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Chapter Four
Closer
Wednesday after classes I walked with Bernie over to the field where he was catching his bus for the game tomorrow. Nervously, I gave him a short kiss before he entered the bus, then I walked back to the dorm. He wouldn't be back until late tomorrow night. As I walked back all I could think about was the one-hour window of opportunity waiting for me at Starbucks in the morning. As I walked up the stairs to 308, I could hear music coming from a dorm room somewhere. It was an old Nine Inch Nails song. Reznor was groaning `I want to fuck you like an animal'. It was really resonating with my thoughts. I had paused to listen for a second. As I started up the next flight of stairs I heard:
`Help me tear down my reason
Help me; it's your sex I can smell
Help me; you make me perfect
Help me become somebody else'
I tried to ignore it, but it felt like an omen. I'm not sure exactly when it happened, but I'd made up my mind at some point that I was going to be at Starbucks in the morning. My imagination was in overdrive the rest of the evening. I went to bed with a hard-on and I refused to let myself take the edge off. I tossed and turned most of the night. My thoughts oscillated between guilt and raw lust. In the morning I worked on homework for a little bit. When the sun was up all the way, I started to go to the showers but I made a spot decision that if he was going to get me, he was going to get me 100%. I raised my arm and gave it a whiff. It was a little gamey but that's what the `relationship breaker' deserved. Time was crawling. Finally, about 9:30 I walked out the door; I made it to Starbucks about 10:10. No sign of Terry Ballard, so I ordered a Grande Café Misto and found a seat by the door. It was nearly 11:00 o'clock before I saw him walk in; he didn't see me. His focus was on a red-head sitting alone near the restroom. I felt dirty as I watched him walk up behind the guy and massage his shoulders the same as he'd done with me. A very short time later, I watched as the red-head hesitantly followed Terry into the restroom. I waited a minute and went over. The door was locked but I could hear `activity' inside. I went back and sat down to finish my coffee. `Red', as I decided to call him, came out first looking both ashamed and more than slightly pissed off, not to mention the way he was walking very stiffly. He didn't stop at the table; he walked straight by me and out the door. I swapped to the other side of the table so I would have my back to the restroom. I felt the breeze Terry made as he walked by me at a brisk rate, trying to catch up with him. I suspected that after being subjected to a quickie fuck in a coffee shop bathroom, Red was probably done with him.
Speaking of shame, my raw lust imaginings were on replay in my head, only now with a running commentary on how fucking stupid I was and a self-lecture about not letting my little head run my big head. I waited until I felt like it was safe to go and ducked out. Instead of going back and lazing around the dorm all day, I went into Bernie's routine; well, I guess it was my routine now too. I took off jogging and finished my five miles ending up at the gym. This time of day it was more crowded than I liked but I forced myself to go in anyway and run through a decent workout. Afterwards, I went back to the dorm and grabbed a shower and finished my homework. I texted Jai and asked if he'd like to meet up for lunch. We agreed to meet up at Bombay Palace, as he said he was feeling a little homesick today.
Jai was friends with the owner, so we got our meals half-price. I kept it simple with tandoori chicken and naan, Jai had the chana masala. We sat quietly; I noticed Jai kept stealing glances in my direction. He finally blurted out what was on his mind.
"Did you go through with it?" he asked. I weighed playing dumb and decided against it.
"No. Go ahead and gloat. You were right. Terry Ballard is a turd" I said quietly. "I very sexy good-looking turd."
Jai almost spit his Coke at that statement.
"I won't rub your nose in it" he said, "I'm just glad you didn't fall for his bullshit."
Once again, I started to just keep it to myself, but I was starting to consider Jai to be one of my best friends. I kind of surprised myself when I opened up to him. Opening up was not something I was accustomed to doing.
"To be honest, I did fall for his bullshit" I said.
"Wait...so, he did fuck you?" he said, looking very confused.
"No, no. But I did get up this morning and go to meet up with him" I went on to describe the encounter in detail. Jai just shook his head.
"Kevin" he said. Now I looked confused. "The one you called Red, his name is Kevin Moore. He's in one of my other classes. I've seen Terry working on him too."
"Oh. I guess he was playing the odds. He figured if he massaged enough shoulders, surely at least one would show up to meet him" I said.
"Probably so, I know he's been after at least two others besides you two" he said, "I hope for Kevin's sake he was using a rubber, as much as he fucks around, he's like HIV in tight shorts."
"Well, I guess I'm over the temptation now" I said.
"Good, now you can move on to someone darker, shorter and more handsome" he grinned.
