Date: Thu, 5 Oct 2023 20:46:40 -0400
From: Jude St. Jude <judestjude2357@gmail.com>
Subject: Corey's Struggle - Chapter 5 - The Measure of a Man

Corey's Struggle

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Chapter 5 -- The Measure of a Man

Corey said again, "Daniel, what's wrong."

"I'm sorry," Daniel said, "I know I shouldn't have... If you want to go,
it's OK, I understand."

"Understand what?" said Corey. "Daniel, are you embarrassed because
you... in front of me?"

Daniel, still facing the shower wall, too ashamed to turn towards his
friend, just nodded.

"Are you kidding?" Corey asked him. "Daniel, come here." He forcibly pulled
his friend towards him, pulling him away back under the warm flowing
water. He explained, "Daniel, you don't have to be embarrassed in front of
me -- ever. What part of best friends are you missing?" And he waited until
Daniel finally looked him in the eye.

"Really?" Daniel asked at last.

"Of course!" Corey said reassuringly, almost shaking Daniel by the shoulder
and smiling.

"But I..." Daniel began, "I ...you know, all over you. I didn't mean to..."

"I know," Corey said.

Daniel tried to explain, "I just couldn't hold it in. I really tried not
to. I tried to warn you, too."

Corey suggested, "I guess you've just been holding it in a long time, huh?"

Daniel said, "Yeah, I guess. Anyway, I promise I'll never do it again, OK?"

The next thing Corey said surprised him. "If it happens again, I don't
mind. I mean, it's not like you went to the bathroom on me, right?"

Daniel hastened to say, "No way, I promise!"

"I know," said Corey. The two boys were silent for a few seconds, and then
Corey asked, "Um, how did it feel?"

Daniel's eyes lit up, and he smiled, admitting, "It felt really good. I
mean, I tried really hard to hold it in, of course. But, um, when I
couldn't ... it felt really good."

"Wow," Corey said. Here was his younger, smaller friend telling him about
an experience that he had never had. And Corey, wanting Daniel to feel
proud of that, again took his friend by the shoulder and said, "That's
pretty cool, right!"

Daniel smiled back at Corey the way he always smiled when his friend
noticed him. Then he said shyly, "I'm glad, um, I'm glad it was with you,
Corey."

And nothing could have made Daniel happier than Corey's response, "I'm glad
it was with you, Daniel."

And with that, Corey reached over and hugged his smaller friend. Daniel
gladly accepted the hug, and melted into Corey as his taller friend pulled
him close.

They stayed that way for a while until Trevor started pounding on the
bathroom door, "Yo, hurry up in there, I need to take a piss."

Corey and Daniel grabbed each other in guilty panic. In a few moments,
though, they realized that Trevor had seen his younger brother and best
friend literally a hundred times in every possible state of undress without
once shown the slightest interest in them. After turning off the shower,
Daniel hurriedly threw a towel at Corey, quickly whispering instructions to
his friend.

Corey quickly wrapped himself in the towel waited as Daniel turned the
shower back on and got in, sliding the shower curtain closed. Only then did
he open the bathroom door to see Trevor, clearly unhappy for having to
wait, moderate his annoyance a little when he saw Corey.

"He's in the shower now," explained Corey, "But you can go in, it's OK."

Trevor, looking annoyed, pushed past Corey in a hurry and shut the door
behind him.

A few minutes later, Corey had dried off completely and was back in
Daniel's room. He had just gotten back under the covers when Daniel
appeared, wiping a drop of sweat from his brow in humorous pantomime. Corey
smiled, and Daniel finished toweling himself off. He watched as his friend,
still very wet from the shower, unselfconsciously used the towel to dry his
chest and back, then his stomach and legs, and finally his hair, before
standing for a few moments in front of the electric heater to complete the
job.

Corey had never before seen Daniel look so comfortable being naked in front
of him, and felt something new in his heart as he watched his friend. In
fact, Corey realized that since they were 11 or 12, Daniel had never let
Corey see him naked for very long. He had always found an excuse to stay
covered, with either a towel or his underwear covering him. Now, as Daniel
dried himself, Corey looked at Daniel's perfect body, including his small
penis, which was now completely soft and tangled in Daniel's light dusting
of pubic hair.

