Date: Mon, 9 May 2011 10:17:27 -0600 From: Andrew Lorenzetti Subject: Broken Tears 17 Broken Tears - Chapter 17 By Andy Lake You must be 18 or older to read this story. Stop if the idea of sexual intercourse between same sexed couples disgusts you, and if that's so, what the fuck are you doing here??? Thanks, Stephen, for editing and being available. All usual disclaimers apply. If you are not supossed to be reading this, then you shouldn't, but I know I can't stop you. *sigh* All the following characters are fictional, all made up by myself, thanks to my twisted, yet erotic, imagination. I'm the author, so obviously, I own the story and copyrights. It can only be spread with my permission or downloaded for personal pleasure. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Recap - Well, last chapter had some more teasing going on between Ty and Brandon, who still has unresolved issues with his feelings towards Ty. Jeff is hurt due to Ty not taking him back, Ty and Li decided to move in with Ty's family due to the rapist making them feel insecure, Ty signed a contract with Kyle that stated he would help and perform at Kyle's cousin's wedding...But what he found out after signing is that he would perform along side Brandon, who is the groom's brother. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------- *********************** How To Move On? - Chapter 17 *********************** [ Ty's POV ] Ughh! Singing with Brandon will be torture! I know it, but for $1000, it's worth it. "TY!!" I heard someone screaming in the deserted hallway. "Yeah?" I said turning to see Dina staring at me. "Jeff...He told me to tell you to go to the auditorium...Most of the school is there due to friday assembly" She said with a smile on her face. "I think he is going to sing to you." She said smiling. My heart warmed...Jeff, sing to me?? I smiled and ran behind her as we made our way to the full auditorium. Jeff was sitting on a chair on the stage, and Ms. Cadburry, the drama teacher, made her way to the center stage where the mic was placed. "Well, students, as you know people are getting ready for the Talent show, and well, after we are done with the week's announcements, Jeff here is going to sing for us." She said smiling, and people applauded as she walked off of the stage with a smile on her face. The principal went on about the announcements for the week, and as soon as he was done, Jeff grabbed the mic. The music started playing, his eyes were bloodshot, and he looked angry as he grabbed the mic and started singing. Maroon 5 - Makes Me Wonder Wake up with blood-shot eyes Struggled to memorize Way it felt to hearing lies People that made you cry Feel so good to be bad Not worth the aftermath After that, after that Try to get you back I still don't have the reason And you don't have the time And it really makes me wonder If I ever gave a thought about you Give me something to believe in 'Cause I don't believe in you anymore, anymore I wonder if it even makes a difference to try Yeah, so this is goodbye Can't stop my spinning head Decisions that made my bed Now I must lay in it Deal with things I've left unsaid Want to dive into you Forget what you're going through Get behind, make your move Forget about the truth I still don't have a reason And you don't have the time And it really makes me wonder If I ever gave a thought about you Give me something to believe in 'Cause I don't believe in you anymore, anymore I wonder if it even makes a difference Even makes a difference to try, yeah And you told me how you're feelin' But I don't believe it's true anymore, anymore I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry So this is goodbye I've been here before, one day, a week And it won't hurt anymore You caught me in a lie, I have no alibi The words you said don't have a meaning 'cause I still don't have a reason and you don't have the time And it really makes me wonder If I ever gave a thought about you and I So this is goodbye Give me something to believe in 'Cause I don't believe in you anymore, anymore I wonder if it even makes a difference Even makes a difference to try, yeah And you told me how you're feelin' But I don't believe it's true anymore, anymore I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry So this is goodbye So this is goodbye Yeah, so this is goodbye Yeah, so this is goodbye Maroon 5 - Makes Me Wonder He finished singing, and I stood there with my mouth open...That was real mean. People looked around between each other, and he was there on the stage with a smug grin on his face. "That's right, I don't even give a fuck about you!" He screamed at me from the stage. The principal looked around nervously as Jeff laughed and sat on the chair he was before. I didn't cry, but I was beyond offended. He knows he still has feelings for me. Why would he lie? I walked around the crowd of silent people and walked to Jeff. "You are an asshole, you know...I would never lie about my feelings." I said as he scoffed and rolled his eyes. "You were just an experiment, faggot." He said with the same grin. "Wow...You are really hurt. Well, but that doesn't mean you can be an asshole to me just because I won't take you back.. Deal with it." I said as he clenched his fists and looked up at me. "I- Never- Loved- You." He said with a look of fury in his eyes. I went to the guy with the computer that