuz gonna git caught but `e
said ah should crah o' be skeered an' hep the lady so she weren't gonna go
thankin' ah wuz in on robbin' `er. Anyways, Jimbo said if'n we din't git
sum money, we wuz gonna be sleepin' on the street nex' day.

	"So, Jimbo sees this lady an' says fo' me ta ast `er wheah this
street is. Well, ah wuz wawkin' to `er an' even befo' ah kin ast nothin',
Jimbo cum runnin' an' `e grabbed at `er purse. She wuz trahin' ta hold on
ta it an' screamin' but Jimbo, he's pullin' hahd an' the woman, she falls
on me.

	"Well, ah'm real skeered then an' ah trah'd ta git up but she wuz
screamin' an' holdin' onta me `cuz a ah don't know wah. This man cum up an'
sum othuhs an' they pick `er up an' she's sayin' ah hadda see the man took
`er purse an' ah'm sayin' ah din't see nothin' an' ah'm skeered `nuf ta
crah fo' real an' ah'm trying ta git away frum `er. Then ah see this cop
cunmin' an' now ah'm real, ah mean, real skeered. The lady says ta the cop
that ah hadda see the man stole `er purse an' ah'm sayin' ah din't see
nothin' `cuz she knocked me dayon an' won' lemme go. The cop makes `er let
go a me an' ah staht wawkin' away but he says cum heah a minute an' ah do
it but not close wheah `e kin git hold a me.

	"The cop asted me agin' whut ah seed an' ah said the same thang
agin' an' ah wanna go home. Ah'm thankin' the cop gonna say how cum ah ain'
in school but he said fo' me ta go on home so ah git. When ah git ta the
cohner, ah went runnin' but ah din't `membuh wheah Jimbo's place wuz'cuz ah
wuz only theah two tahms. So, ah'm wawkin' all ovah an' ah gits to the pahk
an' `cuz it's still school tahm ah go an' hahd in them bushes lahk befo'.

	"Ah stayed in them bushes fo' a long tahm but ah wuz gittin' hungry
an' it was cole but ah din' know whut tahm it wuz an' they ain' no othah
kids aroun' lahk when it ain't school tahm no mo'. They got this clock
theah in the pahk but ah din't know how ta read it. Well, ah stayed in them
bushes `til some kids cum aroun' wif they's mothers an' off ah go ta the
Holiness kitchen but hit ain' open yet but they's a couple a drunks theah
waitin' so ah waited wif `em.

	"Sho' `nuf, Bossy cum bah thankin' tha's wheah ah'm gonna be an'
theah ah am. So, he carries me back ta Jimbo's house which is only two
blocks away.

	"He tole me the lady had thirty-seven dollars an' a cell phone
Jimbo already done sole for ten dollars mo' so we got the rent an' sumthin
fo' food."

	"'He gotta give me sum a that,' ah said. `Ah almos' got busted'cuz
he cum up befo' he wuz s'posed ta an' that lady neah killed me an' a cop
cum.' But Jimbo's sayin' the room wuz thirty-five an' we hadda buy food so
he only give me a dollah.'

	"So we stayed theah an' we robbed a couple houses an' Jimbo sole
the stuff an' me an' Bossy robbed food frum sum sto's fah away but ah din't
do no mo' purse grabbin'. Jimbo wuz sellin' some kahnda drug weren't weed
called crack fo' this niggah man even when it wuz rainin' `cuz them people
wuz bahin' them drugs needed `em lahk e'ry day an' he wuz out mo' `n us so
sumtahms Bossy an' me could go suckin' on each'n othuh.

	"Problem wuz Jimbo an' Bossy wuz huffin' too much a that thinnah
an' one naht when Jimbo wuz theah an' they wuz huffin, Bossy pulls out his
dick an' says fo' me ta cum an' suck on `im. Ah said `e wuz crazy an' Jimbo
is laughin' an' all. But Bossy really wan's me ta suck `im an' says he
gonna give me a dollah if'n ah do.

	"So ah says, `Give it ta Jimbo so `e kin do it!'

	"Well, Jimbo, he gits all pissed an' wan's ta hit me so ah run out
inta the street an' wawk `roun' the block skeered Bossy's tellin' Jimbo
whut we wuz doin'. But, when ah wen' back, they wuz both sleepin' so ah did
too. In the mo'nin', neithah one a `em is sayin' nothing `bout suckin' an'
aftah a wahl, Jimbo goes off ta mebbe sell `is drugs.

	"Ah says ta Bossy how cum he wuz sayin' fo' me ta suck `im las'
naht an' Jimbo gonna know an' ah ain' gonna go suckin' on `im too. Bossy
says he din't say nothin' lahk that an' ah said yes he did an' he says he
don' `membah nothin' bout las' naht an' anyhow Jimbo ain' gonna `membuh
nothin' nohow an' did ah wanna do it raht now. Well, ah said no `cuz ah wuz
pissed

	"'Cuz we hadda pay rent an' still wuz buyin' food an' shit, Bossy
an' me hadda do mo' thievin'. Sum a it wuz real nasty lahk stealin' frum
street people when they wuz drunk. When Bossy seed sumbody drankin' an'
gettin' sleepy, he'd folluh `em an' check out they's pockets when they
passed out. Din't git much `cuz mosta `em din't have nothin' ta steal but
sumtahms they did.

	"We robbed houses too whut wuz easy ta git in but that kind din't
have all that much `cept lahk radios an' televisions weren't worth
much. Bossy tried workin' fo' this man in a cahwash but he cum ta work
smellin' lahk that thinnuh he wuz huffin' an' the man tole `im ta go away.

	"Ah tole `im ta stop `is huffin an' he wuz gonna have a real nahs
job an' we wasn't gonna hafta steal no mo' but e'ry naht, him an' Jimbo wuz
huffin'.

	"Well, we wuz theah fo' a long tahm `cuz it got real cole an' it
wiz Chris'mas an' New Yeah's but we din't do nothin' `cep them two huffin
mo'. Nobody give me nothin'. Ah wuz gonna give Bossy a blow job and tell ta
give me one but they wuz too damn hah ta do nothin' so ah jes' beat off a
couple tams. A couple mah teefs cum out an' new `uns cum in. Ah s'pose
thems wuz mah Chris'mas gif's. Ah already had the ones in front cum out at
the home, ya know the ones up heah (He raised his lips and pointed at his
incisors.). Ah alus brushed `em a lot at the home so ah made Bossy bah me a
toofbrush an' ah used it e'ry day. We din't have no toothpaste but ah done
it anyways.

	"An' when this one toof wuz hurtin' bad, Bossy took me ta this
doctuh an' `e give me a needle in mah mouf an' `e took out mah toof an'
din' make us pay nothin' but this woman wuz theah she wuz wantin' ta tawk
to mah mothuh. Bossy tole `er she hadda work an' cun't cum theah in the day
but she wuz sayin' she hadda tawk ta `mah mothuh `cuz ah wuz a mahnah an'
wan'ed a telephone numbuh ta call `er an all that an' we din't go back
theah no mo' even they said we hadda but we din't. Anyways, they wuz anotha
toof gonna be wheah that'un wuz.

      "So then it wuz hot agin an' ah wuz goin' ta the pahk sum an playin'
on the swangs wif mah shirt off an' got all burned an' it hurt lahk a
mothuhfuckuh... Ah'm sorry, ain' gonna say that no mo' but ah did hurt a
lot an' Bossy put this buttuh on mah shouluhs and' back an' ah slep' nekkid
wif nothin' on me a couple days an' ah hadda drank a lotta watuh an' it got
bettuh an' when ah wen' on back ta the pahk ah kep on mah shirt but mah
ahms got all brown so ah wuz takin' off mah shirt sum and then ah got brown
all ovuh, well not all that brown an' not on mah ass.

	"Mah hayah wuz gittin' a lot longuh too. Ah trahed to comb it wif
that toofbrush but it din't work so nex' tahm we had us sum money, ah tole
Bossy he hadda git me a hayahbrush. He wuz sayin' ah din' need one, jes
hadda wash it lahk he done his but ah wuz lookin' in the mirruh they had in
the bafroom an' ah wan'ed ta make it look bettuh so then he did an' `e used
it too. Ah lahked mah hayah long, a lot bettuh than when it wuz alus shoht
lahk nayow an' when ah wuz in that home." He looked up at me. "Made me look
sexy, din' it?"

	"Handsome is the word I'd use," I replied. He had been quite a
beauty with that long hair, not that he wasn't a good looking boy with it
short but, it was better before. I almost commented on how sexy his eyes
were but opted instead to suggest he get on with his story.

