Date: Thu, 29 Jul 1999 21:19:57 GMT From: Chuck Moors Subject: KEVIN & JORDAN 11-14 KEVIN & JORDAN Legal Disclaimer: This story is a total and complete work of fiction. It is nothing but a fantasy I have. It is not intended to imply anything about the sexuality of any of the People written about. In particular Kevin Richardson or Howie D. of the Backstreet Boys, David Boreanez, or any other celebrities mentioned. If homosexual acts between 2 males disturbs you or if you are under 18 or this material is illegal in your city, state, or country then you need to leave. *****AUTHORS NOTES***** I just wanted to apologize to everyone for taking so long on getting this installment out. But, last weekend was PRIDE here in San Diego, so I was out having fun. There was so much to look at I got whiplash. Thank you to all of the readers who have written and given their support. You make it so much easier to write this. It is for you, just as much as it is for me. Also, thanks to everyone who may have nominated or voted for me in the 2nd annual BSB/'NSYNC story awards. Even if I don't win any of the categories I was nominated in, just being nominated was great, I never expected it. And lastly to one very special reader, SB...you know who you are, you have come to mean a lot to me. Love the eyes. This is for you. As always any comments, suggestions, or questions can be sent to: stang32@hotmail.com Now read and enjoy. CHAPTER 11 There are moments in your life that you never forget. Getting your driver's license, graduating from high school, and falling in love. "I love you Boo." "I love you too, my little star," he replied, and out of the corner of my eye I saw Chad storm out of the room, and I didn't care. Kevin pulled me into another kiss, and I was in heaven. I could not be happier at that moment in my life. Kevin had told me that he loved me. And I love him. God help who ever tried to come between us. Kevin and I were still kissing passionately when someone cleared his or her throat. I tried to ignore the sound but Kevin broke our kiss, and we both looked to see who it was. "You know Brian, you have really bad timing," I said, as sarcastically as I could. "Well, I'm sorry and everything, but some of us are a little hungry, ya know?" Brian said. "Yeah...yeah...What if I have everything I want to eat right here?" I asked grinning, and looking at Kevin. "Eeewww!" they all said together. Well, with the exception of Howie and David, who I'm guessing had the same idea as me, by the looks on their faces. I was glad that things were working out for them. "Sorry, but he just does that to me." "They're right babe. I'm kind of hungry too," Kevin said. "Cool, then let's go!" AJ shouted, as he ran for the door, Brian and Nick following close behind. That left Kevin and I, Howie and David, Sarah and Phil. Kevin turned to Phil. "Phil, would you care to join us?" Kevin asked. "Uh...no. Thanks. I already have plans. I'm going down to San Diego for the weekend," he replied. "Ooh...Hot date Phil?" I asked. "To be honest with you Jordan, it's none of your business," he said with a grin. "Fine, be that way," I said with mock anger. "I will. Have a nice weekend, and I'll see you on Monday," Phil said. "Okay. See ya" I said, as he walked out the door. "You two look so cute together," Sarah said. "Thanks," Kevin and I said at the same time. "Let's go. I'm hungry," Kevin said again. "I know you are. We're going. Don't worry," I said. "You are such a smart ass. Do you know that?" Kevin asked. "Yes I do, and you love me for it. Just like I love you," I replied, moving in to kiss him again. "Do you two ever quit?" Sarah asked. "Not if I can help it," Kevin answered for us. "Ugh," she said. "Let's go," I said, finally giving in. We walked out the door of my dressing room, and headed towards the door. I was holding Kevin's hand, not a care in the world. We were about to reach the door heading out of the soundstage, when a voice stopped us. It was a voice that I didn't want to hear. Chad. "Um...excuse me guys. Jordan, can I talk to you? Please?" I froze. I didn't know what to say. I looked at Kevin, then to Sarah. My eyes pleaded with her for help. "Chad, we are on our way to eat, can't this wait?" she asked. Well, miss nosy, if you must know, no it can't. And, I wasn't talking to you. So would you just butt out, and let Jordan answer his own questions?" he shot back. "NO I CAN'T. You have a hell of a lot of nerve even asking anything of him right now," Sarah replied, with her voice rising. She was almost yelling at him, and I knew why. Sarah was the only person that knew about Chad raping me. I had never even told Phil. Ever since she found out she was so protective of me. Especially when it came to Chad. She was still mad at me for not going to the police, or telling anybody else about what he had done. I had to step in now, and I knew what I