Date: Thu, 12 Nov 1998 02:07:37 EST From: MindPieces Subject: Afflecktion- Parts 3 & 4 Okay everyone, here is what some of you have been awaiting, the next couple parts of Afflecktion. I'd once again like to thank everyone for their comments and encouragement, and remind you to keep me updated on your thoughts by e-mailing me at MindPieces . Remember, this is complete fiction...but a guy can fantasize right? Afflecktion- Part 3 By MindPieces Matt's words hit me like a speeding train, leaving me sitting in front of him speechless and dumbfounded. I wasn't sure what was going on. Why would Ben lie to me? Or maybe he had told the truth, and Matt was lying to me just to create tension between Ben and I. Neither of my theories seemed to hold much water, and each of them must have run through my head in a split second as I sat there. Finally I managed to form a complete sentence. "No, he didn't tell me." I tried to act cool, like what he had said was no big deal. "Oh, I guess I figured he would have." Matt took a sip from his drink. "Did he mention anything about me?" "Well he told me that you're straight," I said, looking into Matt's eyes to glimpse his reaction. "Straight?" Matt let out a small laugh. "Ben certainly knows better than that." "So ummm...how long were you guys...you know, together?" I finally decided to let my curiosity get the best of me. "For about a year or so. I'd known Ben was gay for years, but I never really told him I was until we were in the middle of making Good Will Hunting. We were together from then until a couple weeks before the Oscars, and now we're just best friends, which is how we started out anyway." "And what about Casey?" I asked, trying to see how far Ben's lies had gone. "Is he straight?" "Oh yeah," Matt quickly replied. "Casey is as straight as they come. Just look at him out there on the dance floor with that girl." The confusion was really starting to get to me by that time. All I could think about was getting out of that place, and then maybe going and talking to Ben. As much as I wanted to know the truth about this situation, I didn't really know if I wanted to face him. I didn't even know if I'd be able to look him straight in the eye. I figured I might as well see what answers I could get from Matt, even though I couldn't be sure if he was giving me the whole truth either. "So what was it?" I asked, coming out of my own thoughts for a moment. "What was what?" Matt shifted in his chair, taking another sip of his drink. "If you weren't being an asshole to me because you were jealous, then what was it?" "Oh...well I mean think about it David. Try to put yourself in my shoes for a minute. Ben has never brought a guy home after one night like that. And to be honest, it scared me. All three of us are in the public eye, and if Ben's secret ever got out, or mine for that matter, we'd most likely be ruined. So the truth is that I didn't trust you. It wasn't personal, it was just a natural reaction." "So what makes you trust me now?" I asked, taking in Matt's words slowly. "Why are you telling me all of this?" "It was mainly what you said on the ride over here. The way you were telling Casey about how you and Ben met...I could *hear* it in your voice David. I could tell that how you feel about Ben is real, and that you're not just in this for a quick one night stand that you'll sell to the tabloids in the morning. So I'm putting my faith in you." I kept watching the way Matt was moving as he spoke...shifting in his chair, moving his hands. I was trying to figure out if he was being sincere, and from his movements, as well as the tone of his voice, I could tell that he was. So that meant it was Ben that had lied to me. Now all I wanted to know was why. "Listen Matt, could you take me back to your place? I'm not feeling so well." It was a good excuse, and not a complete lie either. "Are you okay?" Matt asked, looking concerned. "I'll be fine. I just need some sleep I think." "Okay, no problem. Just let me go pull Casey off the dance floor." It took about ten minutes to get Casey away from his girl and for all of us to get back to the car. I sat in the back seat, not saying a word during the entire ride. I was praying I wouldn't have to talk to Ben tonight...I just wasn't up for it and my thoughts weren't in order. I got a little nervous when we finally got back to the beach house and I saw Ben's jeep parked in the driveway. I half expected to see him waiting up for us when we walked through the front door, but all the lights were off and his bedroom door was closed. He had probably been exhausted from working all evening. I said goodnight to Matt and Casey as they walked to their rooms, then I curled up on the couch, grabbing a blanket. It was only a matter of minutes before my worries left my head and my eyes closed...I was asleep in no time. I awoke almost nine hours later, to a kiss on the cheek and a hand running through my hair. I opened my eyes and saw Ben, sitting on the floor in front of the couch, looking at me with some sort of concern in his eyes. As my mind cleared I finally remembered all the events of the past night, and my thoughts were flooded again with questions. I guess this was as good a time