	"It wuz real hot, at naht too, an' we wuz sleepin' wif jes'
unnuhpants an' Bossy wuz wantin' me ta suck `im agin. Ah din't suck `im fo'
a long tahm `cuz'a whut `e said wif Jimbo theah. So, this one naht when
Jimbo's snorin' lahk he alus did, Bossy wakes me up an' says he's gonna
suck mahn then ah gotta suck his'n. Well, ah wuz still kahnda sleepy but he
got on mahn real fas' an' ah wuz lahkin' it, ah mean, really lahkin'
it. Gittin' sucked wuz way bettuh'n beatin' off.

	"Ah made `im do me fo' two feelin's'cuz the fust one cum real quick
but then ah hadda do his. So, ah got atween his legs an' put my mouf dayon
on that thang a his an' ah'm going up an' dayon on it. He wuz holdin' on ta
mah head tryin' ta make me put mo' a his cock insahd mah mouf but ah had
mah hands in his hayuhs agin' an' he cun't. Then, he stahts gittin' ready
fo' that sperm a his ta cum out an' he's movin' his legs all ovuh. Ah din't
see he wuz kickin' Jimbo an' waked him up. So, Bossy goes, "Ahhh" an'
pushed mah head dayon an' that stuff a his goes all inta the back a mah
mouf an' ah'm swalluhin' fas' as ah can.

	"Well, when a sets up, ah see Jimbo settin' up too an' he gots his
underpants dayon bah his knees an' he's sayin', "Mah tuhn, boy."

	"An' ah says, `Fuck no!' an' he says, `Wah not?' an' he ain' as big
as Bossy an' ah says, `Ah said no!' an' ah gits on t'othuh side a Bossy
lahk ah'm gonna sleep. So, Jimbo asts Bossy how much he give me ta blow
`im. Well, Bossy, he don't wanna say he done it ta me so he says, "It's so
he don' gotta pay none a the rent."

	"Now, ah wuz li'l but ah knowed that wuz the wrong thang to go
sayin' ta Jimbo who wuz kahnda the ownuh a the room. An' Jimbo says, `Okay,
Jackie, ah give y'all two dollahs off'n the rent if y'all cum ovuh heah an'
blow me.'

	"So, ah says, `Unh uh. I'm sleepy.'

	"An' Jimbo says it ain't raht ah'm gonna go an' blow Bossy an' he's
theah wif `is dick hahd an' needin' it bad as him so he says ah do it an'
he's gonna give me them two dollahs.

	"Bossy, he's all done but he tells me ah gotta do it `cuz it ain't
fayah if'n ah don't an' ain't gonna take all that long an' he gonna give us
two dollars so best ah do it an' mebbe if'n ah don' he ain't gonna let us
live theah no mo'.

	"Bossy wuz pullin' on me an' Jimbo's gittin' pissed so ah sucked
`im too. It weren't all that bad'cuz Jimbo wuz kahnda little an' he fit all
the way inta mah mouf so when his stuff cum out it wuz easy ta swalluh but
it still tasted bad lahk Bossy's. Ah hadda make mah own Kool Aid.

	"Then, when he says he's gonna give me the two dollar in the
mo'nin', ah wuz gittin' pissed so he got it an' give it to me.

	"Well, you know how them lahk Jimbo is. He kep' on wantin' it an'
Bossy din't wanna suck me if'n Jimbo wuz aroun' so ah hadda suck `em both
an' ah weren't hahdly gittin' sucked mahself an' sumtahms ah din't git no
money o' jes' a dollar o' fif'y cent.

	"Ah tole Bossy he hadda suck me mo' but he said he cun't let Jimbo
know o e'rybody wuz gonna thank `e wuz a fag which ah knowed then whut that
wuz. I tole `im wun't nobody knowin' ah wuz suckin' on `im so how they
gonna know he wuz suckin' on me. Bossy tells me this bullshit `cuz ah'm
jes' a li'l kid it's okay but when you big lahk him, they say you a fag.

	"Ah din't unnerstan' that fo' nothin' so ah says, "Then you gotta
give me two dollahs when ah do it to y'all o' ah ain't gonna do it no mo'.

	"Bossy din't lahk that none an' that naht ah jes said no to `em
`til they give me mah two dollars, each one. Jimbo said ah hadda pay `im
twenty-five cent fo' the Kool Aid so ah jes' drunk wahtuh an' sneaked me a
cookie out'n his box.

	"They weren't much suckin' goin' on fo' a long tahm. Jes' stealin'
`n' shit, but one naht when ah'm suckin' on Bossy, Jimbo is astin' him if'n
he evah got browneye outta me which ah din't know whut it wuz an' Jimbo,
he's half asleep `cuz a the thinnuh he's huffin' an' only gots half a hard
on, he says he ain't `cuz ah'm too little.

	"But Jimbo says mebbe not `im but he figguhs'cuz `is dick's so
little he can so `e asted me if'n ah evah been cohnholed. Now, ah din't
know neithuh a them words but it din't sound good so ah din't say nothin',
jes kep' goin' up an' dayon fas' trahin' ta git Bossy off.

	"Well, Jimbo, he gits behind me an' puts his finguh in my
ass. Well, ah jump up an' now ah knowed whut he wants. An' ah tole `im,
`Don't go touchin' mah ass!' an' ah pushed `im away.

	"But Jimbo, he laughs an' says, `How much fo' a little poontang'
an' says he'll gimme three dollah an' it ain' gonna hurt none so ah give
`im the finguh an' he laughs sum mo' When ah sucked `im, he wuz bangin'
inta mah mouf an' it hurt mah lips sum but his stuff cum quick so it
weren't all that bad.

	"Well, a couple weeks latuh, me an' Bossy is robbin' this house an'
this man we din't know wuz upstairs, he cum on dayon an' `e gotta
pistol. Bossy says, `Run!' an' we run out the back wheah we cum in. The man
shoots his gun two tahms an' Bossy is shoutin' `Crazy motherfuckuh!' an'
`Run!' an' we run dayon this alley an' the man cum out aftuh us an' e's
shootin' agin. Now, he ain't hittin' nothin' but they's people shoutin'
`bout whut's goin' on an' this man cum outta `is back gate an' `e sees us
runnin' an' trahs ta grab me but ah'm too quick an' he cain't but then he
hits Bossy in the face an' knocks him dayon. Ah stopped an' ah'm gonna go
hep Bossy but this man wif the gun an' fo' o fahv othuhs is cummin' up at
us so ah hadda run away.

	"Last ah seen Bossy that day he wuz layin' in that alley an' all
them men was gittin' up bah `im `cept one wuz runnin' aftuh me. Well, ah
run fas' as ah could an' went inta this othuh alley an' dayon b'tween sum
houses an' back up anothuh street an' all an' the man weren't theah no mo'

	"Ah went lookin' fuh Jimbo but he wuz out sumwheah sellin' `is
drugs an' ah din't know wheah so ah went an' hahded mahself in them bushes
in the pahk in case ol' Bossy tells `em wheah ah live.

	"Ah din't go back ta the room `til it wuz real late an' ah looked
all ovah ta see if they wuz cops watchin' ta see if'n ah wuz cummin'. Ah
din't see none so ah wen' in real quick an' on up ta the room. Jimbo, he's
astin' wheah we been, an' wheah's Bossy?"

	"So, ah tole `im an' he says, `Shit. Who gonna pay the rent now?'

      "Jimbo said Bossy weren't no snitch an' ah din't gotta thank the cops
wuz gonna be cummin' fo' me theah but ah needed to stay insahd fo' a few
days an' he wuz gonna try `n' see whut happened ta po' ol' Bossy.

      "That next naht, he cum in an' he said Bossy's in jail an' he ain't
gonna be gittin' out fo' a couple yeahs an' if'n ah wanna keep stayin' in
the room, ah gotta pay half a the rent which is eighteen dollahs e'ry
week. Well, ah knowed ah cun't git no eighteen dollahs a week. Ah wuz
thankin' ah could go rob but weren't nobody gonna buy nothin' frum no li'l
kid lahk me o' they wuz jes' gonna take it an', anyways, ah cun't go
carryin' all that much. Jimbo wuz workin' fo' this man sellin' drugs an' he
already said ah cun't hep `im wif that an' wif `im sellin' drugs, he din't
have no tahm fo' thievin' so ah cun't go doin' that wif `im neithuh..

      "So, ah know, ah'm gonna be livin' on the streets agin lahk them
othuhs in them alleys dayontown o' dayon by the rivah. But, Jimbo says ah
kin sleep theah one las' naht so ah gits outta mah shirt an' pants an' gits
on the mattress.

      "Well, Jimbo, he gits dayon aside me an' he says, `They is a way
y'all kin stay heah, an' don' gotta pay no rent.'

