Date: Thu, 15 May 2014 14:24:32 +0100 From: Adam Stewart Subject: Blind Love Blind Love By Adam Stewart Author's note: A gay love story in which one mistake is costly. Warning: It contains explicit m/m sex. 1. I stopped at the gated house and pressed the intercom. I'd never had to deliver here before but had driven and walked past the house on numerous occasions, always thinking how grand it was. It wasn't that large, only a four bedroom property, but it was in the better part of Preston Park in Brighton near to where I lived. The only difference was that I lived in a tiny studio flat a few streets away. This property looked as if it was owned by someone with money and someone who didn't want intruders by the look of the high brick wall and the wrought iron gates. At last a guy answered my call. "Your groceries sir" I announced. The guy told me to go on in and the gates slowly opened so I could drive my small delivery van up the brick paved driveway that swept right up to the front door. I'd always imagined living in a house like this but my meagre means would never reach this level. Even the large flat I'd shared with my boyfriend in Southampton before moving to Brighton three years ago, didn't match the grandeur of this place. My parents lived in a nice house but that too wasn't up to this standard. I lifted out the plastic box that contained the grocery order from the back of the van and rang the bell. I noticed a CCTV camera pointing at me and smiled. The door then opened and my mouth opened wide. The guy standing there was just beautiful. In fact he was more than beautiful, he was gorgeous. He was looking straight at me but I immediately sensed he was not seeing me. A lovely golden retriever was by his side. "Yes" the guy asked although I'd already said why I was there. "Ah, yes" I replied having got my brain in gear instead of my dick, "Your grocery order sir". The guy asked me to follow him to the kitchen which was at the back of the house. The dog obediently followed. As I walked through the tiled hallway admiring the guy's nicely formed butt clothed in a pair of tight fitting sweatpants, I noticed a guide dog harness hanging on a hook. It was then that I realised the guy was blind and the golden retriever was his guide dog. The sweatpants were an expensive make and nothing like the ones I wore. When he was in the kitchen and turned towards me, I glanced down at his crotch. That too was tight fitting and clearly showed a nice package. It made my own twitch inside my cheap ones. I asked him where he'd like the groceries put and he said on the kitchen table so I removed the individual bags out of the plastic box. "Would you like me to unpack things for you sir?" He appeared to look at me for a moment and it seemed his beautiful brown eyes which showed no sign of being blind, gazed right into mine. They shone and I again felt my body react to the feeling he was causing me. The guy was just perfect but of course he was blind. "Is that part of the normal service?" he asked rather curtly. I smiled. "I generally offer it for customers who are in need of assistance so am happy to assist." He smiled back as if he'd seen my smile and nodded. "And you feel I too am in need of assistance". "Well, seeing that you're blind I thought it might help but it's up to you sir". He again smiled and relaxed. "I'm sorry, I can be a right bitch at times and I can't stand people feeling sorry for me". "Sorry but I'm one of those guys who just likes to help; always have; it certainly doesn't mean I feel sorry for people; to be honest I admire the way some people cope with their disabilities; I'm sure I couldn't". "I'm sure you would if you had to" he replied and moved up close to me, "And thanks for your offer, it would help me because my carer hasn't turned up today." I was concerned that a carer who was supposed to arrive hadn't and he explained that his current one was as he put it 'fucking useless'. I asked if he'd complained and he said he had but it had made no difference. I could sense he was feeling tense and upset, which I didn't blame him, so I suggested I made a cup of tea and when we'd had that he could tell me where he wanted the provisions put. "You're very kind, thanks but don't you have other deliveries to do?" "Nope, you're the last one; just got the van to take back and I am finished for the day" I said as I filled the kettle with water. I'd been a delivery driver for Bob Mullins, the owner of the small supermarket which had been in business for years, almost ever since I'd moved to Brighton. I'd in fact done a degree in history at Southampton, my home town, but everything had gone haywire after I'd completed it. "Are you telling me you've got a history degree yet you're a grocery delivery boy?" I laughed, "Yeah, that's about the sum of it but it's a long story." He touched my hand, which sent a shiver of excitement through my whole body and told me to sit down whilst he made the tea. "I'm Simon by the way; what's your name?" "Lee" I replied watching him expertly take the boiled kettle and pour the water into two mugs into which he'd placed a tea bag. I was fascinated with how he coped. You'd never have known he was blind. I looked over his body again and estimated he was much the same age as me, which was twenty five. A fact I later found out to be correct. "So, tell me Lee, why did you end up as a delivery boy? Not that I have anything against delivery boys" he giggled, "Some are rather nice". I had a feeling he was referring to me as he grinned and again patted my hand. He'd carried the two mugs of tea from the counter top to the table where I was sitting and hadn't spilled a drop. When he'd sat down at right angles to me it was then he patted my hand. I again felt that tingle of excitement shoot through my body. It was like an electric shock, but a nice one. In fact very much like the electro stimulation unit I occasionally used to excite my cock when I was in need of sexual satisfaction. I then went through my sad story whilst he sat quietly looking at me saying nothing. "I was born and bred in Southampton; my parents are still there in fact; around the age of thirteen a new boy joined the class I was in and we immediately hit it off; he was profoundly deaf and other boys used to tease him so I acted as his protector and would thump any who made fun of him; over time I learnt to sign so he knew what the teachers were saying and we became good friends; in fact more than that because we became lovers; I'd known I was different from an early age and so had he which was why we immediately clicked but I used the excuse that I was helping him so nobody realised; whenever we could we'd enjoy each other, if you know what I mean". Simon nodded and grinned. "Well, when we left school Ben said he was going to university to study history so I said I would too so I could continue being his interpreter; my knowledge of sign language by that time was pretty good and with modern technology I managed to keep him abreast of all the lectures. I wasn't that interested in history but it seemed a reasonable degree to do since I didn't have any idea of what else I wanted to do. When we finished university having both got our degree, he got a job with the university but I still didn't know what I wanted to do. However, by that time I'd become interested in computer programming and another friend asked me to help him with a computer game he was designing. He had the ideas and I put it into a marketable product so I did that; it made sufficient money to get by on and by then Ben and I were living together as a couple. I loved Ben with all my heart; I always had which was one of the reasons I stuck by him and helped him through many difficult times because of his deafness. We were both twenty two by then and I'd never felt so happy. Then one day I came back to the house earlier than he'd expected and as soon as I walked in I sensed someone else was in the flat we had bought together. I noticed on the floor in the hall a pair of shoes and a jacket which certainly didn't belong to either me or Ben. I could hear groans and moans coming from the bedroom, and they were not of someone in pain I can tell you. I crept along and stood in the open doorway which was opposite our bed. I could see Ben stark naked lying face down on the bed and another guy, also stark naked, fucking him like mad." "I assume Ben couldn't hear you but didn't the other guy?" "As you say Ben couldn't but the other guy had a pair of Wi-Fi earphones on listening to a heavy beat music whilst he pumped his arse up and down. I immediately recognised them as being mine which made me even madder than I already was. I was so shocked that I just watched him pumping my boyfriend for several more minutes before I walked up behind him, grabbed him round the waist and pulled him off Ben. I then literally threw him on the floor. Needless to say both he and Ben were shocked to see me. The guy's clothes had been chucked on the floor, no doubt in their excitement to get stripped, so I picked them up, opened the window and threw them out. The guy looked at me in horror. I then grabbed hold of him, yanked him along to the front door and threw him out onto the landing. I then grabbed his coat and shoes and chucked them down the stairwell. I should explain that we lived on the second floor in an old block of flats that had an old fashioned stairwell so the items went flying down to the ground floor. I then watched him run stark naked down the stairs to reclaim his clothes whilst I shouted suitable words of abuse at him. Several neighbours opened their front doors to see what the commotion was about and were somewhat surprised to see a naked man running past them." Simon placed his hand on mine and held it there. "I'm sorry, that must have been horrible to see but I'd have loved to have seen the guy's face when you threw him out naked". I laughed, "Yeah, it was a picture now I come to think of it". "So I assume that was the end of Ben" "You could say that; when I returned to the bedroom he was still lying naked on the bed and said 'how could I throw a naked guy out the door like that'. We ended up having an almighty row, which believe me, is not easy when you have to do it in sign language. During our row he told me he'd being seeing this other guy for several weeks and found him exciting. I suddenly realised that he'd used me for all those years and I was devastated so I told him to pack his things and fuck off." "Is there a sign for fuck off?" Simon grinned. I grinned and told him it involved using two fingers which he rather liked. "And then what?" "I was devastated; I'd stupidly thought we'd be together for life; we'd bought the flat together so I had to sell that since I couldn't afford the mortgage on my own and when it had been sold I moved in with my parents whilst I considered my options. It hit me far worse than I thought it would and before long I was sinking into a deep depression; I was like that for a good six months but my parents stood by me; they'd always treated Ben like a son so they were as upset as I was. Eventually I decided I had to get out of Southampton since I knew Ben still lived there with his new boyfriend. The fucker even took the dog we owned; not that I could have really taken it since I felt it was unfair on my parents to suddenly dump a dog on them and to be honest it would have prompted too many memories. I loved that dog; love all dogs, so that too was a wrench. Anyhow, eventually I upped sticks and came to Brighton having decided it was a place where there were lots of gays so I'd surely find another boyfriend." "And have you?" "Nope, so far have not found anyone I felt I could love; I'm not into a quick fuck like some guys; I like to get to know a guy before we have serious sex; don't mind the occasional fumble and suck but that's as far as it goes." Simon looked at me with his gorgeous brown eyes and I again noticed they seemed to smile at me. He was still holding my hand which I found comforting because relaying my story had brought it all back. "Anyhow, after a few weeks of being here I met Bob Mullins in a gay bar; he's also gay in case you hadn't realised; and he said he was looking for a delivery driver so I agreed and have been doing it ever since; he tends only to offer deliveries to those people who can't get to the shop because of old age or disability so I pick the orders and deliver them; hence why I'm here with yours so if there's anything wrong with it, I'm to blame. I still do the computer programming so with my twenty five hours a week working for Bob, I make ends meet; apart from that I enjoy meeting people and helping them; I have all kinds; some who can't walk, those who are deaf, blind like you and one or two lovely old ladies who just can't manage to carry their shopping home anymore; I feel I'm doing a worthwhile job for the community." "So, that's my sad story, what about yours; have you always been blind? Simon considered the question for a moment as if he was trying to decide if he wanted to unburden his soul to a complete stranger. I added that he didn't have to tell me since I was only the delivery boy and may not ever see him again but he squeezed my hand and began. "My parents split up when I was six; it seems my mother found out my father was bisexual and although he loved her and was faithful to her when it came to women, he had several guys on the side who he fucked; she couldn't deal with that so they split. I'm told she went off with a Spanish guy and moved to Spain with him leaving my father to look after me. I loved my dad very much; we got on well and always had fun together; it didn't bother me that he was gay and as I began to realise I was the same it was even less of a problem." "Fuck, you're gay as well?" I exclaimed. He nodded and grinned. "So we're two lonely poofs" he chuckled before continuing with his story. "When I was fourteen my dad and I were involved in a car crash; a car came careering towards us from the other side of the road for some reason and hit our car on the driver's side; my dad was badly injured and died later in hospital; my head was thrown against the door frame and knocked me out; I was in a coma for several days and when I came to I realised I couldn't see; seems the impact severed the optical nerves or something; had the doctors realised earlier they may have been able to do something but by the time I came out of the coma it was too late; that was eleven years ago; had it happened today I daresay something could have been done to repair the damage but not now it seems so I had to learn to live a life of being blind and without the one person I loved with all my heart; rather like you really." He paused and I could see tears forming in his eyes. I wanted to jump up and take him into my arms but instead squeezed his hand and said how terrible that must have been. "Have you no other family?" "Nope; my dad's boyfriend who was living with us at the time continued to look after me until I was nineteen but by then he'd found someone else to love and the new boyfriend didn't want me as a burden round his neck. "Is that how he saw you? A burden?" I asked somewhat shocked. "Seems like it; but hell, who would want to live with a blind guy and all that entails?" "I would" I said and then added quickly "Assuming the blind guy loved me". Simon lifted his head and looked at me as if he was really seeing me. It was slightly unnerving as I looked into his eyes knowing he couldn't but his face showed kindness and compassion. He patted my hand and squeezed it again which sent another shot of electricity straight to my groin. "Thank you but few people seem to feel the same way" he replied somewhat dejectedly. "So how do you manage; without anyone living with you to do things" He gave a small grin and said "Just because I'm blind doesn't make me completely incapable you know". I felt suitably admonished and didn't reply. "But I know what you mean; there are things that I either can't or find difficult to do so that's why I have a carer come in each day. When I told my dad's boyfriend to fuck off having seen he wanted to move in with his mate, I employed someone through an agency. It worked well up until about six months ago. He was a lovely guy, not gay but that didn't bother me, and he was very reliable. He'd do all the shopping and cooked things for me to heat up but he was suddenly diagnosed with lung cancer. He went through chemotherapy but it seemed it had been picked up too late and within three months he was dead so I lost yet another person I really liked." "Fuck, you really have been through the wars; but can the agency not find someone else to take his place?" "They've sent several guys but none of them have been that good and the latest is fucking useless as I said earlier so what the hell I'm going to do I haven't a clue". "I could come in each day if you like" I suddenly said without any real thought as to how I could manage it but something inside me was saying I wanted to get to know this guy some more. "I could do your shopping since I work for a supermarket and I like cooking so could make you some meals for you to heat up; what happens about cleaning, do you have a cleaner?" He nodded and then added that she was fairly useless as well since he could frequently feel dust around the place so he was wondering if he was wasting his money. "How often does she come in?" "Once a week; why?" "Well, I could do the cleaning as well; I could come at a weekend if that was okay with you and you could pay me what you pay her; one thing I can guarantee is that you won't find any dust when I've finished; as my mum always says, I'm a fussy poof and dust doesn't dare show its face in my place". Simon laughed and for a moment his whole face lit up. It was the happiest I'd seen him since I'd been there which was now getting on for an hour. "Anyhow, have a think about it and let me know; I could pop in tomorrow after work if you like; in the meantime I'd better unpack this lot". I immediately got up leaving him at the table. As I unpacked and told him what each item was he said where he wanted it using the face of a clock to give more precise instructions. I was used to following customer's wishes so it was natural to me. "Okay, all done; so shall I come round tomorrow afternoon?" I asked hoping against hope he'd say yes. He didn't answer for a moment and I was sure the answer was going to be a no but he nodded and took hold of my hand again. "Yes, I'd like that and thanks for what you've done today" he eventually replied having considered the matter. As I got up to go, the dog stood up wagging its tail. "What's your guide dog called?" "Rudy; I've had him for two years now". He reached down to give him a pat on the head. Rudy responded and nuzzled his hand. "He's lovely; reminds me a bit of the Labrador I had; I miss him terribly". I then patted Rudy who seemed to smile at me as he looked into my eyes, and I made my way out. "I think he likes you" he called after me, "He's not normally so at ease with a complete stranger". I chuckled, "Yeah, I have that effect on animals and people" I replied as I opened the front door and left. On my way back to the shop to return the van and collect my car, I couldn't get my mind off Simon. My cock couldn't either! 2. The following day I dropped in to see Simon on my way home. I half expected him to say 'thank you but no thank you' in response to my offer to go in each day and to do his cleaning. When I pressed the intercom at the gate a cheery voice told me to come on in so I drove my car, a Seat Leon five door, up to the front door. My car was one of the few things where I treated myself. I loved cars and when I saw a particularly good deal at the local Seat dealer a few months earlier, I went mad and bought it on HP. I'd never owned a new car before so I was particularly proud of my silver beauty. Not that Simon would be able to admire it visually but if I was lucky enough to take him for a ride anytime, he'd certainly enjoy its smooth ride. I'd even looked into dog restraints on the net the previous evening since Rudy would have to be safely secured in the back. Okay, I knew I was jumping ahead of myself and the guy hadn't said yes to my offer, but I couldn't get him out of my mind. "Hi" I said once Simon opened the door. Rudy was also there wagging his tail clearly pleased to see me. "Hi, come on in" Simon said brightly. As I stepped into the hall, my heart was thumping. Was he just being nice to let me down gently or was he also excited at the thought of us seeing more of each other? This time he led me into the living room at the back of the house although I noticed there were some sliding doors that separated it from the dining room at the front. "This is a beautiful house" I commented as I walked in having kicked off my trainers in the hallway. It was always my practice to do that since I never wanted to risk getting dirt on other people's carpets. I noticed that Simon paused as I did so and smiled, although I wasn't sure if he was pleased that I'd done so or thought of it as another one of my fussy queen acts. I did notice that he too was barefooted like the day before. Perhaps it gave him a better feel of where he was walking. Either way, the soft living room carpet felt good on my bare feet since I seldom wear socks. He sat down on a sofa and indicated for me to sit opposite him on another. Everything in the room looked expensive and I wondered how he made his money. We'd not talked about that the day before so I was intrigued since he was frequently home from what I could tell so didn't go out to work in the normal way. Once I'd sat down, Rudy came over and sniffed my bare feet. His nose tickled them but I'd been used to my dog doing that so it didn't bother me. I reached down and stroked his head which he clearly liked. "Is he licking your feet?" "Having a good sniff" I chuckled wondering how the hell he knew what he was doing. He called him over and he obediently sat down beside him. He too stroked his head as if to say 'good boy' which I rather liked. He clearly loved his dog which pleased me no end. I hated to see dogs ignored since they thrived on receiving praise and I imagined a guide dog was no different. "Sorry, I should have asked if you'd like a drink of anything". I said I was fine but was happy to get him something if he wanted but he said no. For a moment he just looked at me with those gorgeous brown eyes which seemed to be looking right into mine and I automatically smiled back. "Right" he started to say as my heart once again thumped with excitement, or was it fear of what I felt certain I was going to hear. "I've had a good long hard think about the offer you kindly made yesterday". Here we go, a big but is on its way and then a no, I thought. "If the offer is still available I'd like to accept". My heart raced even harder and for a moment I was unable to respond. "Accept? You'd like me to come in each day?" I eventually managed to gasp. "Wow". He grinned and leant forward slightly. "I take it the offer to be my Carer and my cleaner is still available". "Yeah, of course, I'd love to accept" I exclaimed, "Just wasn't expecting you to say yes". "Why?" he replied sitting back into his seat. "Well, we've only just met and you don't really know me; let's face it you're putting a lot of trust in someone when you invite them into your home." "You mean because I'm blind" he replied somewhat smartly. "Well, yeah but whether or not someone has their sight it's still a risk". He chuckled although quite why I'm not sure. "Just because I'm blind doesn't mean I'm a fool". "No, I wasn't inferring you were" I hurriedly replied. He again chuckled and leant forward. "Would you mind standing up Lee and face the window". Not having a clue why, I did so as he too stood up. I then felt his hands gently rubbing over my shoulders. Just the touch of them through my T shirt sent a reaction straight down to my cock. "Mm, can't feel any wings or bumps" he