Date: Sat, 20 Nov 2021 15:37:37 -0500
From: Jude St. Jude <judestjude2357@gmail.com>
Subject: Corey's Struggle - Chapter 4 - Powerless to Stop It

Corey's Struggle

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Chapter 4 - Powerless to Stop It

Around 9:00, both boys started feeling tired, so they walked back to
Daniel's house. They didn't talk much until, as they approached the gate to
the house together. Daniel finally broke the silence. "Corey," he asked in
a whisper, and then stopped.

"Yeah?" Corey asked. Looking at his friend, he noticed that Daniel looked a
little nervous and hesitant to speak. Feeling bad about being so withdrawn
with his friend, Corey added, "It's OK."

Daniel looked around to make sure no one could hear him, then said, "Can I
ask you a question?"

Corey's heart leapt, but he said, "Sure."

Daniel looked more nervous than ever as he asked, "Um... last week... at
the match... um... what were you doing down there in the bathroom by
yourself?"

Corey couldn't answer. He couldn't even look his friend in the eye. He felt
the tears start to leak from his eyes, and didn't know how to stop them.

Daniel hadn't expected this kind of reaction from his best friend. He
didn't know what was wrong, only knew that Corey was feeling bad, and he
had to help him.

Fortunately, there was no one else to be seen on the darkened
street. Daniel moved a little closer to his friend to gauge his
reaction. When Corey leaned a little into him, Daniel put his arms around
his friend. Corey was so grateful that he just let himself collapse into
Daniel, sobbing into his shoulder.

"It's OK, it's OK," Daniel kept repeating, holding Corey close as the tears
he'd been holding in for so long just poured out.

After a few minutes, Corey felt a little better, and the two boys went into
the house. As usual, Daniel's older brother, Trevor, was watching TV in the
living room in the dark with his girlfriend. They barely even noticed the
two boys passing by to go up the stairs.

When they got to Daniel's room, they busied themselves getting the room
ready as they usually did. Since they were kids, whenever Corey would stay
over, the two boys would always sleep together on the floor of Daniel's
room. Setting it up was their usual habit, and now they were both grateful
for the ritual: Daniel took the folded-up air mattress out of his closet
and plugged it in. Next, Corey switched it on and let it
inflate. Meanwhile, Daniel pulled the sheet and all the blankets off his
bed and started arranging them on the mattress as he'd done a hundred times
before.

When they were done, Daniel turned on his space heater. He also switched on
a lava lamp and turned off the overhead light, making the room more
comfortably dark. From there, both boys began taking off their clothes as
usual, all the way down to the white briefs that they both slept in.

Finally, the two boys crawled under the covers. Daniel would have just said
goodnight and let Corey sleep, but Corey started to say, "I was... um... I
was..."

"It's OK, Corey, you don't have to tell me."

"No, it's OK," Corey said, "Only, you were down there? In the bathroom? It
was you?"

"It's just," Daniel began, "I was worried because the coach thought you
might have to forfeit your match. So I told him I would come get you and
bring you back no matter what."

Now, Corey was really ashamed, "But, I mean, you saw me?" he asked.

Daniel didn't want to admit it, but he couldn't lie to his friend. "I was
worried you were sick. So I looked through the crack between the door and
the wall..."

Corey said, "Then you knew what I was doing in there..."

"Not at first," Daniel said, "But I was trying to figure out why you had
your singlet pulled all the way down. It took me a second and then I
figured it out. So, I went into the other stall so you wouldn't get
embarrassed." He went on, "But then I realized it's a good thing it was me,
right?"

Corey asked, "What do you mean?"

"Well, like, you don't have anything I haven't seen before, right?"

Corey started to object, "Yeah, but, it's one thing to see each other in
the shower, and another thing to... I mean, you don't do that, right?"

Daniel said, "Father D says we're not supposed to. He told me if a boy
waits long enough, he'll have a nocturnal emission." He added, "Sometimes,
um, it's just hard to wait."