Corey now completely understood why Daniel had hidden it all these
years. Right around that time, Corey realized, he himself had started
puberty while Daniel was still in his boyhood. A few times, Corey had
proudly allowed Daniel to see the beginnings of his own fast growth
spurt. Only now did Corey begin to realize that Daniel had responded by
hiding his own small penis, at least until his own puberty had begun. But
since that time, Daniel had felt inferior to his taller friend, not because
of his height or outgoing personality or athletic ability, but because his
smaller penis made him feel self-conscious.

Only when Daniel's entire body was thoroughly dry did he finally kneel down
to the floor where Corey was already waiting for him on the air
mattress. Corey threw open the covers, and Daniel crawled under them.

Usually, the two boys would have just lay on their backs next to each other
and talked, or joked, or maybe one of them would have provoked the other
into some wrestling. But now, Daniel gravitated over to Corey, and he could
feel his best friend welcome him and draw him close. Corey wrapped his arm
around Daniel's back, pulling his smaller friend to him.

Looking deeply into Daniel's eyes, Corey said, "Can we make a pact together
-- a sacred pact?"

Daniel said, "Of course." Then asked, "What kind of pact?"

Corey said, "A truth pact." And then he said, "I solemnly swear to always
tell the truth to my best friend Daniel, from now until the end of the
world, so help me God."

In response, Daniel repeated the words that Corey had said. Then he asked,
"So, can I ask you something, Corey?"

"Yes," said Corey.

"Do you think my penis is too small? Like much smaller than other guys?"

Corey hesitated only a few seconds before saying, "Yes." He could see the
hurt in his best friend's eyes, but also the appreciation that he told the
truth. Then, Corey asked, "Does it really bother you?"

Daniel said, "Yes. A lot. I mean, I don't want anybody to know about it. I
never take a shower in front of the other guys like Tim does."

Tim, thought Corey, Tiny Tim from the team. Corey knew that he'd called Tim
by that nickname at least a couple of times in Daniel's presence. Now he
regretted it. He asked, "When I called Tim... that name... did it hurt your
feelings?"

Daniel steeled himself up and said finally, "Uh-huh. For a long
time. That's why I thought you didn't really want to be friends with
me. Not really."

Corey felt so sad and ashamed hearing those words. "Daniel, I'm so sorry. I
wish I could take those words back. I really do."

He was surprised at Daniel's response, "No, it's OK, really. It's just good
that we can talk about it. I... just... I just really like you is all."

"Me too!" said Corey, "I've always liked you so much, Daniel." And unable
to hold back any longer, Corey kissed his friend, first once gently, and
then more and more deeply.

As Daniel kissed Corey, he rubbed his larger friend's broad strong chest,
feeling some envy but mostly excitement. He'd admired Corey's chest so many
times, and had never imagined that he would ever be able touch it in this
way. His greatest excitement up until now had been when Corey had joined
the wrestling team. Although this meant that Daniel would be able to touch
his friend, it was always couched in competition: Daniel always had to
pretend that when they wrestled together, it was no big deal.

The two friends continued to kiss, feeling more and more comfortable
together, until Corey could feel Daniel gradually slowing down next to
him. A few minutes later, Daniel had fallen asleep in Corey's arms.

In the dark with only the light from outside the window filling the room,
Corey could see his smaller friend's perfectly beautiful face, fast
asleep. Even better, he was holding Daniel close to him, something he'd
dreamed of so many times but never dared to believe could actually happen.

Although the two boys had slept in the same bed for years and years, it was
so different now. Both of them had shared feelings with the other that each
had held in for so long. Corey felt an unimaginable sense of relief in
finally being able to talk with Daniel about the feelings that they'd both
been having.

