Date: Sat, 27 Sep 2003 15:58:06 -0700 (PDT) From: JMH Subject: Circle the Noun chp7 Again, this is a story about gay relationships so 1. if you are breaking the law, underage, or just hate gay stuff don't read any further. The World Wide Web is a big place so you can find something else. 2. The story is not based on any real person place thing, or another person's idea. So any similarities are pure chance. 3. Since this story is of my own creation, I have the copyright to it. No other postings, except at nifty, are allowed. Nor is the selling of the story to others permitted. Any questions about the above, please write. Enjoy JMH trandar2002@yahoo.com ****************************************************************** When Nathan arrived at home, he went to his room and booted up the computer. He sent two messages; One to David to tell him what was going on with Greg. He then sent another one... this time to Philip, asking him to come over after school. After sending them, Nathan went down stairs to make lunch. He had just finished eating a sandwich when the doorbell rang. Not knowing who would be coming at this hour, Nathan hurried to the door and found Philip standing there with flowers in his hands. "Philip... what are you doing here?" Nathan asked surprised. "I came here to be with you. I knew you were upset yesterday so when I got your email I decided to use my lunch break to come here." "Well thanks," Nathan said as he was handed a half dozen roses. "I hope you like the flowers," Philip blushed. "I know that men don't usually give guys flowers but I was not sure what to bring you." "A swimsuit that fits," Nathan laughed. "Yes... that is the sort of stuff I need to know. There are plenty of books on how to date a girl but I don't know of any for guys," Philip explained. "Ok... let's go inside and talk." Nathan led Philip to the kitchen where he put down the flowers. "Would you like anything to drink or eat?" He asked his guest. "Some more of the soup we had last night would be good." "Great... we have lots of it left. No one was in a mood for eating last night," Nathan said as he went to the walk-in fridge and brought out a large pot. Soon it was ladled up into a smaller pot to be heated up on the stove. "Should you put the flowers in some water?" Philip asked while the soup cooked. "Yeah I guess," Nathan agreed. He opened a cabinet and took out a large avocado green plastic pitcher. "You are going to put them in that?" Philip said surprised. "Well it is all I can think of," Nathan explained. "Don't ya'll have a crystal vase or something?" "Nope... it's just all guys here so the place is missing a woman's touch." "So I guess this is the first time flowers have even passed through your front door," Philip said becoming increasingly embarrassed by his gift. "No... Greg and me used to pick the flowers out of the garden." "Didn't it get you in trouble?" "Not at all. Dad would even help us dry them out or book press them. One of my Bibles is full of them." "Then that is what we will do with them... preserve them," Philip said liking the idea of Nathan keeping the flowers for years and years. "Then we don't want to put them in water," Nathan explained. Nathan went to a drawer, took out some string and tape. He tied the roses together into a bunch. He then went to one of the windows in the breakfast room and taped the roses upside down to it. "Why upside down?" Philip asked when he saw what Nathan was doing. "So gravity won't cause the petals to wilt down," Nathan said as he stepped back, sucking on his thumb. "You cut yourself?" Philip asked as he took Nathan's thumb out of his mouth. "Yeah... just a little bit while I was tying the strings," Nathan explained. "Well let me take care of it for you," Phillip smiled. He took Nathan's sore thumb and licked it with his tongue before putting it into his mouth and sucking on it. Nathan, instead of pulling away, drew closer to Philip, until his head rested against his cheek. "Last night was wonderful," Philip whispered into Nathan's ear. "Last night was a nightmare," Nathan sighed. "I'm talking about when you joined me in my sleeping bag," Philip said as he rock Nathan in his arms. "I just wanted to be held." Nathan admitted. "And I held you. Isn't that why you emailed me asking me to come over. You wanted me to hold you again." "Yes... my dad used to hold me when I felt sad but one day I outgrew his lap." "I think you are also now looking for something more," Philip said as he unbuttoned Nathan's shirt. "How many boyfriends or girlfriends for that matter have you had?" "I've dated a few girls," Nathan said as his voice tensed up when Philip pinched his left nipple. "Have you ever fallen in love with any of them?" "I liked them..." Nathan said noncommittally. "Did you let any of them do this to you," Philip grinned as he gave Nathan's nipple an extra hard twist. "No!" Nathan said shocked. "Nathan, I think what has been missing from you life is alota loving. Not the love your father gives you, but the kind a lover can give you. Come on, soon you will be in college, don't you think you should have one high school sweetheart before you go?" "I guess you want the job?" "Been applying for months... I can even give you a resume," Philip