controlled the karaoke, whispered a song into his ear, and he nodded and searched for it. "Now it's my turn, but I'm not gonna lie about my feelings like you did." I said walking to him with the mic in my hand. Jimmy Wayne - Stay Gone I've found peace of mind, I'm feeling good again I'm on the other side, back among the living Ain't a cloud in the sky All my tears have been cried And I can finally say [Chorus:] Baby baby stay Stay right where you are I like it this way It's good for my heart I haven't felt like this In God knows how long I know everything's gonna be okay If you just stay gone I still love you and I will forever We can't hide the truth We know each other better When we try to make it work We both end up hurt It ain't supposed to be that way [Chorus:] Baby baby stay Stay right where you are I like it this way It's good for my heart I haven't felt like this In God knows how long I know everything's gonna be okay If you just stay gone When we try to make it work We both end up hurt Love ain't supposed to be that way [Chorus:] So baby baby stay Stay right where you are I like it this way It's good for my heart I haven't felt like this In ooh in God knows how long I know everything's gonna be okay If you just stay gone I know everything's gonna be okay If you just stay gone I finished singing, and many clapped and started booing at Jeff. He looked at me, but his eyes were different now. He looked down at the floor, buried his face in his hands, and then looked up to me. I looked down at him with a sad look on my face, and he tried to speak but he couldn't. He stood up and ran out of the auditorium, and I looked over at him and followed him as fast as I could. "Don't run away. We have to talk about this!! I won't let you hurt yourself again!!" I screamed as he halted and looked back at me. We were both in the hallway, I walked to him, and he looked at me and hugged me. "Why do you care?" He asked as he hugged me tight. "Because I know I still love you." I said as he squeezed me tighter. "I love you too...Ty, please forgive me. It's just that without you I don't even know what to do." He sobbed and held me closer to him. "I already forgave you, Jeff, but we can't be a couple." I said as he released me from the hug and looked frustrated. "WHY?! WHY?!" He screamed at me. "Because you ruined my life. I can't just forgive that. I know we all make mistakes, but you led me on. You told me you loved me and did the same to Cale...You played with both of us...I love you Jeff, but time took away the passion. It's more of a brotherly love than a passionate one." I said as he grabbed my face, kissed me hard, and pulled away and looked at me, looking confused. "See...Time does heal wounds. Time heals everything, Jeff." He stroked my cheek. "But we were so in love." He whispered as he kissed my forehead. "Yeah, but it got ruined Jeff, and I really meant what I said in the song...I can't have you as a friend. I just can't have you near me because it always makes me wonder what I did for you to cheat on me. Was I too ugly, too stupid, too simple?.. I just can't be near you, Jeff.. Please understand." I said as he looked into my eyes. "You were the best thing I ever had, and I know I need to move on...I'm leaving Ty...Doug and Jane left to the states a few months ago...I talked to them last week, and well, I decided to move there, too...Maybe that way I can move on." He said as he stroked my cheek. "Yeah, that would be better for both of us." I said as he nodded, and he leaned in and kissed my lips one last time. "I will miss you.." He said as he retraced. "I will miss you too" Our tangled hands slowly untangled, and he looked at me with a sad smile. "I didn't lie. You will always be the best thing I ever had." He turned around and walked through the doors. I wiped one tear that was falling out of my eye, and I smiled. I will miss Jeff, but we both need this. I turned back to the auditorium to find Li there alone, all the students gone. "Let's go home." I said, and she looked up and ran to me. "Are you ok?" She asked, concern filling her face. "Better than ever." I stated. "Jeff??" She asked. "He's moving to the states with Doug and Jane." I said as she smiled. "That would be better for both of you." She said as I smiled at her. "I know. I will miss him though...He was my first love." I said as we interlocked our hands and made our way to the car. "Well, maybe you will see him again." "Maybe..." I entered the car with Li smiling at me. We drove home to get our bags and head to Dad's. [ Brandon's POV ] "WHAT THE FUCK!! I'm not singing with Ty!!" I screamed at my brother while sitting in the living room. "Why? He is just a kid from school, and Elena wanted him to sing at our wedding. Please, Bran, do it for me." Brendan, my bro, begged. "It's just that Ty and I have an odd thing that I'd rather not mess with." I said unsure. "Well, you signed the contract, so I don't think you have a choice." He said with a bitchy tone. "I hate you, you know!!" I started to walk towards the staircase. "Nahh, you love me, and get ready because in a few hours we have to head to the lake house for wedding preps." He said as I walked to my room. "Yeah! Great! Just fucking great! I can't even get a nap here." I mumbled as I opened the door to my room. I walked inside, jumped on the bed, sighed, and punched my pillow. Fucking