Even more, some of Daniel's confessions about his insecurity about having a
small penis had stayed with Corey. As Daniel slept, Corey found he couldn't
get these some of these thoughts off his mind. He kept replaying their time
in the bathroom over and over again, especially the parts when Daniel
revealed his own embarrassment about having a small penis. Corey didn't
want his best friend to feel embarrassed in front of him, not really. At
the same time, every time he thought of how nervous and ashamed Daniel had
been to show his much smaller penis, Corey felt more and more excited.

He kept thinking about how tiny Daniel's penis looked even when it was
fully erect. It couldn't have been more than 2 or 3 inches. In comparison,
Corey's own penis had easily been that big when he was 10 or 11 years
old. And once he hit puberty, there was no stopping its growth -- it seemed
like every day, whenever he pulled down his pants, it had grown a little
more into its full adult size, even before his 14th birthday.

Corey absently stroked Daniel's hair as he slept, imagining Daniel's
experience around the same time. In those days, the two boys would still
take baths together, having fun and splashing around in the tub until one
of their parents would tell them it was time to get out.

Towards the end of that time, Corey had proudly displayed his new growth to
Daniel. At first, Daniel had seemed interested in exploring together. A few
times, the two boys had done some comparing, putting their penises together
to see whose was bigger. Whenever they did that, Corey had found it so
exciting that his penis grew to its full size -- maybe 4 or 5 inches in
those days, and surprisingly thick.

"Make yours get bigger, too," Corey remembered telling Daniel.

"I'm trying," Daniel said, betraying his frustration. Corey remembered now
how embarrassed Daniel had been the few times they'd tried that
together. Even though his penis was also sticking straight out, it was
obvious that there was a fundamental difference between the anatomies of
the two boys. Despite being completely hairless, by the time he was 12,
Corey's testicles had already dropped and started to enlarge, and his penis
was well into its pubescent growth spurt. He was obviously becoming a man.

In contrast, 12-year-old Daniel was small for his age, and could easily
have passed for 8 or 9. Even though they were the same age, Daniel was
anatomically still very much a boy, and showed no signs of that changing
any time soon.

But every day, the difference between them became ever more apparent. Corey
grew taller and his voice started to deepen a little. His muscles grew
naturally larger and his chest grew broader. Meanwhile, Daniel still looked
younger than his age, and didn't grow an inch. For Corey, the difference
didn't really matter. But when he thought back on the last time they'd ever
bathed together -- or, come to think of it, the last time he'd ever seen
Daniel naked -- Corey felt both ashamed and, surprisingly, a little turned
on.

It was something he had almost forgotten, or more likely simply buried,
because at the time it was very embarrassing, and he had never told
anyone. But of course, Daniel knew, because he had been there. And now,
finally, Corey understood how important it had been.

Corey remembered that Daniel was staying over his house that night. As it
started to get late, Corey was excited to take a bath together, but Daniel
kept putting it off. "You know, you don't need to take a bath every day,"
he explained.

The night got later and later. Even Corey's parents and younger brother had
gone to bed. He and Daniel were still up watching TV and playing games on
the floor of his room. Daniel had just about fallen asleep on the floor,
when Corey woke him up, convincing him not to sleep in his clothes.

Corey remembered that on this occasion, Daniel took his pajamas and went
into the bathroom to change into them. That in itself was new, because
usually the two boys would change in front of each other all the time,
sometimes staying naked and running around the room together just for
fun. Corey, left in his room by himself, felt a little hurt that Daniel was
suddenly acting so shy about his body.

Unable to contain himself any longer, Corey grabbed his own pajamas from
the drawer and walked toward the bathroom. He knocked on the door and heard
his friend say, "Come in." The door wasn't locked, and Daniel was still not
fully undressed.

"I need to change into my pajamas, too," Corey explained, locking the door
behind him. Then, he turned on the bathtub faucet and added, "As long as
we're in here, we might as well..."

Corey could see the discomfort on Daniel's face, but he was desperate to
share the tub with his friend as they had always done. When he was younger,
fun as it was, it didn't seem so important. But now, for Corey, spending
time with Daniel naked for as long as he could felt like the most important
thing in his entire life.

