Date: Mon, 23 Jul 2018 01:50:18 -0700
From: Ryan White <liciousryan@gmail.com>
Subject: All In The Mind Ch 1

Yo peeps!!

Hope you enjoy this story. I certainly enjoyed writing it.

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Ryan


ALL IN THE MIND
CHAPTER ONE

"Detention, Gareth? Really? What the fuck, did I raise a fucking deliquent
for all these years?"

"Dad, please, I had to skip class because they locked me in the toilet
during lunch! I couldn't get out!"

"Oh my God, Gareth, man up! I ain't raised no deliquent and you know what?
I didn't raise no fucking homo sissy either. When and if those damn bullies
come at you, you fucking fight back! Why are you being bullied for anyway?"

Gareth looked down at his uneatened plate of food. His hands shaking was a
dead give away.

"Are you queer, Gareth? ANSWER ME!"

"YES! There, you finally forced me to say it, are you happy now, Dad? I
look at boys and I get hard! That what you wanted to hear?"

Gareth's heart was beating harder than it had ever been. But goodness knew,
he couldn't cope with his dad's humiliation any longer. He suffered enough
bullying at school. But...oh God...he probably just shat on his own grave
in coming out to his father of all people. Only two people knew. Only Tommy
and Nate. They were the two prople he trusted most in the entire world. His
only friends in the world...Fuck...He was certain his dad was gonna kick
him out. Where was he gonna go? What would he do for the rest of his life?
For sixteen years, he had taken this man's abuse. Verbally and
physically. And all because his mother died in giving birth to him. Was it
his fault? Did he in his infancy, kill his mother on purpose? Was it his
fault that his father had lost the love of his life, but instead gained the
son that, in his mind, had kill her?

His father stood up, took his plate and scratched out the perfectly cooked
steak into the trash. Gareth swallowed slowly. He had made that steak with
his own hands, cooked it the way just like his father liked it. That's what
his dad had thought of him. In his eyes, Gareth was trash? Hard as he
tried, he couldn't stop tearing up. There was so many people in the world
who couldn't have kids of their own...amd just look how his father treated
him...it wasn't fair...his body shook when he heard his father's voice.

"If I throw you out now, you will grass me up to social services. You're
still underage. If I say something homophobic, you will probably record me
with that cellphone of yours, and grass me up to the newspapers and fucking
social services. Either way, until you are eighteen, there is fuck all I
can do to beat that queer shit out of you. You can stay here. Est my
food. Drink and wash in my water. You don't need to cook my food anymore. I
don't want it. Not from you. When you see me, you go to your room. You come
out of there, when I head off to work. You don't talk to me, I don't talk
to you. I'll give you a weekly allowance, only because I'm forced to. When
you turn eighteen, you're out of here and the money stops. Don't look at me
like that. You CHOSE this. You wanna be homo, this is how things are. You
can start now by leaving me the fuck alone and fucking off to your
room. Now. GO!"

Gareth got up and walked up the stairs with slumped shoulders. He knew this
would happen if and when he ever came out. His dad was not accepting of
anything out of the ordinary, least of all his son being gay. He closed his
bedroom door and sighed. Tears flooded his cheeks. His heart ached and his
body was starting to get numb. His head started to hurt. He gripped the
sides of his temples as the pain got worse. It felt like he was gonna barf
any minute. He heard a noise outside his bedroom window. He sloely moved
over to the window, his head still throbbing, and looked outside. Sure
enough, there he was.

"Gareth, you okay?"

"Tommy. Come on in. Be careful of the window sill."

Tommy made hus way from the tree branch he was sitting out outside Gareth's
room and with a little effort, he finally slid inside. Gareth sunk to his
knees as the pain inside his head and chest got worse. He immediately felt
a pair of arms go around him. As always, Tommy was the only person that
could calm him down. Him and Nate was all he had in this world. He reached
out and touched Tommy's arms. He could feel the warmth generating from his
best friend. His only bloody friend, apart from Nate. No one at school
wanted anything to do with him. They thought he was a freak and that he was
weird. But he didn't care. Never ever did he wanna fight back. He was just
trying to get through all the days as best he could. He knew Tommy was
waiting for him when he got home. And if Tommy was busy, he could count on
Nate to keep him company. Afterall, its becsuse he fell in love with Tommy,
that he eventually realised he was gay.