"Oh, Jesus! You're not going to start now, are you?" I asked sarcastically.
"Nah, man. I told you, I'm not like Terry. I'll wait until your relationship organically falls apart. You'll come to the best friend on the rebound" he laughed. The food arrived so we thanked the waiter and started our meal.
I tried to get Jai to hang out for a while after we ate but he said he had too much homework to finish so we hugged and parted ways. I walked for a while, doing a mental reset before turning in the direction of the dorm. I was almost back when I ran into Terry again.
"Too bad you didn't show up this morning, you couldn't have been part of a threesome" he sneered.
"Nah, I'm good" I spat back, "I'm not really into 5-minute public bathroom fucks." He looked like I'd slapped him. He opened his mouth a couple of times as if to say something, but he couldn't think of anything to say. He started to walk away when it dawned on him. "Ahh, so you did show up" he said with that little pre-cum inducing smile of his, "Then, I guess I'll see you later!"
I started into the dorm, but it was still only three and I wasn't ready to call it a day this early. I did something completely out of character for me; I walked around until I saw a crowd and went to investigate. As it turned out this particular crowd was gathered around some guys playing acoustic music. I pulled up a piece of grass and sat back to listen. I saw one of the other guys I'd met at the Lambda picnic and waved; he got up and came over to sit by me. His name was Jeremy. We chatted a little but just normal stuff, there was definitely no chemistry between us; he was very effeminate and while that's totally okay, it's just not my thing. As the sun started setting my phone dinged; it was Bernie asking where I was. He'd gotten back earlier than expected. I texted back that I'd be there in a few minutes. He texted for me to meat him in the shower. I chuckled at the silly stuff autocorrect came up with.
I went up to 308 and got some fresh clothes and went to the bathroom. There was only one shower running so I quickly ditched my clothes and stepped inside. It didn't take long for me to figure out that the text was not a product of autocorrect. He actually wanted me to meat him in the shower. He was soaped up and already loose from fingering himself. The only problem was he didn't bring a condom. I backed away.
"Ohhh, no you don't. If you'd gotten the mail out of the box, you would have seen the test results. Negative and negative. Now get to fucking!" he demanded.
I shrugged and when he braced himself with his hands on the back wall, I sunk into his ass. Oh, fuck! I thought it was good the first time, but without the extra layer of latex between us it was like I was losing my virginity again! I fucked him slow at first, then started building up. It was taking me a lot more effort to cum standing up like this. I was pumping so hard I actually lifted him up onto his toes a couple of times. I must have pounded him 15 minutes like that before somebody else came into the bathroom and we had to take our fun back to the room. We both semi-ran down the hall with our boners poking the towels around our waists out obscenely. Back in the room, he reached in his drawer and tossed me a jar of Vaseline. I dug in and smeared a big glob on his hole and drove back in again. He rolled us both over and rode me like a cowboy until I finally couldn't take any more and blasted my load into him until cum was running out around my dick, into my pubes and down the crack of my ass. Once I'd started calming down, he knee-walked up until his knees were planted in my underarms and jacked off until he groaned "I'm cumming." I quickly lifted my head to catch the end of his cock and didn't miss a drop. He rolled to the side and held me tight in his arms.
"I'm glad you're back" I said.
"Me too" he answered groggily. I kissed him twice before sleep overtook us.
Everything went fairly smooth for the next couple of weeks, then Bernie had another out-of-town game. Like last time I walked him to the bus Wednesday night and kissed him goodbye. I was on my way back to the dorm when I saw Terry sitting alone on a bench. When he recognized me, he stood up.
"Hey, can we talk a minute?" he asked. I started to walk away, but something about him was different. His whole demeanor seemed to have changed.
"Here. In public. I'll give you five minutes" I said, my tone may have been a little more harsh than necessary.
"Fine. Look, I just wanted to apologize for everything I did that made you uncomfortable. I know I've been an ass, stalking you and talking shit" he said, looking at his feet. I started to speak, but he held his hand up; motioning for me to hold on.
"Just today I've been hearing about my reputation that I didn't know I had. I can see why you were steering clear of me. I know what you think you saw at Starbucks, but if I try to explain it to you; you'll just think I'm lying. Kevin knows what did and more importantly didn't happen which means your Indian buddy does too. Him and Kevin are very close" he said with a heavy sigh. "See if you can get the truth out of them, then, if you want, text me." He handed me a piece of paper with his cell number. I was skeptical of information coming from him, but feeling kind of confused. It was the first time I'd heard about any connection between Jai and Kevin; so, I just kept my peace, nodded and walked on. I was sure Jai could set all this straight for me.
