Date: Wed, 11 Aug 2021 09:56:26 -0400 From: Dave Subject: Sliding into Submission (Revised) I want to remind everyone reading this that Nifty is here only because those of us who appreciate it, make that clear by our financial contributions. +++ Tim is demanded nothing of me. He simply knew. We had met because I was the editor of the student newspaper and he wanted to write and maybe do some photography for it. His writing was excellent, and though most of his photography was of natural scenes -- landscapes in particular -- he seemed a perfect fit, and he was soon part of the crew. At staff meetings, he and I seemed to have the most interesting ideas for upcoming articles, and soon we found ourselves spending time together as friends, not just colleagues. It was no secret that I'm gay, and I had a kind of "blowjob" relationship with my roommate, Rob. He hardly ever even had to ask. Just approach me with it out and a smirk, and I'd be on my knees, holding his bare ass with his 7 inches down my throat. "Suck my balls, man." And of course I would. "Back on it. Swallow!" And of course, I did. But as things went on with Tim, he actually began to ask me about my experience. Social, not just sexual. "What was it like for you growing up gay?" kind of thing. I enjoyed his company and felt comfortable with him and told him how wonderful it felt when I discovered another guy in Scouts who shared my interests, but how bad it felt with my church teaching how I was going to Hell, for sure. His sincere responses, a laugh or a pat on my arm, all felt so good, really. One time, after a very comfortable conversation over lunch, I insisted on paying. He objected, but I just shook my head and paid the check. He insisted on leaving the tip, and then we left. As we were heading out, Tim said "our experiences are a bit alike, Dave." "How so?" "Well, um, I'm also into guys, and we're..., well, I'm not coming on to you, but..., shit! Yes, I actually am. I'm so fucked. I never felt about other guys like I do about you." "Tim...." "Dave, we're friends now. You told me stuff you probably don't tell other people. I got up the guts to come out to you, too, because we're friends now, and you're so sexy, and I wanted to get naked with you and fuck, man. I admit it. I never did shit in person with a guy before, even though I knew I wanted to. Just a couple of blowjobs I got at glory holes. But now it's different. I get hard thinking about you. I definitely like you as a friend, but I also definitely want us to get naked and hard and see what happens." We're now in the parking lot and we're both crying. I hugged him to me. It's like we're simultaneously little kids being hugged by protective parents, but simultaneously being the protective parents. Our hands wandered over each other's backs, and I felt his erection pressing against mine. I let my right hand wander down to his ass. Then he's cupping mine with both of his, pulling our hard dicks closer together. White guy and black guy making out in the fucking parking lot!!! I pushed him away, and stared into his face. He blinked a couple of times, then I leaned in to kiss him. We're still in the parking lot and he resisted, but our tongues finally met. I said, "I can't suck you off here, so...". "You want to suck me?" "Shit yeah. I get hard just thinking about it." His hand went to my groin and found I was telling the truth, and I returned the favor. "I told you the truth. I never did stuff with a guy before, so you have to lead the way, man. All I know about this is beating off to fucking porn and some guys sucking my dick through a hole in the wall. But I think with us naked together gonna be a hell of a lot better." We both laughed. "So you definitely know about blowjobs, I guess...." He laughed again. "Yeah, I think I've vaguely heard about them somewhere." I grin. "I never get any complaints, Tim. But I vaguely heard that you guys are bigger, so I hope...." Soon we're at my place, and each of us is waiting, it seems, for the other to make the first move. He said he wants me to lead the way, so I do. I kneel in front of him, and nuzzle his hard dick through his pants and hold his ass, pressing my face hard into his groin. He puts his hands lightly on the back of my head. I undo his belt, then the button, then help his zipper down. He doesn't resist as I slip my hands inside his trousers to hold his ass cheeks and let his trousers slip down. I want his hard dick NOW, and he doesn't resist at all as I tug his boxers over it. His cut 8+ springs up in my face, bouncing this way and that until I take hold. This beautiful black pleasure stick is mine now. I decide I can manage. The head is only a bit wider than the shaft and the skin is darker than the rest of his body. After staring at