"Wanna feel better, bud? Want me to make you feel good?" Tommy asked
softly, kissing Gareth's temple and continuing to caress the sixteen year
old's arms. Gareth looked upwards and into Tommy's handsome face. He saw
the pure love in the eyes of his best friend. Tommy would do anything for
him. And vice versa. Afterall, they had known each other for fourteen
yesrs. He gripped Tommy's arm and leaned forward. Gently, he placed his
trembling lips on Tommy's...the latter sighing in lust as the two boys
kissed and showed the other exactly how they felt about each other. Gareth
felt Tommy's growing dick inside his trousers. Tommy bit Gareth's bottom
lip, leaving the boy shaking and quivering with sheer testosterone flowing
through him.

"Get naked and join me in the shower..." Tommy whispered, got up and walked
over to the ensuite bathroom inside Gareth's room. As quick as lightening,
the latter boy undressed and stormed into the bathroom, where he saw his
best friend naked and rock hard...as usual the boy managed to undress in
near inpossible record time...it didn't help matters that Tommy was
caressing his sexy and muscled body right in front of his eyes.

"Why didn't you turn on the water?" Gareth asked, breathlessly...keen to
see the water droplets cascading from and over that sexy body.

"Couldn't start without you, now can I?", Tommy said smilingly, before
getting inside the shower. Still, he made no effort to turn it on. Gareth
turned the valve and the water started slowly flowing through the
showerhead...and quicker as the liquid warmed up.Tommy's arrousal was
becoming more and more noticible until his hot teenage cock was standing
out and surely proud. He heard the door of the shower open, and
close... and looked straight in the eyes of a naked Gareth. In turn,
Gareth's eyes drafted slowly and carefully over over Tommy's upper body,
those juicy nipples, the georgeous abs and stomach muscles, that shockingly
sexy `V' line and ofcourse his soft 5 inch cock.

Huge in any aspects, but with such a sexy face and body, one could forgive
Gareth for lusting over that! Gareth smiled as he saw Tommy's cock that was
on display and he took the liberty to go and place his georgous self next
to his friend...the same friend he has been doing this with ever since he
had hit puberty.. The first boy he ever loved.

"Good fumes, pal?" he asked Tommy.

"Yeah well, I guess you could say so," Tommy replied, looking Gareth in the
eye.

"Yeah, I can see that. Didn't you get some action last night or were you
dreaming of fucking Nate?"

Gareth froze instantly. Tommy had hit a nerve. And he knew it.

"Don't even try to deny it, pal. I saw you guys last week, after you came
home and your father slapped you across the face because you didn't make
his dinner early enough. You and Nate were at it good and proper, kid. I
was watching in the tree outside. You were stuffing that sexy motherfucker
with every single inch of cock that you have! Mind you, you're not bad
looking yourself, Gareth.  Not bad at all...and I'll lie if I say I wasn't
jealous."

Tommy smiled slyly at Gareth, who with a twinkle in his eye, came ever
closer to the hot sexy motherfucker. You would never say this was the same
Gareth who was normally so meek and mild and allowed everyone to walk over
him Gareth reached out and ran his fingers through Tommy's wet hair while
the latter's cock became as stretched as it can be, achingly erect and
ready to go.

"Gareth FUCK, you're making me horny here, pal. Can I feel your pecks?
Gosh, you're hot for crying out loud..."

Gareth stood up and planted himself infront of the delicious Tommy, who
reached out and placed the palm of his hand on the pectoral muscles of
Gareth. The sheer warmth and hardness that sprouted from this boy...Tommy
couldn't wait to fuck his rock hard dick into this beautiful creature. He
drifted the palm of his sweaty hand upwards towards his hot nipples, rock
hard because of the sensual excitement of the moment. Tommy gasped as his
hand traveled to Gareth's neck and got a frim grip on his hair, running his
hand through the short brown spikes.

"Who are we kidding, Tommy?" Gareth asked with a sly smile.

"No one, man. I swear I really wanna kiss you until you beg me for
more. Take me, you hot fucker!" Tommy screamed exitedly and pulled Gareth's
head towards his own. The two budding teenagers and life long best friends,
smashed their tongues against eachother's, both getting such a kick
thinking what would happened should their other school mates see this. That
only made them hornier! Tommy pulled away and attacked Gareth's neck with a
venom of passion that he had for this sexy dude. He reached down and softy
caressed Gareth's cock and felt it actually grow in his hand as he gently
started to jerk the rapidly stiffening cock.

