Date: Fri, 4 Aug 2017 22:17:05 +0000 (UTC)
From: jim ford <sojourn1950@yahoo.com>
Subject: Change of Heart chapter thirty-three

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Chapter thirty-three

Jeff looked up and grinned as Paul appeared in the doorway of his home
office. "So, how did schmoozing your clients go this afternoon." Paul had
again spent the afternoon making rounds with Sam to inform and reassure his
patients that his affiliation with the Veterinarian Care Clinic would
benefit them through faster urgent care services as well as enhanced and
speedier lab results. None of the ranchers today had expressed any
reservations regarding his competency in caring for their animals. Although
a couple looked like they were curious. It was as though they had never
seen a gay man in the flesh. Paul offered, "I think one or two were
confused that I had never displayed any of the television stereotypes they
ascribed to gay men. I actually got the impression a couple wanted to flat
out ask me if I really liked to suck cock. Not as a proposition mind you,
just out of curiosity. I guess it's hard to juggle the stereotypes of an
effeminate gay man with the man who gelds your livestock.

"What have you and Maria been up to while I had my nose to the grindstone"?

Jeff had moved from behind his desk to greet his lover with a kiss. While
still holding him in a loose embrace he began, "Well, after we got back we
worked on training Fugly how to fetch. That really means we chased him
around the yard a lot. Then we watched "Frozen". How many times has she
seen that movie? Oh and we do have some folks coming out to conduct some
family business. I have rescheduled them a couple of times already, due to
changes that have arisen. I will feel better once this is completed. I told
Rosarita you, Maria and I would have dinner at the diner. She has plans
with Fred.

"I also confirmed we'll pick up our Tuxes tomorrow in Dallas. I also talked
to Bradley Dobberts in Chicago. As you know he's, er, was, my boss. He had
texted me asking when my flight was to arrive so he could pick me up at the
airport. I have the feeling he's going to try to pressure me into
staying. Bradley has always looked out for me, even when I was still in
school. I spent some time with him and his family. He has two daughters
that I got to know a bit when I was an intern. His wife was courteous, but
I had the impression she didn't really like me. They had an indoor pool and
it seemed that Bradley, the girls and I wound up horsing around in the
water each time I visited them. His wife, Tiffany, is a stereotypical
stepmother and a certified trophy bride. I suppose Bradley told her I was
gay. That didn't keep her from eyeballing me and hitting on me, when I went
swimming the first time. I ignored her advances. After that, she seemed to
leave almost as soon, if not before, I arrived. Bradley made excuses for
her absences. I don't think she's happy in their marriage. At least not
when I saw them together. I haven't been out to their place in almost a
year. Bradley is constantly bugging me about spending the weekend, but I
felt like an intruder, even more so, once Tiffany began avoiding me."

"If Bradley has a trophy wife, how old is he"?

"I don't know, 45, 50 maybe. Tiffany is about half his age, of course
plastic surgery could make a liar out of me. Bradley stays in pretty good
shape. A few of us worked out together once or twice a week. Most of the
associates use the same health club. The firm gets us, got us a
discount. Why do you ask about Bradley's age. I mean, the man is
attractive, in a middle aged kind of way, but he never even blipped on my
gadar. A twice married, still married, father of two would have never made
my list of potentials. I can understand a gay man marrying once, but twice
married? Any gay man that marries twice has issues I don't want to deal
with.

"With you in my life, I don't need gaydar or a mental list of men with
potential. But, I do need you. It's like you and Maria fill up places in me
I didn't even know were empty. Sometimes, I feel like my love for you just
gushes out of me." They stood silently embracing each other and embracing
their newly interwoven destiny.

After a moment, Paul began to chuckle. The lover's released their
embrace. That chuckle soon gave way to an all out belly laugh. Jeff was a
little put out that his expression of overwhelming love was greeted with
guffaws. Paul realized that Jeff wasn't laughing with him and tried to
sober up. "Your love gushes out!" He couldn't help himself, Jeff's look of
innocent incomprehension sent him again into gales of laughter. Paul tried
again. "Your love gushes out! Out... every... time... every time we have
sex. Your love gushes so much it's sometimes hard to swallow it all." He
noticed that Jeff didn't really see the unintended humor in his metaphor.

