Date: Sat, 11 Sep 2021 18:56:51 +0000 (UTC)
From: "ozorli65@aol.com" <ozorli65@aol.com>
Subject: All for Terry (43)

This is the continuing story of the utterly beautiful Terry.

I was going through some old boxes of things and found some
adult magazines I used to have.  I hadn't seen them in years.
As I went through them I saw a wrapped package and there were a few more
in there. But these were covered in plastic. The guy in the cover of
them, I had actually met a few times. Before I knew who he was of course.
But I always thought he was the most gorgeous man I had ever seen.

As I mentioned, I had actually met him a few times. It turns that we had
worked in the same building. And it wasn't until sometime later that I
found he was the guy in my magazines.
This story is for him. A kind of 'What if' story about a guy I wanted for
many years, but fate never made that fantasy come true.

This is for Terry. Where ever he may be.

Enjoy....
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All for Terry
(Chapter 43)
Highest High...

... Yes things in my life had been going very well. And I was the
happiest person I could ever be. I was with the man I adored. I loved him
and he loved me. We had trips to distant locations and enjoyed one
another. Emotionally and physically. I would lay to be each night and we
would kiss each other to sleep. Then I would awake laying in him. My head
on his wonderful chest. Nuzzled in it and the fur on him. Those hairs
tickling at my nose. But I stay there drinking in the scent that was
always on his perfect body. The scent that had lingered on hus clothes
and on me afterwards. Kissing hus mouth each morning and. We were just
lost in the love shared between us.
Oh my yes was I happy. The joy in my face was the greatest joy anyone
could wish for. So I had that which I always wanted. Something I never
imagined would have. The perfect man and home life. Even work was great.
Everything seemed to be all candy and roses. And it was very very good,
for a few years at least.
So as it was, and I stopped the worry that had been in my earlier life. I
let my guard down.

So as with the change of the seasons, something changed with him. It was
then as I was seemingly at my happiest that things started to change.
Terry became increasingly jealous when I was with other men. Even though
there was nothing he needed to worry about. He was so. Always questioning
where I was, and whom I was with.

"Where were you today?" He would ask
"Why were you late getting home?"

Silly little questions that by thought were unnecessary because I would
never ever consider something to hurt the man I loved. But it was there.
At first I thought it was cute that he was jealous. It made me almost
adore him more. But again it started to get more intense after a while.
Especially when I made a new friend. A make friend. Serge was his name.
Serge was a UPS guy that came to our offices on a regular basis. Serge
was a handsome average height guy with an obviously incredible body under
his uniform. I had seen the thick meaty arms and great legs in the shorts
he came in when the summer was here. He had soft brown eyes and a beard,
and was always very nice when he came in to make a delivery. He had a bit
if an accent that suggested he was if European decent. And I did find the
man attractive. I mean who wouldn't?
But, Terry was the love of my life. This was for sure.  And any though of
adultery that possibly crossed my mind was squashed quickly. As I would
never cheat on the man I loved more than life itself. That was something
that was truer than true for me. There could be no one I could live more
than my Terry.

And besides his weirdness was a long slow building thing that seemed to
evolve through many years.and at first I had barely noticed it. At first
I found it almost romantic in a way that he wanted me all to himself.

"You are my only" I would tell him
"Good" he would say back
"Because you are mine as well"

And just like that the awkward moment would pass. Then it would seem back
to normal again. So I mostly ignored the signs of his changes. And every
day we would exchange 'i love yous'. It was just a way of letting one
another know that we still did. And I did. I knew I did. I would just
look at him and my heart still had that ache for him I always had. That
tingle that was always there in my gut and chest when ever I looked upon
his face.
And he always seemed.to.show the same love I gave back to him. Cute
surprises on just random days. And grandeur gestures of love on special
occasions. It was all there. So I never doubted his love for me.

"Hi baby" he would each day after a long drive home
"Missed you. Always do when you are gone"

And I would say the same. Wrapping my arms around the man I loved as we
kissed. His lips always the softest as he pressed them to mine. His taste
always somehow fresh and almost sweet. Like he would always make sure his
breath and mouth were clean for me.
He would touch my face in a gentle caress as he held on to me. Pulling me
into his strong embrace and locking me into it.

Then as we were to celebrate 8 years and we were out to a wonderful
dinner at a surfside restaurant that looked over the lights of the bay I
received his greatest surprise. I was a place we had been to before. I
loved it because it overlooked the bay. To on side was the lights of
homes on the hill and the other the crashing waves of the ocean. It had
great food and view. The ocean breeze light as we sat at the table next
to the open doors to the deck that had seating for cocktails that looked
down to the water below.
The one solitary candle on the table and the one hanging light fixture
above giving out  a soft glow.  The flickering candle lighting up his
perfect face as we sat there enjoying the atmosphere of the place.

"How was.your day?" He asked
"Fine" i replied
"Not to busy"
"Was actually pleasant with the low volume"
"And you?"

