Date: Wed, 13 Feb 2008 07:34:27 -0800 (PST) From: Randy Howard Subject: Terence / Beginnings Terence By randyhoward2@yahoo.com This, my readers is a very different kind of story. It deals with domestic violence among gay couples. Please read and form your own opinions. You have my permission to reproduce this one story if you wish. Randy. "Hey Evan, where is Terence tonight"? Ashton asked, surprised to see Evan without him. "He was not feeling well, so he told me to go alone," Evan said smiling at the host. "Nice party! Where is John,"? referring to Ashton's other half. "Oh he is somewhere around here," he said looking around the room. "There he is going out to the garden," he said pointing in the direction. Evan edged through the room as he makes his way to the doors that led to the garden. He stepped into the garden in search of John. He saw him going into the greenhouse. He made his way over and looked inside before opening the door, making sure that no one else was around. "I wasn't sure that you were coming," as he took Evan in his arms. "I told you that I would be here," as their lips meet in passion and lust. They make their way to an area where they cannot be seen. "Where did you leave Terence"? John asked. "At home where he belongs," as he undid his pants. He pulled his pants and underwear down as John dropped to his knees. "I have dreamt of this cock all day since I saw you and Terence this morning babe," as he swallowed Evan's cock down his throat. He took it all the way until he smelt the scent of his secret lover. He drank his scent in as he slowly sucked on his cock, bringing him ever so close to the edge. "I want to fuck you John," as he pulled his cock from his mouth. John leaned against one of the tables with his hands bracing him as Evan lubes his ass. "You ready babe"? as he lined up his cock. "Yeah lover, fuck me hard and deep," as he started to push back and Evan pushed his cock in. John let out a moan of delight as Evan buried his cock. "Oh fuck Evan, your cock feels so good babe, so much better than Ashton's". He quickly started to fuck his lover's ass, withdrawing to the head before slamming it back. John met every thrust with a push of his own, as they fucked by moonlight. It was not long before John was at the edge and moaned his pleasure. "Oh fuck Evan, I'm coming"! As he shot his hot white come all over the floor. Volley after volley flowed until he was fully quenched. "Oh fuck babe, here I go," Evan howled in ecstasy as he blasted his come into John's anxious ass. Oh fuck babe you're hot, I can feel you filling me," John moans out in delight. They finished their sex and meandered back, separately, to the party. Evan left around ten and went home. Terence was still up waiting for him. "How was school tonight"? Terence asked. "Fine, but the same old shit." he said as Terence gave him a kiss. He lingered on his neck, smelling the different colognes. "Where did you really go Evan," Terence asked, now realizing he has been lied to. "That cologne is not yours or mine," he says to his face. Evan backhanded him so hard, he fell back onto the coffee table breaking it. "Listen you fucking bitch, don't accuse me unless you can prove it," he said heading to the bathroom to shower. The next day Terence got up and headed to the bathroom. As he passed the mirror, he saw his reflection. His eye was black and swollen. "Shit I guess I deserved that for accusing him of cheating," as he tried to cover it with make-up. He headed to the store for groceries grabbing his sunglasses on the way. He knew it is not sunny but it covered his eye, avoiding looks and questions from passers. "Terence how you doing"? His friend Jeremy asked as he came around the aisle corner. "Shit man what happened to you"? He asked, noticing his eye. "I opened a cupboard and a damn bowl fell out getting me square in the eye," he says looking at a display. "Of course a bowl. They just love to jump out at us," knowing he is lying. He knew his man's temper and has even seen it in action a few times. "Well just be careful. If you ever need to talk I'm here," giving him a manly hug. He got home as the phone rang. It was an old friend. They talk for more than an hour discussing the old days and what had happened since their school days. Evan arrived home and checked the phone's "Caller Id" for incoming calls. He saw a call from Terence's hometown and without hesitation, flew upstairs with the handset just as Terence was about to come down. "What the fuck is this number"? ramming the set into Terence's face. "That's my old friend. I went to college with him," he said continuing down the stairs. "You're fucking cheating on me now"! He shouts as he shoved Terence. He fell hard, landing at the foot of the stairs screaming in terrible pain. "Stop your fucking screaming you damn baby," going back into his den. Terence tried to get up but the pain in his arm and shoulder caused him to pass out. He finally came-to almost three hours later and the house was dark as he called out for Evan, but no one answered. "Evan!" he yelled and was finally answered. "What the fuck do you want bitch"? He yelled from his bed. "Help me. I think I've broken my arm," and Evan