Date: Sat, 29 Oct 2011 18:01:04 -0400
From: lookmeup26@yahoo.com
Subject: Younger For Older

This is a simple story about two male characters who became involved in
a relationship, one was younger, in his teens, and the other, a mature,
older man.


It started innocently one night in a gay chat room and the young man
clicked on the mature man and wanted to engage in conversation. The mature
man being sincere and friendly continued with the conversation mainly
because the person on the other end of the line was polite.

The conversation was not really sex related as such but there was an
innocence to the young man that the older man found to be interesting.
At the close of the conversation, the two people said that they enjoyed
the conversation and wished to continue if they were ever on line again.

The next time soon after the young boy found the older man on line and
wanted to engage in conversation again. The older man was acceptable to
that and a more friendly conversation ensued. Again there was really no
active sexual conversation, just intimated, and the mature man  was
quite acceptable to that and was delighted with the young boy because he
grew fond of him and whatever discussions that they had. Reason being,
he found the young man delightful and friendly and smart.

There were many of the conversations that followed and at some point
there was an offer to move the conversations to Yahoo! Messenger because
there were less interruptions and the conversations became more
heightened because of the subject matter based on questions that the
younger were asking.

Of course, because the two were more friendly now, there were more open
discussions that took place, about friends, family, and matters of a
sexual nature that the boy was inquisitive about. Naturally, the mature
man was being very helpful to the younger, but at the same time he took
a liking to him.

There however, was a change in their relationship and their discussions.
The young boy grew more fond of the man and there was a discussion he
had with a female friend in which he discussed the relationship he had
online with the elder and that was he found himself more than just a
casual relationship with him and he informed his friend to the fact he
was falling in love with the man. His girlfriend informed him of the
difficulties of such a relationship and the complexities that would
ensue of such a relationship, even of the distance that would occur, and
of course, the age difference. The boy said he did not care, even if the
man was 100 years old. He was still falling in love with him. And, he
planned to tell him the next time they met on line even if he was not
sure about the outcome. He wanted him to know of his feelings.

When they met on line the boy informed his friend of how he was feeling
towards him and wanted to know what he thought about what he was telling
him. The man was surprised  and even though his young friend was  a
friendly and impressionable young boy, he had no idea about how he was
feeling seriously. This now became a dilemma for the man because he had
no basis for the boy's intentions. The boy accepted the man's somewhat
confused answer and the man told him that while he was attractive to his
young friend, it surely was a surprise development. He would have to
take time to access what he was telling him.

Later, the man in his privacy took the boy serious in what he presented
to him and in an afterthought he wrote him an email to him in which he
told him about such a relationship
would be complicated because, they never met, was a online situation and
while the man cared for him he did not realize how much he did care for
him. Let's take a wait and see attitude, was his answer. There was more
time for that in their discussion moving forward.
How little did he know.

As the months grew on the man pondered the developing attraction of the
boy and without knowing when exactly, he began having deeper feelings
for the boy. In fact, he was not sure when he may have said the words
but he loved him as well and finally in closing their conversations he
would tell him so. The boy was heartened to hear him tell him and was
pleased.

The change in direction came suddenly with this announcement:  "I love u
but plz dnt txt me til I txt u cuz my parents found out I'm gay...long
story...dnt reply."

The boy was obviously upset about the unseen conditions that he would be
facing. And, his friend could only wait until the course that would
take. It was a difficult time for both of them.

It took some time for things to settle down regarding the boy and his
parents and his situation, and finally after many weeks, the man's young
friend sent him a txt message that was not actually a clear indication
that things were alright with his situation, but apparently there was no
parental uprising and that not that they were comfortable with him and
his orientation, but were acceptable.

There were changes in their relationship that the man saw as
incremental, but there was a somewhat distant quality and he assumed
that his young friend was moving in a different direction. Of course,
those changes were acceptable because his young friend was getting older
and the older man saw those changes as a good thing.

It was going on two years since the boy and the older man had met. In
the situation that they found themselves in, it was a long time. And,
all the time that they were conducting conversations among themselves,
thru texting, online and an occasional phone call, and happily really,
to always understanding how they felt towards one another, the older man
understood that there would come a time that all of that was in for a
change because his young friend was heading towards college.

Looking back, the man was clearly preparing himself for that change to
come with him and his young friend. In preparation with that the man was
sending his friend a series of emails periodically about how he was
feeling about their relationship. The man had doubts about his own
feelings and the possibilities that his young friend would face in the
few months they had leading up to his final months before facing
college. It was difficult to access the boy's comments with him, because
there were missing elements in their relationship, because in reality
their relationship after all these years had one component missing from
no fault of their own...they never met physically.