Dave knocked lightly on the door facing. "Sorry to interrupt. Jeff, the
company you were expecting has just turned in off the road. Thought you
might want to know."

Jeff took a deep breath. "Thanks Dave. Show them into the den and let them
know we will be busy for a while." Dave grinned at the almost recovered
Paul, nodded to Jeff and moved off toward the kitchen. Jeff closed the
door, took another deep breath and grasped Paul's hands. "Paul, you have to
get serious for a minute. Let go of the locker room humor. I get the
gushing cum reference. But that doesn't alter the fact that I find it hard
to express just how much I love you." Paul let his laughter drift away as
he realized how serious his lover was being.

Jeff continued, "The first time I saw you I was overwhelmed. My heart
started pounding in my chest, and I couldn't catch my breath. I actually
thought I might pass out. I was afraid I was having a heart attack. I
remember thinking, `I'm too young to be having a heart attack'. When we
touched, it became crystal clear that I was reacting to your presence. I
can't say that it was love at first sight, but it was damn sure something
at first sight. I have never felt so desperate to just be physically close
to someone. I love you Paul. I can't imagine my life without you and Maria
in it.

"Oh hell, I had several romantic scenes in mind when I did this. I thought
New Year's Eve atop the Sears Tower would be something special to tell our
kids about. But, I really think, given what is about to happen, I should
just do it."

Jeff dropped to one knee and took Paul's hand in his. "Paul Wilson, I love
you with every fiber of my being. I want your face to be the first thing I
see each every morning and your soft snore the last thing I hear each and
every night. I want that with you for the rest of my life. Paul, will you
marry me"?

Paul had had visions of this moment happening in the not too distant
future. He had even imagined popping the question himself... in the
future. At some point in time where there were no more surprises or
conflicts. A future point where they were allowed to be, encouraged to be,
a normal happily married couple.

As Jeff waited for Paul's answer he saw disappointment wash over his
lover's face. His heart fell into the pit of his stomach. A strong
sensation of nausea began to build. Then he heard the word that sent a
complete sense of calm washing over him. "Yes! Cowboy! Most definitely! I
will marry you! This is the perfect place and the best time. It couldn't be
more romantic if we were on top of the Eiffel Tower. I will be proud to
tell our children's, children how their grandpa got down on his knees and
asked me the most important question of my life, right here in our home."

Instead of pulling Jeff to his feet, Paul dropped to his knees in front of
his soon to be husband. Gathering his lover's hands in his, he searched
Jeff's face as if storing the image in his memory. "Jeff, I think I knew
this moment, or maybe I just hoped this moment would come since the first
time I saw you. It scared me to death, being so attracted to a man I
literally just met. I know I let my fears and doubts flare up. I can't
promise they won't ever flare up again, but with you by my side I know that
flare ups is all they will ever be. Jeffrey Grant Adams will you marry me"?

Jeff captured his lover's face in his hands and smothered Paul's face in
quick, little kisses. Each punctuated with a repeated, "Yes!"

Finally, he stopped and simply stared at his soul mate's goofy grin, sure
that his face wore a mirror image. After a moment, he sobered and said,
"Paul, you scared me. I saw the look on your face. I was sure you were
going to say No. I'm so glad you said yes. Is there anything I can do to
ease your doubts? I swear, I will do my best to make sure you never regret
this."

"Oh Jeff, it wasn't doubts about us. I know we belong together. For a
second, I let the homophobia and financial differences and my own self
doubts creep in. Then, I heard my grandpa's voice telling me, as clear as
if he were here again, "Son, this life don't hand a man much of nothing for
free, except for air. The rest you got to work for. A man can spend a
lifetime making excuses or listening when folks tell him he ain't good
enough. But, in my mind that's just wasted time. It's best to just ignore
them sons-of-bitches, put your head down, work hard and live a life that
best suits you. Before you know it, you got your row hoed."