finally came downstairs. "Shit! Now I'll have to take you to the hospital won't I," irritated at the fact that his sleep has been interrupted. "Make sure you tell them you lost you footing and fell," he told him as he glared. "Of course that's what happened. I'm naturally clumsy. Everyone knows that." At the hospital, Evan played the pillar of sainthood as he helped his lover out of the car, calling him "babe" and assisting him with his every need. "You know I love you Terence. I promise to get help with my anger," giving Terence a kiss. "I know you will. I love you too," he said. "So Mr. Burns what happened"? The doctor asked as Evan stood behind him looking at Terence. "I was about to come downstairs and I caught my foot on the rug and down I went," he said, looking past the Doctor at Evan. The doctor turned to Evan who just smiled at him. "Why don't you wait outside in the waiting room sir while I set the arm and shoulder"? Motioning an orderly to show him the way. The doctor, while setting the arm made a comment about the eye. "How did you get the black eye"? He asked Terence, who was caught off guard by his question. "I must have done it when I fell," He said, immediately regretting the response. "Young man, a black eye does not set that quickly," he said looking closely at it. "This is about one or two days old. Now how did you do it again"? "I forget doctor, really," looking the other way. "Well no ones needs to put up with abuse anymore, and that doesn't' just apply to just women," he says looking at Terence. "I understand doctor, but I am not being abused," he said knowing that he had caused his lover to loose his temper. The next day Jeremy called and was up in arms over the news he had heard. "I just heard from a friend of mine that knows of you. You broke your arm and dislocated your shoulder falling down the stairs last night." "Evan and I had a little disagreement. He waved something at me. I stepped back and I lost my footing and fell," he said. "Listen Terence, I want to ask you something and you don't have to answer. Did he push you down the stairs"? After a long silence, he answered. "Yes Jeremy, he was mad at me. He accused me of having an affair, and then shoved me down the stairs. He saw my old friend's phone number on our 'Caller Id' and freaked out. He left me there until I passed out. When I woke up hours later, I called him for help." "Did he help you then"? "Well once he knew I could not do it myself, but he has promised to get help," Terence told Jeremy. "I could just kick his fucking ass," Jeremy was furious. "Jeremy no. It was my own fault for provoking him." "That is not the point man, no one deserves to be beaten or almost killed," as a lump formed in his throat "I love you to much to see this happen to you." "I will be fine Jer. He is going for help and I am careful how I choose my words." "Don't you have a right to have friends too? Look, he won't even let me talk to you. That reminds me, remove my number from your Caller Id." "I will I have to go now buddy," he said hanging up, removing all signs of Jeremy's call. That night in bed Evan says to Terence "I need some sex you know," as he crawled on top of Terence. "Careful Evan, you are hurting my shoulder and arm." He slapped Terence hard across the face with his open hand, daring him to open his mouth again. "Now just shut up and lift those legs," he said as he pushed his cock into his man. He pushed it all the way in, then started to aggressively fuck him. He fucked him hard and deep, causing his head to hit the headboard. "Easy man, you're hurting me," he said as another bout of slapping reined upon him. He fucked him until he came. Crawling off him, he noticed that Terence had not ejaculated. "How come you didn't blow? You already been there today"? He asked as he raised his hand. Terence put his arm up to protect his face. "Hey sorry Terence," Evan said as he lay beside him. "I promise I will call for help this week." "I love you and I believe you," as he gives Evan a kiss. The next day they were invited over to Ashton and John's for dinner. It has been a while since Terence has seen them. "My God look at you," Ashton said, greeting them at the door. "What the hell happened to you Terence"? "Nice to see you too," hugging him in greeting. "Just an accident at home." "John how nice to see you," he said as he gave him a hug. He suddenly recognized the cologne as the one that had been on Evan. "Evan I must show you my prized orchids later," John tells Evan. "That would be great John," Evan said, looking right at him. They had a great dinner. Terence sat and talked with Ashton while the boys quietly disappeared. About fifteen minutes later, Terence said that he would like to see the orchids. "Come on I'll take you out to the greenhouse. They went to the greenhouse but the guys were nowhere to be seen. Terence looked around and he heard the sound of someone moaning. He walked towards the sound and saw Evan fucking John. John was bent over a table with Evan slamming his ass. "Evan how could you," as the two of them jumped up and Evan pulled his cock out of John's ass. "John why"? Asks Ashton looking on in shock from behind Terence. Evan pulled