was about to say would really piss someone off. But this was something I needed to do. "Kevin, honey, why don't you go out and wait with everyone else. I'll be out in a minute," I said, looking to my love. "Are you sure?" He asked, not knowing what was going on, but with a very concerned look on his face. "Yeah. Nothing can ruin the day that I'm having." "Okay. I'll see you in few minutes," he said, and gave me a kiss on the cheek as he headed out the door, giving Chad a sidelong glance. Howie and David followed him out with looks of confusion on their faces. I was starting to get really pissed now. Not only was he affecting my life, but also, everyone that I cared about was being dragged into this mess. All because of him, and what he did to me. I was going to put a stop to this now. But before I had a chance to say anything to him, Sarah stopped me. "Do you know what you're doing?" "Yes, I do. For once in my life, I really think that I do," I answered. "Fine. I'll trust you. But I swear Jordan, if he does anything, he'll never escape me," she said, with a look in her eyes that I had not seen in a long time. "I'll be fine. I promise. Besides, I have that gorgeous man outside waiting for me," I said, faking a smile, trying to convince her that I would be all right. "I hope you're right," she said to me, and then looked at Chad. "You had better not do anything this time you little shit," pointing her finger at him. "Because if you do..." She never finished, and stormed out the door. "Yeah, yeah, whatever you say, you little bitch," he said, but she was already out the door, and didn't hear his comment, but I did. turned to face him with rage in my eyes. "Listen here you little fuck," I yelled, pointing my finger at him. "Don't you ever say anything like that to her again. You have absolutely no right. Not after what you did. I'm going to say this only once, so you had better listen to me. I have to work with you, and I will do that. Because I have to." I couldn't believe the strength in my voice. "But other than that, we have nothing to talk about. Whatever it was that you and I had, it is over. Do you hear me? It's fucking over. That is all it will ever be. What you did to me, I will never forget. Never forgive you for. I have to work with you, and there is nothing I can do about that, but I will not have a social relationship with you. And, don't *even* *think* about trying to come between Kevin and I. Because, if you do, there is no-where that you will be able to hide. DO I MAKE MYSELF CLEAR?" I asked, by now I was screaming at the top of my lungs. Hoping that he would get the hint, and say yes. "What ever you say, Jordan," he said with a smug grin on his face, as I walked out the door. I barely heard what he said. I didn't care. All I knew was that I * had finally stood up to him. I wasn't going to let him hurt me again. * And more importantly, I wasn't going to let him hurt Kevin. * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * Chad couldn't believe that Jordan had said those things to him. How dare he. If it weren't for Chad, Jordan would be nothing. "You keep thinking that Jordan. You just keep thinking that. You * will be mine again. You just don't know it yet. I will get you back, * and we will be happy again. I promise you that," Chad thought to * himself, as he headed towards his car. * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * I walked out and joined everyone and was greeted by a strange look from Sarah. "Later. Right now, I just want to go and get something to eat and have some fun," I said to her. "Okay. But, we are going to talk about this later," she said. "Fine. Now where is my man?" I asked to the air. "Right behind you gorgeous," Kevin said wrapping his arms around me. "Hi," I said, pulling his hand up and kissing it. "Are you all right?" "Yup. Couldn't be better." "So where are we going to eat?" Nick asked. "Doesn't matter to me, but I'm guessing it's not going to be the nice little romantic place I had in mind earlier," I said. "You don't mind do you?" Kevin asked, looking at me. "No. It's fine. We can do that anytime," I replied, a little disappointed, but I was with him and that is all that mattered. "Cool, then where should we go?" Nick asked again. "I don't care. You guys decide," I said. Everyone talked for about five minutes, and they wound up deciding on a place that David knew about, and was somewhat out of the way where we wouldn't have to worry about being noticed. A couple of hours later we were all standing outside of the restaurant deciding on what to do next. I for one just wanted to go home and spend some time alone with Kevin. I wanted to be able to tell him just how much I loved him. I also had to tell him about Chad. The only problem was that if I did, I was afraid I was going to lose him. That was the one thing that I didn't want to happen. I