as any to get the answers. "Are you okay?" Ben asked as I sat up on the couch. "Matt said you weren't feeling good last night...and then when I woke up and you weren't there...I worried." "I'm not sure how I feel just yet." I kept my head down, not able to look at those beautiful eyes of his. I knew I'd melt in an instant. "Well what is it? The flu or something?" Ben sat next to me on the couch, trying to catch my eye. "What's wrong David?" "Why did you lie to me?" I turned and let my eyes meet Ben's. "Lie to you?" He asked, sounding sincerely shocked. "About what?" "About everything. About not having any serious relationships over the past couple years, about Matt...do you care to explain that to me?" "Oh my God, Matt told you?" "Yep, I guess the secret's out huh?" "David, please listen to me. I can explain that." Ben took my hand in his, holding it tight as he sat next to me. As much as I wanted to pull away...as much as I wanted to be angry...I just couldn't get the energy. "Was it because you don't trust me Ben? That you thought I'd run off and sell your story to Hard Copy or something? Because if you don't trust me, this is never going to work." "No no no, it's not that at all. Just calm down and let me explain. Please?" I nodded my head and stopped my protesting, allowing Ben to continue. "The reason I didn't tell you about Matt wasn't because I don't trust you. You have to realize that if I didn't trust you, none of this would have happened. That night on the beach David...I can't afford to let something like that happen with somebody that I don't have faith in. I've known since I first saw you that you weren't going to jeopardize my career or stab me in the back...you just have this sweetness about you, I knew you weren't like that." "Then why did you lie to me?" I asked, slowly starting to feel better as Ben went on with his explanation. "The reason I didn't tell you is because I didn't think it was my place to tell you. It's not like it was just my relationship...Matt was involved too. I didn't know if what we had together is something he would want me talking about, and I didn't want to disrespect him. Does that make any sense?" "I guess so. So you mean if I was going to find out, you'd rather him tell me himself?" "Right, that way I'd know that he wanted you to know. It surprises me that he told you though...first he's being a jerk to you all day, then at night he's telling you his deepest secrets. I told you you'd win him over." Ben smiled at me, and I couldn't help but smile back. "So now you and Matt are just friends...right?" I squeezed Ben's hand, hoping his answer would bring this entire misunderstanding to a close. "Yes, I swear to you we're just friends. What we had together was special, but we figured out that it just wasn't meant to be...not like that. I do think we're better friends now than we ever were though, so I don't regret anything." "I understand that. I just completely freaked out last night, trying to figure out why you didn't tell me the entire story." "Well let's make a pact then. From this point on, total and complete honesty okay?" "Deal." I shook Ben's hand, confirming our idea, and then I wrapped my arms around him, resting my head on his shoulder. "Complete honesty right?" "Right." Ben wrapped his arms around my back, rubbing my shoulders. "Then I think I have something to tell you." "What is it?" "I'm a woman." I pulled away from Ben, looking him in the eyes. I busted up laughing. "Now I KNOW that's not true! I have proof!" We both started laughing and just couldn't seem to stop for about the next three minutes or so...we were almost in tears. It was just what was needed to take the tension out of the room. "Seriously though," I said after I composed myself. "There's something I want you to know." "Okay, you can tell me David." "You remember the other day in the shower?" "I remember that vividly," Ben replied, an evil little grin forming on his face. "You remember how you asked if you could go inside me?" "Yeah...but we got interrupted right after that." "Right. Well I thought that was a really hot idea, but it scared me a little bit." "It scared you? Why?" I watched as Ben's eyes turned to that concerned look of his...I swear he looked just like a puppy when he did that. "Because nobody's ever done that before." It seemed to take Ben a second to process what I said, but then I could finally see it click. "Oh...you mean you've never...never had a guy in you?" "Right...it's not that I haven't wanted to. Nothing turns me on more than that thought...it's just that it's so important to me that I didn't want to screw it up. So I've been waiting for the right person." I watched Ben's face and eyes intently as my hand held his, hoping he could understand how much this meant to me. "I understand that completely, and I respect it too. It's not something I want you to worry about. I know this entire thing with us seems to be moving at light speed, but that's mainly because it feels so right. So you just take your time...let me know when THAT feels right. Deal?" "You really mean that? I thought you'd think it was stupid or something." "Not at all...you have to remember that I'm not like every other guy you've