"Fuck you, Tommy! You're not playing fair!" Gareth moaned and pushed Tommy
away with such force that he landed against the wall of the steamed up
shower. As usual, Tommy showed no signs of being hurt. He nearly jumped on
Tommy and kissed his hardening nipples, moving from the left to the right,
not wanting to leave either of them alone for nessasary than what was
needed. He licked his way down the delicious flesh of Tommy's body,
covering all the ridges and strong stomach muscles. This may be taboo, two
boys doing this, but there was no way a woman could ever know what a man
really needed and wanted, sexually that is, and Gareth knew by the sheer
levels of volume coming from Tommy's hot mouth that he was making his
friend feel so hot and special. When he arrived at Tommy's very, very stiff
8 incher, he didn't think twice. Giving one gentle stroke from top to
bottom, smearing the precious glob of pre cum that was pouring from Tommy's
cock over the red, flaring cock head, he leaned in towards the thick base
of the teenage schoolboy cock and closed his lips over the thick flesh.

"OH MY GOSHHH, Gareth! I...oh holy shit...fuck suck my big prick, pal! Oh
man that's good!" Tommy sung his emotions out in passion of what Gareth was
giving him. He reached down and gripped the bench with his left hand and
started caressing Gareth's shoulder with his right, while every now and
again running his hands through Gareth's hair. Gareth went to town on sexy
Tommy's cock as he sucked and tossed the cock off as good as he could. It
was so hard, hot, alive...Gareth licked the hard flesh and kissed the top
when he reached it. The shudder that went through Tommy's body made him
more determined to make Tommy cum his sexy white bestie protein cum spurt
onto his tongue.

Tommy was so hungry for the rock hard, angry red organ that was dangling
between Gareth's legs and, as close as he was, he threw Gareth off him and
the latter landed on the ground hard. It didn't feel like he had been
pushed, but rather slipped, for some reason. Looking at Tommy in confusion,
the boy quite simply had other ideas. He turned around so that this face
was facing Gareth's crotch. The latter finally got on to what Tommy wanted
to do and pulled his sexy ass toward him. He grabbed Tommy's cock and
sucked the hard, red flesh into his mouth, and at the same time Tommy once
more, as he had done a hundred bloody times, grabbed Gareth's cock and
tasted the sweet pre cum and delicious cock once more.

"Fuck Tommy, I forgot how good you are with that...!" Gareth moaned through
bobbing on Tommy's dick. He popped the dick out, leaving it glistening,
continued to jack off the boy's dick, before plucking Tommy's head upwards,
placed his hands around his best friend, and they started making out like
they had never kissed anyone before. Tommy's big dick refused to mpbe left
alone however, the cock smacking him on the stomach.

"Gareth, please, fuck put your sexy lips around my...ahhh fuck that's
good!"

Tommy arched his back and yelled as his cock was enveloped by Gareth's hot
mouth. He looked down and saw his cock going in, out, in, out of the sexy
mouth. Tommy's reflux gave in as the big dick stopped his breathing, and
instead, he leaned down and kissing Tommy's chest, his nipples, paying
special attention to his abs and licked and kissed the strong stomach
muscles. Tommy felt like he was on top of the world as his beautiful face
was drenched in utter pleasure of his body and cock being devoured by his
life long best friend.

Gareth held the bell of Tommy's cock in his mouth and then looked up at the
latter boy.

"Tommy, you wanna fuck me?"

"Oh yes, oh FUCK YES, Gareth!"

Gareth gave Tommy's cock one more stroke, caressing the cockhead and then
lied down on the bench, waiting for that giant 9 incher to split his ass
open. Tommy was a beautiful sight at that moment, his sixteen year old nude
body, with his hard cock standing at attention. He turned Gareth around so
that the latter was on his back. The water had gotten luke warm, but
neither boy cared tombe honest.

"I wanna see your sexy abs as I fuck you, you hot fucker," Tommy said as he
gently leaned in and kissed Gareth, who sighed into the passionate
kiss. Gareth leaned back and opened his legs further so that Tommy's cock
was level with his fuckable ass. Tommy broke his kiss and held Gareth at
his shoulders while slowly but surely pushed his big cock into the promised
land, inch by inch.