wedding! Fucking Ty!! I woke due to my brother's knocking a few hours later. "Time to go!" I groaned and walked out of my room. I followed him down the staircase and into the car, and he drove to the wedding location, which was near a lake. We arrived, and there was Ty. He looked cute as hell. He was wearing overalls and a white t-shirt under, and he was all smiles. He was on the top of a big ladder with a brush in his hand and painting some stuff on a banner that was on top of the front doors. He looked so cute. His hair was messy and falling in his eyes every now and then, but he kept on painting. "Take a picture. It lasts longer." My brother said with a laugh as he parked. "I-t's not that." I stuttered. "I don't mind, bro. He's cute. I would do him (wink). Book him for my bachelor party." Brendan said with a sly grin. "Fuck you and stay the fuck away from him or I'll fucking kill you!" I screamed as his eyes opened wide. "Damn, you got it bad." He said with a wide eyed expression on his face. "I don't. It's just that I've seen him go through some hard shit, man." I said as he nodded. "Yeah, but I know that longing look you have on your face. It's the one I have when I'm with Elena." He said with that fucking grin. "Shut up." I opened the door and walked out. Ty was brushing some hair out of his eye, and the ladder jiggled. He tried to stabilize it, but it shook harder and Ty began to fall. I ran like I have never ran before with open arms, he fell right into my arms, and the ladder fell to the side. Ty had his eyes closed, and the look on his face was pure fear. "Shhhh. It's ok." I whispered. He opened his eyes, and those beautiful blue eyes stared into mine. He looked confused then relieved, and then he smiled. "Thanks, Brandon." He said with his hands still around my neck. "It's no problem." I said still holding him tight. "You can let me down now." He giggled, I blushed and lowered him to the ground. "Sorry, I guess you are stuck with me for the singing." I said trying to lighten the mood. "It can't be that bad." He smiled and ran back to fix the ladder. This time I dug some holes so it stood in place, and he climbed back up like nothing had happened. He is always brave. "So, superman...That was really romantic." My brother said as I entered the decorated house. "Shut the fuck up." I said rolling my eyes and walked to the lake. I sat there and started throwing rocks in the lake. Ty is cute...Very cute indeed, and his smile lights up every room. He also has this little nose that he wrinkles when he gets serious...Can I really like him that way? Maybe I should just fuck him out of my system...Maybe that way I can forget him. WHAT THE FUCK AM I THINKING!! I have Dina, and she's hot. I can't be gay...I just simply can't! I threw the stone hard into the water. Fuck it, I have to fucking forget Ty. He can't make me love him. That shit is just fucked up!! I stood up and looked at my reflection in the water. "You are not gay." I said and walked back to house with a fake smile on my face and a tornado of thoughts in my brain. [ Jermz POV ] "Dina, I still love you...why are you still with Brandon?" I asked with a little desperation in my voice. "I just can't leave him, Jermz. I love him, too." She said as she tried to hold my hand, but I took it back. "I understand that Dina, but that doesn't give you permission to toy with my emotions. Let me move on then, and don't get mad when I date someone else. Li is awesome, and I can see myself with her in the future. She is so perfect, and she likes me a lot...So if this is really your decision, let me go, and don't you dare question my feelings for her next time cause I really like her...Be happy." I said as I turned around and started walking away. "Jeremy, please give me some time. You know I loved you since we were ten...Please?" She asked as she grabbed my arm. "Dina, I don't want to be with you anymore...I still love you, but the thing is I won't stand on the sidelines and wait for you to break up with Brandon once he fucks up. If I wait, I might miss out on something really good...So, if you are going to be with Brandon, then be with him...But I won't wait. I will try and have a relationship with Li. I could fall for her...She is really good to me and really awesome to talk to...She is near perfect...Like I thought you were." I said as she looked towards the ground. "Jeremy, you can't demand me to leave Brandon to keep you." She said a little sad and angry. "I never asked you to...If you want to stay with Brandon, I respect that, but don't expect me to watch you two fall more in love and just fucking cry wishing it was me...You were one of the best things in my life, but really, do you expect me to wait?" I asked a little offended. "I don't expect you to, but I would love if you just gave me a little time." She begged. "As much as I hate to see you this sad, I can't. I'm sorry I gave you years of my life and waited one year for you to realize that I was the one you really loved, but it seems like I was wrong...And remember Dina, karma will get you back real bad!, You are dating Brandon in front of Ty. Brandon put Ty through hell, and you've been flaunting your relationship with him in my face. It's time I move on." I walked out of her house. She had called me to talk, but I had done most of the talking. I heard her sob as I closed the door, but if I went back