known. I see nothing stupid in saving yourself for the right person...it's sweet actually." "Damn Ben, I swear you're too perfect. I keep waiting for your flaws to show up, and they just don't seem to." "I've been thinking the same thing about you." Ben leaned over and pressed his lips against mine, kissing me tenderly and wrapping his arms around me again. "You know I did have some other news for you, before all of this came up." "What is it? Good news I hope." "Well, I think I landed you a job." "A job?? Doing what?" "Acting in the movie with me...what do you think?" I was completely shocked, and at first I thought he must have been joking. But I could hear the sincerity in his voice. "Acting? Who said I can act?" "Listen, I thought it'd be a good opportunity. I know how much you love movies, you told me that the first night we met. The guy who was playing the suspect in the movie dropped out, so I talked to the director and I recommended you. It's a small role, but it's still a pretty juicy one." "But the director hates me...and my acting resume ends with a couple plays I did in high school." "I talked him into it, he doesn't hate you. And I know you can do this David...I see it in you. I think you have the talent. Just give it a try..audition and see what happens." As crazy as the idea sounded, it was pretty amazing. An actual chance to be IN a movie, not just some guy who's in the background for two seconds. And to be in a movie with Ben, that was an even better opportunity. "I bet you already set up a time for the audition right?" A smile formed on my face...I knew Ben like the back of my hand. "Well yeah, it's tomorrow afternoon. And I practically had to sleep with the director to get him to consider you, so pleeeeeeease do this for me." Ben got off the couch and down on his knees in front of me, holding both of my hands in his. "Sleep with him huh?" I laughed. "Isn't he about fifty years old, married with kids?" I just couldn't wipe the smile off my face...I loved watching Ben beg. "Come on David, tell me you'll do this." "I'll do it...but you do remember that I'm only in town for about 2 more weeks right?" "I know, and you'll be done shooting in 2 weeks, I promise." I could see a glimpse of sadness come over Ben's face after he said this. As much as neither of us wanted to bring it up, two more weeks is what we had. "Okay, I'll go there tomorrow and give it a shot. But if I suck, don't say I didn't warn you." "Thank you, you're the best." He leaned forward, giving me a quick kiss on the lips. "But if I'm going to do this for you, there's something I want you to do for me." "Is it sexual in nature?" Ben asked, smiling. "You want me to be your slave?" "That's actually not a bad idea, but not quite what I had in mind. I want you to meet Jeff and Rick today...I need to go get my stuff if I'm going to be staying here, and I know they'd die if you came over there with me." "Okay, I can make that appearance. Are they nearly as hot as you are?" Ben asked jokingly. "Yeah, but they're straight, so hands off." "Okay okay, I'll look but won't touch. I better go hop in the shower and get dressed so we can go...care to join me?" Ben got to his feet, taking my hand and trying to pull me up with him. "Actually there's a phone call I have to make, plus I want to get over there sometime today, which you know won't happen if we get in there together." It was hard for me to resist the temptation, but I knew it had to be done. "Okay that's fine...the least you could do is kiss me goodbye though." I got to my feet and put my hand on the back of Ben's head, pulling him close to me. Our lips met and we began to kiss passionately...our mouths opening and our tongues meeting moments later. It took us about thirty seconds before we pulled away. "How was that?" I asked, smiling. "Oh you're such a tease." Ben smiled and walked into the bathroom, leaving the door open as he turned on the shower and hopped in. I walked over to the phone and picked up the receiver, finally getting ready to make a call that I should have made days ago. My best friend back in Vegas was a girl named Mariette, who I had known since about eighth grade. We had become really good friends during our freshman year of high school, and by our junior year she became the very first person I ever told I was gay. Luckily for me, she had been unbelievably supportive after I came out to her. Now, about 3 years later, we had your typical "Will and Grace", "My Best Friend's Wedding", gay man- straight woman relationship. I knew she'd have a coronary when she heard about Ben, and I was dying to hear her reaction. I dialed her number, and listened to about five rings before she answered. "Hello." "Hey girl, what's up?" I took a seat on the couch, getting comfortable. "Oh hey there California boy. How's the trip going?" "It's going great, I'm having a gay old time out here." "Yeah, don't you always? How are Jeff and Rick doing?" Mariette asked, since she had also known them back in our high school days. "They're just peachy. How's everything in your world?" "Pretty dull...basically just working, you know the routine. You all ready for school to start in a couple weeks?" There was that reminder again. "As