Date: Wed, 1 Jul 2020 15:37:41 +0000
From: emd f9 <emdf9@outlook.com>
Subject: Confessions to a Sex Therapist Part 1

The doctor asked, "So tell me, why are you here?"

"I need to talk to someone about my sexuality and you are a professional.
What I say is safe with you." I replied.

She said, "That's true, so go on."

So I talked

It began about seven years ago. I found myself wondering what men's
cocks looked like while I was in meetings with them. Were they long,
short, thick, thin? I imagined what their dicks looked like. After a few
months of this imagining I began to wonder what it would be like to have
one of their dicks in my mouth. I began to think about it a lot -- a
whole lot.

I was 65 then and now am 70. I started near the end of my marriage. I was
actually living alone most of the time; my wife wouldn't come home from
"work" until 5:00am. So, I actually had two brief sexual encounters with
women. At that time, I was still thinking and wondering about men but not
acting on it until July of that year. Don't get me wrong. If I had a
willing woman and a willing man in front of me, I'd take the woman every
time. But it's easier to find sex with other men.

Any way that's when I did Xxxx. It was my first time. I was house-sitting
in another state for a friend. I was constantly horny and cruised my home
town Craigslist daily. I posted an ad looking for a dick to suck. Xxxx
responded and we chatted for a couple of days. I sent him a naked
full-frontal selfie that I took in the house's bedroom mirror and he did
the same. He told me he had ED and was small. I told him that I didn't
care, that I wanted to try it. We set a date for a few days after I would
return home.

The day came and he came to my house while my wife was at work. We were
both nervous and talked for a few minutes. Finally, I invited him into
the bedroom where we went and undressed. He lay down on the bed and I got
between his legs. I took his dick in my hand and marveled at how nice it
felt. Then I took him in my mouth and was amazed at how natural it was.
Like it was supposed to be there.  It took a while but I finally got him
hard and after a few more minutes he blew his wad. I held him back in my
throat and felt him gush. I tasted his cum and the taste reminded me of
the plastic taste that sucking water from a squirt gun tasted like when I
was a kid. I swallowed every drop and he got soft. After he left, I beat
off because I was that hard and horny. All the while I was sucking him, I
dripped pre-cum. Lots of it. I had him again a few months after my
divorce when I had move to the other side of town.

I remember that the second time I blew him he kept interfering with what
I was doing. He wasn't getting hard fast enough to satisfy himself and so
he kept pushing me away and playing with himself trying to get a hard on.
I was quite happy having him in my mouth soft. It was more fun to try to
get him hard. His soft dick nestled into my mouth and it felt so good.
His hard dick barely touched the back of my mouth so I didn't gag at all
when he was hard. He wasn't too thick either. I prefer thinner dicks.

I guess that my favorite thing is sucking guys. But I prefer the right
atmosphere. I'm not interested in someone who wants a blo&go. I want
something more relaxed. If we can spend an hour or so in bed, playing,
experimenting, talking etc. that's so much better. Part of the fun of
giving a good blow job is when the guy starts out soft, gets hard, cums
and then goes soft again. I enjoy the whole range. Though it is still a
lot of fun there is something missing when the guy is already hard as a
rock. And he usually cums quickly.

By now I've sucked over thirty guys. Once in a car. He was black and my
second one of the evening. I had sucked off a man who came to my house, I
have hosted most of the time, and after he left, I was still wanting more
dick. My ad was still up and I got more responses from it. One guy wanted
me to come to his apartment house and park in the lot and he would come
to my car. I agreed and drove a short distance to the assigned place. He
came and got into the car and unzipped his pants. I adjusted my seat and
bent over the console and got his dick into my mouth. He wasn't very big
and it didn't take him long to cum. I enjoyed sucking him but I don't
think I'll do it in a car like that again. Maybe the back seat.

Another time I posted an ad saying I wanted to suck someone outside. I
got a response and a few hours later I met the man in the parking lot of
a local store. He followed me in his car and I drove to a secluded place
not too far away. We walked along a path into the woods where I hit my
knees and he pulled down his shorts. I played with his dick for a little
and then sucked him into my mouth. He was still soft when I did that. I
sucked him, playing my dick around his shaft until he got hard. After
that I bobbed my head back and forth, sucking him. After a few moments,
not long at all, he came -- a lot. I loved tasting and swallowing every
drop of his cum. Like Maxwell House he was good to the last drop.

I think the most memorable time was when I was camping in another state.
I scanned the local Craigslist and responded to a couple of ads. One guy
replied back and we agreed that I would come to his place and we would
suck each other. I got there and we immediately stripped and got into his
bed. I had recently chipped one of my front teeth in the gap between the
two front teeth. It wasn't very big but apparently, while we were doing
69, it caught on some of his skin and he hollered. I apologized and we
continued. Then he laid me on my back and put pillows under my head. He
got right above me and proceeded to really fuck my face. He was at least
seven inches and not thick; my ideal. He made me gag a few times as he
went a little way into my throat but I loved every second of it. I
remember that he came a good bit and I swallowed it all and sucked him
until he was limp. I would love to learn how to deep throat without
gagging. That was the closest I ever came and it was fantastic, even with
the gagging.

The thought of being with two men turns me on too. There is too much to
imagine doing to list though I would like to try being spit roasted.
I've seen videos of that and it simply looks like way too much fun.
Thinking of having a dick in my mouth and another up my ass turns me on
just thinking about it.

Now, about size. I have had a couple of long thin ones and they were the
most fun. It's easier to get a thin dick deep into your mouth. One that
is five inches doesn't quite fill me. A six inch one definitely can hit
my throat and I have to be careful not to gag. The guy I met camping was
definitely longer and made me gag but I really loved it, gags and all. I
wish he had hung my head over the edge of the bed and had really shoved
it in until he couldn't go any further. I have always though that with
enough practice I might be able to overcome the gag reflex. They say that
practice makes perfect.

Personally I like 69 with me on the bottom. I love feeling a dick slide
in and out of my mouth. I just wish I didn't have a gag reflex. I'd love
to go deep throat. I just love sucking dick. Haven't had one in quite a
while now but maybe when this pandemic ends I might get the chance. But,
like I said, I like it easy, not fast and hard.

So, doctor, the next time I'll talk about some more encounters, like the
guy with Peyronie's disease .