Corey said, "Yeah, I only have nocturnal emissions once or twice a
month. If I don't have one, it's like..."

Daniel said, "Yeah, me too. It's like if it doesn't happen, it starts to
feel like I can't think about anything else."

"That happens to you, too?" Corey asked. He couldn't believe Daniel had
these feelings, too.

"Yeah," Daniel admitted, "All the time. It's like when you need to pee so
bad that all you can think about is finding a bathroom."

"I know," said Corey. "Like you can't keep holding it in."

Daniel admitted, "I haven't had a nocturnal emission in like three weeks. I
keep hoping I'll have one. Otherwise, I don't know what I'm gonna do."

"Yeah, I don't want to disappoint Father D," Corey said, "I mean, at least
someday, we can grow up and get married. He doesn't have that option."

Daniel said, "Wow, I never thought of that. I wonder what he does."

Corey laughed and said, "He told me he takes a lot of cold showers."

"Wow, really?" Daniel said, "You actually asked him? I would have been too
embarrassed. What else did he say?"

"Just that -- um -- what you saw me doing last week in that bathroom is
something that men shouldn't do."

Daniel said, "I guess if Father D can keep from doing it for his whole
life, we can manage it for just a few years, until we're married, right?"

"Right," Corey agreed. "Now I wish I hadn't done it at the match. Only..."

"Only what," Daniel asked.

"Only," Corey began, "This is embarrassing... you can't tell anyone,
especially on the team."

Daniel swore himself to secrecy.

"It's just, the reason I lost against that first kid is cause I started
getting -- um -- an erection, and it wasn't going down. I was afraid
everyone was gonna see it."

"Oh, man," Daniel admitted, "I thought that was just me."

"You mean it happens to you, too?" Corey asked, amazed.

"Yeah," Daniel said, "Mostly when I haven't had a nocturnal emission for a
week or so. Like -- um -- like today a little it was happening."

Corey couldn't believe how relieved he felt when his friend said those
words. "Me, too."

For a while, the two boys lay together in the dark as the room warmed up,
listening to each other breathing. Each wondered if the other might drop
off to sleep, but both boys were wide awake and breathing hard from what
they'd been talking about.

Without warning, Daniel reached over and poked his finger in Corey's
rib. The sensation tickled and made Corey jump suddenly. He responded by
reaching his hand around in the dark to tickle Daniel on the neck where he
wasn't expecting.

Daniel jumped and then the free-for-all began. Daniel dug all of his
fingertips into Corey's exposed sides and stomach, where he knew his friend
was most vulnerable. And Corey aimed for Daniel's most ticklish places on
his neck and under his arms. The two boys laughed with excitement as each
tried to pin the other and make his friend submit.

Although Daniel was a strong and experienced wrestler, Corey soon got his
larger body on top of his smaller friend. As Daniel struggled to break
free, Corey kept assaulting him with tickles until Daniel finally said, "I
give, I give."

The two boys both struggled to catch their breath, panting hard. Corey was
still on top of Daniel, and neither boy moved out of the position they
found themselves in. They stayed that way until their heavy breathing
started to subside.

Then Daniel admitted, "I think I might -- um -- need to try one of those
cold showers tonight."

Corey said, "Yeah, me too." He thought he could feel what Daniel was
talking about. As they had struggled to fend each other off, Corey had felt
his own penis stiffen and rub against Daniel's. Both boys had full
erections now, pressing up against each other through their white briefs,
under the covers.

Corey and Daniel both rolled onto their sides, but neither boy wanted to
let go each other. They were such good friends, and they had shared stuff
with each other tonight that neither had ever admitted to anyone else. They
were closer than brothers now.

Daniel asked, "Do you think we should? Take a cold shower, I mean. Do you
think it will work?"

"I don't know," Corey said. He imagined for a moment what it would be like
to go into Daniel's bathroom with him and take a shower, cold or not. "I
guess we could try it," he suggested.