walked up to Kevin, and whispered into his ear. "Honey, can we just go home and spend some time together?' "We sure can. That is just what I had in mind," he said with a grin. "I love you." "I love you too. Now the only question is what abut Howie?" "What about him?" "Well, how is he going to get into the house later?" "Kevin, listen. Howie is a big boy. He can take care of himself. I'll talk to him, if he is coming back with us, fine. If he and David are going out, fine, I'll leave the door open for him. If he's not coming back, even better. We won't have to worry about being interrupted. Get the hint?" I asked with the most seductive `Cheshire Cat' look that I could give him. "Oh...yeah...let's hope he goes out," he answered, finally getting my meaning. "Hey, Howie," I yelled. "Yeah?" "Kevin and I are going home. Are you going out, or are you coming back to the house?" "I'm not sure," he said looking at David. "Let's go out for a little while and give them some time alone," David said. "We're going out. You guys go and have fun." "Thanks D. See you later. Let's go home Boo." "Let's go." We left the others deciding on what they were going to do for the rest of the night, and got into my car and headed towards my house. Kevin had his hand resting on my thigh for the whole trip. I was barely saying anything. I was too busy trying to figure out how I was going to tell him everything. I knew that I had too, but why did it have to be so hard? "Penny for your thoughts?" Kevin asked. "Nothing much. Just thinking about how happy I am with you." "I am too Jordan. I never thought that I would be this happy again." "Oh Kevin, you don't know how nice it is to hear you say that," I said, as I grabbed his hand in mine and squeezed it. CHAPTER 12 We arrived at my house a few minutes later, and went in. Diva met us at the door, and I picked her up to give her a kiss and a little bit of loving. "Boo, honey, why don't you go and get us a glass of wine while I get her fed, and we can sit and cuddle on the couch or something." "Okay. I'll be back in a minute." I fed Diva, turned the lights down low, lit some candles, and put on the boys' CD for us to listen to. I wanted this night to be as special and romantic as possible. I was sitting on the couch when Kevin came back in carrying a glass of wine for each of us, and sat down next to me. I pulled the glasses out of his hands, and placed them on the coffee table. I put my arms around his neck and placed a kiss on his lips as softly as I could. "I love you so much Kevin." "I love you too, Jordan," he said, as he started to kiss me. His tongue pushed at my lips and I opened them to let it into my mouth, and he let mine enter his. I knew right then that I wanted to make love to him. I was ready. I wanted, needed, to show Kevin just how much loved I him. We sat kissing for a while, when I heard the opening of "Quit Playing Games." and I started laughing. Kevin pulled away from me and asked, "What is so funny?" "Oh...I'm sorry. I was just thinking about when we met, and how cute you looked up on that stage when you were singing this. Then how nervous you seemed afterwards when we finally met. I know that I was a mess." "Hehe...yeah I was nervous. But, you should have seen your face when I talked to you." "Gee thanks. I just never thought that I would meet you. And then to see you sitting there and actually talking to me. It was more than I could handle." "Well I have something else that is more than you can handle. Now come here," he said reaching for my neck. "Why, Mr. Richardson, are you propositioning me?" "Yes, I am. Do you have a problem with that?" "No. Not at all. I was just wondering what was taking you so long," I said with a smile. We started kissing again. There was no rush. We were alone, and had all the time in the world. As we sat there, I started rubbing my hands all over Kevin's back. And in the process pulling his shirt up. I momentarily pulled away from him to get his shirt over his arms and head. I looked at his chest. God it was perfect. The perfectly defined pecs. The six pack abs. What did I do to deserve this? I gently pushed Kevin down onto the couch so that he was lying down, and just looked at him with love in my eyes. I climbed on top of him, and started to kiss his mouth softly. Then I moved my way down to his neck, and slightly sucked on it. After giving his neck a little work and hearing him moan, I knew he was enjoying it. I moved farther down to his chest. I couldn't believe I was actually doing this to him. I had only fantasized about it. Never in a million years did I think I would be doing it for real. Kevin pulled me up off of his chest and to his face to kiss me again. As he was kissing me he started unbuttoning the shirt that I had on. Without stopping the kiss, he slipped my shirt off my shoulders and down my arms. I pulled the shirt off