His heart skipped a beat when Daniel said, "OK." But then it sunk a little
when he started to add, "Only, maybe we shouldn't... you know...." And
Corey could see that Daniel was beet red with embarrassment as he said
those words.

But Corey was so excited about being naked with Daniel that he didn't ask
what his friend was talking about. He just said, "Don't worry, it'll be
OK." And Corey pulled his shirt over his head and dropped his pants to the
floor, then standing only in his white briefs, checked the temperature of
the water in the bathtub. And after the water level rose another couple of
inches, Corey pulled down his underwear, stepped out of them, and got into
the water.

In that moment, nothing could have made Corey happier than being here with
Daniel. He didn't really understand exactly why he felt so good this way,
but he like being naked in front of his best friend, and sat cross-legged
in the warm water, unashamedly open and exposed. As he did, his penis
bobbed up and down on the water, and Corey could still remember how good
that felt.

Then, he realized what Daniel had been trying to say to him a few moments
before. Corey understood for the first time that maybe it was too much for
Daniel, doing the new stuff that they'd been doing, comparing penises and
getting hard together. He didn't want his friend to feel uncomfortable. So,
he grabbed one of his younger brother's toy boats -- the kind that he and
Daniel used to play with only a few years ago -- and pretended to sail
it. He knew it seemed silly and childish, but he hoped that this action
would put Daniel more at ease.

And it worked! At first, even though Daniel stayed in his briefs, outside
the tub, he picked up another boat and started sailing it alongside the one
that Corey was playing with. Then, he splashed Corey a few times, but when
Corey splashed him back, Daniel said, "Dude, don't get my underwear wet! I
don't have another pair!"

"Just take them off and get in," Corey told him. And, he felt his heart
explode once more when Daniel did just that, placing his briefs on top of
the toilet seat to keep them from getting wet.

For a few minutes, the two boys laughed and played together as they had
always done. It felt great, like nothing had changed between them. Daniel
even felt comfortable enough to get up on his knees in the tub and lunge
down on Corey, attempting to tickle him. Corey laughed, and started
tickling Daniel back, and soon the boys were wrestling together as always,
and shushing each other so that Corey's dad wouldn't start banging on the
door, telling them to shut it down.

Corey didn't realize it at first, but seeing Daniel naked and wrestling
with him had started to give him the beginnings of an erection. A lot of
times at that age, when Corey felt an erection coming on in an inconvenient
place -- like in school or when he was with his family -- he could just try
to think of something boring or distracting and it would go down on its
own. Most of the time, it was no problem.

So, when he first started feeling his penis start to stiffen, Corey picked
up the toy boat again and started to play with it. Daniel, also sitting
cross-legged in the bathtub across from him, also picked up his own boat
again and the two boys continued to play with them.

But Corey couldn't control himself from looking at his much smaller friend
who was sitting naked in front of him. He had secretly always felt that
Daniel was beautiful, and loved looking at him. Often at night, even when
they were little, Corey would fall asleep thinking about Daniel --
sometimes at the beach, wearing only a bathing suit -- other times when he
would pull down his pants in the woods near their house so he could go to
the bathroom.

Those feelings had only gotten stronger since Corey had entered
puberty. And with Daniel naked right in front of him, Corey just couldn't
stop himself from looking at Daniel's beautiful thin body. The trouble was,
it was getting more and more difficult to keep from getting an
erection. Corey tried to distract himself, but the warm water felt so good,
and being naked with his best friend was making it impossible to hold it
down. He could feel his heart pounding with arousal as his penis started to
pulse more and more insistently, growing bigger and bigger.

At first, Corey tried to cover it, first with the boat and then with his
hand. And he kept trying to will it to go back down. He even tried to push
it down into its soft state, without much success. Corey had literally
never felt his body so fully turned as it was right now.

At the same time, Corey knew that even though he was the same age as his
friend, Daniel just wasn't quite as ready for this experience as Corey
was. He tried one last time to make his penis go back down, but despite
every effort he tried to make, he could feel that it just wasn't
responding. When he finally dared to look down, Corey could see that his
full erection was sticking straight up above the water line, pulsating up
and down. There was simply no hiding it.