ready as I'll ever be I suppose...but I can't say I'm looking forward to it. I do have some better news for you though." "What is it? Did you land some hot, California surfer boy?" "Not exactly," I laughed. "But I landed a part in a movie." "No shit?? Like a real part, or are you an extra?" "Well it's a real part...and it's not a total lock yet, I still have to audition tomorrow. But I have connections, so I should do fine." "Connections? Where'd you find connections?" Mariette was sounding a bit confused. "Oh, my boyfriend helped me out." There went one of the bombshells...now I just had to stand back and wait for her explosion. "Your BOYFRIEND?? No way, are you serious?" "Yes! Is it that inconceivable that I'd find a boyfriend?" I was trying to hold back my laughter. "Well not exactly...but you've never really had anyone serious before. What's his name?" "It's someone you kind of know actually...you've seen him before." I loved to drive her crazy. "Someone I've met? You know I hate guessing games, just tell me already." "Well no you haven't met him, but you've seen him." "Just TELL ME! Don't make me fly out there and strangle you." "Okay, it's Ben Affleck," I said nonchalantly. "Right, and I'm dating Brad Pitt. Now who is it?" "I just told you, it's Ben." I managed to get that sentence out sounding completely serious. "Come on, stop screwing around! You know you're driving me nuts here." "I just told you who it is, I can't help it if you don't believe me." "So it's Ben huh?" Mariette still sounded completely unconvinced, but she was willing to go along with my story. "So prove it, put him on the phone." "I can't, he's in the shower right now." "Ohhhh of course. Are you hanging out with Matt too?" "Actually I think he's at work, I haven't seen him this morning." "Well isn't that convenient! Now tell me who it is!" I could tell she was ready to go postal any second. "Hang on a sec, I just heard the shower shut off." I set the phone down and walked into the bathroom, where I found Ben standing naked, drying off. "Oh so you finally decided to join me?" Ben walked up to me, dropping his towel and wrapping his arms around me. His naked crotch was pressing right against my jeans. "I have a friend of mine on the phone, her name's Mariette. She's my best friend back in Vegas and she wants to say hi to you." "Sounds like fun to me," Ben said, bending over to grab his towel. I gave him a quick smack on the ass. "Watch out where you bend over around here." I smiled. Ben picked up his towel and wrapped it around his waist, following me out of the bathroom. I handed him the phone...I couldn't wait for this one. He must have talked to her for at least five minutes, though I think most of it was spent with him attempting to convince her that he was telling the truth. She finally must have bought it, cause I heard some sort of weird scream coming from the phone just as Ben handed it back to me. "Oh my God David, it's really HIM!!!" I couldn't help but bust up laughing at Mariette's obvious statement, which then in turn sent Ben laughing too. "Yeah I know, that's what I told you." "I want to know all the details! How you met and everything. Have you met Matt too?" "Yeah, he lives here with Ben." "NO WAY!! Do not fuck this up David...this one's a keeper right?" "Yeah." I looked at Ben. "The first one I've ever found." I talked to Mariette for about another ten minutes, while Ben got dressed so we could head to Jeff and Rick's. She eventually stopped screaming in my ear long enough so I could tell her how we had met, which made her laugh. It was just like me to literally *throw* myself in front of a guy to get his attention. After hanging up with Mariette, I hopped in the shower and got ready to go. I was kind of nervous thinking about actually introducing Ben to two of my best friends, just because their opinions were so important to me. All I could do was hope that they'd see in him a little bit of the beauty and passion that I had fallen hard for over the past few days. We left in the middle of the afternoon, around three or so, and took Ben's jeep on the forty minute journey to Jeff and Rick's. I couldn't even tell if he was nervous...he always seemed to have a laid back, not a worry in the world attitude about him, which was really one of his best qualities. Once we pulled up in the driveway of their place, I figured it was time to ask him. "So how are you feeling? You nervous?" I placed my hand over Ben's as we sat there outside the house. "A little bit, but this should be fun. You've known these guys a long time right?" "Yeah, since high school. They're like my brothers practically." "Okay...and they're expecting us?" "Well no," I laughed. "A good surprise never hurt right?" We hopped out of the jeep and walked up to the front door, where I proceeded to ring the bell. I gave Ben a little "here we go" kind of glance, and a moment later Jeff opened the door. Ben was standing off to the side a little bit, and at first he didn't even notice him. "David! Long time no see bud," Jeff said as he waved for me to come inside. "What a nice surprise." "I have another one for you too." I grabbed Ben's arm and pulled him into Jeff's eyeline. "Hi...it's nice to meet