Date: Sun, 26 Jun 2011 21:41:59 -0600
From: Andrew Lorenzetti <andrewgay41@hotmail.com>
Subject: Broken Tears 21

Broken Tears - Chapter 21 By Andy Lake

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Stop if the idea of sexual intercourse between same sexed couples disgusts
you, and if that's so, what the fuck are you doing here???

Thanks, Stephen, for editing and being available.

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then you shouldn't, but I know I can't stop you. *sigh*

All the following characters are fictional, all made up by myself, thanks
to my twisted, yet erotic, imagination.

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be spread with my permission or downloaded for personal pleasure.

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Recap - Last chapter, Ty and Tom realized that their relationship was more
of a lie than anything else, so they decided to part. Also, Caleb asked Ty
if they could talk privately about what happened long ago with
Jeff. Brandon is finally cutting the bully facade towards Ty but still
hiding his feelings.

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***********************  Start From Scratch - Chapter 21 ***********************

[ Ty's POV ]

I walked back from the school doors with a smile on my face. I just never
experienced such a healthy break up. It was so cool and perfect. I walked
down to my locker, opened it to get my books to do my homework, and a
letter poked out. It was the same red and black letter that the rapist
sent. I took it in my hands and read.

So you sent him away? WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?!
Well then, I have no choice but to shorten your sentence.
Start counting the days cause in 30 you are going to die,
and a horrible death it will be. Before, though, I will visit
you one last time and take what's mine, babe...I love you.

:D

My hands were shaking horribly...What the hell is wrong with this creep?!
What is with the I love you? This was getting really, really, wierd. I
stuffed the letter in my locker with anger and started to walk down the
hallway to go out of the school.  I made a turn and bumped hard into
someone. I backed away a few steps and saw Brandon's muscular chest
stretched on his shirt. I looked up, and he was looking down at me with a
sexy confident smile. He started to walk towards me, and instinctively I
walked backwards until my back hit the lockers. He placed his hands under
my arms, lowered his head, and with his nose he rubbed my cheek and took a
whiff of my neck.

"You smell so good, babe." He said and sucked on my neck slowly.

"B-Brandon" I pushed him off a little, and he looked down at me.

"What, babe? You already broke up with Tom." He said with an anxious smile.

"Still, I don't want to rush into a relationship." I said above a whisper.

"I know, and I'm not ready for a relationship. I'm not even ready to come
out." He said looking slightly nervous.

"Then why do you kiss me in the middle of the hallway at school?" I asked
with my eyebrow raised. He moved the hair out of my eyes and looked in
them.

"Cause there is no one here, and I wanted to kiss you badly..." He said and
kissed me on the lips. I whimpered and tip toed so that I could kiss him as
well. I came back to my senses and pushed him off gently.

"B-brandon what are we doing?" I asked as he looked at me confused.

"What do you mean?" He asked still wanting to put his lips on mine as I
moved my face to the side.

"Well, we are not dating...And I don't want to be just someone's fuck
buddy." I said looking down and blushing.

"Ohh...I don't want to date a guy..." He said, he removed his hands and put
them in his pockets. "I'm sorry." He said trying to comfort me.

"No, don't worry. I understand...I think." I said and looked up at him
teary eyed. He tried to touch my face, but I moved it to the side. "I
really like you Brandon, but I'm not settling for what I don't deserve." I
said as I grabbed his face in my hands.

"So what are we going to do?" He asked still a little confused.

"You will keep on dating Dina and then realize your gay when it's too late,
and I will live my life trying to meet someone who can make me happy. I
know I'm just in highschool, but I want to feel what I felt with Jeff
again...Not the pain, but the love." I said as he looked at me shocked.

"B-but I'm not gay, just curious." He said scared.

"From all I said, that's what you got? And well, you can satisfy your
curiosity with plenty of other guys." I said meeting his eyes.  He looked
really bothered and angry.

"But I don't want you to date anyone else..." He said his nostrils flaring
a little.

"But I want to be happy. I want to date, you know. I never went on a date
with someone other than Jeff." I said with a sad smile.

"Well, if I find out you're going out with a guy, I'll break all his
fucking teeth." He said punching the locker. His fist passed by the side of
my face and slammed into the locker making a slight dent.

"YOU CAN'T DO THAT! You are dating Dina...I don't like it, but I'm not
going to fight her for you. If she does make you happy, then I will do my
best to try and be happy for you both." I said as he still looked angry and
a little sad.

"B-b-but you are mine." He whined more than anything else. It reminded me
of a little kid taking possession of his toy.