up his pants as he came towards Terence. "You did this on purpose to get even with me," Evan said as he struck Terence knocking him to the floor. John took his queue from Evan, and similarly struck Ashton to the floor. "That's it John, teach him his place," Evan said as he looked at the two men lying on the ground. "Get the fuck in the house," he shouted at Terence, who instantly got up and fled the greenhouse. "You know your way also bitch," John told Ashton who looked in shock at his man. He got up and followed Terence into the house. "Now where were we"? Evan said as he kissed John. "Your cock was fucking me stud," as John dropped his pants and bent over, surrendering his ass to Evan's cock. "Are you all right"? Ashton asked Terence as he took him in his arms to comfort him. "If John thinks he is going to abuse me like Evan does with you he is greatly mistaken." Ashton went to his bedroom and soon returned with a gun. "Ashton no! Violence against violence is not the answer." Terence said to Ashton as he stepped up to him and grabbed the gun. "No one is going to put a hand on me and live to tell about it," pushing Terence aside as he headed to the greenhouse. Terence called 911 and told them what was happening, and then ran to the greenhouse. He was moments behind Ashton when he heard the conversation in progress. "Evan pull your cock from my man"! Ashton said pointing the gun at the two of them. Evan went white with fear as he saw the gun. He slowly pulled out of John's ass. "Babe please," John said to his man with fear in his voice. His pants still surrounded his ankles. "I am so sorry love for cheating on you and hitting you, don't do this," as the gun went off. John dropped to the floor. "Ashton no," Terence yelled as Ashton turned towards him with a vacant look in his eyes. He put the gun to his head and pulled the trigger. He too dropped to the floor. "Oh God Ashton why"? Terence cried as he rushed to his friend's side while Evan stood there in shock with his pants still around his ankles. "The police are coming Evan, get your fucking pants up"! he yelled at Evan who still could not move. "Ashton why did you have to do this man"? Looking down at his friend whom he cradled in his arms. "All you had to do was walk away from him love," as his tears cascaded upon the body. The police come rushing into the greenhouse with their guns drawn and surveyed the scene. Evan was still standing in shock half naked with Terence cradling the dead Ashton. "What happened here sir"? the officer asked. He explained the whole scenario to the police who took his statement as the Coroner arrives to take the two bodies away. "What's with him"? The officer said motioning to Evan who was now pulling up his pants. "He is the one that was caught fucking one of the dead men. The other man caught him and after he hit him he got a gun and came out and shot him and then himself." "Well thank you for your help, do you need any assistance"? He asked looking at Evan then at Terence. "Thank you officer, but I think I can handle this now," he said assuredly while looking at Evan. They went home, speaking not a single word as they drove through the city. Terence walked from the car to the house, and unlocked the door. "Evan," he says turning to him. "Go upstairs and pack your things. I do not want you in my house anymore," turning and walking away from him. "Why you fucking bastard" he said, grabbing Terence by the hair pulling him back to him. "The two of them would be alive if you had not come out looking for me". He raised his hand and struck Terence across the face knocking him to the floor. "I am going to teach you what happens when you are wrong fucker." He grabbed him from the floor, punching him in the stomach as he let him fall to the floor again. He kicked him in the ribs several times before he sat on him with full might. He punched him across his face breaking his nose and jaw. "Now asshole, go tell the Doctor you fell down the stairs again," getting up and stomping on his cast, crushing it. He left him there and climbed the stairs, turning out the lights behind him. "Evan please man," he agonised softly. "I am sorry for what I did and I forgive you," he says as he passed out from the pain. The next morning Evan came down dressed for work. Terence was still out on the floor. He stepped over him on his way to the kitchen for his morning coffee. A half hour later, he left for work still not caring about what he had done. The phone rang around ten. Jeremy was calling, knowing that he and Terence were supposed to go shopping for a birthday present for Ashton. "You have reached the phone of Evan and Terence. We are not home at the moment, please leave your name and number and we will get back to you," he heard from the recording. "Terence it's me, Jeremy where are you"? He tried Terence's cell phone and got his voice mail service. "Something is not right. That man does not leave home without his phone," he said aloud while grabbing his car keys as he headed out the door. He got to Terence's house and noticed his car in the driveway. He rang the doorbell but got no response, so he proceeded to look through the side window. "God man where the fuck