you," Ben stated, holding out his hand so Jeff could shake it. "Jesus!" I could see the shock go over Jeff's face almost immediately...I was really getting a kick out of this. "No, not Jesus...I'm Ben." I saw Ben crack that famous smile after he said that...that smile would melt any man, gay or straight. "Right, it's nice to meet you," Jeff said as he composed himself. "I'm Jeff, one of David's best friends." I watched as they shook hands, then the three of us went inside to make ourselves at home. It was a few minutes later before Rick came out and gave almost the exact same reaction that Jeff had, but about fifteen minutes after that they both lightened up and got more comfortable. There was something about Ben that just seemed to put people at ease...a very unintimidating, human like quality about him that one doesn't expect to find among movie stars. We ended up sitting around the kitchen table for hours, talking about everything under the sun, and downing plenty of beers in between. If there was one thing I knew for sure about Jeff and Rick, it was that their fridge would always be stocked with enough Heinekens to prepare for a nuclear apocalypse. I told my friends all about what had happened since I got kicked off the movie set the other day...going out with Ben, my upcoming movie audition ... though there were a few moments that I made sure to edit. Once I got a few beers in me I started getting goofy, which is what always happens when I get drunk. It wasn't along before everything seemed funny, especially when Jeff and Rick retold the story about how they had watched me lunge myself in front of Ben. "Well hey, at least it worked," Ben stated as he wrapped his arm around my shoulders, pulling me close to him. "I have a question for you," Rick said, averting his eyes to the man next to me. "Go for it," Ben replied. "Well every magazine I look in...US, Entertainment Weekly, you name it...has you hooked up with Gwyneth Paltrow. You two are like the cute couple of the year, and now you're starring in a movie together...I just don't get it." I wanted to tell Rick it was an inappropriate question, but now that he brought it up, it was something I wanted to know the answer to. I looked at Ben, who seemed a little taken aback by the question, but willing to answer anyway. "Well me and Gwyneth are NOT dating, I can tell you that right off the bat. Being in this business, it's tough to live the kind of lifestyle that I want to live, so Gwyneth helps me with that. She's one of my best friends, and she's nice enough to attend certain events with me...the press just assumes she's my girlfriend. It's the same way with Matt and Winona Ryder." "So it's a cover up?" Jeff asked. "Jeff..." I gave him a tone that let him know I didn't approve of the question. "I prefer to think of it as a friend helping a friend protect his career...but you can call it what you will." After the tension of that subject lifted, we broke out a deck of cards and played a few games of blackjack. Ben suggested strip blackjack, which I was all for since I was already drunk off my ass, but Jeff and Rick just laughed it off. We ended up playing cards late into the evening, and the boys invited us to stay over, since neither of us were really fit to drive home. Ben and I stumbled into the guest room, which is where I had been staying before, and collapsed on the bed together. I was out like a light in five minutes. I woke up the next morning, wrapped in Ben's arms with the sun cascading through the window down upon us. It was a feeling I was getting quite accustomed to. I turned over to find Ben half asleep, so I shook him a bit to bring him to reality. "Hey, what time is it babe?" I asked as I nuzzled my head against Ben's chest. "Ohhh...I don't even want to look at the clock." Ben's arm squeezed tight against me as he closed his eyes again. I lifted up my head, looking at the clock by the side of the bed. It was about ten minutes after noon. "What time is that audition today?" "Mmmmm...one o'clock...why?" "Shit Ben, get out of bed," I said as I threw back the covers and jumped to my feet. "We're going to be late." Ben took a quick glance over at the clock, then sat straight up. "Oh shit. You go get in the shower, I'll get your suitcase with all your clothes in it, and I'll pick out a good outfit for you to wear. If we leave by 12:30 I think we can make it." With Ben's orders I ran from the guest room, completely naked, out into the hallway and to the bathroom. I almost ran right into Rick, who said good morning like my being naked and sprinting across the house was nothing unusual. I closed the bathroom door quickly, and jumped in the shower, washing myself faster than I ever had in my life. It only took about five minutes before I got out, then I wrapped a towel around me and ran back to my room, where Ben was dressed and had a pretty fancy outfit laid out for me on the bed. "Are you going to take a shower?" I asked as I dropped the towel and slipped on a pair of boxers. "I'll get one after I drop you off and go back to the beach house...until then you'll have to live with me being smelly." Ben laughed. "I love the way you smell, smelly or not." I gave Ben a quick kiss on the