said with his lips parted in a small, almost charming smile." "O..." Nathan said as he was slowly moved to the wall. It was starting to dawn on him that Philip had a real crush on him. The idea that there was a guy who was romantically in love with him, sent shivers down Nathan's spine. "Nate... it's only been two days but can I call you my boyfriend." "We are just getting to know about each other." "Yes... but we also slept in each other's arms last night." "Philip..." Nathan was about to say when he smelled something burning. "Is something on fire?" "Just my passion for you." "The soup!" Nathan finally realized. He moved past Philip and rushed to the kitchen where the soup had boiled over and was burning on the heat pad. Nathan quickly pushed the pot off the stove, burning his hand in the process. While Nathan yelped in pain, Philip calmly came into the room, took an ice cube out of the freezer and walked over to Nathan. "Give me your hand..." Philip said. Nathan bit his lip to hold back his pain as he gave his burned hand over to Philip. In silence Philip moved the ice cube over the red mark on Nathan's hand. "You didn't answer my question, Nate..." Philip smiled. The careful but firm manner Philip held his hand while cooling it with the melting ice cube gave Nathan an insight into Philip. Philip, instead of being mad that he, Nate, had run off in the middle of his proposal, had looked toward Nathan's immediate need. Beside his father, no one had shown this kind of concern for him. "I don't know if you are my boyfriend yet, but it would make me very happy if you were mine." "Then I guess we going down this path until we are what we want to be... boyfriends." "That would be good," Nathan agreed. Then acting on a sudden urge he moved in and kiss Philip on the lips. It was the first time he was the one to act first. "Do you have a clean jockstrap here?" Philip asked when Nathan's lips left his. "Yes," Nathan replied. "Good... go put it on and go to Greg's room. I'll meet you there." "What are you going to do? "Getting something to keep us cool," Philip said with a wicked grin. Not sure what Philip was referring to, Nathan hurried to his room and stripped. He then had a choice to make. He did have regular white jockstraps but uncle Robert had bought him three pairs of "gay wear" straps. Not only did they come in black, red, and dark blue, they were shaped to give an extra bulge to his basket. Robert had even gotten Nathan's initials stitched on them. Nathan worried that wearing the customized underwear might send the wrong image but he had to admit he looked good in them so in the end he put on the dark blue pair. They looked great against his tanned skin and were a good match to his dark blue...near violet eyes. He must have taken his time because Philip was already waiting for him in Greg's room, down to his own white jock and holding a bowl full of ice cubes. "What are you going to do with those?" Nathan asked. "Why don't you lay down on the bed and find out." "Are you sure?" "Trust me." "Ok..." Nathan relented. "How would you like me?" "On your stomach first." Nathan went over to the bed, which was already covered with bath towels. As Philip remained somewhere behind him, Nathan could not see where he was. Philip did finally reveal his location when Nathan felt something ice cold touch the small of his back. Nathan tried to jump up but a firm hand pushed him back down. "Trust me Nate, what you are going to feel will be well worth that shock," Philip said reassuring. Nathan did settle down and soon Philip put the ice cube back on the same spot. It was left there, slowly producing a small puddle of cold water that sent Nathan's body shivering. Then, very slowly Nathan felt Philip move the ice cube up his spine. The feeling did not give him a hard on but it did send his cock a quivering. Then, as soon and the small remains of the cube touched the back of his neck, Nathan felt Philip let go of it, causing it to slide down the groove in the middle of his back. Then, as the remains of the ice melted, a new sensation took over, that of a hot tongue licking the back of his neck before working his way down. Nathan let out a loud moan when he felt Philip's mouth suck the water that had gathered there. "How did that feel?" Philip asked when done. "I don't know how to describe it." "I'll take that for good. But it is just getting started." "Can I give you a kiss first?" Nathan said as he rolled onto his side. "You sure can. You don't ever have to ask for that," Philip grinned as he joined Nathan on the bed. With their arms wrapped around the backs of each other's necks the two of them made out with a mixture of long and short kisses. Then their hands began to become more explorative, Nathan feeling the muscles of Philip's back while Philip let his hands take hold of Nathan's ass, pulling the cheeks apart while his fingers squeezed between the crack Then one of Philip's hands moved away but when it came back, Nathan's felt a freezing cold ice cube being rubbed against his rosebud. If he had not peed earlier, Nathan was sure he would have pissed right then and there all over the bed. "Oh my god!" Nathan shouted, his hips thrusting up hard against Philip thigh as his tormentor