"I'm not, Brandon...If we were dating I would be yours." I said as he
looked even more sad and angrier.

"But we can't date cause I'm not gay!" He screamed at me.

"Then what are you? You are so confusing, Brandon.. You can't say you
aren't gay and go around claiming me as yours and stuff.  I don't know if
you are struggling with your sexuality, but I'm not willing to be dragged
along, so I will put up with seeing you and Dina grope each other at lunch,
and you will put up with me dating anyone I want." I said more like a
statement.

"I-I-I" He couldn't speak. So I took my chance and walked away. I heard a
loud punch and some crackling as I turned around the corner towards the
school parking lot. I had to go meet Caleb at Ben's cafe, and it was
getting nearly late. He would think I stood him up or something.


[ Brandon's POV ]

"AHHHHHHHHHH!" I screamed into the empty hallway. I was punching away at a
random locker furiously, thinking about Ty and all he told me. I can't
picture him with other guys cause it makes me want to cry...And I never
cry. I don't know what to feel anymore.  Ty makes me feel great, like I'm
perfect for him. I think I love him, but I can't be gay. Shit, my parents
would kill me if I told them I am gay...They would fucking kill me!! I know
my parents, and they are accepting of gay rights, but if I turned out gay,
they would lose it completely. I kept on punching the locker, and the door
had sunken deeper into the locker. I could see inside the locker, many
books and stuff. I punched once more, and a letter fell out. It was red and
black, so I picked it up, and my curiosity got the best of me.

So you sent him away? WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?!  Well then, I
have no choice but to shorten your sentence.  Start counting the days cause
in 30 you are going to die, and a horrible death it will be. Before,
though, I will visit you one last time and take what's mine, babe...I love
you.

:D

I read it once again...What the fuck is this? I looked at the locker and
saw deep inside a picture of Ty and Li hugging one another. This is Ty's
locker...What the fuck?! Who would write a note like this to him...He was
pale like a fricking ghost when I met with him in the hallway...The fucking
rapist. It has to be him. I swear, I would never forget him, his horrible
ghost face mask (you know the one from the scream movies). He had Ty under
him crying and trying to move while he...I will never forget him. I punched
the hell out of him, but back then I was not built at all. I was not
scrawny either, more on the chubby side though, and well, that day changed
my life. Ty ran away crying, and it broke my heart totally. I ran and ran
to catch him, but he was already in the auditorium, so I decided to sing
for him. Then he left for the airport, and I was right there before he
could leave. I tried to stop him from leaving and told him I loved
him...But he was gone...And why did he go?? Because I was too much of a
wuss to protect him! And I told myself that would never happen again, so I
busted my ass at the gym. If Ty came back, maybe he would like me and think
I am hot, and I could protect him against any punk at school, whoever would
dare to try and hurt him.  And well, in a years time I had one of the best
bodies at school, and it didn't go unnoticed by the girls and boys. I
started dating Dina because I'm a football player, and she is a
cheerleader. It's only natural that we dated, but I never could forget Ty.
He was swimming in my mind daily. I would look at his locker absentmindedly
and stare at the desk he would normally sit at and sigh. I missed him, and
when he came back...I swear to God my jaw dropped. He looked so sexxxxxy,
and for the first time I wanted the world to disappear and for only me and
Ty to be there enjoying each other. But when he came back things got really
messy.  When he was gone, I think I developed a HUGE crush on him. When I
saw other guys near him I wanted to fucking break their teeth till he was
left alone...Maybe it was fear that he would get abused again, but mostly,
I didnt want people that weren't me near him...But well, it gets
worse...The teasing. When he started the teasing I was mind blown. I wanted
more. I often wanked thinking about how our teasing sessions got to more
than teasing, and slowly, I started wanting him even more. I had to get
away from this crush. It was getting very dangerous, but then at the
wedding we had sex, and it was...PERFECT. Nothing compared to Dina. I loved
it. I wanted more but not with anyone else, with Ty. I wanted more with Ty.

And now this bastard wants to hurt him again...Well, I'm not letting that
happen. I will have to be taking care of Ty even if I have to stay at the
sidelines to do so. I know he doesn't want anything with me right now. I
just can't be gay.. I just can't, and that's the end of it. No matter how
much I want it, no matter how much not having Ty tears me apart, I just
can't be gay...

I kicked the bottom locker once as a tear rolled down my eye, and I
muttered some bad words to myself. I saw Ty's sweater inside his now
crumpled locker, and I took it out and smelled it...It smells just like
him, sweet but also dangerously sexy, and the combination of both made it
even more perfect. I grabbed the sweater, shoved it in my backpack, and
made my way out to my car, thinking.