it for a moment, I plunge down on that beautiful thing of his. I keep both hands on his ass and as he automatically starts fucking my mouth, I find myself holding him tight sometimes so his hard dick pulses in my throat as I massage it with constant swallowing. Tim moans a LOT and finally warns me that he's gonna cum and he tries to pull out. I hold his ass tight and don't let him, but before he finishes down my throat, I do get to taste his cum. He's still dripping a little and I lick that off, and stay on my knees as he recovers. "Shit, man. I never got off like that before." "I got into it too, Tim. And you have delicious cum!!" We both laughed, but neither of us changed positions. He's standing and I'm kneeling. "Did you get off at all? I mean, I don't think I'm ready to suck you off, so I hope..." "Getting you off was the point. I got off just holding your bare ass and sucking this..." as I held his dick and fondled his balls. "So for you, the guy you're blowing is all that matters? You just get off getting him off?" I nodded a little sheepishly. "Yeah." "So my dick is the most important thing for you right now?" "No. Well, yes in a way. When you decided to let me blow you, then yeah, my goal was to give you the best blowjob ever. I know I'm pretty good, and it makes me happy to be able to get you off. But it's not just your dick. It's YOU. If I make you happy, it makes me happy." I'm still on my knees and his dick is starting to harden again. "This sounds insulting, maybe, but do you think of yourself as a cocksucker or something like that?" "I don't use the word, but yeah, I suck dick. I get fucked. Mostly a bottom guy, if you know that idea." His dick jerked when I said I get fucked. I put my hand back on his ass and with the other hand guided is now hard-again dick to my mouth. "Do you want me to fuck you? I mean, I'm hard again and if you want it, you just tell me, man. This is crazy, but I already need to get off again, and thinking about your ass.... But shit, you're in charge. I know you said you bottom, but you decide, man, do you want this up your ass now?" "It's been a while, but yeah, do it. No rubber. If you're gonna fuck me, I want it skin on skin and I want your cum inside me again." "Oh, man, Dave. I never did this. I don't want to fucking hurt you. You gotta help me." "Well, you fucked my mouth, so you already know what to do once your dick is in a warm hole" He actually blushed when I said that. "I didn't mean to fuck your mouth. I mean, it just felt so good around my dick, I just...." "Yeah, that's what I mean. Once your dick is inside my ass, it's the same thing. Tight warm hole, and then you don't need any help to know what to do." "But I don't want to hurt you." "Yeah, getting it in can definitely be a pain in the ass." We both laughed at that comment. Then I told him about how the head of a dick can be the "big" problem at first, popping through the tight hole. "But I took it down my throat, so I think you'll pop right in." He laughed. "So you're in charge. What're you gonna do with this now?" (holding his hard dick out). "Well, I'm gonna get some lube for my hole and your dick, and I've already sucked it and now we'll get that 8 incher into me at the other end. You want to do it with me face down, ass up? Or face up, ass up?" "I want to see your face when my dick pops in." "I want to see your face all the time you're fucking me, Tim. I want to feel you up my ass, and I want to see your face show what you're feeling and I want to hold your ass while you fill me up and your balls bounce on my ass. Go slow at first, so my ass gets used to it, then just do whatever that big boy dick-tates." When he came in me, he almost collapsed on top of me, my legs over his shoulders and his softening dick still in my ass. I told him truthfully that this was the best fuck I'd ever had, and we gradually rolled apart. I cleaned his dick. "Can we do this again, Dave? I am exhausted, but it was fucking amazing. I need to thank you. You treated me like a king." "Tim, we can do this anytime you want, and I'm really happy that it worked for you. That's what matters." "No, you have to get off too, man!" "Oh, maybe you didn't notice, but I shot another load while you were fucking me. You said you never did it before, but shit, man, you KNOW how to get us both off at the same time!" He grinned. "So if I fuck you every day, then you'll never have to jack off again?" "Well, I jack off two or three times a day usually, so you'd have to do a lot of fucking." I rolled over on the bed. His dick was hard again. He's just like me. Half an hour later and we're both hard again. "I see you have a hard problem, Tim. How can I help with that?" "You're making me feel like I'm too fucking special, man. Why do you care