chuckled before saying I could sit back down. He then explained that he'd spoken to Bob Mullins that morning to obtain a reference for me. It did explain why Bob grinned at me during one of our brief encounters but had said nothing. "It seems you're an angel in Bob's eyes; you're kind, considerate, very willing, very reliable, hard working and trustworthy and all the customers you deal with love you. With a reference like that I'd be a fool not to accept your offer." For a moment I was gobsmacked. Okay I knew customers did like me on the whole and Bob had always been pleased with my work but to receive a glowing reference like that was quite something. "Perhaps I should ask for a raise in pay before he changes his mind" I chuckled. "I shouldn't push your luck too far" "Yeah, you're right" "Anyhow, more to the point are you really sure you want to take on this grumpy blind queen?" I laughed. "I know I can't do anything about his blindness or being a queen, but I reckon I can get rid of the grumpiness in due course". He laughed and almost jumped over to sit beside me. It never failed to amaze me at how agile he was. He seemed to know where everything was and move around as if he could see as well as I could. "I reckon we're going to make a good team" he beamed and put his hand on my thigh. For a moment my whole body froze. The feel of his hand so near my crotch caused me to go into overdrive. "Could I ask you a favour before I show you round the house and we discuss things in more detail" he then asked. "Sure" I replied wondering what he wanted. "I'd like to get a mental picture of you and I prefer to do that by touch rather than you just describe yourself; would you mind if I felt you." "Of course you can, feel whatever you like" I grinned rather hoping he might actually want to feel me all over since my body certainly wanted him to do so. He grinned as he stood up and took hold of my hand to do the same. I stood facing him and placed my hands down the side of me as instructed. He then felt for my face and gently caressed it all over. He ran his fingers through my short hair commenting on how soft it felt. "What colour is your hair?" "Dark but not black, much the same as yours" "And your eyes, what colour are they?" "Blue grey" "You have lovely soft skin and beautiful lips" he said as he gently felt them with his fingers. He then ran his hands down the sides of my body to my waist and then down my chest and over my stomach. "Mm, you keep fit I can see; do you go to the gym?" "Nope, never have; I'm one of those annoying individuals who manage to maintain a good body without that although I do eat sensibly and walk quite a lot." His hands remained round my waist and I wondered whether that was the end of his investigation. "Would you mind if I explored further down?" he grinned. "Sure; help yourself" I chuckled. By now my cock was straining to get out and causing my jeans to bulge. I then watched him squat down and run his hands down the outside of my legs and over my butt before running them up the inside of one leg into my crotch. Once they'd reached my groin he looked up and grinned. "Keep going if you want" I added rather hoping he would. "Are you sure?" "Yeah, why not; you might as well have the whole tour whilst you're at it" I laughed. He immediately placed a hand on my crotch and felt the long thick roll that was now very evident. If he'd been able to see he certainly wouldn't have any doubt as to the effect he was having on me. "Wow, I assume that means you're pleased to see me" "You could say that" I chuckled. Finally he got up and stood right in front of me. I could feel his breath on my face and it felt wonderful. He took one of my hands and pressed it against his crotch. He too was hard so I knew now that he was very turned on by me. As I gently pressed against his erection he leant forward and kissed me on the lips. It was only a light kiss but it was more than I'd ever hoped for, at least for the time being. Hopefully things would progress further in time but that kiss was a good start. Finally he suggested he show me round the house. Leading off the living room was a conservatory which he said was generally always warm even when the sun wasn't shining. "When it is" he explained, "It's a great place to sunbathe; do you like feeling the sun on your naked skin?" I grinned and said I most certainly did since Ben, my ex, had introduced me to nudism and we often went to places where we could sunbathe in the nude. Simon liked the idea of doing that and asked if there were any places in or around Brighton. I told him about the Marina beach but that was not particularly nice since it was so public but there were other places to go. I told him my favourite was the dunes at Clymping near Shoreham. Not an official nudist area but people used it, especially the gays. He then took me upstairs where there were four bedrooms, one of which was set up as an office come study. It was then that he explained he was a writer. Having asked what he wrote he replied, "Novels, gay of course, and various articles for magazines". I was intrigued how he typed things up and he showed me how he used a microphone which automatically typed the words onto his computer and how it would then speak back what he'd written. He used the same program for reading his emails and anything else he accessed. The keyboard also had Braille keys. "I know a little bit of Braille" I commented as I ran my fingers over the keys. "Is there anything you don't know?" he laughed, "You sign, you know Braille and you can do computer programming". "Yeah well, I do my best; I guess the only thing I can't do is find a boyfriend" I laughed. He smiled and put his hand up to brush the side of my face but said nothing. Whilst upstairs I also noticed the main bedroom, which was his, had its own bathroom with a large shower area. There was an even larger bathroom that contained a Jacuzzi bath and another shower. The main bathroom was a wet room like the other which I imagined made it easier for him to navigate. Off the hallway was a small downstairs cloakroom and off the kitchen which I'd sat in the previous day, there was a utility room which contained a washing machine, dryer and the gas boiler that heated the water and provided the heating. From this there was a door that led into a garage where, he explained, his father's car used to be parked but of course that had long gone. In its place there was an electric mower which reminded me to ask who did the gardening. "I have a rather nice young man come in each week to do that for me" he grinned, "He lives a few doors along and is studying horticulture at the local college so he likes to experiment with new plants and things which is fine by me. What it looks like I have no idea but both the front garden and the back always smells wonderful and Rudy seems to like running around out there. I said from what I'd seen it all looked in perfect order, especially the front which was mainly paved with small beds and planters. "Do you never feel vulnerable living here alone?" "The place is very secure with CCTV and alarms which are connected to the local police station; not that the CCTV is much good for me" he laughed, "but the police say it is off putting to any likely intruder and of course it has a recording system so anyone trying to get in will be caught on camera for them to see." We then decided it was time for a cup of tea so I made one whilst he sat down at the kitchen table. As we drank that I made a few notes on what food he liked or disliked. As it happened our tastes were very much the same so it meant that when I cooked at home, I could make sufficient for two and bring things in for him. We agreed that I'd call in after I'd finished work each day and I'd go round on a Saturday to do the cleaning which would probably take most of the day. He didn't seem bothered about Sundays but I said I'd probably pop by in any event. Finally, he told me what he'd been paying the agency and the cleaner. I was more than happy with the same amount so we shook hands and the deal was done. The extra money would certainly come in useful so I was delighted. "When would you like me to start?" "Tomorrow?" he chuckled. "Yeah, fine; and start the cleaning on Saturday?" He nodded saying he'd tell the agency they could fuck off since the guy who was supposed to have come had again not turned up or been in touch. He'd call the cleaner to say he didn't want her anymore and would pay her a week's notice. It was some weeks later that I found out his father had been a successful barrister as had his before him, so the family had been well off for many years. Since Simon was the only heir, he got the lot when his father died which provided him with a comfortable income. His writing also brought in good money but that was icing on the cake really. Although I felt it must be great not to have to worry about money, I certainly didn't begrudge him it. I'd rather be poor and have my sight than be rich and blind but I was glad he didn't have to worry about money as well as deal with his disability. 3. I went home feeling very happy. I still couldn't believe that Simon had said yes to my offer. He was gorgeous and I would enjoy seeing him every day and doing things for him. In addition I was being paid for the pleasure so things couldn't really be better. The following day I decided to go home first after work, change and have a shower before driving round to him. He'd given me a remote control unit into which I had to key in a four digit password to open the gates to save him letting me in each time. Apparently whenever the gates opened he was notified with a bleep on his mobile phone to alert him that someone had come in. When I rang the door intercom he told me to enter and the door automatically opened. It seemed he had the latest electronics for everything and was able to operate most things from his mobile phone, which was voice activated, to make life easier and safer for him. "I'm upstairs in the office" he called as Rudy came running down the stairs to greet me. "Hello Rudy" I said as he came up for a pat with his tail wagging as if I was a long lost friend. He then followed me upstairs to find Simon and trotted past me as if to lead the way. "You've made a real friend there" Simon chuckled as I walked in and found him sitting at his computer, "He's not normally so welcoming until he really knows someone." "He probably knows it's me who's going to bring him his food" I laughed and gave Rudy another pat. Simon then turned to face me and grinned. "Do I get a pat or a hug or something?" he chuckled. "You can have whatever you want" I laughed and stood beside him not quite sure what he wanted me to do. He stood up and took me into his arms. "How about a hug and a kiss" he giggled doing just that. For a moment I was surprised since as much as I yearned for such a thing to happen I hadn't reckoned on it happening quite so soon. The hug and the kiss were very passionate and I could feel his body pressing against mine which did nothing to calm down the reaction it was having on me. "Mm, you smell nice" he murmured as he hugged and rubbed his hand up and down my back and over my buttocks. I glanced down at Rudy who was looking at us without any concern. "Rudy doesn't seem concerned about us doing this" I managed to say once he'd released my lips. "I would have thought he'd have been trying to protect you." "He can sense if I'm receiving unwanted advances or being attacked, you can be sure of that" he laughed. "He likes you and knows I do too so he's relaxed about it". "Mm nice to know, what would he have done otherwise?" "Taken a bite out of your balls probably" "Wow, I shall have to remember that" "Anyhow, I'm pleased to see you haven't changed your mind about coming" I nearly spluttered. That was certainly not likely to happen. He came back downstairs with me and I explained I'd made him some meals which only needed heating up in the microwave or the oven. I'd also purchased some more dog food which I put away in the cupboard for him as Rudy watched with great interest. "Do you have a Braille printer?" I explained I'd done some labels for the plastic containers I'd put the meals in and had them on a memory stick. He said he did upstairs so we went up to print them off. "That's sweet of you" he said and gave me another kiss. Over the next few days I went each afternoon after work and did various jobs for him. Each day I got the feeling that he wanted to get to know me far more intimately but although I wanted to, I didn't want to make assumptions until he'd made it perfectly clear that was what he wanted. On the Saturday I arrived to start the cleaning at nine in the morning. I'd already noticed that the house needed a good clean since there was thick dust under and behind furniture and on pictures. The cleaner Simon had employed had clearly done the bare minimum so I knew it was going to be a full day but I wanted to get it done. I'd also brought with me my favourite cleaning cloths, polishes and materials since what was in the cupboard were not up to much. Simon had said to charge it to his account at the shop which is what I did. When he released the front door catch to let me in he asked me to go straight up to the bathroom. Thinking that perhaps he was in difficulty or needed help to get out the bath, I threw off my jacket, kicked off my trainers and ran upstairs. I also noted that Rudy had not come down to greet me as he normally did. As I went my mind and my body was in overdrive at the thought of Simon being naked in the bath but I was also worried that he'd had a fall. When I reached the bathroom door I gasped. He was giving Rudy a shampoo, hence the reason why he hadn't come down to greet me although his tail was wagging back and forth to show his pleasure at my arrival. What was more interesting was that Simon was stripped down to a very sexy pair of briefs and the back view was showing ample flesh below the waist. My cock went even harder as I gazed at his nakedness. "Hi, could do with your help here" he said completely oblivious to the effect his state of undress was having on me since he was crouching down in the shower area with his back to me. "I'm always worried I'm going to get soap in his eyes". I immediately moved forward just at the point when Rudy decided to shake his body. Like most dogs he didn't approve of being lathered with soap so tried to shake it off. I jumped back not wanting to get soaked. I'd shampooed a dog many a time in the past and knew how wet you could get. "Let me quickly strip off" I said hastily removing my T shirt and sweatpants. I noticed Simon grin and no doubt wishing he could see me in a state of undress. "That is very unfair", he giggled, "Now I have to imagine what you look like naked." "If you're good I'll let you have one of your touchy feely sessions to find out" I laughed as I knelt down beside Rudy's head to protect his eyes whilst Simon continued. "I shall hold you to that" he laughed. "I was rather hoping you would" I replied and watched the expert way he shampooed the dog. Once the soaping was finished, he used the shower head to rinse it off whilst I kept my hand over Rudy's eyes and kissed his nuzzle every so often. Rudy liked the attention and licked my nose when he could. "You're turning him into a softy" Simon chuckled. He never seemed to miss a thing when I did something without actually saying what I was doing. "I'm just making him feel wanted and loved" "And what about me?" he laughed. "That comes later if you're good" "I see, Rudy gets it without having to be good but I have to earn it" he laughed. "He's already earned it; he's as good as gold; you should have seen my dog when I shampooed him; he hated it and the whole bathroom looked as if a bomb had hit it when I'd finished." "Mm" was all Simon replied with a big wide grin. "And I've got you a treat downstairs" I whispered into Rudy's ear. "What about me?" Simon giggled as he checked over with his hand to make sure all the soap had gone. "You'll have to wait and see" I teased him. Once Rudy had been fully rinsed I indicated for him to have a good shake by shaking my body. It worked a treat as always and he shook the excess water over the pair of us. "Thanks, I needed a shower" Simon exclaimed sarcastically having got the full force of the spray. I'd made sure that I was mostly out of range although my briefs ended up damp all the same. Simon decided he'd have a shower whilst I dried Rudy off with the towel he'd left ready. As I rubbed Ruby dry, I watched Simon strip off his briefs and stand stark naked under the shower just feet from me. By now my cock was fully erect and there was nothing I could do about it. Soon Ruby was dry and he went to sit obediently by the door whilst his master finished. When Simon emerged from the shower I placed a towel round him and dried his hair. He was perfectly capable of doing it himself but I couldn't stop myself. He clearly enjoyed it and stood there for a moment as I rubbed his hair dry. When I'd done and placed the towel round his shoulders, he moved right up close to me and pulled me into a hug. His wet body smothered me with water including my briefs. His hands moved down to feel them and came across the hard roll that was hidden inside. "These are damp; you'll have to take them off" he giggled making them even wetter with his wet hands. "Okay, I know you're game" I laughed, "You want me naked too". I hastily pushed them down my legs and kicked them behind me. Our two naked bodies joined together and my erection pressed against his which was also reacting just as rapidly. "You smell nice" he whispered before pulling me into a passionate kiss. I'd noticed he was doing this more and more since I'd started coming and doing things for him. Although nothing had been said by either of us, I had the feeling he liked me very much and if my cock was anything to go by, I liked him although it was more than just sexual attraction. I had a strong feeling deep down that I was falling in love with this guy despite my best intentions not to since I felt as his carer I shouldn't do that. However, his actions towards me didn't help me to maintain that position and I had a strong feeling he wanted me. The question was did I want him? Of course I fucking wanted him, he was gorgeous and a great catch for any man. The fact that he was blind didn't come into the equation. As these thoughts flashed through my mind I felt his hand round my hard cock. I reached down and felt his and he gave a small gasp. I decided to take the plunge and slowly sank down onto my haunches. When his cock was in front of my lips I wrapped them round it. It tasted beautiful. He had two large balls which I rolled round in my hand whilst I sucked on the beautiful uncut head. I could taste his pre-cum and knew if I continued like this he would soon be shooting his load into my mouth. I decided to keep going and within another minute or two he was doing just that. The hot creamy cum suddenly shot out into my mouth and his whole body convulsed as ribbon after ribbon was ejaculated. When he'd finally calmed down I licked the end clean and gave it one more suck making him gasp and groan with pleasure. "Fuck, I've not had a blow job like that for more years than I care to remember" he gasped when I'd stood up again. "When was the last blow job you had then?" I asked wanting to know if he had regular sex or not. "The last time I had any form of sex with someone was with a guy called Jack; we met at the Guide Dog Association centre when I was first introduced to Rudy; that was about three years ago; he was being matched with a guide dog and we hit it off with each other and had a short fling whilst there." "Have you not seen him since?" "No, although we contact each other every so often; he lives in London which makes it difficult" "I could always take you, either by train or car if you'd like" He said he'd like that and might well take me up on the offer. "In the meantime, what are we going to do about this?" he chuckled and took hold of my flapping cock that was still showing definite signs of interest. "When did you last have this sucked?" "Now you're asking" I laughed, "The last person I had full sex with was Ben so that was three years ago but since then I've had the occasional blow job from guys I've met in bars but not for a long time." "Mm, perhaps we should remedy that" he giggled and immediately dropped down and took my cock into his mouth. As soon as I felt his hot lips round it I gasped. It was awesome. He could certainly suck cock and by the time he had me shooting my load into his mouth I was weak at the knees. "Fuck, that was brilliant, thanks" "Anytime" he giggled and moved to pick up a dry pair of briefs he'd put to one side. I decided to don my slightly damp pair before putting back my T shirt and sweatpants. Rudy had remained sitting by the door watching us clearly not concerned that his master was being sexually satisfied or me for that matter. "I'd better get on with the cleaning" "And I've got an article to write so see you later". As I went downstairs, Rudy followed me. I pulled out of my bag a dog twist for him and he got excited. It was good for his teeth as well as being a treat. "That's for being such a good boy" I whispered to him as he took the twist from my hand and ran off into the kitchen. "You spoiling my dog again" Simon called down laughing. "He deserves it; besides, it's good for his teeth" I shouted back and realised I couldn't do anything without Simon knowing. His hearing was so acute. I spent the morning downstairs. The living room was cleaned from top to bottom and gleamed when I'd finished. I was pleased with the result as I looked round admiring my work before moving into the hall to give that the same treatment. Simon had the best when it came to the vacuum cleaner. It was the latest Dyson which sucked up dirt brilliantly. Seeing the amount of dirt it picked up I wondered if the previous cleaner had ever used it but at least the carpets now looked and smelt clean. Once the hall was gleaming I quickly did the downstairs cloakroom before starting on the kitchen. This too needed a major clean from top to bottom. All the tops of the cupboard units were filthy and I noticed several inside needed a good clean but they'd have to wait until another day. The cleanest item was the oven but then I doubted Simon used it that much apart from heating things up. When the downstairs was complete, the bin emptied, washed and relined with a new plastic bin bag before dumping the rubbish into the wheelie bin at the side of the house, I went upstairs with Rudy following. "Right, the downstairs is now complete" I said as I peered into Simon's study, "Would you like me to make you a sandwich for lunch before I start up here?" "Mm, now you are spoiling me" he giggled and held out his hand for me to join him. Rudy wagged his tail with approval so I moved right up to where Simon was sitting. He put an arm round the top of my legs and pulled me close. It again caused a reaction and Simon being Simon, soon found it. "Now that's what I like to feel" he giggled as he rubbed his hand along the length of my burgeoning cock. "You're incorrigible" I giggled. "I know, but I can't resist having a feel; you really are so gorgeous and you smell so good." "I doubt it after working like a beaver doing the cleaning that your previous lady clearly never bothered doing" I chuckled. "Well, I did tell you she was useless, that's why I accepted your offer apart from giving me the opportunity to do this." I laughed and decided not to answer that since I knew it would encourage him more. "So, what would you like in your sandwich?" He asked me the options which I listed out having refilled his fridge with things the day before and he opted for ham and tomato. I said I'd also include cucumber since I'd added that to his shopping list and added that he could have some cider or wine with his meal. He chuckled again as he gave me another grope, "See, you really are spoiling me; I don't normally have such a choice". I bent down and kissed the top of his head. I was spoiling him, I knew that, but there was something about him that made me want to do so. He followed me downstairs with Rudy jumping ahead and once down he stood and smelt. "Wow, I've never known the house smell so good; I can actually smell polish for once" he added before crouching down on the floor and rubbing his hand across the carpet before smelling that too. "And the carpet actually smells clean; you're a genius." I laughed, "Not really; I've just cleaned as it should be cleaned but I'm glad I've pleased you". He moved over to where I was standing and took me into his arms again. "You do more than please me Lee, you make me so happy and I've not felt this happy for a very long time." I suddenly realised he was being serious and not just joking which he so often did. "Thanks, that means a lot to me Simon" I replied and this time it was me that initiated the kiss. He immediately responded and it was soon passionate with tongues exploring wildly. Our bodies were pressed together and I could feel his hardness against mine. If I wasn't careful I'd be leading him back upstairs, stripping him off and taking him to bed. As he kissed it suddenly hit me that I really was in love with the guy and I wasn't sure what to do apart from let him take the lead because I had to be sure he wanted me; in no way was I going to risk another person stealing my heart for it to be thrown to one side later. Finally we broke the kiss having felt each other and knowing it could have progressed further if either had suggested it but neither I nor he said anything to prompt that so I made a hasty retreat into the kitchen to make our lunch. After we'd finished our lunch and I'd cleared away the dirty dishes, I went upstairs to do what was necessary up there. It required much the same since dust and dirt was everywhere. I felt like ringing the woman's neck since she'd clearly taken advantage of a blind person yet accepted his money without any compunction. Once done, including the two bathrooms which now gleamed, the two spare bedrooms and Simon's study, everything smelt clean and was clean. I was more than satisfied with my day's work by the time I made my way home. Simon had tried to persuade me to stay for a meal with him but I made an excuse not to do so. I was very tempted but I knew had I done so that we'd end up in bed and I needed to be sure he was looking for a relationship and not just a roll in the hay before that happened. As I made my way, I patted Rudy and told Simon I'd pop in the following morning just to see that everything was okay. It was Sunday of course and I had things to do at home, including my own cleaning, although I could clean my place from top to bottom within an hour, but I also had some programming to do I'd promised Damian. He'd given me his latest ideas on a new computer game but it still needed a lot of work done to make it a commercial product. 