I looked at his eyes. The candle flame lighting of the flecks of color in
his eyes. Little dances of light as it moved over the hazel green in hus
beautiful eyes. It was like his eyes were alive all there own. Making
little dances of changing color in them.  And I was lost in that dance.
And the mirror image of the candle bouncing off the black center. Stared
back at me as he gazed at me. His lips glistened with the moisture on
them as he spoke. How I wished to kiss them right there at that moment.
To.lean over and place another soft loving kiss to those luscious lips of
his.
Then I had remembered he had a busy week. Some important clients he had
to sway. And I wanted to let him know I remembered it and wished him well
on getting the client hooked in.

"Didn't you have some.big contract you were working on this week baby?"
I asked of him.
"Some big deal?"
"Yes" he replied
"It has taken several meetings. But they signed off this morning"

I smiled joyfully and reach over and grasped his hand. Giving it a gentle
squeeze. Holding it in mine as I congratulated him in his success in the
matter

"Oh my God. That is wonderful baby" I crowed
"I am so happy for you"

He smiled and then started interjected how good a deal it was.

"Pretty commission" he said
"Maybe we can go somewhere nice with it"
"Some fancy exotic local for like a honeymoon"

Then hus eye brow cocked up as he saud this. I then looked at him as the
words that spilled from his mouth registered. And as I smiled lovingly at
him I got what he was inferring with hus comment. Then my eyes grew wide
as my mouth just hung there opened stupidly. Had he just started a
conversation. About something even more permanent than we had? A
conversation about a lifetime commitment with each other

"Huh?. What?" Slipped from my lips.

I was gonna ask again at what he was getting at. But then he reached into
his pocket. And that was when Terry pulled out a small black box. He
smiled as he looked at the stupor in my face. Then he placed it down
before him in the table.
'Oh my god' my head screamed. He is suggesting it. He is! And then he now
leaned back over the table and Terry grasped both my hands. He geld them
tightly to his as he started him proposal. Yes a proposal.

"Its been 8 years my love" he stared
"I know before that it was a bit rough"
"And to this day I still feel shitty for what you went through. Because
of me"
"But the last 8 years have been the best of my life"
"And you are everything to me"
"So..."

He paused as he looked at my face. Tears were quickly welling up in my
eyes. But the best tears. Tears for the joy that was quickly filling up
my heart, filling up my chest. Terry wanted me to marry him. And yes that
brought tears. For I never believed I would be here like this with
anyone.  Let alone the most perfect man alive. With all the heartache in
my earlier life I never believed that I would even have anyone so
wonderful in my life, let aline have him want to be with me for always.
So yes I cried. My tears of joy just started to soil from.my eyes as he
spoke to me. The love I was feeling at that moment more intoxicating than
if I poured down a whole bottle of wine into my belly.

"Awe. Hey." He said as he saw me start to cry
"Don't do that"
"You will make me cry"

I tried to compose myself as I waited for him to speak it out to official
say what he wanted form me. The proposal he was laying on me here in one
of my favorite restaurants.

"So.." He started up again
"My love. I have been wanting to do this for some time now"
"And as our anniversary approached. I thought what better time"

He again squeezed my hand his other grabbing the box and with it popping
open the case. I looked to the side as a straight couple looked on over
at us . the woman smiling from ear to ear as she was witnessing this
event. She smiled at me and almost giggled to herself as she waited too
to hear what Terry was to say. He gentleman friend. Only half smiling.
But he seemed approving of what was taking place. Okay with this whole
new world where men were allowed to show their affection for another man.

"I have loved you since I first met you" Terry started
"And I know all that weirdness that followed was not what either of us
was wanting."
"I am ever so glad that the fates found a way of pulling us back
together"
"Because you are the live of my life"
"And I would be the happiest guy in the world if you would walk down the
aisle with me"

Then the slight pause as he opened the case. I glanced ever so briefly at
the band of what appeared to a silvery shining ring shown out to me. I
knew it was not good as I had mentioned to him I did not like gold
sometime back. So I knew what type of ring it was. But the ring was but
the smallest piece of this.moment in my life.
All seemed to go deathly quiet. Like time stopped so that I could feel
that moment, to relish in that briefest of moments. The waves seemed far
and distant and the din of the restaurant a quiet muffled thrum. The
woman sitting there near me, eyes a gleam at what she was to behold. And
then he said the words

"Marty me" he finally said
"I want us to be forever"
"So marry me"

I looked at the woman. Her face aglow with the delight she was feeling in
my behalf. The her face blurring some as the tears poured from my eyes.
And then the words just jettisoned out of my mouth. The affirmation of my
love for him as he told he much he loved me. How this token of his love
made me feel more in love with him than ever before.

"Yess!" I blurted out
"Ohh God yes!"

He smiled at my response. I could see moisture in hus eyes as well. And
there was a hardy yelp of joy from the neighboring table. The woman
quickly apologizing for her outburst. And there it was. What was the
happiest moment in my life had arrived. A day I never expected, yet it
was here before me. And I was happy at who it was with. My beloved
Terry...
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To be continued