Daniel took the lead, pushing back the covers and standing up. Corey could
see that he was keeping his hand over the front of his briefs, probably
because he was a little embarrassed to be seen, even in front of his best
friend. Daniel opened the door to his room and poked his head out, then
said, "Nobody's in the bathroom now. I guess it would be OK." He still held
his hand cupped shyly in front of his briefs, and was bent over a little as
if trying to hide his embarrassment.

Corey stood up and joined his friend at the door, also covering the front
of himself. For a moment, both boys hesitated. It felt like a big step they
were taking, and neither was sure he was ready.

But then, both of them felt silly just standing there, so they moved toward
the door, and Daniel opened it again. He peeked out to make sure that no
one else was around, and then signaled to Corey to follow. The two boys ran
together in their underwear to the bathroom, and quickly shut the bathroom
door behind them.

Both boys breathed heavily with the excitement of possibly being
caught. Each could see in the other's eyes that they were sharing a secret
together, one of many over the years.

Daniel, as usual deferring to Corey, asked, "What do we do now?"

Corey suggested, "I guess turn the shower on, right?"

Daniel did as he was asked, checking by habit to make sure the water was
warming up. He then asked, "Do we make it cold right away, or start off
warm and then make it cold?"

Corey, kind of dreading the cold water, suggested, "Maybe we should start
off warm and then let it get cold, OK?"

Daniel nodded and checked the water temperature again. He nodded when the
water was hot enough.

Corey wasn't sure what he should do next. The whole time, as well as
possible, he had been covering his erection with his hand and trying his
best to make it go down. But the prospect of taking a shower with Daniel
now had him excited, and he didn't want his friend to figure that out.

He was surprised, then, at what happened next: Daniel pulled his underwear
down past his knees and let them fall to the bathroom floor, then stepped
out of them, saying, "I guess we've showered in front of each other enough
times, right?" But he still stood covering himself in the middle at first
with both hands.

Then, very slowly and self-consciously, he let his hands drop to his sides
and forced himself to keep them there, shyly revealing his erection to
another person for the first time in his life. And he asked his best friend
a question that had had him worried for a long time: "Um... Corey... do you
think it's... um... too small?"

Corey didn't know what to say. The truth was that Daniel's small,
circumcised erection looked to be only about three inches long, and much
thinner than Corey's own penis was. Corey kind of thought it reminded him
of his own penis did when he was maybe 11 or 12 years old, right around the
time he was first getting erections. Right after that, though, Corey had
started growing pubic hair and his penis had started to get a lot longer
and thicker. He pretty much assumed that most guys who had entered puberty
had also had the same experience.

As Corey looked at his friend, he could feel his heart beating faster and
faster. He had always admired Daniel's smaller frame. And he remembered
that when they were younger, Daniel seemed to be a little embarrassed to be
naked in front of Corey. Come to think of it, Daniel often didn't shower
with the other guys after practice, or if he did, managed to get in and out
of the shower before anyone else was in there.

Corey couldn't believe it. Daniel's circumcised penis didn't look much
bigger erect than it did when it was soft, except that it was sticking
straight up and out, pulsing and obviously fully hard. For Corey, it was
literally a dream come true.

Without saying a word, Corey put his hand on Daniel's shoulder in the most
reassuring way he knew how. Then, he pulled down his underwear slowly,
revealing his much larger erection to his best friend.

Instinctively, Daniel's hands reached in front of himself to cover his much
smaller penis. But Corey just rubbed his friend's shoulder reassuringly and
said, "You don't have hide it anymore. Not in front of me. You're plenty
big enough for me, understand?"

With great effort, Daniel moved his hands to his sides again, letting Corey
see his much smaller erection. "But mine is still so much smaller than
yours, Corey. After all these years. I feel so inadequate. Please don't
tell anyone."

"I would never do that," Corey said. "You know that, right? I mean, you
would never tell anyone about what I was doing in the bathroom today, would
you?"

"Of course not!" said Daniel. "Because we're friends, right?"

"Best friends," Corey said.

