Date: Thu, 16 Jun 2011 16:40:31 -0400 From: Johnny Smith Subject: The Birds and the Bees Part 2 Dear Me, A while back I wrote a letter to myself because I had a lot on my mind and I didn't have anyone else to tell. I think it's time to do it again. IF YOU FIND THIS LETTER IT IS PRIVATE!! DO NOT READ! First of all, after last summer I changed a lot. Before the summer I was confused about my sexuality, but after having my first experiences with a guy at camp I knew for sure I was gay. The hard part was going back to school and acting like nothing happened. Over the summer I went to my school's sports camp and since I'm now in the upper school I got put on the JV teams for soccer and tennis. My brother is a jock and I guess they assumed I was too. I'm not bad at sports, I'm kind of in the middle, but since I had nothing else to do, I just threw myself into it. A lot of the boys on my team had been my friends for a long time and I liked to spend time with them. Well I used to. Now I almost never see them after a game or practice. On the first day of school I noticed a new boy in my History class, Keith. The first time I saw him I thought he was cute, but there were lots of cute boys in my class and I didn't think much about it. I had a crush on every boy in my class at least once. But I always just kept it to myself. At a small Christian school new people stand out, so a bunch of us started talking to him. He was shy and didn't open up a lot, but I noticed that whenever a group of us talked to him he liked to look at me. I guess we just had an instant connection. After a while he we started sitting with each other at lunch and I felt like we could talk forever. It was strange because after a while when I would spend time with my team mates or other friends they didn't feel as close any more. They didn't do anything to make me feel this way, it just happened inside of me. It was like Keith was the only other boy I could talk to. Because I was on two teams I didn't have a lot of free time, and because my brother played varsity I was either at practice or a game like 6 days a week. One Saturday night I was free and a bunch of my friends were going to a movie. I asked if we should invite Keith and so we did. In the theater everyone was jockeying for the best seat but I didn't care where I sat so long as it was next to Keith. When the lights went low I scooted over so I was closer to him, but he didn't move. Then I put my arm on the rest right up against his and I thought he would move over, but he just left it there, so we were touching. After a little while I moved my hand so it was down by my side and that's when, in the darkness of the theater, he reached down and wrapped his soft fingers around my hand. The movie was scary, but I know I was grinning ear to ear! I can't describe how happy it made me. I wanted to lean over and kiss him, but I was with my friends and I had to keep my cool. We stayed like that until the lights came up and he took his hand away and it was back to normal again. That night I laid in bed while we texted back in forth, never talking about the hand holding, just the movie and school. What he didn't know is that I when we were texted I was laying naked in bed, imagining him on top of me. At school the next week I could not concentrate at all. In science my teacher asked me a question about plate tectonics and instead of the answer I started to say 'Keith(?)'. I kept thinking about him and what it all meant. I knew that something was happening between us, but I couldn't tell anyone. Then on Friday I asked Keith if he wanted to spend the night. I just needed some alone time with him, so we could talk about what was happening. Practice was short because it was Friday and then my brother drove us home. That night my mom ordered pizza and we played Wii and watched a movie before going to bed. My mom moved us into a shitty apartment after my parents' divorce, so my room is small and there's only room for a single bed. I pulled out the air mattress for Keith but before we inflated it, we just lay on our backs on the floor and listened to music on his iPod. He has a lot of different music that I'd never heard before and we just laid there for a long time with no lights, but the glow of the iPod and the moonlight coming in through the curtains. He had one ear bud in his ear and I had the other. I was staring up at the ceiling when he slid over and started holding my hand again. His hand was warm, and I couldn't stand it for long! I got up so I was on my side and looked down at him and he smiled back at me. Keith's not rough like the boys on my team, or Troy. His skin is soft and white and he has light brown freckles on his nose. His eyes are blue, but his hair is dark and thick and wavy. I've got really curly blond hair with brown eyes, but I think we are a lot alike. I leaned over to him and stroked his arm while he looked back at me. Next I leaned in to kiss him. 