"He told me that the first week I went to live with him. When that memory
flashed through my mind, I realized, we got our own row to hoe. Together. I
thought about proposing to you, or you proposing to me, in some idyllic
future where everything was perfect. Truth is, you are `perfect' for
me. The timing couldn't be better or the setting more romantic."

Their kisses cycled through deep abiding love, enflamed passion and light
hearted, lip smacking, teenage crush kind of kisses. Neither man wanted it
to end, but both felt that sex was not the immediate goal. Eventually they
lay side by side, face to face.

Jeff's fingertip idly caressed his lover's cheek. "Paul, as much as I would
love to stay right here with you, we have business to take care of."

Both men stood. Jeff led Paul to the sofa, sitting together he took his
lover's hand. "Paul, I know the money I have has been an issue for you and
you've handled it, probably much better than I would have. You saw how
Raymond reacted this morning and you helped him. Paul, if anything should
ever happen to me, you and Maria need not worry about your financial
future. My personal assets will go to you, as well as my interests in the
Adams Family Trust. Individual trust funds have already been set up for
both you and Maria. So, no matter what happens to AFT or anyone else, you
two will be financially independent. I also want you to be able to act in
my stead. Granted, it doesn't involve a lot of work, just attending the
occasional meeting and making informed decisions. Paul, we are more than
boyfriends, more than lovers, more than partners. We belong together. We
are sharing this life together. It's time to make it so it's our money, not
just mine."

Just like the proposal, Paul had seen this coming. Actually, he hadn't seen
this coming. When he thought of Jeff's money it had been a nebulous if
somewhat oppressive concept. And it had been exactly that, "Jeff's money",
not "our money". He figured whatever Jeff had would remain with the Adams
family through some prenuptial agreement. Just like the clothes, Christmas
gifts, the car, or the trip to Chicago, money would sporadically rear it's
ugly head. When he saw Raymond blindsided by sudden wealth, he realized
money is like animal feces, sometimes you just have to deal with it.

He had never really considered the idea that being extremely rich would be
a constant in his own life. In Raymond's case money was a rightful
inheritance. Paul had friends in college who couldn't relate to his
struggling to make ends meet. Being associated with really rich people was
not the same as being one. Supporting Raymond had been easy compared to
this.

Maria's life would certainly be changed. How would becoming rich affect his
little girl? Hell, how would it affect him? No more struggling to afford
necessities. No struggling to afford anything. Not having to save for
Maria's education or his retirement. He thought for a moment and realized
there was not anything he particularly wanted that couldn't be achieved in
time, through his own efforts. His own place. Professional success. A good
education for Maria. A comfortable retirement. He liked cars, but he was
content with reliable transportation. YouTube videos and visiting the
occasional antique car show allowed him to dream. Travel? Food? There was
nothing that really grabbed him as something he would buy or do if he `won
the lottery'.

Jeff waited expectantly for Paul's reaction. "Jeff, I don't think that
giving me a lot of money is a really good idea. I mean, most lottery
winners wind up worse off than they were. What if I buy a Rolls Royce or a
gaudy mansion. I could develop a gambling habit or who knows what."

"Paul, you could buy a different Rolls for everyday of the week and several
gaudy mansions and still have plenty of money. As for bad habits, I hope to
be your only vice. You're a good man Paul. You'll be okay. We're in this
together.

"Now, let me bring in the bankers and the lawyers and get this over
with. Then we can take Maria into town for dinner and ice cream. How's that
sound"?

"It sounds like you're trying to placate a spoiled child. You can bring
them in, but after the ice cream you have to wash my back in the
shower. Oh, and a back rub afterwards... a naked back rub."

Jeff opened the door, looked over his shoulder at Paul and said, "I know
you're trying to tempt me into foregoing this meeting and cutting straight
to that back rub. It isn't working, but I intend to hold you to that
agenda."

By the time the three lawyers and two bankers were through, Paul was
overwhelmed by the number of zeroes that resided in his, now, multiple bank
accounts, investment accounts and the funds he could access through the
AFT. Just one of his "readily accessible funds" accounts had enough zeroes
to impact a third world nation. By the time it was over, he had access to
enough funds to create his own dictatorship. He could buy his hometown and
kick his parents out.