"Really?" asked Daniel. "I always wanted us to be best friends, but I
thought maybe..."

"Maybe what?" asked Corey.

"I don't know," said Daniel, "Maybe like I was, I don't know, not cool
enough to hang out with a guy like you."

"If that's true," Corey said, "Then I'm really sorry," Corey said. "Daniel,
you are my best friend. You've always been my best friend."

Daniel looked up at his friend and in Corey's eyes he saw that it was
true. He felt choked up and tears welled up in his eyes. "Sorry," he said,
"It's just..." He tried to stop the tears, but found he couldn't, and they
rolled down both his cheeks.

"Hey, it's OK," Corey said, repeating, "You're my best friend,
Daniel. Anyway, I cried in front of you, right?" He put his hand
reassuringly on his friend's shoulder, and Daniel let the tears fall and
broke into sobs. Corey pulled his smaller friend in closer, and Daniel
cried softly against his chest for a few moments.

As Daniel's tears subsided, Corey suggested, "Come on, let's shower up."
Together, they checked the temperature of the shower. Then Daniel pulled
back the curtain all the way and the two boys got under the water.

By this time, both of their erections had mostly gone down, so there didn't
seem to be much need for a cold shower. Instead, the two boys shared the
space, each making sure that the other had plenty of access to warm water.

To do this, they had to stand so close together that Corey found it was
easiest to put his arm around his smaller friend's shoulder. Daniel,
thrilled at his taller friend's attention, slipped his arm around Corey's
waist. Hoping that this was OK, Daniel dared to look up at Corey's face,
and found him smiling down reassuringly at him as the warm water washed
over the front of both their naked bodies.

Feeling a little embarrassed, Daniel almost looked away, but then found the
courage to continue looking into his friend's eyes. Corey kept looking down
at him, too, also not turning away. He even pulled Daniel closer to him,
and squeezed his shoulder.

The two boys continued to look at each other, Corey smiling down at
Daniel. And Daniel didn't quite understand why, but he could feel his own
penis again start to stiffen up. It was a feeling he'd fought more than
once in the shower room at school, even more so once he'd started to figure
out that his erection was abnormally small for a boy his age. He'd made
himself a promise that he would never let any of the other boys ever find
out.

But now, he knew didn't have to fight it. Not in front of Corey. Even
though Corey was way bigger than he was -- a normal boy who was growing
normally, as Daniel had wished and prayed to do -- he could see in Corey's
eyes that they really were best friends, and they didn't have to hide
anything from each other. For Daniel, who had practically worshipped Corey
for so long, this connection felt like a dream that had finally come
true. Daniel continued to look deep into Corey's smiling face, feeling his
heart pounding in his chest as his penis kept getting stiffer and stiffer,
harder than he had ever felt it before, until it was sticking almost
straight up, a still very small but pulsing steel rod.

The dream got even better when Corey squeezed a huge gob of liquid soap
from a blue bottle onto Daniel's chest and laughed playfully, still not
breaking eye contact.

Daniel laughed, too, scooping his hand across his own chest and stomach,
then rubbing it across his much taller friend's chest and stomach. It felt
so good touching Corey like this. Normally, when they touched, they were
always trying to pin each other or gain an advantage in some way. While
Daniel always enjoyed these encounters, he had secretly wished he could
just be held by Corey gently and playfully, just like this. He never
imagined in a million years it could actually happen.

Corey gave Daniel another squirt with the soap bottle, then put it back on
the shelf and began rubbing the soap into his smaller friend's smooth pale
chest. Even though his own penis was only semi-hard, he felt a little
guilty pride in how big it looked next to Daniel's fully stiff but still
tiny erection. Even though they were just about the same age, Corey knew
that he was becoming a full-grown man, and Daniel was still just a boy, a
boy who looked up to Corey and needed his protection.

And Corey realized for the first time how much he liked that feeling. He
liked the way that Corey looked up to him and always seemed to crave his
approval, the way he was doing right now. And if he'd ever had any doubt,
Corey knew for sure that from now on, he would always make sure that
Daniel, his best friend, was his first priority. And he said out loud,
smiling, "You know, Daniel, I'm always gonna be there for you. Always."