[ Ty's POV ]

I walked around the parking lot and found Li waiting by the car. She was
holding Jermz's hand in hers, and she tip toed to kiss him. He blushed and
kissed back, and his lips moved and read "I love you". She did the same,
and they kissed once more. Jermz ran to Trevor, who was grinning like the
cat in Alice in Wonderland. I looked back them, and Jermz smiled and
waved. Trev gave me a sexy wink and ran to me.

"Sup, hot stuff." I felt him rubbing his hand up and down my ass, and I
slapped it off.

"Hands off" I scolded with a serious tone.

"But you are not dating anyone yet." He said pouting like a kid and tried
to grab my ass again. I pushed his hand off again and laughed along with
him.

"Well, nope. Not yet, but..." I said trailing off.

"Oohhh. Brandon?? Yep, I better stay away. I like my teeth, you know." He
said with a slight grin.

"And how're you and Cale? Anything yet?" I asked trying to change the
subject in a not so subtle way.

"Well, we have a second date tomorrow...Thanks for changing the subject, by
the way...And well, he is cute. A little too depressed, though. I was kinda
hoping you would talk to him. I bet he still feels guilty for what he did."
Trev said soothingly.

"Wow, I never thought you actually cared for Cale..." I looked amused.

"Well, when all of us hung out, I always looked at him the most. That's why
I never spoke...I was too busy staring at someone who would never give two
fucks about me cause he was too busy staring at Jeff..." He said a little
irritated...He then realized what he said, and I looked down.

"Well, seems like everybody knew but me." I said slightly offended. I
didn't feel like seeing Caleb now that I heard this, but I knew I had to go
through with it.

"I'm so sorry...I thought you knew. He stared too long, and Jeff often
winked at him, but well, everything changed when you left, and it changed
dramatically. Cale had his first suicide attempt, Jeff started drinking
like there was no tomorrow, and well, he just stopped being happy. He was
even kicked off of the team... Sad." He said as he hugged me. My face was
on his chest, and for a second I thought I should have revenge on Cale and
get with Trev just so he could feel what I felt that time, the feeling of
having your heart ripped to shreds, to feel literal pain at the sight of
your friend and your love kissing...I wanted him to see how much he hurt
me, but I'm not like that. I could never go through with that. Cale would
feel more than crushed, and knowing what he did, I bet he would think he
deserves it, and no one deserves that...I smiled up at Trev and shook those
horrible thoughts out of my mind (I am not perfect...Everyone has mean
thoughts at least once...Sorry.)

"Thanks, Trev. I'm going to meet Cale at Ben's cafe in a few...I really
want to hear his side of the story. I already forgave him, but I really
want to know what drove him to do what he did to me. That's the only way I
can start from scratch." I said and kissed his cheek. Trev hugged me
tighter.

"You are the most caring person I know, Ty...I wish I had a shot at getting
you for myself, but I know I don't, and well, I have Cale now, and I want
things with Cale to work out. So I guess it's your loss." He said finishing
with his humor.

"Well, it's your loss, sir cause you see, I'm the best lay out there." I
said as we retracted from the hug.

"With an ass as juicy as that, I bet." He said with a wink and slapped at
my ass. I cringed and backhanded him across the face.  He looked down at me
stunned.

"Hands off" I said more threatening. He looked shocked but then smiled.

"God, how I LOVE it rough...Slap me again." He said showing me his other
cheek. I smiled and gave him a gentle slap.

"Mmmmmm" He moaned sexually, and I laughed. Li was laughing, and Jeremy was
looking at Trev in disgust.

"You are SICK MAN!! SICK!" Jermz said which just brought more laughter to
us.

"Well, you saw the handcuffs in my room. Did you really believe I wanted to
be a cop?" He said with a laugh. I smiled at them and walked to Li saying a
goodbye to Jermz and Trev. I walked with Li to the car...I felt a pair of
eyes behind me. I turned around as fast as I could and saw a dark shadow
hide behind a tree. I gulped and opened the car door slowly. I sat down and
looked behind my back and saw nothing. Li sat in the driver's seat, and she
smiled at me. She started the engine (I was kinda expecting it to explode
or something), and we drove off talking. She noticed my awkwardness.

"Something wrong?" She asked nonchalantly.

"You know there is something wrong...You always know." I said smiling at
her. She smiled back and held my hand.

"Wanna talk about it?" She asked gently and soothingly rubbing up and down
my hand.