      "Well, ah figguhs he's lookin' fo' a bunch a blow jobs an' ah'm
thankin' mebbe suckin' Jimbo's dick is better'n sleepin' wheah the welfayuh
gonna git me. But that ain't whut Jimbo was wantin'. Ah knowed that when he
put `is han' on my ass.

      "Well, ah says, `Unh uh. Ah ain' doin' none a that.'

      "But he's tawkin' an sayin' it ain' gonna hurt all that much an' ah
kin stay an' eat `is food an' wah don' ah try it one tahm an' he's gonna
gimme fahv dollah if'n ah don't wanna do it no mo' an' ah'm gonna leave.

      "Ah knowed it wuz gonna hurt but mebbe not all that much lahk `e said
an' ah wuz thankin' `bout bein' on the streets in the cole an' rain an' all
wif them welfayuh people out theah an' havin' ta go to the Holiness place
an' them othuh places wheah they wuz alus ladies astin' wheah wuz mah mama
an' ah knowed one a them wuz gonna call the welfayuh an' ah wuz goin' back
ta the home.

      "So, ah says, `You gotta gimme the money fust an' stop if'n ah says.'

      "Jimbo says okay but ah gotta let `im cum anyway. Well, ah knowed he
wuz fast so ah said okay.

      "So he gits a cup a wahtuh an' the soap. Ah taked off mah unnuhpants
an' he put sum soap an' watuh in wheah mah hole wuz an' on his dick. Fust,
he gits on top a me but he cain't fahn' mah hole so he gits me up wheah
ah'm on mah han's an' knees an' he sticks me hahd an' it hurts an' ah jump
away.

      "I said ah din't wanna do it thankin' this is gonna hurt real bad an'
mebbe make me bleed but he sayin `e's sorry an' he wuz too fast an' then
`e's sayin' ah should trah it wif him on `is back an' me settin' on `is
dick so ah kin go slow as ah'm wantin'.

      "That din't sound so bad so `e puts mo' soap an' watuh on bof a us
an' lays on dayon an' ah git on top'a `im an' wuz movin' aroun' `til mah
hole wuz on top a his dick an' ah told `im not to go movin' none an' ah
sets dayon on his dick a li'l an' ah kin feel it goin' in me a li'l an' it
ain't all that bad so ah go dayon jes' a li'l mo' an' it still ain' hurtin'
none, but next tahm, it's stahtin' ta hurt so ah stop an' it gits
bettuh. Jimbo ain' saying nothing, jes layin' theah. So, ah tries ta go
dayon jes' a li'l mo' an' it's hurtin' agin but not so ah wuz gonna crah o'
nothin' but ah stopped anyways an' Jimbo says, `Don' stop.'

      "Well, ah feels back there wif mah finguh an' ah kin feel a bunch a
his dick is insahd mah hole an' mebbe it ain't gonna hurt no mo' so ah go
dayon mo' an' mo' an' real slow an' then ah'm sittin on Jimbo's hayahs an'
his dick is all the way insahd me.

      "Jimbo says, `Damn, Jackie, tha's good' an' `go up an' dayon on it.'

      "Well, ah did an' it weren't all that bad, jes' hurtin a little wheah
mah hole wuz. So, ah'm kahnda settin' on `im an' ah go up an' dayon on `is
dick an' sumpin' inside is feelin' kahnda good.

      "Then Jimbo says, `Lemme fuck you, Jackie. Jus' stay up theah an'
ah'll go in an' out. Ain't gonna hurt none.'

      "So ah got wheah ah wuz up ovuh `im, kahnda settin but stayin' up
neah the top a `is dick an' he stahts goin't in an' out. It wuz hurtin' sum
but ah wen' back a li'l an' put mah han's dayon on `im ta hol' mahself up
an' it wuz bettuh.

      "Well, he's wuz sayin', `Oh shit! Oh shit!' and fuckin' me fastah an'
fastah an' then it wuz hurtin' a li'l mo' an' ah kin feel `im puttin' his
stuff up into mah ass an' he's sayin' how it feels so good an' all an' his
dick is goin' bump bump up insahd mah ass.

      "So, aftuh, Jimbo went an' washed his dick an' then purty soon, ah
hadda take a shit bad. Lucky they weren't nobody in the bafroom o' ah'da
shit mah pants `cuz soon's ah set dayon, out cum this big faht an' Jimbo's
stuff an' shit. Ah could smell the sperm an' wuz worryin' the nex' guy cum
in the bafroom wuz gonna smell it too an' he wuz gonna know whut ah wuz
doin' so ah pushed the han'le real quick but ah could still smell it an'
the winduh wuz open so ah jes' figguh'd ah wuz gonna stay in theah `til
that smell weren't theah no mo'. Well, ah did fo' a little but then this
man cum knockin' an' sayin' ah hadda hurry up. So, ah sniffed an' they
weren't no mo' smell a Jimbo's sperm so ah said okay but ah wuz still slow
gittin' out.

      "Nobody said nothin' aftuh so ah figguh'd the smell a cum wuz gone.

      "Then, Jimbo is tellin' me ah gotta take a shar'cuz ah ain't clean in
mah ass so ah did an' he wuz alus sayin' that aftuh he fucked me.

      "Well, that's how ah paid mah rent fo' a long tahm. It weren't e'ry
naht o' nothin' but he wuz fuckin' me lahk three fo' tahms a week. It
weren't so bad aftuh a wahl. Ah guess mah asshole jes' got bigguh wif `im
up in it so much. An' aftuh couple weeks, he wuz wantin' ta do it dif'rent
ways lahk layin' on top a me which he done a lot but sumtahms standin' up
wif' `im holdin' me offa the flo'. Ah din't weigh all much skinny as ah wuz
so it wuz easy fo' him wif all them muscles a his. He'd jes' git mah pants
off an' put that stuff he got, weren't really grease but it wuz sumpin'
lahk grease but `e put it all ovuh `is dick an' in my hole an' then he'd
pick me up frum behahn' an' stick his dick raht on in. Din't hurt none lahk
that so ah din't mahn'.

      "Then one day he saw mah dick wuz stickin' out so he says ah'm
lahkin' it so wah's `e payin' me but he knowed weren't no way ah could pay
nothin' so we jes' kep doin' it lahk we wuz `cept ah could beat off jes'
befo' he got off `cept when he wuz on top a me an' the mattress made me git
off.

      "Ah din't lahk it so much when he made me git on my back an' he did
it frum the frunt. It wuz lahk he wuz hittin' sumpin insahd but, lahk ah
said, he weren't all that long so it weren't all that bad an' ah could
still beat off.

      "He mos'ly lahkd ta do it in the mo'nin' an' me too'cuz mah dick wuz
hahd. Onliest pro'lem in the mo'nin' wuz when ah hadda pee real bad an' he
wuz on top a me an' fuckin' real hard an' couple tahms ah pissed a li'l in
the bed an' he got all pissed off so aftuh that he asted me if'n ah hadda
pee afo' he fucked me.

      "It got kahnda bad fo' a wahl when the niggah man he wuz sellin'
drugs fo' tole `im he cun't go huffin' no mo'. Jimbo wuz all pissed `bout
that an' said it wuz none a the man's business but he hadda do it o' the
man wuz gonna not let `im sell drugs no mo' o mebbe shoot `im so he hadda
stop. So he wuz pissed a lot an' when he fucked me when he wuz pissed he
sumtahms put it in real fast an' he done it real hahd an' sumtahms that
hurt.

      "Well, ah figguh'd Jimbo wuz makin' lots a money wif them drugs'cuz
he din't git nobody else in the room so they could pay path halfa the rent
an' he wuz buyin' hisself clothes an' this perfume he put on that smelt
terrbul. But sumtahms, mebbe a couple tahms a week, he give me a
dollar. Couple tahms he give me two but not that much. It weren't much but
it wuz bettuh'n nothin' an' he give me a key so ah could go in when he
weren't theah. He nevah cum home `til mebbe ten o `leven an' that wuz neah
e'ry naht.

      "Trouble wuz ah din't have nothin' ta do all day `cept'n watch
television on that li'l television Jimbo had an' weren't nothin' all that
good in the mo'nin' aftuh he left. He wouldn't let me watch it wahl he wuz
theah an' they wuz cahtoons. An' ah din't hafta rob fo' nothin' so ah din't
do that, well, `cept sometahms ah went an' got me sum cookies o' candy `cuz
Jimbo din't lahk me eatin' his'n.