of my hands and started rubbing his chest. I loved the feel of it. It was smooth and tight. Just the way I thought it would be. My cock was straining at my pants, begging for release, and I'm sure Kevin's was too. I knew of only one way to find out. But before I did, there was something I had to do. I needed to tell him about Chad. It was now or never. This would make or break our relationship. I just hoped that he could forgive me for what I was about to do. "Kevin, honey, I need to tell you something," I said, with my palms sweating and my heart beating a mile a minute. "What is it babe?" "Well, remember when I told you that I had never had any bad break-ups?" I said as I slowly sat up. "Yeah...you said you really hadn't had any," he said with a questioning look on his face, while he too sat up on the couch. "Well, I kind of lied to you about that," I said, and cringed, fearing his reaction. "You what?" He said with shock in his voice. "I lied to you about it. I had a real bad break-up. It was with Chad." "You mean that little shit that I keep seeing you get upset about at work? Please tell me you're kidding." "No. I'm not kidding. We started going out right after I moved here. I got my first job on his show, and the way it ended was really, really bad." "Jordan, you lied to me. How could you?" He questioned, sounding really hurt. This is the one thing that I didn't want to do to him. "Kevin, I'm sorry," I said, while starting to cry. "I can't believe you. You fucking lied to me! You know that is the one thing I can't stand," he said. He started getting up, reaching down for his shirt, and putting it on. "Kevin, I'm sorry. You don't know how sorry I am. But I just couldn't tell you." "What do you mean you couldn't tell me? I trusted you. How could you do this to me? You know that is the one thing, that I can't stand is somebody lying to me. I had to put up with that shit with Ryan. I didn't think that you would do that to me too, I trusted you," he yelled at me, as he walked towards the door. "Kevin." I was bawling by now, "please...don't...leave," I pleaded. "Give me one reason why I shouldn't." "I...I...I don't...I don't have one." By this time I was crying my eyes out. I knew that I was going to lose him. "Then I guess that there is nothing else to say, is there?" He opened the door, and started to walk out. I had to stop him. "Kevin...he...he did something to me." "What do you mean he did something to you?' He said, standing in the doorway. I couldn't answer him. The embarrassment was too much. But if I didn't tell him the whole truth he was going to walk out the door, and I would never see him again. What was I supposed to do? I could let him walk out the door and never speak to, or see him again. Or, I could tell him what happened, and risk him walking out the door. If I wanted to keep him it was time to tell him. "He...he raped me." I mumbled. "What? I didn't hear you," he asked. "He raped me," I said a little louder. "He *raped* you?" "Yes Kevin, he raped me. He took something from me that wasn't his. He violated me. He...he." I was crying uncontrollably now. I couldn't stop it. Kevin shut the door, and started to walk over to me. When he approached the couch he sat down and tried to put his arm around me, and I shrunk up into the couch, afraid of him touching me. "Kevin, just leave. Don't bother with me. I'm trash, and I don't deserve someone like you. I don't want to give you something that has been used like this. I really tried to be what you wanted, but I just can't do it," I said, as he still tried to get close to me, and I wouldn't let him. I was crying so hard by now that I was starting to repeat myself. I didn't know what I was saying anymore. "Kevin, I'm so sorry. I tried. I really, really tried to be what you wanted, but I couldn't do it anymore." I tried to get up and walk away form him, but he grabbed my hand and pulled me back down onto the couch. CHAPTER 13 "Jordan, you didn't do anything wrong. It was Chad, not you but Chad, that did something wrong. Why are you blaming yourself for this?" He asked. There was concern in his voice, and tears in his eyes as he realized what I had been through with Chad, and what he had just put me through. I couldn't believe it. He was still here, he hadn't left. "Because there was more I should have done to stop him, and I didn't," I said. Kevin put his around me and pulled me into a hug. "Jordan, I should be the one who is sorry. I should have known that there was something wrong with you. I'm so sorry. I mean, I knew something was going on, but I didn't know what. You kept having those nightmares, and you would say that they were nothing. I didn't believe you then, I even told Howie that, but I figured that you would tell me when you were ready to. I just never figured that it was something like this. Why didn't you tell me?" "Would you have