more about me getting off than you?" "Because that's what I do. I don't know why, but I just kinda have to make sure you get everything you need and with you, that definitely gets me off, too." "So you gonna wipe my ass after I take a shit?" "Nah, it doesn't include that. But licking your ass sounds good, actually." "That sounds pretty disgusting, but yeah, I've read about it." "Our assholes have like 17 zillion nerve endings, and well, a vigorous tongue fuck might surprise you!" "But when I'm horny, and I let you know, you're gonna be there for me?" "Absolutely. Just like now. You've already been in my mouth and my ass, so if you want them again, then, yeah. But it's not gonna be on the restroom floor or anything like that." "You said you'd lick my ass." "Hell, yeah. Lay back on the bed and pull your legs up. I'm only gonna fuck you with my tongue, man. Don't worry. Oh, maybe a finger or two up your hole, but not my dick -- unless you want it. But ass play is gonna make you hard as hell, and then I'll suck the cum out of you." Tim did as instructed, and I got to suck on his hole, and balls, and then his dick again. He came again while I was finger fucking him and sucking on his balls. So did I. "Dave, you are fucking amazing, and anytime you need to fuck a guy with your tongue, let me know. Now I gotta take a wicked piss." I was still on my knees and took his dick into my mouth. He looked at me. I blinked. I held his ass again and pulled him toward me. No words. He released. As I swallowed his piss, he said, "You actually want us to be like this from now on?" I finished swallowing and said, "I finally found you." "What do you mean?" "Ever since I was a kid, I wanted to find someone who cared about me as much as I cared about him. I wanted to show my love like this. I hope I'm good enough for you." "Dave, I'm never gonna piss in your mouth again, but hell, if your mouth and your ass are there for me, we've gotta deal." To be honest, with the way he said that, I wondered if I'd just been so eager to please that he was thinking of me differently. Not as a "friend with benefits" but maybe just a mouth and a hole for him. It was only later that I knew. "I still want to be friends, Tim, even if we do all of this again and again." "Actually, that felt incredible, so yeah, for sure." "I also want to be able to act normal around you. Everybody knows I'm gay, but somehow I don't want them to know what we're doing. You probably don't want that either, right?" "No problem." "But you know I'll do whatever it takes for you." "Yeah, I know, Dave. And now I know it's not just blowjobs." He looked me in the eyes. I actually felt like this was what I wanted in life. A man to please. "Totally right. But I do still want to suck your dick. And whatever else you want." "Oh, yeah, twice a day, I hope. But I want you to promise that your ass is only for me. You told me nobody's fucked you in a long time, and I really want your beautiful ass to be just mine." "I was hoping you'd say that." Several months go by with us. Tim comes around from being rather timid about it, to being more than a bit assertive. He'll text me to say he's horny and meet him in the third floor restroom. Or he shows up at my dorm room with an obvious erection showing down his leg, and asks my roommate to "give us some time, okay?" "Yeah, he probably knows I'm fucking you, but don't let him into your ass, man." "He's a bit pissed because I used to suck him off, but since you told me I'm yours, I'm not blowing him, and well, now he knows it's because of you." "You can blow him. He's a cool guy and he's used to being able to get off in your mouth. Just don't give him your ass. It's mine." "He's gonna want it now that he knows about you." "You like his dick, don't you, Dave? I mean, how many fucking times have you sucked him off already?" "Yeah, a couple times a week usually -- and for a white guy he's almost as big as you. And he cums in buckets!" "His cum better than mine?" "Nah, just different." "Anyway, I figure he's gonna want your ass now that he knows about me. And I know you. You might just say to yourself that I'll never know. And that's right. Maybe we can fix it up so you suck him while I fuck you at the same time...." I actually think, "oh, man, my two favorite dicks at the same time!!" Then a month or so of pretty much daily fucks later. "I have a friend. I want you to do for him everything you do for me. I mean, suck his balls, suck his dick, swallow his cum, eat out his asshole if he wants you to. And definitely let him fuck your beautiful hole. You said you'd do anything for me, and I want you to make Jacob happy." "I thought I was just yours." "Yeah, you are. And you told me you'd do anything for me. So now I want you to help out Jacob. I