      "Ah went ta the pahk a lot aftuh school tahm an' watched othuh kids
playin'. Ah wanted ta play wif `em but Jimbo alus said ah hadda be real
cayuhful'cuz they wuz gonna ast wheah ah lived an' `bout mah mama an' then
they wuz gonna tell they's mama an' she wuz gonna call the welfayuh. But ah
really, ah mean really, wan'ed ta do sumthin' an' they weren't nothin' so
one day ah seen this black hayuhed kid wif skin almos' lahk a nigguh but
not black o nothin' an' he wuz bah hisself. Ah seed `im plenny befo' in the
pahk an' he's playin' wif these li'l trucks an' soljuhs he got in the dirt
neah wheah the swings wuz so ah go an' ah asted `im if'n ah kin play wif
`im an' he jes' looks at me lahk he din't heah me so ah asts `im agin an'
he jes' moves he's shoulders an' wuz sayin' sumthin' ah din't unnuhstan' fo
nothin'. So, ah asts `im agin an' all ovuh he says sumthin' ah don'
unnuhstan' so ah sets dayon an' he pushes this one ahmy truck at me.

      "Ah nevah knowed a kid din't tawk English befo' so ah din't know wah
he wuz tawkin' so funny. Ah din't know nothin' bout furriners so ah din't
know whut ta do. Then he give me half the solguhs an' he set `is up lahk
they wuz gonna fight mahn an' ah knowed whut `e wuz doin'. Well, we played
fo' a long tahm. He kep' sayin' thangs ah din't unnuhstan' but we wuz
havin' fun `til he starts pointin' outta the pahk an' stahts pickin' up all
his stuff an' he goes but he's smilin' an' all.

      "When ah tole Jimbo, he says the kid's prolly a spic an' he don'
`speaka' English an' you gotta be cayful `roun' them'cuz lot a Spics kill a
man fo' no good reason an' the kid wuz prolly eelegal.

      "That wuz a big pro'lem `cuz even `e tried ta `splain ta me whut that
wuz ah din't unnuhstan' `cept they wuz a special kahnda cop locks up
eelegals an' makin' `em go back to sumplace fah away.

      "Ah din't thank this kid wuz gonna kill nobody, special me so ah went
on back ta the pahk nex' day aftuh school tahm an' theah `e wuz by the
swangs agin. So we wuz playin' e'ry day `cep' it wuz rainin' an' `e din'
cum an' `e wuz astin' me whut this wuz an' whut that wuz an' ah tole `im an
he tole me how ta say it same as him so ah wuz learnin' spic words.

      "So, one day aftuh we wuz playing a couple weeks he says ah should go
ta `is house ta eat well not `zactly lahk that. Ah din't unnerstan' so he
kahnda used his han's an soon ah wuz unnuhstandin' whut he wuz sayin' an'
ah learnt a couple new words lahk eat is `como'.

      "Mah frien's house, his name wuz Soliman, wuz `bout fahv blocks away
frum the pahk an' e'rybody in theah wuz tawkin' in spic an' real, ah mean
real fast. Ah din't unnuhstan' nothin' they wuz sayin' `cept when this lady
mebbe wuz his mama says `comes' an' ah knows it wuz meanin' ta eat. So, we
et rahce an' beans an' sum green stuff weren't spinach'cuz ah knowed whut
spinach wuz but ah din't know whut that wuz but ah do now. An' she's astin'
me stuff ah don' unnuhstan' so ah jes' wuz moving mah shoulduhs an'
smahlin' so she wuz smahlin' too. When ah went back ta mah house, she tole
Soliman an' this big kid mebbe fo'teen name a Jorge mebbe wuz Soliman's
brothuh o' cousin o' sumthin' ta go wif me. When we got close ta mah house
ah figguh'd Jimbo wuz gonna be pissed if'n ah tole sum boy wheah ah lived
so ah made lahk ah wuz goin' in this othuh house an' said goodbye an' they
went off an' ah wen' on back ta mah house.

      "So, ah hadda frien', fust tahm since Beadie, an' we done stuff
togethuh even stealin' a couple tahms at the supuhmahket. An' ah wuz
learnin' mo' words lahk he wuz nahn yeahs old so ah said ah wuz nahn but ah
din't know an' mebbe ah wuz still eight but prolly nahn. But we played on
the swangs an' went inta the watuh at that li'l lake they had theah in the
pahk but that pissed off the man wuz watchin' e'rybody so we hadda git
out. An' we wawked all ovuh the city, even got lost a couple tahms but ah
alus asted people wheah wuz the pahk an' they said wheah so we wuz nevuh
bad lost."

      You can imagine, dear reader, what I was thinking about at that
point. If William was able to communicate in Spanish, that would greatly
facilitate a move for the both of us to a Latin American country. But,
there was no way at that point that I was about to interrupt his
fascinating narrative. So, here we go.

      "One day, we went up in them bushes wheah nobody could see us an' ah
showed Soliman how ah beat off an' he done it too. His dick wuz bigger'n
mahn, longuh but he wuz a li'l bigger'n me, ya know, `bout lahk that (He
indicated two to three inches with his fingers.). He really, ah mean really
lahkd beatin' off but he knowed `bout it befo' ah showed him `cuz he seen
othuh kids doin' it an' wuz doin' it in `is bafroom fo' a long tahm.

      "Ah went`n' et at `is house a lot `cuz Jimbo wuz nevuh `roun' `til
late but it wuz alus rice `n' beans an' tortillas an' sumthin' else. Ah
think they wuz real po' `cuz they din't have a lot a food an' Soliman only
had two pants an' two shirt an' he din't go ta school neithah lahk me.

      "Cuz ah wuz learnin' Spic, we wuz tawkin' mo' an he wuz tellin' me he
wuz frum sum country called Honduras an' e'rybody theah only tawked in spic
but he called it Español an' it wuz real hot an' sumtahms it rained so hahd
e'rybody hadda leave frum wheah they wuz livin' an' that wuz wah his mama
brung him ta mah country. Trouble wuz, they cum wif a man called a coyote
lahk the animal's called that an' they hadda pay `im a lot a money an' his
mama an' his uncle wuz paying e'ry month most a whut she had.

      "An' ah tole Soliman ah din't have no mama an' ah wuz livin' wif this
man but `e cun't tell nobody not even his mama but `e said weren't nobody
in `is house gonna tell nothin' ta no welfayuh `cuz they din't want nobody
frum the gov'mint tawkin' to `em an' tha's when ah wuz unnerstandin'
sumthin' bout whut Jimbo said `bout them bein' eelegals.

      "So, `cuz we wuz real good friends an' ah knowed he weren't gonna go
tawkin' ta no welfayuh, so ah tole Soliman ah wuz gonna take `im ta mah
house but `e cun't go sayin' nothin' ta nobody `bout wheah it wuz `cuz the
man had the house wuz gonna git real pissed an' mebbe make me go away.

      "So we went ta the house an' watched some television an' he brung
dominos an' we wuz playin' that. An' we beat off a lot.

      "Then, one day, it wuz his birfday an' he wuz ten an' they wuz a
pahty at `is house an' we et li'l pieces a cake an' sang `Happy Birfday'
but some a it in Spic.

      "Yeah, an' when this othuh toof wuz hurtin' an' Jimbo weren't gonna
do nothin', Soliman tole `is mama an' she din't go ta work this one day an'
took me ta this doctuh an' he he took it out an' she paid `im sumthin' an'
then ah hadda go back so he wuz gonna fix up a couple othuh toofs ah had
wuz bad an' ah done it `cuz he weren't astin' `bout mah mama o' nothin' an'
Soliman's mama paid fo' that too. She wuz a real nahs lady.

      "Well, `bout that tam ah wuz thankin' `bout teachin' Soliman `bout
suckin' dick lahk me an' Beadie done but ah wuz skeered he wuz gonna say
sumthin' ta Jorge, that's his cousin, o' the othuhs but then, one day, ah
says in spic best ah can `cuz Soliman din't tawk English fo' shit, ah says,
"If'n ah tell you sumthin', you gotta promise you ain't gonna say nothin'
ta nobody, ah mean nobody, not even Jorge."

      "An' he says, "Okay."

      "An ah tells him `bout when ah wuz in the home an' he says he wuz in
a home in Honduras fo' almos' a yeah an' ah cain't tell nobody but that
lady wheah he lived weren't really his mama jes' his aunt. His mama died o'
went away, he din't know which an' `e din't know who his fathah wuz `cept
he wuz gone when he wuz a baby. He said his aunt, tha's tia in spic, she
really loved him an' she stole `im outta this home wheah `e wuz an' carried
`im off wif Jorge an' this othuh uncle a Jorge an' cum to the United States
eelegal.