4. Over the next few weeks I fell into a routine. I popped in after work each day, brought with me meals I'd cooked, groceries required and did anything else Simon needed. He seemed to have few friends from what I could see and apart from taking Rudy out for a walk each day, seldom went out for his own pleasure. I wondered whether to offer to drive him somewhere so that Rudy could have a good run round but he seemed happy using Preston Park so I decided not to do so for the time being. Having given the house a thorough clean that first week, after then I did odd bits of cleaning during the week so managed to complete the remainder by lunchtime on the Saturday. It meant I could spend the afternoon with Simon, and go out for the occasional walk with him and Rudy. Apart from the time we'd sucked each other off we'd not done anything sexual since then but Simon made it quite clear he fancied me. I fancied him like hell but felt I needed to maintain a slight distance because he was paying me as a Carer and a cleaner. To be honest I'd have looked after him for nothing but I needed the money. After we'd known each other for just over a month things changed. It was early May and the day had started off fine and sunny but by lunchtime the rain was coming down in sheets. I'd finished my deliveries and was parking the van when Bob Mullins my boss mentioned that Simon was sheltering inside the shop from the rain. I went to find him and was shocked to see he was soaked to the skin. He'd walked into town wearing just a T shirt and sweatpants, both of which were now dripping. Poor Rudy also looked bedraggled with rainwater running off his glossy coat. "Oh my god, you two are soaked" Simon turned on hearing my voice and grinned. "Yeah we got caught in the downpour". "Come on I'll drive you home" I led Simon through to the back of the shop with one or two customers somewhat surprised to see a dog walking through a grocery store but then realised it was a guide dog which was of course allowed. Bob's store was about the size of the Tesco Express along the street but despite the obvious advantages that they had when it came to buying in bulk Bob provided a personal service and had been in business far longer than they'd been in the town. People loved him and the service they received so were prepared to pay the extra penny. When I told Simon I had a car seat dog harness for Rudy he was impressed and kissed me. I said I'd always used one for my dog but didn't let on that I'd only recently bought it in the hope that I'd be taking them somewhere. The one I used to have had gone with Ben since he now had the dog. When we got back to Simon's house I told him to get out of his clothes before he got a chill whilst I gave Rudy a good rub down in the kitchen. Having made a cup of tea I went upstairs to find Simon since he hadn't come down. I found him standing stark naked in the bathroom waiting for the Jacuzzi bath to fill. I gasped at the beautiful sight before me. I'd seen him in his briefs before but totally naked he was something else. He was gorgeous. "Wow" was all I managed to say as I gave him his tea. "Decided to have a soak to get warm; how's Rudy, is he okay?" "He's fine; tucking into his food now." Simon turned and put his arms round me. "Thanks, you're such a kind guy; how about joining me for a soak?" For a moment I stared at him and then grinned having realised what it would mean. Once the bath was filled, I stripped off and helped Simon get in. The bath was oval so plenty large enough for us to sit side by side. My body was already excited and clearly showing the fact. For a while we just lay there enjoying the warmth of the water and the feel of the bubbles round our nakedness. Simon then moved his hand into my crotch and felt my cock which was now hard. "Mm" he groaned with pleasure as he gently ran it through his fingers making me also groan. I looked across to his and that too was hard so I placed my hand on it. For a few moments we just gently massaged each other waiting for the other person to make the next move. Suddenly he lifted himself up and sat across my lap. Our two cocks now rubbed together as he held me in his arms. He then moved his head forward and kissed me. I'd noticed as he moved towards my lips his eyes were closed which intrigued me and then realised that was what I normally did when I kissed a guy passionately. It was a full on kiss and very passionate. I opened my mouth to allow his tongue to explore inside and the more he did so the more my whole body became alive as if an electric current was shooting through it. There was no doubt in my mind that I wanted him, in fact I wanted him very badly but still I couldn't totally release my fear of letting him in and being discarded at a later date like Ben had done to me. I could feel his hand now rubbing the two cocks together and I knew any minute I was going to reach my climax. We said nothing apart from groans of pleasure as the kiss continued. It was the longest kiss we'd ever had and it was wonderful. Suddenly I felt my whole body tense and I knew I was going to shoot my load any second. "Yeah, let it go" he muttered, having paused the kiss for a moment. I did and ribbons of seed shot out between our bodies. Soon after I sensed his doing the same and both our bodies rubbed against each other as we shot our load. Finally we both calmed down and he looked at me with his gorgeous brown eyes. I was convinced for a moment he was actually seeing me since they sparkled with joy. "That was beautiful", he grinned. "Fantastic". I was about to add 'I so love you' but didn't despite wanting to do so. I had the feeling he too was about to say more but didn't. Instead he moved off me and suggested we got out the bath before we turned into prunes. I grabbed a towel and wrapped it round him before grabbing one for myself. Once dressed, we went downstairs to find Rudy in the conservatory lying in the sun which had now come out again. He immediately stood up and came running over to greet us with his tail wagging. I loved Rudy every bit as much as his master. Having given him a good cuddle and made sure he was dry we all sat down in the conservatory and enjoyed the afternoon sun. That evening Simon encouraged me to stay for a meal so I decided to cook the sausages I'd planned for myself. One advantage of working for a grocery store was that I got a staff discount so bought everything I needed from Mullins. As it happened, I'd bought some things that day so they were still in my car since I hadn't been home. I always stored perishables in one of the special freezer bags that a customer's order was packed in so even frozen goods kept okay. Simon tried to argue saying I should use one of the meals I'd cooked for him but eventually I won the argument. As I set the plate before him I detailed what was on it and where. "Sausages on the right side with braised onions; mashed potato at ten to; green beans at twenty to". I then asked if he'd like some gravy. "Yeah, love lots of gravy" I followed the main dish with a lemon flan I'd bought for him. "That was a delicious meal, thank you" he said as he licked his lips after finishing off his last piece of flan. I was amazed at how adept he was at eating and finding things on his plate. I closed my own eyes at one point just to see what it was like and made a pig's ear of it but decided no doubt practice made perfect. Once we'd cleared up we sat in the living room and had a lovely evening together. I could tell he enjoyed the company and so did I for that matter. I had the distinct feeling that if I'd given the slightest indication that I was willing, he would have invited me to stay over but I said I had to get back home since I needed a change of work clothes for the morning. I was so tempted but decided to be strong and resist. Even so, our parting was far more passionate than any other had been and when I went out the door to get in the car I had an erection. Every day of the following week went much the same way. When I arrived Simon gave me a very passionate welcome with Rudy wagging his tail like mad as if to say, 'come on you two; get it together'. Each day he asked if I'd like to stay for a meal and each time I said yes but after we'd cleared away and had a sit in the living room I made my way home. To be honest I'd enjoyed preparing a meal for the pair of us and it meant Simon was eating freshly cooked food rather than heated up dishes I'd prepared days before. It was on a Friday evening when our relationship took a step further. When I arrived I met the young gardener leaving. I'd met him previously on a couple of occasions and he was certainly delicious. It was such a shame that Simon couldn't enjoy the view as he worked in the garden but I did give him a detailed picture the first time I'd seen him. The sad thing was that he was straight. At least that was the indication he gave although he clearly had no problem with working for a gay guy. "Simon's sunbathing in the conservatory" he grinned. It wasn't until I'd gone inside and found him that I realised why the young guy had such a grin on his face. I did begin to wonder whether he was gay after all, or perhaps he batted for both sides. "Wow, now that's some view" I chuckled when I found Simon. He was laid out on a sun bed mattress stark naked and with his legs wide open showing it all. I knelt down beside him and gave him a passionate kiss as was our usual greeting now. As I did so I moved my hand slowly down his naked torso and onto his cock to give it a feel. The organ immediately sprang to attention. He giggled and pulled my head tighter against his so our kiss was even more passionate "Come on, get those clothes off and join me; this sun is fucking beautiful" he giggled once our kiss was over and lifted my T shirt to feel the naked flesh beneath. I decided to oblige and hastily threw off my clothes. I placed another sun bed mattress beside his so we were within touching distance. I had a strong feeling I knew what was going to happen. As soon as I was laid out with it all on show, Rudy sauntered over and licked my balls. I giggled and gave him a big hug. "Is he licking your balls?" Simon giggled. "Yeah; I'm sure your dog is gay; he seems to take great interest in naked men; I dread to think what he'd do if he saw two guys having sex." As soon as I'd said it I guessed what Simon would do. "We could always find out" he giggled and immediately climbed on top of me. Our naked bodies rubbed together and Simon wiggled his cock against mine. By now both were hard and it felt so good. First he kissed me and then worked his way down my body kissing and teasing my nipples which was always a turn on. Soon they were hard nubs and he was nipping them making me scream with delight. Rudy came to see what he was up to and stood watching his master work his way further down my body until his mouth was round my cock. "Oh god" I exclaimed. The feel of his hot lips round the head made it jump to attention. I'd not had any guy do this to me since our last session so was ready for it. Simon knew precisely how to pleasure me and I was like putty in his hands. He knew every button to press and had me writhing with delight. Having sucked and licked my cock he took each of my balls into his mouth and sucked each one until I was crying out. His hot tongue then worked its way down between my legs which he then lifted to get at the part he'd never before touched. To give him full access I held my legs up over my chest and he licked away whilst pulling my buttocks apart to open me up. When I felt his hot tongue pressing into me I nearly died. It was out of this world. The last time any guy had done that to me was Ben but this was ten times better. "Oh my god" was all I could say and as I did so he looked at me with his gorgeous brown eyes with a big wide grin. "I'm taking you to bed" he said after a while, "And I'm not taking no for an answer". I knew I had to agree. Hell, I wanted to agree without question so let him take my hand and lead me upstairs. Rudy just stood and watched us as if to say 'about time too'. Once on the bed, he continued what he'd been doing interspersed with more sucking of my cock. I could see his cock was dripping pre-cum and I was desperate to take it into my own mouth to taste him but he was intent on satisfying my needs first. "Want to fuck you" he grunted as he licked away. I stayed silent afraid I'd say something that would stop him from doing what I so wanted. He lifted my legs up over my chest and instructed me to grab hold of them, which I did. He pulled out of the bedside table a bottle of lube and smothered my hole before fingering it. I'd not been fucked with a finger or a cock since leaving Ben but I had used the occasional dildo at home to pleasure myself so his fingers slipped in easily. He knew precisely where to press to give maximum pleasure and my whole body shook with joy. He then stopped and looked at me. For a moment I thought perhaps he was either going to ask if he could continue or decide against doing what I ached for him to do. "I don't have any condoms" he giggled and then added that the last time he'd had sex was four years ago. I said the last time I was fucked was three years but I'd been tested since then and was okay. "I might have one in my wallet" I added half heartedly. "To be honest Lee I'd rather feel flesh against flesh; how about you?" "Fuck the condom and get that cock of yours inside me before I stick it in myself" I laughed. I was that desperate to feel him inside me. He grinned and without saying anymore guided his stiff cock up to me and slowly pushed in. Once he was fully inside, I gasped. "Oh fuck, that feels so good". "Yeah, fucking brilliant" he giggled as he started thrusting back and forth. Somehow he kept the action going for almost ten minutes before he shouted out "Fuck, I'm gonna cum" and I shouted out "Yeah, come for me baby, come". When he'd shot his load he collapsed on top of me and we kissed passionately for another five minutes. Finally we stopped and he looked me in the eyes. I grinned as if he could see me. "That was beautiful" I managed to say as the tears of joy flooded my face. He immediately sensed I was crying and gently licked them. "It sure was" he replied before taking my face into his hands and held it tight. "You do know don't you Lee that I love you; have done from the moment I first met you; you're such a kind, compassionate, feeling guy who's got a wonderful sense of humour and personality; why the fuck Ben let you go I shall never understand and why some guy hasn't found you since then and made you his own beats me." "Perhaps I've been waiting to meet the perfect guy" "Well, when you do meet him it'll be a sad day for me" "What if I've already found him and he's right here in my arms" Simon gasped and frowned at me. "Didn't you realise that I love you too; did from the moment I first saw you and have done ever since" "Me? What a guy who's blind and useless?" "Yes, you; okay you're blind but you're certainly not useless; for fuck's sake Simon, if I had half the determination to do what you do I'd be happy; you're an amazing guy despite your disability; yes, I love you." He looked at me as if he'd never thought it possible that someone could love him. "Oh god; so you really love me? I'd never dreamt that you'd feel for me that way despite dreaming and hoping you would." As he said these words tears poured down his face. It was the first time I'd ever seen him cry. I pulled him close to me and we hugged. His cock had long popped out of me so I pulled him down beside me and we hugged, did some more kissing and caressed each other. It was the happiest moment of my life and I suddenly realised that Ben had done me such a great favour because I'd never have met such a wonderful guy like this. "So why haven't you said something sooner?" he eventually asked. "I had to be sure that you really loved and wanted me; I couldn't cope with being used again by a guy I loved so much." "Oh my god; of course I'll never dump you; you're the most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me and to be honest I'd resigned myself to living a life of loneliness before you came along." He then explained that he used to go to the gay bars and clubs but as soon as guys realised he was blind they made a hasty exit. "I presume no guy wanted to take on that responsibility; you sure you do?" I pulled his face round to mine and kissed his eyes. "The fact that you're blind doesn't come into the equation; I'm more interested in the bloke behind those eyes; that's what I love about you; okay I realise life won't be easy but when is it?" I then giggled and added "My only regret is that you can't see what a good looking guy I am". He laughed and pulled me into yet another kiss. "And that's what I so love; your wonderful sense of humour; never once have I sensed a feeling that you treat me any differently to anyone else; that means a lot to me Lee and I love you for it." I lost all sense of time as we lay together chatting about everything under the sun until I realised it was time to eat so we had a shower together, slipped on a robe each and went downstairs. Rudy came running up to greet us with his tail wagging like mad. He seemed to be saying 'Thank god you two have got it together at last'. We both squatted down and hugged him. "I tell you what" Simon commented, "I've never known him take to anyone as well as he does you and that in itself means a lot to me." "Yeah well, he knows class when he sees it" I laughed, "and good looks" I added which caused Simon to grab me by the balls and squeeze them hard. I stayed over for the rest of the weekend and I lost count of how many times we had sex. That night I fucked him and it was the best fuck I'd had for many a year. I always thought I loved fucking Ben but for some reason doing it with Simon was on a different level. I'd not been home since leaving the Friday morning. We'd walked Rudy out each day and even walked down to the sea to take in the sea air. Anybody watching us would have immediately recognised we were in love. On the Sunday lunchtime we walked down to a bar I particularly liked. They did food so we decided to have a meal there and just a snack in the evening. The guys who owned and ran the bar were more than happy to let Rudy in since other dogs often joined their owners and they all behaved perfectly. I hadn't been there for several weeks so as soon as I walked in they greeted me. Simon hadn't been there for years and certainly not since the current owners had run the bar which had improved considerably since they'd taken it on. I introduced Simon and they welcomed him with open arms. When I went up to get some more drinks the guy I knew well grinned. "Talk about love; if it spills out much more we'll all be drowned in it". I laughed. "Is it that obvious?" He laughed and nodded before wishing us all happiness. Needless to say Simon had heard the comments so was smiling when I took our drinks back. "Do I look as happy as I feel?" he whispered. "Yeah, you do but then so do I" We sat for a while just sipping our drinks and waiting for our meal to arrive. "Can I ask you something?" he asked. I nodded and added "Sure" having remembered that he couldn't see my actions. "Would you move in with me or am I taking things too fast?" My heart raced with excitement. It was something I too had thought of but hadn't wanted to rush things either. "I'd love to" and then paused before continuing "but I couldn't continue being your paid Carer and cleaner; those tasks will automatically come with my love." "Fuck no; don't want you as a paid houseboy" he giggled and grabbed my hand, "But I wouldn't want you to pay for anything towards the upkeep of the house or for food; I take it you realise I'm well off and have private means in addition to the writing I do". To be honest I didn't have much idea how wealthy he was apart from seeing the quality of things in his house which were all expensive to say the least. "Fuck, do you mean to say I've hooked a wealthy guy as well as a good looking one" I laughed. He giggled and pulled me in for a kiss. "Yeah, you have, and one who's got a lot of catching up to do when it comes to sex so be warned" he whispered with a big grin on his face. In the end I agreed since I knew there were certain things he wasn't prepared to give way on. It wasn't until much later that I found out how rich he really was and when I did I nearly died but I was happy to go along with his wishes since my income was not that large to say the least and if I no longer had to pay rent and for food then I'd be a lot better off. In the end he even insisted on paying all the car expenses but that came later. "So, when could you move in?" he asked once our food had arrived and I'd cut his meat up for him and mapped out his plate. The bar guy even gave Rudy a bowl of water so everybody was happy. "When would you like me to?" "Yesterday?" he grinned. "How about tomorrow afternoon", I chuckled. He said that was brilliant and as there was nothing at my place worth keeping since Simon's things were far more superior to anything I owned, all I had to do was pack my clothes and personal things and take them round. I'd have a word with the landlord and see if he wanted my few bits of furniture and if not then I'd arrange for a house clearance place to come in and take the lot away. I'd have to give notice in any event so I knew I had time to clear the place if necessary. 