kept rubbing the cube against his hole. "Philip... stop it!" "Really?" Philip said with an innocent grin. "What were you trying to do?" Nathan asked as he tried to warm up his bum. "Give you a hard on. Do you have one yet?" Philip grinned before giving Nathan's basket a squeeze. "By golly I think you are!" Encouraged by Nathan's response, Philip took out another ice cube and ran it around Nathan's inner thigh, just bellow his balls sending Nathan thrashing. Nathan kept on asking him to stop but Philip, in seeing Nathan shove a hand into his jock knew he was sending Nate into a sexual frenzy. Then Philip did the ultimate, he took one of the lemon slice shaped cubes and held it in his fist, letting it melt. When it was almost a third melted and all its sharp edges smoothed out, he reached over and slid it up Nathan's ass. "AAAAaaaaaaaaaaaa!" Nathan yelped as he jumped up. "Shhhhhhh... just relax and enjoy how it feels," Philip said calmly. "My ass is freezing!" "Don't worry I only put in a sliver. It will melt soon." "It burns..." Nathan cringed as he tightened up his butt. Philip rolled Nathan onto his back and pulled down Nate's jock. "Your cock seems to enjoy it." "I can't push it out!" Nathan said panicked. "Yep... you'll just have to wait till your body melts it." Philip grinned as he moved his head between Nathan's legs. "But while that is happening I have something to make sure your dick stays warm." Philip grinned as he took Nathan's dick into his mouth, swirling his tongue along the head before taking more of the seven inches into him. With the combination of melted ice water tingling his prostate and a hot mouth around his cock, Nathan could not last long. He gave up trying to shit the cube out, as his ass would not relax. The sensation was not like anything he had felt before and his cock only reflected that. Just as Nathan felt the last of the ice cube melt away, his cock exploded in Philips mouth. Philip then climbed off Nate, letting him run to the bathroom so he could flush the melted water out of his ass. "I'll get you for that!" Nathan yelled half seriously. "I hope so!" Philip laughed. "I am looking forward to you sucking me off." "Not that... the ice cube you shoved up my ass." "I didn't need to shove it in... it slid in very nicely. You have a very hungry ass." "Are you calling me a bottom?" Nathan said as he came out after flushing the toilet. "Not at all!" Philip chuckled. "Why do you think I was calling you that?" "Just cause my dad is a bottom doesn't mean that I am." "Your dad is a bottom? How do you know that?" "Dad and Uncle Robert told me." "He did! Your father told you he was a bottom." Philip said amazed "Well he is not a complete bottom... he would top Andrew every now and then but when Greg asked Dad what he liked better dad said bottoming." "And this was a regular dinner conversation," Philip was able to say between burst of laughter. "No... it was part of "the talk" you know... the family addition of "sex ed"," Nathan explained as he pulled his jock back up. "So you got the gay version of "the talk"," Philip grinned. In his conservative family, "the talk" of any sort had not been given. When the school offered sex ed in junior high his parents had signed a letter asking that he be excused from it. That did not stop Philip from learning though. During lunch he would borrow one of his friends schoolbooks and read up on the topic. He also had the blessing of having a more relaxed uncle. His uncle had understood what kind of house Philip was being raised in so when his nephew visited him one summer he had left him a porno. It had been straight porn, but it gave Philip an idea of what sex was all about. "We got both the straight and gay talk... uncle Robert even showed us a bisexual porno video. Dad said he would love us however we turned out, but he wanted us educated for any situation." "Smart man," Philip said, feeling just a bit jealous that Nathan had such a father. "So tell me about your education," Nathan asked. "Well none if you count my parents." "You had to have learned something from someone... what we just did proves that." "That is a long story." "Ok... want to wait till we have more time? You have to be back at school soon." "No... I'll skip." "You shouldn't... you'll get in trouble with your folks." "That is why I need to tell you this now but I would like you to hold me when I tell you," Philip said as he lay down on the bed but not before pulling off his jock. "Ok." Nathan said. He climbed onto the bed and spooned up behind Philip, wrapping his arms around Philip's wait. Before speaking, Philip took on of Nathan's hands and lowered it to his cock. "Will you hold it for me," He asked in a near sad voice. "It will make me feel safer." "Ok," Nathan agreed, wrapping his fingers around Philip's warm but limp dick. Philip took a deep breath before speaking. "I'm no longer living at home." "What happened?" Nathan said shocked. "My parents found out about me... being gay and all. They kicked me out." "Where have you been living?" "With college friends at first but now with Coach Anderson. "How long has this been going on?" "Two weeks before school started." "And no one knows?" "Only you and my coach." "So they kicked you out