think you'll probably like his dick, just like you love mine and Rob's." "Okay. Let me know." Tim left and I settled down. I was excited about a new "adventure" but also disappointed that Tim was offering me to other guys. It made me hard and pissed off at the same time. Then my roommate returns. "I guess that was pretty quick and you guys didn't do anything, right?" "Nah, he just wanted to tell me about some stuff. But he told me I could go ahead with you when you want a blowjob. I mean, he's in control and he knows I suck you." "What all do you do with him?" "Everything." "So he doesn't mind if I fuck you?" "He said my ass is off limits, but I can blow you like we did before." "How would he know if I fucked you right now?" "He probably couldn't tell, really, but he actually kinda said it'd be okay." I was pissed. If Tim was lending me out to his friends, then why the fuck wouldn't I decide to enjoy Rob up my ass? He stood up. I knelt down. He said, "this isn't blowjob time. Get your ass naked on the bed." I did. He held out his dick. "Get it wet, like always, man" I did. "Get your legs up." I did. "Pull your ass cheeks apart so I can see your hole." I did. "You know I'm gonna cum in you, right?" I nodded. "Is mine as big as his?" "Almost." "Do you still want it up your pussy?" "Yes." "Ask me." "Will you fuck me, Rob?" "You can do better than that if you really want my dick up your ass." "Please fuck my ass, Rob." I grabbed lube from the side table as I saw Rob using his knees to push my legs apart. He holds his dick up. "You want this?" I nodded. He said, "Tell me EXACTLY what you want." "I want you to fuck me." "Tell me more." "I want you to shove that dick up my ass. I want you to fuck me hard. I want you to shoot all your cum into me." "And then?" "When you finish, and pull out of my ass, I will clean you." "You'll suck my cock after I fuck your ass?" "Yes. I love your cum." "What if I get hard again?" "I will suck it and I'll swallow your cum like always, or you can just fuck me again." His cock just popped into my hole when his phone dinged. He responded. "Yeah, he did. No problem at all, really." "That was Tim. He wondered if you offered me your ass." "You know him?" "Hell, after he found out you were blowing me, he told me he fucked you, and we've been talking a lot. I told him I wanted your ass. He said he told you it was off limits, but he wanted to know if you were desperate for my cock too, and I told him you are." I looked down. "He wants me to let other guys fuck me, so I figure why not you, too?" "He'll be back soon to fuck you again, after I finish. He'll have my cum for lube, so he'll slide right in. And I'll get to see that big black cock in your pussy, man. Probably make me hard again, so maybe you'll be lucky enough to get a cock in both holes. I know how much you love my cum." And that's exactly what happened. Tim and Rob greeted each other like old friends. Rob was still naked and half hard. Tim started stripping and told me to get into position, so I did. Tim said "if you want it, you have to get it out, Dave. So...." I undid the button at his waist and when I reached around inside his jeans to cup his ass, they fell to his ankles. He stepped out of them. He grinned at Rob. "You lubed him with your cum already?" "Hell yeah, man. Dave's a great cocksucker, but I wanted his ass for a long time. Thanks for helping me get it." Tim tells me to get onto my back. "Dave, I figured you'd tell Rob I said no, but you'd do it anyway. One of your best qualities is how you just love a hard dick." He positions his beautiful dick at my ass and moves forward, penetrating me with no pain at all. "But hard dick is your greatest weakness, too. You just can't say no." "I know. I'm sorry." "Don't be sorry. You get what you are, man, and you're GREAT at it." He's talking and I can hardly focus on his words because he's fucking me so beautifully and Rob is teasing my mouth. I lean back over the edge of the bed and Rob knows where his hard dick belongs. They both knows what works for me. All I can see are Rob's balls while Tim pummels my ass and keeps talking to me. He straightens up and fucks his beauty one more time hard up my ass and I know he's giving me his cum. I'm always ambivalent. I want to taste it because it is so savory/sweet and it's HIM, but I also want him doing his thing with my prostate and all the sensitive nerves. But I love Rob's cum, too. "Don't be sorry, my man. You are so fucking smart and a great writer and you helped me so much with my own coming out. I think we're both figuring out who we are, and in a lot of ways, we're like ying/yang. When we got to be friends and started `exploring' sex, first thing you did when we got to your place was you went to your knees because you wanted