Tommy came from behind Gareth, reached around and caressed his hands all
over Gareth's abs. They felt rock solid and Tommy sighed as he felt his big
cock being developed in Gareth's tight ass and at the same time he felt the
need to pleasure his friend even more,Tommy started to kiss his
shoulders. He leaned his head back as far as he possibly could and he
started to kiss Tommy back, while stretching his arm to the limit to run
his fingers through Gareth's sexy black hair. Tommy started to pump his
cock in and out of Gareth's ass and the latter groaned in utter pleasure as
his ass was stretched for the very first time. Tommy licked his lips
hungrily, in staring at Gareth's slim, sexy ass and took his choice. Once
more, running his hands all over Gareth's chest, he gently moved to the
back of the beautiful, but misunderstood boy, and held his stiff cock in
his hands. Never in his sixteen year old life had Gareth ever been this
excited or turned on. Who needed the losers at school? He had his best
friend. Tommy.

"Oh buddy, you feel fantastic!" Tommy moaned into Gareth's hair and he
really started to pound his cock in and out of his bestie's ass.

"Fuck, your cock feels fantastic! Come on,Tommy, fuck me! You're so much
better than Nate!" Gareth screamed while he pounded his own rock hard dick
in and out of his own fist, jacking himself off in the rhythm of Tommy's
thrusts.

"Both you fuckers are so fucking hot! But I'm your boy. Remember that..."
Tommy whispered as he continued to pierce Gareth's backside.

"Hmm gonna cum! I can't hold it, Tommy, jack me off!  Quick! Get your hand
on my cock!" Gareth shouted, his voice hoarse with emotion and lust.

Tommy leaned over Gareth's sweaty body and gripped Gareth's own steel hard
dick and started to jerk it off at a blistering pace. Gareth felt his balls
contract against his pelvic bone and and couldn't help but to hump his cock
inside his best friend's hand, which was a sick sight to see, pumping it in
Tommy's fist. Gareth's face overtook a sexual pleasure as he felt his cum
boil in his sweaty balls and with a huge grunt he leaned back into Tommy's
hot body as his cum spurted out of his cock, spilling its white, slimy
nectar onto his bestie's hand. Gareth sighed as Tommy still demanded every
drop of his cock, bringing it to Gareth's mouth and allowing him to taste
his own cockseed.

Seeing the sight of Gareth eating his own cum, Tommy started to fuck him
harder, faster, more determined to plant his white, virile, teenage seed in
Gareth's ass and with a fierce scream, he withdrew his cock entirely and
slammed it back into Gareth and felt his globs and globs of cum blast into
Gareth's bum. Tommy's hot abs contracted and his six pack became as
highlighted as ever, really displayed how stong and sexy his muscles
was. He collapsed on his best friend, both boys exhausted. He was laying on
top of the tiresome Gareth and softly kissing his strong shoulder
muscles. Gareth suddenly got an idea and he jerked his head up. His gaze
raced down their hot features and Gareth turned towards Tommy, caressed his
face, looked deep into his eyes and leaned in to kiss him, both of them
tasting Gareth's left over hot cum as they fought to devour eachother's
faces. Tommy fell to the ground, unable to lean on his elbow, little drops
of water dripping from his sixteen year old, yet still beautiful body, and
he felt Gareth laying his head on his chest, his hands lovingly rubbing him
down, calming him, and caressing his back and chest.

"I...I love you..." Gareth whispered. Tommy didn't reply.

****

"Where were you all afternoon? I thought we could have hung out. Or
maybe...do even more?" Nate whispered as he tossed a banana over to Gareth
in the cafeteria. Immediately Nate was pushed aside by two bigger boys as
they pushed infront of him in the que to pay, without any guilt or emotion
whatsoever. Both boys could hear Digger Barkley's cackle laugh as
fistbumped his friends. Digger was the main school bully. Many kids had
tried and failed to get him expelled from the school over his attitude and
mean spiritness. He quite literally had no conscious. He was a ruthless kid
with a rich daddy who was more than willing to pay huge amounts to the
school in order for his kid to stay. To try and get Digger into trouble was
useless. He always got away with everything.

"One day, man. One day, all this will be over," Nate said to Gareth. Gareth
grabbed the banana and walked over to one of the tables.

"Before I forget, you can't come over tonight. I've already made plans with
Tommy," Gareth said, taking a bite from his banana.