"Well, later at home. I have to meet Cale at Ben's first...Then we'll
talk." I said smiling at her. She smiled, but her smile looked empty and
worried.

"Ok" She said as she turned the wheel into Ben's parking lot.

"Something you want to talk about?" I asked with the same nonchalant tone
she asked me before.

"Yes...At home." She smiled and kissed my cheek. I got out of the car and
looked around still feeling uneasy. I walked into the cafe, and it was
almost empty, a few booths with couples, and only one with a big group of
friends eating burgers and stuff. I spotted Cale in one of the occupied
booths, and he was looking out the window. I walked to him and sat down. He
was deep in thought because he didn't even notice me take a seat in front
of him.

"The sky looks nice." I said with a smile and glancing at the orangish
sky. He looked startled and then looked at me and smiled brightly. He
looked like the old Cale, yet he looked different, more mature, grown up,
but not the good maturing. The one I went through, the forceful
matureness. The orangish light hit his face perfectly, and he smiled
brightly, his longish golden curls giving him the surfer look rare in
Canada but abundant in Cali. He reminded me of that Logan in Zoe 101. He
looked really good, and most of all...Healthy and handsome.

"I thought you would never come..." He said still smiling.

"I said I would. I promised you." I said smiling at him, and he smiled even
wider.

"I miss you..." He said as his eyes watered.

"I know...I miss you too." I said getting slightly teary eyed now.

"I am so sorry. I just...I just felt..." He sighed and looked to the table
ashamed. Ben came by to greet us and asked if we wanted anything to
drink. We ordered some hot chocolate, since it was chilly, and some
cinnamon rolls.

"What did you feel? I promise I won't judge. I already forgave you, but I
need to know why you did it...I know Jeff has as much fault as you
do...Even more since he was in a relationship with me...Well, we had a
friendship, but...Just continue." I said trying to shake away the sudden
anger that came over me.

"Well, I just...Felt jealous. You came here and had it all. I remember I
asked you how you get all the guys to have the hots for you when I was
hotter...But I already knew why. You weren't sexy, you were CUTE, lovable,
and always putting others before you, even those who hurt you...I stumbled
into that the day in the cafeteria when you told me you still cared...I
cried that night, and I changed for you...I stopped hurting myself. I
wanted to be me again, and it's all thanks to you, and I know I screwed
up. Jeff, well, we were talking one day, and he was all pissed that you
wouldn't put out or something, and he kept looking at me with sex eyes, and
I fell right there. Not even a first date, and he had already fucked
me...Then I got cold feet. I wanted to get out of it and tell you, but he
said the sex was hot and that he didn't want to risk what he and you
had...So he made me fall in love with cute presents, making me believe he
cared. I fell hard, Ty...HARD, and when he told me you would never put out,
and he was going to leave you for me, I felt good...Because I finally
thought I was better than you at something, but then you saw us, and the
look in your eyes...That look I will never forget. You looked, confused,
sad, and in denial. You kept shaking your head as if it was a dream and you
were to wake up because it hurt too much...Then Jeff and I fell apart. We
both knew we didn't even love each other anymore, and I knew I lost you,
and that was the worst mistake in my life." He said, and well, he was
crying a nice flow of tears that ran down his cheeks...He was broken. His
tears were broken. I held his hands and smiled at him, despite my own face
adorned with tears. Not as much as him but abundant enough to show my
feelings.

"It hurt so bad...It was horrible. I just wanted to run...And since that
day...I am afraid of the rain...Why? Because every time it rains something
bad happens...The day I was raped and discovered about you and Jeff...It
was raining. The day my mom died, it was raining. The day I found I was
sick, it was raining...I don't even come out when it rains, but even though
the pain was horrible, I understand you Cale. You were sucked in, and it
was Jeff's fault as well. You were both sucked into lust and jealousy, and
then you were afraid to accept the consequences, so you went along with
it...I feel hurt. Still, at times, I thought what did I do? Was it my
fault? But thanks to you, I know now that it wasn't." I stood up from the
booth, and we hugged each other, and he sobbed on my shoulder. We sat back
down, and I grabbed a cinnamon roll and started chowing down.

"So...I know it's way too much to ask, but...Can we be friends again?" He
asked VERY hopeful, and I nodded and smiled at him. He looked SO happy, and
it just made me smile wider. I won't lie. I still have some resentment
towards him, but he was my best friend, and I never stopped caring for
him. He did make a mistake, but I know we can restore what we had. It won't
be easy, though, but it's possible. I know it is.