When I got back to the dorm, I sat thinking about how I could broach the subject with Jai without coming across as confrontational. I finally decided there wasn't any delicate way, I'd just have to ask him directly. I scrolled through my contacts and found his number and hit dial.
"Hey, Ted. What's up?" he answered.
"Hey Jai. I need to know some things. I was told you had answers" I said. Hesitation on the line before he spoke.
"Uh, ok, what kind of things?" he asked.
"So, you and Kevin, y'all know each other better than just being in a class together" I said.
"Well...yeah. I should have made that clearer, I guess. We used to date" he said.
"And you're still close" I pushed.
"Yeah...we...I...where are you going with this? I feel like I'm getting the third degree" he said defensively.
"I'm sure he told you all about what happened at Starbucks then" I said.
"Oh, that. Yeah. It didn't go down exactly the way you thought it did" he said.
"But you let me believe it did" my irritation was growing.
"Yeah...you know...it's like..." he stopped and took a deep breath. "Terry is like, 100% your type. That kind of competition has to be eliminated."
"So, you spread all the rumors about him?" I asked.
"I didn't spread rumors about him, I only told you those things. He does have a kind of a rep, people say he's weird, I just kind of enhanced it for you" he said, "I guess I shouldn't have, but I wanted you to like me."
"What did Kevin tell you about Starbucks?" I asked.
"Okay. So...Kevin was there having coffee and Terry walks in..." he started.
"Wait, it wasn't a planned meeting?" I asked.
"No, just right place, right time" he admitted, "anyway, Terry walked up to him to say hey and one thing led to another. Terry agreed to blow Kevin in the bathroom. That was all good and fine until Terry wet a finger and started sticking it in Kevin's ass. That was an ending move, Kev is strictly a top - he don't want anybody coming near his ass; so, he got pissed off and walked out."
"What do you really know about Terry?" I asked, feeling pissed that Jai had lied to me, even if some of it was just omission.
"Not a lot, I'm not sure he's ever actually been laid" he said in one long run-on sentence, then after a heavy breath he added "Look, Ted. Don't hate the player, hate the game." One thing I hated was being manipulated and lied to; I hung up the phone and put the ringer on silent. I took about an hour and calmed down before I dug out the scrap of paper with the phone number on it to get the rest of the story.
"Hello" the voice on the line said.
"Hey" I said back, "I talked to Jai."
"Did he tell you the real story?" he asked.
"Yeah. I'm sorry for believing all the bullshit" I said.
"Okay" was all he said.
"Can I ask you a personal question?" I asked.
"Uhh...I don't know...do I have to answer?" he said apprehensively.
"You decide" I said, "have you ever...you know...been with anybody?" I asked.
"You mean...yeah. I did – with my cousin one time. He only let me put it in before he started saying it hurt and made me take it out" he told me.
"So...you've never really..."
"No. I'm 99% virgin, okay? I really don't know how it's your business though" he said defensively, "I hope you're not going spread that all over campus."
"Nah, I actually think its kind of ironic though. You act so confident with the massages and all that" I said.
"I used to watch my cousins pick up girls" he said, "it worked a lot better for them."
"Why don't you just be yourself?" I asked.
"I don't know. I figured nobody would want the real me. I'm fat, hairy, boring. I have to make myself go out and do stuff. I'd rather sit at home and read or watch TV" he said.
"I don't know about everybody, but I'd rather be talking to a real person than some developed persona. I'll tell you what...why don't we get together tomorrow and start from scratch. Just don't come as that guy, come as Terry. We'll have some coffee and just talk" I told him, I hoped I wasn't getting into more than I bargained for.
"Okay...sounds good. What time?" he asked, "It'll have to be early; I have stuff I have to do around lunch time."
"If you don't mind the smell, we can meet up after my workout in the morning. I'll come straight from the gym" I said.
"Sounds good. See you then" he said.
For the second time, I went to bed with a boner. At this point I didn't know who to actually trust, but I was determined to give him a chance, and just that fact led my mind down a series of horny dreams in which I took both his top and bottom virginity. Despite all the shit that had gone down around him, there was still an attraction at the base of it all that I couldn't deny. I was tossing and turning so much I set an alarm on my phone to wake me up in case I didn't wake up on my own. I guess sometime around midnight I finally made it to sleep.
Lambodara 11/18/21
All the world's indeed a stage and we are merely players, performers and portrayers;
Each another's audience inside the gilded cage.