are you"? he thought to himself as he moved to the living room window. He shielded his eyes with his hands as his looked in, and there on the floor, he saw his best friend lying quite still. He grabbed his cell and called 911. He asked for an ambulance and a police car. The police were the first to arrive and he explained that his friend is unconscious on the floor. They bust through the door, rushing to Terence's side. "Oh God bud," Jeremy said as the police searched for a pulse. "He's alive," the officer said as the paramedics came through the door. "We have a male beating victim unconscious." The officer told them. "I just know it was his partner Evan Mills," Jeremy said. "He has been physically abusing him for months. He works at Max's Gym down on Main and State streets." "Well until he comes-to we cannot be certain that he is the one that did this," the officer said. "But we'll send a car over and question him about his whereabouts." They took Terence to the hospital. Jeremy followed soon after, making sure his friend was going to be fine. Several hours later, a Doctor came to speak to him. "Are you with the young man that was beaten"? He asked of Jeremy looking at him very sternly. "Yes doctor, and please do not think that for one minute I could have done such a thing to my best friend. His life partner did this to him, and I intend to see that he pays dearly for it. How is my friend"? He asked. "He is in a very bad condition, but he will survive. He has broken his arm again and several more ribs, as well as a punctured lung. He had internal bleeding, along with a broken nose and jaw," he said shaking his head slowly. "This is one of the most violent attacks by a partner I have seen in all my years as a doctor". "My God doctor, may I see him"? "Not at the moment, he is heavily sedated and should be out for at least the next twelve hours. I would recommend you coming back tomorrow," he told Jeremy who is now quaking with rage. "He is very lucky he was found when he was, he would have died if he had lay there another couple of hours," the doctor said as he turned to leave. "That fucker will pay for this"! Jeremy says to himself as he left the hospital heading for the gym. "You think you're a big man don't you fucker"? he shouted in Evan's face in front of the men working out. "What the fuck, are you doing here you fucking faggot"? He yelled back at Jeremy. "Did you tell these guys how you beat your boyfriend close to the point of death? Asshole!" he shouted in rage as the whole place came to a standstill. "Your fucking gay," a guy calls out from across the room. "I'm no fag," he responded. "This guy is a fag that has been hitting on me and cannot take no for an answer," he says trying to avert attention from his sexuality. "Let me tell you something about this man," turning and looking at the guys who now has his full attention. "He not only is gay and living with a man for the past two years fucking him. He was caught fucking the guy that was shot and killed by his lover the other day," he said as everyone turned to look at Evan. Evan swung at Jeremy landing a right, knocking him on the floor. "You fucking faggot, I am going to kill you"! He said as he attacked him. Some of the guys grabbed Evan, subduing him. The police were called and when they arrived, Jeremy pressed assault charges against Evan. "Officer, this man attacked me in front of these men," Jeremy said, motioning towards the men in the room who were nodding in agreement. "You are under arrest, Evan Mills," the officer said as he read him his rights. "You wait asshole! I will fix your ass like I did that faggot Terence," he yelled then realizes he should have shut up. The officer recorded the comment. "Did you get that officer," Jeremy asks. "Every word," he said smiling as he took a handcuffed Evan away, still swearing and yelling. "Hey man, we had no idea that he was like that," one of the gym patrons called to Jeremy. "We don't condone any kind of violence towards a partner," he said looking at Evan as he headed towards the door. "I sure hope your friend is going to be ok," he said as he shook Jeremy's hand. "Yes he has a long road ahead of him for recovery, but he will make it," he said as he thanked the guys for their support. They clapped as he left the gym and he turned and waved in one final thanks. He went home to rest, thinking of his friend and how he saved his life. The next morning he headed to the hospital with a beautiful flower arrangement. He peaked into the room and noticed he was awake as he softly knocked. "Hey dude," he said walking in with the flowers setting them down on the stand next to the bed. "How is my man doing today"? He asked kissing his forehead. The image before him reminded him of the Invisible man in his bandage garb. The only difference was that the upper face remained un- bandaged. He was unable to talk because of his jaw. He scribbled a note as his eyes well up. 'They tell me that you found me. Thank you for coming to my aid friend.' "Listen pal, that man of yours is in lock up as we speak or rather I speak and you scribble," he says. "I confronted him at the gym about what he did to you and he attacked me. I am not afraid to press charges. I know you love him, but someone has to protect you from him," taking hold of his one good hand. He quickly scribbles another note to him. 