Once the others had left, Jeff went to round up Maria. Paul was still
somewhat stupefied by what had transpired over the past couple of hours. He
found himself mindlessly staring at credit cards he didn't even know
existed before today. Who knew ATMs, once accessed with a special card and
a PIN number could respond to a second PIN number that gave one access to
up to fifty percent of the machines available cash. Paul was definitely out
of his element. His life would never be the same.

Jeff and Maria found him still in a trance like state. Maria tugged on her
daddy's sleeve, "Daddy, are you ok? Daddy Jeff says after dinner I can have
ice cream for dessert. You don't look like you would enjoy ice cream right
now. Maybe we should just stay here. I can eat ice cream here. It still
tastes good."

Paul shook his head to clear his thinking. "Baby girl, I would love to go
to town and watch you eat ice cream while Daddy Jeff and I have a slice of
one of Miss Julie's pies.

Paul shifted around and pulled Maria onto his lap. "You know baby girl,
when two people love each other very much they... well... they want to
spend their lives together... and well..."

"Daddy, are you gonna tell me you and Daddy Jeff are getting married? Cause
if you are, it sure is taking you a long time just to say it. BJ said it
was gonna happen like with his two Daddy's. He was the ring baron. I want
to be y'all's ring baron. If you get married does one of you have to wear a
white gown? I should have asked BJ. Daddy, even pretend you don't look good
as a girl. Daddy Jeff is taller, so I guess that means you gotta wear the
dress. I should have asked BJ which of his daddies wore the dress. But, I'm
pretty sure it has to be who ever is shorter. He says there was cake and
dancing and then you go to Hawaii for the honeymoon. He says that's where
married people go to have S.E.X. I spelled it out cause I know you don't
like it when I say sex. BJ didn't spell it out. I don't even know if he can
spell it. Are y'all getting married Daddy"?

While Paul's mouth hung open, Jeff knelt beside their chair. "Yes Princess,
we are getting married and you can be our ring baron, if that's what you
want. When two men get married neither has to wear a dress. But, you can
wear a beautiful white dress, with pretty pink flowers, if you want. In a
way, I will be marrying your Daddy and you too. Because you will be my
little girl too."

Maria's face screwed up in confusion. "I thought I already was your little
girl when I called you my Daddy Jeff."

Jeff glanced up to see that Paul had recovered and wore a smirk at Jeff's
predicament. "Princess, I like to think you became my little girl when we
first met, because I knew I loved you right away. When we get married it
makes it legal. Nothing really important changes, it just makes it
legal. Like getting a driver's license. People drive before they get a
license, the license just makes it legal. Do you understand"?

"I guess so. I guess getting married makes it legal to have sex."

Paul felt an intervention was needed. Tickling he shouted, "Ok Baby
girl. Let's head out to the diner. There's ice cream to be ett."

Catching Paul's eye, Jeff mouthed, "Thanks."

On the way to town Maria informed Sam and Dave that her Daddies would soon
be "having sex legally". It took the remainder of the trip to convince
Maria that people don't discuss sex in polite company. That led to a
discussion about whether Sam and Dave were company or family. As they
arrived at the diner Dave offered that he and Sam were friendly employees,
better than polite company but not quite family. All the adults breathed a
sigh of relief when Maria decided sex was just too confusing. It would be
better to tell everybody they were just getting married and leave sex out
of it.

///////////// MEANWHILE ////////////////

"CLOSE THAT DOOR!" Raymond shouted. That statement may have been somewhat
premature as the door in question had not yet been opened.

A loud, but muted voice through the door called out, "Mr. Car... I mean
Mr. Adams, it's me, Jeremy. I got my laptop and keys and Tahoe and I just
wanted to leave a thank you note on your desk. It seemed more personal than
an email, and... uh, I wasn't sure I could do it face to face without
getting emotional. I'll just wait and put it on your desk first thing in
the morning."

"Jeremy, just wait right there and I'll be with you in a minute."

A whispered exchange in the bathroom as they cleaned up resulted in an
agreement to share their relationship with Jeremy. Once they were
`presentable', Raymond opened the door and invited Jeremy into his
office. "Jeremy, I'd like you to meet Sheriff Daniel Lovan.