      "An' we wuz tawkin' `bout the homes we wuz in an' his'n wuz kahnda
lahk mahn `cuz they wuz alus havin' ta pray lahk when they et an' the man
wheah he wuz wuz alus tawkin' `bout Jesus an' the bahbul but not so much
`bout smitin' lahk mahn wuz alus doin'. He said he wuz gonna run away a
bunch a tahms `cuz a kid cun't do nothin', jes' whut they wuz sayin' which
weren't much, jes' watchin' TV o' studyin' but his tia, tha's his aunt, she
wuz alus tellin' `im don' run away `cuz one day she wuz gonna cum `n' git
`im an' carry `im outta theah an' then she did but he wuz lahk me an' he
said he weren't nevuh goin' back

      "When ah asted if'n they evah wuz beatin' off in theah he said they
cun't `cuz they wuz these girls wuz alus watchin' an' sayin' er'ythang they
done an' sum a the boys too `cept sumtahms in the bafroom by theyselves,
then they could do it but not all that much.

      "Well, ah wuz gonna tawk `bout me an' Beadie suckin' each `n' othuh
but we got ta tawkin' bout all that an' then he hadda git `cuz he hadda be
back at his house befo' late so we wawked back ta his house.

      "Knowin' all that `bout Soliman made me thank we wuz lahk brothahs
lahk me an' Beadie an' ah could tell `im `bout anythang' so the nex' day
back at Jimbo's ah tole him `bout suckin'.

      "Well, he looked at me lahk ah wuz crazy `r' sumthin' an' ah wuz
wishin' ah din't say nothin' bout it so ah said me an' Beadie only done it
a couple tahms an' we wuz real li'l an' din't know whut we wuz doin' an' ah
nevuh done it agin.

      "So he says in spic'cuz we only tawked in Spic, `How you learn `bout
sumthin' lahk that when you wuz only fahve o' six?'

      "An' ah lahed an' said we seen these othuh boys lahk ten o `leven
doin' it.

      "Well, he sets there fo' a wahl then he tole me how they wuz this boy
in the home wheah he wuz an' he done it too in the shar but jes' ta boys
bigger'n him lahk thirteen o' fo'teen.Well, ah tole him it wuz jes' me and
Beadie `cuz we wuz bes' frien's.

      "Then he wanted ta know if we evah got caught an' ah tole him that
wuz wah ah run away so he wanted ta know e'rythang `bout me runnin' away
an' whut ah did an' whut ah et an' wheah ah wuz sleepin' so we tawked `bout
that an' no mo' `bout suckin' so ah figguh'd he weren't gonna say nothin'
mo' `bout that an' ah wuz happy `cuz ah din't want `im thankin' ah wuz no
fag o' nothin'.

      "So, fo' a long tahm, e'rythang wuz okay. Jimbo went raht on fuckin'
me mostly in the mo'nin's but sumtahms at naht when he cum home an' it
weren't hurtin' none. Mostly ah beat off when he wuz doin' it `cept when he
wuz on top a me o' when he done it sideways an' his leg wuz on top a mah
dick an' ah cun't git mah han' in theah. He sho' did have a lot a ways a
doin' it. Couple tahms, mebbe mo', he done it wif me upsahd dayon but that
hadda hurt him some `cuz his dick wuz all bent ovuh. It wuz kahnda okay fo'
me `cuz it made me feel all good insahd an' one a them tahms ah got off
wifout even touchin' mah dick.

      "Ah wuz gittin' off a lot wif Soliman an' me beatin' off mostly in
mah house but we did it sum in his house when nobody wuz aroun'. His cousin
Jorge almos' catched us this one tahm but we got on the flo' an' said we
wuz lookin' fo sumthin' unnuh the bed when really we wuz gittin' ouwah
pants back up.

      "Then, one naht, Jimbo's fuckin' me fust wif' me on mah back but he
cun't git off so he done it sahdways an' that din't work neithah so he lay
on top a me an' fucked real hahd fo' a long tahm an' then `e got off. He
acted lahk he wuz worryin' `bout sumthin' but ah din't say nothin'. He
din't tawk all that much ta me nohow an' he wuz gittin' pissed real quick
them days.

      "Next day, he din't cum home. Ah went ta sleep figg'rin' he wuz doin'
sumthin wif `is boss an' mebbe he wuz gonna cum in the mo'nin' but he
din't. Ah tole Soliman but he din't know Jimbo so he din't say
nothin'. Then, Jimbo din't cum home that naht neithah, an' not the next o'
the next. The man cum ta git paid his rent an' ah tole `im Jimbo hadda go
sumwheah but he wuz gonna be cummin' back in a couple days an' he said okay
but Jimbo din't cum back. Ah took ta eatin' all mah food at Soliman's house
`cuz they weren't nothin' ta eat in mahn. Ah et at the Holiness place oncet
but that lady wuz astin' me wheah wuz mah mama an' ah wuz thankin' she wuz
gonna call the welfayuh so ah din't go back theah no mo'.

      "Soliman tole his auntie that the man takin' cayuh a me went off an'
lef' me so she says ta cum an' stay wif `er `til the man cum back. She wuz
really, ah mean really nahs wif me, even huggin' me lahk she loved me an'
mebbe she did. She give me food jes' lahk Soliman an' Jorge an' that man
lived wif `em s'posed ta be some kahnda uncle. His name was Bernardo but
they called `im `tio' which is uncle in spic but Soliman tole me he din't
thank he wuz really fam'ly but it wuz okay'cuz he wuz workin' fixin' cars
an' makin' money ta pay the rent an' fo' the food we all wuz eatin' an'
almos' e'ry day he took Jorge along an' he wuz workin' an makin' money too.

      "Jorge and Soliman wanted me ta teach `em English but Jorge wuz alus
fo'gettin' e'rythang ah wuz teachin' `im `cuz ah wuz the onliest person
tawkin' to `im in English an' ah cun't write the words lahk he wan'ed me
`cuz ah din't know how ta write so Jorge he stahted in teachin' me how ta
write an' ah can a li'l bit now. So ah wuz tryin' ta teach Jorge an' he wuz
writin' dayon whut it sounded lahk ta `im in spic. Ah wuz the onliest one
he knowed could tawk English `cuz e'rybody wheah he worked only tawked in
spic. Ah think they wuz all eelegals but mebbe not his boss `cuz he wuz a
waht man. Ah nevah seed `im but Jorge said he wuz waht but okay `cuz he
alus paid `em whut he said which weren't a lot but it wuz okay.

      "So, theah ah wuz living with them eelegals an' tawkin' spic jes'
lahk them. An' ah wuz sumtahms cookin' `cuz ah knowed a lot `bout cookin'
frum makin' mah own food at Jimbo's an' sumtahms ah wuz makin' sumthin' fo'
him too. An' Tia Lili, she showed me how ta make lots a stuff lahk vegatals
an' chicken an' pancakes an' lots a othuh stuff. Ah'm a good cook. Ah kin
make food fo' us too. We kin go to the supuhmahket an' bah stuff an' ah kin
fix y'all anything ya wan's. Whatta y'all want?"

      With my mind consumed by his story and thoughts of us living in Latin
America, the sudden request for food preferences took some mental
readjusting. William sat there patiently, probably thinking I was going
over options. "Well, uh, whatever you like, but, it probably wouldn't be a
good idea for us to be goin' out in public together, you know. The
police..."

      "Yeah, tha's okay. But ah kin tell y'all what ta bah an' then ah kin
fix it up heah for us. Jes' say what it is y'all want."

      I begged time to think about it and asked him to continue his story.

      "Well, me an' Soliman wuz lahk brothahs wif me livin' in that room
they had. We wuz tagethah all the tahm, even when we wuz sleepin' but then
Jorge wuz sleepin' on the same mattress wif us `cuz they only wuz two an'
Tia Lili an' Bernardo wuz on the othah but it wuz a bed up off the
flo'. They wuz fuckin' sum too but not e'ry naht, not even as much as Jimbo
wuz fuckin' me but they done it plenny an' it made they's bed make
squeakin' sounds an' tha's how we knowed whut they wuz doin'. Jorge'd beat
off sometahms when they wuz doin' hit but jes' when he wuz thankin' me an'
Soliman wuz sleepin'.

      "One thang nahs `bout Tia Lili's house wuz she had a bafroom which
wuz jes' fo' us'ns. At Jimbo's, they wuz jes' the one fo' all a us on the
third flo'. We had this big shar an' me an' Soliman, we did our bafs in it
tagethuh an' sumtahms Jorge. Well, Jorge had a dick neah big as Bossy's an'
he wuz jes thirteen but almos' fo'teen an' this one tahm he made it hahd
an' wuz sayin' he wuz gonna fuck one a us but then he wuz laughin' an'
din't do nothin'.

      "Anyways, ah asted Soliman did he say sumthin' `bout us beatin' off
an' Soliman says, `Don' worry none'cuz Jorge done it too.' Well, ah knowed
that `cuz he wuz sleepin' asahd me an' ah could even smell his stuff
aftah. Anyways, Soliman says Jorge knowed we wuz doin' it'cuz a that tahm
he seed us an' we wuz thankin' he din't.