because they found out you were gay?" Nathan said as if he could not believe it. He knew that most families were not as accepting to their kids' sexuality as his father and "uncles" were but for a parent to turn his back on his own child seemed completely wrong. "Yes... and it was my own fault." "How can you say that?" "Because I should have never taken the risk of getting caught. I should have never taken my first boyfriend with me." "Can you tell me how it all started?" "Yes... I better do so. I have known I was gay for a long time but in the house I grew up in it was never ok to show any sort of weakness or emotion. My dad wanted me to me to be a tough guy, just like he and grandpa were. I seemed to fit that perfectly. I loved working out and hanging around other guys. Becoming easily bored by women seemed to prove to my dad that I was a real man. He didn't know that I wanted to sleep with my male friends." Nathan, knowing that Philip just wanted him to listen did not say a word but he did show his support in kissing Philip's back and giving his cock a gentle squeeze. "My father and grandpa both had their hopes that I would take over the farm business when grandpa died. They even signed me up for a pre-college agriculture program at K.U. in Lawrence. That was where I met Trevor." "Your boyfriend?" "My first and so far only boyfriend. We are no longer together but I will tell you about that later. When I met Trevor he was one of the graduate students running the program. His gaydar must have been better then mine cause he quickly took me under his wing. Besides looking out for me in class, he would take me to bars, swimming and working out. It was fun. "It was not until he started showing me his friends that I began to notice that most of them were gay. At first I thought... cool, he has a lot of gay friends but then came the night I stayed at his apartment. We had worked out at the gym and both of us were sore. When we got to his place I was in a lot of pain. Trevor had told me that the way he earned extra money was as a professional massage therapist. So when he offered me a rub down I felt completely comfortable trusting him. "He had me strip down completely and lay down on the bed. He rubbed the entire back of my body not only making me feel relaxed but gave me a hard on as well. When he finished with my back, Trevor slapped my ass to signal I was turn around. I did not want to, as then he would see my boner. "In the end I was not given a choice. In high school Trevor had been on the wrestling team. He still had some skill cause from the moment I felt him wrap his arms around my legs and waist it was only a matter of second before he had flipped me over, climbed on top of me and had my cock down his throat. "It was then that I realized that he was naked as his own hard cock was right in front of my face, waving before it as if it were both taunting and tempting me. With him sucking me my own mouth ached to taste and feel his cock. I reached for it and stuffed it into my mouth. The salty taste of precum and the feel of hard flesh between my lips caused me to gag a few time but felt wonderful. "As it was my first time, it was not surprising that I shot my load first. After I did so, Trevor turned his body around and sat up so his butt was resting on my chest, his cock still in my face. In this position I could only lick and suck on the head but he helped himself along by jacking off the lower half of his cock until he cummed all over my face. That was the first time I made love to a guy." Nathan, who had gotten into Philip sex story, was pumping away at Philips cock. By this time it had grown to a good eight inches in his hand and was leaking precum. When Philip stopped talking so did Nathan stop pumping. "Keep going... I just don't think I can talk straight while I have this boner." "Alright," Nathan agreed working harder on Philip's cock taking some of the precum to lube his shaft. Several times Philip would ask him to stop and only squeeze hard near the top. Other times he would tell Nathan to rub the head with his thumb. Close to the time he came, Philip took Nathan's free hand and placed it over his balls, asking him to tug on them while they were trying to rise. Nathan then felt the sticky cum shoot off and ooze into his hand. Philip then rolled over and faced Nathan before pulling him into a kiss. "That was good," Philip sighed as he nuzzled his nose against Nathan's. "I only jacked you off," Nathan blushed. "Yes... YOU jacked me off. Someone I can relate to. Someone my own fucking age!" Philip said with a lot of bitterness. "Trevor?" Nathan asked nervously. "Yeah... it was good at first. Everything was new and exciting. I even thought I was in love for a while. I pictured us running the farms together... stupid really." "When did things go bad?" "After spring break... I had been driving down to see him nearly every weekend since after the summer program. I took him over to one of the farmhouses my grandfather owned. We fucked the whole week. That was also when he started pressing me for a job. He wanted me to get him an advisory job with my grandpa, as he was finishing school up at the end of the year. I talked to my grandpa and he took him in. During the