Date: Thu, 21 Jul 2005 05:53:50 -0700 (PDT)
From: Steam train <steam_t2000@yahoo.com>
Subject: A Modest Servant Chapter 8

A Modest Servant

By Steam Train   ( steam_t2000@yahoo.com )

Chapter 8: The greatest gift

Marcus and I met each other outside the Administration block and giving
ourselves moral support went into the student office and told Mrs Vaness
that Mr Norris had requested we report to him at recess.

"Stand over there boys, I will let him know you are here" she replied.

When she came back she instructed us to go straight down the corridor to
his office.

This walk was far worse than the one I took when I first arrived at the
school as an indentured servant.

Marcus knocked weakly on his offices door and Mr Norris called out almost
immediately "Enter"

"Close the door behind you please Thomas" Mr Norris instructed as we
entered. I did as I was ordered then stood next to Marcus in front of his
desk.

Unbearable silence followed and when Marcus eventually started to say
something, Mr Norris cut him off with a sharp toned rebuke of
"Silence".

More unbearable silence as we both squirmed in discomfort before Mr
Norris our Deputy Headmaster. He had had plenty of practise at putting
students through this procedure and was a master in its application.

Eventually he looked up at us and establishing eye contact, spoke "Do
either of you deny that what I witnessed was not a homosexual act?"

I was about to try and make an excuse, knowing deep down that it would be
useless, especially for a servant as excuses were never allowed or
listened too, when Marcus replied "Of course it was a homosexual act Mr
Norris, both Tom and I are bisexual, I love him and besides it was my
right as a free citizen to use a servant for sexual fulfilment".

Fucking hell, my mind called out silently, what are you saying Marcus,
shut up. I could feel the blood rushing from my face; I must have looked
very pale. I teetered on the brink of a faint and Mr Norris noticed
because he came rushing around his desk and quickly grabbed me before I
collapsed and guided me to a chair. Marcus seeing what was happening also
came to my aid.

I soon regained my composure but I was in fear of Mr Norris's reaction
to Marcus's bisexual love comment. Why had he told him the absolute
truth, was he mad?

Somehow my near faint had broken the tenseness and when Mr Norris was
satisfied that I was alright, he turned back to Marcus and said
"Bisexual and in love are you? How at your age could you possibly be
aware of what you truly are, let alone state to my face so confidently
that you are bisexual AND in love"?

He went on "I don't care wether you are bisexual, homosexual or
heterosexual, nothing SEXUAL is to take place between anyone of your ages
and especially not in my house, do you understand me?"

Jumping in before Marcus could get me in even deeper shit, I replied
"Sir, yes sir".

To my continuing horror however Marcus went back on the attack "I
understand what you are saying sir, but it ignores the facts sir, we love
each other sir, it's like sticking your head in the sand sir and hoping
it will go away".

My mind couldn't even swear to itself this time, I was totally
speechless in mind and mouth. I know that all I was capable of was
dropping my mouth wide open in amasement at Marcus's comments.

When my mind began to take in fully what had just been said I thought
`Oh God Marcus, you don't talk to the Deputy Headmaster like that!'
Not a good move at all, as the anger signals were building in Mr
Norris's face.

Mr Norris I could see fought with himself to maintain composure. To
assist in regaining his composure, he sat casually on the edge of his
desk and took a deep breath, then to my total surprise as I was expecting
all hell to break loose, he made a very candid and honest remark, a
remark of complete openness to Marcus." I admire your honesty Marcus.
That shows a great strength in you. I don't think there is one other
pupil in this whole school who would have been as game or as honest with
me as you were just then".

He went on "Ok, let me put to you both, the brutal truth in this matter,
after your honesty Marcus, I think you both deserve it given to you this
way".

"If anyone of the parents, especially those that want Thomas and his
brother removed from the school, find out that you have been having any
sort of sexual activity together Thomas will be gone. I will not be able to
protect him anymore and he may suffer a soul-destroying time in servitude
for the next fourteen and a half years. You love him do you Marcus?
... Well if you truly do love him then the last thing you will want for
Thomas is to see him sold off to some new Master who may use him for his
sexual satisfaction as well as his domestic servitude. Do you really want
that Marcus? ... Do you? ... Well I don't! ... You are totally forbidden to
do anything with Thomas that will jeopardise his stay here, do you
understand, ... DO YOU UNDERSTAND MARCUS !!!!"

Again the deathly silence swept across the room.

Marcus had tears in his eyes and running down his cheeks, I could hear
him trying to suppress a sob.

Without giving myself time to think, I got out of the chair and moved
over to Mr Norris who was standing in front of his desk, having stood
back up whilst addressing Marcus and I hugged him tightly and said
"Thank you sir for caring for me". I continued to stand there hugging
him whilst in my mind I now knew that unlike my mother here was an adult
who truly cared for me, loved me in a special kind of way and wanted to
protect me. I felt Mr Norris tense and begin to push me away but he
stopped and I heard the sound of a suppressed sob from him as well and
felt him lift his own hand and rub his eyes behind his glasses.