lips, then threw my pants and shirt on. I ran back into the bathroom and did my hair, brushed my teeth, and all of that good stuff. In another five minutes I was completely ready to go, and Ben had taken care of grabbing all of my stuff from the guest room, which is what we had showed up for in the first place. We quickly made our way to the front door, where Jeff and Rick were waiting. "What's the big rush you guys?" Rick asked as we walked up to him. "That audition is in about a half an hour...we're running late," I replied. "Oh right...good luck on that David. Make sure to call us and tell us how it goes." "I definitely will, I love you guys." I gave both Jeff and Rick a quick hug, before picking up my suitcase and opening the front door. "It was nice to meet both of you," Ben said, shaking their hands. "You're everything David told me you'd be, and then some." Once we got in the jeep I held on for dear life, since we had about thirty-five minutes to make it across town. Ben was driving about twice the legal speed limit, and we arrived at the building with about five minutes to spare. I stepped out of the jeep and closed the door behind me. "I'll have a driver pick you up when you're done, because I'll probably be on the set doing some work. But I'll see you at home tonight." "Okay...do I look okay? I'm really nervous." "You look beautiful. Just go in there, the third room on your left, and they'll tell you what to do. You can do this David, I believe in you." I gave Ben's hand a quick squeeze just as I was about ready to turn and make my march into the building. I wanted to give him a kiss goodbye, but I knew it wasn't a wise idea out in public like this. "Thanks Ben...I'll see you tonight." With that I squeezed his hand one more time, turned, and prepared to feed myself to the studio alligators. Ben drove off once I walked into the large building and the door closed behind me. The large lobby was completely empty, so I went ahead and walked to the third door on the left. There was a small window in the door that I peeked my head into, and in the room I saw three men sitting at a large table. One of them was the same director that had kicked me off the set just a few days earlier. "Hi...I'm David Preston," I said after I opened the door and had one foot in the door. I was hoping they'd immediately know who I was...I really felt out of my league in a place like this. "Oh yes, we've been expecting you," the director said as he approached me and shook my hand. "My name is Anthony Weaver, I'm the film director. These are two of my producers, George Paxton and Jonathan Hyde." "We've heard quite a bit about you David," George said as I walked over to him and shook his hand. I also noticed that Anthony was treating me like the incident the other day had never occurred...whatever Ben had said to him, it worked. The first thing the men handed me was a script, in which all of my lines or scenes were highlighted. I read through it a little bit, and while it wasn't a huge part, I did notice that there were quite a few scenes that would require incredible acting ability. It wasn't something I thought I had...it wasn't even something I had tried to look for in myself before. But these three seemed determined to bring it out in me. The audition went on for what seemed to me like an eternity, not only because of the amount of time spent, but because of the fact that I was feeling incredibly lonely without Ben around. It took about an hour just for me to read over the script and get some sense of relaxation in front of a room of complete strangers. The following three hours were spent with me doing a variety of different scenes, with Anthony and the two producers acting out the other parts. I put everything I could into it, but there was no way for me to know how I was doing. Even with the small breaks I got in between the intense moments of the script, I was still exhausted by the time the men finally told me I was done. Once I was told I was excused, I took the script and was quickly ushered out of the room while the three head honchos stayed in there. This was it? Four hours of auditioning, acting, pouring my heart out to these guys...and they just push me out the door without telling me ANYTHING? I lost the part, I knew it right there. And I could just see the look Ben would give me when I told him...he'd try to hide the disappointment in his face, but I knew I'd see straight to the heart of it. Afflecktion- Part 4 The driver came and picked me up about ten minutes later, and I watched the sun set as I rode in the back of the limo. I knew Ben would be out working late, and I was hoping Matt and Casey wouldn't want to probe me with questions about my failed acting stint. I was relieved when we finally arrived at the house and I saw most of the lights off inside...I was home at last. I walked up to the front door, and finding it unlocked, opened it and walked in. I was ready to immediately head to the bedroom, curl up, and sleep the rest of the evening away...but to my amazement, there was Ben...in the kitchen, cooking of all things. "What are you doing home?" I asked as I closed the door behind me and collapsed on the couch. "I wanted to surprise you. I