summer he asked me to stay away. I had told him how homophobic my grandpa was so I understood that he would not want to get caught with me in his bed. At least that is what I thought..." "What happened?" Nathan asked. "My grandpa did one of his surprise inspections of the farmhouse Trevor was living in and caught him in bed with his college roommate and one of the farmhands." "Oh no..." "Yes... as I had been the person to recommend him to grandpa, I was called in to explain myself. I didn't know that Trevor had told him everything. Trevor assumed that as the only male heir that my grandfather would have no choice but to leave the farms to me. Trevor thought he could get away with throwing what we had done in his face. Trevor didn't know my grandfather. "The meeting turned out to be more about my grandpa showing Trevor how far he was willing to disavow me then getting my side of the story. There I was told I was not just disinherited but, no longer a member of the family. When I left the meeting it was to Trevor threatening to get a lawyer and me with nowhere to go". "So what did you do then?" Nathan asked after Philip remained silent for more then a minute. "I talked to my water polo coach and he agreed to take me in." "Why not Trevor?" "Trevor... he dumped me as soon as he found he had no legal recourse. Last thing I heard he joined an agriculture commune in California." "So he left you just like that?" "Yep... I heard from some of his friends in school that the only reason he put up with me was because he knew my grandpa was one of the largest landowners in the state." "So he was in it for the money." "Yeah and gullible me fell for his act." The two of them remained silent for a few minutes before Nathan came up with another question. "Is coach gay?" "Nope... he was married and got divorced but it was not because he was gay. I think that was a good thing. I needed a "straight man's" view to see where I went wrong." "How so...?" "From his own experiences... he knew how marriages failed. He just turned that wisdom on my relationship with Trevor." "And what wisdom did he give you?" "That a relationship needs a certain level of equality. With Trevor he had all the power. He had all the sexual experience. It was only his friends that made up our circle. He deiced when I could see him and when I did he was the one who picked what we would do. I felt I had no say because he was the older "wiser" one." "Sorry things turned out that way." "Well it gave me a chance to reflect and find out what I wanted." "And what is that?" "Well at first I thought what I needed was friends but I wanted something more... a boyfriend. This time though I wanted someone I could be an equal with. I also wanted a family... a father I could look up to. Your family was the only one that came to mind... if any family could take in a gay kid it was yours... that brought me to you. You are handsome, caring, trusting, and kind. Everyone likes you because they know that you easily like them. Your dad is gay, Greg is gay... everyone in your family is gay. At the same time your family is still a family... not a sex club." "Is that what people think about us... that we are some kind of sex club," Nathan said a little mad. "No... if you don't remember your dad and uncle Robert were coaches of our little league team. All the parents liked your dad and so did all the kids... My parents did as well until they overheard one of the parents saying what a cute couple they thought your dad and Robert would make. It was not long after that they found out that your dad was gay. They pulled me out faster then a gun in a bank robbery gone bad." "Sorry... I think I do remember you being on my team for a while. I never knew why you left." "Well that was the reason... one that I never forgot. Ever since then I had to fight my desire to become close to you and your family. If my father knew that I wanted to hang around you his suspicions with have been raised. Now though..." "Now that he does know there is not point hiding it," Nathan finished. "Yes... I feel guilty though, I feel I am using you to get the family I always wanted." "Well you are... but I'm using you as well." "How?" Philip chuckled. "I'm using you to find out who I am and what I want." "What are you unsure about?" "I don't know if I want the "gay" life for myself," Nathan said with some difficulty. "You don't know if you are gay?" "Philip... you feel good against my body. I enjoy having your arms around me. It might be that I am starting to have a crush on you but you feel closer to me then any other person then my dad. My heart tells me I am in love but my brain tells me I need to be practical." "Well let me tell you... there is nothing practical about love." "I know... everything would be perfect except for one fact?" "Which is?" "I could never have a child with you." "Well I sure hope not..." Philip first laughed until he saw the sadness in Nathan's eyes. "Having a kid is very important to you?" "Yes... not just one... I want to have several." "I didn't know we were already this serious." "Philip... that is why I can't call us boyfriends. If I call you that... for me it means that I want to spend the rest of my life with you." "But you said that you would