We stood there hugging for a short while when I felt Marcus join in the
hug and heard him burst out into full crying. Between the sobs, he cried
out "Mr Norris, I do love Tom and I would do anything to protect him and
that love".

After composing himself and our group hugging ending Marcus went on
"Tom, if that means I have to abstain from loving you to protect you, of
course I will do it Tom".

Facing Mr Norris he went on "I am so sorry I have offended you Mr
Norris. I know your beliefs find my actions wrong but it was love Mr
Norris, something wonderful and beautiful not sordid or horrible. I mean
no disrespect to god, I just can't live without that type of love and
Thomas has had a life almost totally lacking in love and responded to my
feelings. Please understand that Mr Norris, please!!, please!!!. I don't
want to be punished for something so special and beautiful that I will
cherish for the rest of my life, something that I am prepared to give up,
to protect the person I love. That is by far a greater punishment than
anything else you can administer to us both. Please, please, please ...
Mr. Norris?".

I was now the one bawling my eyes out. No one had expressed his love for
me like that before. Marcus loved me, Mr Norris in a different way loved
me. I was overwhelmed by love. I looked at Mr Norris and he too had tears
streaming down his cheeks.

"I am a sentimental old fool," Mr Norris said noticing me looking at
him. "I should order you both thrashed for your behaviour. I don't
approve of it, but put the way you have stated your feelings this morning
Marcus I understand how you feel. When Jesus said "Love thy neighbour,
he didn't mean it like this, but still I believe love is the greatest
gift of God".

"Go on, get out of here before I shed any more tears and if one word of
this session gets out, that thrashing I promised will be swift and
painful" he said with a smile and a wink of the eye. "You two could
completely ruin my stern reputation amongst the students, quickly now go,
but remember I never want anything sexual to happen again whilst Thomas
is a servant at this school".

With that Marcus and I gave each other a quick hug then walked out of Mr
Norris's office closing his door so he had time to recover before anyone
saw him.

I am sure that with our red eyes everyone in the Administration building
thought that we had received a severe punishment from Mr Norris and we
had, but not of the kind that they all thought had occurred.

That very evening after Marcus and I had seen Mr Norris in his office, I
was standing naked before Mr Norris for my usual inspection after
showering when he raised again a comment Marcus had made during our
session with him at recess.

Mr Norris said " This morning Marcus said `it was his right as a free
citizen to use you a servant for sexual fulfilment', do you agree with
Marcus on this?"

I immediately thought he was softening his stance on Marcus and I never
having a sexual relationship whilst I was a servant at the school, so I
replied, "Yes I suppose I do, we were told and trained specifically
before we were sold so that we could perform this duty if required".

"Mmmm you really think that do you?' Mr Norris asked.

"Sir, yes sir" I replied.

"Ok then lets put this to the test" Mr Norris stated. "You are to
remain naked tonight and shall share my bed with me as your master
tonight, you shall service me sexually as you have been trained".

I was shocked and I don't think I managed to hide my shock, but then I
thought, `this is a test, he won't do this I am sure, he's not like
this, go along with it and maybe Marcus will be allowed back".

"Master, yes master" I replied.

I stayed naked in the lounge room whilst Ed showered and presented
himself for inspection. When Ed asked why I had not dressed and was just
standing there by Mr Norris's chair, he too was shocked by the answer. I
could sense he wanted to say something to Mr Norris about this, but
knowing his place as a servant he bit his tongue, however I am sure Mr
Norris got the feeling of utter disgust that Ed felt about what he was
making me do.

Mr Norris sent Ed to bed for his sullen and disrespectful attitude and
told him to be careful, as Mr Lindrum would be calling first thing in the
morning.

He then turned to me and said "I'm impressed Thomas, you are turning
into an excellent servant. You were going to go to bed with me as I had
ordered, weren't you?"

"Yes sir" I replied.

"Well I don't want it Thomas, it was only a test on my part to see how
obedient you really are as a servant' Mr Norris replied.

I silently breathed a sigh of relief, I was right about his request. My
opinion of Mr Norris just not being the sort of guy who would use any
servant for his sexual gratification was reinforced and this got me
thinking, "Sir, may I ask you something private?"

"Ask Thomas, I will soon tell you if it is inappropriate" Mr Norris
replied.

"Sir how do you manage to control your sexual desires like you do? I
can't even see a bit of bare flesh and I get an erection, you inspect us
and Samantha too when she was here, totally naked, you could if you
wished have Ed and I sexually service you, yet you choose not to and show
no sign of being sexually aroused. How do you do it sir?"

"That is almost inappropriate to ask, but I will answer it honestly
Thomas as it is a good lesson for you to learn. I was once like you
Thomas, a teenager with a rampant sex drive. I choose to follow a
Christian life style and have prayed long and hard about sexual
temptations. I still get them Thomas I am human, but I can control those
urges and channel that sexual energy into my work and life. Sex can be
all consuming like tobacco, alcohol, drugs or the Internet. You have to
learn as you grow in life how to deal with all these things. I have I
guess to some extent succeeded Thomas."