got Matt and Casey out of the house for the night...you like what I've done with the place?" I looked around and saw that there were candles lit all around the room, and no lights on except the one in the kitchen so Ben could see to cook. It was a wonderfully romantic mood, but after the four hours of hell I had gone through I didn't know what to say. "What's all this for?" I asked as I kicked my shoes off and relaxed a little more. "To celebrate silly, what do you think? I wanted to make your favorite food, but then I realized that I don't know what that is, so I decided on fettucciniI alfredo. Is that okay?" "That is my favorite food actually...but Ben, I have to tell you something." "What is it?" He immediately dropped his spatula and came walking over, sitting right next to me on the couch. "It was sweet of you to do this, but I don't think there's anything to cele-" "Hold that thought," Ben interrupted. Before I could say anything he pressed his lips deeply against mine, kissing me passionately and sweetly. I opened my mouth slightly and felt his tongue enter me, probing my own. Then he pulled away. "I got a phone call tonight, just as I knew I would. It was from Anthony...you got the part David!" The news hit me like a bullet, leaving me speechless for a moment. All I could do is sit and stare at Ben. "What?" "You got the part!" I could tell that Ben was excited enough to start jumping up and down. "I got the part?" I asked calmly. "Yes! He called like twenty minutes ago with the news...I had come home and prepared the candles and started cooking anyway...I knew you could do it." "I got the part!! I got the part!!" Suddenly the excitement overtook me and I lunged on Ben, tackling him right there on the couch. We both started screaming like a couple of high school kids that had just won some radio station contest, and after that our screams of excitement turned into laughter. I leaned down and gave Ben a deep kiss on the lips. "I can't believe this!" I said as I laid right on top of him, running my hands through his hair and looking into those brown, doe like eyes. "I really thought I blew it." "Well I never had any doubt. You should listen to me more often." "I will...and I do love what you've done with the place. Nothing but the candlelight and the moonlight shining through the window...I'm a sucker for romance." "Just wait til you taste dessert," Ben said as he crawled out from under me and went to attend to the food in the kitchen. "And what, Mr. Wolfgang Puck, is for dessert?" I got up off the couch and walked over to Ben, coming up behind him and wrapping my arms around his waist as I nuzzled my head into his back. "Me...and it's all you can eat." That sent me into another fit of laughter as I started kissing the back of Ben's neck. "Can I have dessert before dinner?" "No no, we're going to do this right." About ten minutes later, Ben and I were sitting across from each other at the table eating a perfect dinner. He had shut the kitchen light off, leaving us basking in nothing but the warm candlelight and the light of the moon coming through the window. "David...you remember that complete honesty thing we talked about yesterday?" Ben asked between bites. "Of course." "Well I have something to tell you...and it's something I can't really hold in any longer." "What is it?" I asked with hesitation. I set my fork down and looked across the table into Ben's eyes, preparing for the worst. "It's simple really. I love you." "Wha...what?" My mouth went dry almost immediately, and I could feel my face turn red. There was water building up in my eyes. "I love you David." "I love you too Ben." A single tear rolled down my cheek, cascading down my chin and falling on to my plate below. "What's wrong? Why are you crying?" Ben got up from his seat and came over near mine, kneeling down on the floor next to me. Looking up at me with concern in his eyes. "I've waited all my life to hear someone say that to me and really mean it. It's something I've dreamt about...and now you just made my dream come true." "I can make all your dreams come true." Ben stood up and, with one quick move, scooped me out of my seat and up into his arms. I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed his lips as he walked down the hallway, toward the bedroom. He kicked the door open and walked in the room, which made me feel like some newlywed being carried over the threshold. I immediately noticed all the candles burning around the bed, just as Ben laid me down on it. He stood above me, taking his shirt off and then laying down on top of me. His hands moved all over my torso, feeling my pecs and my nipples through the fabric of my shirt. Soon he worked his hands inside and pushed my shirt off over my head, leaving us both naked from the waist up. I could feel our bare chests start to press together...those soft, wonderful chest hairs of Ben's rubbing against me, tickling my nipples and making them hard. Ben's lips moved all over me...first my face, then underneath my arms and down to my nipples. I rubbed my hands all over his naked back, my body squirming as he worked my sensitive nipples over with that expert tongue of his. I felt his soft mouth moving lower