5. My landlord was more accommodating than I had reckoned. He was happy for me to leave all my furniture and furnishings since it meant he could let the studio flat as fully furnished and get more money. What was more, he was prepared to let me leave with only paying rent to the end of the week instead of the normal four weeks of notice. As my furniture was certainly not worth anymore than that amount I immediately accepted and started packing up before he changed his mind. I loaded my personal items, plus a couple of favourite cooking utensils that I'd noted Simon didn't possess into the car, cleared the fridge of food and gave the whole place a good clean before dropping the keys through his door. I was glad to be out of the place to be honest but it had been all I could afford when I moved to Brighton and nowhere near as nice as the place I'd owned with Ben in Southampton. Rudy seemed to sense I was moving in and kept on running behind me back and forth as I emptied my car with his tail wagging. "It's times like this that I feel so fucking useless" Simon wailed as he stood in the hallway listening to my trips back and forth. I put down what I was carrying at the time and took him in my arms. "You're not fucking useless" I berated him, "so stop thinking like that; otherwise I shall have to punish you" I added giggling. "Ooh, how will you punish me" he giggled brightening his mood. I laughed and walked back to the car to fetch my final load before driving it into the garage. I'd never lived in a place that had a garage before so I felt very grown up and like everything else in the house the garage door was operated electronically so I flipped the remote and watched it glide slowly down. I first took my clothes up to the main bedroom where Simon had already made space for me to hang them in the fitted wardrobe. Fortunately I didn't have many so they fitted in easily. I'd always preferred to buy quality over quantity and make them last. Apart from personal knickknacks which I scattered round the house with Simon's approval, the only other item I had that I wanted to hang up was a framed line drawing. It was a male nude and one that Ben had done of me in our earlier years. He'd always been good at art so one day got me to pose naked for him. I had to admit it was brilliant and even though he'd broken my heart I couldn't get rid of it so had hung it in pride of place in my studio flat. When I told Simon he was intrigued and wanted a detailed explanation of it. I took hold of his hand and moved his finger round the outline of the drawing so he could obtain a mental picture of it. He loved it and suggested we hang it in the bedroom opposite the bed, so that's where it went. Whether it was such a good idea to have it there to remind me of Ben each morning, I wasn't sure but I'd now got over him having met Simon so it provided a reminder of our many happy years together. By the time I'd finished everything it was almost time for me to prepare our evening meal but first I needed a shower since I'd been humping things around all day. "I'll join you" Simon said and immediately stripped off. I certainly didn't mind his company even though I knew what would happen, or more to the point, hoped would. Once we were under the shower and rinsing off the shampoo we'd washed each other with, he pulled me into his arms and hugged me. "Thank you for moving in with me". "Thank you for having me" I replied not thinking about the words that carefully. "Oh don't worry, I'll be having you whenever I can" he giggled. "You have a one track mind" I laughed and felt down below. As usual he was hard so I ran it through my hand until it was fully erect. "It's one of the many hazards of being blind" he chuckled, "My mind is forever imagining things and when gorgeous guys like you are around I think of them naked all the time and what I can do with them". "Mm, I can see I shall have to watch you, especially when we go to see Jack in London". "Yeah, there's no holding me back" he laughed and grabbed hold of my now erect organ. "Are you sure you want to take me to London to see him". "Of course I do; I'm looking forward to meeting him". When I learned that Simon hadn't been to London for a long time I immediately offered to take him. He moved his head to mine and gave me a passionate kiss. I could never resist his kisses and immediately opened my mouth to let him in. His hot tongue flicked in and out causing my whole body to become electric. I wanted him so badly and spread his gorgeous buttocks apart so I could feel the hole I knew I was soon going to be penetrating. I squirted some soap from the dispenser fixed to the shower wall and slipped two fingers inside. I was tempted to take him in the shower but decided it was probably too dangerous since we could so easily slip. Instead I turned off the cascading water and led him out of the shower area to dry him off. Once we were both dry I led him into his bedroom and suddenly thought 'this is our bedroom now' and laid him on the bed. The bottle of lube was already sitting on the bedside table so I quickly lubricated my shaft, lifted his legs and sank in. "Oh god; Lee I love you so much" he exclaimed as my long thick organ invaded him. "It's going to be so wonderful living with you". "It's going to be fucking wonderful" I groaned as I pumped away until I could feel my hot seed filling him up. It was quick and intense but I needed the relief and I needed to show him I loved him so much. When I'd finally finished pulsating I pulled out and collapsed on the bed beside him. His cock was still rock hard and I wanted it inside me so I straddled him, lubricated myself and his shaft. I then slowly sank down on it holding it with my hand. He grinned at me as he slowly filled me up. "Yeah ride that hot cock" he giggled, so I did. In fact I did so for a good ten minutes or more before I knew he'd reached his climax and could feel his hot cum filling me up. When he'd finished, I leaned forward and took his head into my hands. We kissed and having done so I looked into his eyes. As usual they shone brightly and I was almost convinced he could see me since he smiled. "How do you know when someone's looking straight at you?" "You must have sensed someone looking at you even though you're not actually looking at them" "Yeah but that's peripheral vision" "It's more than that; it's vibes you pick up on and when you're blind your other senses become more heightened; I can sense when someone is facing me or looking at me in the same way as I can pick up the slightest sound or conversation. When the brain doesn't have sight to process it uses all its processing power to evaluate other things. I probably know what's going on round me far more than the normal person." I hadn't really thought of it like that before even though having met other blind people I knew they did have these extra sensory abilities. "I can see I shall have to watch what I do when you're around" I laughed. "Yeah, I shall know when you're eyeing up the competition or giving some nice man a kiss" he laughed. "Spoil sport" I teased. "Well, I won't mind provided you let me kiss him too" I could see my life with Simon was going to be full of fun and I so looked forward to it. Since meeting him my own life had been so much better and I had a strong feeling his had too. We were going to have a great time together. "Come on" I eventually said, "If you want to eat tonight we'd better get moving". We decided to slip robes on rather than get dressed again. I had a feeling he'd want to feel me some more once downstairs and I certainly had no objection to that. When we walked into the kitchen, Rudy came running to meet us. I'd noticed he never came upstairs to see us when we were making love yet he always came up to us whenever we were naked or near naked downstairs. "Yeah, the dogs are trained to give us privacy when we're having sex" Simon giggled when I commented on the fact. "Oh yeah and how do they train them? Have couples making love in front of them and train them to close their eyes" I laughed. "Now that sounds a good idea; perhaps we should offer ourselves as the guys who make love whilst dogs are being trained." "You are one big exhibitionist" I laughed and grabbed hold of his robe to pull it open. "And you're not? See, remind me, who's naked body is it displayed on our bedroom wall?" I gave up after that but it did remind me of the other paintings around the house. Several were of male nudes and looked very expensive. He explained that they were all originals and worth a lot of money since the artists were now well known but his father had bought some when they were not so well known and he'd done the same. I was intrigued why he bought art which he couldn't see. "Well" he laughed, "I had sex with the models so I have a pretty good idea of what's on the canvas". "I can see there are a lot of things I don't know about you" I laughed. "Fuck yes, you only know the half of it" he giggled and put his arms round me to give me a grope whilst I was preparing the meat for the steak and mushroom pie I was making. I didn't stop him because I loved the feel of his arms, and his hands for that matter, round my body but he pulled away and asked if he could do anything to help. "How about peeling some potatoes? You reckon you can do that without cutting yourself? Don't want bits of finger in my potatoes" I laughed. "Ha, ha, but yes I am capable of peeling potatoes so put them in front of me and I'll do them". I pulled out what we needed, gave him a bowl and another with water in it plus the peeler. I watched him for a while as I continued with the other preparation. He was more than capable as he'd said. "Satisfied" he asked sensing that I was watching him. "Perfect" I giggled and gave him a kiss on the cheek. When he'd finished the potatoes I gave him the carrots to chop which he again did without any problem. It was good to see him doing normal things and we worked well together. "That was delicious" he said when we'd finished eating the meat pie some while later, "Especially the potatoes and carrots" he added laughing. I laughed and threw my napkin at him. "I see, throwing things at a blind man now" he giggled. "If he's not careful I shall do more than that" I laughed. "Ooh, tell me more" he giggled. "How about bending him over the table and fucking him senseless" "Mm, now that sounds an excellent idea but you may embarrass Rudy" "I doubt it; he'll probably watch on with great interest; I'm convinced that dog is gay." The rest of the week followed much the same pattern. I loved living with Simon and he certainly loved having me live with him. The more we did so, the more I got to know him and him me for that matter, not that there was much he didn't already know about my past life. I was particularly interested in knowing about his father who I'd sensed he loved very much. They'd been more than just father and son; they'd been close friends so it had been particularly hard when his dad was killed in the car accident. "Did you ever meet any of his boyfriends?" I asked one day. "Oh yes, frequently; one or two were very nice guys and the one who eventually came to live with us was too." "Did mates at school get to know your dad was gay?" "They did in the end and I was bullied no end, especially when it was clear I was gay too; how about you?" I said I'd been bullied at school too since it was evident I was gay from an early age; in fact my mum had worked it out well before I had so when I finally came out to her and my dad they just grinned and said "tell us something we don't know". "What about your mother, do you remember her?" I asked. For a moment he said nothing and I was worried I'd hit a raw nerve since he'd never talked about her. "She was a hard-nosed bitch" he suddenly exclaimed, "She gave my dad hell when she found out about his male friends despite the fact that he'd loved her and been faithful to her so when she moved to Spain that was it and we never heard from her again." I was shocked and immediately took him into my arms. "So does she not know about your dad and that you're blind?" He shook his head and hugged me tight. I tried to imagine what it must feel like to lose your mother and then your father at such a young age, plus being blind. To be honest I couldn't since I'd had such a happy childhood and if Ben hadn't cheated on me I'd still have lived in Southampton and seen them regularly. Although they were only an hour and a half away by car, I hadn't been to see them as often as I'd liked but we kept in contact by phone each week. "Mum and Dad want to meet you" I told Simon after one such conversation with them. I'd told them I'd found this wonderful man and was now living with him so they naturally wanted to meet him but for some reason I'd not told them he was blind. Why I wasn't sure but I would before they met him. Simon laughed. "I see, they want to check that their son is living with someone suitable do they; they'll get a shock when they find it's a blind man". "Fuck no" I exclaimed before I realised he was joking, "I want to show you off if you must know" I replied before adding "And you're not just a blind man; you're a gorgeous looking sexy blind man" I laughed. He couldn't answer that so pulled me into one of his embraces and kissed me. As always it caused our bodies to react down below so I soon felt our stiff dicks pressing against each other. "Mm you smell so nice and you feel so sexy" he groaned as he kissed and felt me. I'd just showered and dressed again because we were going to take Rudy out for a walk but within seconds my clothes were off me as were his. We were in the kitchen at the time and I'd thought we'd be going upstairs but instead of that he bent me over the kitchen table and started to rim me. "Oh fuck" I groaned as I felt his hot tongue lick round my hole. Having got me well slicked, I felt him spreading lube over it. He must have had one of the small bottles we kept upstairs in his pocket. Within seconds I felt his hard cock invade me. "Of fuck" I groaned some more as his shaft sank inside me. I glanced to one side and saw Rudy watching us. His tail was wagging and his tongue was lolling out as if saying 'you lucky guy'. It was a hard and intense fuck but I loved it and Simon knew it. When he'd finished filling me up with his hot seed he pulled out and gave my naked arse a big slap. "Yeah, that was beautiful". I laughed and pulled him into my arms for another passionate kiss. "Come on, poor Rudy wants his walk" I eventually managed to say. "He's only jealous" he laughed. "Kinky" I giggled as he quickly got dressed and harnessed Rudy up. 6. "As it's a nice day, I thought we'd take Rudy onto the downs so he can have a good run; perhaps take a picnic as well" I said one Saturday morning a few weeks later. We seldom went out in the car and I was tired of Preston Park. It was now June and the weather for once seemed set for a few days. Simon didn't jump at the idea and for a moment I wondered whether it was because it meant we had to go out in the car. "I promise I'll drive very carefully" I added. "I know you will my love" he replied and put his arm round me. I then realised that it wasn't my driving he was worried about, it was others coming towards us. "The chances of a similar accident happening again are extremely low" I replied trying to allay his nerves. "I know; I'm just being stupid" he replied, "Just don't think I could face losing you as well". "Don't worry babe, I won't let any fucker kill me" I laughed trying to take his concerns away but all it did was make him cry and me too so we spent the next few minutes consoling each other. "I love you so much" he eventually said as I dried away his tears. "I know you do and I love you too, more than anything in the world and I intend being with you for always". Finally we got ourselves together and he relaxed. I sat him down and got him to butter the rolls I'd bought for our picnic lunch. I'd also bought some dressed crab which I knew Simon loved so I filled the rolls with that along with some cucumber. I put into the picnic bag some bags of crisps, some small cakes I'd made and a can of cider for Simon since I knew he liked that too. I included a non alcoholic drink for myself since I never drank when I was driving. Rudy was already getting excited having sensed we were doing something out of the ordinary. He really was such a lovely dog and I loved him as much as I loved Simon. Once we were ready, I packed the picnic bag into the car and fixed Rudy into his harness. Simon set the house alarm and we set off. When I'd first gone to live with him I had to get used to the alarm system which like everything else was the latest technology. He explained that he needed it not only to protect the house and its contents but also him which was understandable. It had several zones which could be set even when we were inside and I soon realised that I was living with some very expensive items. He loved sculptures since he could feel those which he frequently did, especially the male nudes! We also frequently visited galleries for him to enjoy those on show. Being blind he was generally allowed to feel them with permission. I loved the South Downs and before moving in with Simon frequently went for walks so knew them well. I also knew several less known paths so decided I'd take one of those once we'd parked. I asked Simon if it was okay to let Rudy off the harness so he could run free and I'd lead Simon. He agreed so I offered my arm for him to place his hand on. It also provided the perfect opportunity for us to be in close contact without shouting to the world at large that we were gay. Not that I was bothered in any event. "Is that okay leading you like that?" "It's fine" Simon chuckled and gave me a peck on the cheek. I laughed and said I wasn't sure he should kiss me in public. "Fuck what people think" he laughed, "I love you and I want the world to know". "Mm, that's nice, and I love you too" "So where are you taking me?" I detailed the path I was about to take and he said he knew it. As a kid he often cycled on the South Downs so knew it well. "Is that small copse still there which is hidden from the main path?" I said it was and grinned because that was exactly where I was leading him since I wanted to lay down in the sun with him and with a bit of luck make love. The path was narrow and uneven in places so I had to take particular care how I led him along. Rudy loved it and ran ahead but every now and then looked back to make sure we were following. "Rudy is having the time of his life" I commented as we walked. "I bet he is; it's great to give him the chance to have a free run round rather than leading me". After a while, Simon giggled. "What" I asked. "I know where you're taking me; you naughty boy". I chuckled and stopped before pulling him into a passionate kiss. We were now on our own with not a soul around. As we kissed he felt down to my crotch. "Thought as much" he chuckled and gave my stiff cock a squeeze. I reached down to his and it too had reacted so I knew we were in for some fun. The entrance to the copse had overgrown somewhat since I'd last been there but I managed to get us through with Rudy following. It was an amazing place and seemed untouched by time. The sun shone down onto a small patch of green with trees all round to protect us from view. The only view was over the steepest part of the hill from which there was no access so I could look out over the rest of the Downs yet not be seen, unless someone had a pair of binoculars far off but good luck to them if they did. I lay out the thin groundsheet I'd brought with me and immediately stripped off. I then helped Simon do the same and we lay out in the sunshine enjoying the warmth of the sun on our naked bodies. Rudy took it all in his stride and lay down beside us. Our cocks were still hard and we handled each other's for a while. I'd always enjoyed being naked in the open air. Ben used to call me an exhibitionist but he too loved nudism so we frequently found a spot where we could strip off whenever we could. "This is wonderful" Simon groaned with pleasure, "Did you think to bring the lube?" he chuckled. "Of course" I giggled and immediately went down on him. "Oh yes, that feels wonderful" Simon groaned as I sucked the long hard organ up and down with intermittent sucks of his balls. "I want to fuck you" he said after a while. "How'd you want me?" "On your knees; want to take you from behind and give you a good long hard fuck" I immediately went onto all fours and offered myself before giving him the bottle of lube. I felt his fingers lightly finger me and I gasped. "Fuck that feels so good". He then reached between my legs and took hold of my rampant organ. I felt his lubricated hand gently massage me and for a moment I thought I was going to come but he stopped and returned to fingering me. I felt three fingers probing me before his big cock slipped inside. "Yeah, beautiful; such a gorgeous arse to fuck isn't it Rudy" Simon groaned. I giggled and turned to see that Rudy was watching on with great interest, in fact he was almost licking his lips. I could feel Simon's long cock slowly pushing in before being pulled right out until the head was at my entrance to my hole. He then thrust back in and repeated the action. He kept going like this for what seemed like ages but was probably no more than ten or fifteen minutes. "I'm gonna fill your beautiful arse up with my lovely hot creamy cum" he giggled. "Yeah, fuck that hole and fill me up babe" I cried, "and later I shall want more". "Don't worry you gorgeous fucker, I plan to" he laughed as he suddenly let rip and I felt his first load of cum spill out. Once done he stayed inside me for several more minutes. He reached round and massaged my cock until I too was shooting my load. "Oh fuck" I yelled as the first few ribbons started shooting. When I was finished but the end of my cock was still weeping, Simon spoke to Rudy. "Lick that beautiful cock Rudy". To my utter amazement Rudy walked over to the side of me and licked the head of my sensitive cock whilst Simon held it out to one side. "Oh fuck" I exclaimed, "that feels awesome". The feel of Rudy's rough tongue on my sensitive head sent me into another orgasm and more cum shot out. "Your dog is definitely gay" I laughed, "I've never known a dog lick cum before". Simon laughed and said nor had he but had offered his cock to Rudy soon after he'd had him just for a laugh and was amazed when he started licking it and brought him off to a climax. "That is fucking kinky" I exclaimed, "but rather nice". "Yeah well, had to find some way to get my rocks off didn't I" Eventually Simon pulled out of me and we collapsed onto the ground to kiss. As we did so Rudy continued licking our naked butts since he could no longer get to our cocks. "Well, that's a first, never had a threesome with a dog before" I laughed and gave Rudy a big hug which he lapped up. The feel of his soft fir against my naked body made me get another erection which Simon soon found so continued massaging me for a while. "How about some lunch?" I asked after we'd soaked up some more sun. Simon said he was feeling ravenous so I unpacked the picnic bag. I'd brought a plastic bowl for Rudy so filled it with water and then gave him some dog biscuits which were his usual lunchtime treat. Whilst he tucked into those, Simon and I ate our crab rolls. "You've made me so happy Lee" he said after a while. "And you me" I replied and gave him a kiss. "It was just as well that