told me if you were me? No, you wouldn't have. Kevin, I'm sorry that I didn't tell you, but I was too embarrassed. What he did to me." "Shhh...Jordan, it's okay. I love you, my little star," he said, putting his arms around me tighter. He was running his fingers through my hair, and gently kissing me on the cheek, on top of my head. Anything to calm me down. "Honey, it's going to be okay. I'm here, and nothing is going to hurt you ever again. I promise. He will never get near you as long as I'm around. Just wait `till I get my hands on him." "Kevin, please don't do anything. It happened long enough ago; I just want to forget it. Please." "No, Jordan, I won't forget it. I can't. Not now. Not knowing what he did to you, and put you through." "Kevin, please don't do anything to him. I can handle him. I already have." "All right, if you say so. But, that doesn't mean that I have to like it." "Thank you. You don't know how much that means to me." "You're right, I can't, but I think I have an idea. Do you want to talk about it?" "Do I have to?" "No you don't. But, don't you think it might help if you do?" I started to explain to him what had happened. ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ I was sleeping. I had been on the set for over twenty hours, and I was exhausted. I didn't know where Chad was, and I really didn't care. Things had been bad between us for a while, and I was going to end it the next morning. He was getting to demanding, and drinking too much. I couldn't take it anymore. I heard a knock at the door, more like a pounding. I had no idea who it was. Maybe if I ignored it, it would go away. It didn't. `Jordan, come and open the door, I want to see you,' I heard Chad yell through he door. I got up, threw on a pair of boxers and headed out to open the front door. I opened it to see him standing there. The first thing I noticed was the alcohol on his breath. Great, he was drunk again. I didn't need this. Not now, not tonight. `Chad, it's four in the morning, and I'm tired. What do you want?' `I just wanted to see my boyfriend. Isn't that okay?' `Normally, that would be fine, but not tonight. I'm too fucking tired. Can't we talk tomorrow?' `Come on baby, I just want to spend some time with you, I haven't seen you in two days. What is going on with you?' `Chad, come in, but I'm going back to bed. We can talk about this tomorrow. All right?' ` I guess. Maybe I we can fool around for a little while then. How does that sound?' `It sounds like a really bad idea. Now, come on I want to get some sleep.' `Oh all right, why are you being like this?' `Chad, I had a really long day. I want to get some sleep. I have to go to work tomorrow, too.' I walked back to the bedroom, with Chad following me. Once we got there I stared to climb back into the bed, but noticed that Chad was just standing there. `Why are you just standing there? Will you just get into bed?' Chad came over to me and tried to start kissing me. I pushed him away from me, but he just kept trying to get close to me. `Chad get off of me, I just want to sleep.' `No I will not. You owe this to me. We haven't slept together in a week. You're always too busy working. I feel like you've forgotten about me.' `Chad, I have not forgotten about you. I've just been busy.' `Well then, why don't you make it up to me.' `Not tonight Chad. I told you. I need to get some sleep.' `Well that's not going to work.' He started taking off his clothes, and started walking towards me. `Chad, just get into bed. I'm not going to do this now.' `Yes you are, and you're going to like it.' Before I knew what had happened, he had stripped out of his clothes, and was pushing me down on the bed. He was pushing his lips onto mine, trying to force his tongue into my mouth. I tried to push him off me, but I was so tired that I didn't have the strength to. `Chad, please stop, I don't want to do this.' `Well just get over it. You have been ignoring me for a week. I'm not going to put up with this any more.' `Chad, please, get off of me. I don't want to do this.' `I don't care what you want. This is what I want.' He started to kiss me again, and I tried to push him off of me. He slapped me across the face and told me to shut up, and enjoy it. `Get...the...FUCK...off of...me...NOW CHAD!!!' I yelled and brought my hand up and hit him with all of the strength I could muster, knocking him off of me, and I jumped off of the bed. Chad came running at me, knocking me to the floor, jumping on me and straddling my chest. He started pummeling me with his fists. He was yelling and cussing at me. Telling me how lucky I should be to be with him, and how he could have anybody. He tried raising my legs over my head so that he could enter me, and I fought back. `Chad, stop please. It hurts too much. Please.' `You know it doesn't. Just enjoy it.' He punched me in the face, and I blacked out. When I finally woke up, I was still on the floor, and I could feel something cold and wet between my legs. When I looked down, I saw that it was blood. He had really hurt me and was no where to be seen. I got up and went to the bathroom to clean myself up. When I finished I climbed into bed, and didn't get out for three days. ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ I was crying so badly that, I couldn't look at Kevin. He just held onto me and let me cry and get it all out. "Kevin, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to break down like this," I said. Somehow, I managed to get it out. I don't know how I did it. "Jordan, it's okay. You had to let it out. I don't know how you made it this long without losing it." "I had to. I had just started working on the show, and I couldn't afford to lose my job, by letting this get to me." "Didn't anybody wonder where you were?" He asked, wiping tears from his face. "Phil and someone from the show called, and I told them I was sick. I really played it up, and I guess it worked. Because, no one brought it up afterwards. Since then the only person I've told is Sarah, and she's not real happy with me for not calling the police or anything." "So that's why she acts like she does towards him?" "Yeah. She hates him. She has become the best friend I have. Until now. Now I have you. I love you so much Kevin. Thank you for not hating me, or running away." "Shh..." he whispered, "I could never hate you. I love you too. You should have told me. You should have told someone. Why didn't you?" "Kevin, I couldn't. It was too embarrassing. I didn't even say anything to Phil." "Why not? He's your manager, he should have been able to help you." "Because, he's Chad's manager too. It would have ruined his career." "Who gives a FLYING FUCK about his career! He broke the fucking law," Kevin yelled. "Honey, please, don't do this. It is not going to help anything, it's over." He pulled me into him, and held me as tightly as he could. "Jordan, I'm so sorry that you had to go through that. Nobody should have to endure that. When I see him, I'm going to kill him!" "No you are not. You are not going to do anything. Please, tell me you won't do anything to him." "All right. If that's what you want." "Yes it is. But right now I want something else," I said, wiping the tears from my face, and turning to face him. "What is it," he said with a slight grin. "I want you to kiss me." "Are you sure?" "Yes I am." Kevin moved closer to me. He was very tentative as he brought his lips to meet mine. When they finally did, it was the most, gentle kiss I've ever had. It was caring and loving. Just like him. "Kevin, I love you. Please don't leave me." "I love you too. So much that it is killing me seeing you like this. I promise I won't leave. I'm right here. I'm not going anywhere." I started to kiss him again. This time, with as much passion and intensity as I could muster. I think that I shocked him with it. I don't think he was expecting something like that from me. "Kevin, Boo, will you do something for me?" "What is it my little star? I'd do anything for you." "Make love to me. Please, make love to me." CHAPTER 14 "Make love to you? Are you sure?" "Kevin, I've never been more sure of anything in my life. I want to feel like a normal person again. I want you to make me feel like a man again" I pulled his shirt off of him, again. I started to kiss my way down his neck and to his chest. Kevin slightly pushed me away from him, and looked at me. "Are you really sure that you want to go through with this? We don't have to you know." "I know that. Now get over here, and kiss me you gorgeous man," I said, and gave him the most seductive grin that I could. "Who am I to resist such a tempting offer," he said, with a little trepidation in his voice. I was planning on changing that. I had to do this to make myself feel like a real person again. I also wanted to share myself with the man that I loved. Kevin wrapped his arms around me and kissed me. I could feel the passion in his lips, and in the intensity with which he kissed me. I moved my hands slowly down his chest to his stomach. It was so firm. I continued my way down, and slipped my hands past the waistband of his pants and boxers to find my prize. I didn't have to look long, because there it was. Just as hard as mine. We laid down on the couch and were making-out like a couple of teenagers doing it for the first time. When we came up for air I said, "Kevin, maybe we should go into the bedroom. It might be a little more comfortable," I suggested. "Uh...yeah I think you're right," he said. He was lying there with his head thrown back and his eyes closed. I continued stroking his cock for another minute before pulling my hand out. "Oh...baby...don't stop." Kevin moaned. "Don't worry Boo. We're just moving into the bedroom, now