"Dude, seriously, I'm not a stalker or anything but what is so great about
Tommy that you never have time for me anymore!?" Nate asked, his eyes
narrowing. He wasn't pissed, just frustrated. Gareth was his only
friend. He didn't understand what was so great about this Tommy guy that
Gareth cancelled all plans he had, the moment Tommy wanted to hang
out. Couldn't he just say no, just sometimes? He still haven't met this boy
who was supposedly so wonderful. He didn't know if he even wanted to.

"Nate, come on. What do you want me to do? Me and Tommy go way back..."

"Yeah, I know. I've heard it a thousand times before. You know each other
ever since you were two years old. How anyone can remember that far back,
fuck knows. Do me a favour, will ya? Let me know if and when you have time
for me," Nate said and stood up, leaving Gareth alone. God knows, he knew
he wasn't in a position to make demands but this Tommy guy was ruining
their friendship. And he didn't know how much longer he was prepared to
just sit back and just take it.

Nate wasn't gone five seconds when Gareth noticed Tommy had arrived and
made himsef comfortable at the table.

"Nate again? Really?" Tommy asked sarcastically.

"He is my only friend here at school," Gareth shrugged his shoulders,
finishing his banana.

Suddenly he felt a hard slap across the back of his head. He saw stars as
he tried to forget the pain he felt at the back of his skull. As he tried
his best to focus, he saw Digger and two of his minions laughing as they
walked on. Quickly, he turned back towards Tommy to check if he was okay,
but yet again, Tommy was gone.

****

As Gareth got ready for bed, he was surprised and worried that Tommy hadn't
showed up yet. He usually snucked in just before bed time. Gareth opened
the bedroom window and shone his torch out towards the branches of the tree
outside his room. Nothing. Wow. He clenched his fists. This was all Nate's
fault. He had known Tommy for the past fourteen years. There was never a
day that they didn't see eachother. Ever since one day at the park, when
Gareth was only two years old, when his dad, for some reason, left him at
the swings and disappeared. He felt so alone. So scared and terrified. He
must have cried for hours, too scared to move...and then suddenly... Tommy
was there. Tommy helped him get the attention of a friendly lady who
eventually returned him to his father. Ever since that day, Tommy was with
him. Grew up with him. It was only natural that he fell in love with Tommy,
when the time came to hit puberty and he developed feelings for
someone. He'd do anything for Tommy, his best friend. The boy he loved.

He sighed and closed the window. It was cold, he couldn't leave it open all
night. His dad would go nuts if a burglar got in the house, because of
him. He climbed into bed and closed his eyes. What was he gonna do if Tommy
was angry at him? He had so few friends in the world, and now one was being
taken away...his head started to hurt. His chest rised and fell with the
reflex of a classic anxiety attack. His breathing was rushed. He clutched
his forehead. It drained him, the sheer pain of his migraine.

"I'm here. Chill out. I ain't going anywhere."

"Tommy! Fucking hell, dude. Where did you go?" Gareth said happily, the
pain in his head subsiding.

"I'm always here. I have been for fourteen years. You're my guy, you know
that. Get some sleep, okay? I'll be right here, all night," Tommy
whispered, before kissing Gareth's temple.

"But how...how did you get in...?"

That was Gareth's final words before the mentally exhausted boy fell
asleep.  And as Gareth drifted off to dream world, the image of Tommy also
evaporated.

Because for the simple reason that he couldn't exist without Gareth being
awake and fully conscious.

Most kids have an imaginary friend when they are young. To this day, it is
classified as normal by your average child psychologist. It often replaces
a need in a young child that he or she, psychologically fails to process or
recieve. Tommy appeared in Gareth's life because his father treated him
like shit since he could remember. He blamed Gareth for his mother's death.
Never had young Gareth ever felt the love from another male, triggering his
brain to keep Tommy with him to fill that need, even at the age of sixteen.
Even worse...he still thinks Tommy is real. He has fallen in love with
someone who does not exist.

The sleeping boy smiled. He knew Tommy would be there when he woke up. He
was at peace.


THANKS FOR READING!!

I'd be very interested to hear you thoughts on a subject like this. Should
Gareth find out the truth? Nate, clearly, likes Gareth but because of
Tommy, Gareth won't move on. Hmmm hahahaha.

Email me :)
liciousryan@gmail.com