temporary Carer was unreliable otherwise we might never have met." Simon pondered that for a while before saying he was sure we would have met somehow since we were made for each other. I couldn't argue with that because it was exactly how I felt. We spent another two hours lazing in the sun during which time I fucked Simon and he fucked me again. It was the best time of my life and I said we'd definitely come again one day when the weather was warm enough. I just hoped that our private spot wouldn't be found by others. Eventually we made our way back and Rudy once again enjoyed himself running ahead. Every so often he'd run back to us just to make sure he didn't lose us. As soon as we were home, we stripped off and sunbathed naked in the conservatory with the door wide open. It wasn't quite the same as being out in the open air but near enough. Unfortunately the garden was too overlooked to do it on the grass. Needless to say, Simon again fucked me and I rode him up and down until he was shooting yet another load of hot juicy cum up my arse. He then wanted to ride me so we changed over. "So you like stripping off in public then" I giggled once I'd filled him up. "Yeah, love it but not the kind of thing I could do when I was on my own" "If this weather lasts, how about we go to Clymping near Shoreham to the nudist beach" "I didn't know there was one there". "Not officially but it's used by those who enjoy naturism and at the far end there's the dunes where the gays gather". "Wow, sunbathing with other gay guys; can't wait" he laughed so I promised that if next weekend was also good weather then we'd go and once again take a picnic. After we'd eaten our meal we made our way into the living room. We'd not bothered to get dressed or cover ourselves so we were still naked. "Ever used an electro stimulation unit?" I asked casually. Simon said he hadn't but rather fancied the idea so I ran upstairs to fetch mine. To make it more interesting I lubricated by shaft which by now was rock hard again, and guided him onto it so he was sitting in my lap with my cock up his arse. "Fuck, that feels good" he groaned. I then fitted one of the electro cock rings round the base of his balls and his cock and the other round the top end of his shaft. Having plugged in the electrodes I switched the unit on. It had several settings which caused different pulses as well as the means to increase the intensity. I started off low until he was used to it but he soon wanted more. "Oh fuck, that is awesome" he yelled which caused Rudy to look up to see what his mad masters were doing now. "Change the mode and increase the level" he told me so I did so. He ended up with the level at the full setting and I could feel my cock buzzing away inside him. We remained like that for a good half hour and I changed the pulse setting every so often to give him a change. I could see his cock was already leaking pre-cum and I knew he'd eventually shoot his load. I too was feeling my own climax rising and wondered how much longer I could keep it from doing so. I changed the setting back to one which meant that he received a long continuous pulse through his cock. Suddenly he shouted out "Fuck" and ribbons of creamy cum shot out of his cock. Seeing and feeling him do so, made mine shoot its load too so whilst he was shooting his, I was shooting mine inside him. "That really was fucking awesome" I shouted once we'd both come down from our high. Once I'd disconnected him and removed the cock rings, he turned and kissed me. "Come with me, I'm going to treat you to something just as awesome". He took my hand and led me upstairs with Rudy following us clearly wanting to see what we were up to now. First he told me to fetch a large bath towel from the linen cupboard whilst he prepared things in the bedroom. When I joined him, he'd removed the duvet and told me to lay the towel out on the bed. He then fitted a blindfold over my eyes and told me to lie on my stomach. I had no idea what he was going to do but just the thought of what it might be caused my cock to go rock hard. I then felt him straddle my back and I could feel his nakedness against mine. I then felt some warm oil being poured onto my back and knew he was going to give me a massage. I'd not had one for a very long time since it was something Ben and I often did to each other. His touch was sensuous as he massaged my body slowly working his way down to my buttocks. When he reached them I felt him turn round so he was facing my feet. He slowly massaged each buttock pulling them wide open to expose my hole. I then felt his hot tongue lick my hole and I groaned and moaned with pleasure. I could feel pre-cum leaking out my cock and ached to feel his inside me. First I felt his fingers explore me inside; two then three then four. My entrance was now wide open, in fact wide enough to get a small hand inside but I didn't think he'd go that far. Suddenly the fingering stopped and I felt him manoeuvring himself over my hole. I held my breath until I felt the head of his big cock push inside. "Oh fuck, yes, fuck me please fuck that hole" I screamed. He giggled as he continued to do just that. Because his cock was at a different angle I could feel the head hitting all the hot spots inside my arse. He kept going for ages and I wondered how he could keep going so long before shooting his load but he had this amazing ability to control when he wanted to come. "Am gonna fill you up again so get ready" he laughed. "Yeah, fill me up babe; fill me up with your lovely hot gorgeous cum; fill me up" I screamed again. Within seconds I could feel him spilling his load inside me. Despite our earlier exploits he seemed to keep going for several minutes before he finally stopped. He slumped down over my legs and kissed my feet. I'd never been fucked like that before and I loved it. As he did so, he moved his buttocks up and down and his big hard cock fucked me some more. "Want me to keep on fucking you?" he giggled. "Yes please, keep on fucking my hole; I love it, just keep on fucking me until you fill me up again". He laughed and continued thrusting in and out slowly building up the pace. He must have continued doing so for a good twenty minutes or more before he yelled "Yeah, here we go; another load of hot creamy cum up your arse". This time he kept shooting for several minutes before finally pulling out. He then gave my buttocks a big hard slap which made me jump up in the air but I secretly loved it. 7. By the following weekend, the weather had changed and gone back to being dull and miserable so we never did go to the nudist beach. As it happened I decided that perhaps it wasn't such a good idea in any event since the path to the end where the gays used was rough and would have been difficult for Simon to negotiate. In addition, the sand dunes were probably not a good place for Rudy so we gave up on the idea. By chance, I received that week an email from two friends of mine who lived in Rottingdean. I had met Rene and Darren in a gay bar shortly after I'd moved to Brighton. They became good friends and gave me support whilst I was getting over Ben. When I told them about Simon they immediately said they would love to meet him so on the Saturday afternoon we visited them and stayed for a meal. They owned a house on the outskirts of the town and had converted part of their double garage into what they called a play room. They'd installed a shower and hot tub at one end with a one way window overlooking the garden which at night became a picture of different colours. Quite how I never worked out but they were both into electronics so knew how to do such things. At the other end, they'd installed a large leatherette covered mattress similar to those used in gay saunas, plus a large flat screen TV on the wall to show porn. It doesn't take much imagination to work out what took place on the mattress! Rene and Darren loved Simon from the outset and made him feel very much at home. They also loved dogs so liked Rudy as well. "Wow, he's gorgeous" Rene whispered to me as he gave me a hug. Simon grinned so I pointed out that his sense of hearing was acute. "Oh fuck; had better watch what I say then" Rene laughed, "But I don't mind him knowing that I'm drooling over him." Darren stood quietly watching his partner make a fool of himself as usual so just smiled and raised his eyebrows. He and Rene were both in their early thirties and had been together for almost ten years so Darren was well aware of his boyfriend's constant interest in other guys. Having said that they always appeared to get on well and I was sure they were very much in love with each other. "I hope you guys are up for a soak in the hot tub" Rene grinned and gave me a quick grope. "Of course, why else do you think we've come" I laughed. "Oh, and there was me thinking you'd come to admire my good looks and savour my beautiful personality" Rene laughed. "That as well Rene; and to gaze at your beautiful naked body" I responded. "Okay, no need to go over the top dear" Rene giggled and sashayed off to the kitchen. "Now, I suggest we take a bottle of wine with us so we can have a drink and enjoy ourselves". "Sounds good to me" Simon grinned. "Ooh, isn't he lovely, come on then Simon let me take your arm and lead the way whilst the other two bring the wine and the glasses; and if you need any help to get undressed I'm sure I could do that too". Darren and I looked at each other and grinned. "What do you do with him" he said as he pulled out a bottle of white wine from the fridge and indicated for me to get four glasses out of the cupboard. "So how are things?" I asked moving up to behind Darren. I happened to know that things had not been too good recently at the company where they both worked. He turned and looked at me. I could see he was worried so I took him into my arms. "It looks as if the company is going to shut down; the American owners don't think we make sufficient profit so the chances are we'll all be redundant." "Oh hell, what are you both going to do?" "Rene wants us to go freelance and offer a similar service to the UK customers." "That sounds a brilliant idea; at least you'd be your own boss and operate the way you want". "Yeah, that's what Rene says but it's a hell of a risk" "No more than what I did when I left a good job in Southampton and moved to Brighton and that's worked out fine; okay I might not be earning as much as I was then but I'm a hell of a lot happier." "You reckon?" "Yeah, without doubt; you two are good at your job from what I can see so go for it before someone else does." "That's what Rene said as well" "Look, you're used to working together and he's a good front man and you're a good technical guy so I wouldn't hesitate if I were you; have they given you notice yet?" "They're looking for volunteers to start with but everyone knows it's only a question of time before the whole place closes." "Go for it and get out now; that's my advice". "Yeah, you're right; just needed someone other than Rene to tell me that was the right decision because that's what he wants to do; thanks for that." He then pulled me into a kiss which was far more passionate than normal but I put it down to him being worried about the future. "Ah, here you both are, was beginning to wonder if you'd gone off to bed with each other and left us down here" Rene laughed as we walked into the play room which was accessed through a door from the kitchen. Rene and Simon were already stripped off and in the hot tub. "Lee was asking about the company situation" Darren said. "Oh, that" Rene replied looking somewhat frustrated. It was obvious the topic had been discussed at length. "So what do you think we should do Lee?" "I think you should both accept the voluntary redundancy and leave as soon as you can and set up on your own." "Precisely, that's what I've been telling him for the past two weeks; now do you believe me it's the right thing to do my love?" Darren grinned as he got undressed beside me. Once we were both naked we walked over to the shower and quickly had a rinse before climbing into the hot tub. Rene took hold of Darren's hand and pulled him down beside him. They kissed and I could see Darren enjoying the attention. "You're so lucky Simon, you not only have a gorgeous looking boyfriend but one who's so wise" Rene laughed. Darren giggled and slapped his boyfriend playfully. "I just wanted someone else's opinion that's all" he said before giving Rene another kiss. "You get used to these two after a while" I told Simon, "They love winding each other up". "I see; perfect harmony at all times with you guys is there" Rene laughed. "Well, almost" Simon laughed and put his arm round me. "You wait till you've been together for ten years" Darren laughed. "From what I can tell you make a lovely couple; I take it you're planning to go into business on your own because of problems with the current company." "Fuck, this guy doesn't miss anything does he Lee?" Rene laughed. "Nope, and I love him to bits" "I can see that" Rene chuckled, "Mind you you're both gorgeous". "Down boy" Darren laughed. "Are you referring to my cock my love?" "Yes, and it's hard as usual" Darren laughed as he took hold of it. "Join the clan" Simon giggled, "So is mine". "Fuck, it is too" Rene exclaimed and reached over to give it a feel. From there on things progressed into a foursome with cocks being massaged and mouths being kissed. By the time we all emerged a while later to go and lay on the mattress at the other end of the room four cocks were flying at high mast and rearing to go. We each grabbed a towel and lay down. Darren flipped a switch and the porn came on screen showing two guys busy at it. Rene was soon kissing and feeling Simon whilst I was doing the same to Darren. After a while, Simon and I turned towards each other and kissed passionately. Rene moved up behind Simon and Darren did the same to me. Within a few minutes we were both lubricated and being fucked by a suited and booted cock whilst we continued kissing. Simon grinned at me when he felt Rene penetrating him. He was clearly enjoying it as I was feeling Darren inside me. The action continued for quite some time before both reached their climax and shot their load. As they did so they each massaged our cocks and we too shot ours. "Fucking brilliant" Rene exclaimed once we were all satisfied. Simon and I kissed and grunted our agreement. We spent an enjoyable afternoon and evening with them and by the time we left, Simon loved their company and had become good friends. Now I had a place to invite them back to we met up frequently to wine and dine each other at one another's houses. They did accept voluntary redundancy and within a few weeks had set up their own company which very quickly became successful. Rene was a natural when it came to dealing with customers and Darren was the solid workhorse who kept things on an even keel. Simon was required to take Rudy for regular checkups with the local vet so two weeks after we'd been to see Rene and Darren, I accompanied him. Rudy seemed perfectly calm and had no fears about seeing the vet who was a guy in his mid thirties called Lawrence. It was such a difference to when I used to take my dog to the vet when he needed inoculations or was unwell. But that was Rudy and he took everything in his stride. Lawrence clearly loved the dog and Rudy even wagged his tail as soon as we entered the surgery. Simon introduced me and Lawrence smiled. He examined Rudy and gave him a glowing report. "He's looking A1" Lawrence smiled and looked at me again. "Must be all the runs he has on the Downs" I commented since we now went there regularly to give Rudy a good run. "Ah, so you've at last got Simon out and about" Lawrence grinned, "That's great news; both he and Rudy were in need of that." Simon laughed. "Yes, this gorgeous guy has turned my life round". I looked at Lawrence who gave me yet another of his smiles. I had a strong suspicion he was gay and commented on the fact when we'd left. "He is" Simon laughed, "hence the reason why I use him; and he used to have a lovely partner who was a pharmacist but for some unknown reason they split up." "We must invite him over for dinner one evening" I suggested. "What would I do without you" Simon laughed and gave me a quick kiss on the cheeks. "Go back to a hand job?" I giggled. Simon laughed, "Yeah, you're right there; I've not enjoyed sex so much for years; but yes we must invite Lawrence over, he'd appreciate that." I made a mental note to organise a date to do just that because I wanted to learn more about Lawrence, especially why he'd split up from his partner in view of my experience. In the meantime, we were off to London to meet Jack who Simon had met and had a very short fling with when they both stayed at the Guide Dogs for the Blind Association to be matched to a dog. Unfortunately Jack and the dog didn't gel and he decided it was too much hassle to look after a dog on his own whilst living in a relatively small flat in London, so after a while the dog had been returned to the Association. Jack lived in Vauxhall and I'd originally planned to drive since he said there was parking I could use but I could sense that Simon was getting tense at the thought of driving. One evening I raised the topic and immediately saw him tense up again. "It's okay my love, we can go by train if you'd prefer" I said taking him into my arms. "Would you mind? I know I'm being a wimp but my dad and I were on the way back from London when" "Oh my god" I interrupted, "I didn't realise; I'm so sorry my love, of course we'll go by train". I had never thought to ask where the tragic accident had taken place all those years ago and even though the roads had improved considerably since then I could well understand his concern. I booked our tickets from Brighton to Victoria and also booked a taxi to take us to the station on the day in question. Jack had invited us to go on the Friday and stay through to the Monday to give us a reasonable break. Simon hadn't been to London since the accident eleven years ago so I'd agreed with Jack to make it a memorable time for him. The taxi arrived at nine in the morning and it was a driver who'd frequently driven Simon around before so he was used to Rudy as well. I'd taken the car seat harness since that could be easily connected to the spare car seatbelt fitting and attached to Rudy's collar. It just made things a bit safer for him. We only had one case between us so I wheeled that whilst Simon was led by Rudy. At the station everyone was very helpful so we were soon on the train and ready to go. The journey only took an hour so when we arrived at Victoria we made our way to the Victoria underground line. It was times like this that I realised how difficult it is for disabled people to move around on the transport system in London but Rudy was brilliant and took everything in his stride, even whilst on the underground. Jack met us at Vauxhall which was only a few minutes away. As soon as he sensed Simon and Rudy he turned and walked towards us using his white stick. I introduced myself and we hugged and kissed not caring what those around us thought of two guys kissing. Jack and Simon then embraced and held each other for several seconds. They hadn't met for about five years although they communicated frequently with each other by email. Even that these days had been made simpler for the blind since a voice command opened the email system and announced how many new emails had come in. Another voice command opened each one and it was read out. Any reply could then be dictated and off it went. "You sound really happy" Jack commented as we started walking to his flat. "I am" Simon giggled, "And this guy here is the reason; he's the love of my life". "Lucky you" Jack chuckled, "I'm still trying to find Mr Right but can't find anyone prepared to take me on". "I'm sure you will eventually" I replied and put an arm round Jack. "You reckon this guy might like to move to London Simon, he sounds perfect". "No way mate, he's all mine" Simon giggled. "Spoil sport" Jack chuckled. Jack's flat was in a modern block and had two bedrooms, a reasonable sized living room and separate kitchen. Having a vague idea of how expensive property was in London he'd done well to get this place which he owned, or more to the point, the mortgage company did, but he had a good job in marketing apparently so could afford it. He was another person who amazed me at how he managed to get around and hold a good job in spite of his disability. I felt honoured to get to know him as I had done Simon several months previous. "Come on in guys and make yourself at home" Jack giggled once we'd negotiated the lift to the fourth floor where his flat was situated. The views were not spectacular, which was no problem for Jack but it was quiet. He showed us into the spare bedroom which was very smartly furnished. Once he'd left us to unpack, I gave Simon a layout of where everything was and took him into my arms. "You okay my love?" "Yeah, more than okay now I've got you". We then kissed and hugged as we pressed our bodies together. "I think we'd better unpack before I get carried away" I giggled. "I wouldn't mind if you did" "I'm sure you wouldn't but Jack might wonder what's happened to us" I laughed. When we eventually went to find Jack we found him in the kitchen with Rudy. "Do you regret not having one?" Simon asked having sensed Jack was hugging Rudy. "In some ways I do but it wouldn't have worked out; having a dog in a flat is not fun for either the dog or the owner and I manage fairly well without one." "I could never get used to using the stick" Simon chuckled, "Was forever bumping into things". "Well, you've got your own guide now" Jack grinned looking over to me. "Don't you believe it Jack, he's an independent sod and only accepts my help when he has to" I laughed. "That figures" Jack replied remembering what Simon had been like during their short fling together. "Have you two finished?" Simon grinned, "I just happen to like being independent as much as I can." "That's fine my love, as long as you need me for some things" I giggled. "Oh yes, definitely need you for that" "Fuck, are you two going to be making sexual innuendos all the time you're here" Jack laughed. "You're only jealous" Simon shot back. "Too fucking right I am" I laughed and put my arm round Jack to give him a hug. "You sure this guy doesn't want to move to London?" he giggled. "Quite sure" Simon replied and smacked Jack's backside with amazing accuracy. 