come on," I said, as I got up, grabbed his hand, and pulled him off of the couch. I blew the candles out, turned off the stereo, and headed down the hallway towards my bedroom. Kevin reached down, and put his arms around my neck and knees and lifted me off of my feet, and carried me down the hall. We reached the bedroom, he set me down, and I turned on the light long enough to put in my favorite jazz CD, Chris Botti, and to light some more candles. I turned off the lights, and walked to Kevin. I put my arms around his waist and suckled his neck. "Uhh...Jordan." he moaned. I reached down, unbuckled and unbuttoned his pants. They fell to the floor, and he stepped out of them. I put my arms back around him again, and let my hands drift down to his butt, pulled him into me. I could feel his hardness against mine. Kevin reached down and undid my pants and I let them fall to the floor. We were both standing there in our boxers, both with obvious tents in them. I started kissing Kevin again. God, he tasted so sweet. I laid him down on the bed, and began working my way down his body. I started at his neck and went down to his crotch. Stopping along the way to pay attention to his chest, his nipples, and his navel. When I reached his crotch, I started to lick his cock through the material of his boxers. As I was doing this, I reached up, grabbed the waistband of his boxers and began to pull them down off of his legs. And there it was, it was beautiful, just like him. I took his cock in my mouth, and heard his gasp. "Oh...Jordan." "Relax baby. Just relax and enjoy this." "Trust me, I am. It feels so good." "It's supposed to," I said, as I went back down and took him in my mouth again. I worked my way up and down the length of his cock, savoring the taste. I pulled off of it to see a clear drop of pre-cum resting on the tip. I stuck my tongue out to taste it, and heard Kevin groan. I knew that I was pleasing him. I worked on him for a few more minutes, not wanting it to end too quickly. I then started licking my way back up his stomach and chest to kiss him again, while fondling his balls with my hand. As I was kissing him he reached down and tried to push my boxers down, but they got stuck. I got up off of him and pushed them down the rest of the way. "God you are beautiful," Kevin said. "Not as beautiful as you are Boo," I replied, and did something that shocked him. I jumped onto the bed, landing with my legs straddling his chest. My cock was right in his face. Kevin stuck out his tongue to lick the tip of it. "Uhhh." I moaned. Kevin put his hands on my hips, and pulled me closer so that he could take me further into his mouth. "Ugh...Kevin...that is so hot...don't stop." He just kept sucking on me. I was on a cloud from the feeling. It was incredible. Kevin's tongue was swirling around the head of my cock. Tracing around the mushroom shape of it. The next thing I felt was his finger around my hole. I almost lost it then. "Uh...Kevin...What are you doing to me? That feels so... fucking good," I panted. He pulled off my dick. "You like that, huh?" "You had better believe I do." I leaned down to kiss him. I shoved my tongue into his mouth. Our tongues danced around together. I slid my body down so that our cocks were rubbing together. The pre-cum slicking them up and making the feeling greater. "Kevin, I never want this night to end." "It doesn't have to, Jordan." "I hope not." We started kissing again. I reached down to stroke his cock some more. I loved the feel of it. Kevin turned me over and began to lick and suck his way down my chest. I couldn't take it any more. I had to have him in me. "Kevin, my love, make love to me." He looked at me shocked. "You mean?" He questioned. "Yes, I mean, I want to feel you in me," I said nodding my head and stroking his cock some more. I reached over to the nightstand, and pulled out a rubber and some lube, and set them on top of the nightstand. We rolled around on the bed for a few more minutes. Kissing and feeling every inch of our bodies. "Kevin, do it now, please." "Easy baby. I want this to be special for you. And, I don't want to hurt you." "You could never hurt me. I trust you. I'm giving myself to you. You're not taking it. I love you." "I love you too." Kevin had me on my back again, and started to suck my cock again. I didn't know how much longer I could hold out, but I wanted to last as long as he did. He moved his way down from my cock to my hole. He started gently massaging it with his finger. Softly and gently. Slowly at first, then he started to pick up speed. The next thing I felt was his tongue on my hole. I had never felt anything like it before. I almost came right then. It was an incredible feeling. I never wanted it to stop. I was pushing my head as far into the bed as it would go. I was in ecstasy. Kevin then inserted a finger. I resisted at first, but