'FIREWORKS!' is all I can say. It felt so good to kiss him and for him to kiss me back. We kissed for a long time, still listening to music in the dark. After a while I said we should go to bed and I asked if he wanted to get in my bed with me. He asked what if my mom came in and I said that she never comes in and the door was locked. After that he said ok, so I jumped up, pulled back the covers, stripped down to my briefs and jumped in the bed. I looked at Keith and he looked nervous and he asked if he should put on pajamas. I didn't know what to say because I didn't think people actually wore pajamas. I could tell he wasn't sure what to do so I told him to keep his clothes on and just lay down next to me. He did and we started kissing again, but this time with some tongue and he was getting really into it. It felt weird that I was in my underwear and he was in jeans and a t-shirt, so put my hand under his shirt and lifted it off. He didn't resist at all and he lifted his arms up like a baby while I pulled his shirt over his head. He gave me an embarrassed smirk, but it made him look even cuter. His shoulders had little freckles on them and his chest was slender but had the fine lines of developing muscles. He also had brown hair under his arms which turned me on a lot. I guess that's because I haven't grown any yet. We kissed some more but it wasn't just our lips touching now. With our hands we started to explore each others' bodies. We were on our sides and I held onto his arms and back as the muscles flexed under his skin and he pulled me closer to him. His skin was soft, but there was a force under it that wanted to get out. The sexiest part was when our bare chests and stomachs would rub against each others'. Our lips would break apart and I would kiss his neck and shoulders and chest. He was still wearing his pants and I wanted him to take them off, but I didn't want to send him the wrong signal, that I was ready for sex. After what happened with Troy, I wanted to be sure Keith really cared about me first. I kind of thought Keith would want to take them off himself, but I was learning that he had a lot less experience than me and he was nervous. Finally I said, 'Why don't you take off your jeans, but let's promise not to take off our underwear'. He just shook his head yes and started pulling off his jeans. He had to get up out of bed to get his jeans off his feet. I was lying on my back watching him yank them off when he turned around and laid right on top of me. We were just in our underwear, and when his hard dick landed on mine I couldn't help but moan. I got scared that I woke up my mom, but in a minute I had forgotten all about it and Keith was between my legs, kissing me and grinding his dick against mine. I didn't expect this to happen. We weren't supposed to have sex, we were just supposed to kiss in our underwear. But my body took over. He was on top of me, grinding and breathing so hard, I couldn't help but push back. Our bodies started to sweat under the covers and I held onto his shoulders which were now slick. His hairy legs intertwined with mine and we rubbed them together. I don't know if you can call it sex, what we were doing, but it felt like it. Even with our underwear on. I moved my hands down to his hips and guided him as we rubbed our private parts together. Under the cotton I could feel the shape of his dick and even his balls. We would start by rubbing just the base together, then the whole length, then just the tip. I had never imagined this before and it felt incredible. Finally our dicks (still in out underwear) were laying one right on top of the other. Keith was still on top of me and was thrusting hard and fast, and I could feel this was going to make me cum, but before I could, Keith squeaked, then groaned almost like he gasping for air and I knew he was cumming. His eyes closed tight and his face turned red; watching him cum on top of me made my body start to convulse and push up. I started cumming too, right into my underwear. The wave of electricity lasted a long time and I spaced out for a while. I snapped out of it when I realized my underwear was sopping wet. I didn't care though because Keith was lying on top of me in his wet underwear too. He rolled off of me and we kissed on our sides for a while. It was the need to change underwear that made us get up. We got out of the bed and I went to my dresser and Keith went to his bag. When I dropped my underwear I was covered in cum and it was hard to get it out of my pubic hair. I looked over my shoulder at Keith and I could see he was naked too, but his back was to me and I could only see his white butt and nothing else. We both slipped on some fresh underwear and crawled into my single bed together. We talked for a while and I wanted Keith to talk about what he thought about being gay and what he felt about me, but he just said he didn't know what was going on. I kissed him some more and then we tried to sleep. After he closed his eyes I watched him for a while. We were so close I was breathing in his breath. I looked over his face like a microscope. I wanted to kiss every freckle, every translucent hair on his ears, every cell of his soft skin, everything. The next day Keith's dad came to pick him up and I wanted to kiss him goodbye, but I couldn't. At school we didn't talk much about what happened, but we still spent a lot of time together. He came to some of my soccer practices, and even played in a scrimmage, but he was terrible. He was bad at sports, but he was a very good artist. He always carried a notebook around and would draw things he saw. One time he drew a picture of a girl in my class who is uptight, but the picture showed her revealing her tits in a sexy way, while she still kept the same prudish face. It was like he could see things that were underneath the surface. I could never look at the girl the same way. Another time after he came to practice he showed me a picture of a man he had drawn who was running and I didn't recognize who it was until he said it was me. I guess he saw more than a skinny boy on the soccer field. We started spending the night at each other's houses as much as we could. We switched back and forth between his house and mine. My house is smaller and I don't have a computer or TV in my room, but we had more privacy because my mom and brother were always out. He lived in a big house but he was an only child and his parents were super religious and his mom was