to be mine." He was right. I actually wanted to be Tim's. I wanted to be whatever he wanted me to be. Sexually, socially, whatever. I was desperate to be special to someone. I thought that was Tim. Now I find out that even as I coached Tim along with sex stuff, he was thinking beyond me. Yes, I loved him, not only his dick, his ass, his nipples, but even more the fact that he told me how special I was to him. But now I crashed. Was I just a mouth and an ass for his beautiful Black cock? Rob is far more obvious. He just plain out admits he wants my mouth and my ass because he just wants warm holes. "A helluva lot better than jacking off" he says. He's an okay roommate, and he's got a great dick, and I've always liked sucking his balls, too, but I never figured there'd be anything more between us. I confront Tim next time we meet. "Hell, Dave, we both know how much you love cock. Why the fuck would I NOT offer you more?" "I thought we were a couple." "And that's why you decided Rob could have your ass too, right?" I had no response. He was right. I'm graduating summa "cum" laude, so I have goals for my future, but in reality, a hard dick in my mouth or my ass today is THE goal today, and pretty much every day. "So you still okay with this?" (As he holds up his dick.). I go to my knees. "Yeah, I see you are." "Here's a firm offer. Yes or no. We can be that ying/yang, giver/receiver thing -- my dick being your main one, and your ass being MY main one. So yeah, we're a couple in that way. But I want to share you. I want to tell other guys how great you are. And yeah, like with Rob, I actually do get off on how much you get off on other guys' dicks. And you're free to follow your horniness now and then, too, but you always have to come back to me and get me horny telling me about your extracurricular activities. OR you can tell me to fuck off, and you'll never get this anymore." "You've really changed from when you didn't know shit about this stuff." "Yeah, you taught me a lot. But one of the main things you taught me is how much you need me to be -- well like our first time. You were down on your knees and if I weren't already hard, seeing you there, kneeling, begging for my dick, that would have made me hard. Like I said before, as smart as you are and as handsome as you are, that taught me how much you needed someone like me. Actions speak louder than words, and you on your knees taught me a lot about you. Now I want to know. Are you mine?" I hesitated. I knew I loved cock, not only his. I thought about Rob, and Jacob and other possibilities. Then I nodded. Tim said, "don't just nod. SAY it." "Yes, I want to be yours, Tim, but it isn't just for your dick, man. It's YOU. You're right, I need someone like you, and you came into my life." "Tell me if you are okay if I maybe tell a friend that you...." "Whatever you want. A while ago, you told me I'm in control. So now I say, pretty much whatever you want is what I want. I gave you my mouth and my ass, and I gave you control, too. You know that. Rob told me that you said you already figured I'd let him fuck me, so you already know I'm gonna give in when I get a chance." "So you mean that you don't want my control?" "Well, yeah, I do, but not total, man. You don't get to tell me what I eat for breakfast or what toothpaste I use or what clothes to wear, and you don't get to fuck me in public, but yeah, I mostly gave up control because I trust you. Sex stuff, but not only that. I mean, you actually mean a lot to me. But yeah, my ass is yours because we both love it when you fuck me, but we're also friends, I hope. But shit, I'll talk with anyone I want, and if it works out that some sexy guy wants a blowjob, you already know for sure I'm gonna suck his dick and yeah, I'll bend over for some of them too." Tim smiled. Not condescending. More like appreciative that I'd actually "talked back." "Was Rob any good?" "He just wanted to get off. So not really." "You want him up your ass when I can't?" "Better than nothing. And it's convenient for both of us to get off back in the room." "Any other specific guys you bone up about?" "Well, there's this guy -- he's another Black guy, so I don't want you to be jealous or something -- but he works at the library and he looks at me like he wants my ass. I mean, he just makes me think DICK. And yeah, he's definitely noticed that I check him out -- and I know he's bulged up a few times checking me out, too." "You definitely have to see what that guy wants. Suck him if that's what he wants, or let him fuck you. Just tell me all the details!! I'm not gonna be jealous, just hornier than usual when you tell me all the details." "Thanks, man. It's so cool that you let me explore." "Actually, it gets me hard thinking about you sucking