I just had to raise his ruling on Marcus and I and I saw a faint glimmer
of opportunity here so I said "Tell you the truth sir, I thought you
were testing me out when you asked me to go to bed with you. That's why
I was so willing; I thought you might have been going to soften your
stance on Marcus and I never having a sexual relationship. I would do
anything, anything, including giving you your deepest desires, just to
have that opportunity with Marcus occasionally in the privacy of this
house, where no one would know except you".

"GET TO BED NOW!!!!" he sternly answered.

"Sir, what did I say, please sir I did not mean to offend? You and
Marcus are the most special people in my life I don't want to hurt or
offend either of you, please tell me what I did or said?"

"Giving me my deepest desires? How could you presume to know my deepest
desires, you're a boy I am a man, I don't have any sexual perversions,
I lead my life to a Christian ideal, and you have offended me greatly by
offering me your body as a bribe to get your so called boyfriend in my
house and having sex. That's why I am upset at you. You're a servant;
don't presume to know anything about me. GO TO BED NOW!"

Mr Lindrum was there the next morning to administer two strokes of the
cane to me and one to Ed, to punish me for my rudeness and Ed for his
sullen behaviour.

It was so hard after that. I wanted Marcus and he wanted me but we both
new the risk was too high. We maintained our friendship but over the next
months it became obvious that our sexual desires, now ignited for each
other were driving us slowly to taking that risk. It was either break Mr
Norris's rules or see less of each other.

Marcus was so strong in his character, he began dominating our
relationship, but I was happy for this to happen. It was what attracted
me to him. I didn't know he had made an appointment to see Mr Norris at
school. When he dragged me along unexpectantly, one lunchtime to a
meeting, I was as nervous on that short walk to his office as I had been
the last time.

Again like our recess meeting he told Mr Norris the truth. That our
desires could not be quelled, though we had tried very hard he said. He
told him either we would have to cease seeing each other all together and
that for me, that would be very bad. He could get other friends and even
find sexual partners here at school he openly told Mr Norris. I however I
would be forced into a life of total solitude with no close friends or
love. At least if a normal master had bought me, I would have learned to
serve that master and feel fulfilled mentally, physically and sexually.
The alternative was to allow us some quite time alone in my room where no
one would know anything.

True to his honest approach to life Marcus went on and told Mr Norris,
did he really want me and Marcus sneaking off to some toilet cubicle to
have a quick sexual release because we had no means of quenching our love
and desire?

My mind was again racing. After my poor attempt at gaining a similar
result the night after our recess meeting I felt this was a very risky
approach. I was sure Mr Norris would consider that ending our friendship
was in my best interest. The fact that I would have no close friend as a
servant, well who would care certainly not Mr Norris he believed I was
sure in that famous saying `You can't be friends with a servant'.

Mr Norris replied to Marcus as I had expected. "Marcus you know my
beliefs in this matter, how can you stand there and ask me to allow you
and my servant to use my house as a brothel for some sexual perversion?"

"I can sir because you love Thomas, I can see and feel that sir. You may
pretend to hide it by referring to him as a servant and not as a person
but I know deep down you want the best for Thomas and if that means
turning a blind eye to some aspects of your moral beliefs then that is
what I am asking of you sir. Thomas has had his life shattered; you and
Mr Riley have helped pick up those shattered pieces. A servant's life is
very frustrating, you can sense that sir. You can't do anything you want
to do, only what your owner commands. Thomas no longer has any of the
pleasures that all the other teenagers at this school enjoy, nor can he
be seen to have those little luxuries and pleasures as it could
jeopardise Ed's and Tom's continuing existence here. Some occasional
time alone in the privacy of his bedroom will at least give him something
to look forward too amongst the hard routine and drudge of a servant
fife. You yourself have told me that Thomas is an above average servant,
give him this reward please sir, please don't force us apart!"

It was a heart felt plea and I was again a bit teary-eyed standing before
Mr Norris. Marcus would have to go into politics I was sure. He spoke so
well for a year ten student.

Mr Norris was silent.

Marcus was silent.

I was silent.

You could hear the breathing in the room and in the background the noise
of the students in the playground during lunchtime.

Mr Norris took off his glasses and sucked on the end of the ear frame. He
looked at Marcus and with a sigh said "Your welcome to continue to come
over one Sunday a month Marcus. If when your there and Thomas has spare
time from his duties because you have helped him save time, then if you
choose too, you can close Thomas's bedroom door and I won't disturb you
for an hour, but no longer. I will knock if I need you before the hour is
up and certainly I will knock if you haven't emerged once an hour has
passed. I don't want to know what you do and nothing about what you do
is to leave that room. It is your responsibility to get Ed's agreement
to this secrecy as well. I have never approved this and know nothing
about it, if you are ever caught out, don't turn to me, do you
understand boys?"

"SIR, YES SIR" we replied with huge grins on our faces and before Mr
Norris could protect himself we were both jumping up and down with
excitement, whilst hugging him tightly again.

End Chapter 8