Daniel, now kneeling in the tub, looked at Corey, and then looked down at
his own penis, still soft and much smaller, even tiny, compared with
Corey's big one. The two boys were totally silent as they both looked at
their own penises and each other's -- one the penis of a man, the other
obviously of a boy, even though they were the same age.

Finally, Daniel said, "Yours gets really big." He sounded envious and a
little dejected.

As he lay there now holding Daniel in his sleep, Corey remembered how these
words had landed. Hearing Daniel say them hurt him a little, because he
didn't want his friend to feel bad. At the same time, he was a little
ashamed to remember how Daniel's words of admiration also massively turned
him on. Corey's heart pumped furiously in his chest at he looked at
Daniel's much smaller penis and understood how much bigger and manly his
penis was. In response, he could feel his penis pumping as big and fully
erect as it had ever been.

Meanwhile, Corey remembered that in the bathtub, Daniel's penis seemed to
shrink even smaller, and Corey could see his embarrassment as his whole
face and neck, even his shoulders, turned red with shame. Strangely, he
didn't try to hide himself. Maybe he didn't think of it. Or maybe he didn't
see the point.

In fact, Daniel seemed to invite comparison again when he said, "Yours gets
so much bigger than mine." Corey wanted to say something consoling to his
smaller friend, but the truth was so obvious that there wasn't much
point. But again, hearing Daniel's words gave Corey another rush of
excitement. Then Daniel added, "I just wish... "

Corey desperately wanted to hear more. "Wish what?" he asked, knowing that
he shouldn't.

Sounding defeated, Daniel said, "I just wish mine wasn't so small." And
then he added, "I feel so inadequate."

Hearing those words, Corey suddenly felt something happen deep in his
stomach that he'd never felt before. All of a sudden, he felt like he had
to pee really bad, like he was almost going to do it right there in the tub
in front of Daniel. That would have literally been the worst thing in the
world, so he tried to get out of the tub and see if he could rush to the
toilet in time. But before he could move, the feeling completely took him
over and he felt his penis start to empty suddenly without warning, pulsing
up and down uncontrollably again and again without his even touching
it. And as it did, a few squirts of clear white stuff shot up out of his
penis an inch or two into the air, and then landed in the tub between the
two boys.

Instinctively, Corey grabbed his penis so that it wouldn't squirt into the
tub near his friend, trying to guide the flow instead onto his own
stomach. But the second that Corey's hand touched his own erection, he was
flooded with an even stronger desire to keep rubbing it. It felt so big in
his hand and so sensitive that Corey just couldn't hold back from rubbing
it, opening up a floodgate of more white stuff squirting from the engorged
head of his penis. It was all he could do not to cry out in ecstasy, but
even so, Corey could hear himself grunting
"Uhnnnnnn.... Uhnnnnnn.... Uhnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn....", completely unable to
control himself.

As he thought of this memory again, lying in bed close to his best friend,
Corey felt his heart beating faster and faster, and his penis started to
get very erect even though he wasn't touching it. Daniel was still sleeping
naked in his arms, and Corey ran his hands lightly up and down his friend's
body, hoping it wouldn't wake him.

"Everything OK?" asked Daniel.

Corey remembered his truth pact with Daniel and said, honestly, "Well..."

Concerned, Daniel immediately leaned up a little in bed and asked Corey,
"What's wrong. Are you not feeling well?"

Corey felt embarrassed but knew he had to answer honestly. "No, I'm
OK. It's just that... um... my penis has an erection that won't go down."

Daniel says, "Oh man, that's the worst. Especially because we're not
supposed to... you know, we're supposed to just wait until it goes down."
He then added, "Um... can I see?"

Corey didn't say anything, just started to slowly pull down the blankets
that was covering his body. As he did so, he felt a little nervous. But he
was pretty sure that Daniel wouldn't make him feel more embarrassed, so he
let the blankets fall all the way down, revealing his full erection in
front of his friend.