like to be my boyfriend..." Philip suddenly realized, a wide grin growing on his face." "Yes... call me a romantic but I'm not really interested in seeing how many different guys I can get into bed. I just want to find my soul mate and keep that person forever." "That would be very nice," Philip said as he snuggled up closer to Nathan. "Yes it would," Nathan agreed, enjoying the warm feeling that grew within him in having Philip so close to him. "Is that what your dad did... fall in love with the first guy he met?" "Sort of... The first guy he had sex with was Andrew. The first guy he loved was his brother, my namesake, but he died in a car wreck with the rest of my father's family. Robert... was the second guy my father loved. My dad met him at a summer camp for orphaned kids. Uncle Robert became like an older brother for my dad when my dad really needed one. That was when my father fell in love with uncle Robert." "And your uncle?" "Well... as uncle Robert told me... my dad was the only person he ever felt was family. Robert lived in foster homes, orphanages, and group homes his whole childhood. He never knew his parents or if he had any siblings but when he met my father, he found for the first time a person he wanted to call family. So yes... Robert also fell in love with my father." "Young love," Philip sighed. "More then that... they became the most important people in each other's lives. When my dad was adopted and Robert turned 18 and joined the army it was their love for each other that helped them during the rough patches. Uncle Robert still has some the letters my dad wrote him when they were kids." "So I guess you are really happy that it looks like they will be together again." "Yes... not to be hard on uncle Andrew or to hurt Greg... but I am very happy my dad is back with uncle Robert." "Why then did they ever break up?" "That is the million dollar question. Robert was commitment phobic back then. He loved my dad more then anything but he kept sleeping with other men. Well one day Robert's luck ran out and he caught syphilis, a drug resistant form of it." "Dang... is he ok?" "Yes... uncle Mike runs a drug company and snuck Robert into the test trials for a powerful antibiotic. The drug worked for Robert but is not much of a seller. It leaves the person bed ridden for weeks and vulnerable to infections." "Ok... so Robert got sick but got better... where's the problem?" "That is where things get confusing. While my dad had been going out with Robert, he also was doing things with Andrew. That was fine with Robert as he slept with a lot of people. Andrew though did not like the arrangement. He pushed my dad to make a choice between them. My dad loved Andrew but his feelings for Robert were stronger so Robert was the man my dad offered a wedding ring to first. Robert turned it down." "Why?" "I don't know but that is what happened. Robert turned the ring down. My dad then offered one to Andrew. Andrew of course accepted it... so my dad ended up with Andrew." "Why did your dad offer Andrew the ring in the first place if he loved Robert more?" "Because my dad loved Andrew. Even if it was not as much as Robert, my dad loved him. My dad also wanted to be with someone. He was lonely especially after Robert turned him down. It might have been a mistake but it was an understandable one." "Yep... it was," Philip agreed. He could see how it related to himself... jumping from Trevor to Nathan but in his case Philip already felt he loved Nathan more. The feelings were clearer...felt more right. The two of them remained embraced in silence for a little longer until Philip came up with another question. "Why did Andrew agree to let Robert live in the same house as he and your dad? He knew how dad felt about Robert." "I don't know. I used to think that uncle Andrew felt confident about his hold on dad but now I know that he never felt he had a secure place in my father's heart." "So what do you think why he allowed it now?" Philip asked, "I guess... I guess that he knew that if he didn't let my dad keep Robert in his life there was a higher chance of my dad leaving him." "That makes sense." "Yeah but it's all over now. Andrew pushed my dad into making a choice between him and Robert and he lost. If Greg had not been forced to leave then I would say that everything is turning out for the better." "But he is gone." "Yes... but he will be over every other week if his mom has any say about it." "His mom?" "Greg's mom...aunt Jessica," Nathan explained. "God's reason for homosexuality uncle Andrew would say." "Is shy ugly?" "Well... she has gain weight over the years but back when I was a lot younger she was a very pretty woman. It is her tongue that is a little hard to take. I understand why Greg has always been a little timid. You can just say hello and she will tell you how rude you were for not saying it fast enough, or clearly enough, or not in a masculine manner." "Damn ... why did Andrew marry her then?" "A marriage of convenience... her father and his father both worked at the same law firm. Her father was leaving the firm and his dad wanted her father's clients. Her father also wanted to marry his daughter off to some one who could take care of her financially. Andrew's