'The police were here this morning babe. I gave them a statement of the things he did to me. I am pressing full charges against him. Maybe this time I can find the courage to get the help I need for myself,' he wrote and he burst into tears. "Terence I have loved you for years man, you know that. However, you have always been attracted to the bad boy type. Can I have your hand in marriage now"? He asked wiping the tears from his man's eyes. 'Yes and I am sorry for the pain I have caused you my best friend,' he scribbled out in a hasty hand. "I forgive you, I just wanted to see you happy, but I could never understand why you would allow yourself be beaten by the men you loved, and then turn around and make excuses for them beating you," he says kissing his forehead. "Damn dude, you had better get that jaw healed soon, I want those lips to kiss." Ten weeks later, Terence went home with Jeremy. His jaw had healed as well as his broken bones. Evan was sentenced to twenty years to life for assault and battery with intent to murder. Terence went to counselling for his issues of self-esteem and is doing better, according to his man. "I love you so much Jer," Terence says lying in Jeremy's arms as he looks into his eyes. "Thank you Jer for being there during my darkest times." "I love you, and I will always be there," as their lips finally meet. They kissed their first kiss of love as their hearts beat as one, with their tongues dancing. Terence opened his legs as he gave himself to the man he should have loved from the start. "Make love to me Jer," as he spreads his legs wide. "I want a real man to fill me with love," he whispers in his ear. Jeremy slowly pushes his cock into his man. Terence surrenders himself. He lets out a moan as he arched his back, feeling his lover moving inside. "Take me Jeremy, I give myself to you," as he wrapped his arms around him kissing him with passion. Slowly Jeremy made love to him, taking his time as he has waited too long for this day. He pulled almost all the way out and then pushed slowly back in as Terence rose to meet his gentle thrusts. They were soon in the heat of their passion as they increased the pace of their lovemaking, moaning out in their ecstasy. "I'm coming Jer," Terence moans out as he shoots his seed. "Oh fuck lover," Jeremy panted as he felt himself getting close. "I'm coming too," and he blasted forth into the man he loves. "Oh babe I can feel you as you fill me with your love," pulling him in closer as their lips meet in passion. As they held one another in the afterglow of their lovemaking, they snuggle, being reminded of the love they shared. The End My reader's, this was a story quite out of my element. Until recently, I had not wanted to deal with the fact that I was also being physically abused. Although I was a lot luckier than Terence in the story, who by the way is totally fictional, my partner and I are getting professional help and are doing much better. Violence in Gay Men's Relationships Violence within gay relationships is a recognized health problem. Gay men are just as susceptible to domestic violence as any other member of society. There are some differences though, as Ramon Johnson points out in his article about Gay Partner Abuse. Gay people often feel they cannot seek help from agencies that mostly offer help and advice to heterosexual couples. Gay men are more reluctant to expose their sexuality to health care professionals. Health workers are not immune to prejudice and may be intolerant of gay relationships. The victim may have the same friends as the abuser, and can be worried about losing the support from his partner and mutual friends. Visit Ramon's site for more information and help: Gay Life In many ways, domestic violence in lesbian, bisexual and gay relationships is the same as in opposite-genders (e.g., heterosexually-paired) relationships: o No one deserves to be abused. o Abuse can be physical, sexual, emotional, psychological, and involve verbal behaviour used to coerce, threaten or humiliate. o Abuse often occurs in a cyclical fashion. o The purpose of the abuse is to maintain control and power over one's partner. o The abused partner feels alone, isolated and afraid, and is usually convinced that the abuse is somehow her or his fault, or could have been avoided if she or he knew what to do. Several important aspects of lesbian, bisexual, and gay relationships mean domestic violence is often experienced differently: In same-sex abuse, a pattern of violence or behaviours exists where one seeks to control the thoughts, beliefs, or conduct of their intimate partner, or to punish their partner for resisting their control. This may been seen as physical or sexual violence, or emotional and verbal abuse. An additional form of emotional abuse for someone who is gay, lesbian, or bisexual may be to "out" them at work or to family or friends. If you or someone you know is involved in a relationship that is abusive, seek help for yourself or them. No one should suffer abuse of any kind. Randy.