or getting fucked by other guys, because I know you always come back to me and this hard meat." And then, of course, I went down on my knees and sucked the delicious cum out of my favorite dick. Jacob turns out to be one of the graduate assistants in the English department, and we're already sort of acquainted. It didn't take long until one day Jacob said, "Tim said he really enjoys the stuff you guys do together." He emphasized "stuff," and I nodded back and said "Yeah, we both love it and he told me you might too." Then, much more quietly, Jacob says, "He said it was cool with him if we 'do stuff.' Is that right?" I look in his eyes. "He told me I should do with you everything I do with him." "Is it ONLY because he told you to?" "Shit no. You are like a sex god. I mean I watched your ass like forever." "He said you love dick." "He's right." "Why did you talk about my ass?" I paused. "Because a guy's ass turns me on. It makes me want to suck his dick, and hold it when he cums...." "So is that all?" "Nah, I like to suck a guy's hole, too." "Yeah, Tim told me. But you are being so fucking honest. I hardly believed him until now." Then Jacob went on. "I'm not sure if I'm straight or gay or bi or just a horny fuck, but I know I got hard when Tim said you were 'available'. I hate that idea that he thinks he can just lend you out." "It's pretty strange for me, too. It's like I'm just a 'thing.' But he sure picked the right guy to lend me to!!!" "But you and me, can we just help each other out? It's weird. You already told me you like being the receiver, and so far, I like being on the other end, and well, it actually sounds like you want to help me out. I mean, Tim told me you ate out his asshole and he made him shoot without even touching his dick. I mean...." "Nah, like I said, I get hard just wondering what's inside your pants. Then Tim said to do whatever you wanted. So it was like, this is fucking amazing! He's telling me to do what I already wanted to do. I'd love to do anything you want, man." "So you want to right now?" As he grasps his crotch and looks at me. I slide down to be comfortable for the upcoming blowjob, but Jacob asks, "a blowjob or ---?" I just say, "your call. But I want to suck you before you fuck me. I want to taste you." It took a matter of seconds until his "perfectly suckable" cock was in my greedy mouth, and his slightly hairy ass cheeks were in my hands. I push him back on the sofa a bit, and pull his shorts off of his ankles. I want to taste his hole. I REALLY want to taste his hole. I bend him up. "Hold your knees, man. You want this as much as I do -- maybe even more!" His hole is right there in front of my eyes, and I look at it, almost like trying to memorize it, before I go tongue first into it. I lick up, then down, then almost nibble, before trying to get my tongue in. Jacob moans "oh, fuck" and I keep my lips on his asslips and continue trying to work my tongue in. "I want to loosen you up a little. One finger, okay?" "Shit, man. If you do that I'm just gonna shoot!" And so I slide my index finger in, and get my mouth ready to go down on him to finally taste his cum, too. It was delicious! After he regains his breath, "Dave, you didn't get off." "I did, and I'm gonna have to change my boxers, but me getting off wasn't the point. Getting you off was how I got off. Same with Tim. It's kinda weird, but getting you guys off is how I get off. So it's almost selfish." "No wonder Tim brags about how great you are." Later, months later, long after I'm "involved" with Jacob and have tasted him every way possible, Tim says, "I want you to suck my brother's dick. He's only 14, but he's horny as hell, and I he thinks he might be gay, so I told him I'd get him a blowjob." That actually excited me. "You think I'd be his first?' "Yeah, when I told him about you -- and no, I didn't say your name, just that there was a guy who sucked my dick -- his eyes lit up and he said, "would he suck mine?" I told him I'd arrange it. So you want to suck a 14 year old kid?" "You said I would, so yeah. What's he look like? How big is his dick?" "He's kind of on the skinny side. Not sure about his dick. Never saw it hard. I'm gonna tell him you'll blow him, and you'll swallow. I want you to tell me what it's like. I'm actually curious about how big his dick is and how he treats you." "But he probably already knows about me. I mean, we're always together and if he's talking about getting a blowjob, I figure he knows...." "Yeah, I guess so too. I think most people have figured out what you are with me. I mean it's pretty obvious that you decided what's what with us." "Yeah. You keep setting me up to get fucked. I thought you wanted my ass for your own, but you actually like it when your friends can dump