dad offered his son and a deal was struck. She was given the choice of marrying Andrew or being financially cut off. Andrew was offered a place at the firm and some of the clients his father would get from the deal. Financial security can be very sexy for people used to a certain lifestyle." "So they married each other for the money." "Yep." "So... how did Andrew decide he was gay?" "My dad... Andrew fell in love with my dad. The two of them worked together at the same law firm so they saw each other daily." "You dad is cute." "Well back then he was adorable according to Robert and Andrew." "So Andrew fell in love with your dad." "Yep... he even pretended to be drunk as an excuse to try to seduce my dad but dad didn't take it too well." "What happened?" "My dad tried to kill himself." "Dang... he was that deep in the closet?" "Yes... around mom and me dad tried to act happy. I never knew about his suicide attempt until I was older when dad gave me a talk about coming to him if I ever felt sad. Mom though was hurt by it, as dad never told her about his feelings. Dad left the firm he was working at so he would not have to see Andrew as much. That was when everything changed." "How so?" "The new firm my dad went to turned out to be the same place where uncle Robert worked. It took a little while but they eventually found out whom each other really were. Dad invited Robert to his house for Thanksgiving... that was the first time I met Robert." "And...?" Philip grinned. "And I was impressed. Robert and Dad seemed to really like each other. I even found them sleeping in the same bed. Not having sex mine you but snuggled up to each other. Mom also noticed how happy Robert made my dad and that made her happy." "Not jealous?" "Nope... Mom and dad love each other but in a more platonic way. Both of them wanted the other to be happy. Mom saw that Robert made my dad happy in ways she couldn't. For that reason she loves Robert almost as much as my dad." "So I guess she doesn't like Andrew." "I guess. When I go see mom she never asks about him unless I bring him up. She only asks about dad and uncle Robert otherwise." "So I guess she will be happy that your dad and Robert are back together?" "I think so but I will leave it to dad to tell her the news. Except for Greg and David I never talk about this with anyone. We are learning a lot about each other today." "Yep... and I would like to thank you for trusting me," Philip said before kissing Nathan's chin. "You're welcome. I would like to thank you for listening," Nathan said before returning the kiss. This was followed by more kisses and a few gropes. "We better stop before we start something we would have to finish," Philip said. "Yeah... I guess we better," Nathan agreed... as he got out of the bed. "You don't have to go." Philip said as he tried to catch Nathan's hand. "I'll be back. I just think I better be dressed when dad comes home." "What... do you think your dad would be angry if he caught us in bed only in our underwear." "He would not be angry... more like shocked." "Why... does he think you're straight?" "Well no... I told him I think I might be bi but..." Nathan hesitated. "Yes?" "I want him to think I'm still a virgin." "You are still a virgin as far as I know." "Not any more. Not after what we just did." "I just sucked you off and you gave me a hand job." "That's sex," Nathan stressed. "No it's not... now if I had fucked you or you me then that would have been sex." "They call oral sex, oral s-e-x for a reason." "Not according to most college students and one U.S. president. Unless you have intercourse... it is not sex," Philip said as he stood up. "But..." Nathan wanted to protest. "No buts... I don't want you worrying about disappointing your dad. We fooled around, made each other feel good but it was not sex... love making yes... but not sex." "Love making... I like that." "Thanks... I had a feeling you would like that term better then just plain sex. It also covers a lot more activities." "Such as?" Nathan said as Philip drew in closer. "Well love making can be fucking each other up the ass but it can also be as simple as a kiss," Philip explained before kissing Nathan lightly on the lips. "That's nice," Nathan smiled "It can also be me just holding your hand," Philip continued as he took Nathan's hands in his. "Ok," Nathan said as he gave Philip's hands a squeeze. "We can also make a dance into love making," Philip finished as he began to waltz Nathan around the room. It was right when he was lower Nathan into a dip that the bedroom door opened." "What the fuck!" David's voice filled the room. "Shit!" Nathan's cussed for the first time in the earshot of other people. "Hey David," Philip said cheerfully. David just stood there, his face getting redder by the moment. Nathan made to walk toward him but David shook a warning finger at him before leaving the room. Nathan followed after him only to have the door to the room they shared slammed in his face. ******************************************************* This was a long chp but necessary to bring out a lot of background info. How will things work out between Davidand Nathan will be in the next chp. Until then... keep on reading. JMH trandar2002@yahoo.com