Daniel's heart leapt in his chest as he heard Corey speak those words. It
felt so natural what was happening between them. He could feel that
something had changed between himself and his best friend. Something
magical was happening. Corey had his strong arm around Daniel, and Daniel
could feel that Corey was protecting him in a way that no one had ever done
before. And that first-ever feeling of safety had started to make his
penis, small as it was, start to become stiffer than he'd ever felt it get
before. And he wasn't even embarrassed about it. Heck, it sure did feel
great to just let it stick up like that without even trying to hide it!

And then, Corey reached over and hugged his smaller friend. For Daniel,
this was total confirmation of their new bond as best friends. Their
smooth, soaped-up chests pressed together and Daniel could feel Corey's big
arms pulling their bodies together tightly. Daniel could also feel his
tiny, stiff penis press against Corey's much larger penis. It felt a little
embarrassing, but it also felt good.

Then, as Corey held his friend, he started to grow fully erect. Daniel
could feel his friend's big dick start press up against his stomach, almost
reaching up to Daniel's chest. And as Corey continued to press his much
larger body against Daniel's, the smaller boy's stiff erection started to
push straight in underneath Corey's soaped-up, low-hanging testicles.

For Daniel, who had never so much as kissed another boy, and who had been
holding back so many feelings of arousal for so long without relief, this
sudden stimulation in his aching penis became instantly overwhelming.

With almost no warning, Daniel felt a pressure in is balls, suddenly knew
what was starting to happen and tried desperately to stop it. "Corey..." he
said, hoping his friend would understand and pull his body away from his
own, so that Daniel would be able to hold back the feeling that he was
starting to lose control.

Instead, hearing Daniel say his name, Corey whispered, "Daniel, you're my
best friend," and then pushed his body into his friend. Daniel felt his
last grasp at self-control slip away as his thin but rock hard erection,
already aching for release, slid all the way between Corey's thighs.

"Unnnnnnh," Daniel cried out, still trying desperately to hold back, "I
can't.... I'm gonna.... Unnnnnnnhhhhhhhh......." And then he lost control
completely and finally allowed his fully engorged penis to plunge in and
out, squirting again and again underneath Corey's balls. He knew he wasn't
supposed to let this happen. He'd tried desperately to hold it in. But
after weeks and weeks without relief, as hard as he tried, Daniel was just
powerless to stop it.

It only took Corey a few seconds to figure out what was happening to
Daniel. He understood that at that moment, no guy could stop what was
happening, so he just held Daniel close and allowed him to finish. Truth to
tell, he kind of liked the feeling of Daniel's small penis rubbing
furiously under his balls, releasing its sperm between his thighs. "You're
old enough to father a child now," Father D had once said, "That's quite a
responsibility, always remember that." Corey had to admit that he was proud
of his smaller friend. It looked like as small as it was, Daniel's penis
was ready to do the job.

At that moment, though, Daniel was feeling anything but proud. He knew
perfectly well that a man was meant to hold back from squirting a heck of a
lot longer than he had been able to do. Worse yet, his loss of control had
happened just at the moment when Corey had shown signs of really liking him
and wanting to be friends. Now, all that was in jeopardy.

Daniel allowed himself to finish and, without looking at Corey, turned and
faced the wall of the shower, covering his face.

Corey put his hand on his best friend's shoulder and asked, "Are you OK?
What's wrong?"

But Daniel was too ashamed to answer.

To be continued...


Thanks for reading! If any of this story speaks to you, I'd love to hear
from you at judestjude2357@gmail.com. I promise to do my best to answer,
especially if you're feeling alone with no one to talk to about this kind
of stuff.

Also, go ahead and check out my other story, Inadequate Men in the Nifty
"Beginnings" section:
https://www.nifty.org/nifty/gay/beginnings/inadequate-men/

Thanks again! TJ