always asking me a million questions, like she wanted to make sure I was a good Christian boy. I really don't know what I believe, but it's not what they teach at church. I think Keith had more of a problem with that then me, which made it hard for us. Sometimes he wouldn't want to fool around at all because he felt guilty, but then sometimes he'd get crazy in bed. We always kept our underwear on and sometimes it was nice to just cuddle and kiss. It wasn't all that bad, because after Troy, I wanted to take it slow too. That changed one night at his house. I had picked up a pair of pajamas because his mom thought it was indecent for boys to walk around in their underwear, but once the lights were out and the door was locked the PJ's came off. We were in the bed fooling around when Keith's dick came out of his underwear and I touched it with my hand. It was so hard, but the skin was soft and I couldn't help but hold onto it and stroke it up and down. In return he started rubbing mine and I pulled down my underwear so he could get his hand on it. He grabbed onto my dick and jerked it up and down like he'd never let go. I guess I was like that the first time I touched Troy's dick too. Next thing I knew both of us where naked and kissing in the bed. On top of the sheets our soft faces nestled together exchanging kisses, but under the sheets he was like an animal thrusting his long dick up and down in my hand. It felt amazing to hold him. I felt his coarse hair and his tender balls that were cradled at the base of his cock. His dick was longer than mine, but the big difference was that, although the length of it was slender, the head of his dick was really big, like a nectarine. It wasn't at all like Troy's which was thick from top to bottom. Next I crawled on top of him and held our dicks together while thrusting my hips. After only a few minutes I thought I was going to cum, but I didn't, because Keith pushed me over onto my back. He held me down and started kissing my neck, and then he moved to my chest and kissed and bit on my nipples. It sort of tickled and hurt at the same time. It sent shivers down my back rippled all the way to my ass, causing me to clench up. While he did this, his stomach was pressing against my dick and I couldn't help but push up and rub it against his skin. I tried to sit up, but he pushed me down again. Then he moved down so his face was over my cock and he took me in his mouth. OMG, it was so intense. He covered his teeth and started sucking on the tip. I told him he needed to go up and down the full length and it didn't take long for him to get the hang of it. With his hand he started to squeeze on my balls but he was too rough and I told him to slow down. Then he started feeling me all around between my legs. His hand got close to my butt and I thought he was going to start fingering me, so I lifted my butt up a little bit, but he backed away. It was ok because the BJ was getting really intense. He stopped for a second and told me to say when I was going to cum. It wasn't long after that. I called out really fast, 'I'm cumming!' but I could barely get the words out before the spasm hit and my hips started shooting upwards. He pulled his mouth away and my cum was shooting everywhere. I was exhausted, but I was still really horny. Keith toweled me off and we started making out again. His tongue was in my mouth when I reached over to him and started to squeeze his cock. The sheets and blanket had been thrown to the floor and we were both kneeling on the bare bed when I bent over and put his cock to my mouth for the first time. I started by kissing and licking the shaft. I licked the tip and he winced. I then took the whole thing in my mouth and squeezed the base with my hand. I worked up and down and I could hear Keith's shallow breathing growing more intense. He would shiver and I knew he was sensitive but he was pushing back like he wanted more. I slowly pushed him over so he was on his back and kept sucking on him. I kept thinking about Troy and how he was really aggressive when I did this to him. Keith was timid, almost afraid. I wanted to explore his whole body and I released his dick from my mouth and started kissing and licking his balls. They were soft and didn't have much hair on them. I kissed the inside of his thighs and the soft area that was between his balls and his butt. This whole area had a thin layer of his dark brown hair and it stood out against his pale white skin. I had the craziest impulse that I wanted to lick his butt too, but I thought it was too much too fast. I went back to his dick and put it in my mouth again and he gasped. I used my hand and mouth started working him up and down. He called out that he was going to cum and I thought maybe I should move, maybe he thought it was gross for me to want his cum in my mouth, but I thought 'I don't care' I wanted to taste it. I kept my mouth on him while he shot his cum into my mouth and when my mouth was full I swallowed. He looked up at me and asked if I swallowed it and I just nodded yes. I crawled up to him and went to kiss him, but he hesitated, I guess because of the cum, but then he started kissing me back. I think he liked knowing I had swallowed his cum. Afterwards I laid on top of him, our naked bodies touching top to bottom. We were both still hard and horny and I couldn?t help but move my hips up and back. My legs fell to his sides and before I knew it I was straddling him. This made me feel so I open, I was having the overwhelming sensation that I wanted Keith inside me. I kept moving my hips and then reached down and pulled his dick up so it was straight up behind me and leaning against my crack. I rubbed my butt up and