"It will take some time, but I think we can be as close as we were." I
said, and he smiled with his mouth stuffed with cinnamon rolls. I tried to
supress the laughter, but it was impossible. I laughed at his expense until
he realized what he did and started laughing too. A couple heads turned to
us, and we just laughed and laughed like good ole friends...Friends.

After a great chat and catchin' up, I had to go for dinner. I walked out of
Ben's cafe and said goodbye to Cale as he walked to his car. I walked up
the street towards my house, and I felt a pair of eyes staring at me
again. I turned around and saw a coat slip behind a tree that was by the
sidewalk. I walked a little faster. "Paranoid. You are being paranoid." I
said to myself as I slowed my pace a little. Each step dreaded to become a
run, my ears trying to catch at least a twig breaking, and that would be
enough for me to run. I started to reach my house and felt like a warm
blanket suddenly was thrown upon me. I smiled and jogged happily to my
house. I opened the door with my key and smiled at the smell of pizza.

"I'm home." I said out loud.

"Hey, son. We will have dinner in a few. I have to make a phone call." He
said, I nodded and made my way upstairs and walked right into Li's
bedroom. She was sitting on her bed Indian style and was looking down at a
picture of Jeremy and herself, both smiling widely as they shared an eskimo
kiss. They looked cute together, and I walked and sat beside her in the
bed.

"Want to talk about it?" I asked as she smiled and nodded. She was tearing
up.

"You go first..." She said as she looked at me.

"The rapist...He gave me a death sentence...One month. I think I should
talk about it with my dad...Oddly enough, I'm not that scared. I think I
can catch him before making a big fuss about it." I said calmly, but she
looked shocked.

"WE ARE TELLING YOUR DAD, AND THAT'S THAT!" She said pissed.

"Li...I don't want to worry him. Gimme 15 days, and if I have no clue, then
we tell him..." I begged. Her eyes roamed me suspiciously, and she nodded.

"ok, but 15 days starting tomorrow..." She said. I smiled and hugged her.

"Your turn."

"Well...I am scared, Ty. I don't know what to do...I already talked to
Jeremy about this, and he says we can make it through, but I am very
scared." She said looking frightened.

"Li, you are scaring me...What's wrong?" I hugged her and placed her head
in my chest, and she let out a soft sob.

"I-I-I am pregnant." She said, and I felt like ice cold water was poured
over me. I felt it burn my skin, my eyes shot wide open, and I stood there
hugging her thinking about something to say...Something that a friend would
say. But the only thing that came into my mind was telling her how stupid
she was, and how she ruined her future. I decided to keep quiet and hold
her waiting until it was required for me to speak.


[ ??? POV ]

The escalator moved downwards with a small amount of people with their
suitcases in hand. I looked around and took a breath into my lungs, fresh
Canada air. It was slighty chilly, and I stepped off of the escalator and
walked downward to the gates.  My cab was waiting there with a sign with my
name upon it, and I climbed in with a smile on my face. I looked outside
the window of the car and smiled to myself.

"Long time no see, Ty...Long time no see." I muttered to myself as I
slipped the warm cotton gloves onto my hands. I hope he hasn't forgotten
about me cause I never got him out of my mind. I smiled to myself as the
cab slowed down in front of a very nice, very fancy hotel. Tomorrow I will
see Ty again, and I hope he is as surprised as I want him to be.

Here I come.


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Next Chapter will be up sooon!!

Hope you really enjoyed this story, and as you may have noticed, it has
kind of a personal meaning. I hope it got to you. :D

Thanks for reading, and I hope you like my story so far. If you haven't
read my other story on nifty, it's called Aphrodite's Curse. It's quite
recent, so you should look it up. It must be in the first 50 stories.

Thank you again, and please e-mail me at andrewgay41@hotmail.com  if you
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HOPE YOU LIKED THIS CHAPTER. STICK AROUND CAUSE THINGS ARE ABOUT TO GET
STEAMY!!

About the author!

Well hi! It's me, Andy. I'm the author of this story, and I hope you are
liking it so far. In most e-mails you seem to want to know stuff about me,
like my age, hobbies, etc. Well, I'm 18 years old, I enjoy writing, as you
can imagine, I love writing poems and songs, and well, express myself
through words. I want to be a Doctor, my favorite color is blue, I looooove
ice cream, my favorite movie is Easy A, and my favorite t.v. show is
Friends!! :D

I love Chandler, and well, I kind of have his sense of humor and that
sarcastic edge to it. :D Well, that is me, and if you have anymore
questions, don't hesitate to e-mail me!

XOXO
Andy