8. Jack was no cook so used convenience meals most of the time. That evening we had lasagne which he heated up in the microwave. It was pleasant enough and he followed that with some stewed fruit. After our meal he suggested we went round to one of the local gay bars. I was concerned about leaving Rudy on his own in an unfamiliar flat so it was agreed we'd take him with us. Jack was well known where we were going so was sure they'd let a guide dog inside. As it happened, the bar guys were brilliant and found us a quiet corner where Rudy could lay down at Simon's feet out of the way. Even so he attracted a lot of attention from other customers which was well received by him. He was such a lovely dog and I loved him to bits as much as Simon. I always kept small treats in my pocket so gave him one. They were small doggie chocolates which were actually made from dried meat so perfectly harmless. "You spoil him" Simon chuckled having picked up that I was giving Rudy something. "Well, he's so good and deserves being spoiled every now and then, just like my lover". I leaned over and pulled Simon into a kiss which became very passionate. I sensed Jack was looking at us and whispered to Simon. "Think Jack is envious". "Go on give him one too, I don't mind" I turned to Jack who was sitting on the other side of me and pulled his head towards mine. He grinned and quickly accepted my advances. The kiss was far more passionate than I'd intended and I could feel his tongue plunging into my mouth but decided to let him do so. I then felt his hand reach into my crotch and give me a squeeze. I was already getting hard from the kiss with Simon so it didn't take long to go the whole way. "Mm nice" Jack groaned and pulled my hand into his crotch. He too was hard so for a minute or two we enjoyed each other. Simon knew what was going on and just smiled. Jack had said earlier that he had nobody in his life at present and was desperate for sex but Simon also recognised that he just needed some loving. Simon liked Jack even though their fling had been short lived. Not only did they live in different places but they were not really compatible. Apart from that, Simon at the time was not sure he could manage having another blind guy as a boyfriend. Jack had very limited sight in one eye having been born with a rapidly deteriorating defect but from a practical point of view he was as blind as Simon. Every so often, I'd stand up with either Simon or Jack and hold them tight against me pretending to move with the music. Several guys came up to say hi to Jack so it seemed he was reasonably well known and liked him from what I could see. One or two were very good looking guys and I commented on the fact to him. "Yeah, so I've been told but none of them are interested in shacking up with a blind guy" I felt sorry for him and gave him another big hug and a kiss. "Simon, are there anymore guys like Lee where you found him?" "Nah, he's a one off I'm afraid Jack, and he's all mine" Simon giggled. "He's really mean at times, have you noticed Lee" Jack laughed. "He's lovely" I replied and squeezed Jack tight against me, "Just like you". "Well perhaps you could tell some of these fuckers round here who don't want to get involved with me" he replied sadly. "Just keep looking; your Mr Right will come along one day". We had a really enjoyable time but decided to go home soon after ten when the bar started to fill up with the late night brigade. The music had also been turned up so I didn't want Rudy to be deafened by it. I told Simon that I'd take the harness off him for our walk home so he could do his nightly bathroom routine since there was no garden we could let him out in so Simon linked arms with Jack and I led Simon whilst holding onto Rudy's lead. Being London roads I didn't risk letting him run loose but he seemed happy enough even though we all had to stop every so often for him to sniff a lamppost or hold his leg up. By the time we got back to Jack's flat we were all laughing and having a great time. "How about a drink" Jack announced and pulled out a selection of bottles which included whiskey, gin, vodka and Bacardi. Since I wasn't driving I decided to have a Bacardi and coke. The other two had a whiskey. Jack had already had several drinks at the bar and I noticed he was becoming very amorous with both me and Simon. "It's great having you guys to stay" he giggled once he'd sat down between us so he could have a good feel every so often. Simon took it all in his stride and Jack's attention certainly didn't bother me if it didn't bother him. Eventually we decided to go to bed and Jack went to his room to get undressed leaving Simon and I to do so in ours. It was our usual practice to strip off and then go to the bathroom. Whilst Simon was in there, I suddenly realised that Jack was standing in the doorway stark naked. He was shorter than either me or Simon but had a good body on him. My eyes immediately lowered to his cock which was hanging down between two large floppy balls. I'd felt it hard at the bar so knew how large it became. "Do you know what I really miss" he said as he slowly walked towards my naked body, "Being able to snuggle up to a guy in bed and just hold him." I felt so sorry for him because that was precisely how I'd felt during the three years I'd been on my own after the breakup with Ben. The mere fact of having another guy beside me in bed who I could hug and caress each night and morning meant so much to me. I moved up to him and wrapped his naked body in my arms. His head snuggled into my shoulder and I caressed his back and buttocks. Just then Simon returned and immediately sensed Jack being there. "Jack's just telling me how he misses being able to snuggle up to a guy in bed and hold him" "I can understand that, I used to feel the same before you came to live with me; you want to join us for a while Jack?" I looked at Simon to see if he was serious. He was and I wondered whether it would just be a cuddle. Jack looked up at me to sense my reaction. "Yeah, sure, why not" I replied and led Jack over to the bed. Once we were all beneath the covers we pressed our naked bodies up against Jack who was in the middle. Jack first kissed Simon and they held each other whilst I caressed his back and felt his naked buttocks. They were beautiful and my cock reacted but I did my best not to let it get too hard. After a while, Jack turned round and faced me. We then kissed whilst pressing our semi erections up against each other and Simon pressed his up to Jack's butt. Jack moaned with delight at the feel of two hot naked bodies pressing against him clearly enjoying it. Eventually Jack moved to his own bed having thanked and kissed us for letting him join us. "He's a nice guy" I commented once he'd gone, "It's a shame he can't find someone to love". Simon agreed and held me tight as if he was afraid he was going to lose me. I smiled and gave him a goodnight kiss. He really was the best thing that had ever happened to me. On the Saturday Jack suggested we do some sightseeing. At first it sounded an odd thing to do with two blind guys but they explained that with me to describe what there was to see they could still enjoy the atmosphere. I was happy to do so and even though I'd only been to London a few times in my life I knew the main tourist sites such as Buckingham Palace, The Houses of Parliament and Trafalgar Square. As usual the place was humming with people but we managed and Rudy attracted a lot of attention although most people didn't interfere with him seeing that he was wearing his harness and therefore in working mode. At lunchtime we went into Soho and had a snack at Balans gay cafe in Old Compton Street. Like most places they were happy to accommodate Rudy and even put down a bowl of water for him. "Do you guys fancy eating at Balans restaurant tonight and going onto a gay bar afterwards?" Jack asked over lunch. I'd read about the place but had never been so was interested in going. We asked at the cafe whether their main restaurant would accept a guide dog and the rather dishy waiter said of course they would but suggested we book a table beforehand so one out of the way could be reserved for us. Having finished lunch we went down the road to the restaurant and the guy there was delighted to accommodate us. Having made our booking, Simon said he wanted to visit the Prowler sex store to buy some more lube so we made our way round there. As we looked round I had a giggle at all the sex toys and both Jack and Simon got me to describe each one. We ended up purchasing an interesting looking dildo which Simon said he liked the sound of. After a rest at home and a quick shower, we got dressed and made our way back to Soho to eat at Balans. We were welcomed as soon as we walked in the door and shown to a reserved table in one corner well out of the way so that Rudy could lie beside us. Once again a bowl of water was provided for him, which he readily lapped up. Jack decided to have a Thai red curry and Simon and I opted for the herb chicken with lemon herb potatoes, roast tomato and sage butter. When it arrived I mapped out their plates for each of them which the couple at the next table smiled at since they'd not realised that both guys were blind. As I've said before, Simon's eyes looked normal whereas Jack's completely blind eye was a slightly different colour to the other one that had very limited sight. Even so, for the casual observer it was not that obvious they were blind since they picked up glasses and used cutlery like any sighted person. It never ceased to amaze me how adept they both were at dealing with everyday things. We finished with a thin apple tart with toffee sauce and vanilla ice cream followed by coffee. By the time we'd finished we were all stuffed but it was a delicious meal. Simon said he'd pay for all of us although Jack tried to argue but eventually gave up on that one. He didn't know like I did that Simon was a wealthy guy. It was yet another thing I so loved about him because he never flaunted his wealth so at times like this it was greatly appreciated by people. Having paid the bill and the somewhat delicious waiter had seen us out, we cogitated over which bar to go to. Simon and I had no idea so left it to Jack who was a regular devotee of gay Soho. Eventually we opted for the Duke of Wellington since they had an upstairs where we could sit with Rudy. The doorman seemed somewhat reluctant at first to let us in with the dog but when I explained both Simon and Jack were blind he let us in. Once again the guys at the bar were delightful and made sure we were settled, providing yet another bowl of water for Rudy. We had a great time chatting to whomever sat nearby or made a point of coming over to say hello. It seemed Jack was well known so several guys came up to greet him. I was still intrigued as to why he couldn't find someone to love because everybody clearly loved him but perhaps it was as Simon had said, when it comes to taking on the commitment of a disabled person people shied away. One particular guy took a fancy to me and whist we were buying drinks at the bar I had to explain that Simon was my partner. He turned and looked amazed. "Wow, that can't be easy". "What's not?" I asked somewhat surprised at his comment. "Well, you know, being responsible for a blind guy" For a moment the comment annoyed me but I then realised this was what most people probably thought. "When you first saw him did you realise he was blind?" "Well, no, not until I saw the guide dog beside him, and I knew that wasn't Jack's" "And have you watched how he picks up his drink the same as you and me and generally conducts himself?" "Well, yeah, that's why I didn't realise he was blind" "And when you're making love with a guy, do you use your eyes or your hands?" I grinned. "Okay, point taken" he laughed, "but I take my hat off to you". "My last boyfriend was profoundly deaf so I had to sign everything to him; that is more difficult when you're making love if you want to tell him how much you love him." "Fuck, you really are something; you deserve a medal" "No, it's the guys with the disability who deserve a medal for managing everyday life; because believe me it isn't easy." He nodded and absorbed that fact whilst I ordered our drinks. When we returned to the others I noted he seemed to be looking at both Simon and Jack in a different light so perhaps our little chat had some effect. Unfortunately he seemed more interested in flirting with me than Jack so it made no difference! By the time we got back to Jack's flat we'd all had a great time and were laughing and joking with each other. "I always feel so randy after I've been to a gay bar like that" Jack giggled. I wasn't sure if it was in the hope that Simon and I would make a move on him or not but it had the desired effect because Simon moved up to him and took him into his arms. Within seconds I watched him feel Jack's crotch and then open up his trousers to feel inside. Jack was clearly enjoying the attention and let him continue. "Why don't we strip off and go to bed?" I commented. "Fucking good idea" Simon replied much to my amazement. Within minutes we were all naked rolling round on Jack's bed sucking each other and having a good feel. We then lay beside each other and as before Jack was in the middle but this time Simon fingered him with two well lubricated fingers whilst Jack did the same to me having been told to face away from him. After a while the fingers were replaced with booted cocks so whilst Simon fucked Jack, he fucked me. As the action progressed, Jack massaged my cock until all three of us were fully satisfied. Eventually, Simon and I left Jack and went into our own room. "I hope you didn't mind us doing that" he whispered once we were in bed. "Fuck no, I never mind a threesome and he is rather cute" "That's where you've got the advantage" he giggled, "but from what I can feel, I'd agree". The Sunday was spent in a more lazy way although we did go out for a walk for Rudy's benefit. That evening after our meal, which I cooked this time, we sat in the living room with our drinks. By late evening, we were all up for some more fun so once again we ended up in Jack's bed. This time it was me who was piggy in the middle so I had the delight of being fucked by Simon whilst fucking Jack. On the Monday morning Jack had to go to work so Simon and I made our way home by train. We'd had a great time and told Jack he must come to Brighton anytime he wanted even if it was just for a couple of nights from Friday to Sunday. Over the next few months he did just that and we met up several times. I'd told my parents of course that I was now living with Simon and they were anxious to meet him. Finally we arranged a date for us to visit them for a few days. "There's one thing you need to know mum" I said having made the arrangements, "Simon is blind and has a guide dog called Rudy so we'd need to bring him too". "Of course you must darling; that's not a problem is it?" "No, but just wanted to forewarn you" "We look forward to meeting Simon and Rudy" mum replied in her usual casual way. Nothing ever bothered her which was one of the many things I loved about her, and my dad for that matter. I remembered the time I'd first taken Ben home to meet them when we were kids; we were both thirteen then. When she realised Ben was profoundly deaf she still treated him in just the same way as other friends I'd taken home. She never fussed him anymore than other kids but privately she frequently told me how proud she was of me that I'd made friends with someone who needed friendship more than others. I never forgot that and I presume the same applied to Simon. To me he was no different to any other guy I'd known but to him the fact that someone else bothered to take notice and in our case love him, must have meant a great deal to him. I also realised how lonely Jack must feel and so wished I could do something about that. 9. "Simon, the taxi is here" I called upstairs. A few moments later as he walked down the stairs I sensed he was anxious about something. "What's wrong my love?" "Nothing" "Come on, I can read you like a book" I chuckled and took him into my arms. I'd been so used to watching for Ben's reactions when we'd been a couple as his speech was not that good because of his deafness that I'd tended to do the same with Simon. "God, I can't hide anything from you can I" he eventually grinned. "So what's the matter babe?" "I feel such a wimp; I'm making you go by train whereas we should be travelling by car and because of that you've got to hump luggage about and look after me." I was shocked for a moment because Simon always seemed such a confident person despite his disability but travelling by car was his biggest nightmare. He was fine if it was local traffic but when he knew we'd be using major roads that tragic day when he lost his dad came flooding back. I knew he really needed to face it head on and accept the challenge like he did everything else but I loved him so much that I didn't want to push him too far so I assured him that using the train was fine by me, despite the fact that I loved driving. "Don't be daft, you're not a wimp and I'm quite capable of handling the luggage; besides, I love you". The last few words always made him relax and wrap his arms round me before giving me a passionate kiss. "I don't deserve you, you're the best thing that ever happened to me; I love you so much." By the time we eventually got out the house having set the alarm system we both had tears in our eyes. Fortunately the taxi driver was a guy who knew Simon well so didn't mind having to wait. Whilst Rudy led Simon down the path I followed with our one suitcase. It was tight getting all our stuff into one case for the five nights we were staying with my parents but we managed somehow. We also had Rudy's food, bowls and brush since my parents didn't have anything for a dog so they'd been packed into a holdall. At last we were settled on the train and as usual the station staff helped us through the barrier and helped me with the luggage onto the train itself. It always amazed me how helpful people were when they saw a blind person, especially with a dog. Once we were on our way I held Simon's hand. The couple diagonally opposite looked at me as I did so but I was past caring what people thought. After a while, the woman smiled having no doubt realised the relationship between us. Rudy was sitting obediently at our feet and eventually lay down on the floor now satisfied that we were settled. I could sense that Simon was deep in thought and still slightly anxious so I squeezed his hand. He turned and smiled but it was not his usual confident smile. "Penny for them" I whispered. He grinned and squeezed my hand back. "I hope your mum and dad like me" he whispered. "Of course they will; what makes you think they won't?" "Well let's face it, I'm not your normal boyfriend am I so I was wondering how they'll react; you're sure you really do want to marry me." It was one of the things I planned to tell my parents whilst we were with them because Simon had proposed to me the week before. I immediately accepted of course because I was madly in love with him. It had been in my mind as well but I hadn't wanted to rush things despite knowing that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. When I said yes he cried and then gave me a ring. "It was my dad's and I'd like you to have it" he said with tears in his eyes. I looked at the beautiful gold ring which had a small single diamond set in it and couldn't believe what he was doing. I told him it was beautiful and I'd love it but he should keep it to remind him of his dad but he insisted saying that he'd much rather know it was on my hand everyday than being kept in a drawer so I accepted it and slipped it on the third finger of my right hand. From thereon I made sure I wore it every day. "Are you having doubts?" I asked and felt my heart thump with concern. "No, of course not; I love you with all my heart; you know that Lee but you're taking on a big responsibility" "Don't be daft, of course I want to marry you; I love you too and want to spend the rest of my life with you" We'd held this somewhat intimate conversation whispering to each other so my face was close to his. Without thinking I moved closer and kissed him on the cheek squeezing his hand again. As I did so I noticed the guy sitting next to the woman diagonally opposite give me a black look. The woman just smiled. Rudy also sensed that something was going on between us so sat up and placed his head on our knees. I stroked it and Simon did the same. "The guy opposite doesn't approve of us kissing" I whispered directly into Simon's ear. "Tough" he giggled and gave me a similar kiss on my cheek. At the next stop, the couple got up to leave the train. The guy walked off and ignored us. The woman paused beside Simon and leaned over. "Congratulations; sorry, but I couldn't help but overhear your conversation about getting married; I think it's lovely". I thanked her as she hastily moved off. My dad met us at the station and as usual wrapped me in his arms to hug and kiss me. "I'd like you to meet Simon" I said once he'd released me from his bear hug. "Welcome to the family Simon, it's great to meet you" he beamed before giving him a similar bear hug and kiss. I could tell that Simon was overwhelmed by the reception and his face was beaming. All signs of anxiety had gone as he turned his face towards me and grinned. "And this must be Rudy" my dad said as he bent down to give Rudy a pat on his back. "Come on guys, the car's parked nearby" my dad said as he led us off. My parents lived in Hill Lane which backed onto the common so was only a few minutes' drive from Southampton Central station. "Okay?" I whispered to Simon as I fixed the dog harness onto Rudy beside him in the back of the car. He nodded and grinned mouthing a kiss to me. As soon as my dad had driven into the drive the front door opened and my mum appeared. "Hi mum" I called and jumped out to give her the same welcome as dad had given. By the time we'd finished, Simon had unhitched Rudy and climbed out the car. My mum immediately looked over and rushed to help him. "Hello Simon, it's lovely to meet you" she enthused and took him into her arms and kissed him on the cheek. She then gave Rudy a pat and led them into the house leaving my dad and I to unload the car. "He seems a lovely guy" dad commented as he lifted the case out of the boot. "He is dad, I love him to bits and he loves me" My dad paused and looked at me as if he was about to say something but changed his mind. "I'm so glad son, you deserve someone to love you at last and he's certainly a good looking guy." The last comment made me smile because it was usually my mum who made comments about a guy's looks. By the time we'd got everything inside the house, Simon was sitting in the kitchen chatting away to mum as if he'd known her for years. I pulled out Rudy's water bowl, filled it with water and placed it on the floor. "There you are my lovely" I said to Rudy who quickly came up to have a drink. "See Doreen, he attends to Rudy first before seeing if I want anything" Simon laughed. "You can help yourself, he can't" I chuckled before giving him a big wet kiss whilst my mum and dad looked on. I sensed Simon holding back and guessed he was conscious of my parents watching. "Don't worry my love; they're used to seeing me kiss the guy I love". "Oh yes" dad laughed, "We had years of seeing Lee and Ben all over each other". He then suddenly realised what he'd said. "Oops sorry". My mum glared at him for a moment. "It's okay; I'm over Ben now; besides he did me a favour because I would never have found this beautiful, wonderful guy." "You'll make me cry in a minute" Simon laughed. "Well, I'm so pleased that you two have found each other and welcome to the family Simon". Simon nodded and held my hand. I could tell he felt so happy at having a family again. "Have you any news of Ben?" I asked casually. My mum immediately looked at my dad before both looked at me. "Yes, we have" my dad eventually replied, "Perhaps later I can have a chat with you about him". I immediately felt concerned since it was clear from the way my dad had spoken that something was wrong but my mum in her usual way moved the conversation on and told us all to move into the living room to drink the coffee she'd now made so for the time being I put my concerns into the back of my mind. Rudy followed and obediently sat down beside us once I'd guided Simon to the sofa. "So, how did you two meet?" my mum asked as soon as she'd served the coffee. Simon chuckled and told her the story. "As soon as he offered to put my groceries away and I noticed how Rudy reacted to him, I knew he was someone special. The rest is history as they say." "He's so sweet isn't he" I chuckled and gave Simon another kiss, "But as soon as he opened the door I fell in love with him" I added. "Anyhow, we've got an announcement to make" I grinned not able to keep the news back any longer. I took hold of Simon's hand and looked at mum and dad. They both put their cups down and waited for what they guessed was going to be a big announcement. "We're going to get married" I finally said having paused to make an impact. "Oh, that's wonderful news" my mum screamed as she rushed over to give both of us a kiss. I glanced over to my dad and he too was grinning like a Cheshire cat. "I'm