Date: Tue, 3 Jan 2023 21:46:06 +0000 (UTC)
From: "ozorli65@aol.com" <ozorli65@aol.com>
Subject: Me & James O (29)

This is a fictional tale of this hot guy I met online. I don't totally
remember how i got to his chat page. But I remember at one point finding
him on post and then on  Twitter. I have chatted with the guy a few
times, but not hooked up. James is a bicurious,. average guy with average
body and a nice bearded face. But it's his cock and balls that make me
crazy. Perfect size. About 7 or so inches long and with a nice curve. And
a set of balls I could eat for days.

Well as mentioned. It's a tale of fiction as we have not physically met.
And I don't see that really happening. But one can hope.

Enjoy.
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
Me & James O (29)


... I had been shattered after what I had seen in my old apartment. After
catching my boyfriend and my roommate fucking like wild rabbits in my
bed. There in the old apartment I had shared with sed roommate. I had so
fallen for James (my boyfriend). Deeply fallen for this gorgeous man that
seemed to make me feel better than anyone had ever made me feel before
him. I wanted a forever with him.
And I had trusted m roommate. We had been friends for years. And even
though I knew he was a slut, I never cared as he never pushed the
boundaries of our friendship. He had never crossed the line, never tried
to take my guy.
But then he did. And it was James he took. The guy he didn't even want
before. But I found him face down on my bed and James slamming his big
hard dick into his whore ass.
So I had been ever so betrayed by both of them.and after a rough time of
yelling and cursing and breaking with both of them, I was alone. Truly
alone now. And I hated it. Hated it so. But it was better that then fool
myself that either of them actually cared for me. Heck, I really didn't
think anyone gave a shit about me after that.

"I am so alone now" I said to myself again
"I will never love again"
"Can't risk the pain again"

So after it all I buried myself in work. James had stopped trying after
my cussing him out multiple times. And Jaden never really tried to
reconcile. He easily moved on without regard for what he did. And he
never tried to call me either.

"Piece of total shit!" I crowed
"We were best buds"
"But I should have known that he might do something like this"
"Fucking whore"

I started to hang out with straight people for a bit. That way I could
avoid and gay Interaction. As at this point I hated that I was gay. Not
because of me, but because I was now on the believe that no gay man could
be true and or monogamist. That I was a rare bird that would never find
anyone to be with. And after a while I became comfortable with my whole
situation. I was okay with being alone. As my mom used to say, 'better
alone than in bad company'.
But it would be on a night out with my straight friends that I would come
across James again. Something I was not expecting at all.

"Yeah sure. I will come out" I said to my friend Lisa
"I need to get out and do something"
"Yes. You have been stuck at home for weeks now" she said back.
"You need life"

Well I met her and a few others at a cool music bar and grill. Good food,
drink and live music. A nice atmosphere to enjoy myself.
But as I sat there listening to the live band play out some old Rick n
roll I was just looking about the place. I don't know what told me to,
but it was like a little voice in my head urging me to look about.
And that was when I saw James. My James. He had just walked in with two
others. His friends looked up eat and ready to party. But his face was
dour and almost unhappy looking. My heart both sank and thumped in my
chest. I could not believe we were in the same building as one another.
And I felt my anger rising back up in me. But deep inside I was almost
happy to see his handsome face. Even if he did looked scraggled and
worn.

"Shiit!" I huffed as I turned away from seeing him. Afraid he might see
me looking as my eyes lingered in his features too long.
"What. What is it?" Lisa asked me
"Fuck. It's my ex" I said back
"Who?" She chirped
"The one that cheated on you?"

I felt my heart begun to race in my chest. I could not help it. It had
been many many months since the rough breakup. And I still felt that
tingle for him, even now.

"I gotta get outta here" I stated
"Don't want to see him"

She agreed and then I stood up. We hugged and I started to move through
the crowds to leave. Not looking anywhere but towards the door.
That was when I heard someone shout my name. I pushed through people
faster now. More determined to leave. But as I got to the front hall I
heard it again. My name. I stopped and then turned. Afraid of whom it
was. Yet it was who I thought. It was James. I saw him and he saw it was
me. He smiled softly.then just looked at me for a few moments. Then he
raised his hand up to say hello.

"Hey" he huffed as he.pulled up that hand in the hello gesture.

I just looked at him. Looked at the man that I had so fallen for, the man
that broke my heart into a millions pieces. I wanted to run at him and
punch him, but didn't. Hell I couldn't. It was James, and unfortunately I
still loved him. And seeing him only brought it back. Like a bomb.

"Hi" I said back with a quiver in my voice
"What, what are you doing here?"

He stepped closer to me. His eyes lighting up more yet filling with
moisture. I felt my own eyes start to wet up too. He looked like hell.
His beard full and I shaven. Looking like someone that had not been
friends with a shower in a while. There were dark circles under his eyes
and he just looked drawn out. His clothes wrinkled and not sharp like he
always wore them.
It immediately occured to me that our breakup was affecting him too.
Maybe he was sorry and or remorseful.
But as I felt my heart almost melt, I felt and remembered the pain of his
betrayal. How he did it, regardless of what he felt now. He did it.
Cheated on me when he knew how much I adored him.

"Friends suggested I go out" he said
"Me too" I answered
"You look like shit"
"Yeah. Probably do"
"But don't care"

He passed and sighed. Then he wiped away at his eyes. I could see more
tears welling up in them. And he tried to talk more. But his voice began
to crack with his anguish.

"I broke your heart" he stated
"I did something Soo fucking stupid"
"And it is my fault"

He sniffles up some snot as he tries to continue. But his tears became
more I overwhelming as he looked at me.
"I am so so sorry baby" he then blurted
"I fucked up and I have suffered for it"

He went in to say that his life went into the dumpster after it. Feeling
sorry for himself after each attempt to reconcile with me. To beg for a
forgiveness I was not sure I could give him.
I mean I understood that he was bisexual and he had thoughts for women.
But he was with me at the time. And rather than tell me he was interested
in someone else. He just fucked them behind my back. Not telling me to my
face what was in his head.

"I cannot fix what I did" he continued
"I just hope you can forgive me one day"
"And I do hope you find happiness"

He then turned to let me go. He turned and then stopped in his tracks.
Then looked back at me to end our conversation with something to leave me
with.

"I- I love you!" He huffed

Then he started to cry. Then he walked away and headed back into the bar.
I felt a punch of weight hit my chest. And I could barely breath. Taking
in a pain filled and laboured breath. I moved to the wall to try and
catch a better breath. Thinking I may just pass out from the intense rush
of emotion as it poured over me. And i just pushed his name out through
the tears spilling from my eyes now. Just repeating his name over and
over.
I was able to compose myself enough to finally leave. A few people near
the door and outside looking at me as the tears trickled down my face and
I wiped at my eyes.
I got to my car and started it. The radio came on and the. For some
reason I erupted into a river of emotion and started to just bael in my
car. The tears seemingly now wanting to stop. And my chest hurt, a lot. I
felt I would get no relief from this new pain.

"Ohh God. Oh God James. James. James" I cried...
++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
To be continued