and lower...first down to my abs, then my belly button. I closed my eyes and ran my hands gently through his hair as I felt my pants coming undone. The instant Ben pulled my briefs down I felt my rock hard seven and a half inches pop out, finally free of it's strain. I felt his tongue move through my bush of pubic hair, then over my balls and finally up the length of my long shaft. I moaned with pleasure as he rimmed the head with the tip of his tongue, paying special attention to the spot where it meets the underside of my penis shaft. My back arched in pleasure as he opened wide and took me deep down his throat. I looked down at Ben while he sucked my throbbing cock, watching him strip his pants and boxers off in one quick swoop. I motioned for him to turn around, which he did without taking his mouth off of my manhood. Soon he was straddling me, with his hard eight inches hanging right in front of my lips. I opened my mouth and took him inside, loving the taste...craving it. We both started pumping away at each other's mouths...precum flowing from both of our cocks. I swallowed every drop, working Ben's massive cock over with my tongue to milk more out of him. I let out a moan as I felt Ben's hands work around to my ass, spreading my cheeks apart and playing in my crack. First he played with the little hairs I have in there, then he found my hole. I felt his finger press deep inside of me, and a jolt of pure ecstasy ran through my entire body, head to toe. I kept sucking Ben, going faster, putting more passion into it...making him scream with pleasure. "Ben, I need to ask you something," I said as I momentarily removed his throbbing penis from my mouth. "What is it David?" "I want you to make love to me." "Mmmmm...I am baby, I am." "No...I want you inside me." With this statement Ben paused, taking his mouth and finger away from my body. He turned and laid himself on top of me so we were face to face, our lips just inches apart. "Are you sure?" he asked, looking deeply into my eyes. Into my soul. "As sure as I am that I love you." "I love you too." Ben pressed his lips against mine passionately, holding me close to him. "And I'll do anything you want. Just stay on your back for me okay?" I nodded my head as Ben reached under the bed and grabbed a bottle of lube. He opened it, pouring some on his finger, which he then proceeded to shove up my ass. It was an amazing sensation...I wiggled my ass for him, loving it. Then he poured some on his cock, which I reached out and stroked for him, rubbing it in. "Now just put your legs up on my shoulders." Ben crawled between my legs and I did what he said. The excitement inside me was unbelievable...this was so new to me and I had dreamed about it for years, but it was also a little scary. "Is this going to hurt?" I asked, looking up into Ben's eyes. "I'd never hurt you David. Not now, not ever." With that I felt him slowly press his cock into my tight, eager hole. First the head went in, causing me to moan partly in pleasure, and partly in pain. He leaned down and kissed my lips so softly, slowly but surely pushing more and more of his eight inches into me. By the time he had got it all the way in my moans of pain no longer existed...I felt absolute heaven. Ben started moving his cock in and out, in and out...slowly at first, then gaining more speed. I loved it more than anything...it was the most unbelievably hot experience. I felt the head of his hard cock hitting that secret spot inside me...my moans were getting louder and louder. Ben took my throbbing, waiting cock in his hand, stroking it as he pumped away at me. "Ohhhh David...ohhhh I love you so much." "I love you too Ben...I want you to cum in me." "Yesssss...yes I will." His thrusts started gaining in speed...I could feel those big, cum filled balls slapping against my tight ass. His bush of pubic hair was tickling me. His hand working my cock, stroking me faster and faster. Neither of us could stop our moaning...and then, with one hard, long thrust...I felt Ben's huge load of white hot cum empty into my ass. Just the feeling of what was inside of him going inside of me sent me into ecstasy, and my own white hot jism started spurting out a moment later. Covering my chest, my face, and Ben's hand. He collapsed on top of me a moment later, the sweat on his body mixing with that on mine. I kissed him softly on the lips and wiped the wetness from his brow. "David...you are the best thing ever to walk into my life. You know that?" "And you're the best thing that ever ran into mine," I said with a little laugh. Ben pulled his softening cock out of my worked over ass and curled up beside me, resting his head on my chest. "Goodnight my love," Ben whispered as he closed his eyes and draped his arm over me. "Goodnight my angel." I didn't fall asleep right away, but instead I let some of my thoughts get the best of me. My life was going perfectly, better than it ever had in all of my years. I was in love with the most beautiful man in the world, I just landed a role in a major Hollywood movie, and I had just lost my virginity in a room full of candles and moonlight. There was only one problem. I was leaving in less than two weeks. TO BE CONTINUED...