down against his cock. On the upswing his huge cockhead would press right against my ass opening and I wanted him to take charge and fuck me so bad, but Keith was afraid. I leaned over to his ear and whispered, 'Let's do it' and he just shook his head up and down. I stuck my finger in his mouth and he started sucking like nobody's business. I told him to get it really wet. After my finger was wet with his spit I reached behind myself and rubbed it around my ass. Next Keith stuck his finger in my mouth and after I sucked on and wet his finger he reached around and started playing with my ass. His finger slid in pretty easily and it felt so good. He pulled his finger out and brought it around and stuck it back in my mouth. I sucked and wet it again for another application of spit. He fingered me some more, a little deeper this time, but it was hard to reach around me. That's when I got up and turned around so we were 69, with me on top and Keith on his back. I wanted to get his dick good and wet so we could have sex. I went down on him slowly, covering his whole dick with my spit. Keith sucked on me a little bit, but he was really into getting my ass really wet with his fingers. He?d spit on them and then work it into my opening. I could have stayed there all night, just having his fingers work in and out of me, but I was also getting desperate to have his dick in me. I got up and turned around again, so we were looking eye to eye, and grabbed his spit covered dick and lined it up to my spit covered ass. I lowered onto it and at first I thought it wouldn't go in. I remembered Troy and how much it hurt but I really wanted it. Next thing I knew there was this burning sensation as Keith big cock head pushed inside me. I had to take a breather and get used to the feeling, but then I started lowering again. I could feel his cock inch its way deeper and deeper into me. Finally it stopped hurting and I was overcome with a wave of ecstasy looking down and Keith and knowing he was in me. He started pushing up, getting his cock even deeper into me. I started moving up and down too and next thing I knew we were moving in synch. My ass relaxed and I could move freely, lifting up all the way to where it felt like he might pop out of me and then all the way down so I could feel his pubes against me. I loved this part and I would rub my butt against him when he was entirely inside me. We did this for a while, pretty slowly for the most part, until Keith sat up and without taking his dick out of me, pushed me over. I was on my back now and he was on top of me. This is what I was waiting for, for Keith to take charge. I wrapped my legs around him and he started thrusting in and out of me. I held onto his bare butt cheeks as I could feel his big cock head sliding deeper into me, only to pull out and then thrust in again. He started moving faster and the force of his body against mine made me helpless but also incredibly hot. We were both pouring sweat and Keith was biting his lip as he fucked me. I reached down between my legs and felt the shaft of his dick as it was working me. I wanted him to cum inside me and I told him so. He picked up the pace and fucked me with all his might. His sweaty stomach was rubbing against my cock and I thought it was going to make me cum any minute, but I was trying to hold off so we could cum together. A few minutes later Keith started panting and started mumbling about cumming and then he pushed all the way into me, grinding his balls against my bare ass. As soon as I knew he was cumming I started to blast off and covered our stomachs with my stuff. My ass spasmed and clenched down on his dick as he filled me up with his sticky cum. I wanted all of him inside me and made my ass really tight around him. We laid in a heap for a while. His dick finally started to go soft and slipped out of me. We made out for a while and then cleaned up and put the sheets and blankets back in the bed. I wanted to take a shower, but he was afraid of waking up his parents, so we just slept with crusty bits of cum on our skin. That night we were too tired to talk much, but I told Keith I loved him and he told me he loved me too. We decided we would keep out relationship secret for now. We'd probably get kicked out of school if anyone knew. But at least we had each other. After the first time we had sex, it was hard not to every time we had a sleepover. I bought some lube from the pharmacy which made it really easy. As we got more comfortable with each others' bodies, we experimented with different positions. Sometimes would just give each other blow jobs. When we had sex though Keith would always be the 'top' and he started to take more control. I liked when he would do me from behind and I was on my knees or on my stomach, but my favorite was always face to face with me on my back. This way we could make out and I could look into his beautiful blue eyes. It stayed this way for a while, but eventually changed. One weekend Keith's parents were going out of town and he was going to stay at home. They said I could stay over too, I guess because I had stayed at his house probably 2 dozen times that year and it was perfectly normal. On Saturday I came over and Keith said he wanted to try a drink. His parents didn't have alcohol in the house, but he had taken some vodka from his Grandparents. I've tried a little bit of alcohol, but not much. Keith mixed the vodka with orange juice and we sat on his back porch drinking and listening to music. I had two drinks and I thought I was fine until I stood up. I almost fell over. It made me feel really warm, but also really horny. I looked over at Keith and I knew from his devilish grin that he was horny