Date: Thu, 2 Feb 2006 18:53:14 -0800 (PST) From: John Nail Subject: Paul Gets His Due part 2 Well here is part 2 please forgive me for the typos I know I just reread it and it was terrible. This is the part where he wrestles with whether he is straight gay or maybe bisexual. Feel free to write me with feedback or if you want to meet me and you live in Michigan close to the Reed City/Cadillac area. I woke up with the phone ringing and I picked it up and it was Rochelle. I said," Hello who is it?" Rochelle said," It is me are you all right?" I told a lie and said," I went to a friends house and got drunk and now I have a massive hangover." Unfortunately not only is Rochelle extremely beautiful but she can tell when someone is trying to bull shit her. Rochelle said," You are such a lousy liar,now what is the truth?" I said," Well let me put it to you this way, I was a guest of a party which I thought I would never be a part of." Rochelle said," It has happened hasn't it? Adam and I are coming over." I have only worked at the bar for about 6 months but I have worked with Rochelle long enough to know that once she gets her mind set on something you were wasting a breath in trying to argue with her. Well I got up and got dressed in some sweats and a tee-shirt. By the time I was dressed there was a knock at the door. Rochelle and Adam came in after I opened the door. I said," Rochelle if you want me to go on a date with you at least let me get dressed in something a little more decent." After I said that Adam busted out laughing and Rochelle shot me a dirty look and than she laughed. She said," You son-of-a-bitch you are the only one I know who can get me to laugh in spite of myself." We went and sat down on one of the couches and Rochelle looked at me. She asked," So what are you going to do?" I said," I am not sure what I am going to do. I mean now this has gotten questioning my sexuality." Adam said," I would normally say welcome over but not this way, you see I have always thought there is something different about me." I looked at Adam and I shook my head. I replied," Adam, you don't understand, I was partially aroused, I mean during the trip down there. I had a stain in front of my pants which was growning in the front of my pants, it was precum. Adam said," Look I am not a doctor and I'm not going to pretend to be, but you have just been assaulted. I am just a bartender that can mix some really great drinks. But all I know you have never expressed any curiosity in my lifestyle. We have become really great friends." I said," I have to think about this, I don't know what to think about this." Rochelle clinched her fists and said," You are my friend, but you make me so mad sometimes you are so bull headed!" We looked at each other and laughed. I said," Look, the DNA that is on my clothes aren't going to die anytime too soon and I believe that is rape is one of those crimes that doesn't have a statute of limitations. I can always explain in court why it took me so long to come foward. Besides Rochelle I am just as stubborn as you are." She asks," Do you know how you are going to explain this to your girlfriend?" I said," For now I don't think I have to explain anything, we aren't going out this weekend she is doing a term paper right now and I am finished with mine." She asks," So how are you doing emotionally?" I said," Honestly, I am still feeling numb,shocked and kind of in disbelief that this happened." Adam spoke," Well my brother's wife was raped and she took it really hard." I said," Well in a way I feel kind of empty kind of longing for a dick and on the other hand I am kind of sickened by it." I might has well been honest with them I have worked with them long enough and shared enough with them that I owed them that. I turned on the T.V. and Univarsity of Wyoming was playing Brigham Young Universaty. Well the next thing I knew Rochelle and Adam got up and both made a phone call. They came back out and looked at me. Rochelle said," Don't try to get me or Adam to change our minds, we have just called a couple of people to fill in for us. They will do it and we are going to stay here over night." I couldn't believe my ears, but I knew when Adam's and Rochelle's minds were made up there was no turning back. Well we were here in Laramie,Wyoming cheering on the cowboys. During one of the commercials I said I was going to get a beer and Adam and Rochelle said they were fine with beer. I got 3 Michelobes and handed one to Rochelle and one to Adam. Well we sat there and watched the game until half-time. Rochelle said," Are you sure you are all right?" I said," Well besides confusion yes I am for now." Rochelle asks," Confusion how?" I said," Well what is my sexual orientation is exactly?" She says," This is no way for you question your sexuality." I said," Well I guess I am just going to have deal with it myself." Rochelle said," I am glad we are here for you." I said," You know what I am too, and you are the best friends I have ever had." They both smiled and gave me a big hug, and well I didn't even feel uneasy about it. Rochelle said," What would happen if your girlfriend comes over." I said," Hey we are both dressed, nothing is going on, and if she is the really jealous type well we don't need to be togather do we." Rochelle said kiddingly," You know if she looks good I might have to take her from you. You never know she might find being loved by a woman might feed all her cravings." I said jokingly," Oh lord that is all I need to worry about a knock out petite blonde as well as the jocks." Adam and Rochelle both cracked up laughing and I joined them. And wouldn't you know it there was a knock at the door and it was my girlfriend. I said," Beth, I am surprised to see you. Why don't you come on in." I led her into the house and introduced her to Rochelle and Adam. She asked," What is going on don't these people work at that gay bar?" I said," Yes they do and they are friends of mine also." Rochelle motioned for Beth to follow her into the bathroom. Ten minutes later Rochelle came out with Beth pale as a ghost. Beth asks," Is what Rochelle says is true?" Adam looks at me with you better tell her the truth. I said," Yes it is true and right now I don't know how to deal with it." Beth said," Well I know how you should deal with it you should report it." I gave her the rundown of no statute of limitations on rape and how DNA doesn't go away with time. I also told her I had to think about it and the games were on. Rochelle said," Adam and I were staying with him in case he needs somebody. We feel partially responsible for not going out with him at least being his eyes and ears. Not all gay people are like Eric and the wolf packs." Than Rochelle started talking about what is called a wolf pack. Rochelle said," Paul thought wolf packs were pretty much a wives tale." Beth asks," Paul are you alright?" I told her I was for now. Beth says," Well I am staying I just finished up my term paper and I can stay. Oh Rochelle and Adam is it I would be honored if you stayed as well since you are two real good friends of Paul's." Rochelle and Adam looked at each other and grinned. Rochelle said," Adam and I have already have someone filling in for us at work so we don't really have anything to do now anyway so we will stay." Well what has happened I was planning to have this house to myself and now I have a houseful. Now how was I going to explain to Beth that I was now questioning my sexuality? I told Rochelle and Adam but would Beth be understanding. She was concerned that I was working at a gay bar. How was she going to react with me questioning my sexuality. Would she blame the fact that I was working at the bar for questioning my sexaulity? I don't know if I can ever find an exceptable answer that one. All I know I was going to have to sit down and tell Beth my true feelings and let the chips fall where they may.