a load in me, don't you?" "Oh, yeah. I love watching that when I can. And I'm hoping my brother will lose his virginity up your wonderful ass, too. I figure you'll give him his first blowjob and definitely his first fuck." "So I guess I'm just a couple of holes for you, right?" "No. You and I are -- well, somehow we're opposites and somehow we're alike. You are my friend, and I love the sex with you, for sure. And I already know you love going down on me, and all the other dicks I get for you. So stop whining. You get my dick -- and I get you more dick. You're complaining?? Shit man, you're getting' more now than ever before, and now you have someone who actually loves you as a friend, not just a couple of holes. But you're gonna suck off my bro, and you're gonna beg him to fuck you. And you're gonna tell me if his cum is anywhere as good as mine." We both laugh. I nodded. He was right. "Okay." "The idea of him fucking you just made you hard, didn't it?" "Yeah, I wonder about his balls, too. I think most Black guys have big balls and big dicks, just like you. But what really made me hard is that you said you love me just for being me." Sunday afternoon. Tim and Josh show up at my place. "This is the guy I told you about." "That's Dave!! I mean, shit!" "Yep, you're right, and he'll give you a great blowjob." I kind of blush, but Josh, only 14, is a real stud. Not like he overdid it at the gym, but like WOW, perfect blend of height and weight and a real "presence" too. Just seeing him made me hard, and soon I'm gonna have his dick shooting in my mouth. I wonder if his cum tastes like Tim's. Josh sort of whispers to Tim, "what should I do now?" Tim says out loud, definitely for me to hear, "tell him to kneel down and tell him to suck your dick. He loves us telling him what to do. Just watch." Tim stands up and says, "Dave, you're gonna get both today, so show Josh exactly how you beg for my dick." I get on my knees in front of Tim and nuzzle his groin. "Tim, I want to see it man, I want to hold your bare ass and I want you to let me suck your beautiful dick." Josh is massaging his junk, and Tim says, "That dick in Josh's pants is your only goal now, Dave. Make him happy. But you need to be naked, Dave. I want Josh to see what you are so he knows everything he can use." I stand up and strip down. Tim is obviously hard and he nods to Josh, who now gets a bit more assertive and tells me to undo his pants "because you can't suck it if you don't let it out, man." Josh is hung a lot like his brother, and as I'm sucking on it, Tim tells him, "see, I told you. Some guys are made for this. Dave actually taught me what he is for." "He'll lick your asshole too. After you finish fucking his mouth, just tell him." "Actually, I was gonna leave when he went down on you, but I'm hard as hell watching him suck you, so I'm gonna fuck him. He'll have two real men at the same time. He has two holes, so let's use them." "Jesus, Tim, I never saw you hard. How does he get that up his ass?" "Just watch. You can fuck his ass, too, after me. He blows a lot of guys. He promised his ass to me, but I told him you're my bro, and you can have his ass, too." I had to be careful, because I had Josh in my mouth and now Tim was shoving into my ass. I didn't want to bite Josh's dick. I was actually falling in love with it. Perfect for my mouth. I'd let it go sometimes and suck his balls, then fall back on that 14-year-old dick. I wanted his cum. I wanted those balls. I wanted. And oh, yeah, I was so focused on Josh's dick that I hardly noticed that Tim was using my ass. They cum almost simultaneously. I have two loads of Sherman brothers cum in me, and I'm smiling. "See, Josh? Some guys are made for us to use. He wants us in his holes. He actually taught me that. When I told him you were only 14, his dick jumped at the idea of sucking you, man." "Wait `til I tell Greg. He talks about wanting a blowjob all the time when we jerk off." "No, don't tell him about Dave. He's just for us now, and whoever I let him suck." Then he paused. "But what the hell, do you want to suck another kid, Dave?" "If you say so, hell yeah." "Okay, Josh. You can tell Greg you got a blowjob and the guy will suck him too. Don't tell him about the fucking and stuff. Just a blowjob." "Can he blow me again now? I mean watching you fuck him made me hard again." "You don't have to ask me. Just tell him what you want. We own his ass now but I definitely like the idea that he's sucking every dick he can find. And he's gonna love your dick up his ass too." "And he'll suck Greg too?" "Ask him right now if he wants to suck your buddy." "Do you want to suck Greg? His dick isn't as big as mine yet, but he can cum. Do you want to suck his dick, too?" I nodded. Tim said, "SAY