      "Well, we din't tawk `bout that no mo' `til one naht when Tia Lili
an' the man wuz at some cantina, that wuz whut they call a bah in spic, an'
it wuz jes' us wif Jorge an' Jorge up an' asts if'n sum a the boys in the
home wheah a lived befo' wuz fuckin' me.

      "We weren't beatin' off o' nothin' so ah wuz real, ah mean real
s'prised an' din't ansuh quick so Jorge says, "Ah knowed they fucked you,"
an' to Soliman he says, "Ya see, Soliman? Ah tole you."

      Well, ah'm lookin' at Soliman an' he's lookin' lahk `e done sumthin'
bad an' ain' lookin' at me. So ah says, "Ain' nobody nevuh fucked me..."

      "But Jorge's sayin' ain' nothin' wrong wif gittin fucked an' he wuz
in a home fo' a yeah an' sum a them boys theah wuz gittin' fucked almos'
e'ry naht an' he fucked one a couple tahms when he wuz little. Then he says
he figguhs his dick kin go inside me real easy an' do ah wanna trah. Well,
real quick ah says, `Shit, no' `cep' it wuz `mierda' which is shit in spic.

      "So Jorge says ta Soliman that he can fuck me'cuz his dick's little
an' Soliman says he don' wanna but Jorge keeps on sayin' he gotta try it
an' it ain' gonna hurt me none an' how ah'm gonna lahk it.

      "Well, when me and Soliman says we gonna sleep, Jorge stops tawkin'
an' we git off our pants an' shoes an' shirts an' we git unnuh the
blanket'cuz it wuz kahnda cole them days.

      "Well, ah bin gittin' ta lahk it when Jimbo wuz fuckin' me, special
when he wuz doin' it so he wuz hittin' on sumthin' inside mah ass made me
feel real, ah mean real good in theah an' even when he went in, you know,
just when he goes in each tahm, it wuz feelin' purdy good. An' ah'm
thankin' mebbe Jorge's big dick ain't gonna hurt all that much an' `bout
that tahm, Jorge's real close behin' me so ah'm makin' lahk ah'm sleepin'
but ah puts mah ass wheah he kin git to it an' `e did.

      "Fust, he put his han' on the sahd a mah ass lahk mebbe he's sleepin'
an' it jes' went theah. Then when ah don' move none, he gits closuh an' is
feeling mah ass. Ah still ain' movin' so he gits hold a mah boxuhs an' is
pullin' `em on dayon real slow an' ah din' do nothin'. He gits mah boxuhs
to wheah they's dayon on mah leg but when he lets go, they go on back up
`cuz ah'm layin' on top `em. So, he pulled `em dayon agin an' this tahm, he
gits closuh an' ah kin feel his dick touchin' mah ass wheah it goes
tagethuh.

      "Jorge lay lahk that prolly waitin' ta see if'n ah'm gonna move but
ah don' do nothin', jes' lay theah lahk ah'm real asleep. So, he goes
pushin' but ah knowed raht then he din' have no grease on his dick an'
weren' no way it wuz goin' in mah ass dry lahk that an' raht then ah
really, ah mean really wanted `im to fuck me so ah turn ovuh an' say real
quiet that `e gotta git some grease.

      "Well, he don' say nothin' fo' a minute then he says, `Git yo pants
off an' ah'll git sumthin.' An' he gits up slow an' quiet so he won' go
wakin' Soliman.

      "Ah gits off mah boxuhs an' real quick he's back an' he gots sumthin'
an' ah kin' feel he's doin' sumthin' an' then `e puts his finguh inta mah
ass an' it's got some kahnda grease on it an' he sticks sum in mah hole but
`e gots finguhnails an' it hurts.

      "Well, ah pushed his hand outta there an' sticks mah ass back by
wheah `is dick gots ta be so he pushed it on in theah but he ain' close ta
mah hole so ah hadda put mah han' back theah an' put his dick wheah mah
hole wuz an' ah tole `im quiet that he gots ta go in real slow. That wuz
when ah figguh'd bes' way ta do it wuz lahk ah done it fust wif Jimbo,
settin on `it.

      "So, ah push `im back an' ah stand up an' he's layin' theah an' ah
set dayon on that big dick a his. It went in a little an' din't hurt none
so ah kahnda moved up an' dayon jes' a li'l tryin' ta git the top paht
insahd me. Well, he done jes' lahk Jimbo an' he tries ta push it in an' it
hurts. So ah stand up a little an' tole `im he gotta let me do e'rythang o'
we ain' gonna do it.

      "He says okay an' ah set back dayon an' he stahts in doin' the same
thang agin, movin' up an' dayon but jes a little an' soon the top a his
dick goes on in an' it don' hurt none so ah'm gittin' ready ta go on dayon
when we heah somebody unlockin' the do'. Ah got up real quick an' lay dayon
wif the blanket on top lahk ah wuz sleepin' an' in cums Tia Lili and the
man. Mah boxers is sumwheah in o' mebbe on the bed an' they turn on the
laht. But mah boxers is unnuh the blanket so it's okay an' ah make lahk
ah'm sleepin' an' Jorge too.

      "Well, Tia Lili an' that man they tawk sum an' they go ta bed
too. Soon's the laht's off, Jorge is stickin' his dick back at mah ass but
he's doin' it slow so ah wuz lettin' `im do it an' then the top is insahd
me an' it's okay an; he pushes `is dick in mo' an' it feels kahnda good an'
then ah kin feel him agin me an' ah know he's all the way insahd an' he's
bigguh'n Jimbo.

      "Well, he stahts in fuckin' me, all the way out an' all the way back
in an' mah dick's all hahd an' it feels good. When he gits goin' fastah,
ah'm worryin' Tia Lili's gonna heah but they's fuckin' ovah on they's bed
an' it's squeakin' an' all so ah figguh they ain't gonna heah us
none. Well, Jorge's fuckin' real good an' ah'm beatin' off but slow `cuz ah
knowed if'n ah did ah wuz gonna git off real quick an' Jorge wuz feelin'
real good inside me, goin' in and out an' makin' lahk, kahnda lahk he wuz
pushing the good feelin' raht inta mah dick e'ry tahm his dick wuz all the
way in mah ass. Then, ah could feel `im gittin' off an' ah'm wantan' ta git
off so ah done mahn fastah but Jorge is stahtin' ta take his dick outta me
so ah grab `im by the ass an' pull `im back an' he goes raht back in an'
ah'm beatin' off an' movin' mah ass aroun' `cuz that makes hit feel even
bettuh an' mano, mahn gits off too an' bettuh than ah evah done wif Jimbo."

      William went silent, staring toward me but maybe not at me. Suddenly
his eyes focused on mine and, with a half smile he asked, "Wanna fuck me?
Thankin' `bout Jorge got me all hahd. Heah, feel mah dick."

      He pulled my hand to his groin, touching my erection on the way.

      Using cooking oil, the most easily accessible lubricant in the house,
we fucked. He had me get on top of him. His sphincter tightened repeatedly
moments later. My concern that sex might be prematurely over was relieved
when, after a brief pause, he encouraged me to `Don' stop. Ah'm gonna do it
agin."

      Once I'd climaxed and he'd achieved his second orgasm, I suggested we
take a shower and eat something. He wanted me to stay inside him and
continue his story. I was sure my part was imposible until he turned at a
right angle to my body and clamped himself tightly against me. Firmly
attached, he stared off into space for a moment, seemed to recover his
thoughts, and continued.

      "Ah wuz tawkin' `bout wwhen Jorge fucked me that fust tahm, raht?"

      I agreed.

      He nooded then, "Well, me an' Jorge wuz fuckin' a bunch a tahms an'
sumtams he could git off twahs lahk me."

      There was to be no second orgasm on my part though we stayed as one
for nearly another hour during which he told me about how he and Soliman
began making a legitimate income, not surprisingly enough, hustling
shoppers. It began by accident when, headed inside a supermarket intent on
stealing, an old woman offered them a quarter to push her cart to the
street where she planned to flag a taxi. Once again with larceny on their
minds, they went along but the old woman, perhaps from unhappy experiences,
kept a close eye on her purchases and didn't provide an opportunity to
steal anything. But, she did give a quarter to each after the cabbie had
loaded her things into his trunk.

      They earned over five dollars between them that afternoon and decided
it was a good gig, especially with Christmas coming up in four weeks. When
Jorge heard about their success that evening, he kidded that William could
then afford to pay him for the stud service. What did happen that Friday
night was a new twist on their sex.

      Soliman had been odd man out for months, beating off while Jorge
rhythmically plumbed William's inners behind him. He'd known what they'd
been up to for weeks but Jorge insisted he couldn't fuck William unless he
gave his friend the same privilege, something Soliman had refused to do
until that evening.