"Since you are now my personal assistant you are privy to personal aspects
of my life that you will be expected to keep to yourself. You've signed the
non disclosure agreement when you hired on. That means you may be called
upon to convincingly lie about certain details and shared confidences,
unless you are under oath and face possible perjury charges.. Is that
understood"?

"Yes sir, but I thought you were already out? I mean it's common
knowledge... I don't understand."

"I am out Jeremy. Unfortunately Daniel is not. To protect his career you,
he and I must lie about his orientation. Daniel is my, uh boy, er, uh, lov,
part..."

Daniel seized the moment, stepped forward, extended his right hand and
stated, "Hi Jeremy. It's nice to meet you. You can call me Daniel. I'm
Raymond's future husband." Daniel's bravado faltered, "At least, I wanna
be."

Twice in one day, Raymond was speechless. He searched his lover's face and
saw doubt and hesitation. He might have been speechless, but he wasn't
paralyzed. He grabbed Daniel's face in both hands and proceeded to kiss the
man with his whole heart. If the entire town had been watching he couldn't
have held back. His love for this lawman was bursting forth like some
tremendous explosion that could not be contained.

Daniel may have been caught off guard, but he understood immediately that
Raymond had accepted his ill timed and awkward proposal. The unmitigated
joy that rushed through his soul was like lightning chasing fireworks! It
made him want to shout his love from the rooftops. Strangely this thought
of shouting from the rooftops brought a sobering reality to the moment. He
broke the kiss.

"Raymond, I, uh, as much as I want to... I uh, I can't..."

"Hold on there Lawman. Just one goddamned minute. You proposed and I
accepted. Nobody said when. It may not be this month, this year or this
decade, but you asked me to marry you in front of a credible witness and by
god you're going to marry me sooner or later. I would have already asked
you but for the sake of your career. I'm willing to wait. But, the moment
your career becomes a non issue, we are tying the knot. If you understand
that and agree, just shut up and kiss me."

This time the kiss was like a warm spring rain that showered them with the
promise of a fully blossoming love. It went on until Jeremy cleared his
throat. It continued. Jeremy cleared his throat even louder. It
continued. Jeremy faltered, "I'll just, uh, put this on your desk." Placing
a sealed envelope on Raymond's desk he continuously eyed the hot men as
their kiss took on an air of desperation. They groped each other as if they
were alone on a desert isle and kissing was the key to their
survival. "I'll see myself out. I guess I'll see you in the morning sir. It
was nice meeting you Sheriff, uh, I mean Daniel. Well, goodnight y'all."
Jeremy was glad the two were oblivious to his exit, otherwise they might
have noticed his sizable response to their stimulating activity.

Eventually they broke the kiss. For more than a moment they were content to
simply hold each other. Raymond finally stepped back. "I think Jeremy
left."

Daniel chuckled, "I think Jeremy left a while ago."

"Well, I trust him. I am confident, if you get outed, it won't be by him. I
couldn't help but notice he smiled when you declared your intentions to
make me an honest man."

Raymond engaged a somber note in his voice, "Daniel, I have a proposal of
my own for you. Someone once said, `the best kept secrets are those that
are kept in plain sight'. I intend to make my ranch a secure compound. No
one will be allowed access without my approval. No one will wonder in or
come snooping around without being challenged. As soon as the main house
gets remodeled I will have an empty, smaller house available for rent. I
would like to offer the smaller house as a rental to our County
Sheriff. With the stipulation that said County Sheriff actually take up
residence in the main house with me. Larry and Runt already know about us,
as do my family and my guards are screened for and paid to be discreet. No
one has to know where you actually hang your hat. Daniel, we could be
together, now. Hell, we could go to Vegas and get hitched and not tell a
soul. Or we can live secretly in sin. What do you think"?

Daniel took Raymond's hands in his. "My first impulse is to say yes. I want
you. I want to be with you. I love you Raymond. I have loved you for
years. You were my first love and you'll be my last love. Just like that
old song my Momma used to listen to.