so pleased for you both" he finally managed to get in once mum had hugged and kissed both of us several times. "So when's the big day?" "We've not fixed one yet because we wanted to make sure you were available to attend, assuming you want to" Simon said, "but the Registrar says we could have a date in two months, so around the end of August". "Of course we want to come" mum grinned "and the end of August is fine for us". Dad nodded looking just as pleased which made me feel good. I was so lucky with my parents who embraced their son's sexuality with joy. It brought my mind back to Ben since I knew his parents had not accepted their son being gay and all the time I was with him they never once made contact with him. The rest of the day was spent catching up on news with each other and of course my mum wanted to know what plans we'd made or were planning to make for the big day. At one point when I was helping her in the kitchen she turned to me, looked into my eyes and said "He really is a lovely guy and he's such a stunner" which made me laugh, "But more than anything else I'm so proud of you Lee; sharing a life with that kind of disability can't be easy and I think you're a wonderful guy to do so; to be honest I'm not sure I could do that." By the time she'd finished I had tears in my eyes. Okay it didn't take much to get me all emotional, but her words meant so much to me. "You know very well mum that if you really love someone you can deal with anything". She nodded and kissed my cheek. "Which reminds me, why does dad want to talk to me about Ben?" "You need to ask him Lee; there's something you need to know." By now I really was worried so I went to find my dad. Despite what Ben had done to me I was still very fond of the guy. "Dad, you said you had something to tell me about Ben" I said having found him talking to Simon. My dad looked at me clearly pondering whether he should say anything in front of Simon. "Its okay dad, Simon knows all about Ben and what happened; besides we don't have any secrets with each other." My dad indicated for me to sit down beside Simon and he sat down opposite us. "Ben called round a day or so after you'd called to arrange this visit; he's left the guy you found him with and he's in a bad way; he was crying and not his usual bubbly self; something bad happened to him which I feel he should tell you about; he wants to see you Lee and explain what happened and how sorry he is; when I said you were coming to stay for a few days he begged to come over whilst you were here; I said he could come Friday evening after he'd finished work; I'm sorry Lee but he sounded in such a bad way and I knew you wouldn't want me to turn him away despite what happened; do you mind?" For a moment I was stunned, not so much over the fact that he and the young guy had split up because I never thought that would last long but I was more concerned over the fact that Ben was in a bad way because that didn't sound like Ben so something really bad must have happened. Ben was the kind of guy who even if he'd been kicked in the balls would walk away and get on with his life. When I'd announced that our relationship was over because of what had happened, he accepted it and went quietly. "Of course I don't mind dad, I'm still very fond of him and if he needs to see me then of course he can; you don't mind love do you?" I added turning to Simon. "Of course not, you must see him; besides I'd like to meet the guy who enabled me to find you" he added laughing. My dad was clearly relieved so I thanked him for what he'd done. It was Wednesday so I had another two days to wait until Ben came round and throughout that time I couldn't get him out of my mind. I was worried about him despite the fact that he'd ruined what I'd felt at the time was a perfect life. That night in bed Simon sensed I was worried and hugged me. "He's a lucky guy to have someone like you; lots of guys would have told him to fuck off". "I know but". I didn't finish the sentence not wanting to upset Simon. "But you still love him don't you" he said gently. I looked into his eyes and felt my own fill with tears. "Yeah but not like I love you, I can promise you that; when we were together I thought he was the only man in the world for me but we were young and neither of us had been with other guys; we'd been so close ever since we first met at the age of thirteen so yes, I do love him still despite what he did to me but I want to be with you babe, not him, and I want to be with you for the rest of my life, and I still want to marry you even though I know he's now split up with that other little fucker." "I know; it's okay my love, I don't mind you still having feelings for him; I'd be somewhat disappointed if you didn't because you're the most wonderful, loving, kind guy I've ever had the privilege to know". Before I could answer he put his arms round me and kissed me. Tears were now falling down my face as we kissed which became very passionate. It didn't take long for us both to have raging erections and I so wanted him to fuck me. "I've brought the lube" I giggled after a while. He chuckled too and told me I was a sex fiend but I needed him. "Just don't yell out loud when you come" I chuckled as I reached over to the bedside cabinet to grab the bottle of lube. "Me?" he laughed, "You're the one who screams the house down when you come". "Yeah well, that's what you do to me but I want to feel you inside me so get fucking" I giggled and passed over the lube. It didn't take long for him to have his big hard cock inside me as he lay behind me. It felt so wonderful. I pulled his arms round me as he fucked and he slipped a hand down to my cock to slowly massage it. After a long slow fuck, he eventually reached his climax and I reached mine. It was so beautiful. We spent the next few days walking Rudy round the common and into the centre of Southampton. Simon didn't know the area so it was all new to him. He also told my mum he could see where I got my cooking skills from since her meals were so delicious. My mum loved people complimenting her on her cooking so she loved him even more. Every so often she'd sidle up to me and say "He's so lovely". "He is" I'd reply, "That's why I want to spend the rest of my life with him". Eventually Friday arrived and to be honest I was feeling slightly apprehensive about meeting Ben after so long. We'd not seen or spoken to each other ever since we'd parted. The doorbell rang and my dad went to answer it. I'd agreed with Simon that he'd sit in on the conversation since I wanted Ben to know that I'd moved on. After a few moments, Ben walked into the living room where Simon and I were sitting. My mum had already left us and dad disappeared as well. I hardly recognised him as he walked in. Yes he was the same Ben in looks and just as gorgeous but his face looked as if the end of the world had come. I'd stood up to meet him as he entered the door and he immediately rushed over and threw his arms round me. I could see tears running down his face and I felt so sorry for him even though I had no idea what had happened. He then moved slightly away and starting signing. "I'm so sorry Lee, I really am; I really fucked up didn't I and I wouldn't blame you if you told me to fuck off right now but I had to see you". When he'd finally stopped sobbing and signing his many regrets, saying how sorry he was that he'd been such a shit and upset what had been such a wonderful relationship and that he still loved me, I took his face in my hands and kissed him on the lips. At first he was taken aback but soon relaxed and pulled my head into a passionate kiss. I could see Simon at the other end of the room looking our way and although I knew he couldn't see what we were doing, I knew he had a fairly good idea. Finally I pulled out of the kiss and held Ben tight beside me with my arms round him so he could see my hands. I then signed and spoke the words so that Simon could hear, "Ben, I'm still very fond of you but I've moved on; I've met someone else and I'd like you to meet him." Ben then looked over to the other end of the room and saw Simon sitting there. He gasped not having realised someone else was in the room with us. He'd been so tied up with his own emotions that he'd not turned round to see who else was there having seen my mum and dad leave us when he came in. "Oh" he said and then looked at me immediately realising something was not quite normal. "Come and meet him Ben, he knows all about you and us; his name is Simon and he's blind". "Hi Ben, it's good to meet you" Simon signed as he stood up and offered his hand. I'd taught Simon some basic signing over the past few days and he'd taken to it immediately. Ben shook it and finally slumped down on the nearest chair. It was then he noticed Rudy and I explained that he was Simon's guide dog. Ben hastily explained that our dog had been put down a year previous when it suddenly became very ill and the vet said there was nothing he could do. I said how sorry I was because I knew Ben had been as fond of the dog as I had been. We talked for a good hour and Ben told us how the young guy I'd found him in bed with had been a controlling individual and unless he got his own way he became violent. "I realise now Lee that he bewitched me from the start and that's why I couldn't stop seeing him; had I known then what I know now I'd never have let him near me but I wanted excitement and to experiment with other guys; I loved you Lee, always have and still do but we'd grown up together and always been together never trying things out with other guys; he gave me that outlet, I'm so sorry Lee, I really am." "It's okay Ben, I understand and as I say I'm still very fond of you, in fact in an odd kind of way I still love you but I no longer want to spend the rest of my life with you; I want to spend my life with Simon and in fact we're getting married in two months." Ben gasped and looked at both of us before giving us his congratulations. "You can come if you want; in fact I'd like you to come and be my witness" I said signing as I did so. He grinned and signed that he'd love to come and be my witness before giving me a big wet kiss before doing the same to Simon. As he did so I saw the Ben that I knew come back to life and I was happy but I wanted to know more about this little fucker who'd caused so much harm. I asked if he'd ever become violent with Ben and he nodded. "It got so bad that I had to call the police" he signed. Even Simon was shocked and asked me to ask Ben what happened. "He was charged with domestic violence and fined and given a community sentence but he tried to attack me in the street one night so I had to call the police again. This time he was given a restraining order to keep away from me and I believe he has to attend some classes somewhere to learn how to control his feelings." It was then that I found out that the latest incident had been just over a week ago and Ben had gone round to mum and dad because he wanted to speak to me. I think his hope was that we could get back together again but on hearing my news that put an end to that idea. "Simon and I will always be here for you Ben so if you need us just call and if necessary you can come over" I told him. He smiled and thanked me by giving me yet another kiss before giving Simon one too. After a while my mum stuck her head round the door and gave Ben a big hug. She'd always liked Ben and treated him as a second son since his own parents had disowned him and now moved away from the area. What happened to Ben in his early life is another story. "Would you like to stay and eat with us Ben?" she said looking at him. Neither she nor dad had learned to sign but Ben was good at lip reading provided people spoke clearly. He grinned, looked at me and nodded. We spent a great evening together catching up on the more pleasant things in his life. He was still working at the university although he admitted that it was time for a change. He wanted to know all about Brighton and what I was doing. When I told him I was a van driver for a grocery store he was shocked. "But what about your degree; you had a good job with that publishing company before you moved to Brighton". I said I was happy and still did programming for the guy who designed computer games. "Besides, it was through my delivery job that I met Simon" I laughed so Simon told him how we'd met. Simon spoke clearly and slowly so Ben picked up all he said. By the end of the evening when Ben finally went home, he and Simon were good friends and Ben was teaching Simon some more sign language. Before he left, Simon asked me if I'd like to see Ben again the following day so we invited him over. I knew mum wouldn't mind having an extra person for Sunday lunch since she always made enough food for an army. Ben jumped at the idea and asked me if I was sure. I hugged and kissed him and said I'd love to see him again. That night in bed Simon said "He's a really nice guy and I feel sorry for him; I can fully understand how someone as trusting as him could be taken in by a controlling individual; I'm so glad he's got away from him." I agreed and also felt sorry for him, especially since he now knew there was no chance of reconciliation with me. 10. Having had a wonderful few days with my parents and seen how much they loved Simon, I was on top of the world. In addition I was so happy that I'd seen Ben again and told him I still loved him even though we could no longer be together. I was still worried about him but there was little I could do to ease his pain or find him a boyfriend. I knew it was going to be difficult for him with his disability and wished he lived nearer so Simon and I could take him under our wing because I had a feeling that he too had liked Ben. The next day we contacted the Registrar and booked our marriage ceremony. Simon didn't want it to be a big affair and since we didn't have that many friends to invite between us, neither did I. We made a list which included my parents, Ben, Jack, Rene and Darren, Lawrence, Bob Mullins and a couple of other work colleagues, plus a few other friends we knew. In all we had almost twenty of us so Simon suggested we take all of them to a smart hotel after the ceremony at the Registry Office for a lunch party. That evening, for those who were interested, we'd invite them to a gay bar that was willing to reserve an area for us. He also wanted to treat my parents, Ben, Jack, Rene and Darren to a couple of nights at the hotel. Once everything was booked, I produced fancy invitations to send to everyone. We also told them that we didn't want the normal presents so asked them to donate to a local charity for the blind that Simon supported. "Now that's all done" Simon grinned, "I'm taking you along to a jeweller to choose our rings." I couldn't wait but of course he had to rely on me to describe each one. The jeweller was brilliant and let Simon handle each ring before we finally chose what we wanted. The final choice was a gold one with a platinum ring running round it. It was stunning, as was the price but that was of no concern to Simon. He seldom flashed his money around but when it came to this he wanted to do so. The jeweller was more than happy so he measured our fingers and said the rings would be ready within three days. Since we were going away for a week the following day we asked him to hold them until we came back. Simon had commented some weeks earlier that he'd love to feel some warm sun. Despite it being June, the weather was very mixed so I suggested we go to Sitges. It was one of my favourite holiday destinations but Simon had never been. "You'll love it" I chuckled, "Lots of gay boys, gay bars and a gay nudist beach". Simon laughed and said it sounded good fun despite not being able to enjoy the sights but he did fancy stripping off on the beach for all to see. He said he wanted to stay at a smart hotel so I booked in at one I'd never been to since it was the most expensive. It was ideally situated with a beach immediately opposite and only a few minutes from the main town centre where all the action took place. The only downside was that we couldn't take Rudy so had to find someone to look after him for the week. Rene and Darren said they'd love to look after him so we left Rudy with them for odd afternoons and then a whole day to make sure he was happy. Having see that we came back to fetch him each time he settled in well so we agreed. As our flight was late morning we agreed to take him over to them early that morning. It was an emotional parting for both of us but we tried not to let Rudy know. Even so, I got the feeling he knew something was up but he just wagged his tail when I said we'd be back for him shortly. Rene said he'd email us a daily update on how he was so that made us feel better. I'd packed his food and everything that was needed into a box and placed that in the boot of the car when Rudy was not around. Whilst Simon cuddled him with Rene, Darren and I quickly unloaded everything. We'd also made sure that our suitcases were kept well hidden from Rudy at home so as not to alarm him. Finally our friendly taxi driver arrived and took us to the airport. Simon decided to use his stick, despite hating it but at least it showed he was blind so other people reacted accordingly. It also meant we were given priority treatment when it came to boarding and getting off the plane in Barcelona. Since I knew the place well, we were soon on the train that took us to Sitges. I could sense Simon getting more and more excited, and of course, the warmth felt wonderful. We were soon checked into the hotel and again the members of staff were wonderful. Our room was on the front so overlooked the sea with a small balcony on which Simon could sit and enjoy the sunshine. We spent a very relaxing week enjoying the warmth, the gay bars in the evenings and the gay nudist beach. I noticed several guys giving Simon the eye once he'd stripped off and baring all. I couldn't blame them because he was gorgeous. We made several friends whilst there and on one occasion even had a guy back to the hotel for a threesome. He was Spanish and had the most beautiful body, and he loved being fucked so Simon and I spent several hours doing just that. Every day, night and morning, Simon and I would make passionate love and fucked each other like mad. By the time the week was over my arse was sore but it was worth it. Rene emailed everyday to say that Rudy was fine and had settled in well but missed us. Quite how he knew that I don't know but perhaps he thought it would make us feel better. Finally it was time to leave but we'd both had a great time and felt much better for it. The flight home went well and we couldn't wait to go and fetch Rudy. When he saw us he ran up and almost knocked us over. He was so excited which made the perfect ending to a perfect holiday. His tail wagged so much I was afraid it would fall off. When we knelt down and hugged him he licked us all over. Rene and Darren watched on with great amusement. "He's been as good as gold" Rene told us, "We shall miss him". Having thanked them profusely for taking such good care of him we went home. Once there we gave Rudy another long cuddle as well as each other. We were both getting sexually excited and clothes were slowly being discarded until we were both naked showing off stiff cocks which wanted attention. We decided to satisfy our needs in the living room whilst Rudy watched on. He seemed to love watching us fuck each other and on one occasion whilst I was fucking Simon he came up behind me and licked my balls. It was kinky but very erotic. The weeks leading up to our marriage seemed to fly by. We were both so happy and couldn't wait to give our commitment to each other. Jack and Ben had been to stay with us separately on several occasions and both seemed so desperate to find someone to love. It didn't occur to either of us that they might like each other so never arranged for them to come at the same time. Finally the big day was upon us and our taxi arrived to take us to the registry office. Ben had come the night before with my parents and stayed at the hotel which Simon paid for. He'd also paid for them to stay that night as well so as to give them all a nice break. Ben arrived early that morning to help us get ready and he'd also got pink bows to put round Rudy's neck. The plan was for Simon to let him lead us down the aisle. Ben had also done a small placard that he fixed to Rudy's harness that said "Congratulations to Simon and Lee from Rudy". When I told Simon what it said he pulled Ben into his arms and gave him a big hug plus an even bigger kiss. "Hey" I laughed, "Don't forget it's me you're marrying". Simon then released Ben and did the same to me. "Hold it buster" I laughed again, "If you're not careful I'm going to split my trousers". Simon laughed and placed a hand in my crotch to feel the reaction he'd caused. "Well, it will have to wait until after I've married you" he giggled. Ben loved watching us but I could tell he wished it was him marrying me. "Come on guys, time to go" Ben called out once the taxi had arrived. "Still sure you want to marry me" Simon whispered just before we walked out the door. "Of course I am; why, are you having doubts?" "God no, I'd have married you the first day I met you" he laughed and gave me yet another kiss. By the time we were ready to walk down the aisle towards the Registrar, who was a lovely guy and who we were fairly sure was gay, I had tears in my eyes. I had a tissue permanently in my hand dabbing them. As we walked along I saw all those gathered turn to watch us. When they saw Rudy's pink bows they chuckled. I was so emotional that I hardly took notice of what happened. I just repeated the words the Registrar spoke and held Simon's hands. When he spoke his lines to me I felt tears falling down my face. Finally the Registrar announced we were husband and husband and the whole room erupted into cheers and applause. "You may kiss each other" the Registrar whispered so I pulled Simon's face into my hands and kissed him with a big long hard kiss. The crowd were still cheering and even Rudy wagged his tail when he saw us doing so. I'm still convinced that dog was gay! Eventually the formal ceremony was over and we walked everyone to the hotel where the reception was to be held. They'd done us proud and the room was decked out with balloons and displays of beautiful flowers. We first drank champagne in an anteroom before moving into the dining area. Once seated at the top table, I described everything to Simon. He'd also arranged for someone to sign everything for Ben's benefit. Ben was overjoyed because he'd thought he'd miss out on what was being said. Since Jack had been Simon's witness, we had both him and Ben sitting beside us so Jack listened in to my description. I explained that in front of the top table there were tables in a semi circle in front of us at which all the guests were seated. My mum and dad were to my right and I then went round the room and said who was at each table. The signer signed for Ben although he could at least see how everything was arranged. The meal was perfect and at the end both Jack and Ben gave a small speech explaining how they'd met each of us and how much they loved us. Ben even said that if he hadn't fucked up things between me and him then it might have been him marrying me today but he was more than happy that it was Simon since he was a great guy and he loved him to bits. I could see that Simon became quite emotional at that point and I held his hand. Simon then said he wanted to say a few words. He gave the most moving speech I've ever heard and by the time he'd finished tears were rolling down my face. I noticed others also had tears as well. When he sat down I turned to him and kissed him passionately. "Thank you; I love you so much". I was then aware that there were calls of speech, speech from me. We hadn't planned on me giving one but I could see there was no way