he calmed me down. "It's alright baby. We will take this slow." "I'm not worried. It's just been a while. Just let me get used to it, and I will be okay." "Just take your time. We have all night." "Keep going. I'm okay now." Kevin started up again with his finger. He then inserted another one. This time it didn't hurt as much. After a few minutes of him using his fingers to stretch me out I was ready for the real thing. "Do it now Kevin. I'm ready for you." "If you're sure." "I positive. Just do it. I want it so bad." I pulled Kevin up to me and kissed him long and deep. I then reached for the rubber, and pushed Kevin down on the bed. I tore open the foil package and started to unroll it down Kevin's penis. I loved looking at it. It was just as gorgeous as he was. It was a part of him. The man I loved. I really and truly loved him. I knew that now. Nothing would ever change that. After I got the rubber on him, I opened the lube and put some on his cock. I then reached around and applied some to my hole. Inserting a finger to make sure that it was slick enough I rolled over on to my back and pulled him on top of me. I was ready. "Kevin, please, do it now." Kevin leaned down and kissed me again, before raising my legs into the air. I felt his head at my hole. Then the pressure of my ring resisting him. I forced myself to relax. To enjoy it. He pushed a little harder and I felt him enter me. God did it hurt and a tear escaped my eye. "Are you okay babe?" He asked with concern in his voice. "I'm fine. Just give me a minute to get used to it." I waited a minute, getting used to the feeling of him in me. "Go ahead." Kevin wiped the tear off my cheek and kissed me. He stared pushing into me. Gently at first, then with more intensity. While he was doing this, he started to stroke me. I had never felt anything like it. The sensations going through my body were incredible. I could hear Kevin's breathing getting faster and harder. I knew he was getting close. "Uh...Kevin...don't stop...you feel so good...don't ever stop." "Jor...uh...dan...I'm getting close baby...I'm...uhg...not...going to last much longer." "Do it baby...don't stop...I'm close too." Kevin's thrusting got harder and faster. There was no stopping either of us at that point. He was still stroking me. I don't know how he managed to do both, but I didn't care. He had me at the point of no return.I was going to cum. "Oh...Kevin...here it comes...baby." I yelled. The cum shot out of me with such force that the first bit went over my head and landed somewhere on the mattress. The sight of my orgasm set Kevin off. "Uh...here it comes baby." Kevin's orgasm hit him with such force; he threw his head back and came so hard, that I could feel the contractions of his cock inside of me. By the time Kevin was finished cumming inside of me, both of our chests' and stomachs were covered with mine. Kevin lay down on top of me without pulling out of me. We kissed. Very gently at first, then with more intensity. A few minutes later, after we had regained our breath, he was the first one to break the silence. "GOD, Jordan, that was incredible!" "It sure was. I love you Kevin. With all of my heart." "I love you too babe." Kevin lifted himself off of me and started to pull out of me. As he was doing that, I sat up a little, and started to lick his chest. Licking off all of my juices that had wound up on him. I felt Kevin pull out of me, and wished he could have stayed there all night. He pulled the condom off, tied it, and threw it into the trash. He then began to lick my juices off of my chest and stomach, just as I had done to him. "Umm, you taste so good baby," Kevin said. "So do you," I said grinning. I put my arms around him and hugged him. "I love you, Kevin." "I love you too, Jordan." Kevin turned his head to look at the clock. "Jordan, do you realize that it is two in the morning, and we have been going at this for three hours?" "Does it matter? We don't have to be anywhere in the morning, and your interview isn't until three, so we have plenty of time to get some sleep, so come to bed." We climbed under the covers of the bed, with Kevin wrapping me in his arms. I never felt so safe and secure in my life. I started to tear up, and Kevin heard me. "What's wrong baby?" "Nothing, I'm just so happy. You made me feel so good. I never though that I would feel that way again. I love you." "I love you. But, I didn't do anything, but treat you the way you deserve to be treated." "Thank you, Boo. I love you so much." "I love you too, my little star, now go to sleep." I fell asleep in his arms with him singing softly in my ear. **Somewhere in an ocean of people There waits a lonely heart Crying out for the tender care That you only find in love. "I love you Jordan, more than you will ever know. Good night," Kevin whispered to me, kissed my cheek, and fell asleep with me.