IT." "Yes, I want to suck your friends." "You said `friends' plural. So if he tells more guys about this cocksucker he knows, you'll drink all their cum?" "Yes." "Yes what?" "Yes, you know I'm a sucker for dick." Everyone laughs. "I can fuck him too?" "JOSH. Don't talk about him like he's not even there, asshole!!! I don't fucking OWN him!!" Josh cringes. Then Tim turns to me. "Dave, tell Josh what you want. It's really up to you to beg, man, not him. You know what you want." "I love your dick, Josh! You just tell me how you want me, man! My ass is yours just like my mouth." Tim grinned at Josh and then at me. "You should be pretty happy now, Dave. You finally just decided to accept yourself. Congratulations, man! The world needs men who know why they exist. And I think not very many men like you have the balls to surrender control, but still hold their heads up. So tell Josh exactly what that hard dick of his can do for you." "No, Tim. Josh tells ME what my mouth and ass can do for HIM." And now I knew what I am. I thought I was teaching Tim about this and actually he was pretty naïve at that point, but he was a quick learner and I guess I just allowed him in. He knew me before I knew me. But I get more cock than I ever did before, so Tim did me a huge favor. Josh is in college now, and he still uses me. Once he got into my ass, he couldn't get enough. Tim teased him that he never needed lube, because Josh's cum was always there. And that's more than cool with me. Rob moved on after a while, and so did Jacob and well, now only Josh and Tim get my ass. Neither one of them seems interested in proving anything because they know I'm theirs. I do pretty well at my job. Adjunct instructor at the same college Josh attends. Everybody knows I'm gay. Almost nobody cares. Nobody calls me cocksucker or slut or faggot or bitch. Everyone just assumes I have someone in my life -- and I do. Then one morning I take care of Josh's morning wood as usual, and he looks down at me slurping up any spills. "I have this friend, Dave. He needs some extra help. I told him how great you are. I hope you don't mind." "I guess you're not talking academic help, right?' "Right again, Dave. I figure you need some variety in your life, not just sex -- but I did notice that your dick perked up. Anyway, he's wondering about shit, just like Jacob, and you are the right guy to help him figure it out if he's straight or gay or bi. I think he's interested mostly in guys, but whatever. So if he really IS gay, is he bottom or top or vers or just some kind of 'right hand guy' watching porn? You are the dude to help him figure it out, man. You are the guy who teaches ALL of us to just be who we are and actually be better." I look at him like WTF? He says, "ask Tim, too. You having the guts to just be you made me have the guts to accept me as me. I just wanted blowjobs and my first fuck -- but then you actually showed me what a "real man" is. Actually you more than Tim. Don't tell him I said that!!" We both laugh. "So here I am, 21, gay as fuck, telling my bottom man how much he taught me." I feel dumbfounded. "Josh, Tim was the guy I loved who taught ME how to just be me. He wanted me to be the guy I was almost afraid to be, so in a lot of ways he let me be me. Cocksucker and all." And Tim walks in. "No, Dave. Only partly true. I was the asshole who saw you kneeling down wanting my dick, and thought, 'oh, man, my cocksucker.' And then what the fuck did you do?? You showed all of us that 'yeah, I can suck dick and get fucked, but I can also hold my head up because I am who I am'. You never let ANY of us shame you even when I tried to, like with Rob." "So Tim, are you saying you -- I don't know how to say this -- but are you saying you don't want to, um, fuck me anymore or let me suck you off?" "Hell, no, man. I love it all. I'm just saying, well, I'm finally going to say that I was fucking stupid to think you were just there to be my cumdump. There, I said it. I was being an arrogant asshole. I'm sorry. YOU were the real man I thought I was. I was the guy thinking I was better than you because you wanted to -- well, I figured if you wanted my dick, you weren't a real man, and I treated you like shit...." And Tim was right. I do hold my head up (except when I'm eating his hole, or sucking cum out of his balls while Josh fucks me -- or vice versa) because I love being who I am. Josh chimes in: "So will you help Justin with his self-esteem like you did me and Jacob? And maybe with some other hard stuff???" We all laugh. "I'll help him with whatever he needs." "Yeah, you're pretty fucking amazing at solving hard problems. Oh, and he's a white guy. Hope you don't mind." I'm actually still on my knees. I grin. "So who's next, guys? I really need to get off."