Daniel only said, "Wow," and then added, "Yours gets really big. A lot
bigger than mine."

Corey's heart leapt when Daniel said those words, and his erection strained
even bigger. He tried to cover this by saying, "Right now, I just wish it
would go down. Or maybe..."

"Maybe what," Daniel asked.

Corey admitted, "I was thinking that if I was at home, maybe if I could
fall asleep, I could have a nocturnal emission. But I wouldn't want that to
happen here." He added, "It's just really frustrating getting an erection
that won't go down."

"Yeah," Daniel said, "I guess I kind of got lucky before in the shower." He
thought for a minute and said, "Um, I've got an idea, if..."

"What's that," Corey asked.

Daniel told him, "Um, just close your eyes and try to sleep, OK."

Corey said, "OK," and did as he was told. He could feel Daniel squirming in
bed, and then heard the sound of things getting knocked over. Despite the
distraction, he kept still and did his best to relax, even if sleep was
just about impossible. After a while, Corey said, "OK, I hope this doesn't
feel cold..."

The next thing Corey knew, he was experiencing the most incredible feeling
he had ever felt. He opened his eyes, and saw that Daniel had started to
slowly rub his erection with a huge amount of hand cream.

"Close your eyes," Daniel ordered him, and Corey did his best to
obey. Then, Daniel asked, "How does it feel?"

Corey was so overcome with the sensation of having his best friend's hand
on his hard penis that almost couldn't talk. At first, all he could say
was, "Um... yeah... unnnhhh... it feels really good." Then he added,
"Only... um... maybe we shouldn't be... Uhhh... doing this..."

Daniel said, "I think it's OK. I mean, you aren't allowed to make yourself
have an ejaculation, but if you can't help it... cause you're
like... asleep.... So, maybe just try to fall asleep, OK."

Corey, with his eyes closed, feeling wave after wave of pleasure wash
through his body, managed to say, "Ummmm... ok.... only it might take a
while for me to fall asleep, and..." his breathing started to sound
strained, "I don't know how long I can..."

Daniel got the hint and stopped rubbing Corey's erection for a few seconds,
saying, "Wow, it's really big now."

Corey sucked in his breath at these words. Even though Daniel had stopped
rubbing him, his hand was still grasping Corey's erection. Just hearing
Daniel tell him how big it made his heart beat even faster, though he
wasn't quite sure why.

Then Daniel added, "Whoa, dude, it's like 8 inches long."

Corey opened his eyes again, and he could see that Daniel was actually
holding a ruler up against his hard dick. "Really?" he asked. He had
measured himself only a few months before, and he'd been only 7 inches. The
thought that he'd grown so much secretly turned Corey on in a way he
couldn't express to his friend.

Daniel said, "Yeah, look for yourself." Then, a little dejected, he added,
"Damn, I wish mine got big like yours.... The head of yours compared to
mine is, like, giant!" And with that, Daniel started rubbing and squeezing
the head of Corey's swollen penis up and down really hard with his slippery
hand.

Corey's reaction was immediate and unstoppable. He could feel himself start
to shake from the pit of his stomach all the way down to his knees as he
started to lose control. "Daniel, please stop, I think I'm gonna...
uhhhhhh... oh no.... I can't.... UNNNNNHHHHHHH!!!!!"

Without warning, Corey's big testicles suddenly fully retracted up into his
body, and then started to unload, emptying themselves out onto his chest
and stomach. He tried desperately to keep from crying out as squirt after
squirt of white semen shot out of his dick in every direction.


To be continued...


Thanks for reading! If any of this story speaks to you, I'd love to hear
from you at judestjude2357@gmail.com. I promise to do my best to answer,
especially if you're feeling alone with no one to talk to about this kind
of stuff.

Also, go ahead and check out my other stories:

Inadequate Men in the Nifty "Beginnings" section:
https://www.nifty.org/nifty/gay/beginnings/inadequate-men/

Sean and His Dad in the Nifty "Incest" section:
https://www.nifty.org/nifty/gay/incest/sean-and-his-dad/

Thanks again!
TJ