too. We went inside, but rather then go to his bedroom we went to the kitchen. He went to the counter and started making us another drink and I came up behind him and wrapped my hands around him and started kissing his neck. I reached my hand down the front of his pants past his pubic hair and onto his cock. A minute later we had our tongues in each others' mouths and he was hard. Something about the vodka made me super horny and I jerked Keith's shorts down. He turned around so we were facing each other and I got right onto my knees and started sucking him off. I started sucking him really hard and holding and squeezing his balls, but something to do with the alcohol, I wanted more of him. I took his hand and put it on my head. He kind of left it there; I don't think he knew what to do, so I told him, 'pull it'. He grabbed a chunk of my hair and pulled my face against him. His cock hit the back of my throat and I gagged, but I wanted it. Keith finally figured out what I was feeling and grabbed more hair with his other hand and started fucking my face. I could barely breathe, but it was making me so hot. I could feel my own dick was rock hard in my pants and fighting to get out. With my hands I held onto his hard ass as it bounced back and forth toward my mouth. We broke free so I could catch my breath, but I went straight for his balls taking one in my mouth and then another one. He was standing over me and I was on my knees and it reminded of me of how Troy dominated me, just with his presence. I lifted up his balls and licked the hairy area underneath, working my way closer to his ass. I backed off his nuts and turned him around. I was level with his butt and it was so hot. I kissed each one of his cheeks. He didn't have any hair on the outside, but when I spread them apart some of his dark hair made a swirl right over his pink little ass. I went straight to it and started licking the insides of his butt. He jumped at first, but then started pushing his ass back against my face. I used my tongue to trace a line that started at where his balls were hanging down up and ending right in the center of his tight hole. My nose was buried in his ass and it had a dark, musky scent, not at all bad, but intoxicating. I stood up and Keith still had his pants down and ass out in front of me. He looked back with his freckles and blue eyes and barely uttered, 'fuck me'. In all the years of jerking off and in my experience with sex I'd had I never thought about me being the 'top'. But he was just so beautiful underneath me and so exposed with his wet ass sticking out I was overcome with the desire to fuck him. I pulled my pants off as fast as I could and before I knew it, I was naked and my dick was pointing at the ceiling. Keith was bent over the counter and his legs were spread wide open. I knelt down and started licking his ass again making sure to get it really wet. I wet a finger and pressed it against his tight hole. Keith was pushing back and I knew he wanted it, so I slid it in. His ass was tight around my finger and Keith groaned, but I could tell he was enjoying it. I worked the one finger for a little then slid in two. I swirled them around so it would stretch him out. I knew it would hurt him the first time we did it and I wanted him ready. Finally I stood up and dropped a ball of split on my dick and worked it up and down. My dick had already leaked a ton of precum which helped. I lined up my cock to his hole and slowly pressed my dick against it. My body wanted to slam it in SO BAD, but I was trying to resist for Keith's sake. I kissed Keith's shoulder and he turned his face to me and we kissed a little before I started pushing into him again. He groaned as I pushed but he didn't stop me. The head of my dick popped in in one motion. His butt was clamped down on me and it felt incredible. I thought I might cum right away. I was fighting with my body trying to take it slow. I asked Keith if he was ok and he nodded yes so I pushed in some more. Before I knew it the tight ring of Keith's ass was around the base of my cock and I was all the way in him. We stayed like that until Keith started moving back and forth. It must not have hurt him too bad, because he really wanted it. I didn't actually move all that much, even though I was behind him, he was riding me. I wanted to push back, but as soon as I did I thought I was going to cum. I didn't want it to happen too fast. Finally Keith said, 'cum in me' and I started moving my hips and it only took about 20 seconds before I started exploding inside of him. I was holding onto his hips and he was saying, 'yes' 'yes' and jerking himself and then I felt his ass tighten around my cock. Keith shot his cum a few second later all over the kitchen cabinets and the floor. My dick was still hard and I felt like I could do it again, but I could tell Keith was exhausted so I pulled it out. We put our pants back on and Keith went back to making vodka and orange juice like nothing happened. We didn't drink any more though. We had a laugh about what happened and made out a little bit more. Later that night we put in a movie but only got about half way through it before we started fooling around in the den and Keith ended up fucking me in a chair. Then the next day we were sleeping in and I fucked him in the bed. Sex was completely different now that we could take turns and I loved it and him even more. So that was my school year last year. Keith and I want to be transferred to the public school so we don't have to keep everything secret, but neither of our parents wants to do it. We've talked about coming out to our parents too, but it would be tough. I guess we're going to take it day by day. Sincerely, Me