      At Jorge's suggestion, Soliman screwed William first. He fired off in
less than two minutes and wanted to continue since he'd reached orgasm so
quickly. Jorge had other plans. He lubed up William's erection then tugged
him over and behind Soliman where William easily poked inside. Soliman lay
quietly, not making any comments. Since he didn't squeeze or pull away,
William figured Soliman was enjoying it as much as he was. That's when
Jorge pushed his big dong between William's ass cheeks and deep inside.

      "It weren't lahk nothin' ah nevah feeled befo'. Jorge only hadda fuck
lahk three o' fo' tahms an' ah wuz gittin' off sumthin' awful an' ah ain'
done nothin', jes' lay theah."

      Soliman felt this thumping and asked William if he was done but Jorge
reached around them and held Soliman in place. Jorge later admitted that he
wanted William to climax when he was getting close because it was often
what flipped his switch.

      William claimed he got off three times during that session, all in
just a few minutes.

      A few nights later, when his aunt was out shopping, Soliman tried to
get Jorge inside himself but it was far too painful. So, he got to fuck
William twice before and after each threesome.

      That Christmas was the only one William had so far mentioned in any
detail. "It wuz the bestest Christmas ah evah had. At the home they was
alus sayin' gifts wuz against the bahbul so we din't git nothin', not even
clothes, `cep' Ahzack prolly. Bossy give me a shirt once but Jimbo din't
nevuh give me nothin' Tia Lili give me a whole set a clothes an' shoes too
an' give me this li'l radio wif eeahphones so ah could listen to songs `n'
shit an' not go botherin' nobody. She give one ta Soliman too. Jorge, `cuz
he wuz the biggest, he got a real radio with speakuhs an' all. An' we et
ham an' all kinds a stuff. Me and Soliman, we git candy and vegetables at
the supuhmahket wheah we wuz workin' an' this purty shirt fo' Tia Lili
too. We tole Jorge the candy wuz kahnda fo' him `special so it wuz we wuz
givin' `im sumthin'. Tio Bernardo got drunk an' din't cum home `til the
nex' day."

      The only novel event of the next year were two encounters with men
who seemed to desire more than cart service. The first one invited the boys
to his house to help him with some cleaning. There was actual work to be
done in the man's garage for which he was to pay them five dollars
each. The cleanup up exposed them to years of old dust. The man suggested,
to avoid problems with the mothers both professed to have, that they take a
shower.

      "Soliman din't wanna do it `cuz the man wuz standin' theah an' `e wuz
gonna see us'ns bof' nekkid but ah din't cayuh none so ah got nekkid an'
let the man fix the watuh so it weren't too hot. Then, the man said he wuz
gonna wash mah back an' ah said okay but he wuz washing me all the way ta
mah ass an' ah'm thankin' he's lahk Jimbo an' wan'sta fuck me so ah said ah
could wash mahself so he jes' standed theah watchin' me an' lookin' at mah
dick. Ah weren't skeered o' nothin'. Ah jes' didn't wan' Soliman goin' back
an' sayin' ah wuz doin' stuff wif no man so ah washed real quick an' drah'd
mahself an' got mah clothes back on.

      "Well, he paid us okay an' carried us back ta wheah we wuz an' we
took the bus on home, Soliman wuz still all dirty. When Soliman tole Jorge
`bout this man, he said we wuz stupid `cuz the man prolly wuz gonna give us
ten dollahs jes' ta suck on ouwah dicks. He wuz sayin' that back in
Honduras they wuz furriners cum theah an' give boys fahv dollahs, sometahms
mo', jes' to suck they's dicks. Jimbo give me money a couple tahms ta let
`im fuck me but nevuh no fahv o' ten dollahs so ah asted Jorge if'n he evah
done that wif one a them furriners but he said no. Ah wuz thankin' he wuz
lahin' but Jorge wuz big so ah din't say nothin'.

      "Nex' aftuhnoon when we wuz back at the Wahlmaht, me an' Soliman wuz
lookin' ta see if'n they wuz men lookin' at us lahk mebbe they wan'ed ta
suck ouwah dicks but we din't see none an' aftuh a couple weeks we figguh'd
the man took us ta `is house weren't comin' back. Anyhow, a man kin git in
a lotta trouble if'n he gits caught by the pohlice doin' somethin' sexshul
wif sum kid. This frien' a Jorge wheah he worked wuz alus readin' the
newspaypuh to `im an' sumtahms they wuz thangs `bout men gittin' busted bad
fo' doin' sex o' jes' havin' pitchures a nekkid kids in they's computer.

      However, toward the end of the following summer, they were again
invited to help a man move things at his house but, "All he done wuz look
at us a lot lahk at ouwah asses an' in front but he nevah done nothin' Ah
wanted ta say he should let us take a shar but Soliman din't
wanna. Anyways, he give us ten dollahs each so it wuz jes' as good `cept we
din't git ouwah dicks sucked."

      With the beginning of school, there was additional
competition. There'd always been other boys offering to help shoppers with
their goods but, that September, there were twice as many, most bigger than
William, several larger than the growing Soliman. The boys went scouting
for another location and found one further out with no competition at
all. There was a reason for that. The guards chased them off.

      William tried to talk to them but were they told unequivocally that
only customers were allowed on the parking lot. As they were giving up, a
man took up their cause with the two guards and was told it was Walmart
policy. The man told the boys to wait while he went and spoke to the
manager. He was unsuccessful but, furtively with his eyes and hands,
suggested the boys go to the exit and wait.

      "Ah tole Soliman raht then that man wanted ta suck ouwah
dicks. Soliman din't say nothin' so ah knowed `e wuz gonna say okay if'n
the man said ten dollahs ta do it. Well, he had this big old cah an' tole
us ta git in `cuz he had sum work we could do ta make sum money. Sho' nuff,
we gits ta his house an' it's fah away, he says all we gots ta do is git up
sum leafs he's got out back his house an' then he says we kin take a shar.

      "This tahm, Soliman's all ready an' he takes his clothes raht off an'
me too an' the man he wants ta wash us raht dayon to ouwah dicks an' ass
an' ah says how much he gonna pay us an' he says whut fo' an' ah says whut
he wants ta do an' he says lahk whut an' ah says anythang he wants is okay
wif us. Well, he jes' stan's theah lookin' an' mah dick gits hahd but not
Soliman's so he asts why mah dick's gittin' lahk it wuz an' ah jes' go lahk
this (He shrugged his shoulders) an' he says do ah play wif mah dick a lot
an' ah say `sum' an' he asts Soliman if'n he plays wif his'n but he don'
unnerstan' so ah says he do too. So we's jes' standin' theah so ah asts
if'n he wants ta do sumthin' `cuz it's okay wif us so aftah he's lookin' at
us a li'l mo', he sticks his finguh in his mouf an' ah moved mah head so he
knowed its okay. Well, he cums ovah bah me an' touches mah dick an' ah'm
thankin' we ain' said how much an' ah asts how much he's gonna pay us an'
he asts how much we want an' ah says ten each an' he says okay an' le's go
inta his room wheah the bed is.

      "He sucked us good, almos' good as Bossy done it an' then he asts how
much ta suck on his'n. Well, Soliman, raht off when ah tell `im whut the
man wan's he says we don't do that but ah'm thankin' he's gonna pay a lot
fo' that so ah says twen'y an' Soliman he don' say nothin'. The man says
that's ten mo' but ah says unh uh it's twen'y mo'. Now, he ain' give us
nothin' yet so ah'm stahtin' ta thank he gotta give us ouwah ten each fust
an' ah tole `im an' he says okay an' gits out a couple tens an' gives `em
ta me an' Soliman.

      "Well, he says twen'y's okay but ah gots ta suck `im all the way `til
his stuff cum out but ah say not in mah mouf `cuz ah know how bad it
tastes. Well, he wanted me ta swalluh his stuff but ah kep' sayin' no so he
says fahv mo' ta swalluh an' ah figguh tha's okay but he's gotta give me
the money fust an' he did.

      "Well, this man got a dick not as big as Jorge's so it's easy. Ole
Soliman, he's layin' theah watchin' me suck this man an' not sayin' nothin'
an' when the man gits off, ah git his dick all the way inta mah mouf an'
ah'm swalluhin' quick as ah kin an' he ain' got all that much then ah went
inta the bafroom an' had me sum watuh.

      "So, then ah'm astin' when he wants us ta cum back agin an' he says
he don' know an' he's gonna look fo' us at the Wahlmaht wheah we wuz but he
didn't say when an' `cuz the pohlice ain' gonna let us be theah ah don'
know when we s'posed ta be theah an' he don' say neithah but he carried us
on back to wheah we could git us a bus an' go on home.