there, I know I would be all over her asking her to not cry, and I would be back to square one. I had done the hardest part. Now I had to move on. I grabbed my phone and made a call. "Hey, Li...Would you like to go with me to get some ice cream?" I asked through the phone. "I would love to...But I thought you were with Dina?" She asked with her soft voice. "No, in fact I just broke every connection with her, and I really would like to get serious with you." I said with confidence. She was silent, and that silence led to awkwardness. "Really?" She asked with a cracked voice. "Yeah, I really like you, Li. You are perfect." I said, which made her giggle. "Thanks, Jeremy. I'm free right now." She answered. I shut my phone and hopped in my car. This felt more than right, and this was the way to move on. { Tom's POV ] "Are we going to that wedding?" Drew asked as he laid on my bed. "Yes, love, we are going. I'm the best man." I said smiling at him. "Well, I don't like the fact that Ty is going to be there. He is obviously still hung up on you." He said with a bitchy tone. "I know, love, but I am with you, so relax." I said as he rolled to his back and looked up at the roof. "He thinks he is so great!" Drew said pissed as he stood up and looked at me. "He is a very nice guy. You should try and get to know him." I said in hopes of relaxing him. "I already know enough, and I don't like him." He said as he stood up. I was sitting at my desk and watching some videos online, he sat on my lap, and we started making out. After a few minutes, he had to go. I stayed there in my room and looked on my computer for pictures of me and Drew for a surprise present I planned for him. I scanned and stopped on a picture of Ty. He was smiling at the camera and had those glasses that he used to wear. His hair fell in one of his eyes, and his head was tilted to the side. He looked like he was wondering about something cause he was biting his lip. His blue eyes had this kind of shine that drew you to them. I stared at the picture...Ty, what am I doing with Drew? I ran down the stairs and grabbed my jacket. I have to talk to Ty, so I got in my car and started making my way to the lake house where my cousin Brendan was going to get married. I rushed over and parked the car at the entrance, and Ty was climbing down a ladder wearing some cute overalls. I walked to him, and he turned around and looked shocked to see me there. "Hey, Tom!" He hugged me and then stepped out. "Hey, Ty...Can I talk to you?" I asked, and he looked at me with serious eyes and nodded. "OK" I walked him to the back of the house into a private little garden. "So?" He asked playing with his hands. "Ty, I still have feelings for you...I know you have them, too, and this isn't the first time I've tried to tell you I-" "Don't say it!" He groaned in frustration. "Why?! Why can't I say what I feel?! What are you scared of?!" I screamed. He looked at me and then to the floor. "I'm scared, Tom..." He said to himself. "I love you, Ty. Why is it so hard?" I said grabbing his hands. "Time, Tom. We were away from each other for two years. What if the passion is gone? What if we can't love each other the way we want to? What if there is no more passion between us?" He said not looking up. "Ty, I know we can love each other, and I know we have passion and lust for one another." I said and grabbed his face in my hands. I lifted his face, and we looked into each other's eyes. He looked so afraid and insecure, and I was too. What if when we kissed there was no spark? What if there wasn't love in the kiss? I pulled our faces closer together, my nose playing with his, our breath on each other's face, eyes closed as we inched closer. One of my hands snaked to his hip to pull him closer to me, and the other one rested on the side of his face, his hands were wrapped around my neck. Our lips moved even closer, and then they made contact. ============================================================================= Next Chapter will be up sooon!! Hope you really enjoyed this story, and as you may have noticed, it has kind of a personal meaning. I hope it got to you. :D Thanks for reading, and I hope you like my story so far. If you haven't read my other story on nifty, it's called Lustful Revenge. It's quite recent, so you should look it up. It must be in the first 50 stories. Thank you again, and please e-mail me at andrewgay41@hotmail.com if you like my story. Writers, if I can call myself that, love feedback, and don't be too shy to ask anything personal. Please specify which story you are commenting about. Thanks, Stephen, for editing. You are AWESOME!! HOPE YOU LIKED THIS CHAPTER. STICK AROUND CAUSE THINGS ARE ABOUT TO GET STEAMY!! About the author! Well hi! It's me, Andy. I'm the author of this story, and I hope you are liking it so far. In most e-mails you seem to want to know stuff about me, like my age, hobbies, etc. Well, I'm 18 years old, I enjoy writing, as you can imagine, I love writing poems and songs, and well, express myself through words. I want to be a Doctor, my favorite color is blue, I looooove ice cream, my favorite movie is Black Swan, and my favorite t.v. show is Friends!! :D I love Chandler, and well, I kind of have his sense of humor and that sarcastic edge to it. :D Well, that is me, and if you have anymore questions, don't hesitate to e-mail me! XOXO Andy