"But, I love my job. I have learned as acting Sheriff, that my judgement,
my decisions and my management style are just as sound, just as valid as
anyone who might also be qualified to hold the office. I intend to do my
very best to win this election. If I don't win, then I will seek other
gainful employment. I will also follow through on my promise to marry you,
and together we will make it the biggest, gayest wedding this town has ever
seen. I know you want an answer right now, but I need to think hard about
this. If we move in together, I don't intend to permanently leave you until
they take one of us out feet first."

Raymond found it hard to hide his excitement. "Daniel, I fully expected you
to flat out refuse. For you to seriously consider moving in with me, is so
much more of a victory than I expected this soon. I thought of this when I
first visited the shack Larry and Runt live in. I almost told them to move
into the smaller house. I thought of two men living and loving together on
my ranch. I wondered why you and I couldn't be like that. It wasn't long
before I came up with this idea. That was part of the reason I wanted to
see you tonight. Then I saw you across the street and well, I guess things
just got out of hand."

Daniel pulled Raymond closer. "Well, I can't say I didn't enjoy my tour of
your new office, but I'm kinda hungry. You think we can continue our talk
over dinner."

Raymond let his guards know he was ready to leave. In the elevator, Daniel
invited Raymond to spend the night at his place. It was decided that a
guard could give him a ride to work in the morning so he rode with Raymond,
in Chiron, to the diner. On the way Raymond brought up his idea of
"transparency" as a campaign platform. Once he was assured an AFT grant
would cover the cost of the body cameras as well as peripheral hardware,
Daniel was fully onboard.

In the diner parking lot they met up with Jeff, Paul and Maria. The guards,
almost inconspicuously, sat a nearby table. As soon as the family took
their seats, Maria excitedly informed her new Uncle that her Daddies were
getting married. Raymond casually opined, "It must be something in the
water."

Jeff and Paul both stared open mouthed at the outwardly complacent
couple. Daniel was quick to point out that absolute discretion would be
appreciated. Maria felt sure she was being intentionally left out of the
discussion. She loudly inquired, "Is `dicks,rec,tion' part of sex"?

The explosion of laughter around the table as well as at the guards table
did nothing to dispel her sense of being left out. Jeff leaned in and
whispered to Paul, "we gotta start writing these down."

Miss Julie appeared behind Maria's chair with a glare that had even the
armed guards guiltily shifting in their seats. She quelled the merriment
like the proverbial wet blanket. Only after silence reigned did she kneel
beside Maria's chair, "Princess, you know how sometimes your Daddies play
pretend with you and you have to explain to them every little thing. That's
bothersome isn't it? Or like you have to get their attention so you can
make sure they don't miss the best parts of "Frozen"? Maria solemnly nodded
and Miss Julie continued, "Well, grownup conversation is like
that. Sometimes your Daddies get all serious and explain things so you
understand. Other times they just laugh it off because it's something that
you just have to grow into. You have to trust your Daddies to tell you the
important stuff and learn to laugh about the rest. Okay Sugar"?

Maria carefully scanned the faces of the two men she trusted most in the
world. She looked into Miss Julies' eyes and said, "This growing up stuff
takes a long time. It seems I been doing it most of my life. I just wished
I could get there so I could laugh about sex too."

Miss Julie cast a threatening glance to one and all, at both tables. "Well
sugar one day you'll be wishing you never had grown up. Seems we spend a
lot of time wishing for what we don't have. Then when we get it... we'll it
can be a challenge to deal with. It's important to remember this life is
like a journey or recess at school. It's always more fun when you share it
with those you care about most." With that, she winked at Paul and moved on
to greet her other patrons.

Much later, as Raymond and Daniel were crawling naked, but sated, under the
"Starry Night" comforter, Raymond said, "Daniel, remember when we were
discussing financial assets and we discussed net worth? Well...."

Author's Note:A chapter without sex! WARNING! If I get enough emails, I
will withhold the account of hot steamy sex between Uncle Joe and Aunt
Mellie from the next chapter.  Bwa, ha, ha.... You have been warned!
Resistance is fertile!

Thanks again to Nathan, who edited eberything, butt the Author's Note.