      "We din't tell Jorge `bout that an' we only showed him the fahv ah
got fo' swallerin' an' said it wuz frum takin' people's food to they's
cahs.

      "We nevah seed that man agin. Even Soliman said he wuz gonna suck `im
nex' tahm but `cuz a that, when Jorge weren't aroun' we sucked each'n othuh
sumtahms but mostly we fucked `cuz that feeled bettuh an' we' din't need no
grease fo' us ta do it, jes' spit wuz all.

      William went on a bit more about the sex they were having along with
an unsuccessful attempt to get a neighbor girl into their apartment. They
did locate another shopping center with a different supermarket chain where
they were able to make between four to seven dollars a weekday afternoon
but less on weekends due both to increased competition and fewer people
wanting their services. "On Satuhday an' Sundays they wuz wif they's kids
o' othuh people an' they wuz carryin' they's carts on back to wheah they
hadda go."

      Another happy Christmas came and went. Jorge tried again to fuck his
cousin on New Year's Eve but even with some rum in him, Soliman couldn't
handle it. William was so drunk he couldn't get off even with Jorge, also
inebriated, screwing away for what William thought might have been an hour
but was likely a lot less.

      The good thing that came out of that drunkenness was the morning
after misery which convinced both Soliman and William to vow lifelong
sobriety, for what that was worth.

      On the night of the first Sunday in February, after Soliman had taken
his turn, Jorge managed to stay inside William long enough to shoot his
adolescent juices up inside the eleven year old twice and William was again
able to climax three times. They fell asleep naked without cleaning up but
cozy under a sheet and second hand quilt. The little jar of cream they used
for lubricant sat open beside the mattress.

      At about six the next morning, moments after Tio Bernardo's alarm had
gone off, there was a loud knocking on the door. Jorge jerked William and
Soliman into consciousness and told them to get dressed. The door was
banged open before William could find, much less put on, his boxers. The
invaders were from the U.S. Immigration and Naturalization Service. The
three men and one woman entering were shouting for everyone to get up and
stand against the wall. The three boys were struggling under their covers
to find and put on underwear. One of the men kicked the side of the
mattress then grabbed at the quilt, yanking it loose and tossing it behind
him. Soliman, who'd slept in his underpants tried to crawl under the
sheet. Jorge, on the far side at the wall was still pulling up
briefs. William was sitting up under the sheet fumbling around for his
boxers.

      Then the sheet was ripped away. Jorge jumped up shouting in Spanish
to let them get dressed. Seeing William still naked, the man asked in
English what was going on. William, terrified with no idea what was
happening, searched frantically for anything to cover himself. Another of
the men came over to the mattress and asked in Spanish why William was
naked. Jorge answered that he didn't have any underwear then jerked the
sheet back over him, saw William's pants and handed them to him. William
didn't look at all Hispanic, certainly not like anyone else living in the
room. Tia Lili was protesting that William was just a neighbor staying
overnight with his friends and they should let him go home. Then she said
that William didn't speak Spanish. William immediately understood the
situation, that these people were from the feared `Migra' who chased after
illegal immigrants and that, since he was American born, they should be
letting him go immediately.

      He quickly pulled on his pants, spotted more of his clothes and
crawled quickly to them. He was pulling on his shoes as one of the men in
English asked him his name. "Jackie," he answered. Another asked in Spanish
where he lived. William ignored the question until the first man asked the
same thing in English. "Up the block. Ah wanna go home. Ah din't do
nothin'!"

      A man near the door ordered his men to get William out of the
room. No encouragement was needed. With untied shoes, socks, undershirt and
shirt in his hand, William headed for the door, snatching his jacket off a
chair. Jorge and Bernardo were being handcuffed. Soliman was being allowed
to get dressed. William turned as he left and looked at Soliman then Tia
Lili. She waved goodbye. A wave of depression rolled over him. Tears seeped
into his eyes but none of this interfered with his by then strong instinct
for survival. He knew he had to get away. Then it became even more urgent.

      One of the `migra' men inside the apartment noticed the open jar of
crème by the bed and shouted. "Grab that kid!"

      William saw him pick it up, then took off up the hall and down the
stairs right past two other immigration officers apparently neither of whom
realized the `kid' being called after was the white boy racing past them.

      Ignoring the cold air that enveloped him, William hit the street
running. It wasn't until he turned the corner that he thought to pull his
jacket on. He heard more shouting and the sound of heavy running feet. He
turned into an alley he knew had a cross alley that ran into a walkway
behind some empty houses where he could hide, if he could stay far enough
in front of his pursuers. All had closed gates. He headed for the walkway
in the next block.

      As he crossed the street, someone shouted, "There he is!" He knew
he'd have to keep running. At the next alley, he decided to try and outwit
the migra men chasing him and turned back in the direction from which he'd
come. If one of them was smart enough to run down the street ahead, there
was another walkway he could go into. No one appeared. At the corner, he
flattened himself against a wall and looked up and down the street. There
was no one. He darted across and ran full tilt ahead.

      At the next cross alley, he turned right and went toward an
industrial sector a few blocks away. There would be plenty of places to
hide around the factories there.

      After two more blocks, nearly out of breath, not hearing anything
worrisome, he slowed and squatted just inside a back yard. A dog a few
houses away barked but not very excitedly. William, after wiping the tears
away, took off his jacket and pulled on his tee and button up shirts,
replaced his jacket and tied his shoes. Stuffing his socks into his jacket
pocket, he began walking south. A check found three dollars and some change
in one of his back pants pockets.

      But, by then, the weight of his loss was on him. Tia Lili had been
like a mother to him. Jorge and, especially Soliman, had been
brothers. He'd finally found a family. But now they were gone. All would be
sent back to Honduras. He'd heard the stories, knew what the procedure
would be. Tears rolled down his cheeks, sobs checked his breathing. He
slowed and slumped to the concrete. He'd never before felt so alone, so
lost, so completely helpless.

      As he lay against a backyard fence, he wondered if he could find Miss
Alice. He had no recollection of where she'd been staying. She loved
him. He'd seen the sorrow in her face when she gave him up to the welfare
lady. But that had been two or three years before, he wasn' sure which. How
many Christmasses had gone by? Three, there'd been at least three, no
four. One with Bossy, one with Jimbo and two with Soliman and Tia Lili. Had
he been out of that home for four years?

      He struggled to his feet. No one was about but then it was
early. Where was he to go? He had to hide. The men might be driving around
looking for him. They'd seen the jar with the crème they'd used for a
lubricant, probably spotted the boxers he'd had to leave behind, maybe even
checked Jorge's dick and figured out where it had been and, by then, knew
he'd been living right where they'd found him. No one in that room would
say anything but certainly a neighbor would, the white boy living with
illegals, a boy they had to assume was being fucked by at least one of
them. They'd pursue him for sure.

      The factories offered a myriad of places to hide out, even trash
containers that had industrial debris rather than smelly garbage. William
walked rapidly. Four blocks away there were with the high fences, easy to
get over or through. After looking around and not seeing a watchman, he
chose one whose chained gates he could push sufficiently apart to squeeze
his skinny body through. There were a number of truck trailers inside, some
with unlocked rear doors. Sure no one was observing him, he pushed the
latch up and pulled one open. Inside were strange looking boxes. Pulling
the door further open to let in more light, he could see they were carton
covered large pieces of furniture stacked on top of one another, the upper
pieces upside down. It would be comfortable. He pulled himself up and in
and tugged the door as tightly closed as he could. A sliver of light
allowed him to find a sofa with two upholstered chairs over it but enough
space for him to slide in and relax.

      But again, the pain of his terrible loss swept through him. He kicked
at the carton cover of the sofa arm. If only Bossy hadn't found him that
day in the alley. He'd have been dead by morning with no more worries. He'd
have been in heaven with his real mother. Surely they'd be re-united there.

      Due to the grease still on them, his buns were sticking to the
material of his jeans. Jorge was almost sixteen. Would they lock him up for
the sex they'd had? He could claim they'd just been beating off but there
was probably some shit on his dick. But, that might be better. There'd be
some trouble, perhaps a year in a juvenile place but maybe it would allow
him to stay in the country. But William knew better. They'd still deport
him, send him and the others back to Central America.

      As I watched William tell this part of the story, I saw the
beginnings of tears form in the corners of his eyes. At the same time he
was lamenting his loss, I was hopeful. If William was as fluent in Spanish
as it seemed, that would greatly facilitate a move to Latin America,
possibly Honduras. If he could remember the name of the town where this
adoptive family lived, maybe we could find them and somehow they would be
helpful in protecting William's presence in their country. I'd have a
visa. He'd be paperless. Perhaps with his probable Honduran accented
Spanish, we could arrange a birth certificate.

      Or was all that just the impossible dream of a naive fool?