out of it so I stood up and looked at everyone for a few moments. "This is the happiest day of my life" I started, "Simon is an amazing guy and the most loving person I've ever known". I then placed a hand on Ben's shoulder and held it there as I continued speaking "I also think this guy here is amazing and to be honest I love him too but it was Simon who won my heart and is the one I want to spend the rest of my life with". I then turned to Simon and placed a hand on his shoulder, "So thank you my love for making me so happy and for asking me to marry you." When I sat down the room erupted and I noticed that both Simon and Ben had tears rolling down their face as I had too. I turned and kissed each of them but Simon got the biggest one! Simon had reserved a room at the hotel for us to stay in that night so once the reception was over and we'd said goodbye to those who weren't coming to the gay bar that evening, we went to our room. My parents had said they too would leave us to enjoy our evening without them so we said we'd see them at breakfast the following morning. As we went, I noticed Jack and Ben deep in conversation. They were laughing and joking together and clearly getting on. I hadn't realised that Jack knew sign language so was using that for Ben's benefit. Ben in any event was lip reading and occasionally using Jack's hands to tap out odd things as well. "I think Ben and Jack fancy each other" I chuckled to Simon as we walked into the lift. "They'd probably make a good couple" Simon grinned. Once inside our room any thoughts of Ben and Jack were out of our thoughts. We both had one thing in mind and that was to get stripped off and into bed. I wanted to feel Simon inside me and he wanted to feel me so it was agreed I'd fuck him first. Once naked he got on his back on the bed and lifted his legs up over his chest. I looked at the gorgeous hole before me and felt my cock jump with excitement. It was already rock hard and aching to get inside so I quickly lubricated my shaft and his hole. "Oh god, I've been dreaming of doing this all day" I exclaimed as my big head breached his entrance and I pushed the rest of my cock inside him. "Yeah, fuck that arse babe, fuck it real good" "Oh yeah, you're such a beautiful fuck" I exclaimed not caring if anyone heard. I thrust in and out feeling his hot flesh surrounding my cock. Eventually I felt my seed rising and I knew I couldn't hold it back any longer. "Fuck, fuck, I'm gonna come" I exclaimed. "Yeah, let it come; want to feel your hot spunk inside me then I shall feel we really are married" he laughed. My climax came and I felt ribbon after ribbon of hot creamy cum shoot inside him. It seemed to go on for ages and I couldn't remember having shot so much before but it was fucking beautiful. As soon as I was finished, I pulled out and kissed him. "Want to feel this big beautiful cock inside me now" I groaned as I grabbed hold of his erection. "Get those legs in the air babe and I'll give you the best fuck you've ever had" he giggled. Within seconds we'd changed places and I held my legs right up over my head so he had my hole fully exposed. He first bent down and licked it but I told him I wanted his cock inside me. I closed my eyes and felt him finger my hole with lube and then thrust his big head inside me. "Yes, that is beautiful, give me a good long hard fuck" I almost yelled. "Fuck, you've got such a gorgeous arse to fuck; I'm gonna fuck you until you beg me to stop" he giggled. He did just that but I never told him to stop because I loved the feel of his big cock inside me. Suddenly after quite a long time I heard him gasp and I felt his hot seed shoot inside me. "Yeah, fill me up babe" I exclaimed and squeezed my butt to grab hold of his big cock inside me. "Oh god, yes that feels brilliant" he exclaimed as he continued thrusting and spilling his load. His too seemed to go on for much longer than usual and it felt wonderful. Finally he was done and pulled out. He collapsed on top of me and we kissed and kissed until our lips were sore. "Think we'd better go and shower" he eventually giggled. I agreed but I didn't want to let him go so we moved into the bathroom together. It was one of those annoying showers over a bath but somehow we managed to both climb in and lather each other. When we were both covered in soap, I pulled him into another kiss. Soon our cocks were reacting and wanting attention. I turned him round and put some more shower gel on my shaft. I then pushed my cock into his arse and fucked him whilst he hung onto the wall. I fucked and fucked until I was again spilling my load inside him. It was wonderful. "Turn round" he giggled, "I want to do the same". I giggled and offered myself so he could fuck me from behind whilst I leaned my hands against the wall. It too felt wonderful and he too spilled another load of cum inside me. After more kisses we rinsed off and climbed out the bath. I dried him tenderly before drying myself. It was then I noticed Rudy watching us wagging his tail. Whilst still naked I knelt down and cuddled him. "Think Rudy is feeling jealous" I giggled. Simon joined me on the floor and he too put his arms round Rudy's soft fir. Suddenly I felt Rudy's rough tongue lick my limp cock and giggled. "This dog is definitely gay" I laughed. "Of course he is; I specifically said I wanted a gay dog" Simon laughed and offered his own cock for Rudy to lick. Having fed Rudy, we decided we should take him for a walk. As we came out of our room I saw Jack and Ben walking out of Jack's. We'd managed to get all our rooms on the same corridor. "Hi guys" Ben grinned, "You two are looking very satisfied, I wonder why" "Yeah, I wonder" I grinned. "I bet they've been shagging each other nonstop" Jack laughed. "Almost" Simon chuckled, "What have you two been up to?" Ben looked at Jack and I noticed him blush. "Don't think we'd better ask" I told Simon, "but they too have grins on their face". Simon laughed and told the other two we were off to take Rudy for a walk. Ben and Jack said they'd join us so we all set off. As we walked I noticed Jack take Ben's arm. Jack hardly used his stick which I found interesting. I was also leading Simon since we'd left the harness off Rudy so he could do his business. Once he'd done so I put the harness back on so he could lead Simon. We then walked round to the gay bar where we were meeting up with the others coming and I kept a watch on Jack and Ben. I noticed they never left each other's side the whole evening. When we finally got back to the hotel at gone midnight, all somewhat the worse for wear due to the amount we'd drunk I again noticed that Ben joined Jack in his room. As he went he looked at me and gave a big wide grin. I gave him the thumbs up sign and watched them go inside. "Well, well" I commented once we were inside our room, "Ben has just gone into Jack's room". "That's great, let's hope something comes of it; in the meantime get naked because I want to feel my cock inside you again." "Wow, I think I like this marriage lark if this is what it means". Simon laughed and once I was naked gave my bare arse a big hard slap. "On your knees and get ready for another long hard fuck" he chuckled. The following morning we all met up at breakfast. I again noticed that Jack and Ben came down together with satisfied faces. Ben was travelling back with my parents but I managed to get him to one side before they left. "Had a good time?" I asked grinning. "Fucking brilliant; thanks for inviting me Lee and I really do hope you and Simon have a great life together". "We shall but don't forget we'll always be here for you and I meant what I said in my speech, I still love you." I saw tears in his eyes as he kissed me. "And what about you and Jack?" I grinned. "He's a lovely guy but don't know where it's going to go". I wished him all the best and said he must come and see us again shortly. I then spoke to Jack and told him the same. He grinned and gave me a big kiss. I then hugged and kissed my mum and dad and they too wished us a happy life together. They told Simon we must visit them regularly and he told them they were welcome to come to us since they'd not seen our house. I don't think either of them had any idea about how wealthy Simon was and I knew they'd be bowled over by the house. Once we'd waved them goodbye we said farewell to Rene and Darren and asked the hotel to get us a cab. Once home we fell into each other's arms and kissed. Simon then led me into the kitchen and pulled out a bottle of champagne he'd put by for this occasion. "Come on, get your butt upstairs" he laughed, "We're going to spend the rest of the day having sex and drinking champagne and I'm also going to use that new dildo on you and the electro stimulation unit so be prepared for a long hot session." I giggled and started throwing off my clothes. "And you Rudy can stay down here" I laughed having given him a bone twist to keep him occupied. He wagged his tail and gave a short grunt of approval as he took the twist from me and ran off into the utility room. The rest of the day we did do just as Simon had said with rounds of hot sex in which we fucked each other and used the dildo plus the electro stimulation unit. When we weren't fucking each other we lazed back on the bed drinking champagne. When the champagne was finally finished and our arses were sore, we went for a shower but as in the hotel it didn't stop there. Simon fucked me again whilst I leant against the wall and I did the same to him. By the end of the afternoon we were both shattered but had enjoyed it immensely. We slipped on our robes and went downstairs to find Rudy. He was lying quietly in the conservatory and wagged his tail when he saw us. Life was just perfect. 11. Two days later we were on our way down to Cornwall. Simon had booked us into a gay clothes optional hotel for our honeymoon. We couldn't wait to see what it was like. "I've come to the conclusion that you're an exhibitionist" I teased Simon. "And you're not?" he laughed, "You can't get your kit off soon enough when other guys are around". It was true I did love being naked around other guys whether or not it ended in having sex. I just loved the freedom of it all hanging out. The journey down was a bit tedious but again I'd agreed to go by train. Since we planned to spend the few days mainly in and around the hotel we decided we didn't need a car and it saved Simon having to endure what he hated most. Fortunately the train was quiet since we were travelling on a weekday so we had the end of the carriage where we were sitting to ourselves. Once we were on the move I leaned up against Simon and kissed him. He quickly joined in and our hands were soon exploring each other. Cocks became hard in no time, which was nothing unusual but we found having them restricted inside our trousers was just too much. Without saying anything I unfastened my zip and the top of my trousers and led his hand inside. "Wow, that feels nice" he groaned. I then unfastened his trousers and slipped my hand inside. He groaned again as my hand grasped his hot cock. Seeing that the coast was clear, I bent over and took it into my mouth for a few seconds. He groaned with pleasure but I didn't dare continue for long just in case someone suddenly appeared but just having his hand round my rod felt exciting. We finally arrived and grabbed a taxi to take us to the hotel. I got the impression that the driver knew the type of hotel we were going to since he gave me a smirk when I told him. But he said nothing and nor did I. The two guys who ran the hotel were delightful. I'd told them of course that Simon was blind and that we were taking Rudy but they said that was fine since he was a guide dog. One of the guys showed us our room and gave us the low down on what facilities were available and that apart from the front reception area which was closed off with a door, we could roam around naked if we wished. Once he'd left us we quickly stripped off and went to explore the facilities. The hotel wasn't that large but there were sufficient guys to make it interesting. There was a Jacuzzi which we both enjoyed, a steam room and an area where guys could enjoy themselves whilst watching porn. Simon couldn't see what was happening on screen but he always enjoyed the soundtrack so with a bit of explanation from me he enjoyed the porn as much as I did. We'd left Rudy in our room having decided it would be best. We assured him we would be back soon and I did pop up every so often to make sure he was okay. Each time he just wagged his tail and went back to lying on the floor so seemed happy enough. As long as he knew we were still around, had food and water, he was fine. Two guys very quickly took an interest in us so we spent a lot of time hanging out with them. They also joined us on walks with Rudy since they knew the area well. We ended up having foursomes with them, either in our room or theirs. Both guys loved being fucked so Simon and I had a great time. On one particular occasion, Brendan was sitting on my cock and he got Simon to sit on his. Whilst that was going on Jay knelt across my chest and got me to suck his. We tried this in various combinations and ended up by having all fucked each other. Brendan also loved having two cocks up his arse at one time so whilst he sat on Simon's I slipped mine in alongside. It was an awesome feeling as our two cocks rubbed together and we eventually reached a climax. Like us, Brendan and Jay also fucked raw when fucking each other so sometimes we'd get out partners on their knees and fuck away whilst watching the other two do the same. Jay was also into photography and asked if we minded being filmed whilst fucking each other and each of us fucking Brendan. We agreed on the proviso that our faces were kept out of view. When he'd finished we looked at the final result and it was very erotic. It turned out that they lived near Worthing which wasn't that far from us so we exchanged email addresses and agreed to meet up again. They were both thirty and lovely guys so we did meet quite regularly. Either they would come and stay the weekend with us or we'd go to their house. Every time we met we always had sex and a great time together. We all loved sex and we enjoyed variation so it suited us all well without upsetting the love we had for each other. They'd been together ten years and I could tell were very much in love. A few weeks after our trip to Cornwall, I received a call from Ben. "Could I come over and see you guys?" "Of course you can, when do you want to come?" I asked sensing that he wasn't his usual bubbly self. He asked if he could come the next day, which was a Friday and stay for the weekend. Having quickly checked with Simon I said that was fine and looked forward to seeing him. "Is everything okay Ben?" I asked. "I'm not sure" he replied, "Want to talk to you guys about something". It was clear I wasn't going to get anymore out of him so we ended the call and I went to find Simon in his study upstairs. "What do you reckon is wrong?" I asked him. "Beats me; you know him better than I do". That was the problem, I did and I sensed something was not right. I cared very much for Ben and if he was hurting then so was I. "I'm sure it's nothing serious" Simon said and pulled me onto his lap with my legs astride him and facing each other. He often had me sitting like this and as soon as he started kissing me and feeling my body things down below reacted. "You worry too much; Ben's a big boy". I laughed, "Yeah he certainly is" I quipped back thinking of the size of Ben's cock. "I wasn't referring to his cock" Simon laughed as he grabbed mine, "But if he's as big as you then yes he certainly is a big boy" he chuckled. "Perhaps I'll get him to let me have a feel when he comes". "He loves being fucked that's for sure and he'd love having yours inside him" I laughed although I wasn't too sure if I wanted my ex boyfriend being fucked by my husband. "Would you mind if I did?" Simon grinned before adding "I'd let you fuck him too if he wanted". "He'd do that like a shot given half the chance" I laughed. "Well I'm willing if you are" "We'll see" I replied still not sure about the idea. "In the meantime, I want to feel this inside me" he giggled as he pulled down my sweatpants and exposed my erection. "And where would you like me to take you" I laughed. "Right here over the desk; always had a fantasy about being fucked over my desk so strip off and get the lube." I hastily removed my clothes and ran into the bedroom to fetch the bottle of lube. When I returned I found him stark naked bent over the desk with his legs wide open and pulling his butt cheeks apart to show off his prize hole. "Now fuck that hole" he laughed. I first teased him with my tongue and made him groan and moan. He was aching to feel me inside him but I was going to make him beg for it. Having given him a good rimming I slicked two fingers and slipped them inside. Each time I hit his special spot he groaned some more. "Fuck me please, fuck me" he implored. I'd brought with me the dildo so I slipped that in first. "Oh god yes that feels good but I want to feel your hot naked cock up my arse, please, please fuck me". I was really enjoying this and was chuckling away. I eventually pulled the dildo out and thrust in my hot cock which was dripping with anticipation. "Yes, yes, that's better" he cried out, "A nice hot naked cock inside my arse; now give me a good long hard fuck". Somehow I managed to keep the action going for a lot longer than I expected. With each thrust I pushed the whole length inside him before pulling it right out and then thrusting it back in. He was groaning and moaning and making all kinds of remarks about how good it felt and I had a gorgeous cock and he was going to fuck me with his big hot cock once I'd shot my load inside him. We both laughed and had a great time. Eventually I couldn't hold back any longer so let rip inside of him. "Yeah, can feel that hot spunk filling me up my love; beautiful" By the time I'd finished I was exhausted but he wanted to do the same to me so I pulled out and offered my butt for him to abuse in the same way. He was right, there was something very erotic about being fucked over a desk like that and I loved it. Finally he finished and I stood up. He took me into his arms and we kissed with tongues flitting in and out like mad. Ben arrived early afternoon. I'd arranged to pick him up from the station on my way home. As soon as he saw me pull up outside the station he ran over and climbed inside. We quickly kissed before I moved off since I was in a pickup area so couldn't hang around. I thought about asking him what was wrong on the way home but decided to wait and he wasn't offering anything. He looked okay and nothing like he'd been when I met him at my parents several months before but I could tell there was something on his mind which he wanted to talk about. When we got home I took him upstairs to say hello to Simon who was busy working in his study. He said he was nearly finished but had a bit more to do before he joined us. "I need a shower" I said casually as I walked into our bedroom and started stripping off. Ben looked at me for a moment. "Do you mind if I stay with you whilst you shower?" he said sheepishly. "Of course" I laughed, "You've seen me naked enough times". It certainly didn't bother me. He grinned and watched me strip off naked before walking into the main bathroom. I generally preferred that shower since it was a wet room area without any glass panels. He then sat on the toilet seat and watched me shower. "You're still just as beautiful" he commented. "Thanks; I imagine you are too" I replied looking him over. I could see he was already getting a hard-on but I said nothing. When I'd finished washing myself I moved towards him to get a towel and wrapped it round me. "What's wrong Ben?" I asked taking him into my arms. He immediately hugged me and I let the towel drop to the floor. I felt his hands caress my naked butt and press his own erection against my cock which was already getting excited. "We had good times together didn't we" he said as he placed his head on my shoulder. "They were fucking brilliant times Ben but we've both moved on". He nodded and let me dry myself. Once dry I walked back into the bedroom to dress and he followed me. We then went downstairs and I got him a stiff drink. I had a feeling he needed one. By the time we'd sat down in the living room, Simon had joined us. "So, you want to tell us what's wrong, Ben" He nodded and began his story. He explained that he and Jack had hit it off. They both liked the same kind of music, both liked going out to gay bars and clubs and generally got on well together. They'd met up several times in London since our marriage and things were going well. "And what about sex" Simon grinned, "knowing Jack he's no doubt got you into bed". Ben grinned and blushed slightly. "Yeah, the sex is good" "So what's the problem?" I asked. "I've fallen in love with him" he replied but there was sadness in his voice. "And does he love you?" "That's the problem, I don't know" "Have you told him you love him?" Simon asked. Ben shook his head and knowing Simon would not have seen that I said "Why not; surely if you tell him how you feel he'll either say he loves you or give some indication". Suddenly Ben burst into tears so I rushed to his side and took him into my arms. "I so don't want to fuck up like I did with you" he wailed, "I don't know what to do". For a moment I just hugged him and gently caressed his back. My feelings for him flooded back. I knew I loved Simon but I also still loved Ben and it was killing me to see him so upset. Perhaps if I hadn't told him it was all over when I'd found him with that bastard we would still be together. My own mind was in as much turmoil as his. Five years on: Simon and I had been together for five years when Rudy suddenly became unwell. I knew immediately something was wrong and told Simon. Rudy was nine and still did what he'd been trained to do so it was a shock to see him listless. We took him to see Lawrence who was still our vet and after a few tests we were told that Rudy had a terminal illness and wouldn't last much longer. We took him home and hugged him for the rest of the day pouring out our tears. He was as much a part of my life as Simon was and the thought of losing Rudy was unbearable. Lawrence had said that the kindness thing to do was to have him put down since he would eventually be in pain. Neither of us wanted to see that but the thought of losing him was hard to accept. "We can't let him suffer my love" Simon said after a while. I agreed we couldn't so the next morning we took him back to see Lawrence and whilst he gave Rudy the final injection Simon and I held him tight. As he did so I looked into Rudy's eyes and I had the feeling he smiled and said goodbye. "Goodbye my faithful friend and thank you for looking after me" Simon whispered as we felt Rudy's life slowly slip away. Simon wasn't sure he wanted another guide dog but after several weeks I persuaded him to apply for another. Having had one for so many years it was a formality so he was soon being matched to a new one. His name was Dusty and another golden retriever. He had a different personality to Rudy but just as adorable. We never forgot Rudy and I'd made sure we had plenty of photographs of him. Since Simon couldn't see those, I arranged for a sculptor to make a bronze cast of him and gave it to Simon for his birthday. He could now feel it and hold it to remind him of his wonderful friend whenever he felt the need. Dusty occasionally sat and looked at it and I wondered what was going through his mind. Simon and I were still madly in love so life was perfect. ***** If you want to read Ben's story then see "Does he love me?" which will be available shortly. Other stories by this author can be found under the list of 'Profific Authors'. If you enjoy these stories please support Nifty with a donation.